35 Burst results for "Sight"
AP News Radio
Northeast digs out from winter storm, faces power outages
"Parts of New York and New England are digging out of a northeaster. Michael garvey of Pittsfield, Massachusetts, says he and a snow blower have become a familiar sight. This is the third time probably within 24 hours I've used my snowblower with all this snow. The snowstorm that began Monday night in lasted through Tuesday dumped as much as three feet of snow in some areas, peterborough, Massachusetts got 35 inches, there were tens of thousands of power outages in the region, and trekking site power outage dot U.S. says some 67,000 homes and businesses were still without electricity by Wednesday evening. I'm Donna water
AP News Radio
Garbage tarnishes Paris luster as pension strike continues
"The city of light is losing its luster as tons of garbage piles up along the streets of Paris as sanitation workers strike for a 9th day, the creeping scholar is the most visible sign of widespread anger over a bill to raise the French retirement age by two years. Tourists Nadia tour says the smell in sight definitely affected her visit for the worse. But she sees the reason behind the mess. For us for tourists and for the locals. But if it does the job, then why not? I mean, it's for the cause. Lindale from Texas doesn't think the strikes are making a difference. There's got to be a better way than to just let it pile up and stop your job. It doesn't seem to be doing any good. Strikes in France have intermittently hobbled other sectors, including transport energy and ports. But French president Emmanuel Macron remains undaunted as his government presses ahead with trying to get the unpopular pension reform bill passed in parliament. I'm Karen Chammas
The Trish Regan Show
Twitter De-Platformed Everyone Until Elon Musk Came Along
"Forget, you heard Jim Jordan say they blocked any conversation about the potential that the virus might have come from China the coronavirus might have come from the lab that was working on research for this very thing back where the whole thing broke out. I mean, ignore the obvious, right? They wouldn't allow you to talk about that and then of course there was the New York Post reporting on the laptop, all turned out to be true, but not in New York Post had its account banned as a result until the FBI eventually came forward and said, yeah, it actually all has been authenticated. I mean, it's unbelievable. Twitter deplatformed Donald Trump. President of the United States and yet allowed the Ayatollah. To stay on there. I mean, it's bad. It was really, really bad and it had effectively become an agency of the state. Wild stuff. And you know what else? It couldn't even have a sense of humor. You can have a sense of humor about anything these days. Badly on bay, which is probably the funniest sight out there. It's effectively the conservative version of the onion. It is hysterical. Well, they found this out. Yeah, they found it out pretty quickly because that satire site was not tolerated by the left. Nobody has a sense of humor, nobody can take a joke and, you know, the left are so high and mighty, they never can show any self deprecation whatsoever. So, you know, they got blocks. They got blocked a bunch, including on Twitter. Well, Elon Musk didn't appreciate it. He actually likes the baby on be a lot. So when he took over the company, you know, the first thing he did was he tweeted out how comedies back and he re instated the account of the badly on B but
The Breakdown
Jerome Powell Brings the Dog and Pony Show to DC
"Today we are using the occasion of fed chair Jerome Powell, semi annual report to the Senate about the state of monetary policy to check in with where things are in the macro realm. It's been an interesting few months where there has been so much crypto specific chaos that has been easy to lose sight of the fact that we are all ultimately in a risk sector that is caught up in the larger macro machinations. Now, the last time Powell testified before Congress was in June of last year. Annualized inflation was at its peak above 9%, a 40 year high, and the fed was just three meetings into what would become the fastest tightening cycle on record. The fed discount rate was at 1.75 percent, and the previous week at the June FOMC meeting, Powell had delivered the first in a string of four gigantic 75 basis point raises. Each of those represented the largest rate hike increment seen since 1994. The tone in Congress at that time was incredulous. Democrats were concerned that accelerated rate hikes would tip the economy into a sharp recession with massive unemployment. Republicans for their part took the opportunity to excoriate the fed chair for moving too slowly when inflation had begun to get out of control in late 2021. Both sides of the aisle were openly doubtful that the fed had the tools to tame inflation. Since then, inflation has come down dramatically, clocking in at 6.4% for January, and recording 7 straight months of reductions at headline inflation. The fed has taken rates all the way up to 4.75%, and forecasts that they are not yet considering an end to this hiking cycle. Now when it comes to this particular conversation on the hill right out of the gate, it was a political endeavor. Not that you'd ever really expect that it wouldn't be. Still, the talking points around inflation have clearly become more crystallized on each side of the aisle in the last year since Powell spoke to the Senate. This really showed right from the opening statements. sharad Brown, a Democrat, introduced the hearing with a long kind of weird rambling speech about increased corporate pricing power being the true driver of current inflation. He said quote, the broadening of inflation beyond commodity prices is more profit margin expansion than wage cost pressure. Brown raised concerns about the potential for fed policy to crush the working population with increased unemployment without actually addressing the root cause of inflation.
AP News Radio
Florida Gov. Ron DeSantis delivers state of the state address
"With his sights possibly on a higher office, Florida governor Ron DeSantis delivered his state of the state address. Desantis is positioning himself as the architect of a new conservative vision. Florida is number one and working together. We will ensure that Florida remains the number one state in these United States. The speech comes at the start of the legislative season in Florida. It's expected to serve as a platform for desantis highly expected campaign for president. We will stand strong, we will hold the line, we won't back down, and I can promise you this, you ain't seen nothing yet. Democrats in Florida see the governor's agenda as intolerance and misdirected priorities, pointing out the new law that critics call don't say gay that
America First with Sebastian Gorka Podcast
Bob Frantz Spots a Rare Sight at the Mall
"I talked about this on my local show a couple of weeks ago and I was just shocked. I went to a mall and I know shopping malls are going the way of the dinosaur. Shopping indoor shopping. There are a lot of outdoor shopping while being built, particularly in more affluent areas. And then there are strip malls, but the indoor shopping mall, they used to be so popular as I was growing up as a kid in the 70s and 80s and stuff. But I went into one, which is still actually thriving in northeast Ohio. And I was actually walking around the food court just looking for the restroom. I couldn't figure out where it was when I saw an older gentleman walking toward the movie theater in the mall. And I looked and I did a double take because it's so rare to see in public. He was wearing a Red Hat. And not just over anywhere it had, it wasn't a Red Hat with a communist Chinese Nike swoosh on it. No, no, no, no, no. It was a Red Hat that said, make America great again. It was a Trump hat. I kid you not. I was this far from going up to the man and shaking his hand and said, God bless you for your courage. Now, he was an old guy. Probably less courageous for him because nobody's going to hit an old guy, but if a young, healthier guy, you know, the typical quote toxically masculine male wears a red Trump hat out. He's probably asking for trouble, somebody's going to confront him. Somebody's going to flip him off. Somebody's going to maybe challenge him point of finger and call him a racist or call him things like that. And it just hit me. That we can't display what we are and what we believe despite what we are and what we believe being righteous. And not just right, but righteous.
AP News Radio
Poole scores 34, Warriors charge back again, beat Clippers
"The clippers have lost four straight since the addition of Russell Westbrook as the warriors beat LA one 15 to 91. Golden State was down by 12 points, but outscored Los Angeles, 42 to 16 in the third quarter. Jordan Poole had a game high 34 points and Klay Thompson added 19 points and 11 rebounds. We are capable of grace birds that can put teams way early. And when we play with together, it's a beautiful sight to behold and tonight was an example of that. In the lost Kawhi Leonard had 21 points and 7 rebounds, Ryan leong, San Francisco
Mike Gallagher Podcast
Caller: Russia Must Be Stopped at Ukraine's Eastern Border or Else
"Tell us what he said that was wrong. No, I don't think we should be funding their pensions over there. Because of what Biden and Obama, I lost all my stuff back in 2010. So I don't believe in funding other countries on their pensions. Got it. Got it. Actually, all right. Well, then we don't have a disagreement. What don't I know what I'm talking about? Well, the mere fact that we shouldn't be giving a military sport. I'm an American patriot. I'm X and navy. I do find my flag. And I'm a staunch Trump supporter. So I'm going to lay that out there. However, I work with kind of a sensitive organization out of the Ukraine. And if we don't help them stop Russia on their eastern border, there will be a total migration and Putin will keep on going and charging through that country. And then a good chance that he can move on to another one too, even a possible ally, which you would think would be a mistake, but it would also be World War three. There's not a day that I don't have a conference call with the people in Ukraine where I hear a air raid siren going overhead or I'm talking to a woman who tells me her father is on the husband rather is on the front line or debt and she's worried about her kids that are sitting in the school right now. Yeah. It's awful. It's awful. It's awful. We get it. So I've got to ask you what I ask everybody else. Obviously, the fear or the concern is that Russia escalates that Russia and China align and they set their sights on us at what point do we have to acknowledge we might wind up in a military confrontation with Russia. And if so, what does that look like, Sean? I don't think we'll end up fighting Russia in the Ukraine. I don't think we'll be putting troops in there.
Mark Levin
May 2021: Nicholas Wade Linked COVID Virus to a Lab Leak
"Nicholas wade So on life liberty and Levin mate 23 2021 literally a few days after his piece was published And nobody got that Nobody was pressing this case And I was not ideological about it I just thought with the man wrote made a hell of a lot of sense Here's a little bit Go And what is the theory behind research like this making viruses more lethal particularly lethal for human beings Well that's right It sounds crazy At first sight But the rationale is that many of these viruses are going eventually to jump over from animals to humans anyway once they acquire a couple of mutations that allows them to make that jump And so if we could define those mutations in advance we would get a jump on the virus jumping or he was going to do naturally And that would give us a leg up in trying to predict and prevent future epidemics That's the rationale for conferring gain of function on these viruses So basically create in a lab more lethal viruses from the original virus so you can try and figure out what to do with it should it become more lethal and jump into human beings Is that about right Yes that's right One exception is you're not always working with the original virus You often swapping into it bits and pieces from related viruses that may be able to do something better or spread range of hosts the virus can attack
AP News Radio
Ukraine: Zelenskyy seeks more sanctions, fighting grinds on
"Fighting in Ukraine is grinding on after the country marked a year since Russia's invasion. Ukrainian soldiers fire off Soviet era grad rockets at Russian positions in the northeast province of har Kyiv, here tense battles are continuing between Russian and Ukrainian forces. When Ukrainian soldier called vitali told the AP fighting as fierce along the front line and that positions change every day, part of the hud kiv region is still under Russian control. Standing in a forest several kilometers from fighting positions, a priest sprinkled water to bless the soldiers of Ukraine's 14th separate mechanized brigade today the whole world is amazed by your feet, he told them the brigade also took part in the ceremony where some were given medals for bravery and attempt to boost morale as the war stretched on with no clear end in sight a day after the grim one year anniversary was marked, Ukrainian officials reported dozens of new Russian strikes and attacks on cities in the east and south of Ukraine. I am Karen Chammas
The Dan Bongino Show
State Dept. Funded Group Drops ‘Disinformation’ Index on Conservatives
"A report today out of the Washington times Just out in the last few hours here Headline State Department backed group drops disinformation index targeting conservative outlets Now this is a really big deal This is a really big deal And it has been operating essentially out of sight of the American public but you should know about it Valerie Richardson writing for the Washington times today says this A State Department backed group is severing ties with the Soros funded global disinformation index following reports that its efforts excuse me about its efforts to muzzle conservative media outlets by blacklisting them with advertisers The national endowment for democracy a private foundation created by Congress whose annual funding is part of the State Department budget said it will no longer provide grants to the index this disinformation index After pushback from the right including congressional Republicans Quote recently we became aware of the one of our grantees the global disinformation index GDI was engaged in an initiative funded by a different donor that focused on specific U.S. media outlets The national endowment for democracy said Tuesday in a statement to the Washington times Quote we recognize the important work GDI is done with NED support in other countries to help preserve the integrity of the information space and counter authoritarian influence of the statement However given our commitment to avoid the perception that NED is engaged in any work domestically directly or indirectly we will no longer provide financial support to GDI
Mark Levin
Caller: Biden Continues to Kill Projects, Take Jobs in Minnesota
"Good evening Mark thank you for taking my call You get a note with you last Thursday and again tonight about the bureaucracy and how they want to stop projects and kill the economy In northern Minnesota we are the largest We have the Duluth complex It's one of the largest precious metals finds in the world And we have one project that's been in permitting for 18 years And with Biden's executive order shutting down 300 and some thousand acres for 20 years essentially killed another project We're talking 600 direct jobs and somewhere in the neighborhood of 2000 indirect jobs And these people they don't care They don't care these people that they're having removed from their jobs or preventing them from getting jobs are hardworking blue collar middle class the lower middle class people who use their hands who use their ingenuity they're not sitting in some office in some city or suburbs These are the people that produce what it is that you like and what you need and what you want And they're out of sight so they're out of mind And you're a 100% right it's just so grotesque So contemptible I don't know what the EPA does but I know it's not so great For all the talk what would we do without the EPA plenty They act like the states don't have their own EPAs you know Eric they do We've got a layer upon it later of it up here It's incredible
AP News Radio
World Travel Family-Family intro and wrap
"A family from Canada is enjoying a trip of a lifetime, taking their four children, globetrotting, three of Sebastian pelletier and Edith Lemay's four children have a rare genetic condition, retinitis pigmentosa, RP. It means they will eventually lose their sight. I'm not gonna. Show her elephant in giraffe in boats. I'm gonna go show her in real life. And from that, which is decided to go all in. By all in, she means traveling around the globe. The kids put together a bucket list. Horseback riding. We had learning to serve the sleeping on a train. The highlights so far include safari and Zambia. Hot air balloon in turkey. I have hoped, but I don't want to just wait for it. And then beat is appointed. The family set out on their trip almost a year ago, and so far have been to ten countries. I'm Ed Donahue
AP News Radio
Bird flu costs pile up as outbreak enters second year
"Is no end in sight to the current outbreak of bird flu. And that means no relief for the spike in prices for eggs, chicken, and turkey. As the bird flu outbreak enters its second year, consumers pay at the grocery checkout intensifies. Egg prices shot up to four 82 a dozen last month. More than double the year before. A pound of chickens nearly four 50. Nearly a dollar more, and turkey costs about 50 cents more per pound. An agricultural economist is estimating poultry farmers lost more than a $1 billion, and the government spent about half a billion, trying to address the bird flu, with some 58 million birds having to be slaughtered. One researcher says there is some hope for improvement this spring, with new turkeys and chickens, hopefully developing
The Breakdown
Why Bitcoin Rallied 11% on Wednesday
"If you had asked me if we'd see a good old fashioned face ripping rally in this of all weeks, I might have been skeptical. The week opened up with news of major regulatory actions against paxos around BUSD, which is of course the third biggest stablecoin, and many are wondering if the SEC has a broader attack on stablecoins in its sights. Then of course there was the antagonistic hearing in the Senate banking committee that showed just how much more rhetorically emboldened crypto critics have become. And yet, just a day later, Bitcoin ripped up more than 11% in its biggest one day rally since last September, reaching over 24,700. Its highest price since a short lived post lunar recovery in August of last year. One hourly candle in the afternoon yesterday showed a 3.5% move all on its own, larger than any other entire day so far in February. Now, usually I wouldn't dedicate an entire show or even most of a single day to price action. But I think that the various interpretations of why Bitcoin is rallying actually creates a very interesting lens through which to explore pretty much everything happening around Bitcoin right now. Yesterday I tweeted why is Bitcoin going up right answers only and got more than a 160 responses. So let's chat about some of the big categories of how this move is being explained. And we'll start with the most boring and often the most true, which is just market structure one of the universal truths of Bitcoin moves is that for as much as we believe or want to believe their narrative or event driven, there is usually at least a big dose of market structure there as well. As you'd guess on a day with such big moves, there are pretty significant leverage on wines yesterday. Queen glass data clocked Bitcoin short liquidations at over 77 million for the day. Now that is a large total but still smaller than it was during a few of the biggest trading days on January. It's worth asking then how much correlation there was with stocks. IE was this a broader risk on move. It appears to have been isolated to crypto and the riskier end of equity markets.
Mike Gallagher Podcast
Rep. Michael McCaul: Chinese Spy Balloon Was an Act of Espionage
"Here's the chairman of the House foreign affairs committee, congressman Michael McCall, with Maria bartiromo yesterday on Fox News. He says, 5 balloons have great capability to gather and collect intelligence. I would argue more so than even satellites in the sense that they're flying it say 40 to 60,000 feet above the earth, the imagery that they can capture and other intelligence data that I can't be specific about can be captured and then transmitted back to the mothership in Beijing. They have control over these balloons. This was an act of espionage and plain sight plain view of the American people. I know there have been reports of prior ones, but none quite like this. And the reason why this one is so damaging is I do a damage assessment about what really happened that day, this balloon went over three of our most sensitive nuclear sites. One being in Montana that runs the triad that's air land and sea nuclear strikes and counter strikes that went over our strategic command in Omaha, Nebraska, where our biggest stockpile of nuclear weapons exist I mean, don't you think that Biden should be addressing the American people about a blatant act of espionage? From the communist Chinese party?
Crypto Current
Solana's Austin Federa's Advice For Developing a Career in Crypto
"I joined Solana in January of 2021. So it was hardly hardly a huge thing back at those days. It was still a pretty up and coming protocol. I think there were 35 programs that had transactions per day on the network. It's over 1100 now. And obviously, it's a much different organization than the foundation was beforehand. But I would say so many folks I talked to in the space, they seem to just be waiting for permission from someone else. They want to go through some training program, or they want to do something, and they think, oh, if I just get this credential, then somehow I'll be qualified. And the truth is no one's really qualified to work in web three. It happens so quickly. The industry change is so completely. If I went on a 9 month sabbatical and came back and someone was like, Gobi, head of comms at a foundation. There would still be a solid two to three months of catching up, I would need to do because this industry moves so quickly. So there's folks who 6 months ago knew nothing about blockchain. And now they're running marketing for a protocol or something along those lines. I think really we're in such early days and the technology changes so rapidly. It isn't like trying to get a job at Google or Facebook or something like that. You have to go to the right schools and then you have to have the right kind of career path and then maybe if you're lucky you'll end up it's just a very different world getting into crypto. So much of it's like self education. The biggest thing though for me that's helped me in my career weirdly is not doing anything related to this at all undergraduate. I did political science and environmental studies and econ undergrad. Like a liberal arts college, nothing at all to do with this stuff. But the place I see people make a mistake in crypto is they get too tribal too quickly. They stop looking at the underlying technology. They start there's a huge amount of cultish echo chamber in this space. And it's fun. Sometimes it's useful, right? I think you have to have a hell of a lot of grit to stick around through the Ethereum 2018 bear market where everyone stopped building and everyone left. The cult is the thing that gets you through that. But if you drink your own Kool-Aid, you lose sight of the point of this technology and what we're actually doing
Mike Gallagher Podcast
Shout Out to Salem Orlando 'The Answer' for Their Award
"First things first, I want to congratulate our friends at Salem Orlando. The answer are great affiliate in Orlando. Pete paquette informed me that Salem Orlando was named the Salem media group news talk station of the year at their big meeting their annual retreat out in California this week and we couldn't be happier for them. Great bunch of people, Pete piquette and the whole team over there had Salem Orlando well deserved and proud to be on your team. You know, with all the platforms we have now with the Salem news channel and podcasting and streaming, I never, ever, ever will lose sight of the hundreds and hundreds of loyal affiliates that carry the Mike Gallagher show coast to coast. We are absolutely proud of our partnership with all of these affiliates and I just wanted to salute Salem Orlando, the answer for being named the news talk station of the year by the Salem media group.
No End In Sight
"sight" Discussed on No End In Sight
"Really love to emphasize that it is not a stimulant. It's a wakefulness promoting. Ada they don't know exactly how it works and at least one of the past leads by which they think it works is the same way that stimulants works so it's all a lot of rhetoric. Intentionally misleading technical language. Yep it's thought to work sort of through dopaminergic pathways. It's also thought to have some. Sarah urgent action. Which in hindsight. I realize probably i was having so many side effects because a i was also on prozac at the time shockingly. I was dealing with a little bit of depression by the end. But also i also do not tolerate crtv jack medications while at all because which i did not know at the time. My mastel disorder. One of the things mass cells releases serotonin and once. I learned that plane. Why i've always had symptoms of mild serotonin syndrome. Whenever i've gone on urgent ned. Yeah so i was. Basically experiencing like mild moderate serotonin syndrome on national for months with no context for all of these changes right and like the side effects Scary my mom was like your personality and your whole affect changed on a dime when it kicked in it was wild. It's so hard. In general like med side effects. This episode will come out later than right now that the recession might have moved but when we were recording in early december kovic. Vaccines are like a hot topic. Though i feel like this exact thing that you're talking about about like yeah. This drug is like really good for a lot of people. I had every single system impacted. And it's like oh right. We don't have good side effects. Data on anything. I feel so deeply nervous about the cova. Edit i'm not even talking about on twitter because i do not want to deal with what mentions will look like if i do but i don't know if you know about this. But what are the h one. N one vaccines in. Two thousand nine is thought to have caused narcolepsy and a lot of people. I don't think it did in me. In hindsight i thought for a while it might have because my sentence started getting a lot worse. It's all complicated too. 'cause my massol symptoms started getting so much worse. I did get swine flu. I also got the vaccine. Really lucky i literally it was probably pre-symptomatic i got the vaccine and then about two days later i came out with full blown swine flu and it was in the months. After that that mastel symptoms started getting on ignore ably bad and it was over the following five to six years that it just progressively got worse and worse and worse. We jumped because of me talking about that time. Wise did much happened between like a ha it narcolepsy and then like i'm living my sort of regular life and like bow flu so actually the narcolepsy. I found out well after the swine flu. Oh yeah you were talking about it for that reason. Yeah the swine. Flu is in the first semester of my last year. in undergrad..
No End In Sight
"sight" Discussed on No End In Sight
"Just turn it on right. Why isn't that happening. Yep that's it's exactly. Yeah it's exactly it you know saying you can't do something. It's either like mechanical. As you say it like you've broken your leg or your paralysed or it's psychological and there's no space for like my brain literally won't send the signals to like. Yeah there's no language there's no sort of conception of what can't meads when it's not just like a mechanical issue. It's like oh you don't want to and you can't will yourself too but that's not even what it was. It was literally like sleep. Doesn't work for your body so essentially you're in a causative sleep deprivation and like you know you look at. What are the stages of sleep deprivation. Like normal brain. And i was operating around like if i'd been deprived asleep for seventy two hours straight. That was like my baseline. So i look out the window. And i'd see trees walk. Your i was actually psychotic and not in lega. Colloquial way you from islam sleep deprived psychosis for several years. It was cool in a way. Like in a weird. I kinda miss looking like. Oh there's an end. Murray morals literally and it was like really cool in some ways. I think my brain was never more creative than at that point. And i had so many creative ideas that i've never done anything with 'cause i couldn't do anything right. Also other than like why there and think dreamily and yeah like i couldn't bring myself motivation or the energy to go shopping. But also even if i had been able to. I couldn't do it safely as by the time. My mom got there at sometimes. Go out with her grocery shopping. Like just to sorta get out and get fresh air. And the like one time i remember. We're waiting at a stoplight. And a car haunt and i automatically started walking the road. Because it's just like sensory thing like i was literally sleepwalking. Even though my eyes were open and manhattan yanked me.
No End In Sight
"sight" Discussed on No End In Sight
"Three hours and i was like okay. This is not right. So i like went to the campus clinic and i was like i think i need to refer someone. Yeah and it was at that point that they referred to asleep specialist. I sort of started going through the process of getting the sleep disorder diagnosed with the sleep disorder because it was so overwhelming it was not something i could either ignore it and i also could not control it. No matter how hard i tried so is at that point. I started realizing no there. Is something deeply wrong here. So yeah toronto. i mean. This is loaded for variety of reasons. But toronto's a good place to be all things considered if you have a medical issue depending on what's going on with your body one of the best places in candidate best club covered. Yes that is helpful anyway. So yeah i got referred to this league and honestly this leak plan it was. It was not good so did the sleep test. And they'd i mostly with idiopathic hypersonic which that doctor told me that it meant what it sounds like. Essentially you sleep a lot. And we don't know why they ruled out narcolepsy somehow. I don't know how they manage that but they will not sleep apnea. They still insisted on. Try me on a c. Pap machine from month by had lower than average ethnic events which wild but that is also sort of the healthcare cycle like. They have to rule out the common. Because that's the thing they can get funded for they can get funded for like prescribing. The c-pap they can get that partially coverage whereas prescribing an off label drug little bit dice. Years sometimes yeah like no mechanism. Yeah and so. Like i try to c. pap. I literally could not sleep with cpap and i think for sensory reasons I could not sleep with it. And i remember like they asked me to keep a journal and they yelled at me. I had to come back and do the next sleep test to test how it was working for him in the yelled at me for how little i used it and i was like look. I'm struggling to stay conscious already. And i cannot sleep with it. And they got so angry and later lectured me about it and then they had me do the sleep test and the next morning. they're like. Oh yeah you didn't enter deep sleep at all. I'm like shit. sherlock. I told you this is why i was not using it this month. Yup so it was obviously not sleep apnea either so idiopathic They prescribed me mcconnell. It was not working well for me so they cycled a couple of other jobs and they were not working and then after about like four six months..
No End In Sight
"sight" Discussed on No End In Sight
"Is no insight. A podcast about life with chronic illness. Hey this is associate producer drew mar before we got started. Here's a quick reminder that you can find no end in sight on patriae on which is a really simple way for listeners to subscribe to support the show financially on a monthly basis. So if you've been enjoying the podcast and you also have a couple bucks to spare. We'd be so so grateful if you'd sign up as a patron at patriot dot com slash. No end in sight. Today we'll be talking with alex. Hey guard about narcolepsy mast cells and inclusive design a few content. Not for this episode. There's some covert vaccine talk around forty five minutes in unlocked down comes up around two hours and twenty minutes in. There's a mention of by vance at around the hour. Mark and dimension of cannabis at around an hour and forty five minutes in their oblique references to suicidal aviation at around an hour and twenty five an hour and thirty five. And there's a mildly graphic description of bleeding time test an hour and fifty minutes in before we start. Here's our disclaimer. This podcast is not intended as a substitute for professional medical advice. Diagnosis or treatment. Make sure you talk to your practitioner about any questions or.
No End In Sight
"sight" Discussed on No End In Sight
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"Started getting so my type of migraine is considered rare. They're now calling it. It used to be when. I was first diagnosed. It was called basler migraine and now calling it migraine with brain stem aura. So the name of it has changed several times during the past. Twenty years of me having it but i have started having try juvenile migraines which is different from trigeminal neuralgia and then in august. I had what we suspect was Migraine where i had weakness and numbness on one side of my body. And i know this is because i know because at the time you weren't sure that that's what i was right and you've gone to the hospital which i'm sure was not great in august. If it's you're right yes. I swat spending about forty eight hours in the hospital during And didn't get it. Fortunately i spoke to a as a follow up this week and at the last minute they changed my appointment from face to face to a phone. Call okay yeah. But ironically i was at the. Va hospital that day anyway. Because i always stack my appointments. Because i have to drive so far rights so i had. My boat talks in other appointments in the hospital than what out to the car and talk to the neurologist by phone from the parking lot and they agreed that it was most likely a hemiplegic migraine but said that it was very important that they actually physically see me so now they've scheduled or rescheduled however you wanna think of it a face to face meeting A month from now. So i have to drive all the way back to the. Va hospital but very frustrating textual. So that's where are present day. I formally withdrew from my doctoral program for medical reasons. The department head was pretty compassionate about it. He managed to say a few of those. Ablest things that you don't really like to hear but he was trying any minute well which goes a long way another thing where you can usually tell right right and so here i am. I have become somewhat radicalized. By chronic illness and the twitter chronic illness community which is perhaps like more radical than many chronic illness communities. But not all. I'm sure and mcrib camp workshop experienced this summer. Yeah and so now. Here i am. I mostly stay at home. But i live someplace that i love and i am becoming a chronic illness. Slash disability advocate and. I don't work. And that's because i don't have to and i can't i.
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"That was a terrible february but so each one blockers to blockers are both history histamine bloggers. I'm saying people listening now. Eight one blockers are like zantac. There's two types of each one. Blockers dumping benadryl neutron blocker but it is a different kind between blocker from like zor tags is all etcetera. To blockers are heartburn. Medication is that would they're marketed is. Is that right. Yes acid reducers. Then was everybody's favorite and then it got pulled recently. Which has been a whole thing and i feel like commodity is everywhere which is yes and then yeah so the contributions for anyone listening who has not picked up any of those details but wanted to know. And that's all i mean that's all from the mass attack website there are actually four known histamine receptors. H one through h four and we do not have any medications currently to block h three or h four receptors. Right and i know some people. I think maybe they talk about is on mass attack or like trying to experiment with supplements and other like sources that might age three four blockers. But i haven't again. I have not gone deep into that rabbit hole yet so he now the details of it but the information's out there. I guess if anyone has been really looking for histamine blocking science right right. And i did go through a period of time where i tried a lot of vitamins and supplements for my migrants. I feel like a few of them helped most of digits. And i haven't really played around with a lot of vitamins or supplements to treat my maso. Yeah i mean. I attend is the only one that i can. I know that there are other ones. But i really i want people at also. Some people genetically have an issue with dao's and i don't remember that acronym stands for but if you actually are genetically tested in. That isn't an issue for you. Then there are other vitamins That you can take to help. Correct that the whole world out there of personalized medicine. That we are still unlocking. Yeah okay so floral diagnosis hodgepodge of histamine blocker etc mastel stabilisers plus diet and is that more or less. What you've been up to lately fun as that sounds yes. We traveled to see this massive specialist at the end of february and then came home at the very beginning of march. And basically. I've only left the house for medical appointments since then Most of those have been in fact either canceled or converted telehealth bright but fortunately again fate luck whatever the doctor had called and said they had a cancellation and they could move forward to february and i was able to go and see specialist before things got really scary though. Yes my allergist. Here put me on zola projections which have helped stabilize my mass cells. Because as you say renita dean zantac got recalled and that was making a significant difference for me and does not manage as many of my symptoms as renita did.
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"Submitting papers and book chapters. And what not all the things that you do academic stuff right all that academic stuff while i'm getting all these diagnostics in surgeries anything else. So i think all right. We've gotten that resolved now. Maybe i can finally do. My dissertation finished my degree. And that's when i started having the energy limitations and the cognitive functioning issues Okay so as you're gearing up for the next stage yeah the next stage of extreme cognitive output and spousal unit told me recently that they think it actually started earlier than that They think that i was having those energy and cognitive issues. While i was doing my first externships though i was working between twenty and forty hours a week and then coming home and spouse a unit said you really don't have energy for anything else. Yeah so but i. I hadn't really recognize that. Yet like the boiling frog fe. Your energy facundo a car function or likely both but it's like at such a slow rate initially that it feels like maybe i slept poorly last night like there's so many other more obvious plausible examples that can explain being tired but it's like the keyboard impact of being tired. All the time is not really explained by whatever rationale right. Yeah that was doing a research. Externships until spousal you. I can't brain anymore. I've used up my brain for the day. But i just somehow was telling myself. Oh that's just because this job is so cognitively demanding it's not because anything was different in my body right. It was circumstances. Not me of course but we reached a point where i was doing.
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"Surgeon who i felt comfortable trying. Yeah and so. I went to my retiree healthcare and said here's the mri's and here's the surgeon that i want and he accepts this healthcare so give me a referral. Make this happen right. And so they did. And i went and met with the orthopedic surgeon And at the same time he was also a military retiree. Okay and i have friends who are military doctors and so i also in addition to all the ways that you can set a doctor that anyone can vetted doctor yep i contacted my surgeon military doctor friends and said what do you know about this guy. Yeah and so. I was checking up on him that way as well And they came back and a surgeon. Friend of mine whom i trust said. He's considered one of the best hand surgeons and i would let him do anything that he wanted to. Procedurally on me a of endorsement. Yes so i went to the surgeon and he looked at all the imagery and said at this point it had been twenty seven months of fighting with military healthcare to get care for that wrist And he said to me if you had waited much longer. I would not have been able to repair it. I would have had it just fus- the bones and you would have had joint there anymore. So he wound up doing three separate procedures on my wrists to repair it. I sink all the details on my blog. And i don't know how much you wanna get into the weeds. Roken what he did to repair it but he basically had to do three separate procedures to try to repair everything that was wrong with my wrist which included pudding a surgical screw in and the surgery went fantastically. He was really excited by the outcomes and the range of motion. That i eventually got back to afterwards and i was thrilled to have a wrist in pain. What you win in for you actually left with which is pretty big deal when it comes to medical intervention yes and the practice. They had their own operating rooms. It wasn't in a hospital and it was a really excellent experience and so we let that surgery. He'll and then. I went back and say what about my elbow. Every time i extended my arm it would clunk and something was catching inside the joint. Yeah and of course there was pain so we've resolved the shoulder pain. We resolve the wrist pain. I still have elbow. Pain is love. Scapula pain yeah. Those other spots are probably like much more on your awareness. Now than they were when they were four right. I knew it was all not correct. But we've been slowly sort of ticking off so more. Mr is and he went in and did more endure surgery on my elbow which was two more procedures. He didn't exactly he wasn't able to pinpoint exactly what was wrong in there so part of it he was part of it. He wasn't in so he kind of did some things that should help and they did. You know what i mean. But it wasn't a clean diagnosis in the elbow. Case right it was like maybe this will help. It appears that dead in some ways. This is lock because they could have had it less of an impact pace on all the understand about. What's happening here right right. So he was able to say okay. Yes you're having a problem with with the call tennis elbow. I can go in and repair that. The pain that you're having i can do this..
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"Try to keep the story from getting ridiculously long. I finally got to see via provider and she was fabulous. One of the best providers. I've ever had. Yes yes i. I went there really not expecting much And she listened and took action which one of those things worth like. That's so exciting. I know exactly how that feels and simultaneously. How bad the bar. That should not be the bar. That's the floor. But yes i worry and the whole time that she was my provider. I told her how wonderful she was in every single time. She said i'm just doing my job. And you're like you understand. Most people don't think this is their job. Which rights again i know. They're a bigger systemic factors at play but ultimately what happens is that a lot of people are getting very bad care. So we're so excited to be heard and meet out but even her. Yeah so she sent me or or is this is that were messed up or at least we started with the risk and so it became where i had a very inadequate bull cherry healthcare provider. And i had this fabulous. Va healthcare provider. And so i would go to her and she would get the diagnostics and then i would take those diagnostic results back to the military side of the house and say i have proof now that this is broken and i want you to fix it And the reason that i did that is most. Va hospitals are considered teaching hospitals. Okay and most of them are co located with a medical school in the same city. Okay and so the. Va has of course permanent employees but it also has at most of their hospitals a stream of residents And i know people that have had surgeries it. Va hospitals and everything's gone great but we're talking about. My wrist was badly damaged. And i didn't want to trust the va to repair that Because it's one of the most critical parts of your body So i did a lot of research. And i found a civilian.
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"Gay doesn't hurt anymore very happy. Okay wait sorry. So you had access through your spouse to healthcare previously and then once your spouse also separated dan. this is when you were now looking back for healthcare options. My brain excessive make sure. I understand these details. 'cause i was wondering what did i question was because the shoulder surgery was done before this right or was it done. Yes yes okay. So that was done but of course. You're still obviously looking for good health care to the shoulder. Surgery was done before you were getting treated by the. Va is that right. Yes okay yes yes yes. So because spousal unit retired and secured a military pension. They also part of the benefits of that retirement. Package was continuing healthcare for both of us. Okay gotcha so we are incredibly fortunate that because spousal unit also went through the process and was qualified as a disabled veteran two ways to get health care bright. We have the military retiree healthcare and we also have the a healthcare okay. Gotcha which it shouldn't be the case that you need more than one path because some will fail you repeatedly but i understand we. I hear what you're saying right and so this becomes really important again. That twitter thread that i referenced. Earlier we talked about privilege and luck and sorry. It was a different twitter privilege and luck and hard work And the fact that really it takes all three and so special unit. I worked really really hard to be able to have military careers and to be able to qualify for a military retirement. But at the same time i recognize what a privilege that is and how fortunate we are to. Now have those redundancies. Yeah and and guaranteed health care for. The rest of our lives is huge in the states. Yeah that is especially right now. No small thing in this country safe. I don't know exactly when this came out. But i'm saying that because of the supreme court reviewing aca sure but yeah it does feel like healthcare is under threat a lot of the time because it is so every right guarantees. A little bit of access is a good thing. We just need so much more right right and so this now becomes really really salient because it perfect setup grades because i started having to play mom against at my military retiree health benefits and the va health benefits. I waited nine more months to get a va provider and to condense the story. Basically the military still wasn't recognizing that i had ruptured connective tissue in my wrist. Torn connective tissue in my hand. Some kind of issue still going on with my elbow and probably torn connective tissue in my scapula We've reached shoulder. There's no broken bones. You're fine you're fine now. Congratulations don't you feel fine. We've right.
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"I i really wasn't any kind of information like that but i don't i don't hold it against anybody i didn't want it. You know yeah. And i would. I mean suspect kind of that time in a way that like maybe isn't going to make things easier to hear like an a person who's removed from your life hypothesizing as if there are no consequences to like guessing out loud yet. Maybe i don't need to hear you guessing out loud if that's what changing maybe that's like a private conversation for you to have your brain dr who likes to think about this. Yeah yeah but so incident treatment. You're like okay. We're doing this and we're gonna find out how it goes and it did go like the first. There was a a simultaneous. Chemo and radiation. The chemo was supposed to make the radiation work better. And it like when that ended. I went back. I have like for a while. I had an mri months. Now i'm down like every four months. I haven't mri but it did shrink. It and i got some like very welcome symptom relief. You know in certain areas but then my brain fog is just from having pain and stuff like that. I had brain fog but then you know you take chemo long term. You have your frayne radiated it's not gonna just take the tumor right so i have some to this day. Even though that was two thousand seventeen you know. i'm coming up on. Wow i'm coming up on four years out from that but i still don't like i lose words i lose train of thought and that will just always be. I mean that is that is helping are now but finished that they did shrink get and then afterwards they put me on. What do they call it. A juvenile or. I don't know it's the second round of second. Round of higher dose chemo. There was no radiation with it..
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"Basically you're like this thing making sense. Yeah so during this time too. I did a whole lot of googling because nobody was helping me. You know. I we. All i mean i watch the nis void. I mean everybody who has ever encountered. Chronic illness has come across this. You know like wall of we're not going to help you but also we're going to degrade you you go searching for any information you don't tell you don't try to find it out yourself right not happening. That's the advice we have for you today. Yeah and it was really frustrating and i. I have a lot of medical trauma. And i'm you know. I'm not over exaggerating but a lot of trauma and a lot of baggage that i carry around with me to this day even with the diagnosis and the one that people take seriously you know i still carry that with me. I mean that's it was. It was really hard to go through that for just a couple of years and i know there people out there like decades with no and i just can't. I can't not empathize with everybody who who has experienced something like that because it really is hard. It's hard to deal with. Yeah it's so it's so disorienting when it's like my body isn't working the way that i expected to and the system that's supposed to help me isn't working the way that it's supposed to like this was failures multiple directions and then often the people around you aren't aware of how either of those other things are failing. Because they can't see it so they're just kinda lashed. Okay sure whatever you say in your kids. You see everything around exactly. No but i believe you do well. Some of them just outright didn't believe me. I mean you could there was. There was one nurse practitioner in particular. Who was i don't know what she was. Just not very helpful to me. You know and she. I don't feel like i ever did anything to to ruin. That relationship myself may be. I said something that just set her off at the beginning. And i wasn't aware but there was one point where i was struggling with all of the an i i remember saying to her you know will what if what i have. Is sarah negative. Because someone had said they had rheumatoid arthritis that did not show up and blood work. And when i said sarah negatives she laughed at me like i was too big for my britches using such word. And she wasn't even a doctor. She was just a nurse practitioner dealing with me and like that really hurt. You know. I carry that with me and never went back to see her again. That kind of thing. So by the time i finally by the time i finally was like. I'm bringing my husband and god i hated bring. My husband into the doctor's offsides should not have to do this. You know nothing minded him being there. It's that i shouldn't have to need him in order for people to take me seriously. Yeah a two story there. It's nice to have someone for like emotional and memories the port and also it shouldn't be necessary to have like cysts white man in the room to be taken seriously exactly exactly so. Yeah he. i had this episode. Were the two of us. Were in walgreens getting stuff and i was just like i got so tired. I didn't think i could leave..
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"Okay perfect so then. I like to start by asking people. How is your health as a kid. Yes so. I feel like as a kid. I was pretty healthy and normal looking back. You know i. I was reading your transcript for your first member. So you know and that. That whole retrospect look back at everything i think. Oh well that could have been a thing you know but as far as doctors and my parents and i was concerned i've felt like i was a pretty healthy kid. Yeah and that. I mean of course for lots of people because people get sick in all kinds of ways like complete fence for you. Was there a single moment when things started to change. Do they change kind of gradually. At first it was yet like there's a defining moment for me around twenty fourteen. When i we have a slow brutally cold and snowy winter here and i was just tweeting about this actually and i fell and slipped on the ice and hit my head. I was unconscious for a couple of minutes or seconds out. There wasn't long whilst business. Yeah and so. I always attributed that to just. It was like cold and snowy but now i have a brain tumor. It affects my balance. Now that i look back at that even i questioned. Why would i have lost my balanced. If this hadn't been inside my head you know so. I don't know but after that point to your question after that point i've felt like Things just weren't right with me. You know at any point after that and really end thinking of it as a concussion at that time like a i or some kind of a head injury or were you even thinking about it in that way at all. I know at that point. No i wasn't because after the fall it was a couple of days later i went into the doctor because i still was feeling kind of weird you know and i thought well i better get it checked out so i had a. Cat scan and there was no swelling. Or whatever so. I mean. Yeah i'm sure i was cuts but there was nothing that was alarming to anybody at that point and then for several months after that it was just the fatigue hit me like i had never known fatigue before prior to getting would i call sick prior to that. You know i used to run five ks and not because i enjoyed exercise but i kind of enjoyed punishing myself. You know seeing what i could do. Would i could what limits i could stretch and whatever so. I was in relatively decent shape before that. So when i started feeling this his like thirty thirty four at the time when i started feeling this decline. The first thing that entered my mind was well. You're just not being active enough. You know and so. I kept pushing and kept pushing and it kept getting worse you know and so like that was the clue to me as just like know your own body and understand what's happening. That was included me. That something was really wrong. And oh and at that point. That was mostly fatigue review. I know it's so hard. Because obviously in retrospect again you have like different vocabulary..
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"I was like yeah but thank you. Yeah i know that. It's sad. But i'm used to being sad. I'm just trying to tell you the good part. Yeah and then. When i went to the psychiatric hospital for the first time because in new york and you go to a doctor like any doctor they ask you if you're in pain which is not something that doctors do in florida or at least not something. That my pediatrician. Did they just ask you like. Are you in any pain right now. I was like yes. There's isn't that isn't that ways. Things are so. I sort of have that light bulb moment. And that's sort of the pieces of how i eventually came to identified as someone with chronic pain. So then i got my birth control implant and then. I can't see any doctors in person but i so i see my new primary care doctor and i'm like i when i was working at starbucks one of my coworkers had agre myalgia and like we would talk about our life experience and she was like you have fibromyalgia interesting. Maybe maybe to mean to you. Bye-bye alger. yeah so we start talking and eventually i'm like oh you're right. I have fibromyalgia and then also that february. I went to visit margot in college because he was still in school. And at some point we were sitting on these steps sitting pretty normally. And i stood up and this was before marco got sick like before margot got like really sick. I that is ever alike abiam and we were sitting on these steps and then we stood up in slake like we had been there for like twenty minutes any startup like hang on a second. My my legs are now my after like knock the blood back into latin lick. That's not that's not. How bodies were that's meant to do. Lightness shipping ready. Be circulating yeah. There should be blood in there. I'm wait what this news. Yeah also some point like his brakes he had come over and another one of our friends was here. We had been doing this. Puzzle like jigsaw puzzle on the floor. And i was in so much pain i kept having to take breaks unlike lie down in my bed because i live in a studio apartment so it was like they were two feet away from me and i was like mine down watching them. Do this puzzle And like like that night or at some point basically during one of these interactions. That have margaret evans lake role lake. You're disabled like something's wrong. Yeah like you're chronically..
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"Which is subsidized would be free like figures out working at barnes and noble cafe and it sucks so much and it hurts so much i hear believed in retrospect like any job. That's basically on your feet all the time. I know that there are again. Those are the lots of about labor practices in general but specifically when you're in chronic pain and you're like all day you don't really have the lens fully interpret or it. It's like terrible also. I can't drive and most of the time. I was very lucky. That my like one of my four roommates was to drive me to and from work or one of my coworkers like drop me off at home after but not always like sometimes i did have to right and it was like a two and a half mile walk which is not that bad but is also rudy. Dad yeah Especially if you have chronic pain specially if you've just worked like a seven hour shifts on your feet the whole time. It was bad when that happened. Which was not always. I'm foreshadowing something. So august comes around. I was not able to get my life together enough to have health insurance so now i have health insurance so now. I'm like okay in october. I'm going to have to move anyway. So i should try to get a job at like are real starbucks Because now i have experienced like i know all the recipes. I had applied for starbucks before because of their excellent health insurance and i was like all apply for jobs to start in october. It'll be great. It'll be so i do. And i eventually got a job at starbucks. The people who had been planning to get an apartment with find an apartment with somebody else were which was not great so then. I'm looking for apartments with someone who i barely know. And then he kind of flakes and unlike okay. So i guess i'm going to find an apartment nice. We'll see how it goes. But i found one. It's too that's it's beautiful and i love living here and i've lived here for a little over a year and i have not missed my rent. Ordinance laid on my rant once by sheer miracles and force of will the happens. Yeah just completely by accident. It has worked out but then all of a sudden i'm living alone which means that i don't have roommates which means no one can really drive. I'm like okay and by this point. I've sort of realized that i have chronic pain. And i'm starting to identify someone with chronic pain in a vague way and i'm like okay. Sorry this is like basically i. Is it a six months. Six months after Yeah so i left in february of twenty eighteen. Okay and then. You've been sober for for almost a year for almost a year at that point terminating until i got an ear of sobriety in april of two thousand eighteen so i was already living like not in college and then in october of twenty eighteen moved to this apartment okay and i started working at startups. Okay so odd does not side of things from the like a hotter is pain here. It's like eighteen months in about a year and a half. I moved here. And i'm like.
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"When i was a kid. For some periods she would just be like constantly on tylenol because of her headaches and then eventually she'll be like now. I'm too much tylenol. I need to stop and then would just than for months the like. Oh i have a headache. I feel so she'd be like no now. I can't and then be during those periods also. If i said the i had headache she wouldn't give me the tylenol because she would be like no. I'm concerned about our tylenol intake. And i'm worried. Yeah that is gonna be bad tyler That he gets in there with like our brains learn about pain management. And what i was gonna say what are acceptable trade-offs which isn't really what i'm trying to say. But it's really hard to set up in your head in addition to everything else about it. Yeah some in college dabbling with different drugs and then my spring semester rolls around. It's like around spring break at the pharmacy. one day. Picking up maini my antidepressant and see a tube of ice. The hot and i'm like oh. I remember you sure for pain. Yeah so my introduction to icy hot was flat my dad who lives in venezuela still when he would come to visit the first thing that we would do like before we got home from the airport it would be like. Let's stop at cvs. I need to get lay icy hot ban. Gay like all this stuff the goods and he would just stock up and then the whole house would smell of lake menthol from now. Just how much pain creams fevers using. Because yeah he has really bad back pain. I don't know much about his health. But i know that like at some point. It was so bad that my mom had to do like a trigger point injection for him like at home.