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Palin nabs early lead in Alaska US House special primary
"Initial vote counts have been released in Alaska's special primary for the state's only U.S. House seat I'm Ben Thomas with the first numbers The Associated Press has not declared any winners but the initial results show Republican former governor Sarah Palin with 29.8% of the votes counted so far Republican Nick begich has 19.3% while independent Al gross has 12 and a half percent and Democrat Mary peltola 7.5% Another Republican Tara Sweeney has 5.3% in a candidate whose name is Santa Claus a self described independent progressive democratic socialist had 4.5% 48 candidates have been running for the seat held for 49 years by the late congressman Don young the top four will advance to in August special election The election was conducted primarily by mail and election officials planned several days of ballot counts I'm Ben Thomas
Plane wreckage found in Nepal mountains; 21 bodies recovered
"Rescuers are searching a mountainside in Nepal have recovered the bodies of 21 of the 22 people who were on board a plane that crashed a day earlier The Tara air turboprop twin otter plane had lost control with the airport tower on Sunday while flying on a scheduled 20 minute flight in an area of deep river gorges and mountain tops recovery efforts were delayed because some bodies had been pinned under the plains wreckage rescuers have had to work with their bare hands due to difficulties moving the metal debris for Indians and two Germans were on the plain the three crew members and other passengers when a parley nationals I'm Charles De
Hurricanes win Game 5, push Rangers to brink of elimination
"The hurricane zone of three two lead in their second round series following a three one victory over the rangers The Keynes won with special teams as Vince and trocheck scored a shorthanded goal and te V Tara vine and added a rare power play goal for Carolina which has struggled with a man advantage this postseason It's big for us specialty and for big this time of year And that would just kind of talk about your last game I'm just reset and start over Andre swear also scored Beating Igor shishkin with a back hander on a breakaway midway through the third period The hurricanes outshot the rangers 34 17 It starts and stopped 31 shots for the rangers Who host game 6 on Saturday I'm Dave
Daniel Schmidt's Mindset When Questioning Anne Applebaum
"You and Evita and others you just did amazing work You essentially want to a conference which in my opinion was designed to attack conservative thought and push for censorship and taras is disinformation specialist And you turn the conference into an international narrative on media malfeasance itself Now you asked Anne applebaum of the Atlantic a very specific question You asked her about the Hunter Biden laptop in the role in the election And the answer she gave you was stunning calling it largely irrelevant The president's son and all this damning information As you're asking this question and getting this answer back what's going through your head You've got to be stunned that she's so candid or so silly I mean of course of course at the same time I mean this is what we wrote and so used to over the years These journalists do not give a damn about being fair about representing a fair narrative They tossed over this information around like it's a political tool The funniest part is I think Jack is so they actually did this He actually dug up old tweets from an apple boxer in the Trump years and she tweeted constantly about how much she hated how the Trump kids were using the Trump name to do all these partnerships So she's out of that to be interesting But she didn't find a laptop of a son of a president whose contents found that he was in the board of a Ukrainian energy company with no expertise which found that 10% of the salaries go into the big man I mean clear evidence of corruption she didn't find it to be interesting And the starting point on top if I could just say this in a few days afterward she blocked us on Twitter I write for the accounts I think you're Chicago on Twitter She totally blocked us She blogged a bunch of college students to request it So yeah that's where we're at
Auburn Head Coach Bruce Pearl's Reaction to Ukraine Situation
"This week the Jewish people are celebrating the festival of porn And poor him is a celebration of what Queen Esther did Queen Esther was with the king of Persia and the palace and she was Jewish And Heyman was a very close adviser to that king And he was advising the king that maybe it was time to get rid of all the juice Queen Esther's uncle was more high My Hebrew name is Morgan And I think that my family gave me that name for this reason Once I talked to Esther the queen had said look Esther you might survive this for a little while But you won't survive this He's really going to kill all the Jewish people and your family And he gave us to the courage to try to see if she could turn the king's heart and she did And saved the nation So some of you may be uncomfortable You guys asked the question right You asked the question about Ukraine We say never again I was born in 1960 15 years after they opened up the Gates And they saw 6 million Jews were murdered And 3 million more people And so if Tara Vera and van der veer wants money for three pointers I'll up whatever they're offering I mean I'm all in healthier Ukrainian people survive that And I'm very concerned about what's going on in Iran with the king of Persia now And if we embody that government give them all that money sign a bad treaty It's going to put the world in jeopardy
Washington Lawmakers File Bill Reducing Penalties for Drive-by Shooters
"In order to promote racial equality. To the sponsors, Democrats, of course, says the bill seeks to boost racial equality in the criminal system by eliminating drive by shooting as a basis for elevating, first degree murder, the first degree, aggravated murder. Under the current Washington state law, drive by shootings can be charged as aggravated first degree murder, under certain circumstances, such as, when it fatal. But they want to abolish that. To lower the number of years that. Someone convicted would serve. Tara Simmons, Democrat from
US Army Creates Single Vaccine Against All COVID Variants
"Great news from the U.S. Army reported by Tara cop yesterday in defense one, and that is that the U.S. Army has created a single vaccine effective against COVID. SARS and other variants of COVID. Within week scientists at the Walter Reed army institute of research, expect to announce that they have developed a vaccine that protects people from COVID-19 and all its variants, even a Macron, as well as from previous SARS viruses that have killed millions of people worldwide. The achievement is the result of almost two years of research on the virus. The army lab received its first DNA sequencing of the COVID-19 and early 2020. Very early on, Walter Reed's infectious disease branch decided to focus on making a vaccine that could work against not just the existing strain, but all of its potential variance as well. Bravo, to Walter Reed spike, ferritin, nanoparticle, COVID-19 vaccine, or SPF N now I talked to my official toxicologist at the Hugh Hewitt show last night. And he said, look, that is great news, but they got to run a major trial before you can do any jumping jacks at major they had 3500 people. They got to roll it in. They got to do a phase two trial. But yes, very, very
Biden vs. Kavanaugh Sex Allegations Show Democrats' Jaw-Dropping Hypocrisy
"Moore back during the brett cavanaugh. Hearings that was three years ago. It's amazing to think three years ago. Brett cavenaugh stood in front of the united states senate to be confirmed to the united states. Supreme court you remember how the media covered brett cavenaugh as an attempted rapist. You see revolutionary movements like rich versus poor poor versus rich women against men and black versus white are helpful as a means to an end to get political power. The brett cavenaugh example was a great example of how they were trying to use a moment of a movement to try to get political power but if actually ever threatened one of their own they might send andrew cuomo out to pasture but they could replace it with the democrat. They might send an al franken out to pasture but they can replace it with a democrat but if ever was sending a joe biden out to pasture which means that a republican become president. No way because power in regards to what the left values what they prioritize is much higher on the hierarchy than actually caring about believing all women play cut sixty eight and attempted rape as though yes my supreme court nominee may be. An attempted rapists is attempted. Rapes potential attempted rape attempted rape. This is charge of attempted. Attempted rape a curry that is so critical to the nomination of judge. Cavanaugh high school drunk at attempted rape and attempted rape. This is a small example of what we had to deal with three years ago. But of course. Joe biden under credible accusations of groping women who worked for him tara reid and otherwise ignore it because we need him to become president so we can control the executive branch of the government
Body Believed to Be Missing 22-Year-Old Gabby Petito Is Found
"By. It was a tragic update yesterday. The fbi said human remains found at a national forest in wyoming were consistent with the description of gabby petito the florida woman who went missing during this big cross country road trip with her twenty. Three year old fiancee. His name is brian laundry. Who returned home without gabby this. Fbi agent charles jones foremost on behalf of the fbi personnel and our partners. I would like to extend sincere and heartfelt condolences to gabby family. Joe and tara. Petito and jim nicole smith as every parent can imagine. This is an incredibly difficult time for the family. Our thoughts and prayers are with them. We ask that you all respect the privacy as they mourn the loss of their teton county. Wyoming corner dr brent blue said an autopsy is scheduled for tomorrow and said officials would confirm the identity of the remains through photographs personal identification and dna earlier today.
Race to Succeed Japan PM Suga Heats up
"Is now a wink. Since japan's prime minister yoshihiko super said he is to stand down as leader of the ruling. Ldp the race to succeed him is already in full swing. Well let's get the latest now for monaco's tokyo bureau chief in asia editor funeral wilson Good to have you with us. Thanks for joining us. Fear with good very good afternoon. Good morning to you. And now has the announcement of sucres departure really sunk in among the japanese yet. I mean it was. It was quick. It wasn't necessarily great surprise but it was a bit of a shock. Actually it was surprised he actually resigned. Honestly that was a shock because on thursday he was saying he was going to stand for re election as leader. If the ldp of course everyone knew this election was going to happen at the end of the month. Trenchant temper no surprise there but it looked like he was gonna run. He was getting all his Pieces in place softening up the right people look like he had and then suddenly on friday. He said no. I'm resigning and it seems that he was really hope by the The big the heavyweights in the party. It was time to go so it was a surprise. It has sankei. And i think there's been a lot of dissection in the media and the candidates are now emerging so who are the front runners in all this well. It looks at the moment. I mean lots of names have been mentioned obviously and anyone who follows japanese politics and you have to follow it closely to know who lost these people are but it looks like it's going to be a three way race basically. You've go tara conner. Who's the front runner. He's the man in charge of vaccines at the moment administrative reform. He's the one most people think he certainly has popular support. He's he's a bit of a loose cannon in some ways. He's very good at disrupting. He's not always good building consensus. I think he's the front runner. You have to mir kishida former foreign minister and sunai takeuchi. Who's the wildcard. I would say former intern faz. Minister earned would be japan's first female prime minister and she is being back rather curiously. I have to say patients up. Who's obviously still very influential. But in every other sense i would say she's an outlier.
Being Authentic and Present With Yourself
"Authentic in such doorway and such a practice you know it is kind of the the emotional real emotional version of of practice of seeing things as they are in honoring man and owning that and it only for me leads to more more solid foundation and more and more transparency one of the one of the images that i think is so powerful for me with with the pandemic is that you know the jewish tradition the word sabbath literally means the one day. We don't turn one thing into another. And i feel like we've been forced into a global sabah and can't manipulate. We can't even dream too far ahead. And so we've been forced our turn to see the miracle in the ordinary to see the beauty in everything and everyone and and And i think you know said if we truly thomas merton new we truly be held each other. We fall down in worship each other and so here. We are forced to to say no. The dream isn't tomorrow. We can't defer life or our best selves or ourselves. It's all right here and that was one other like a powerful thing for me with the pandemic is or did i came upon us. I was very. I had a lot of echoes from my cancer journey An particularly this moment. When i was diagnosed i like anyone else. I went to this appointment with a doctor. Who told me i had cancer and i was alarmed frightened in thought. You must have the wrong folder. Can't be me. And but then when i left that office that day the door i had come through for out. Appointment was gone. No way back to life before that appointment and i also feel that humanity has been forced through that doorway with the pandemic. The old world is gone There's going back
Telegram Expands Live Streams to Handle Unlimited Viewers With 8.0 Update
"Latest update to the messaging app telegram supports an unlimited number viewers for livestream content. Previously it was limited two thousand. So if you've ever hit that thousand and one person now you don't have a limit. The app also lets users remove captions and send her. Name's when forwarding a message earlier this week the analysts that sensor tara reported that telegram passed one billion global
The Top Benefits to Having An eBay Store with Kathy Terrill
"Lots of new things released it ebay over the last year so many new things that it's sometimes hard to keep track of them all and one thing i noticed in the last year on the podcast episodes as we have not talked about some of the changes and enhancements to a feature that a lot of us so on ebay just take for granted and that's your ebay store ebay stores haven't really changed in at least ten years recently. There was some really interesting enhancements to the store. And i thought it would be good to get an expert on. Please join me in welcoming from. I love to be selling dot com. Our friend. cathy tara grew up. Good to be here. I want to assume that a lot of our listeners may have an ebay store and they are not quite aware of all the things that an ebay store can do. So let's talk about that. What are some of your view. What are some of the top benefits to having an ebay store. He may stores just are so amazing as far as helping you to reach out for customers and to drive repeat traffic ebay open online when the ebay stores team presented one thing they really drove home was the increase in repeat buyers that somebody with a store gets and they quoted some really nice statistics. So it's worth to go back and listen to that remember correctly. The higher rate of repeat purchases is anywhere from twenty to sixty five percent over seller without a store. Obviously there's a range you know ebay. Sellers sell such range of items and there is such a range of stores. I mean my attention. i don't know about you. i'll take twenty percent for just more sales like immediately. My ears go up and i listened very carefully to the presentations on ebay stores for the things that they talked about that. Help you as a seller to drive. Repeat purchases because again we all to get that one chang but how nice even when you're variety seller. A store really really helps you with that. There is so much an ebay store you know. Oftentimes just busy listing listening listening. And we don't deep dive into all the things that are available to a store and some things are very simple that you can literally have it up and running to help you drive repeat traffic and drive sales literally in a matter of a minute to
The Blessings of Enough: Discovering Contentment in Daily Life
"Is this inner freedom of realizing. We'll be right where we are so. I'd like to start by responding to some of the questions and misunderstandings that arise around any consideration of contentment. And some imagine contentment is being this kind of dissociation from the world dreamy floating that's above and beyond life's difficulties kind of the image of a cow. Contentedly munching on grass of meadow. Or something like real trance-like and actually true contaminant involves a full presence with the life. That's right here with him around us and it doesn't mean we don't experience difficult emotions. It means were okay with feeling. Whatever is arising so by way of example this week inner contentment for me has not blocked me from feeling alarm and angry for those an up. Ghanistan those and haiti. It hasn't stopped me from feeling Fear concern for a dear friend of mine who has brain cancer. It hasn't stopped me revealing an bogged down on by my own physical discomfort. I've been dealing with a sinus infection. So contentment enables us to be okay with this arisings of grief. Our fear pain with the with the ups and downs. And it allows us to have a sense of of balance of a fundamental. Oh kanus in the midst of it and this kind of freedom is captured by one of my favorite Phrases from azan masters says that enlightenment is to be without anxiety about imperfection more contemporary version of it is elizabeth kubler ross. Who says i'm not okay. And you're not okay. And in so k now it's really this presence. That's large enough to embrace our imperfect world
Resting Your Heart in Presence
"One of my favorite teachings from not han. Who's a zen master is that it's not enough to supper. We also have the touch piece. We also have to touch wellbeing sir. Today's meditations really an invitation as much as possible for our own body. Mind to just let go and relax abed to taste that timeless peace. It's here when we begin to settle a bet. And so in that spirit will begin in a very simple way where you might just invite your attention and word invite yourself into the present manned and sometimes that means i checking your posture higher sitting and making yourself comfortable adjusting in the way they give you a sense of balance and uprightness sarah alert and also real ease settling your body as you become more still physically. Allow your attention go in work. Just notice what it's like right now. Notice the feelings in your body. Notice your body's breathing then with a conscious intention begin to length in your bra. So that it's a long slow in brow you might count to five with the enbrel and then a matched out breath counting to five with the out breath mila slowing down this breath the nice full in breath again coming to five a slow out. Breath measure release really become aware of the suit stations of letting go gan along deep in breath yelling the chest in the lungs the out breath again that sense of letting go of release
John Kirby Can't Tell Us How Many Afghan 'Refugees' on the Terror Watchlist Have Been Vetted Before Entering U.S.
"Back to the analysis of what's happening in kabul in afghanistan. Returning to this this incredible Press conference today from the pentagon. This is john kirby who's asked a question about the tara threat to america as linked to the refugees stream from afghanistan and his response is stunning cup. Ten play cuts and just one more. How many individuals on cara watch lists have been screened or found at any of the screening points. Either in cutter ramstein or in the us. I don't know we'll have to take that question and get back to you know just terrorists. I'll circle back.
How to Say Yes to Life
"Take few moments if you'd like to. Maybe adjust higher sitting so. Your posture supports meditation. The guidelines for sitting. Meditation are simple in the sense that the posture upright so that there's a quality of being tall alert and also relaxed alert and relaxed alert and relaxed. Eyes are closed. Unless you'd prefer to have them open that's fine too. There's no rules on it. Often the mind quiets more easily with the is close. You might feel this life breath and fuelled at your heart and bring a kind of inner listening to your heart syncing. What mood is here.
Late-Stage Cancer Healing with Life Coach Tara Coyote
"Why the time. I moved back home to hawaii which was in the winter of two thousand nineteen and for the next few months. I was in such bad health space. I had so much cancer my lungs. I can't hold a conversation. I had to sleep sitting up for two months. Because i had so much cancer my lungs i was literally choking in my sleep. My bones were breaking down. I started walking with a cane. During that time i was referred to hospice and it was petrifying. You know i was losing weight. It was it was clear on my way out. And i'm very fortunate that the medical system here in hawaii they have aloha spirit. You know it's all about love and acceptance and my doctors here. They didn't push me. They weren't blowing me in the same way unfortunately did a northern california and they said listen. You know doing chemo could possibly save your life. But if you don't you probably have six months to live which it was true like my. I was dying. My partner at the time was literally scared. I would die in my sleep. So i had to face my worst fear of doing chemotherapy and face a lot of the traumas around my best friend. Deb's staff and i really sat with a question of do i wanna live. Do i want to do what scares me. The most and my son was twenty. Six at the time. And i thought i wanted to be here for my son. I had so many friends in my similar situation. Who had died from adhering to the natural route and i saw myself going that direction so i really checked in with myself and i said okay. I'm gonna do chemo. I'm gonna face my fears. I did the work of byron. Katie really questioned my thoughts and turn it around like you know at first. I thought he is poison. That will kill me. And i was in the public is sharing this message to so i really humble myself to turn this message around and tell the public okay. I'm doing chemo now So i had to turn the thought around from it. Being poisoned to it being healing nectar and i started doing chemotherapy It was very hard but it was a tremendous rothe experience. I'm so grateful. I did
"tara w" Discussed on Armchair Expert with Dax Shepard
"They walk off defeated. They just got their ass kicked they say goodbye to their entire family and then they can't hunt and they go out and starve to death. That's a life of ads and it's not a good ride for them either here. You always want to find everyone's point of view okay. Oh that's it okay when they were next to vehicle Like you can know intellectually. They're five hundred pounds. But until you see a fucking five hundred pound killing machine next to you i can't. I don't think i'd enjoy that so far. And then tell you something. I had this distinct thought like every other thing. I have a fantasy that i would try to fight back in a way that could potentially saved my life. I literally looked at that thing. And i was like the quicker the better like there's no. There's nothing to be done like. Just make it as quick as possible. I'm going to like present my narrow stop. This means i'm sorry. Wrong kind of pouts. Did you look at the i. yes i use a. You're not supposed to but it was looking at me and the eye and then i was like look at me in the eyes so then i had to look at me in the. I fucking like this i. I have a pitcher of it. I have a picture of it on my computer. Walked by new win. Like this when you took a you then your phone out man i had my cannon sally maybe maybe it like covered your face a little well. The point is it locked eyes with me and pan right as it passed the vehicle like it held a gays because their whole defenses. They don't recognize you as prey. Because you're in this vehicle recognizes. My eyes is a creature that eats everything is loves is the apex of it so it was like a slow build. I guess it turned out exactly how it should. But i was like a wild lion ass walk across the long field and it was getting closer and closer and get more and more scared. I think those things are still three hundred pounds. And it got close. And i was really panicked. But then more interactions over the week and then culminating in us like something came over the radio. They got a zebra in in the guy took us over. We parked in the dead middle of about thirteen lions. They were all around us. So it's not like we were. On the periphery looking. We were in the pride. I kept turning my head like there's some behind me. There's some left there laying on the ground. The guy's going don't worry. They just eight zebra. They're not hungry. And i'm like how do we know every one of them got fall. We he doesn't know them. It was wild like that had been the first thing we did on the thing. I don't think i could handle it..
"tara w" Discussed on Armchair Expert with Dax Shepard
"Yeah safest way. What else about it. And he asks about it or give my obama impersonation of three. It wasn't very good. When i did it on stage i do. I do it better it you know. It's really hard to know. Am i feel the need to project when i'm on the show in. It's kind of a quiet you know it's like i need a mic right here rachelle. Sasha me that's good love the good place. I got a little little i to do it. I can't project that makes sense quilt. We dropped that bomb obama bomb bomb. He'll the our first episode on spotify july first. And it's a good one good into real going is a goody okay. Some faculties so terra was super fun. Yes she was and you guys could connect. Yeah yeah such a special way. That's kind of a long time coming. I know 'cause like we had a jane on of course but she didn't seem like she wanted to geek out on anthropology with me. Yeah and tara did. Yeah and so interesting so many things. I didn't know. I mean. I really wish the pod could go be around the guerrillas is the guerrillas who picked the alpha. Yeah yeah yeah. Yeah yeah yeah be around the guerrillas and see who they pay. Because i wonder if they're stereotyping us and like because in their world it size right okay. So they're not actually reading personalities which is exactly my point to the guy. I was arguing with on the walk up. Because he was a green beret. He'd kill me one second right but the gorilla has no idea about his training. The girl doesn't own a green beret is. I was bigger than the guy and my family's were stronger. I think my phone's really shy. Just smelled really that type of fabric wayne. Sometimes there's certain type of fabric will fuck your arm. I've found like i'll have certain shirts on my. I never have. But when i wear this shirt i have b o o..
"tara w" Discussed on Armchair Expert with Dax Shepard
"By one heavenly to sleep like in his like on their backs acts. Okay i have a very hard question to ask you that. I would have maybe not but just hearing that part so you lost. Your husband died of cancer over eight years ago. So your girls were like six and fours. Yeah okay so over. Well you think you must have processed that. I can imagine myself. Witnessing this fatherly behavior just mucky losing it in the words own now. This is what they don't have the grocery store. And i would see my daughter's tracking these little girls with their dads and mike watching that. Yeah it is really hard and you realize what they're missing when they don't have that father figure. I'm very lucky 'cause we always say with guerrillas. It takes a village. And i have a very wonderful village. My husband and i met in college so a lot of our college friends in particular his college friends. There's this great book called the circle of dad's it's about a gentleman who was diagnosed with cancer and he brought friends together from various points of in his life to be there for his daughters. Should pass away and he ended up surviving. But i was so inspired by this book. And i read it even before my husband had passed away. It's really about friendship. And so we have this circle of dad's which provides amazing support. But it's hard. I mean it's hard i have really amazing smart. Bright strong independent girls and not having any testosterone in the house to the balance. I'm sure you're familiar with the men. Just bring a different dynamic. And i can remember when they were really little. My husband's saying like take it easy on your mom. Something i thought would start when they were like fifteen but but they're phenomenal are going to change. The world by parenting is tough. I think it's uniquely challenging because don't go to work and then observe this thing. they're missing. I just think you uniquely painful situation for that. And i applaud the fact that you're pushing through and being productive and wonderful in raising daughters. It's it's super impressive. I think anyone who is married and has kids. That's like the second biggest fear is that you lose your partner in raising them when you step back in you watch our behavior and you watch sort of objectively the way that we would watch animal behavior. It's super fascinating to look at humans. As a species we have such range. We are the most incredibly compassionate and caring on one end. and then we've got the complete other side of us and so sometimes i like to do that. Like go and sit and people watch and just think about them. The way that i would think about watching guerrillas and it's just fun to do. I have the same proclivity. And i wondered my main thing that i feel like i keep lane over. Humans that i learned in anthro is all these. Social primates live and die on status like it is the most paramount thing to navigating their world. And so when i look at us humans i feel bad because we have as much or more..
"tara w" Discussed on Experts on Expert with Dax Shepard
"I would love to hear like what did you think when you saw them as a tourist like having learned about them and then going out and seeing them but was your experience like well. First and foremost. I got really lucky in that. We had been in tanzania for probably ten days before we went there and as much as i love animals. I am terrified of them. So the weakened tanzania lions were regularly coming up right to the jeep. We were in. That had no doors. No windows. And i'm fucking. I'm of eighteen inches away from five. Hundred pound male lion and kristen loved it. She's taking pictures. And i'm like we're like we're so vulnerable. You know the guides like oh. They don't recognize us as prey. Because we're in a car and i'm like yeah until the day they do. Someone's going to be clever enough to realize there's a delicious meal sitting completely defenses. I gotta tell you one other really funny part of it i have to imagine. I wonder what you're feeling. Is i think the people that go. It's not a comfortable. You don't fly directly to some place you generally. There's a six hour car ride involved. You stay in a very bare bones. Place the night before you get money and messy. Like the shitheads get weeded out like someone who just wants a pitcher with a gorilla and i could be wrong about that but it did appear to me that most people that were there had a ton of actual respect for those animals because there was a big commitment to get there we happen to be with a green beret who i just met on that trip now and the whole hour and a half hike up that mountain. We argued about who would get pulled out by the silverback. Who was the most alpha in this group. And i kept saying look man. He doesn't know your training. He's just going to go visually. I'm so much more alpha than you. Visually ramones he's like telling me all the reasons so we were in both joking war. I'm also terrified to get pulled out so just for people who don't know often they told us fifty percent of the time. I don't know what the real number is fifty percent of the time. The silverback will kind of identify who he thinks is maybe the most potential threat and they just come over and they pick you up by your backpack and they drag you out of the circle or at least. That's what we were told could happen so i didn't want that to happen. But it was worth having it happened to have won that argument with the green beret. Knowing pulled out that day but i am curious. How often does it happen..
"tara w" Discussed on Experts on Expert with Dax Shepard
"Getting to live these long full lives but they might get an infection and die from that our old age they also died from respiratory disease so that can be a big problem for them okay. I got to bring this up just because it's unavoidable. So i grew up and i saw guerrillas in the mess. I'm like this woman is an absolute hero. I got into anthropology in a little bit different story about her. And i don't know how comfortable you are talking about that. But i guess. I heard that the the criticism of her was as she probably wasn't as detached of an observer. She may be should have been. Maybe diane fossey. Jane did i say jane. Oh yeah yeah is in. The midst was sigourney. Weaver wonderful actress playing dian fossey very popular movie in my youth but i guess the the criticism was was. She was to interactive with them Which they believe lead to some desensitizing of their fear of humans which led to poachers having easier access to them. Also i think she got into some wars with poachers. She burnt down one of their camps and they retaliated by killing twelve grill. Something horrendous i would feel unethical. Did not mention that. It's a little bit of a rocky past. Yeah i think for sure. I mean diana originally went there just like jane and so the three the leaky ladies as they call them. Sometimes she was picked by louis leakey to go and study released. She had no formal scientific background. She was thirty four years old when she went. I think about this woman who just picked up her life and moved to africa to lip. She first started in congo and after six months was kicked out because of civil unrest she actually was arrested by the military and she didn't give up so she went over to the rwanda side. She's like if you seen in the movie she's like gorillas don't know country boundaries. So i'm just going to move over to rwanda and start the research center there. And i think one of diane's greatest legacies is that she did lose her impartiality which i would say jane did as well and they were kind of the first to do that to see these animals not as numbers but as individuals and as she got to know them as individuals and tell their story it changed the way people thought about gorillas so they used to be king kong ferocious beast and now they're nickname is gentle giant and so she completely changed public perception.
"tara w" Discussed on Armchair Expert with Dax Shepard
"Which is totally not what you would expect for guerrillas. Yeah that's kinda wild and then also just for fun you get into the nitty gritty about the chimps. So yeah the reason that the sexual die. Morphism champs is not so dramatic like it is with guerrillas cleverness can get your genes passed on so they are known to call out the call for a leopard and of course the dominant male runs over with his dudes. Like let's get and then the clever one. Just start having sex with maybe even a high-ranking female because all the males have gone over to be so cleverness can mean and these are the comedians of the group. If in when have you guys. Observe gorillas kind of outsmarting silverback. Do they use any tactics like that. I would say guerrillas. This is a funny piece of the male vocalisations. They make when they're copulating may seem to not be able to suppress it because they live. You've been in that habitat you know. It's super dense forest so you can easily like go around the bush and no one will know you're there and then you hear them. Start making the copulation noise and you want to be like dude top. Like you'll know this is going on and that's when you see the adult males will go over and break it up but if they could just like zip it they would be golden. Wow so interesting. And does the silverback go running. Generally like he well a lot of time so cowan split it up. Yeah okay something really interesting that way. We didn't hear the rest of the kinds of so sorry. You're right yeah. There's mountain gorillas and just also a little bit. There's only a thousand of them left on the planet there's growers guerrillas which live just over the border in democratic republic of the congo. That's the only country there found and we estimate there's about thirty five hundred of them left. Which the number seems a little bit nicer. It's bigger but we've lost eighty percent of them in the last twenty five years so they are crashing. The way mountain girl is crashing back when diane fossey was there and then you have to kind of across to west africa. And then you've got the western lowland gorillas there are still pretty robust. There's about four hundred thousand of them left. Oh wow but they're declining as well a lot of it from poaching and then there's another type called the cross river gorilla which not many people have heard of. That are just found on the border of cameron in nigeria. So only one of those four lynn. Zoos so the other three are only found in the wild. So protecting those wild populations is really critically important. Our mountain gorillas only found in zoos because they offer the silverback and they'd just visually more on brand for guerrilla so western lands. Are the only one found in zoos. So all yeah. All types of girls silverback. Oh that's just a process of maturation. So just the same way females get hair on their face and brought her shoulders gorilla males when they reached twelve thirteen start to develop that silver mantle on their back and so then they become a silverback. So they're all four popular off for type..
"tara w" Discussed on Armchair Expert with Dax Shepard
"Thank you for being flexible. My pleasure and allowing us to change it. Are you interested in. Why am why. I research the wrong person all morning at my calendar. Just a double check. I was spilling this person's name right and then is like wait tara. That's not who. I've been researching. So i had a little mini panic attack. But now i'm here. That's hilarious was at someone super interesting like who. Is it going to be instead of me. Chris bosh very successful. Nba basketball player. A lot of overlap. yeah exactly tons of overlap. How did you come to be a prime entomologist. I always wanted to work with animals. From the time. I was a little kid and was going to be a vet. Because that's kind of what. I knew that you could do went over seas to do my master's and got the opportunity to go to africa and just really fell in love with studying animal behaviors. I studied jackals in zimbabwe. They were totally nocturnal of very naive. I had no idea how cold sub saharan africa can be in their winner and we will go out at six o'clock at night. We never saw the jackals. They had radio collars on so we followed. These beats through the field. But i loved it and so i came back and decided instead of doing veterinary work that i would get a phd in animal behaviour. And i didn't know that. I would end up in primatology with guerrillas to go back to africa and i really wanted to work with social mammals and something that i could see during the daytime like that was a definite plows. Prerequisite go around. You want to see your subjects exactly so and then i ended up getting the best job in the entire world was second to ours but yes so incredibly good job. Can i ask you have like romantic. Fantasies of what doing fieldwork in africa was going to be like. Because i certainly would have conjured up some expectations in that situation. Ow totally..
"tara w" Discussed on Experts on Expert with Dax Shepard
"Thank you for being flexible. My pleasure and allowing us to change it. Are you interested in. Why am why. I research the wrong person all morning at my calendar. Just a double check. I was spilling this person's name right and then is like wait tara. That's not who. I've been researching. So i had a little mini panic attack. But now i'm here. That's hilarious was at someone super interesting like who. Is it going to be instead of me. Chris bosh very successful. Nba basketball player. A lot of overlap. yeah exactly tons of overlap. How did you come to be a prime entomologist. I always wanted to work with animals. From the time. I was a little kid and was going to be a vet. Because that's kind of what. I knew that you could do went over seas to do my master's and got the opportunity to go to africa and just really fell in love with studying animal behaviors. I studied jackals in zimbabwe. Totally nocturnal of very naive. I had no idea how cold sub saharan africa can be in their winner and we will go out at six o'clock at night. We never saw the jackals. They had radio collars on so we followed. These beats through the field. But i loved it and so i came back and decided instead of doing veterinary work that i would get a phd in animal behaviour. And i didn't know that. I would end up in primatology with guerrillas. I just really wanted to go back to africa. And i really wanted to work with social mammals and something that i could see during the daytime like that was a definite plows. Prerequisite go around. You want to see your subjects exactly so and then i ended up getting the best job in the entire world was second to ours but yes court. Good job can i ask. You have like romantic. Fantasies of what doing fieldwork in africa was going to be like. Because i certainly would have conjured up some expectations in that situation. Ow totally all the national geographic and programs are wonderful because they give you so much incredible information about animal behavior. But what you don't realize is that was like two years of filming to get twenty minutes on video and there's a lot of time just sitting watching animals sleep watching animals eat. I have a colleague who studied lions and he describes it as like one of the most boring jobs in the world. 'cause they sleep twenty two hours a day. Yeah unless remaining. And then they're up nonstop all the time. Isn't that crazy. Yeah but then. When it's time to mate the male he mates item something insane. Some insane amount of times in a twenty four hour period doesn't because he no way stays awake the exception well like they made and then he promptly like falls over and falls asleep and then they get up twenty minutes later and do it again. Yup yeah and this round robin. Yes sounds pretty good and for the mail. He doesn't even have to hunt so he just kinda sleeps and then all of a sudden foods around god. It's a pretty dream gig..
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"It like that was a little dr met you know. Yeah it was. It was really perfect. Because you know the the spiritual teachers the cause trouble they. It is always a marble thing. There is some real insight and wisdom. But they've got unprocessed stuff and it's not integrated and so the idea is how can we wake up in a way that's integrated so that we don't have a lot below the line. There's not a lot. That's running our behavior that we will claim as part of our spirituality. But it's really just our ego that might want to act in a way to basically You know rape a student our way to take money. That's not meant for us. So and i've i've seen the downfall of so many teachers and it's not just teachers of courses anybody in power because they weren't integrated. They had not done that processing so it can have a really ugly shadow side but even when it's not ugly emphasize emptiness that nobody's home. This is just reality. Just playing itself out. Its appearances arising in dissolving. It's it's what's called dry emptiness and it lacks the moisture of the heart and it lacks kind of wisdom that really can navigate in a way that brings healing to ourselves and others. So there's a real value to doing the present saying like the words being in the present moment or be present. But i like be the presence or bring presence to as. That's more active Subjective understanding of it but present thing with all the layers that appear and versus what sometimes called premature transcendence will we just and contents the teachers to say. All you have to do is see that it's empty. just see. don't believe your thoughts to see that it's empty. And i'm really i love. Don't believe your thoughts. It's one of the things. I i really try to practice a lot but then come into the body and have an honest intimate awake presence with what's here are else it's going to be below the line and end up hijacking us in a much more sideways kind of way right wow i mean premature. Transcendence that it's that an and dry genus. But yeah while. I'm just i just want to say it so that it gets there because it really has been coming up over and over again and that's so nice to hear that this is Yeah that that that's not just in my own head that they're no there. Is there kind of a pattern and a process. There is a flip side though val just to name which is people get addicted to processing and they think there's always more to pay attention to and i'm not there yet and that's another delusion to and sometimes just one of my teachers says just dropping like just drop it all like everything that's like no deep thought that one of our mantras is no deep thoughts allege we take we take break see call week we love our about this stuff and sometimes you just go stop and those are some of my favorite times. I love putting all this stuff in there and knowing it's in there and then when you drop everything it's still it's still in your mirrow. You know what. I mean. I my i was going to ask you about psychedelics when i take psychedelics whenever i go to that place i go. It matters filling yourself up with all of this wisdom matters. Because when the ax hits the grindstone and the sparks fly half. The sparks are informed. By what you were filling yourself with in a psychological way. And i think in a spiritual way might has always like. It's not quite right but it's so adorable. How close we could get like the. The effort was beautiful even if it will never be the absolute mystery. That was my last question for you. Tara just out of respect your time we asked for two hours were closing in on is I was just listening to terence mckenna and he was talking about. Emt and he was saying that he gave emt to very. He didn't say who would like a very high. High ranking to betton monk and that the tibetan monks. I'd never heard this he goes. Oh it's the lower lights. Have you heard of the lower. I hadn't that it that it's one of the baras. That's one of the So when he smoked. Emt you have like a complete channel change. You're not here anymore. You're in a different reality. And you're there. They only lasts fifteen minutes but the catch is that it's timeless so it doesn't really matter how long it is on earth anyway. So you're in this other place and he said it's it's one of the bardo so when you die you go through the bartos and the lower lights are as high as you can go while still maintaining a connection to your body and to go to the upper lights you have to sever the connection to the body to go any further. I was just wondering and he said so what amongst that. I wanted to put us like. I've seen these. I've i've visited this place many times and he was like i don't understand how you're getting there from a plant as very confusing but like go there. I'm assuming he meant through meditation all the time. I was wondering what your what your thought i know. This is wearing like a psychedelic renaissance. See you must get this all the time. But i've gotten a lot of value out of them And i'm wondering what you make of that lower light thing if you've and then really it's just a. It's just a fun question. it's just in the spirit of fun. Have you ever been to those bartos. Yeah i have and Just to back up a little. It's really amazing. How neurosciences showing that what meditation does is very similar to. What a lot of the chemicals do the plant. The plant medicines Dm t. which is a totally deactivates. The parts of the brain that sustained a sense of self. So they doing the same thing. And i i started with psychedelics. I had experiences that. I knew were homecoming in some way and then realized that meditation could keep on carrying me so i completely stopped. Did you know fifteen years. Whatever of meditation and then. I gradually began to periodically drop in a psychedelic journey. Here and there are and have found that the meditation is. What integrates it you know and relationships. Integrate i mean meditation and being alive in the world and and then they can be like a booster rocket to take these things and i just did recently Consult for a group here. Fantastic what they're doing. I think it's the first group that's in hospital. It's an oncologist and his team. That are that are offering cancer. Patients soloist ivan and so on and we consulted about. How do you design meditation and therapy to integrate it. So that they because they they do find that they open to a place. That's very fearless. Because they're not identified with their human self body and there really trusting and sensing the goal the unity the one and then and it really affects. How they they. They relate to the deceased processed. And the meditation and therapy are really. I can tell are going to be increasingly important support for it so it's really a both end. He was terence was also. I say i do feel like he's my friend. Turns use talking about talk about integration. He's a lot of people will have a mt experience. And they'll come back and they won't. It'll be gone like a dream upon waking they won't have any capacity to incorporate it and i thought that was very interesting that meditation does seem to work. That seems kind of grotesque takata muscle. But like it helps you. I mean as a lot of tibetan buddhism. Staying calm in a bardo like seeing the impossible and still staying in a in a center in the word is getting familiar. Which i love is with everything like any time. I kinda wake up out of a tangle and then it's not i- anymore but there's this field of tenderness and wakefulness. There's more familiarity that that's more of the truth of who i am than any store i could ever tell about myself. So those experiences start becoming the reality the another words. I'm not living in something smaller. And so that when you get catapulted by one of these plant medicines. There's already some familiarity and it just deepens that process so for me. with d. m. t. which i've only done a couple of times. It definitely catapults to that total disillusion. There's no orientation are centralization of self. And if i talk about it i can feel. It's kind of a felt sense that you know beyond a felt sense because it can't be described through the body but there's access so there's some integration but i think that's just because there was already a level of familiarity Does that make sense. Yes yeah having the the reference point like it's almost like the psychedelics blowing a a door open but then you enter the door and you go wait a minute. I know this room. I've been here i. it's interesting. The the christian tradition. When you look at again. I've been doing reading about paul so paul conversion experience. I know you were raised in the christian church so you probably i was. I was not where. I read somewhere that you were referring unitarian. Which and which is supposedly under its under the rubric. it's it was very non a social justice and progressive but not so much about a spiritual experience..
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"I was like i don't know it's so it's so earthy because we were doing like you know kunda delaney and primordial sounded you know tm and all these things that are like year you know invest. It could be a misunderstanding of those things but it was like trying to leave this. This reality knows like buddhism has just kind of very very earthy and. I don't know if i need that. Once i got so Had such a Crown chakra scary experience. I wanted to clean to the earthquake in that movie. Gravity with sandra bullock where she'd like kisses the earth her run so i really i really appreciate specifically the incorporation of the role of the body that has to be through the body and you have to love and nurture and listen to this body. It's not about leaving it or devaluing it And then i've also heard jack mention that he kind of had the same thing he he started more like crown chakra stuff An and realized that he had a lot of cleaning up to do in his body So so i'm really starting to descend new idea but just starting to understand the kind of naturals scaffolding of experience in the foundations of mindfulness. And so anyway. I just threw a lot at you but i just wonder if you could speak a little bit too that either embodiment or Or like kind of grounding down before you you know. I actually feel like you just offered a beautiful teaching on.
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"This is the denouncing all. It's it's like if our daughter leila you know. It's how i would feel about her like i will remind you that you are safe and loved as many times as it takes no problem. I love reminding you. You know that was the feeling. And that's alone new when you share that devotional practice which a may adopt as well well and the fact. Because you're the god of your childhood. There's something so innocent and true about it That that love is living through everything and we have to find the ways of what we turn towards. It most gives us access like for me. I have a tree a false. And here. And i've been cultivating this love relationship. That was already there with the tree. But i'm just waking up to it more that we're very in relationship you know it depends on me to live. I breathe within the oxygen from it but more than that. I just in some way. I actually say i love you. May you do well. And and in saying that and feeling it loving me like just supposing that loves me and i know how this can sound to some people but just assuming it loves me actually wakes up the realness of relatedness and i had an interesting experience. I was listening to a podcast about a physicist. His name is and i'm looking at the book right now. Because i just got his book. Carlo rosella held the land so here is one of the most brilliant physicists in terms of understanding contemporary physics in the world. And he's you know making all these breakthroughs about quantum theory and his deepest breakthrough that is circulating. now has to do with everything in the universe. Being in relationship with everything else that it doesn't matter what location two separate disparate objects are and they're not objects they're not separate and they only exist in relatedness to each other you know and and one little very brief anecdote details is. He writes beautifully. He says he cannot go speak to people online or in person until he's i gone outside. Wherever he is found a tree touched. It felt the inspiration. Oh that tree. And that gives them a feeling of belonging and empowerment and happiness is as he walks away smiling and then he can go speak so we need to find the pathway of connection that that souza's that wakes us up whether it's you know comedy club or wherever. Yeah yeah. Yeah with the ocean with the trees and then people yes start with the ocean right one of the reasons we like the ocean as because it's so clear that you're in relationship to the whole ocean. You know like one of the practices that is sometimes you as you think of the air as gelatinous. You know if you if you could just trying to point out myself and others that the air is made of the same atoms you're made of though it's not like there's real and then there's like nothing doesn't exist like we don't have a scientific basis for nothing i i. I don't know if that's entirely true. But like everything is something even what we perceive is. Nothing is is something because even if it is just a relationship of this as zero and this is a one. I'm out of my depth. Were were in an ocean right now. It's that what the hell is. Water thing yeah. No it's beautiful cousin. Would it just saying there's no distress Discreet separate object unto itself. nothing exists unto itself. the waves are all belong are made of ocean and belonging to ocean Yeah i vowed. I wanna give you because we're almost out of time but i wanna give you time to ask questions. I did want to ask one last. Well i really have two things. I you ask your question. Okay if you if you have one or two. Obviously as many as you like. When i wanted to say just because you're a teacher and you might enjoy this You were talking about like we know deep down that we that there's something bigger going on This was a long time ago. You said this and again. It's richard roy's like every fairytale it's it someone realizing that they're born from divine from royal blood. Even harry potter is a young boy who realizes his father was the great wizard. And it's like why do we keep telling the story. It's because it's your story you realize that you are blood is divine that your parents are the universe itself and mike you need to wake up to your own son or daughter of god. Nece isn't isn't that just fun and totally resonates is true. It's one of the great. You know you see through history of people thinking that that either and sometimes it's the parent thinking. This isn't my kid because the child does not represent the beauty and the sacredness that they think that they should give birth there. I've seen it's really true. we have. it's both truth and distortion. 'cause you know we also have a An inflation that feel special because we own that nobility and we own that it's like the consciousness of the universe moves through us and then we own it and it becomes inflation but if we just get at that's our that's our birthright and it it's our assets then it's actually empowering right well that's mb here now. It's one of my again i. It's a very funny standup bet. It's like tara brach can't said at the right hand of god because that's what psychosis like you don't make the journey a you realize you try and bring if i try and bring pete holmes. It's christian imagery but to the right hand of god. That's literally a cliche of an insane person. Art if you realize. I am divine and i'm also not divine. It's it's a it's a paradox. it's like i am an to say. I'm not in p doesn't enlightened. But i am. It's sorta like both. Both things are true. Like pete certainly not but but the big i is made of enlightenment. Love it yeah. There's actually does lead to to something that i wanted to bring up which is kill ken. Wilber has the idea of like cleaning up before you wake up. And i think that there's we love like colts documentaries and so often the cult leader is touching on some profound truth. But what's helped me kind of an for a long time. I couldn't reconcile that that was breaking my brain And and now. I'm starting to understand that there's like if you jump straight to like crowned shaqra absolute truth stuff without doing the necessary cleaning up and the necessary Witnessing the ego and its patterns than it can almost like give the ego some of these delusions of grandeur basically your And that aunt or a can. And i've experienced this with trying to i jump to crown. Shocker stuff it can be way too scary. Just like there's no grounding and i'm seeing too much too fast and so maybe that you know what i'm experiencing or what i experienced psychedelics or something is true but i was already living from the neck up and and was ignoring my body and so it was. It was not integrating in a healthy way. And that's what i love this. This is where you're working. And jack's work kind of entered. Where at first. Even with buddhism..
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"To do that all the time there. There have to be funny interesting. I don't mean sexual but sexy. Like stories of someone having to operate on their own father or something like that. I don't know. But i'm pretty sure that's the whole thing about the show grey's anatomy really. Yeah drama right yeah. We're all operating on her own father in a way. Let us some weird questions of these are just for fun There's part of me that wants to give a disclaimer like this as ego stuff but who cares. Have you ever seen a ghost a ufo or have you ever almost died. I know you talked about being sick. Yeah i have almost died. I haven't seen a ghost or you have but I have had times that i had raided cardia and my blood and everything would go down a lot. And i've had times that. I felt like i was very close to the edge of being blinked out. And he knew this is a go ahead please. I've had it a few times. I had that experience When i was really sick one time. And i wasn't sure whether or not to go to the emergency room when i was in downward spiral after having a concussion And i've had it with a mix of medications. It didn't seem right and that lowered so. Yeah so i and when it happened. I had the idea that i was supposed to open to the fear of dying so i tried to open to the fear of dying and my organism was battling it so then i had opened to battling it and it was just a constant play of fear and trying to open to fear an.
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"Girl. All right. that's book to. It will trust the gold. That was just so gold because the the the cycle of like okay. I'm separate so i'm going to serve myself and then you feel dirty for and bad for being greedy a wanted to be special or wanting to protect yourself or back to everything i do. I do for my kids. This is an enabling lie to help us cover the shame or we'd say it's just a story to cover the shame because we're all telling ourselves all sorts of things that aren't true to help us do the things that we feel that we have to do all because we saw ourselves as separate and because ourselves a separate we thought there are all these things to do and some of them are yucky so then we have to cognitive dissonance. We have to. We have to build a new story to cover up the shame. I mean that's a game changer. what you just said. it's a game changer. ya and in radical acceptance. You talk about this a lot about the like eyeing in my ing and so in boy that really just changed that was such a paradigm shift of like you have a an energy of of maybe anxiety. That would just come up out. But then it's like we kidnap it and we go. This is mine. And i can think of all the past times that i was anxious. Oh my god. The my nature's purchase it's become the whole identity and and it lives an eye knowing that is so helpful. And i still am in constant practice of forgetting that having the suffering remind me that i've forgotten having brief moments of of remembering and trying to let it go and then starting the whole cycle of again island byron talks about suffering being like the alarm clock. That's going off that you've got and i i want to put this utera. I don't want it. If i'm being honest of course i wanna blab and be impressive. What we're talking about.
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"Comes the mao. I'm so sorry i'm late. I region was good. I guess yet. She's the queen of our lives. She runs everything totally understand. I spend. I was facetime ing yesterday with my grants. I don't have but same same same age about to turn three. And you know she. She gave me a tour of the house and she took me around with the her iphone. I was almost nauseous at the end. Because you know so fun to get that hit a. It's such a fun age. When she faced times with my mom she insists on holding it. And it's just her eyebrow forehead which is the same as face timing. My mum right usually. She's face timing her entering the old a very young. Don't time really hard but talk about. Just just this so tara and i were just having a very beautiful moment of dropping anchor in the present and going and she was saying with her partner that they go this is it and it was like what even sometimes when we just sit down to watch a movie we go. This is it. This is this is doing it. They were doing. We're doing it Or when leela wouldn't go down last night. The i i had that last night or i think i got up in the middle of the night with her and i had this beautiful sort of foggy. Realization that suffering is really stupid. I obviously with respect. I suffer all the time. But in this moment i was like okay. It's four in the morning. And i'm rocking the baby but if i give in to that impulse to make story will now i'm gonna be tired. It's gonna ruin my day I'm i have that podcast at eleven. I'm not going to be sharp. It's gonna be bad People are gonna stop listening I'm going to be destitute like that. Is insanity like that is absurd delusion. I we love what muji says. No one has ever experienced the wit the future. They imagined like it's like why. Are you wasting your time as a comedian. Your public speaker. When i have a show at a college usually like a non traditional venue. I would imagine what the venue will look like. And sometimes when i'm falling asleep they flash before my eyes these weird wooden atriums that i think i'm going to be performing and The strange beehive stage like they're absurd their they're dreamlike and none of them were real so it was almost like. I'm not saying it was a waste of time but it was sort of masochistic to go like what if it. What if i'm down. What if i'm in anti gravity boots and i'm doing a show upside down and the whole audience has their back to me and i have a muzzle on like that eckerd. Tola can get very funny and roasti and he's like that is insanity. It's not very gentle language. But i find it funny. He's like that. Let's just call it what it is. It's madness like we don't know and the day ends up being fine sometimes the mornings where i get up. I got up this morning. Poor valve didn't sleep much more than i did. Sometimes you have more energy you don't know just Can you talk a little bit about. I love richard road who's a franciscan. And he was talking about the great surrender to god. He uses guide language. Which i think is beautiful and he says is to realize you're not writing the story you're being written like it. It's not really for you to control. It's for you to realize that you're already in the big show like you don't have to earn your way into the big show. You are the big show and something else is sort of knife is living. Life is living you. Life is breathing new. And you don't make like. I think the way that we would have said this when i was young as you don't make the sunrise. You don't make the sunset like there's ways of putting it like sort of dismissively but can you talk a little bit about that feeling of surrender. Well the first piece is recognizing that you're owning a life you know it's like i have a life. I am the doer you know. It's that that identity is so deep in us. Like i am now conducting an interview seeing it as round as would say. Can i conduct an interview but not get lost in the role of interviewer.
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"Sex with your mother and it's honest and it's it's almost like a a deity inside of you. It's just as wall of everything that's ever happened to you with no lives and i find it fairly easy to sort of not bow but go holy shit you deserve. You deserve some reverence and you're welcome here like let's get. Don't overwhelm me but give me a little bit a little bit of those multi-headed beasts that we have to walk through. Well it's kind of like that whole thing of are you more driven are drawn to being comfortable are to waking up. You know really uncomfortable. And of course we've been traumatized it's overwhelming and it's not even tolerable but one of the images. I like a whole lot. Heat is from joseph cambell and he describes awareness as the speak circle with a line going through then he says whatever you know is below. The line is what outside of awareness and whatever's above. The line is in awareness. And really what meditation does is. It moves the line so that there's more and more we're just more and more living in awareness and we include the more we know again. I for me ocean waves really. Does it that. Were include the ways but we are the ocean and so And if you trust your the ocean you're not afraid of the way And if and if you don't trust the ocean you'll get seasick every day out that week. I love that. It's so funny. I i feel like people have such a or an easier time. Let's take people bladder it. I- tara is an easier time looking out at others and going. it's all in the game. it's all in the game. there's a selfish person. There's an angry person. There's a lustful person and i just go. Look at the dance. Look at the dance. it's okay. But when i have it i go like you are a dirty boy. When you talk about going into meditation and a lot of things came to mind when he said like somebody offered that sometimes your brain is distracting you. When you're meditating because it doesn't want you to to incorporate this stuff it's it's actually trying to protect you again. You're you're doing this work. You're in my literally like trying to coax the unconscious out like a cat. That's an abortion putting a little tuna fish out for it and then my brain will start playing an episode of al from nineteen. And i'm like what are you doing and it's not just. I'm bad at meditating. I think there's something in it going. He doesn't know what he's doing. If you let this in the whole thing falls apart he won't be able to ride the bus. he won't be able to hold a job. He won't be able to host a podcast because he'll be insane if we incorporate and love everything. But can you give us a little hope that it's safe to incorporate and love ourselves not have shaved means that your whole you go and comfortable in the universe gets sustained. It gets one of the ways that again science. I've been getting more and more into science. I find like the metaphors of science. Like work so well on so much and so okay. So we know that as soon as we're not occupied in on a specific task other default network gets activated and the default network in our brain basically has us going into the past and the future over and over again to resurrect a stable sense of self are familiar yourself and so meditators say will wires. My mind is wandering well. It's like we're rigged to have a wandering mind. I mean it is. What preserves our sense of self and meditation in does assess himself though. It's not safe not safe. According to know that wants to stay comfortable and familiar but but what happens is there's another piece to it. Which is we also. Have this like intuition that we belong to something more each of us. Because it's the truth. We have that as an intuitive knowing we all have that wisdom and so when we get tastes It really motivates us that we that we're more we know we can't be at home in the ego. 'cause it's not the truth of who we are so there's some real longing to go ahead and open to. What feels edgy. And we learn one of one teacher said to meet our edge and soften which is like that one has been so helpful to me in a just. I remember i was in the hospital one and i had some. We didn't know what was wrong with me and And having to let go of all sorts of work. I've been doing and this and that. Because i was getting sicker and sicker and i remember one point with with all the fear coming up and all the voices of what you're describing the unconscious it was saying. Well this might be it you know. And there's going to be a net. Sometimes there's gonna be an n line in here we are. You know and all that. I'd have to give up the mantra that worked was just meacher edge and soften keep opening. I open to the fear and that opened me to the the grief like all this loss and and then that opened me to like this infinite tender place but it wouldn't have happened if i didn't have some coaching that as as we've been talking that knows that it's only by moving the line allowing what's unseen felt in that there was going to be some freedom to saying yes the fear to the drab. I mean it's real counterintuitive. The mantra that i use most often as yes. Thank you i know. I'm not the only one that's not like you need to me. But like not non-resistance might be too funky sounding but just saying yes. Thank you not just. Yes but actually this absurd. It's actually pretty funny like if you're if you're dying imagine greeting that with thank you. I can't i. Can't i can't imagine that that's high level stuff but that is my hope. Isn't that absurd where to weirdos. That are like boy. I hope when i'm dying. I'm able to say like like having a child you'll have like a thought if some tragedy or or you'll have unrelated to having a child. You'll have some weird violent fantasy a patricide. You'll have patricide seidel fantasy and the only thing that seems to work is a ramdas used to say treat them like rambunctious you don't you. Don't whip them. You tussle their hair and you kissed him on the cheek and you send them back to the playground does that does that sound right to you. Yeah it's really that attitude and and there's different colon different attitudes depending on what kind of you know. Rambunctious child is up. And sometimes it's that it's gratitude. It's like there was a japanese. None who her machos. Thank you for everything. i have. No complaints whatsoever jara. That i heard you guys either you or jack say that and i have it on my phone as a reminder at comes up every day as a reminder exactly that line and it's been i love that line i've loved i mean i i started i. I found out about it when my son was about seven or eight or nine and i remember he was a wigner and a veteran are like he really. I'd just say i would just keep saying honey this. Try this try know. Thank you for and it seemed to not make a damn. But i remember one day going to the dentist and i was driving And we hit you know the mother. All traffic jams and and.
"tara w" Discussed on You Made It Weird with Pete Holmes
"Tara brach. Get into it alot. Hey hi. I can't see anything yet. G give it time katie. It looks as if i just got eyedrops. Put in. And i met the optometrist's and it just everything's a blur. She heads kind. That's all you need. You just came and lovely. Hi tara how are you. What a pleasure good to see you. So eight thirty nine. It is eight thirty in the morning of owl will be joining us in thirty minutes. And i bet she'll be spruced up an nicely looking. I just jumped right on. So i probably look like a person. I've been up since. That's why i said it deal. I figured you were just kind of role that abed. No i'm joking jerkin us up. You'll love the baby. We have a baby that the she's been up since probably six and then she liked kicked and rolled all arrests until about seven. Which is when we got out of bed. That's we've been flown. What a nice way to enter the day. It's a lovely. What around in bed. Lovely way to enter the day absolutely no complaints whatsoever. and how. how is your day going. I really wanted to ask you that question. It sounds just like a question. But i woke up and i just was like i. I'm really excited to talk to tara. 'cause i had one of those mornings for some reason. You know the rubik's cubes of thoughts that you can be confronted with the first thing. They were the wrong ones meeting. Obviously they weren't the wrong ones. They just weren't the ones i wanted. They were thoughts of like stress. They were thoughts of like. It's gonna be a bad day and you know how the the brain likes to do that. It's like not not only this morning. That what you want. But the whole day is fucked. You're fucked and i sort of felt that behind the eight ball feeling and honestly my second thought was. I know you're a spiritual teacher and all these things but tara you're not immune to this. You must wake up some mornings and be like well. The the needle went on the record. Like a really wonky part. And i have to overcome this and i was wondering about is that you relate to that relate. I just look. I mean this morning the i first experience of consciousness with some sort of a clutching feeling in my heart like something bad was going to happen and but what i do is immediately i go. It's cortisol it. just the way cortisol. You know is peaks and goes down. Because we're supposed to like the morning have it starts peaking and we get more stressed and everybody and so many people have that like dread of the day before for no good reason you know. So i tell myself our. Just a chemical that howard. I love that guy who you're going to love by the way and i always forget to say thank you for doing this. Thank you for joining the tobacco so to start talking but we were. We were just talking about how the brain can't really come along on the journey. I know this is pretty deep to start right away. But there's this kind of phenomenon. Both of she and i were surrendering to the idea that the day we die we might have to earn it back. We might wake up and feel panic or feel despair or does not have a lot of faith or not a lot of connection not really feeling in the flow of divine grace. Or whenever you want to say and that's okay. Even the moment of death your brain might be like it's all bullshit. It was all stupid like because it's going to like forget cortisol. It's having a huge survival mechanism. It's it's panicking. it's trying to save. You is trying to give you adrenaline all of these things to get you out of the bed in and live and that's a really hard place to go like just surrender. I you probably know david nick turn. He's like it's like pushing out into the ocean further and further from the shore. And and you just say yes to it and you can die peacefully but your body. I don't know if your body's ever gonna like fully surrender just like you're saying the court is on the morning. It's doing what it thinks you need for. Whatever reason maybe you could speak to that like the brain isn't always going to be okay with whatever your spirit is is kind of evolving to. Does that make any sense. It totally makes sense. I mean we get hijacked. And that's however you wanna think about it. Our survival brain hijacks us all the time really. I mean it happens. All i'm where in some way it seems like this organism is threatened and so then the question is how much lag time until something in us gets that. That's what's going on rather than being completely identified and lost their saen little glimmer of that witness or whatever. We want to call the test. Oh this is just the normal. You know organised mic survival brain hijacking. You know yes the moment that. There's a little bit of recognition. Oh that's what's happening. Then we.
"tara w" Discussed on @ the Barz with Tara
"Welcome to episode one of at the bars. We'd tara our weekly or so podcast about everything about nothing. Actually let's call these episodes zero. We had the pilot and this is episode zero. Because i don't wanna start without bars. Yeah this is not at the bars with. Tara is just We tara bars is nowhere to be found. She actually stood me up. Oh yeah she is probably doing something fun with a boyfriend that is. They're usually during the weekend so i can't blame her for standing me up. I am I don't have a live so here. I am practicing this. Actually i just came back from having the best seafood brahmin. So i had to say that i do something eat mainly but but yes so i wanted to sit here and test this again and also i want to try and see how it feels again. You know to be of the mike without being a deer in headlights like i could be without practice. So yes Usually we decided that we were going to have a drink during our podcast depending on the mood like a glass of wine vodka killer shot and so on but without my wing woman. I decided to just stick with coffee. So i'm having coffee. I'm here in california sun. I'm in northern california. So it's not that hot but it's sunny and enjoying the day out doing nothing really being boring. But i love that so i'm having a coffee. This third of the day amoco folic. I only go up to the so. I think i'm okay instead of wine. I m cheap date. So i thought that if i started. Can you hear my dog so my dog is barking. And i just want to know if you know when i have an official episode you can hear as well or a have to like lock myself somewhere in a closet or something away from every noise so that you don't hear it anyway. We'll see when listen to this again. So so yes not alcohol right now. I although there's some reason to celebrate today we actually finally got rid of the orange cheeto in charge Biden won the election today. Everybody seems happy a new beginning. You know this is not even. I want to go to the politics thing. This is not even about politics democrat and public on This guy was just bad. He threw threw fully. He divided this country now. Not it wasn't divided before but everybody's so angry against each other and and these asked to pack to finish had the end. So i guess i am with the settle. Settle for people. I'm settling. i hope that he will be able to do something. Because i know that The country is very divided. Andy will have a hard time to do something without being cock blocked. Can you say that Not only by the people amp reaction. But also by little old tuchel mitch mcconnell for example that i'm pretty sure out spy and tried to to to come up with that and i told you so kind of reaction so i'm sure he will have a lot of pushback and and it will have a hard time to do something good. Let's hope for new beginnings and our hope that this country can recover a little bit at least in the human civil right. This is where this president really think. Because i never really believed that Any party is out for people like me in you. Like the regular people but I always thought out for themselves. I'm italian and you know. Corruption there has being horrible. So i never really had much faith into the government. However i'm hoping that the human human decency will get back To to rule at least most of our lives. There's now everybody's life but that's so today there is something to celebrate about. Let's hope that after a couple of more months of these horrible human being poor excuse for president in the white house we will have new good things to look forward to not sure about that. But let's they positive so beside that. I am Yeah here trying this thing again. And i am hoping to start to have real episode next week. Probably have to get on monday whenever bars is now partying and and yes. I'm looking forward to to actually start in this. Podcast is new adventure. Well i am probably going to delete this. We had the pilot. We'd have episodes zero so soon. We're gonna have episode one and this will finally officially launch this.