27 Burst results for "Yosef"
The Hinterkaifeck Slaughter
"On april fifth nineteen seventy two munich detective georg rind gruber arrived at hinder kaifaqu farm to a gruesome scene. Sixty four year old. Andreas gruber seventy two year. Old wife chillier there. Thirty five year old daughter victoria and their seven year old granddaughter to chill you. Juniors bodies were laying in the barn. They'd been bludgeoned to death. With a sharp object chillier. Juniors throat had also been slashed. The families forty four year old maid. Maria baumgartner and their two year old son yosef were found in their beds. Murdered the very same way. Detective ryan gruber suspected. It could have been a robbery turned violent between the nearby towns of grover and beethoven. There was no shortage of petty crime at hinder kayak. The gruber's often dealt with and even employed local thieves hyper inflation and unemployment was on the rise. Since the start of world war one most couldn't afford to live on legitimate wages so many resorted to desperate measures to stay alive. The gruber's couldn't be picky about their farmhands. World war one had killed thirteen percent of german men in there was a serious shortage of competent workers which could be why. The gruber's hired the bigler brothers. Anton and carl bixler had criminal pasts and were known around town as troublemakers. So in detective ryan gruber caught wind of their connection. To the gruber's they became some of his first suspects.
CIA Analyst Turned Reiki Energy Healer With Jessica Brodkin
"Well can to another podcast episode of macabre charge russia's two day we learn a little bit about reiki energy healing as modality for wellness and to connect to source hands on energy healing is an ancient healing modality. Gone as far back to end. Yeshua ben yosef was taught how to do it by his teachers in his childhood buddhist monastery. It was rediscovered in the twentieth century by japanese buddhist monk dr macau you sui whom taught it to the world today i bring former. Cia analysts jessica. Brought ken who made a career change into being a successful reiki energy healing practitioner. and with that jessica. welcome to merkava chaka's inky for having me. Oh you look real. Yes you'll live babar's you have fabulous marian hair there. We'll talk about that a little bit later so before we discuss your work and it's fascinating by the way. Can you tell us your story for how you got into this. In the first place you started off in cia. I did yes. I started off I started working there. When i was twenty two so right out of college and then i when i was twenty six. I had debilitating migraines where i would have And would have debilitating migraines and sort of pseudo seizures regularly. And i was not able to work and i passed out in front of a friend and He waved his hands over me. And i woke up and my pain was gone and i was like what are you doing. And he's like. I'm doing reiki and i'm like i have no idea what that is not see work with you at the in the cia. Okay just a friend from From high school from growing up and And i went back to this was in new york and went back to washington dc. Where i was living. I found a practitioner. And i started going to healings all the time and And that's how that's how. I became a recipient and then around nine years ago around the age of thirty. I i kind of had a breakdown again and my sister had chronic illness and she motivated me to to heal her. I sent i I sent she lived in my house. She lives in miami. So she's in miami and i I sent my healer to distance on her. And it didn't work. And i was like let me try and then i was able to do it over the phone and I found out that i was able to help her nice. And then it got all the training in the certifications but But really. When i learned i really was just And then later years later found that this that my relatives have been doing this for generations. And i had no idea what are you. Let's unpack some of this. So your sister had what was the ailment that she was having ulcerative colitis. Okay what is that again. it's It's a the colon that has shared a lot of pain so i felt motivated by her. Now she and then i just started practicing my friends who were interested. And where did you learn when i initially learned. I initially channelled which. I don't tell a lot of people that but i initially channelled and then i went. And how did you learn to channel is just come naturally. Okay so I had a mental breakdown. When i was thirty years old and i started seeing spirits in the woods where it was living and i thought it was schizophrenic and i went to the doctor and i said am i schizophrenic. And she said no She's like you're having a spiritual awakening. This is what my psychiatrist told
"The twelve days of christmas begins on christmas day. An end on january. Sixth the epiphany these days are traditionally full of charity. Peace and tradition but to those who have spent the year being naughty. This time is filled with horror for its during these twelve days that the belly splitter comes calling frown perr sta also called birsh or berta is often depicted as a rag clad old woman with a beak shaped iron knows long teeth and the cane perhaps more unsettling than the fro herself is her hyme schenn. The german word for cricket a ghostly chorus of weeping unbaptise children that follow her around on midwinter. night's much like santa claus the frau rewards those who have worked hard during the year with gifts and punishes those who have misbehaved. Her favourite victims are liars and cheats. But laziness is also particular pet peeve for example. She grows angry at those who eat meat on a pitney eve and at spinners who have not finished weaving their flax however she also hates those who work on holidays and do not partake in festivities meaning. She's a fan of work life balance work hard but not too hard. Unlike the jovial father. Christmas the froze punishment is more severe than coal in your stocking author jacob grimm of the brothers grimm rights. They tell the children on the eve of epiphany that if they are naughty bear will come and cut their bellies open but her other punishments are no less cruel. She is scraped glass across liars tongues and boiled people alive. She's also known to trample victims with her boots. The lore surrounding frau pashda is meant to encourage moral duties and social norms. Tell the truth. Abide by tradition and don't be lazy on the surface. These rules seem simple enough but the frau perfection and she is unforgiving to those who do not meet her expectations but as horrifying as this warning must be for children. Adults must follow frau perished as rules to bore suffer the consequences a stirred in her restless half-sleep alarmed by the sound of footsteps approaching her bedside. She opened her eyes but all that greeted her was a dark empty room. Moonlight spilled in from her window and a spinning wheel sat in the corner gathering dust surrounded by overflowing baskets of flax a sudden rotten odor made on a gag. It was like old meat. Scraps left out in the sun. She sniffed again cringing. What was that. She rolled over to face her husband. Yosef he was asleep all seemed well but she still felt uneasy and that smell when ana rolled onto her back. She almost screamed looming over. Her was an old woman. Her beak like metallic knows glinted in the moonlight framed by cataract cupboard is deep wrinkles and in her hand. She held a meat cleaver which she swung straight down toward on us belly on a screamed then. She sat up with a gasp. Her hands flew to her belly. But there was no bloody wound there. She looked around frantically. Yosef still slept peacefully beside her and the room was quiet. No sign of the old woman at all. It was just another dream. A horrible one on a laid back but her heart beat wildly. She'd had trouble sleeping since she lost her. Little vince oil. Actually she'd had trouble doing anything since last christmas when she leaned over his cradle to find his face blue and his body limp. She glanced at their closet door which was slightly ajar inside. their party. Attire was gathering dust. These celebrations had once felt so important but now revelry disgusted. Her smiling was a rarity and when she did smile. It was always followed by an overwhelming wave of guilt.
"yosef" Discussed on Bachelor Party
"Talk about quick. What specifically potent insult it is to tell someone I don't want you to be the mother to my daughter. Thing you could say, right what Joseph said that her face went from because the the great thing about the Yosef and Clare Scene was that. She spent a lot of the initial time in bewilderment. which I love no watching it there's no better into Washington bewilderment to where like also buddies face was somebody's going. Yo Is this motherfucker talking to me Like. It's just like escalating. You're like her you're like wait why like seeing the wait? What wash across the months faces wild? Wild and just ridiculously rewarding, and then they get to the point to where she saw doing like you know the white lady heave which she's like. She's incredulous and then all along the way. The white lady as well. No. So this is just give it to you right away. You. As soon as you but white ladies he for second they he. Themselves and they can't they can't and they can't do it. Right they can't do what they heave and clear he and what made her give it was. Target of seeing out that clear and that was A. Thing to say it's really really mean it. Of course if you're saying that in some kind of tired on television, of course, the point is that you Llosa are the bad example it's like you not I hate when someone's like you do not speak to a woman that way but being a woman, you don't speak to a human that way. Like the messed up thing. Like women included in humankind. So don't talk to anyone that that. He was not there the right reasons he was there for him and it was entertaining I. I will say the reason I feel like people like really reacted to this episode is because of Clare's reaction she was like because of men like. You. Yeah While she's the oldest bachelor because she didn't settle for men like that and I'm telling you. The that was I that we talk about Thor Rag Ragnarok right like anti-us about missing marble. That was a magical word. Out And del material. He popped up like, Jiminy. Cricket he all at a sudden. Decide you rang. Did You Did you say somebody was wack. Yeah, like it comes down I'll I'll show you what's going on in the rest of these guys or whatever, and so I love the entire sequence I just wish. We didn't get to talk to Yosef again. I, it was A. They have a special before the finale. It's called the mental all where they kind of get to tell her side of the story but you know I bet you save on higher learning you really want to talk to him. I bet that's possible. Tonight. That's a fucking fantastic idea. That's a fantastic idea I got. Yeah I got I. Got Joseph I gotTa Talk to you gotTa know. I gotta I gotta I have so many questions for Yosef that I need enough. I want to know what his daughter thinks that the show far. Let's move on..
"yosef" Discussed on Bachelor Party
"First of all day created their own instagram account called at dodger wives and like really into each other and then do you know The instagram handle little baby Jesus. It's like this woman she's a model I was familiar with her she's dating cody bellinger. I was just like what the fuck what a poll for cody bellinger. Cody bellinger. What are what I gotTa look her? What does she like resource? She kind of reminds me of like I don't know. She's kind of like a European I think she she south American she's Blond I. Forget what her real name is but she's a she's really pretty I've seen her on other people's instagram's I know she's in Cody bellinger and then I of course, I have to read search Corey segers fiance that he referenced and like. I. Don't know I don't see that lasting. So long to say and. To was I just felt I just feel like they they met two young and that he's like now he's world series MVP and it's like his fame and the even bigger and I, know that baseball players on the road a lot and I, just don't see it working out song as happy. I'll be honest with you though if it's one sport where it's going to work out, it's baseball theory about I disagree already go ahead I there so. So for any of my ladies out there. who wants to marry a pro athlete and you wanted to last. This is this is what you do. This, used to be I. Wish I had gotten this advice when I was younger. Okay. This is what you do. You either go baseball which you have a better shot at. The guys aren't as famous. They walk in the club. Nobody knows what they are I think they're worst. Okay. Keep going okay or or. You go and this is very solid. Pro Football. Offensive Lineman not that. Not, not. Delight. The D. Line Is Different Not Gopher D. Line but I'm telling you get you a big a loyal guy a guys loyal to his quarterback a left tackle and you and you and you hooking early you hook in. Hook, in Second Year of College, right? Not the first year because I hear he's not playing this guy working on his hand placement his feet second year when he really started you hooking then. I watch I want you to watch the next draft and NFL draft watch how many of the office of Linemen are already married intersects loyalty. That's Johnny NBA nobody in the NBA like. Players obviously will cheat on you. There's no question I know that one hundred percent no it to be true. I've seen MBA players in the club. I know how it goes Baseball players there's a ton of travel over a long period of time a lot of time away from home van a lot. That's why the dodger wag you're so interesting because they went into the bubble in there was no travel. So these guys were with their ladies I wouldn't say dodger dodger wise would be a great reality show just WANNA throw it out. Dodgers in La yes in. Dodger wives. Yeah. Yeah and it's interesting cross section. There's like some like really beautiful like L. A. Models like cody bellinger's girl, and now there's like Clayton Kershaw Wife News like a nice mother of five I mean nothing cody bellinger's will girlfriends on nights just saints covering different cloth. Okay. Anyway. What you're just saying Jason on the Bachelorette. He was the one who did the therapy date last week who like He wasn't offensive line..
"yosef" Discussed on Bachelor Party
"I'm excited to be a part of this community and I thank you guys for welcoming me Oh my God. We're so happy to have you. So you started watching co-host higher learning on the ring or Pi has network with our friend Rachel Lindsay and. It's just hilarious. Now you're like watching the bachelor because because you're supporting your co host Kinda, I gotta I gotTa I. GotTa Give Rachel. Credit for this because Rachel said after Rachel and I got to know each other a little bit Rachel Goes Hey, you know van you'd really love the bachelor. You, dig it the most and I was like the bachelorette outside. No, it's not. It's not for me and then I watched it and what a magical realm of television than existent. It's a magical mystical realm. Okay. I'm glad you up and called around because I actually was doing a call earlier with art my friend Mallory Rubin who is a in the midst of doing a binge mode marble season Mc you and I was saying like over the years Bachelor has birt has evolved into being like the MC you. It's the bachelor cinematic universe. It's like it's whole world like its own rules a fixed number of people, different phases it's very similar and. What a wild ride this week I did my first up. So this week with kinds of ESPN and we did a real sort of like breakdown of football overtones as Meena works in the Papa Space and like. There's still there was just so much to absorb and get into and like. You know I think we gotta like Revisit Yosef Steph a little bit than what was your reaction to ucf talking to Claire and like what do you think he was going for their I? Wish she will see your face right now your eyes are wide open. I was as I was watching this sitting down and I'm watching this, I'm like. Joe Yosef. Is the Rudy Giuliani of the bachelorette. That because. He's he's you know. Okay. So in I'M NOT GONNA get political people but you guys have no light in the nineties Rudy Giuliani came off as kind of like a guy who was with it who understood stuff got done and now. Only two questions that you ask when you see rules Giuliani talking one why is he saying this and to why is he saying it so loudly? And you also. I'm watching Joseph and I'm like it's not like he was screaming, but the tone it was. First of all, you can't that of said do and then secondly, no man, why are you dressing her Dow like this? She literally said she's talking and she literally goes yeah I know that because. I lost my mom..
"yosef" Discussed on Reality Steve Podcast
"It is unreal to hear the same exact story like he's got this thing down to a science almost I mean I've had someone who has been with him and. Someone just tell me like. Not. Surprised Steve like this is what he does. and. Unfortunately, you were a victim in this and. Like I told you before when you I did you know you didn't do anything wrong by posting this you probably like said, didn't realize it was going to be as big as it was just thought all your friends we're going to you know look Tiktok and giggle about it and be like Holy Shit that gon the Bachelor you know. Young out with him and Oh my God that sucks. But yeah, it turned into what it did. I I mean. I'm sorry. It happened to you and I hope that this guy never contacts you again I hope he leaves you alone and if he does, I, hope you don't respond to him. Sounds like you didn't the last time he responded to you and You know maybe more women will come forward. Maybe more women will just say like this. This is what he did wasn't acceptable and I think at this point. He's being dragged enough. So on social media that. Maybe he learned a lesson but I don't know doesn't seem like it would get through to this guy because. I don't think anything like did you did you ever get the sense? That Like I. Don't know how how deep did he ever get with you in terms of his. Daughter the relationship with his ex wife. Why the divorce happened any of that stuff like He he said straight out the Gecko like that him and his ex wife they got married young and that. He made a mistake and cheated on her. He didn't tell me when he cheated on her he didn't tell me any of that like he kind of just made it seem like. He cheated on her like after they had their daughter and that. Like he decided like he does actually WanNa be with her. But then talking to the one girl that had reached out to me she. Is from the same town as that that he is she is knows his ex wife she knows him. and. She said that he cheated on her when she was pregnant right after she had the baby like it wasn't a one time mistake thing and that you've seen. Like he was having an affair with another woman and then. Decided that he was gonNA leave his like ex wife right after she had had their daughter. Which is why? What we watched on this week's episode is just so hypocritical and so lacking any awareness to go off on. Clare when you are much shittier individual than Clare could ever be Sorry Dude you've been exposed and. I think that if You know when I was told about when he was first released as a contestant back in March and I was told about this and told about the ex wife and what really happened. I was like I wonder if the ex wife is GonNa talk I, wonder if she's GonNa say something or. You know I didn't I never went to the ex wife I never. I don't think maybe you know what? Maybe I did send instagram but I never heard from her and I was like, okay well, that's fine I'm not going to. Because now, my situation is look. I need to see what happens to these guys on the show. He might be irrelevant it might not even be important. But. I did see that the ex wife has recently gotten remarried. So I didn't think that she was going to be opened trashing her daughter's. Father but. Yeah I know that she is remarried and she is expecting a baby so I think that like. She has no reason to get involved in this. Yeah, and like she has dealt with so much like from him I think this is the loss thing that she wants to deal with honestly just feel so bad because. She has to carry like his way and then her way and then. She's going to have to explain all of this to her daughter one day and. I, he does not understand that will the other thing is. The fact that he's a I mean I don't know if you WANNA give him I don't know some sort of points for honesty with you about it but. Let's face it. You were a girl. He just met in September and started talking to it's September this is. I get that when you start a new relationship, you Kinda Wanna be open and you kind of want to tell people things. But to openly admit that to you and to this other girl that means we know that he has no problem. Telling the world like and trust me when I found out about him back in March. I heard that story from like five different people like Steve Everybody knows Yosef and the X. Y. Everybody. But a lot of people are well aware of Yosef in the ex wife and why they got divorced and I was like, okay well, seems to be A. Common. Stories of people knew and then to hear you say it to hear this other girl that he just you know booked a trip for on October fourth to go see he's telling her the exact same thing it's like Where's this goes tact? I think every girl that has reached out to me has told me asked me if I knew the story and told me the story. So it's definitely one of the things he says and I think that maybe his mindset is well if I tell them this from the Gecko, they'll think like, oh, wow, like he really did. He really is like. Trying to move on and be honest and open with you but. Yeah they're really not tells story everyone he tells the story to everybody and he uses it almost as a trap. Like you said, Oh look at me, I've matured yet I was me back in the day and I think the line he uses a lot we got we got married young and it just wasn't smart but yeah, you can get married young doesn't mean you have to cheat so or not having a fair So you know, it's whatever. I think it's just we clearly see his game now because of you. And because of your Tiktok, that went viral that you didn't expect. I. Appreciate You Sharing Your Story and I appreciate you providing. All the stuff that we needed to provide for this particular PODCAST and you know it's more than the three minutes that you provided on Tiktok for sure and it's almost an hour conversation because I wanted to lay it out there and tell everybody this is how it started. This was the weekend together. This is what he did this. These were his actions..
"yosef" Discussed on Reality Steve Podcast
"Were interested in each other we should meet I'll come see you or you come see him and ended up obviously being him coming to see you for a weekend but. How? How far into you guys starting talking? Did that get brought up? And who initiated. So. Action I they were talking he was making comments about like me going to Alabama till go hiking and stuff like Alabama because that's something I'd like to do is like go hiking and be outdoors and he's like Oh. There's plenty of cool places like in Alabama on stuff. So he was talking about that like literally the first day we. Started messaging me and then from there were talking like maybe two or three days in his leg. Honestly like I'm good I wanNA plan a trip. Come down just for a weekend just to me and like all that and I was like okay are like if if you want like you can like just get a hotel in like we can do something that weekend and and everything he's like okay. So then he planned it like the first of the next available weekend that he was coming down but before the show aired. which was The night to eleventh. So the show started on the thirteenth. So it was basically the weekend before the show started. Okay at what point before you knew. Okay before he was coming down. Was it known that like the like when you knew he was coming whenever it was booked I don't know what data was booked. I don't think it really matters. But when it was booked and you knew he was coming to town. Was it known in your head that this was you guys were into each other this was something that you were taking. seriously. If you were taking it seriously with this was a romantic or you were having him come to town to see if there was something romantic there. So. Like at the point where he was coming like we both said that we weren't talking to other people when we were interesting other people, you're just kinda trying to see where this could go just the two of us like we've talked. About what dating would be like with us having daughters and things like that. He talked like about if I wanted to live in Florida like forever like he could move to Pensacola but that's as far as he could move because hit does have his daughter and stuff like that. And we talked about things like that. So I mean to me I thought it was pretty serious them. We both said, we weren't talking to other people and that we were really just focusing on pursuing each other. Ended up. A lot of bullshit but. He mentioned I can only move as far as Pensacola. He's in the Mobile Alabama area. How far is the drive from mobile to? Tampa. At seven hours. Okay So. Let's just get to the weekend. He comes out he drives out on Friday November ninth he gets to the hotel I'm assuming you. He's here you meet him there. What happened on Friday? So. He got here like kind of late like eight nine o'clock. So we ended up just going and to like a bar that in the town that he was staying in and he ended up getting a couple of drinks I was just hanging out, and then we we went next door to the other bar. He got some food, and then he asked if I wanted to go back with him to the hotel to hang out and we could watch a movie or something and I said, sure. And That night How much did he have to drink? When by the time we met he was already like for four bourbons deep. In. From there. Yeah, and then he had a few more at the bar like two or three more. Would you say it was like he was able to handle it or he was just like totally sloppy drunk. He was he was sloppy, but at the same time like. He was. Not Falling all over the place like throwing up but. Like. He was like sloppy and just like his actions in. Thanks. He was doing what? What? Like he was just like. I'm not a confrontational person and he had told me previously he's just very confrontational and like just like stupid things about like speaking loudly about like fengs in just like. Not Wanting to put on a mask and super things like that like just little things as like okay. Like don't do that like. PUT, the mass onto walk into the restaurant like it's not that big of a deal. Yosef admitting he's confrontational. No Way. Never saw that coming. And Talking about not putting on a mask. Great. Joseph. Good good. One. Okay so Friday happens. What happens at the I mean do you do you say with him Friday night? No. So I just went back to the hotel for like a few hours and then I, ended up leaving and coming back on. Then you came back home on Friday. On Saturday morning probably by the time he got home. Yeah and then what happens on? So I'm assuming he i. mean he came to. Your town to see you to stay with to. Stay with you. But to see you to see to spend a weekend with you, Saturday comes around after you had spent most of Friday night with him what happens on Saturday? So actually end up calling my best right now. Honestly, like I don't know that I WANNA go like. A really didn't go like how I thought it was going to go like my accent, my expectations were not met all but then I feel bad because he came all this way like to meet me and stuff and she was just like I think you should go out and give them another chance and if it's going poorly like just go home in the middle like the middle of it like you can text me, I'll call you or something like that to leave so like So. Then we ended up going to the beach on. Saturday morning, and then we hung out the beach for a couple of hours and then we ended up just leaving in going to lunch, and then after lunch we went back to his hotel. We're just hanging out again like. Just talking like messing around and then I had to go back home to my daughter and I told him that it could come back later that evening. Around like eight or nine, depending on what time my daughter went down and things like that, and he said okay. Take a break real quick..
"yosef" Discussed on QUEERY with Cameron Esposito
"Nobody spoke about it, and then I come to Sweden is like nobody has sex but everybody talks gay rights and he's like what? Is this like it's it's it's more. It's more of a theoretical existence than actually like a practical one and I thought it was such a fun kind of approach to it. Also, I mean very different one from what we won't be also. In a way are free to kind of do I. Mean I wouldn't change anything what I can do here and now. The same thing back in Sweden I mean I could never live this way at least not now in Syria and not this openly signing it's it's also it's also. Thanks to time and place I mean I can speak like this of that. I mean some of what you're talking about is also the sort of inherent sexiness that comes with taboo rightly because in all of our sexualities apart of it is. Would it be taboo and then how to be like but up against that, you know that's like That's always part of it and so. I had the experience of when I first came out I was in college and I could not come out at the college that I was at and I will just say that like nothing I'm not looking at it and go like so have that experience because it's the hottest sexy ever have but it's more so just that. Lake. Over time as sex became part of. Just humanity like as it wasn't constantly sobbing after. As Part of integrated into my life it's it makes it You know nuances like nuances difficult like if you can just have sex, but sometimes you're tired if it's not like if the motivation did isn't like I've got to do this now because I'll never have this. If it's just like, no, we live together and it's kind of safe and fine. That creates a whole other experience with sex where it's an and I. Think it's I think that's of his is. Definitely stuff we don't talk about a lot. Because I think as a community, we don't ever want to hold up oppression as positive right nobody wants to be like. So we should go back in time, but it's just an interesting thing to have to walk through in your life. There's a time when everything's like you know very sexy and off the table and there's a time when things are just kind of real and like you know people are. Whatever people are sick people need nyquil it's like it's the it's the. It's the more normalized version of things. Yes. A very different experience with with sex. Toys. Also want to ask you a question. And, we're in this actually our last question so. Good news to get one. so that you just said I would love to hear from you. You were talking about the gray scale. Of Your own sexuality and. I don't. Drive me nuts is that oftentimes when we speak like this is like Meta large large scope stuff talk about You know if there if there is a conversation lead, there is a binary between men and women although we know that that's not necessarily true in terms of gender. But when we talk about women we talk about a fluidity of sexuality or like A. Haziness different phases of life, and obviously we never talk about that with game on it's like a much more site load. Identity and I just heard you say something that felt a little bit like that when you're talking about the gray scale and is that what you mean is that what you're talking about like not necessarily having to claim An identity that means you're always one thing in every situation but I think I think this is the kind of thing of fluid at the I mean, I speak I think. I mean, we we can go into Freud whole Shebang I mean it's it's you can go as deep as you like what specific is sexuality and I feel sexuality itself is almost more complex than than speaking of like a form of duality in person or or being able to to you know. Being fluid and leg. Be This can be Swedish I can be Arab I can be I can be a gay man I can I. Can Seduce a woman if I I mean there's I think there's a fine line in in in trying to understand sexuality, and this is also why speak of a gray scale because it is I still don't fully understand it. And I think in in in accepting that fact, I also. Think like humbly try to be like I am a gay man out of experience but I don't necessarily believe that I have to be for the rest of my life is super attracted to women if I've been sexually attracted to him in not. But but there has been points where I've felt like this could maybe become something. So so I mean. I don't know if that's answering questions rate. But like yeah, made now it's good. It's it's a really good. I. Thought that was I think that's like a very helpful an awesome way to. we'd end the conversation. Yeah. The final thing I WANNA do before you go back into your life and your birthday week is ask you to shout out Queiro and that is a person place or thing that made you feel like you could be who you are today can be. Anybody or anything that opened your are. I mean. It's probably the most stereotypical gay thing but I will claim it. It's it's a I would say Thomas Finland which is Actually we've never had. Never had I. Don't know why that is. We just haven't, I. Feel like maybe that would have been the most typical thing to say it's I mean it's it's it's it's pretty juvenile experience I mean I was I was a kid I remember heads liked had found this like straight porn mag from somewhere and I was like just just browse. Let's go through the pages and I was like. WHO's this tiny tiny little ad? For light atomic film book or something that was like a Thomas. Philip. Figuring like, Christmas. Like Santa Claus outfit putting booed on I. Tell You..
"yosef" Discussed on QUEERY with Cameron Esposito
"I was like. What are you talking about? Like? That's Matt anything because she was she would have a laugh every like ten to fifteen seconds. Oh people were people were anyway. It's very specific and anyway It's still is one of the most difficult places to perform because. Everybody's so. I hadn't thought that Lake Visual Art would have I sometimes I get jealous a musician you could play anywhere in everyone would love it because they don't have to get the joke but like visual arts, very interesting to hear that there is a huge culture clash but mean, also I speak tools for like my I mean, my sister, who's who's like perfectly, Lake American. Also my publicist here and I always like when I described my work speak of materiality a lot. I mean I I kinda go deep into the process of painting because there's also like what I Do I mean it's I I am a painter but more than that I kind of worked around the concept of painting as I'd like to reveal and work with materials of the paint and painting that you would normally expect to see whether it's stretcher frame or or the choice of medium I mean if it's all pain compared to acrylic paint, which is kind of plastic or So I mean I kind of engulf myself in this conversation where I use material as like a focal point in discussing anything whether it's belonging or politics or any form IMP in portrayal. And I remember my publicist here would say like, but you know what? It's actually it's the most Europeans you is. You don't really speak of materiality like that at all in America like you speak in different kinds of terms lake, you kind of bring. Remember what it was, but she she she just pointed racialism I. No. No. I wouldn't say that is not going to go that route. But like it's It's it's like one of those. She just felt it was so perfectly like a European. Standard of like meticulously discussing finer details in something and I just think. But this I haven't really thought of it. This is this is my practice. This is what it's based on this hour portray things and she said jets not language that translates so much in America we can use this word who that word instead still say the same thing, but it's just not. and. It's it's I. Mean it's Super Interesting I mean I still think it's great. I mean learning so much. By being here and and learning. This is what I mean also, and I'm thinking of grander scales and bigger shows and bigger things. Also I mean I think it's like a it's like a gift of a of of this country teaching me to to think. Larger or bigger or actually almost larger than myself because. My art is very much personal experience in in a way very self reflective and now rather than. Almost constantly looking inwards almost looking outwards and I think that's that's that's a great thing I think it's a good thing in it. Also comparing with Ricky I mean he's a pop art is with huge crowds i. mean that that also gives me a former perspective of yeah. I work in a completely different field, but it can also be grand scaled. Doesn't always have to be, but it could be and I think I. Think it's a again. I'm like being positive about this. About this. Is I mean there are benefits in it that that like trying to understand rather them be like, I don't Wanna I don't WanNa pay big or whatever with your kind of commercialized ideas of things. But. I'm also curious than how your identity is spoken about in different cultures as it relates to your work like if you're doing an interview here in the US versus somewhere else do people. Everybody. Always bring up that you're a gay man. Do you always bring up the era gay man like how much? How much of that is spoken about when you're in the visual arts because for me it's just like there's it's it's all part of the whole same thing. Curious. Actually, sites really interesting. Question I mean I feel I feel in Sweden I. Mean I did like this a bunch of interviews with my last show there I mean. And, and the questions were more related to me being an immigrant also because I'm from Sweden in an immigrant in Sweden and the question of being gay was never brought up ever I mean may be like, my my my my relation to ricky and my marriage to ricky but it wasn't like they wouldn't contextualized around around my practice in my home sexuality so much more so than my. my kind of my background as a as a foreigner or an immigrant. Here in America it is. I mean it is more of a subject I feel like it's it's. America's also lot more polarized. I mean it's it's. It's you kind of look at things black and white. You know it's it's GonNa. Be I mean to be fully frank I, believe in a gray scale and everything? I. Mean I am a gay man and I claim it also because. Never slept with a woman. And I don't really have that interest, but also I don't. WanNa. I WANNA I WANNA look at sexuality as a gray scale rather than black and white rather than you are. Oh, you are not i. mean sex six dollars extremely complex and it can be rooted in so many different experiences. And and. Thoughts and frame of mind, and I can sometimes even feel that that. Gay Men can also can be forced into that box even though they can. They could maybe be a little bit in between. An NFL that's more so here in America where you have to claim that that sexuality and you have to kind of. Known it and become it whilst I think from I mean when I say. From where I come from not really representing all of Sweden definitely not Syria you know it's it's it's. It's actually give you a really fun example had a great Palestinian friend. Who came to Sweden and he had this perfect like Middle Eastern? Gay Experience where like since he was like thirteen like all these like gay sex relations with very closeted friends and gay men, and then he moved to he was in Palestine and then moved to Jordan and he had the same thing there, and then he was into Emirates in like like he was just having sex left to right like so much but nobody ever spoke about it. And when it came to Sweden, he was like finally I can be gay and be open and do everything I want to do. And he was late joining. It's so Syria Lake in the Middle East I was being the gates I could be I was having sex more than anybody could have sex. But..
"yosef" Discussed on QUEERY with Cameron Esposito
"Stage as he doesn't back, which is wonderful. I mean you know that answered anything but yeah. I mean it did I think that? I think I'm working on is I think I think for me I had sort of Gooney. Of looking when I was younger and I. Shifted my value over to my accomplishments and like really tried to achieve and something that I've been working on in like the last two years is. Shifting away from Lake. I. Mean. This is just this is just to say it's this. This is I'm I'm just contemplating this. We don't know if it'll ever happen but like what if my value was not based on how I look? Also not based in what I do, and that is something that I have been trying to wrestle with is like wait what values just inherent and I don't have to work on it because I think that's something that I ended up doing because I got like. So into the spy of like, okay. Well, why can prove that I? Am You know? I've just been working on trying to Rest shirt like to spend more time resting and feeling assured of myself. And So I relate to everything you're saying, and then I also I hear some of the calm you know in your voice seems like a very but but it's also I mean, you're you're you go like a very direction I mean we're stuck in pandemic where like snug but also having down fraternity icy opportunity of not working at all I mean it's it's kind of like stuck with not doing providing anything select. Happy with yourself that state I mean you're probably pretty fucked but it also. I mean the first months of this period. I mean both me and ricky just did nothing we thought you know let's just let's let's just do nothing I sit down and not work and not produce an an I mean Cameron I tell you it was great. I mean it was it was a really great pause. which was necessary and then from that kind of void we just thought you know it's it's time to slowly get back into irking even though I can put up a show or even though if I produce work now the there's no, there's no there's nothing in sight of what I can do with it. But make plants. So I mean it's it's it's. A it's like a forced kind of sense of light just being trying to be happy with yourself I mean I think also there's the reality is probably a lot of people can't stand themselves and and I think I think that's also a good that can be a great lesson for most people that maybe would never discover that and And it's kind of important to just do that work. So I hear you I. Mean. It's also like you could also skip all the accomplishments and skip the Luke's skip them than than just like what are you have and I think what you have then is like a liberal socialist.
"yosef" Discussed on QUEERY with Cameron Esposito
"Dollars. Well there's there's a fork in the road here I'm trying to think of which way of Mr the conversation can. Talk about. Actually? No I'm going to say this. which is like. Just seem very self possessed and you seem very confident and so I feel like they're. No I know I could benefit and I wonder if there are some listeners who could benefit from talking about like. So I, think there's a also specificity in queer relationships were were compared to each other and that's not necessarily something that like you know, we just don't. We don't do that straight relationships I. Guess we I guess we talk about like whether or not everybody's hot as hot as each other Lake Oh, they married upper they're dating. You know whatever it is I guess we talk about that. But in queer relationships, it's so much more direct right up and especially being married to somebody who I think is very praised for their like physical beauty, their physical appearance I'm wondering like how you navigate that what you talk to yourself about because. It could be very helpful. I mean I know I feel often times lake in my life that I have been. Comparing myself against the person with. I wonder how you deal with that totally I. Mean it's. It's. It's. It's a very valid question when you're like. Literally married to like a possibly officially the most gorgeous man alive in Hawaii I mean, it's it's. It's it's i. mean here's the thing I. Mean I. I, I was going to think of it as this one thing I? Mean I come into this person's life and we are. You know we are both saying people, but also like you say, I mean there's going to be a lot of projection going like this guy might be hot or this guy might be six year or whatever. But the fact is also you know my husband has a career a virtually being a heartthrob. and. I mean I can do nothing but appreciate that it's it's awesome. I mean, what can I say I feel the same way every other kind of person would feel about him. I would go. So I will say from personal self never never compare my mic kind of looks with him I mean. To tell you the truth I mean I was as a gorgeous baby I was an ugly input like child I was an ugly teenager. I liked everything was wrong at a huge knows had huge ears. Skinny as hell I mean I went through the phase of like dude you got a fucking creative personality. 'cause you ain't GonNa get nowhere. This. was. GonNa Force into the situation of get smart get brilliant get funding. And work with that, and then you know I did I was forced to do military service or less after high school, which was terrible was like the worst experience of my life But also like a good one because he also can have it kind of beef me up and kind of gave me this like different mentality like way you can be everything you've been doing like it can be private and brilliant and nice kind and minded but also look at these muscles Kinda grew on you and your face kind of like finally finally after twenty years settled so like. I've never never leaned back on on good looks. It's never been my never been my core ever. And I still take it with me every day I mean it's it's It might be different now. But I you know I think I think if anything I think my confidence will rest on on more my accomplishments and and kind of you know what? I, what I think I can do and what I think I can kind of. Bring to the table rather than Lake I. Think my husband is pretty than me. I also genuinely believe that I mean it's not something I don't think I'M NOT GONNA Necessarily think we need to agree that that's true. That's my personal kind of thing. And course. I would probably agree with like most believes I mean I'm I'm also in love with him for the person is, but also I'm very lucky that I get to wake up with a guy that looks. As good on.
"yosef" Discussed on QUEERY with Cameron Esposito
"Much respect to that feeling because I felt so small. For almost a kind of destiny. Stomach. Cents. It does I think the reason that so The person that you're talking about is ricky Martin mentioning that because. I think that I think that adds context too when you're talking about speaking on instagram and why that would be impactful I could imagine like I don't know this human, but I will say that I, probably have. One one millionth of a percent of the like visibility. Or attention the document has an is very difficult to. Understand who you should have relationships with who you should be friends with and how to pursue that because there is. A conflict always complicated. It's always complicated when somebody knows more about some parts of you than you know about them in if for somebody who's in the public, you just have this. People are always walking into expectations of you or you're you're always walking into other people's expectations of you. So I mean. I. Think it makes a lot of sense to me why that is your story because that sounds like to me that sounds like well, that's that seems like a reasonable way to do it where you could build trust. Because there's not necessarily. Something that somebody's benefiting from outside of conversation that that's really beautiful and part of the reason. I wanted to also give us context because when you talking about moving to La, I was thinking for you. You know I didn't realize you had started together in a new city and I was thinking for you about. It the thing I'm just talking about trying to make friends trying to create community trying to figure out which galleries to have relationships with all of that stuff. You come in to that situation and the person that you're married to is somebody who so visible like that. What was that like for you I mean did you feel like? How. Did you feel? I mean. There's a lot of duality in that. It's it's I. Think I think the strength in also feeling I think it's important to be confident of what you do. I mean it's easy to be engulfed by somebody else's A fame or line of work But I'm also convinced that this real famous person also fell in love with the guy that he was. Kind of equally impressed with I don't think he met a guy that was just hot and funny and. Witty whatever it was. There was a lot more death today and I think that's also where this kind of six month conversation before ever met nation understanding that and I think knowing that in and also. The reason I am also with my husband is that we have this like wonderful. Respect and understanding and support for each other's practices I mean in the end, we're both in the arts, but he's in a very, very different, an art form in a way more of a pop culture I mean it is pop culture and I work in a fine art environment and in a way. They can sometimes kind of give fused together I mean it happens but very opposite Poles. And you know finding your own path I. Mean I think I think I. I take comfort in also having almost like ten years of of being an artist and doing my thing in exhibiting around the world and there's already foundation of that gives me. Kind of gives me belief in what I do and also and for him Tulsa believe in me which is I think equally important. But yeah, I mean human newburgh around you maneuver around a lot of a lot of different kind of intentions from people I mean. They're obviously people also the kind of look at you as only the husband of someone and they're also looking view is like, oh, it's a little bit complicated America with this person because it might not be in part with our program. So I, mean you get the whole spectrum of it I mean the world can be superfund Also one of those really tough environments where where again I mean when we talk about about belonging, it's very tough world to. To attempt to belong to I mean thankfully have been have been. Seven years of our college at Const Fuck Stockholm which was a top top school, and then I went to central some Martins in London, which was again a great school. So I mean I feel like I was already engulfed in the art world way before so. But totally, you'll also notice like anything friends family I. Mean you see you see people relate differently to you also because of the immediate and sudden. Fame but I think. The thing that keeps us the most sane or myself is also. Understanding in knowing from the beginning that this is not my fame it is. It is someone else's fame and. And I. I would never ever think of claiming it or assume that I'm entitled to it. So I, think I think that's also it's just about rhyme and reason in the end we are two men madly in love we have. Tons of kids and and the reality is you know I was more nervous about meeting the step kids I was meeting my husband. I mean it's it's it's. It comes down to really basic things in the I think I think. That's very base I mean to me that just sounds like the answer for like. It sounds like the answer for anybody trying to figure out how to. Merge. Well maybe I'll say different way I'm I'm a divorced person in previously I was in a relationship where we had a lot of overlapping work interests and that really worked for me at the time like I don't look back at it and go what a fucking mistake like it was. It was I made that choice and I think we make choices because that's what needs to happen next you know whether but I I also When ended and I trying to figure out like what romance can look for? Me could like from you in the future what I realized that You know I really needed to have my own whole thing like my own whole thing set of friends you know job experience. But I, think that sometimes as queer people that is very confusing because like I think if you know from the outside only but looking at straight relationships, it's like the divisions seem so much more enforced by culture. Right? There's like guys night and then there's like. Bridesmaids or whatever the heck I'm you've been talking about and it's culturally enforced. So you shouldn't have the same set of friends unless you're you know the cast of friends like and you shouldn't hang out together all the time like you should have separate interests and you shouldn't necessarily work together. You should have separate jobs and probably should work in like the woman should stay home I mean you know whatever it is but there's a whole set of things I think for us. Specifically thinking about marriage it's like. The stuff that you just laid out. It's like that's not something that we think as a as a queer culture talk about a lot or were just starting to because we just you.
"yosef" Discussed on QUEERY with Cameron Esposito
"Father of two gorgeous little babies and stepfather of two beautiful twin boys I'm also a an immigrant from Syria in in a way of been. An immigrant throughout my whole kind of grown up. Life My, our practice also kind of. kind of circles around the kind of exploring of the idea of of belonging and not belonging, and in a way what kind of means when when you don't necessarily fit in one box tro It is a beautiful intro. I I think I want to start by asking you when you immigrants the US. So I was two years old when we when my family left for Syria I have two older siblings. And it was actually is a pretty crazy story for my parents perspective I mean my parents come from two. Different backgrounds. My mother was a Christian. Armenian. Woman my father was a Kurdish Muslim. Man and they stay came from to kind of well known families up in northern northeastern. Syria. and they. Well they. They were. You know I think generations Just, no, I mean, my my my grandfather was a big landowner in Syria and my mother came from. An away maybe more like A. Rental Family From the same town. Met In military school when they were young and they fell in love. which was also like a huge taboo back in the sixties I mean, this is like our version of interracial can of. Affair yes. It is found upon and meeting in military school. Would it have been standard for them to be in military school? It wasn't standard it was it was it was it was like a.
Protesters march calling for defunding of Chicago police
"A group of activists marched for a short time in Michigan Avenue yesterday, while calling to defund the Chicago Police Department. Rabbi Michal Ben Yosef led the Chicago Activists Coalition for Justice to Ohio Street, where they were stopped by police. One protester was not happy with being stopped again. I mean, they've proven themselves untrustworthy time and time again. I mean, look, now we can barely even cross the street and exercise our right to protest. The group eventually complied with directions from police and moved back south into the loop, where the group
New York Congress members promote federal grants to combat anti-Semitic crimes
"McKinney the family the Muncie stabbing victim who remains in a coma and whose recovery is doubtful speaking out today Nikki Colin is the youngest daughter of seventy one year old Yosef Newman please stand up and stop this hatred it's cannot keep going on we want our kids to go to school and feel safe we want to go to our synagogues in feel safe we want to go to gross resembles and feel safe a suspect has been charged with attempted murder and with federal hate crimes in Saturday's knife in machete attack in Muncie that left five people hurt New York area lawmakers detailing efforts now aimed at making houses of worship safer especially in light of the recent anti semitic attacks in late December Congress approved a spending deal that includes thirty million additional spending dollars for non for profit security grants allowing synagogues temples mosques and churches to install cameras additional locks and even hire private security Manhattan congresswoman Carolyn Maloney saying they must find a way to keep people safe in their homes in their places of worship in their schools adding it's a basic tenet of the bill of rights the freedom of religion that is enshrined in our constitution requires this to ensure that all communities of faith can gather in their houses of worship without fear
Fun Facts About Christmas Carols
"Not all pieces. That use Christmas Ms Carols were meant to be played at Christmas time when he composed music for a play called Lila's the woman from ro a city in France. George borrowed an old French Christmas. Carol called the March of the three kings the three kings feature in another piece that uses a Christmas Carol Auto Reno you know risky composed a musical description of three paintings by Italian renaissance artist. Sandro Botticelli one of those paintings is the adoration of the Maj I in addition to the Gye the three kings. The painting shows a huge crowd gathered to admire the baby. Jesus to set the scene recipe gay quotes the old church chant. Benny Benny Emanuel which you know as the Carroll O.. Come oh come Emmanuel The Germans have a Christmas Carol Lullaby in which Mary Sings. Joseph Dearest Joseph Mine asking for help rocking rocking the baby. Jesus to sleep. Yohannes Brahms used a bit of that Carol. To open a song he wrote in honor of another baby the son of his good friend. Joseph or four Yosef in German Yawkey Brahms like the inside joke the to Joseph's and he liked the wonderful tune which he gave to the viola walk Otto Nicolai put the Carol from human known in English as from heaven above to Earth High Com into his Christmas overture and Johann. Sebastian Bach used that Carol in a set of organ variations. There's also a Christmas carol with music by Ahah classical composer. Even though that's not what he originally intended for Felix Mendelssohn wrote a Song Celebrating Yohannes Gutenberg. The man who invented invented the movable type printing press but Mendelssohn didn't like the words to the song which were by somebody else so he told his publisher to find another use for his music music. He thought it might be good for weddings but not for anything. Really religious. After Mendelssohn died someone in England discovered that the music like went perfectly with a poem by Charles Wesley. The brother of John Wesley who founded methodism. Ah
"yosef" Discussed on Farm Small Farm Smart
"But I'm not going to be grinding it out all the time. So what am I gonna do? I'm gonna I'm gonna focus on a couple of other things I'm going to go enjoy, you know, time with friends and family and. And have do some travel and and fee some sites, and and that's important. Having a life is important. I think if you if you focus too, much, it'd be burned out. So I'm not trying to be all, you know, it's not black and white here. But generally speaking, you know, you want to focus on those five top priorities and really get good at them. You know, that's the whole saying Jack of all trades. Right. I mean, Jacksonville trades master of none. And so you can get through life that way, and you can you can have a decent life. It just depends on what you want. And you wanna be the most successful you that you can be for me. I think life is short. I wanna be the absolute best Yosef that I can be I want my farm to be the best form that it can be. I want my family and my kids to be the best family and close in as loving and whatever as can be. And so I choose those things, and so those are my priorities, and that's what I personally have to focus on. I think this idea of prioritization is huge. When a lot of people think well, planning, they think about a rigid calendar, how do you account for the end predictable the wildcards the fires that come up the things that don't happen that you can't schedule in because you can't predict what's going to happen when they're gonna show up. You know, I build a lot of things in my schedule that are really flexible, I don't perceive them as being flexible and the day to day operations. But I love him to be flexible. If you know, there's always fires, you know. But here's the thing. When those if you don't if you don't schedule if you don't plan your day to day because you know, most of us it's ninety percent of times pretty stable. Right. And then you have that ten percent of the time. That's that's not they for most of us. Some people are living very unstable life, and that's, you know, different different conversation. But I think that I get so much done through my planning, and prioritization that if there's a sick day, or if there is instabile. Ability that it's more flexible, right? I don't feel like I'm always trying to catch up. I don't. And I think that's a lot of you know, you hear about a farmers a lot is. I think I don't know how the saying goes. But it's like, you know, do this never done with the farm, and and that is true. But most farmers I think that at least that I've spoken to are always chasing their tails. Right. They're just they're running around duct taping VIP tying everything. And they they don't they perceive to not have time. And so win the instability actually comes. That's when the business fails. Right. That's when everything kind of falls apart for me by keeping ninety percent of my life completely stable, you know, and and routine l mean that in a boring way routine..
"yosef" Discussed on Farm Small Farm Smart
"I'm talking to farmer Yosef campfire of a hobby farm use of Safar in Colorado who does a four season CSA. He's also father. He runs nonprofit. He's an overall busy guy in being a follower of Yosef and have a farm. I reached out nest. I'm you know, how do you do everything that you do what's the key to it one of the keys execution as proper planning and goal setting? That's what this episode is all about goal setting. So you can get done what you wanna do in what you need to do any timely and efficient manner. It hopefully surprise yourself with the results by doing more. More than you ever thought. You could let's jump right into it. It's goal setting with Yosef Kamiar of a -have farm. So Yosef you and I were emailing back and forth about planning and doing an episode on planning. And I think it's really critical one given the time of year when this episode is going to air it's going to air in January twenty nineteen. This is the time of year when I think a lot of people should be thinking about organizing things while they're probably not as busy as they would be on the farm in June. In one of the males. You sent me. You said this planning is my lifeblood, I have five young home schooled children. I run a three hundred thousand dollars a year business, and I run a nonprofit, and I'm a landlord. I'm also going to school. In addition, this I have to take care of myself have a life go to the gym scheduling and planning is key to survival. What are some of the challenges that you face day to day of trying to balance all this out the fat? I mean, balancing it, right? I mean, the days aren't long enough, and there's not enough time and everybody a lot of people talk about discipline. You know that so many motivational books videos, audio podcasts whatever I talk about like discipline discipline discipline, and is super important to have this applying. But when you when you do the appropriate amount of planning, it it removes that it removes that that necessity to be so. Because you're disciplined on paper, and you go. Okay. I'm just gonna follow the schedule. This is what I'm gonna do. And I think it makes disciplined much easier for me, and it keeps distraction away. Right. Like when you plan things out. You know, what your next task is? And you don't have to run around like a chicken with your head cut off going. Okay. What's what's next? What's next? What's next? You've already, you know, you've already spent the quarter of the month for the week the day planning, and you're ready to go. I wake up in the morning. I I look over my my weekly schedule. I do my daily schedule. And then I'm and then I just I hit the road and I or hit the field, and that's just how my day goes. And I'm able to get just a ton done a lot more than, you know, the the average person, and I think that really speaks to a lot. Of our success is is really just my my planning, and I was talking to you know, I talked to my -ployees about this and stuff and my job at this point in in our in my career in running this farm is really the planet. That's that's my the biggest part of my job as a farmer as a father. You know? We're we're also starting another business. I didn't mention that in the Email. There's a lot going on in my life. And the only people say to me all the time, you how do you do you do it all and it's like, well, it's not really that hard. If you can cut out of the structure, it's not that. I'm like, hyper disciplined, it's just that. I'm hyper planner, and I've just made a promise to myself stick to that schedule. It were you always this way. Or did this arrive out of necessity necessity wisit necessity because you felt like you were drowning. Yeah. So there's a an expression that kinda came up with. And I don't know if they will, you know, relate well over the phone, but I feel like my life is like a roller coaster, and you know, you're going down downhill sixty miles per hour,.
"yosef" Discussed on 15 Minutes to Freedom: A Warriorâ€™s Daily Focus on Journals and Meditations
"This is fifteen minutes of freedom. I'm your host Ryan. I don't today's episode is a special in person conversation. I'm going to say interview with someone's going to change your perception on what is possible for your life. Martin Yosef Martin. How are you doing? Pretty good yourself. I'm exquisitely well, not exquisitely while so Marta jump right in. What's one thing? That people have a perception, do you think people are operating the perception of that is not serving them right now. Like the way that you've you the world. Is going to change some people that are listen this show hit me with some to start with will perception is whatever you make it. And right, of course, whatever you make. And and we're constantly creating you know what I mean? And then whatever feels kinda like normal to us or jives with us. Then we start building from that center. You're gonna meet and whatever we come across it doesn't line up with our center. We're automatically disturbed like, yeah. I mean, but as I that was figments of imagination ideas created right by individuals. Yeah. You could easily overlook it and be comfortable and just doing you know, what I mean? But we become so heavily passionate about what somebody else's doing how they're living. Yeah. So our perception of ourselves already being fragmented. This is my idea though, why love that. So, and I said that we we started out this interview pre show interview with I said, we're just gonna talk whatever comes out Fisher. And then I said we can go as crazy down this whole as you want to personally don't care if eighty percent of you listening after this show. Tune out MR says like that's a pretty that's a pretty extreme thing. Right. That's a different perception childlike perception of wanting to try things out and yeah. And walk me through what you meant more by that. I think that child like perception, you even said, it just recently as far as what that actually feels and means to you and every moment because it's is different right? Like, I'm I'm running my own operating system right now. And I have a perception of how you view me. And I have a perception I the outside world crack, an F perceptions, obviously forming my version of reality much like it's as you're listening. It's forming your version of reality. Like you already. If you think about it, you close your eyes, hopefully, not while you're driving. You've heard speaking new guy Martin if I. Martin. I said don't think Martin Lawrence your insulating of Martin Lawrence. If you know who that is right. Like, you already have a mental perception of who Martin is without even seeing him just from hearing him speak, but that comes down to that child like Yossi. Riding, the bike Eurocity. We all do the best. We can to almost stave off as a badge of honor showing the fact of like, we're adults now. Yeah. But that's not really what serves us. Yeah. We're we wanna grow up. We want to censor stability. That's another perception created when we find something whether it's religion or or political ideology, whatever tradition in the family, a kind of centers of sorts provides a center, and then we feel that we can have stability and built from it. But a kid doesn't do that kid is constantly experimenting. You know what I mean? Yeah. He doesn't understand that the Bill is due at such and such day. He super carefree. You know what I mean? So it's like we lose that that freeness. I guess I don't know if there is a name. Yeah. We just just lose it. Because we grow up. You know, I love putting an air quotes girl because to me we're actually almost growing down. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. We're not ascending to a higher level of consciousness when we do that. Right. What gets into the whole conversation about religion like you. And I last week at an opportunity to spend hours with you having to eat, which was incredible. But that's into all these your view of religion, and your understanding of it. I mean, you've read essentially ever religious scripture thing. Yeah. Every holy little script that they say, it's something. Of course, I read it..
Martin, Yosef And Lucia discussed on 24 Hour News
"A new daughter me announced the arrival of his daughter Lucia in an Instagram post Martin says the baby girls healthy, he's as his family, which includes husbands you want Yosef and ten year old twin sons have fallen in love with
"yosef" Discussed on Bloomberg Radio New York
"Sure, you're smart, but had Bloomberg intelligence from Beijing intelligence chief Asia economist Tom only insight into where crucial industry stunned today, and where they may be heading next year. But intelligence senior analyst Jonathan ties in Honshu Wall Street acumen with Bloomberg intelligence Sampas, Ellie director research vegetarian, handsome, great to have you on the program. Bike intelligence only on Bloomberg radio. The Bloomberg radio dot com. This week marks ten years since Lehman Brothers collapsed. Arguably a defining moment of the west financial crisis in almost a century. The former deutchebanks CEO Yosef Ackerman walks us through the moment. He find just how bad it was. This is very unlikely to happen. Thought that last minute US chomping. I was traveling from Zurich Frankfurt or the phone call from our US hit telling me it's over and really the worst case. How come we haven't expected that? So what was the first thought that went through your head? Kind of kind of decent deutchebanks, you think the wider system what what what was going on. But of course, we're not completely unprepared. So I wasn't concerned so much about Japan because he knew that we had things under control, but I was very much. Concerned about the systemic risk. And at that time, I said, you know, his mchenry's, and we need this answer. We've been criticized by some people. Nobody should play the market and not ask for some governments report. But the problem is really so big that I think he couldn't have made it without that you were aware of that points of the magnitude of what was happening. Absolutely, absolutely. I mean, this was a central player and the city could you problem see the most important one, and if the funding disappears stuck would happen to other institutions? Well, then you realize how interconnected in the financial system, and that's no surprise commute. So who did you cool next? Who was the kind of the next phone call to your guy in the US, you figured out your call immediately. You know, the head of investment bankers trading and certainly the risk manager. And then of course, you reach out to to a central Bank to reach out to other Bank. So this was a Lord of communication going on immediately. So you spoke to Trish a fairly soon afterwards. We also talked to fishy, of course, who was very concerned that to the Bank and. Other banks Bank of the smell at the time because he key player in the British market. So yeah, absolutely. In terms of that kind of linkage that you describe. I. And the preparation that you put in place how how you set up going into the counterparty risks. Look like. Well, you'll have to look at it from netted fewer show in for instance. Exposure to certain counterparts, but they have an exposure to you. And the question is he's an basis is that something you can live with and until we were pretty sure that he didn't overexposed on the netted as to any counterparty risk. The second. Of course, we always thought we need enough liquidity Soviet a lot of funding beforehand in order to be well prepared for that. And we try to have your market risk under control. And I was I mean starting much earlier action two thousand seven and I was fully convinced that this is not just something that will last for three months, and then disappear because two things a imbalances on the deck level and imbalances in the real estate market normally last much longer defined inequilibrium because real estate did not sets homogeneous good. So to find buyers for that and half a demand. And of course, I knew that an expected. Certainly it's an economist. So we started to reduce our risks two thousand seven and actually at all the conference chairman of the association of banks insurance companies. I warned that we have to get ready for that. And change the system predicting. The former Deutsche Bank CEO Yosef, come on speaking to Bloomberg sky Johnson. Let's get you a preview of what we'll.
2006 letter confirms Vatican received complaint about ex-cardinal
"Call the author of the critical New York Times at Pinon piece on him gutless into coward. Presidential adviser Kellyanne Conway says they'll eventually find out who wrote it people. Brag to the wrong person they brag that they did this or they did that because they I assume part of this isn't the goal here. Not with the op-ed pretends the goal is the goal here. Really to try to so chaos and get us all suspicious of each other. The president has suggested the op-ed is treason. A two thousand six letter from top Vatican official confirms that the Holy See received information in two thousand by the sexual misconduct of now resigned cardinal Theodore McCarrick, this lends credibility to bombshell accusations of cover up yesterday, Catholic news service published a letter from then or Bishop Leonardo Sandri to the Reverend Boniface Ramsey Ramsey. I informed the Vatican. And in novem-. Number
California power grid urges consumers to conserve energy in heat wave
"Or three submissions they don't believe And they have the authority of, tax law tax court I never with tax court. Don't miss I don't want to confuse me but it's never just. Negotiations with the Audit agents but In tax court you are the only place in America where you're presumed, guilty And. You have to prove your innocence you have, to prove you didn't do it so just be be. Aware that once again I your host on the cutting edge of, societal evolution and if I had not been raised with such class and manners I would tell you how much money I would I have saved by, not paying taxes in New York City and New York. State but I was raised better than that my dad said don't, ever talk about money and I don't But you would be stunned as stunned as you are when, you find out how much simply safe. Home security doesn't, cost you would be blown away by this But I will keep it to myself now what else we have on tap today California power grid urges consumers to. Conserve energy and heat wave they want you to. Turn off everything in your house they, want you to turn off your air. Conditioning, what'd you turn off your lights way Wait a minute what about. All the renewable energy what about all a solar. And what about all of the wind Why isn't that covering for this Look what California residents, were sold. There were sold. Solar renewable. Wind it's the. Answer it's clean it doesn't pollute and. Now we find with a heatwave they don't even have enough fossil fuel generated electricity to handle it without a bunch of brownouts and. Asking people to turn off electrician you know what's going, to happen, if you do. That you're gonna you could die California power grid urges consumers to, conserve energy. In heat wave Power good operators yesterday. Issued an alert to homes and businesses to conserve, electricity today and tomorrow when a, heatwave is expected, to blanket the state California independent system operator the grid operator Senate. Issued a so called flex alert due to high, temperatures across the western United States, reduced electrically imports Into the state what Electricity imports oh yeah California has to buy. Electricity from in some they might even be buying. Coal from the cops do? You know in Connecticut they buy. Coal from the cops I have been out on Long Island Sound launching these giving. Barges and tankers, going but I said what the hell is that they said that's coal from the calms what's the four. Run the power. Plant wait, a minute I said what about all the wind and solar and all that stuff is supposed to, save the date naps not even it. Doesn't even make it it just doesn't really now they said it doesn't The independent. System operator alert followed an? Earlier notice by southern California gas. Company the gas utility for the southern part of the state they issued a gas. Curtailment watch yesterday, notifying customers to be prepared to reduce gas Yosef Nita with power generators expected to burn more fuel this. Week than usual. To keep, air conditioners humming so Cal gas a unit of California energy companies separate energy said the watch would, remain in effect until further only a. Two day heatwave but the. Watch or maintenance chill Further notice you know I I really think if California would just turn off all of the liberal programming they consume things. Would be better, in that state if they just, turn off MSNBC turnoff CNN turn off the late night comics ban the New York Times, are being published in the, state Push away from the computer skip all the fake news sites get off. Social media don't listen to insane rantings, on, podcast just go cold Turkey. On liberal. Programming and who knows how much electricity you'll be saved Now what do we do with. People with electric cars. Oh my God. What about people who only have Tesla's to all being all what are they gonna do Should people with gasoline powered. Cars, chip in an offer rides to people whose cars? Are powered by. Batteries who now can't be because they've got to turn off? The electric city in? America Rush network Rush. Limbaugh now and how did he next The easiest way, to, get all of your old home. Movies, films 'em photos converted, to digital, files birthdays a baby's, first steps graduations weddings the family get togethers and holiday time all of those important..
Lyme Disease isn’t the Only Tick-Borne Illness to Think About
"In the sun with your family. You grab the sunscreen because you know a sun protection factor or SPF of thirty is going to protect your exposed skin from getting sunburned. But Dr Don Davis. A mayo clinic dermatologist says, most people don't know that skin covered by clothing still can get sunburned. She says, natural clothing without sun protective factors. We'll have an SPF of approximately one to four based on how tight the we've is and how breathable the material is. So it actually does not give you that much some protection, but she says there are special types of clothing that will protect you. The clothing industry has now allowed micro fibers into certain clothes, which then have a UP f. or universal protection factor that's equivalent to the SPF of sunscreen. She says, universal. -tection factor is even calculated the same way SPF is it's the ratio of the number of minutes. You spend outdoors without developing redness to the skin with the clothing on verses without the clothing on. So Dr Davis says, if you can spend fifty minutes outdoors with a piece of clothing before developing mild readiness versus ten minutes without you would have a protective factor of fifty over ten, which is a UP f of five. So the next time you're shopping for clothes, check the tag to see if it lists the items, universal protection factor, and here's some news about some research mayo clinic is doing to help stop a cancer associated with sun exposure melanoma. The most deadly type of skin cancer mayo clinic center for individualized medicine is learning about melanoma at the molecular level to allow for treatment that better targets and individuals disease. That's because not all melanomas are the same every year about ninety thousand people are diagnosed with melanoma. And more than nine thousand people die from the disease in the United States. According to the American Cancer Society, the incidents has been rising for the past thirty years, especially among young people. Mayo researchers are working to find better treatments for the mayo clinic news network. I'm Vivian Williams. Welcome back to Mayo Clinic Radio. I'm Dr Tom shy, and I'm Tracy McCray. Well, Tracy, it's tick season, and it's time actually to learn how to stop those suckers according to a new report from the centers for disease control and prevention. Illnesses caused by disease infected ticks mosquitos and fleas have tripled in the US in recent years, lime disease is the most common illness carried by ticks, but it's not the only one. There's an applause, Moses Ehrlich news what and even Rocky Mountain, spotted fever to just name a few. We'll get to the pronunciation of that in just a second must be lik Yosef here to discuss, tick, borne illnesses and how to prevent them and how to pronounce them as mayo clinic microbiologist and parasite expert, Dr. Bobby Pritt, welcome back to the program, Dr it. Thank you. It's great to be here. The doctor sites has that right. He did Arlecchino SIS. Alright. Why in the world? Is there a tripling in the amount of diseases from these suckers. As doctor says, we have more of them that ticks are spreading their spreading their ranges, and that's due to a lot of different factors. Some of it has to do with weather, some of it has to do with human behavior. A lot of it has to do with hosts like all those dear and wrote cetera out there. They are perfect reservoirs for the ticks defeat on. Over the winter. Now they survive over the winter. They can hang out under the leaves, and then come out as soon as the snow melts is lime disease stole the most common tick illness. It is in the country and particularly in the upper midwest and the northeast, some three hundred thousand cases year more than that. But for a couple of generations ago, no, I'd never heard of Lyme disease. Is it because it had not been diagnosed yet or because there wasn't a Lyme disease. At that point, there was some disease, so it had been diagnosed by then, but there wasn't a lot of it. There weren't as many forested areas where our dear used to like to hang out. We used to be more of a farming society. There used to be wider areas that were just open fields for crops. Now we have all these nice wooded areas that the deer just love the rodents just love that's perfect habitat for ticks. And we love to go out into those beautiful green spaces and and our behavior off. Also drives this. We want to go out and go for a hike in the woods, and we should. It's just now we have to be aware that those ticks and the mosquitoes and the fleas are out there and we have to be able to protect ourselves, shall we get from the tick that bit the deer? Yes. Well, actually it's usually the mouse that it gets it from. So the tick is born not infected with Lyme disease, but then when it bites its first mouse or small rodent, it becomes infected. And then in order to change into its next life cycle stage, it needs to take another meal. And that could be from us. What what dear after do you know the deer are actually more of just a blood source there, a food source, the ticks like defeat on dear, but dare themselves actually don't get infected with Lyme disease, the mice. We blame the deer also part of life cycle though for some of the other things like Anna plasmapheresis in our lick Llosa's when it comes to ticks, is that what the problem is or what are, what are other diseases that ticks spread? Well, as you mentioned, Rocky Mountain, spotted fever, Anna plasma, SIS, there's busy. Oh, SIS Bradley, amo- Twi. That's a mouthful. There's also the to Nick new tick borne diseases that we identified here at mayo clinic Bradley, mayo knee. I named after the mayo brothers and also are leaky Muris. So there have been nine new pathogens spread by ticks or mosquitoes. Just identified since two thousand four is one of those the ones that results in allergy to meet. Yes, that's a really odd one. And people get really. Bad ineffective reaction if they eat meat, if they're bitten by a certain type tick, amazing lime disease, the most common one. So let's say that you know you had a tick on your body or you don't. What are the symptoms? What do you look for for lime disease, fever is one and brash. Those are two big ones all the disease that looks like a target for lime disease. It's that so called target white rash. The problem is is not all people have that. It could also be an hard to see areas like if it's on your scalp under your hair or your back, that's why tick checks with a friend or sometimes helpful. Have sunlight look in the spots that you can't easily see, but even if you don't have a towel rash, if you have other symptoms, you should go to your doctor. You could have body aches, muscle aches. Those are the big ones joint pains. And then how if you, if you have those symptoms go to the physician, how do they diagnose it? How do they know if you have lime disease? There's a few tests we do for Lyme disease. We look for antibodies that your body forums is part of its immune response to the organism. So that's called serologic testing. PCR's not a big part of Lyme disease, but we testing, but we do offer it as more of a junked of test for other diseases. We have PCR test. We have Serology. So we have a number of ways in the laboratory that we can detect these tests and they can be pretty definitive. They can, yes. Are there any advances being made in the battle against the ticks? Yeah, it's interesting that you ask that because there's a whole new tick, borne disease working group that was sponsored by the government, which actually on one of the subcommittees working groups, and we are looking at all of those. Things. What are the gaps in our existing technologies? And then what are some of the new technologies that can help fill those gaps? Does a number of different things be looked at? Some will be going through the FDA for approval, but nothing's really here yet. So we're still, unfortunately relying on technology from the nineteen seventies and eighties like serologic testing. Well, in the tricky thing is back in the nineteen seventies, for instance, if you were going to go onto the woods, you didn't think twice, not maybe at the most. You just looked for ticks on your body when you got back, but times have changed. And so before you go into the forest or through a walk in a meadow or whatever the case is, what should we do about these things? Exactly. If you're going to go out into the woods and you think you're going to go off the beaten trail, you need to be applying some sort of tick or insect repellent. We recommend deet anything with thirty percent deter more. There's also a carrot in the Environmental Protection Agency actually has a whole list of all the different options. And there's also permission that. You can spray on clothing. Essentially, the idea is choose what you're going to be using and make sure you do it consistently. You could also do some simple things like tuck your pants into your socks, less bearskin for those ticks grab onto all good. Good thoughts. So you talked to us about the symptoms of Lyme disease. You talk to us about the diagnosis. They'll tell us about treatment, and if it's important to be treated and if you don't get treated or even sometimes if you do the complications. Yes, treatments important. And if you think you have tick borne disease, you definitely want to go to your physician. Some of these diseases are life threatening things like Rocky Mountain, spotted fever. That's life threatening in children in adults. Erlich Yosef can be life threatening. Usually the treatment is a drug called dachsie cycling, even for children with cases of Rocky Mountain, spotted fever. A lot of times we say, don't give certain antibiotics, doxycycline children that is not the case with Rocky Mountain, spotted fever. So usually antibiotic treatment is required. And most cases patients will respond if they're treated early, if they're not treated, early, complications can arise like with lime disease, the disease can disseminate. It can go to your joints. It can go. To your nervous system and that hurt breaking your heart. People have died of lime and Okada's. So it's important to find out if you have it get a definitive diagnosis and be treated and as early on as possible. Exactly. Is it ever too late to undergo treatment? It's less effective. So I wouldn't say it's too late. You'd still wanna go to your doctor and see what your treatment options are, but it may be less effective. All right.
"yosef" Discussed on Thunder Radio
"Law the fans in a absolute frenzy horsburgh in the right wing corner for those those decides to come out there's stop daca pad and then you'll hit joe hansen couldn't get the rebound penalty call coming up here against colorado a delayed penalty behind the net is roman yosi you'll see left wing corner johannesen johanns it on the half wall left johnson and his past bounced away from ellis everybody has to get back on side is for berg forsberg collided with arvidsson now the penalty will be assessed at seventeen forty seven wow what is ship that was roman us all over the offense is own skated around the top of the crease remember sixty the door all just a motion all over the place yosef was behind the net and somehow found the lane rate out in front when all the way around and made a stop to look like both three of the three members of the joe for line had a whack at the park to try and put it in hamburger finding a way to get the job done it wasn't pretty all the time but he's he made some saves there what a great ship that was palo was not laughing at you on slapping fans proclaiming dilly dilly billy billy bizri billy dilly second time on the tennessee lottery powerball power play for the predators it's a nothing nothing game with two thirteen left in the second predators get the draw swept back to sue bands he goes right side whether the forsberg back to ban the shot came off the board scramble for the rebound and it's bork who's able to clear it out to center ice one fifty six remaining in the.
"yosef" Discussed on Software Engineering Daily
"So what about monitoring and logging yes so that's very expensive for assis about three peta bites of messages jason messages traverses our network every month and we used to save all that data became really expensive and then we turned on this we were saving into amazon street three then we turn on this thing called glacier and it saved us oh but of money it's just kept growing and growing now it's it's just too expensive for us to save that so we actually just dropped the data and it just goes away which makes me so sad there's like tensor flow and artificial intelligence machine learning things we've got data here that is extremely valuable we could drive information from some sort of meaning but we're throwing it away we have to those just too expensive to keep it all one managerial challenge that i thought might exist with this company when i was just like kind of looking at the the nature of your company was you've got you've got a lot of is and you have yosef deals with ap other api companies that you have these abstractions that you've built on companies like cloud mary and clarify and then you you have to build a lot of sdk so like you have st case for for web then mobile phones and devices and if i think about the matrix of all of the different customers it's a lot of surface area of different ways that people can use the products together and i wonder if it does the surface area of all those different use cases ever become hard to manage do you have any systems that you have in place that make it easier to manage those.