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"brandy halladay" Discussed on ESPN Chicago 1000 - WMVP
"And your family and extended family as well but this story when when you decided to kind of put this thing together and really kind of do a deep dive into the type of complexities involved in right Halliday's life what stood out to you the most but none of those two guys as well yeah it's definitely the most is how you know even many of those folks who don't close close friends about how they didn't really know a lot of these private details for somebody who who really did leave intensely private life there's only a handful of people who understood the nature of what he was going through with respect to his battles with addiction his battles with depression and anxiety R. N. chief among them was his wife brandy who was kind enough to sit down and speak with us extensively it aired last night on ESPN after seeing the the full product John what did you think of how it was done well what all right you know users like so the sixty yeah well to clear forces behind the television side of things and you know major kudos to both of those guys I was really happy with how it came about and nothing to respond to them you know overwhelmingly positive M. the most significant thing that I can share with you is that after and I got a really nice a message from brandy Halladay and also voice data and and that made us feel pretty damn good it's just not you we had to walk a line between you know quote goal as journalists four honestly about frankly some pretty difficult stuff into the alley the situation how it was once he was found had a combination of medications at a system which currently is one of those medications in the system so in the end and that's part of the story but similarly if it's part of the story that you know brandy Halladay had had a strong message to deliver that you no matter who you are about your station in life are you should be able to ask for help and you should never be charged for asking for help and we certainly shouldn't judge how they because he humbled himself and sought in patient drug treatment on a few occasions we should never judge somebody for going to psychiatrists to deal with the mental health issues that they deal with day to day and you know hello hold to remove the stigma surrounding some of these issues and a lot of feedback that I'm getting today suggests that she accomplished that and and I think that's all to the good John Barr joining us here on game day on ESPN radio to discuss Roy Halladay and the E. sixty and of course the story on ESPN dot com and yesterday was the anniversary of his perfect game against the Marlins in Miami and of course he pitched a no hitter as well in the post season but you know in the story obviously both on television and in your written piece China talks about his addiction to pain killers do we know where that all began well how it begins well working that offseason after the two thousand twelve street he was severely ill he was our second back to three weeks yeah severe flu like symptoms and she confronted them and said you know what's going on need to go to a doctor and it was gone she says that he you know investor I guess is the best way to prove that he's been taking the prescription pain medication to prince to claim starting in two thousand twelve he told thanks for a long time tracks are that he received those Michelin from a doctor in Florida was introduced to them by police told me that rarely does that that doctor I want what we're selling a poster board change for cash on another one point she even confronted Dr not put an end to that practice so it is starting at two thousand twelve season but then continue they continue the two thousand thirteen he also dealt with injuries and it was then he learned that ma'am two members of the Phillies one of the big call can look a fellow creature approached one of the and according to former pitching coach which do they have somebody who respects tremendously close I approached him to talk to him about his truck so this is all transpiring before our eyes is closed years in Philadelphia and we just didn't pick up on John is you prepared for this story navigated through it conducted your interviews what was one thing that you learned about Roy that really surprised you during your process well I was really surprised by how much I'm sorry that was not it was it was good it back to the earliest days and following up with you talked about how she was like laser focused on those things at cemex have a million stories about how you know you didn't even think about approaching in Minnesota thank you for starters but in a gossip what perhaps with him if this guy was just in the song if you were such a creature of habit and you don't even you don't doubt township on those days the crash but on the night before H. you know you could swing it takes between medication someone up before we start you know outside the projected the image of another store of course somebody who projected nothing but confidence but inside the guy was dying and and I'll tell you that thanks the consequence in that spotlight job of information and culture even more impressive when you think about all of the stuff we had to deal with the trolley and overcome John Barr joining us here on game day on ESPN radio makes you check out this story on ESPN dot com and of course the repairs of east sixty as well John thank you so much for the time take care thanks John thanks so much guys like that you too there is this John Barr joining is there and again worth checking out on the ESPN app or ESPN plus if you haven't got a chance to see that you sixty this segment run to you by Barbasol shaving cream choose Barbasol shaving cream for at the glad they're in close comfortable shave close shave America close shave Barbasol yet look Katie he is a tragic story look there are many tragic stories certainly in in sports we we've seen them and and pain addiction is something that I don't think enough people talk about mental illnesses things are things that people don't talk about enough I I in the NFL we were just talking you and I about the NFL bread for for kind of brought that to light right where that was something he talked about his pain addiction and his pain pill addiction and you know I I just don't think enough people focus on stuff that these guys are going through they just think all you make millions of dollars in your life has to be perfect well look we're all human right we all have things that we deal with the demons that we deal with no absolutely and and you know it makes me think of somebody like Andrew luck not that he has a pain addiction or anxiety or anything like that but just the fact that what these guys put their bodies through on a day to day and when you have such a long career like awry holiday dead I just can't imagine the wear and tear you feel and to want to be able to perform at your best because right all these guys are ultra competitive that's what got them to the top of their game so you want to be able to compete at that level always but in order to do so you have to turn to medication and different things to help you do that when you're not feeling your best and so I just find it so fascinating from the out side nobody really knew that this was going on with Roy holiday but if you close people that John mentioned being branded his wife and their financial adviser who became a best friend and confidante of them I just it's so hard to wrap your head around what people are dealing with behind closed doors and it makes you wonder if Roy holiday who was this still a guy who was performing still extremely well off the top of his sport and of his career what's going on with other people who are doing the same thing that are still competing and and a very high level what kind of demons are they fighting so it just it makes you wonder for me at least personally you know what other people are going through to be able to be the best in their sport and hopefully people continue to talk about these things more so it doesn't seem like always gonna be hush hush or you can feel embarrassed having these conversations hopefully it becomes more mainstream and modern day and people feel comfortable talking about their issues their problems their addictions and then they feel comfortable going to people to seek help and advice because I think that's when you're gonna see things change for a lot of people when it becomes more mainstream and people are comfortable talking about it because then they'll feel more comfortable asking for help yeah well said I don't think there's any doubt and look just to even kind of expand that your thoughts about understanding people right it's kind of how we started the show talking about the current climate in the country and things that are happening in all the protests and some of the violence that's going on and understanding right it is I think at a very fundamental level the most important thing and whether it's you know pain addiction or mental health or what our own communities deal with right I think understanding needs to be the most fundamental thing that we deal with understanding empathy listening to each other and really educating each other educating each other and understanding what other people are going through whether that's interpersonal stuff or stuff that happens within specific communities I think all that stuff is related in it it all boils back to the one thing you said which is really trying our best to understand each other and having that common ground in that respect when the educational aspect of it is so important and I'm glad you mentioned that like what's going on around the country right now in different cities in my hometown of Louisville Kentucky I mean the downtown is being torn apart right now I just got an alert that we have a mandatory curfew at nine o'clock tonight because of the protests that began peaceful and for the right reasons that have turned very destructive and dangerous seven people were shot on Friday not police related but just within the protest and so it it's become a dangerous situation for many people but for me personally I've tried to use this as an educational moment for myself of where other people are coming from what have they gone through to get them to a point of such frustration that it does turn destructive or eight turns to violence I'm trying to educate myself in this moment and I think the first step to that is understanding that you don't know enough about a topic you don't understand which is the word that you and I have continued to use and then being willing to be educated on a topic that you were unfamiliar with and I think that that's really important so that's is personally for me being in the city and the protest being you know rapid right now I'm just trying to learn as much as I can about the situation and where we are in in hopes that we can pave a better way moving forward yeah and then again listen to people right as as you pointed out and and listen to those who are telling you what they're going through we just had Marc spears on last hour right and will he not only is telling you what's happening but also why it's happening and it's very real and I understand we all we all have our own silos as communities in families but I think this is a time to really reassess where we are as a society or even individual communities so we will certainly have more on that as Josh Okogie of the Minnesota Timberwolves join Spain in company we will hear that or part of that interview at three o'clock eastern noon Pacific it was just really powerful stuff so if you really want to understand we'll have that for you coming up in a little bit but coming up next this insider says that B. 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"brandy halladay" Discussed on ESPN Chicago 1000 - WMVP
"League and couldn't stay with the same with his teammates and a lot of the town and told me just a moment that I just will never forget he said I wondered if it was all worth this is the sporting life on ESPN radio in the E. S. P. N. S. welcome to another edition of the sporting life later in the show will be speaking to the co author of a new memoir by Willie Mays will be speaking Willie Mays will be speaking to his co author John Shea about the new book he's written with maze twenty four but before that we're going to talk about another baseball hall of Famer Friday night on east sixty on E. S. P. N. a new show premiered in perfect the Roy Halladay story reported by my colleague and friend and frequent guest here on the sporting life John Barr and John is gonna join us now to talk about Roy Halladay in the reporting for this extraordinary show John thank you for being with us happy to be here Jeremy thank you John you know what Halliday was one of those players in baseball history who who was bigger than just his numbers in kind of the way the Willie Mays was too there was this aura about him he was he was tough he was he was somebody who seem to represent all of the competitive traits you would want in a top level professional athlete but who was he as a man well that's that's really the the central theme of our story there were two Roy Halladay's there was the holiday there were there was a rally that was projected to the world this stork workhorse who who's gonna work ethic was the stuff of legend in baseball circles and then there was the Roy Halladay away from the baseball field and you know much of our story is driven by a candidate a far reaching interview with brandy Halladay Roy's widow and she shared with us in detail how we struggled with pain and addiction he had two separate stints in inpatient drug treatment she also shared with us how we struggle with mental health issues he's struggled with depression and anxiety attention deficit disorder and this is something that that you know some of those issues traced back to Royce childhood as his early struggles as a professional athlete but they continue to do he it's W. continue to battle right up until the time of his death in November of two thousand seventeen so that's really the crux of what this story is about it's it's the Roy Halladay we never knew as you put it in the show and again it's imperfect reality story which premiered Friday nights you say that when he comes we gets back to the majors in two thousand one after having been down in the minors after kind of a disastrous start to his major league career ninety eight ninety nine two thousand he's he's a different person that refresh your memory who who was Roy Halladay in those first few years this major leaguer what kind of pitcher was waving a bottle in the second star he was one eight one out removed from the no hitter in his second start as a trauma blue Jay but he in the year two thousand as your reference he had an absolutely disastrous year his ten point six forty RNA over the course of the two thousand season remains the highest ERA in Major League Baseball history for any pitcher with at least fifty innings so think about that for a moment this is a guy who carved out a hall of fame career from two thousand to two thousand eleven he was amazing you know he led the major leagues in wins again complete games and shutouts but during that two thousand season he was just awful and the jays frankly didn't know what to do with them I mean the guy was a first round pick so they set up all the way down to class able and that's where we had to reinvent himself he's from a baseball standpoint he lowered his arm slot from about he was too over the top but his delivery and hitters were just taking off on his fastball in particular because they were picking the ball out of his hand too easily so your orders arm slide down to about two o'clock and I added some devastating movement to his fastball it would break away from right handed hitters goes down into the zone and I was really is bread and butter pitch he had a number of great catches both but that was his bread and butter that's what he did from a baseball standpoint but from a from a psychological standpoint you know the story's been op re told of how brandy I went out one night when Roy was really at an all time low and picked up a copy of Harvey Dorfman's the mental ABC's of pitching and she credits that book was saving his career really save their marriage I didn't know that I I knew Harvey Dorfman well he was he was interesting guy who worked with a lot of athletes who were having you shoes I met him doing a story about guys with Steve Blass syndrome and how I think you treated mark Wohlers among others fascinating fascinating guy no longer with us we're speaking with John bar about his new east sixty one hour special in perfect the Roy Halladay's story in one of the things that struck me Alex Rodriguez is one of the voices in the show and he calls Halliday in the show correct if I'm wrong Jon one of the five best starting pitchers in baseball history if you were going to need all time all star team Alex Rodriguez who knows baseball would would put a holiday I mean maybe that's hyperbole but that's how that's how good he was I mean it for a full decade he was I mean he was as Alex puts it I think in these words the epitome of a starting pitcher yeah look I mean from two thousand to two thousand eleven he had thirty more complete games than his next closest competitor of who by the way was CC Sabathia I mean that's sort of a baseball approval quote would have lacked in the field he he was dominant and you know he told unfortunately for him in you know I guess relative obscurity entrada you think about the Iraq right think about the steady diet of red Sox and Yankees batters that he had to face and yet he was still that good and so it was really it was a pivotal moment in his career and I know the hope certainly his hope and the hope of many who supported his career through the years that when he was traded to Philadelphia in late two thousand nine a team that was coming up back to back World Series appearances that he will finally be able to complete that other gaping hole that the gaping hole that existed in his resume at that point which was no postseason baseball he'd never been to the postseason of course we all know what happened it is very first postseason start he did something that was just historic he threw a no hitter only the second no hitter in postseason history that's who what how they 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"brandy halladay" Discussed on Baseball Tonight with Buster Olney
"Just now class up here and a play called day. People are not perfect. We all struggle hardware humility dedication. Imperfect people can still have perfect moment. Perfect hate that word. `perfect Mike Farrell Brian Rivera are co directors of the e sixty documentary imperfect about the late hall of Fame Pitcher. Roy halladay which airs tonight on. Espn at seven PM Eastern. Mike thanks for joining us. How you doing? I'm doing well this morning. Thank you Ryan. Thanks for joining us. Appreciate you having us. Buster is an excellent piece. It was a bracing pizza. I watched it yesterday and I I knew a lot of a lot about Roy Halladay but boy did I learned so much more especially about his career his life a time after baseball Mike just to start with. Why do you feel like brandy? Halladay chose to participate in this space. I think that her motivation to put it very simply to try to use. Roy's story to help others. We were very very sensitive to the fact that Roy is gone. We don't want to be dragging up bad memories or dirt or you know to be speaking ill of him. After he's gone it's vulnerability from Brandy with a purpose. She really wanted to make sure that. By showing the human side of Roy showing the fact that he struggled can show anyone out there that anyone can struggle even somebody that is as invincible seeming as Roy Halladay was and so really. The point is to destroy go viewers that it doesn't matter if you're you're making twenty million dollars a year and and pitching perfect games and no hitters in the playoffs or if you're just a regular person like Brian and I everyone can struggle with mental illness and addiction. And there's no shame there should be no shame in that struggle Brad. It really felt like in watching this piece. Almost an extension for her of the Hall of fame speech. She gave in Cooperstown last year. Yeah it was buster you know. That speech is something that Mike and I were kind of waiting for after we initially talked about this idea I started this conversation with Mike. You know a few weeks before the hall of fame induction happened and he and I kicked around some ideas about pursuing a story about Roy but we were really kind of stuck on this one question that we just couldn't quite answer for ourselves and this of course was was before. Brandy spoke at the hall of fame. Which was why would brandy Halladay and the rest of the holiday family where you want to do something like this with us And then we saw Randy speech at Roy's induction at Cooperstown and Mike Really sees the pond brandies line which we have in the trailer and as you know in the documentary about Roy would want people to know that even imperfect people are capable of perfect moments and that that line you know hit Mike particularly hard and he brought it to me and we started talking about it and from there we decided we felt like we had possibly a reason that Burundi had kind of the door into their lives. Open just wide enough. That there might be incentive for her to sit down and And just share her story and Roy Story With everyone else with baseball fans and with the sports community at large and and even people you know two point earlier who are not in the sports world you know have battled some of these things that Roy went through and their family went through with him. Mike sports illustrated published a piece last summer. Which suggested but didn't say definitively raise the possibility that he committed suicide and I in watching that hall of fame speech fell like brandy was answering that directly in it. Felt like that in your piece without knowing the absolute truth. Yeah it's a very sensitive subject matter certainly brandy in our interview. We did ask her about that. We didn't include included in the documentary. But we did ask her specifically that idea and she was very vehement very passionate in her. Denial that he did not commit suicide. We spoke to eye witnesses from the crash. John Bara reporters spoke with an eyewitness. Who said there was no doubt that he was trying to pull up at the end? And so you know with a situation like this. You're just never going to know for sure but from what brandy tells us. Roy was getting into a better place in his life in those final months and was was realizing that being normal is was. He was coaching his son's in baseball and was was sort of getting to a better spot with retirement. And so from from everyone. We talked to you from eye. Witnesses to Royce family. They all feel very strongly that was not the case. Of course we can never know for sure. But that's that's what they communicated to us in our conversations if I get to just add onto that and just reiterate the point that might just made you know we interviewed.
"brandy halladay" Discussed on ESPN Chicago 1000 - WMVP
"Hall of fame right hander Roy Halliday Halliday died piloting his own plane at the age of forty in two thousand and seventeen in the ten seasons from two thousand to two to two thousand eleven Halliday was the most dominant starting pitcher in baseball but after he was injured too much into the two thousand and twelve season everything started to change E. sixty in perfect premieres Friday at seven AM eastern on ESPN the job market to join this discussion here it just a second here's your sports center update the players association expects a counter MLB's economic roles no you're in you're just kind of you just got her which is the time to clear it okay you did with the threat it's been so good for life I don't know two consecutive weeks I mean I guess it was do you actually like falling off like seven straight pitches without one gurgling flam yeah it was alright yeah thank you for noticing and then speaking so I can clear it out I appreciate you guys could see message about you 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working on this story for eight months I think all of us were a little taken aback when the autopsy came out three years later it felt like on Roy Halladay's death and we learned that there were all sorts of substances in his system so we will talk to John Barr about that tomorrow is the ten year anniversary of his perfect game against the Marlins this dude was as good a pitcher as you'll find at any time throughout history in terms of dominance so John Barr joins us now thank you for joining us John what is it that attracted you to pouring eight months into this story well you know I grew up in Canada and went to high school and university in trial and then I relocated down to the next United States to work and I now happen to be in the Philly area so I kinda have that my time in Toronto was not during holidays run with the blue jays but you know obviously I follow sports teams closely and when he was traded here to Philadelphia just as a fan I I remember how excited the city was that my son was and how excited I was to watch him and you know the team was coming out back to back World Series appearances than we thought I got the three holiday week and and that amazing rotation that they had we just work would be unbeatable and they had a couple remarkable regular seasons but sadly never got to the World Series but for a holiday in a Phillies uniform and and now we know more information about just what was going on behind the scenes when his body was breaking down in two thousand twelve in two thousand thirteen his last few years with the Phillies yeah I had a more than just a professional interest I you know I I'm a fan and I have a rooting interest during his time with the Phillies and he's an easy guy to root for what kind of uncomfortable things did you learn in your reporting well you know we we first got into this story in the summer of last year Michael Mike Farrell you know super talented producer with the sixty Brian Rivera another producer of eventually got on board as well might finish the approach me with the idea of doing a story Mike Mike's a fellow Canadian and he just knew about my time in Toronto and I was in Philly thought we would be a good fit to work on the story so you know we around that time is a really extensive article that came out about Roy it was released a week prior to his induction into the hall of fame but the one glaring omission in that article they never interviewed brandy Halladay and we just thought you know this is a woman who obviously had a front row seat to a lot of ways struggles off the field and there must be a lot more there and so Mike and I went and spent a considerable amount of time with brandy we had a national meeting with her lasted more than five hours and and she just described assigned it or how that we never knew she talked about his battles with anxiety she talked about how he drank heavily in his career to try to deal with the stress of a disastrous two thousand season that almost found him out of professional baseball she talked about his use of painkillers and eventually his abuse of pain killers not so he could get high but so he could compete when his body was breaking down toward the end of his career she talked about his battles with depression attention deficit disorder and there were just so many layers to his story and and there was a side of this guy that that we in the press it and the public at large just did not know about and it serves underscores the point that there's this is tremendous gap between the athletes we see and the and the real people that they were actually actually all John Barr with us here on ESPN radio you sixties in perfectly Roy Halladay story debuts tomorrow night seven eastern on ESPN hi John how was he able to keep it a secret from so many people for so long we had a private individual and the thing that became apparent to us in our own reporting is even people who know all right holiday well did not know everything that he was dealing with and a great example of that is Chris carpenter of carpenter who was his teammate when Roy came up with the blue jays and of course he went on to have a brilliant career of his own mostly with Saint Louis and those that you know famous tool that they both had in two thousand eleven where carpenter pitched a lot of one nothing shut out and held a two hundred twenty six pitches that night but you know his friend got the better of of him on that night you know in speaking with carpenter you know he just said he didn't have any idea the extent of voice personal struggles during retirement and their careers kind of mirrored one another both of the body started breaking down around the same time they both retired around the same time and then they just sort of drifted apart and I think both of those stories are destructive in terms of the struggles professional athletes many of them go through in retirement you know you take Lloyd's personal struggles and set them aside for a moment it's just hard for these guys who who only know one thing to adjust to life after that and then bring the holidays words what was lost you know he he just did not know how to self identify as anything other than a baseball player and I think that fed into his depression and and then you just compound that by all of the other issues he had with respect to chronic pain and yeah he went through some really dark periods in retirement you answered this and you spent eight months trying to get the answer to this and it will air tomorrow night at seven PM on ESPN the right holiday story but John bar broad question what happened well in terms of his death do you mean end of the day he passed it in the in the bigger picture the roots the roots all of it wow well there's a lot you know he grew up in Colorado in a suburb of Denver and as a very young boy it was really pushed by his father's father bottom basement nearly seventy feet long so we can install a full length pitching mound down there and was in that basement according to family members that those legendary work that legendary work ethic was forged in in three to four hours a day workouts there's division within the family as to whether he was pushed too hard too young that's not necessarily something we explore in depth in the television presentation it's something we touch on more in it in a text piece that I wrote for ESPN but a lot of people point to that as sort of the roots of Louise bags IT and not wanting to disappoint others at but at its core this is a guy who was not ever comfortable in the spotlight and he has the ultimate spotlight profession the mount when all eyes are on you and you know then you used to get into his unbelievable fire and competitive drive and in two thousand twelve when his body started to fail him he essentially was pitching with a broken back those years he had pars fractures in his back which which are stress fractures and because of his back issues that lead to solutions but because of the way he was wired he was hell bent on competing and he did whatever he could to get out on the mountain that's we started using prescription pain pills and like so many people who start down that path you know those drugs got the better of them and he.