29 Burst results for "Raquel I"
What do we know about the fast-spreading COVID-19 variant in California?
"Public health officials here in California say they've identified a variant of the coronavirus that appears to be spreading faster across the state. From member station KQED in San Francisco, Raquel Maria Dillon reports. As California approaches three million cases of Corona virus, researchers say they have identified a new strain different than a highly contagious variant, first identified in the UK And this one is not really knew. It was first detected in California this past May. But since early last month, researchers say its prevalence has grown in California, from 4% to 25% of the samples submitted to labs for genomic sequencing. Santa Clara County Public health officer, Dr Sarah Cody. We have had a number of large outbreaks in this variant has been identified in those outbreaks. Scientists are trying to figure out if this train now found in several counties is more contagious and how it responds to vaccines.
California Flooded With COVID Cases as Los Angeles County Sees Cases Double in Last Month
"An influx of covert 19 patients in California is stretching hospitals and healthcare workers to their limits. Rachel Raquel Maria Dylan of member station KQED reports, officials say it could be an early sign of a post Christmas surge. The rate of coronavirus tests coming back positive over the past seven days in California has jumped to 14%. L. A County public health officials say the number of cases there doubled in the past month and past 800,000 on Saturday. Hospitals across the state are bracing for a spike in new cases following the holidays. Intensive care unit availability was at 0% in Southern California and the San Joaquin Valley this weekend in the San Francisco Bay area. ICU capacity fell to 5.1%. That means all but the northern stretches of the state are below the 15% threshold. It would allow a gradual
"raquel i" Discussed on Black Frasier
"Off topic. No we're seeing. This bitch likes to pretend like you. The only beautiful person they've ever seen in my all life and its ally. I'm not by is now alive. There's no one else on this planet. The united discussed this before. And i think next week's episode goes into it as well where i find people attractive that i have a relationship with four. I'm just kidding. That's like really sweet. Wow that's really sweet any way. Let's get on track. Okay you guys. We took a little high eighty because it was turkey day And is just sort of like listen guys. We had a good thanksgiving they right. Yeah my came over we cooked we love Because sleeping gas. We're all responsible and got tested Let's see i feel like my is probably the only person we've seen in quarantine for like eight months. Yeah yeah so you know. I know a lot of people are like gathering and stuff like being only allowed one person come over at what had to be tested in the go back. The fuck. Do not pass two hundred. Take your leftovers. i'll see you next year. It was very My made mac and cheese for us. She a lot of pressure. I feel on Well email black people are very particular about their mcentee. I wasn necessarily saying black. People buzzing mac and cheese is like the highlight of thanksgiving meal right. But you're making it for like a black person this extra pressure of spurt. Yeah yeah but my through. He did a lot of cheese in the. It was really good. our ally but it was very delightful. So three cheers in a woo for my array. Woohoo yes okay you. Is we talk about the topic. A hand okay And i just want to start by introducing gusts by say that she is literally like so wise so smart. And i think as we're winding out the year we got past the election. Chitose stain is out yes yeah finally thoughts really helped that one. Yeah and you know. We're trying to sort of get rid of all the ugliness as there. We're thinking about the future who's going to represent us who is going to be the inspiration that we can then use in our own lives to step up and do better and so i just thought it was fitting to have a conversation with someone who i feel like is the future She's very smart. She is.
$73M To Go Toward Compensating Patients Of Former UCLA Gynecologist Accused Of Sexual Misconduct in Los Angeles
"The coronavirus. All the major stock indexes were up. Especially the Dow, which finished 1.6% higher. The Dow is now within striking distance of hitting 30,000 for the first time. Stocks that have been hurt by the pandemic, such as airlines and energy companies were higher. Investors were also responding to comments over the weekend from advisers to President elect Joe Biden, who said no nationwide lockdowns are being contemplated. Jim's a roly NPR news Yes and P Rose 41 points today. You're listening to NPR live from KQED News. I'm Raquel Maria Dylan. This is where we are Now. This is me sounding the alarm that San Francisco Mayor London Breed announcing that the city has jumped from the least restrictive yellow tier of the state's coronavirus related reopening plan. Over orange and back to the red tear, and that's effective tomorrow. This means non essential offices must close down again. Jim's can on Lee stay open a 10% capacity. Among other restrictions. San Francisco Public health director Dr Grant Colfax, the rate of increase that were seen in California. This faster and steeper than the summer surge. And here in San Francisco, we're seeing an explosion of new cases throughout the city, with the virus becoming more widespread. Colfax says the city's hospitals and intensive care units are able to care for everyone now. But he warned that may not be true if cases continue to rise. The University of California system has reached a proposed $73 million settlement with seven women who accused a former gynecologist of sexual abuse as part of the class action lawsuit more than 6000 patients of Dr James Heaps. Could receive part of the settlement. Ah federal judge must approve the proposed settlement, which was filed today in federal court. Patients have accused heaps of sexual assault and sexual misconduct between 1983 and 2018. He has pleaded not guilty to criminal charges involving seven women and denied wrongdoing. He's due back in state court next month. I'm
"raquel i" Discussed on Going Through It
"Of it just the facts Ma'am just the facts exactly and it it Selah Romania. I, mean, there are so many different types of journalists So yeah. If you're doing straight reporting and doing a news hit you, you're just gonNA scribble down the facts. Right? We also forget that objectivity and a lot of instances it's kind of impossible. I mean there's bias and even what we choose a subject that is deemed worthy of being covered. There's bias and what we're going to present to an editor and what they care about. Absolutely. No there's by dealt with the bias of working at a newspaper that wouldn't let me frame arguments. The way I wanted to in my opinion columns because it was too progressive for the community. Unity I'll. Yeah. I I will get even for the things that I would write I would get hate mail about being too naive or needed to watch my back all that kind of stuff I got an email once saying that I needed to watch my back because the KKK was alive and well in this area. Wow. What area in Georgia. Georgia I thought you meant in New York. City for a second now was just like number one I'm not surprised. We can't see because they don't have them there. I can't imagine. The weight of all the work that you do, which is so important but very heavy, very, very heavy. Please them. You got a good their fist. How are you taking care of yourself do you? Bet Vase means. A look I am in truth. And This is safe face. I. Actually feel like I'm going through a really bad therapists breakups. Nine now way but I had a phenomenal. They are pissed when I was still living in Oakland about a year and a half ago. Best, they're pissing my life like I know the one that got away. All no black and queer and a woman and Corn exactly and then I moved here. Any even I felt like I definitely need they're more you know living in New York list. I just was so drained because I had finally found her found the one, and now I just don't even want to play the. Phil. Go through that Labor because overwhelmingly my therapist experiences have not been great like I think a lot of folks right and I'll be very clear I. don't want another white therapists Y- nor should you have to have would I want a male therapist and if they can't be Queer I guess we'll work it out but I wouldn't prefer not have a straight therapist. So that's what's difficult for me. I also have much about healthcare when I was in California to be so frank, this sounds like a forgivable situation I got. A good their fifth straight now but I mean like, how do you take care of yourself like what things do you do to keep yourself from just being Mike? The world. Awful. There's no hope lake is all just trash whereas the media until the hurry up when I had that other therapist, I was able to kind of carve out what care looked like to me. Okay. So self care from me believe it or not as like planting. Planting plan plans. Thought I have like a bunch of plants in my players. I particularly have a fondness for Sake Lance. They forced me to open my. Cartons and let sunshine. Wash. So that's the thing I also say now a Lotta Times you know I kind of put it simplistically that my sisters are my self care. but it extends much more than that. So.
"raquel i" Discussed on Going Through It
"All the shit this happening around me lake. It's so interesting but I think before. Reading that letter from Leila. I had gotten so used to not sing myself and media and seeing myself around me. And I didn't know other Black Trans people before I. Left College. That's also the really sad thing is that I I literally grew up pretty much isolated from other transpeople. I wasn't in a big city so. It's not like I knew people who were out or I would even see people out in the bow. So that idea of having possibility model. Wasn't even fathomable to me. I will say that I did always know that I had a story I knew that as the as a child that I had a story that I was different. And then I was going to have to say something one day and it might not go well but that the clock was ticking and I needed to make sure that I was strong enough to make it through. Why did this become the beginning of your activism work? Like what was it about this moment? Honestly I think that Leila's death and the media rounded coincided with a time of my life where I finally was finding community. That looked like me with finding black. Hugh Fox in Atlanta and that I felt a little bit freer to say the things I really felt and advocate for the things that I knew our community deserved because I wasn't end small town Georgia anymore. I just had such a fear before moving to Atlanta for my life and my safety for my survival that I will lose my job and then have to go back to Augusta and I sure as hell not trying to. Do that no. So you to Augusta and this just all kind of coincide together because it wasn't the first and sense of Anti Trans Violence that I knew about I knew about what happens Ilan nettles and twenty thirteen I knew about the story of Gwen Arrojo mostly through the lifetime movie you know because my mom watched lifetime so I saw that movie but this was a time where it just foul. So concrete in terms of me. Visualizing what I was capable of doing now that I had a certain amount of safety myself So you decide okay music my voice things are happening this impactful. I'm going to step up my game. What's the first step? Where do you start? How did you learn like what is in the activist starter pack or what was in yours? It's funny. You ask that because I feel like a lot of happen organically I will say, I think the starter pack is. First of all, figuring out your own story. Okay. You know what are what are the things that you need to hill from? What are the of your story that are empowering? What are the parts of the story that you think can be used empower others? And then I think it's about finding. Community finding other people who may share similar stories right figuring out what they are ways of working through their own traumas as as a relates to what binds you together are a and then I think it's about putting it all into action right so a big part of the word activist is the word act what we're like your actual actions like did you go to rallies? Did you tweet about it more? Did you? stage. One person protests Dow mainstream like what was the What was your particular action? So it was a lot of things. I definitely tweeted a lot about what was going on and the Movement for black lives what was happening around the lives of Black Trans, women and Trans Women of Color I was doing work canvassing and doing survey. Data collection with Solution Punishments Collaborative Snap Co, and I also had a moment that was very powerful to me was our transliteration Tuesday action and Atlanta. So I really kind of spearheaded that brought folks together for that, and so it was a huge community effort we gathered. Upwards of one hundred plus folks would I think at that point if it hasn't been eclipse now was one of the biggest rallies specifically around Trans lives in Atlanta you are a journalist and activist and know that capital J. Journalism at least supposed to be objective like you have to like write the story facts only like leave yourself out of it but activism requires a lot of feeling how do you reconcile the two and does it ever create any tension there? Do those two identities ever bump heads so honing the identity of journalists and then also the identity of activists doesn't cost tension for me anymore. Early on yeah because I did go to journalism school. So I, remember you know those lessons around objectivity. No editorializing exactly. But the problem with that is that. There's no one's arrogation of the fact that the people who have overwhelmingly made those rules, the people that it was so easy for them to see themselves outside of the rest of the world. Had the most privilege on then were white cisgender heterosexual man with a certain amount of class privilege. Probably Christian all of these different things and Alba Black Trans woman from the South I. learned that I didn't really have that luxury to see myself outside of the story, right especially as the Movement for black lives was popping off. It just felt ridiculous to me. It's to pretend like. I was talking about something that didn't. Play a role and how I navigate the world. Yeah. Now like when I'm talking about Black Trans woman being murdered, I have those stories the right billing like my life with endanger. Yeah. When I'm talking about interactions with the police, I have those stories or my let me on the other way because this could go down in a number of different outcome. Yeah and you can't like leave that part of yourself out of it because it impacts the way that you see everything that you come across in the world. That's a really good point and also I would imagine that once people who are not. And started getting hired. They didn't want to hear how we felt about certain things because it was probably this is racist sexist. This is trash. So there's like an added stake in the NBA like you know what? Leave your thousand feelings out.
"raquel i" Discussed on Going Through It
"Before we get into this week's episode I WANNA. Let you know that it evolves themes around suicide in self harm. If you're worried about yourself or somebody that you love please please please reach out to the national suicide prevention hotline that number is one, eight, hundred, two, seven, three, eight, two, five, five South Carolina everything. This is going through it a show about women who found themselves in situations where they said no no thanks. I'll have nine and they made a decision to make a change in turn something around. I'm your host, Tracy, Clayton? They're all of these like successful algae. Hugh plus folks Thank it gets better. It gets amazing. All these different things and the truth is for a lot of people that doesn't get better. That's Racquel Willis. Today Racquel is a writer editor and transgender rights activist. She's done organizing work at the transgender law center and she was executive editor for out magazine. Big things big things happen. But at this point of her story, she was just trying to get a footing. So my relationship to Queer and Trans Activism prior to Leila Alcorn stuff. was kind of non existent I also had been in the closet. Gender identity working, and almost the middle of Georgia. My first job as a newspaper reporter picture of. The year is twenty fourteen. You cannot get rails happy out of your head and you also cannot stay off tumbler because tumbler was it. It was the place to be. It was so revolutionary because people there were using their own voices to talk about themselves learn about their own realities and there was a fourteen year old trans girl from. Lee alcorn that Raquel became aware of who did just that she used the platform to discuss and process her life. So Leela alcorn with a Yang Trans girl who really had learned so much about her identity she was active online as of millennials she became known in our community when she wrote a suicide letter that was set to publish on Tumbler after she had died by suicide Leila had battling both depression and parents that she felt were really unsupportive. It was kind of that bizarre instance of using technology to kind of say you know what you were. Going through and then to also have this translates youth telling the world that she was GonNa die because she couldn't a future for herself. When I sat with Racquel, she read the part of Leila's suicide note that resonated with her the most when I was fourteen I learned what transgender meant and I cried of happiness after ten years of confusion I finally understood who I was I'm mmediately told my mom and she reacted extremely negatively telling me that it was a phase that I would never truly be a girl that God doesn't make mistakes that I am wrong. If you're reading this parents, please don't tell us here kids even if you are Christian or are against transgender people don't ever say that to someone especially your kid. There was so much of Leila that Racquel on herself even reading this now I'm like, yeah, this was like me at the age came out of fourteen out gay I didn't have the language of transgender and I grew up in a very catholic environment. So the idea of like charts turning back on you and your parents choosing their faith of our farming you was was an imminent threat I. Always when we're cal I read Leila's note she felt so many fill in all at once I bar since it's here's just as I read more and more about her and I don't something just compelled me to do something different and not care about being. Silent anymore and I stagger these boxes on my like little rinky-dink coffee table and I put my laptop up they are and I recorded myself and I I made this short video where I'm dislike crying you know about this that feeling of helplessness like as a Black Trans Woman and the South I knew what that felt like Racquel hill posted a video to youtube not sure what kind of response she was going to get it got picked up by. BBC They saw it and they asked me to be on this radio show Racquel knew that this opportunity with the BBC could really open up the conversation about Black Trans Women that nobody at the time was having. She had just one little problem. I wasn't out at this now, second job that I was I was like, what's the point of being out? You know let me just like navigate as seamlessly as possible like I did in my last job but killed knew that in order to speak on Trans Women issues in the importance of their voices, she had to use her as I. I really only had like a day to kind of thinking through and I told my immediate boss was woman. Yeah was trans and that I was going to be talking about my experiences on BBC and then she talked to her boss who is like the the of like entire company. Who was a straight man? And I was Oh, how could this go but he also was like very supportive of and they were like you should do it by your voice is necessary inside did speaking on the BBC was a huge turning point racquel found her voice and now she was not afraid to use it. Soon she grew huge following on twitter and before you know it, she became somebody that folks looks who regarding issues facing the Trans Community I think the situations around Leela and subsequently being on the BBC just made me felt like I could be a mirror for other. Trans People. Now I sit down with Kale right as the pandemic it but it was also.
How Buscabullas Raquel Berrios Wrote Her Way Back Home In Regresa
"That's nominaux by. And that dreamy voice belongs to use half of the INDIE pop duo. The other half is her partner Co, parent Louis value. The couple started making music together while living in New York, but after Hurricanes Maria hit Puerto Rico. It decided it was time to go back home that return in the very meaning of home inspired their new first album. That could SA. I am not a native Spanish speaker, so I had never heard the word was skull Ya and so I loved it and I love the definition being a troublemaker. Are you by nature a troublemaker? I mean I would say no. But I do like i. kind of like what it implies in a way I do think that I'm always curious. I don't know I feel like I. Do have may be a troublemaker sort of nature when it comes to maybe making music like I like to take two worlds that are not supposed to come together and bring them together like to create and work with tension, so maybe in a way. That's why I was very much drawn to the name. Growing up in Puerto Rico. What kind of music was on her? On my Dad's side, a lot of so three. Oh Music Rock. He loved rocks and on my mother's side. My mom was more like an MTV head like. She just loved Madonna Prince Chardonnay. She was like more like mainstream. So I think that she will was more to English meet like English spoken music, and Spanish music, so we heard a lot of that, and that's mostly what Puerto Ricans here like we you know. Our airwaves are all like top forty American music, so we grew up with a lot of American music on the radio. But also like. And a lot of the Puerto Rican music was really has always been really important for my dad and my dad really taught me to love the music that was from my home country. Sucre up on the island. What's the turning point where you decide? You want to move to New York. Well I mean I studied architecture and design, and it was working at an office, and then I felt that really that may be. Our design wasn't really what I wanted to do. Like a wanted to be creative. And, so, I got I got into Rhode Island. School of design for my master's degree and I decided to textiles, and so I kind of knew that I might ticket to get into new. York was to actually go to maybe a school where I could get a job in new. York because I always dreamt about going to New York I mean my. My mother was born in the Bronx, and my parents were flight attendant, so I saw them come back and forth, and you know. New York has such a powerful presence in movies in the media. always felt like as a creative person that I wanted to go to New York and see like like I wanted to kind of find myself creatively there. How did you meet Lewis? Lewison I met at a friend's Party I. Mean I feel when you're Puerto? Rican your Puerto Rican near New York. You're bound to just be in party you'll. You'll probably meet anybody if you're around the same age I had the sort of like Make Ban with my friends Ban The way you putting it in quotation marks. Because I think it was sort of like mostly like a band that we never really kind of record anything we had songs, but it was mostly to pass the time and have fun like it was a timer. Like single just writing about like you know like just being single in the city, and it was kind of like a silly kind of project, but we were kind of playing our songs and. We used to do like weird like Spanish covers of pop songs, and we were doing a cover of bed romance of Lady Gaga in Spanish. and. I didn't know how to finish the song. I didn't know the cords Lewis comes in. I know the course of that song. And then he came in, and we finished a song from there on I knew he made music that he had like a whole history with bands. He had actually come to New York to make music end. Just like that we connected. We started hanging out jamming and. I showed some demos that I had with with the beginnings of what was boost cowboy Dan was super excited about it and immediately we. We hit it up and we started making music and we fell in love. But which came first the music or the Romance I have said a music came I for sure I. Main I'm seven years older than Louis so in a way I kind of felt a little bit like I. Don't really know if this is GonNa be a good thing. Again felt a little bit nervous, but I'm like, but I have a lot of fun with this person and he's super talented, so the music did come first.
Optimize Your Brain Health and Resolve Conflict with Raquel Younglove - burst 01
"If a brain isn't getting nutrients to help it function and we're going to be emotional we're going to have hard time focusing we're going to struggle in our job relationships school and just so even some simple ideas or tips on that are leafy green veggies or like kale spinach broccoli fish like tuna and salmon or nuts. It's funny. They talk about walnuts a lot and ironically walnuts even kind of look like the brain brain foods. I always think that's kind of kind interesting and then even are berries strawberries blueberries raspberries can just help give our brain the fuel it needs. So we can function better. Those are good tips
"raquel i" Discussed on The Secret Lives of Black Women
"Beef aren't really by near experiences. And I think within a generation's time we we will start to have a deeper understanding of that. This is the secret lives of black women. I'm SHARLA and I'm Laurin and today we're talking about LGBTQ politics. I'm really looking forward to talking about this. And I'm excited to talk about this because I feel like as we think about the presidential election and politics like so often when we think of black issues we compartmentalize and just think of blackness as like. Oh it's just it's just this issue but black issues are LGBTQ issues and we have to bring those to the forefront to and our thoughts and our minds is like if our sisters are dying like that should affect you. You should care and be like rallied up to be like who's talking about this and I think a lot of us are talking about it. I think we've had such strides socially in making these issues. Everyone's issues and making them black issues. At least as far as I'm concerned you know if everybody free none of us free so none of us. None of us. So I'm very excited. I think we have absolutely the best person to chat about these issues. We're chatting with Raquel Willis. Raquel is a writer journalist feminist leader and transgender liberation activists. She founded an initiative at the transgender law center called Black Trans circles which creates space for Trans People in the South and Midwest to heal from oppressive traumas and at the time of this interview. Raquel was the executive editor about magazine. She spoke at the inaugural women's March back in two thousand seventeen and her writing has appeared everywhere from essence device. Bitch magazine Buzzfeed and Huffington Post. I am so excited to meet rebel and to get this conversation started. So let's just jump right in. Let's do it..
"raquel i" Discussed on NBC's Songland Podcast
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"raquel i" Discussed on NBC's Songland Podcast
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"raquel i" Discussed on NBC's Songland Podcast
"So when I walked through the doors of Song Land. I had no idea who it was going to be four and then when I found out that her was my artist. I'm like I can really hear her singing. This like she would kill it and just take it to a whole other level so for my first take of singing in front of the producers and her I remember. My heart was beating out of my chest. Sweaty palms like short of breath. Like all all of that. I was just so nervous and as a songwriter. I feel like it's even more vulnerable to do something like this because you're going in front of Grammy Award. Winning Songwriter Producers and a Grammy Award winning artist. And you're singing a song that you wrote from your heart you're just spilling your guts out. That was nerve wracking for me. Hello cool to be here. This is a song called wrong places. Let's hear it for all the wrong case. A look all these faces always looking for on one trump concern kill question. Mccain home that just think how I was told young to set but I just love tools. Sentimental looking for someone to write although woods to my instrumental. It's bitch bitches. Only thing green. How does make just onto the god she gets? After I finished singing Ryan header got the piano and he picked up the courts right away I was like Oh my God. He's playing these chords. It's crazy like they were coming up with ideas only me tell me that you think they don't even more like that could be the bridge. They started like changing a few different lines. Who'd have said show me how to love and then we again. I'm always looking for us when wind drunk and faded yes and even like lust with trust to like. It's this is just like when you're warned drunken faded. It was just the coolest constructive criticism that I've never really had the opportunity to have 'cause it's always just been me sending into my phone or just writing in my notes so just to have that bounceback with people that are just so well respected in the industry. I never thought in a million years that I would have that type of opportunity and that in itself was so cool so when I got to move to the second round I remember like like who who am I going to work with. I would be happy any which way because they're all amazing and so. I walked into the room and I saw Ryan. I was so excited. Because I'm such a big Fan of Ryan header as I am with the other producers as well but I just remember like when apologize came out ahead of my space in like anytime I would go. Through break-up apologize would be my song on my space to fit my mood so to even be in his presence. I was like I wanted to like bow down to him. But we sat down at first before even got into the music aspect of it and we just went through line by line and we were like okay. Let's make sure every single line makes sense. I was told him to settle age. Ain't the thing I'm just to sino-middle. Aj thing there at his age thing too sentimental so we changed lyrics to just kind of conclude each line. Originally it was looking for Lebanon. All the wrong places looking for love and all of these faces so we wanted to say looking for love and all the wrong places looking for love and all the wrong faces. We definitely changed that and we changed the end of the hook as well the lines. I've been feeling lonely. Homie told me that you think I'm pretty. Show me how to love again. So that's kind of cool because it keeps it open to the imagination and anyone can really take that line and make it whatever they want to mean and then we actually facetime her. As well which I didn't expect and came up with an idea dinnenn e which I loved so it started with an acoustic element and then started to progressively grow throughout the track.
"raquel i" Discussed on NBC's Songland Podcast
"So when I wrote wrong places, which is a song that I one song land with it was about a year ago, I was in Los Angeles and going through a break-up. Obviously, when you're in Los, Angeles, you can meet a lot of crazy people in. Not The most genuine people or Find yourself in east tricky situations and You know I was. Twenty four years old and I was having fun. I was going out with my friends, drinking lots wine and I just some such a hopeless romantic that I just always just wanted to meet somebody that just made me have that feeling that I was missing I was. In this weird place going through this break up, but also wanting to be loved and missing the love that I had in my past relationship. So that's kind of what inspired the song and I had these court ideas in my head. This really cool progression, and so sometimes I'll record that in my voice memos, and then I will start creating melodies over chords that I create my head, so that was kind of the process. It kind of started out me, singing, dum, dum, dum, dum dum! and. and. And then over that voice memo I would just keep it on loop, and I would just come up with melodies, and the one lyric that I sang was looking for love and all the wrong places. And then one of the lyrics was looking for love and other places, looking for love and all the wrong faces. I'm always looking for love. When wind drunken faded looking for love in all the wrong place A. Came for often knowledge face he. Always, looking for enough. When on one token faith? So. It's like I know going to looking for love in all of these. Wrong people in situations, but I still want it, and that's kind of. It was just as internal mental battle that I was having with myself like I. Want it I know it's not good and I'm romantic and maybe I shouldn't be doing this, but it's still kind of fun, and you know all of those like weird feelings that you have in a situation like that and from there. I sent my ideas. My rough ideas to my friend back home in New York Zach Powell who helped write and produce a song with me and he took what I did, and then made it even cooler, and created an even cooler chord progression. He got where I was trying to go with it and. It does really helped the song to grow. Originally I think he made it a little bit more Staccato and then we kind of tried to make it flow a little bit more and make it more fluid, so he did you know more progressions instead of just very choppy things and we just got it to a really good point of feeling like it had army vibe, but super pop and like just I. Don't know it's so hard for me to describe that part of things because it's like the way my brain works. I'm like all right that sounds. Sounds Great, right? That doesn't sound good, so we're not gonNA do that, so it's like I. Don't know his technique and I don't even know if he does because it's just like a natural God, given talent, but he's one of those people that get exactly what I want. Even if I can't like, verbally, express it if I just give him a few notes, or if I just sing the melody like I feel like he can just figure things out in his brain like a mad scientist. It's really crazy. And just started creating this idea, and then just ran with it, and then just went straight into the studio to record it. It was just really cool to see the progression of the track against..
"raquel i" Discussed on NBC's Songland Podcast
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"raquel i" Discussed on NBC's Songland Podcast
"My journey as a songwriter. I think it's been kind of difficult to be honest in songs you know and to take something from your bedroom more from voice note to really recording it and putting it out into the world so. I know how tough it can be to be a songwriter. Then you also learned that there isn't much to learn you just have to speak from the heart. You have to be honest with yourself in your riding. My sound is so many things it's arm be at the core but it's so many other things and you know I. It's definitely emotional sometimes. It's electric sometimes warm. I don't know if it's just one thing. It's it's everything what makes a great song a great melody. You know something. That's unforgettable and unforgettable melody and I think the truth you know something that you know everybody has has felt or gone through or can relate to. I think those things make a great sal. I feel really hard when I hear a song that reminds me of a moment or memory or that reminds me of something. I feel most of like the purple rain album. Made me feel so much you know Dangelo. Those are some of my favorites Alicia keys of Lauryn hill songs in the key of life. All those albums or like my favorite these albums play over and over again. It never gets old and I always feel like I don't know what it is. That feeling is when you hear a great song but I get it from all those albums. Songwriters are so important you know. They don't get enough recognition. But you know for a lot of artists. They make the art senior. They make they make a lot of people. Feel something and you would never know that. It's the person writing like I feel like a lot of songwriters. Artists have written so many songs in and you see them walking down the street and you would never think like he wrote you. Know wrecking ball or songs that we we've known our whole lives. They don't get enough recognition. The experience of being at saw land is much more special because people get to see behind the scenes of what happens in writing sessions. It's like you're literally watching a writing session happen. And that's very rare. You know that doesn't just happen. People don't get to sit in on sessions people writing hit songs. The energy here is is so free. And it's so fun and it's like there aren't any rules but to just make a great song that's really why being here. I love Ester she's so dope she's created so many hits. Somebody songs that I still play. That are still in my playlist. And she's just a cool person like she's a great energy and and I think that's why she so successful at what she does because she loves it Shane on my Gosh you know. National is one of my favorite places to right and he has so much of that Nashville him. That just makes me so anxious to get in the studio with him. He's just so warm in his writing is incredible like he has written so many songs that I love and I know he knows about storytelling like he's really about storytelling. And that's that's my way of writing. Just picking up a guitar and being able to talk it out right. I Fan girled when I walked in. Because I'm such a huge Ryan Fan like I'm a huge Ryan Fan. I told him his voice has always affected me like I love his voice so much so the fact that I got to work with him on the show was like it was kind of a dream. Come true it was. It was kind of like a a vision board thing because I'm such a big Fan. That was the amazing her. So now we're going to hear from the winning writer. Rick Kill Castro and her journey as a writer and how she created her winning.
"raquel i" Discussed on Give Them Lala ... with Randall
"And we are back with Raquel. How You Doing Bill Maher? He's still hanging in there with us. I am all right so I am excited that we just heard an incredible fairytale which I had no clue. Raquel and I are bonded. 'cause we both met our significant others at. Sir Now. She met him at you. Bill Elizaveta restaurant. It was about a block away. Okay so at least get that yet. Okay now the question I have for Raquel. Is Everybody shacked up? Everybody's GonNa down the aisles. Like the cool thing of twenty twenty. Oh my God. We're asking her about marriage now. We're asking if she wanted to ask you about the hitting the eye on the romantic one. No is by. The way is guys haven't discussed it but I'm is there any intention soon? Do you guys see that happening in the future. Has there been talks or or is it. Just you're going to wait to the right moment. Yeah I I definitely see that in the future for us We are. We're not in a rush. I keep telling him I'm not in a row because I still feel like I'm really young and I don't know I told her you were twenty five. I'm twenty five also. You're not winning of time. James hold this James. He's young too old. He's only twenty seven twenty. Oh you guys. Are you guys got if no right? We'll say this now. There have been moments that James and I are in. The studio and DOTS is definitely his bill bill. You know CAL is one so that'll definitely listen to me. I'm answering the question for your call. I'm like Oh they'll for sure there. Should I like rebels attitude like like? It's just a what's going to happen. I know it's going to happen and it's going to happen when we're both work you on the other hand. What your pressure pressure I didn't know that Russia you you said this shit's going down by the end of this year or you're going out. It was pretty much like that. But you don't remember that you gotTa Amnesia. Yeah well that was probably one of my in my drunk door. Okay so cal. Yeah Baby. Let's talk about. We have had two seasons together that have been rocky little rock. Yes absolutely and for you know you and I have had conversations off camera off podcasts. Where you know we've in my opinion have come a very long way and this season we had our coffee date which I know that we both felt was for me. It was a highlight. But I I loved filming that scene with that was one of my highlights because we got to speak on such like civilized and like Nice Level. Where like we were hearing other and And I just got to talk to you about my experience with James his steps to sobriety and I feel like we were able to really like relate in a way absolutely. I felt like we related in that moment to and I have to ask because I am obviously a hothead you have been on the receiving end. How in the world do you maintain being so calm and poised during attack? Like what the hell did your mom teach you to be like no no. I don't know born that way implying that I recall raquel. I give it to you mad credit mad props because I am on the receiving end. Sometimes of my fiance's frustration. I use the word frustrations but and I. I'm pretty level headed babe. Don't you think I mean I pretty? Yeah pretty normal but but I think I think you're not marrying Walla so the fact that you can be calm is mad props to you now. I really think it's amazing. Do you like when you go into filming. I know I asked you this. But like 'cause you don't know what to expect in your soul like normal and level headed right. What is your process of being like? Okay I know I got into it with lar- whatever like going into a scene like how do you maintain that? I mean I'm telling you for advice here. I'm going to shut up right after this. I knew where she was going to his face because she was basically a hit on the head. She wants you to help her raquel. Give her advice. How does she remained? Calm please I wish I had an easy answer for you but all I can say every time I go in to seen filming I try to just like be really happy going into it and like I don't know try to enjoy the moment because it's in those moments where I grow personally in the sense that I get super anxious when we do film if we're in to the that stops aren't the easiest and I'm very non-confrontational so right it's it's basically it's your DNA the way the way the weight the way that you function day to day. You don't like that. Is your sister like calm till I like to normal now? No she's not. She's the adversary opposite. Oh my Gosh I love it have you. Have you ever battled with her? No more our age gap is too much here six years apart so we never like battled it out like that. Okay but your child and your sisters more of the one that's like just a killer not a killer but you know what? I mean to a fighting. Yeah okay I totally get it. Wow I I mean I have told you this many times and before we sign off until you again you have been. You've made an extremely you know hard life changing moment coming onto this show. I know it's not easy and from the bottom of my heart. I am sorry that you've been on the receiving end of my wrath. It will not happen again and I wanNA tell you not only were you cool calm and collected. You are so fucking fun to watch this season. Raquel you need to know that all that this is so I mean this I wanNA. We weren't if we weren't in Quarantine. I would hug it out with both of you right now. This is really sweet. That's I and I and I love that. You share your story because it really is a beautiful story and. I think sometimes we don't just like you know Lal on I like people don't get to see all of us and I think just like people get all of you and James and hearing. Kinda how you came together and the love that you have and you're you got pushed into this world like I did and it's not an easy world being and I give you a lot of a lot of respect for that so thank you so much. We're so happy that you that you gave us some of your quarantine time and I hope that you go and enjoy the rest of your day. My Love to you guys were so fun to have and we appreciate it. Yes by okay. Wow I have to say like there have been many moments and I'm not going to get choked up about this. I'm sure it's because I'm like stuck in this house bouncing off the wall but you know filming a reality. Tv show is a lot of work. It's a lot of pressure you're asked to be surrounded by people that you don't always click with or see and you know most times people wanNA slam you for the way that you've treated somebody and absolutely. I did not treated correctly but people also have to understand that we don't get one minute to sit back and reflect on what's happened or think about what's been said. We are thrown into positions. Where you know you either are a fighter like me or you're very cool and calm like Raquel and I respect that but I think you know the making up of my cast members when we can see eye to eye and show love because we're in this together. That is the most beautiful moment while I'm sitting here looking at you with tears in your eyes and makes me happy because I know you know and not to get into too much but I know that you have been very affected by just this thing with Raquel that happened on the show and you know anybody that like who I think should get the wrath of. Whatever I'M DOING. She is not the one I know pip really bad about that. Well I love you and I know that in your heart you're the sweetest two men in the world and I know that Raquel definitely not the sweetest human in the world you you. You're the sweetest human to me. Well Okay but what? I want to really grateful that. She came on the PODCASTS. That was amazing. Like her talking about how she might. James Amazing and by the way what I'm trying to say is this is that you are the sweetest in inside. That's who you are and I think that you're put in a situation that you know you're on a show where where you guys are together every day for months and months and months and months and months and and people explode and I think the fact let me say this the fact that today you can sit here and admit you know your your faults right. That's how big of that that that takes a lot of courage just like it took her a lot of courage to be able to come on the PODCAST and say. Hey we are okay. We are friends now. We bury the hatchet. And I wanNA tell you that you the same out of credit. 'cause you don't give yourself any credit ever and I'm looking at you and I know you still probably won't give yourself credit but law. It takes a lot to apologize. Say something that I the part that I need to work on is when I went off on Racale the two two times this season what she was saying. I felt that I was the things that I cared about. Were attack even last year. I felt that she was attacking my dad and I needed to take a step back like she's not meaningless in an ill way she's not you but you also dead. I took it and I was like. I'm ready to fight and I should know by now the difference when someone's trying to be evil in mean and when someone is saying something where I'm taking it the wrong way. WanNa say again your. It's huge view to be able to apologize. Say You were in the wrong at the same time. And I'm not I mean I am your partner but I'm also GONNA be honest. You're in a really really difficult place the last year. Losing Your Dad you were. I mean you were in the spiral so yeah I mean I'm not justifying anything. I'm just saying you weren't in your right head because you lost your debt so so now now today I look at you and I see a different woman San sitting here saying you know what sorry. I didn't mean to come at you that way. You didn't deserve that and look at you two now. Now you guys are friends and you guys talk. And she trusted to come on our podcast. Which is huge of her. And and it's huge of you to be able to want her to come on so. I just think if we weren't in quarantine right now we'd all be at dinner. Yeah and I want to say one more thing before we sign off most people that know me know I. I know that I have negative comments in my hands. I know that I have negative comments in the comments section. Which is why I avoid reading them because it affects me however when I watched the show back and I saw my behavior that is what is sitting with me not anything else I mean the other day we did Andy Cohen. Show Watch Robin's life and he was like a lot of people I asked him. I was like. Are you asking me this questions? It I get a lot of hate from that. And he was like Oh. We had so many comments about it so I had no idea until he said that I was already feeling badly about what was going on so I'm just really grateful. We had her on. She's a frigging hot ice but I always see own. It was fun because she she even told she gave it up on the first night. A girl after my own damn heart. I'm sure she's going to be like Oh. No I don't want to be in girl after Laos art okay. I'm just gonNA leave this alone. I want to say you already look lighter and happier like the fact that yeah. I think you know. Look this week I don't know anymore I'm just gonNA leave it at that week. Whatever of quarantine. Because this is I feel like we live in quarantine out but I think doing this. Podcast connects us to people that are kind of in the same boat and I think you know I wanna say relationships are hard and then when you put people in quarantine. They're harder so anybody out there that's going through a tough moment in their relationship stay positive and stay strong and just keep working through it because the stronger you are in quarantine the better your relationship will be out of quarantine absolutely we are sending you all all of our love and prayers in before we sign off and I tell you guys to go sleigh the day. Let's listen to some voicemails. You ready ran. This is like my favorite part of. I know it's so fun. Great I feel like I know these people. Yup Hi Laura I'm Randall. This is Andrea from Atlantic city..
"raquel i" Discussed on Give Them Lala ... with Randall
"Him but once he invited you to the after party you went there and what happened did you let him hit it the first night. Rick Eleven. You're a lady oh my. I can't believe you're asking me because no one's asked me straight up that way. No one past me and the answer is yeah. It was one night yes to my girl. Cow Say something say something you know. Lalla. What's the same? She was the same and I will say look at us now and look at UNM. Now there we go see. I always tell people I'm like you know what I don't think that that that like holding off the cookie really applies at all tonight and I love okay. So then you go your Sonoma's this point right like you just came in for. Were you at home for Christmas at this point. At this point it was my third year in college. Okay so I would at cinema state in northern California so ended up being not James wanted to continue dating me and he was down to do long distance So the first day that we had when he came up to visit me we went line tasting. Because that's what we do. Incidentally TAP CLASS HERE. We go barrel tasting. Then we get a party bus. We got a party bus and we went out there to all the different Winery this is romantic. I really had I swear to you. Live no idea that the I mean. This is a great fairytale it is. It really is and then so. How long have you guys been together when you made your first appearance on? Vander pump rules must have been maybe five months because we met the first January and then we started filming that summer. Oh my gosh dot was quick recall and I want to. I'm really GonNa like pick your brain. We're GONNA take a short break and we will be back in a hot second with a Beautiful Rick. Eleven you guys know. I'm obsessed with jewelry. I love me some diamonds. I love me some gold. I love it all and I just recently found or eight or eight is fine. Jewelry made in New York City founded by women for women pieces range.
"raquel i" Discussed on Give Them Lala ... with Randall
"Thing but I would never speak up. I would never speak up in class. I was always so scared you because I never thought that I had the right answer and it wasn't until I went to college. That things started clicking for me. Would you do me a favor? Can you take back? Ju just so I understand. You grew up in northern California. Is that correct? No I actually grew up in thousand oaks which no way. And just just give me a snippet of like you started modelling pageant. How did it kind of all begin for you because you say you were this quiet kid but I mean obviously you had a lot of ambitions so tell me tell me how that all came together and then how it leads you to kind of enter puppet? I was very ambitious because I was so nervous about talking but I wanNA push myself out of my comfort zone. So that's what drew me into pageantry I was always scared to like talk in front of other people so going in and being judged an in person interview and being onstage in swimsuit and evening gown that really pushed me outside of my comfort zone and when I was able to you know. Help myself grow in those ways. Their limit. Let me ask question are I've seen these. Tv shows right. Which I'm sure you have where they show pageants are the reserve mom like a pageant. Mom Stage is it like that or I mean. Have you seen other moms like that when you were coming up in it because I find it fascinating and it's got to be a very surreal experience like just being on stage at a young age and having the talk and do all these different things is there? Is there drama in that world that you saw you were? She shielded from that now now. I didn't start competing on patents until later like when I was a teenager like sixteen so I never experienced the toddlers. Ntr person but I can tell you from my experience. It's nothing like that. Okay Okay so you started pageants in your teenage years. Obviously you're modeling as well and you're going through this and you're going through your education you're going through your education and then what Happ- where where does that take you. Go to you decide. You want to go to college. Get a degree which I understand. I don't want as well but at that point do continue the MA. Just kind of take me through that last part into Los Angeles and how you mentioned. 'cause I'm I'm intrigued. I'm very intrigued and I competed for Miss Hollywood. One of the judges wanted to sign me because she had a modeling agency. So that was my little gateway into the modeling world as little nature recall. It's really fun. And then I decided to go to Cinema State University and get my degree in kinesiology and I would love to work with kids special needs in the near future with that. Did you know that law Do that's amazing that is I had no idea that is so. That's why it has a very sweetheart but that's why a podcast. Because I would've never known this and now we're Carolina like have a whole different. I always liked. You always been respectful to each other but knowing that you wanna work with kids especially. I mean that tells a lot about somebody I mean. That is a real. Yeah Okay so do you study that and then and I was modeling for a Boutique called Ula while I was in school so I was doing photo shoots with them once a week and not kept my modeling career going for the time being and then. I guess two years ago when I moved down to. La and James. And I have our own place here. Can we tell me all on because this is the exciting part? You whether you like it or not. You have a ton of fans I know Lalas and James I have two or three my mother and my dad and my sister but let me. So how do you even meet James? Because I don't know that story at all. How does that start? No Randall's never challenge. It's like a perfect. I love it. Tell me tell me tell me. It didn't recall it didn't involve range rovers right just getting just getting. That's my story. Unfortunately ranged river's okay. Tell me tell me how you guys met. That's really cool okay. So My Sister. Kate invited me out to nears eve with her super last minute. I had no plans but I have my sorority sister with me. So he went out and we went to pump. We had dinner at their vacations at pump and James was DJ. -Ing and I was sat at table number seven which is right by the deejay booth. That's great I love the You. Remember the table number okay. So Story J. Booth and I thought he was so cute and I had gotten out of a relationship recently at that time and James was like the only guy that I thought was really attracted so I go over there and I song requested beyond. Say He's like well. I don't normally take song requests but for you I will. I love this story on such a romantic. This is awesome. Yes but first time I heard his British accent. Oh my God into time and I was like. Oh my God like for a moment. I thought he was faking his accident. Because it was so strong right it caught sit like a point but it was like such a big British event but now looking back on it looking back on it. I've noticed that Janes amp up his British accent according according to WHO? He's talking toward that needs. When he was out there recall meeting. He likes you end to it. I know oh Jesus God swagger sweat already know James has got swagger but knowing this so what he saw you he went from like Oh in America to however cal will definitely an American. He's like True Blue British so funny that he like amped it up for cal. That's I think that's a door. So after he puts plays a song. What happens next okay? So the countdown scrape and then countdown New Year's Eve countdown and so. He's like announcing it on the Mike and I'm like dancing by him and then he pulls me over and we get that midnight all this. The greatest stories like Cinderella was pretty now. So then he Kim bided my sorority sister Mandy and I to this place used Zhang afterwards like hell. Yeah Hell Yeah. Let's go mandy like being my wing woman. Let's go mandy is is definitely going to be your maid of honor and she has more sure she will definitely be a bridesmaid. Okay let me wait. Let me ask. Let me ask another two questions so first of all after just getting to know you more here you and I have a bond on how we met our significant others because I as you know Matt Lalla for the first time when she was manning the hostess stand at what I had a Christmas demining the hostess Man Well Sir. Yes so I'm there. I'm at Lala at the same. I know that those those places that Lisa Vander pump owns are just like the cold a lot of love saying I love story. I had no. I had no idea I love this story about jobs. I had no idea the once you once you you. You didn't follow him but once he invited you to the after party you went there and what happened did you let him hit it the first night. Rick Eleven. You're a lady.
"raquel i" Discussed on Give Them Lala ... with Randall
"Al I am. I got out of say you are awesome and just so cool to just come on here and I know that you in Lala had some Bandra pomp drama. But you know what that's behind us and I just want people to get to know you because you know. I don't know you that well but I know James obviously for a long time now and. I just think that I can't tell you how excited I am for you to be here and for me and everybody to kind of get to know a lot more about you so. I just want to thank you amazing. Thank you now. I'm excited to be here talking to you guys too so you said earlier like you get you. Get nervous doing podcasts. And you know last year during the reunion you have told us that you struggle or have struggled with anxiety and things like that. What is it like for you coming on? You know you you met James and then you just became a personality on reality TV nine. I'd call myself a person who I know. You're definitely a person I will. I will say rick out this season watching. You has been pretty epic. You've gone toes. I've already told you this when we've had our phone conversations like you handle yourself with grace and poise. I wish I could do that. Unfortunately I'm cut from a very dingy cloth but you know we let that just let it go but what is it. What is it like for you to like watch yourself on TV when you you know you were model model like when you film what is your mindset? It really weird watching myself on TV. I don't particularly enjoy it. That makes two of us. Were Cal. Trust me two of us. Oh my gosh is that were really like what am I doing right now with my face And I guess it makes me more aware of you know your Gestures or anything. But I'm filming in. General is definitely an anxiety induced time. Because I do get anxious and nervous just about talking and general growing up I n class. I like always the quiet one always a while. Teachers had wow like. I'm obviously not surprising.
"raquel i" Discussed on Give Them Lala ... with Randall
"La La La La. I'm lake. Don't get people who don't a lot of people who listen. I have kids and but people don't have kids. Let me just tell you? I love being people that have kids know exactly what we're got from tyrod but I'm trying to tell the people that don't so people who don't have children who are young. You know words Avenue kids yet or whatever you know you love your kids and you love every minute with people no I love Riley in London obsessively Soda. You used by. But here's the thing when they don't go to school and you have to try to be creative in your home. You can only color so much. You can only play Jenga so much you can only play hide and seek swim pickle. You can run them into the ground Zoltan. Yes before your run into the ground by frigging three o'clock but you know so so so we face that and I just think look. I think we're halfway through this quarantine. I think we're starting to head towards the other side. I've read a lot of articles that say the curve is starting to happen. The numbers are lower than they thought. Look we don't know yet but I am optimistic. Avoid the news I duNno shit. I know but I'm optimistic seeing a lot of headlines lately that seem like they're going in the right direction so knock on wood hopefully now is my mother has put two baskets in the entryway one full of masks one full of gloves and another full of Lysol and that means obviously were stepping our game up. You can't come in the house without those and you can't leave the house without those clearly. This shit is popping off it. It's not but at the same time right now. We're in a real serious locked down this week. And they're saying that hopefully we'll hit our peak but having said that it does make me think about like when this quarantines over when we go back to work we go back to our lives or whatever. Version the appreciation. I'M GONNA have for traffic. I telling you when I get in traffic to go to the office. I'm going to be like thank God. I could go to the office so I just think people are going to be. I hope more tolerant and appreciative of the small things in life that we used to take for granted right like I used to sit there and be like I have to go to like you know a meeting today. Do you know how much money I would give to go to a meeting instead of the. Here's the zoom link and by the way not only are you asking me to log into something. I'm technologically challenged. But you're asking me to get ready to sit at home in front of a computer. It's tough it's tough and I'll tell you and for you I gotTa give you a lot of credit to stay. You've stayed sober. You have done your homework with your sponsor and I'm sure for a lot of people who fight addiction. Having to be quarantined not be able to drive to their typical weekly meeting that some people have been going twenty years in for twenty years some of these people or thirty years of been sober going to the same weekly meeting the same routine. I give a lot of people a lot of credit right now for for fighting to stay sober and staying the course because you know it's it's already tough enough. I'm sure to stay sober but the stay sober in your house. I'm really happy that you brought that up because I feel like everyone. Is You know so consumed with getting sick and getting this virus. And what do we do to prevent getting it that we have to think about the fact that my people my fellow alcoholics and addicts? Don't get to go to meetings. That are keeping them sober. They're having to do the work on their own calling their sponsor but they don't have they don't have an most people don't know this just getting in the car to go to a meeting is keeping people sober and they don't have that anymore by the way. Have to log onto a computer and I get it. It's like okay. Well they still have the meeting but it's different. It is different so I give so many people that have been going to those meetings for ten twenty years that they're still fucking fighting for their sobriety. Those are the people that inspire me and I want a second that it just when I've gone to your the meetings with you to support you watching the speakers and the inspiration and kind of the community that comes around you watching the love that you get a being sober in the celebratory and when I went to your one year watch I speak like that I get it. I get it and not have that right up for you not to be able to get the car and say I'm having a Shitty two days I you know I'm stressed is sh like everybody else in the world going to go to my meeting and talk it out. You can't do that. You're there are people that have been going to the WHO've been sober for like forty plus years and they go to a meeting you look in the corner and they're like falling asleep and it's like but they went to the waiting in the car and they went to their meeting exactly the point you to the meeting and it doesn't matter and maybe that week they were falling asleep at the next week. They needed the meeting. Saying is that people take out. It's like Oh but you can still tune in. It's like but you don't understand the power of getting into your car and driving to that meeting. That's what I'm saying and I I give you so much respect. I tell you this all the time your biggest accomplishment and when I have gone to meetings with you to support you yeah watching you just you know. Every time you came out of a meeting that I was with you at you were like you like floating cherish exactly for you not to have that and have to do it on the phone and zoom look. I've been doing meetings or meet ups with my friends. You know that kind of stuff on the zoom. Yeah it's not the same. It's the same. It's it's good. It's something it's better than nothing but it's not the same. I that one meeting we went to at that amazing speaker We're place down by the four. Oh five whatever speaker and we're both blown away I do. You can't get that same thing less. You're sitting twenty feet from the person so allow to you. Everybody out there whose whose staying sober I give all of you. Such amazing respect because you know. I know I need to drink even moral during these time so I take more baths said a foreign damn taking a six so I if the drought problem I'm single handedly responsible for it okay. Well I'm fine with that. I want to say I am excited about our next guest. I am excited that you and her are on such a good path and I think that I'm excited to get to know a lot about her so I think we should. You should introduce her because obviously you know better than me. Yeah let's take a short break. And then we are back with the stunning recap lapis. Give them while I with. Randall is supported by better health. Online counseling sometimes life is stressful and hard. And we all know that we can all use a little help and we're feeling down but be not know exactly where to go for what. I like about this company. 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"raquel i" Discussed on Give Them Lala ... with Randall
"Hey all you cool cats and kittens. It's Lila can't with around with. We have a super dope guest today. She is poised. She is elegant and she is a gangster when it comes to taking the wrath of La can't her name is Raquel motherfucking. How I got to tell you the reason I'm excited by having Raquel on is the fact you to have all this stuff going on about whatever to go at it or whatever whatever and she is the sweetest human and you have the biggest heart in the world. So I don't understand any of this shit but I am excited to have her because I don't recall that well I know obviously just saying hi at different things yeah totally. I'm excited to get to know her because she's always so nice to me so genuine so and I'm sure you too. We'll talk and we'll hear that part of it but yeah I. I'm just glad you tour are talking in friends. And whatever was we'll we'll get into but I gotta tell you Raquel you know there's a lot of people on your show a lot of different personalities and Raquel from day one no matter what has been going on behind so so sweet so let me ask you a question This Lala Randall. Soon to be Mrs Lawa seem to be. We're in we're in quarantine here on week. Three hundred. Yeah it's getting it's getting. Oh Am I right to say that when we first got into quarantine? I had just gotten home so you already a weekend. Yes I got home day one. I think I wanted to full depression. Like what is going on. What just happened and you already had been in like a week. We to as like bouncing off the walls going nuts renting. Rv's you know going our house in Palm Springs Blah Blah Blah. You were happy as a clam. I saw you drawing every day. You have four hundred coloring books here in front of us right here you've got lizard. You're drawing you've got. I don't know you've got states and countries you were having the time of your life. Yes not only. Were you coloring them? We built our. We extend our pickle ball court right and now we've been blamed pickle ball that's been awesome totally so professional colors professional pickle ball player swimmer. Step mom everything and you have been the best attitude and I've been in it like the even pms while in Corinth okay. That was a rough as that. But we made it through all that and you kept a great attitude totally yesterday yesterday. Yeah I feel like you hit the wall. Yeah I'm hitting a wall today today. Only color give myself so many facials before I wanNA shoot everybody okay. I'm looking at you at least you're admitting it because you have had the most positive attitude maybe to you everyday. I've been has antisocial so for me it's like Oh don't leave your houses I'm like are you weeks of no jim three weeks of not seeing any friends any of your friends. Yeah is takes a toll. Yeah I mean all of my friends are homebodies so like if we don't see each other for a minute like at least we text and whatnot. The Gym is killing me. Jim Is Jim sets the tone for my whole day and I wanna Tell People. People don't know this so normally our schedule is we wake talked about this. We did we have so. You're me repeat it. I would prefer to talk about something different if we've already spoken about trauma repeater though okay. Okay but going backwards just saying when you go to the gym. It is your first win to the day after your calls. Yes and I've told people a hundred times. If I don't have a trainer I am not working out. My ass is getting flat. I've lost weight. You have lots wait. Is that a bad thing. I mean you're skinny already people they're like. Oh that's great me. I want thick thick asks. And I don't WanNa frigging thigh gap you know. I'm trying to be thicky thick pitch over here. Which is why. Yeah so I squatted lot. It's why eat a lot but I think it's because Jenna works my ass out so hard. It's my body is like meeting fuel all the time. I just want to preface whatever however you say your look right now I you look stunning thank you. I think you look beautiful every day. And that is the truth and you know. I say that they link you but what I do want to say is. We've hit this wall bonus. Yeah and we're looking outside. It's pouring rain right now and we're just like you know when does it and and we don't like him in the walking dead kind of yes like this is our. This is our base camp and the kids are the walkers because there's stuck at home all day everybody stuck. Are we hear them coming up the stairs?.
Rakell scores late in OT, Ducks beat Avalanche 4-3
"Ricard Raquel scored with one point two seconds left in overtime as the ducks beat Colorado forty three for the avalanche the defeat ended a seven game win streak Raquel said when he gained the puck he was aided by the Anaheim bench which counted down the final seconds as bitter as the loss was for the ads they did pick up a point to move to within two of central division leaders St Louis with the avalanche having a game in hand Bruce Morton Denver
How Is The U.S. Economy Doing?
"Begin today a little piece of audio you a mere twelve seconds. Not Too long won't be too painful but inside it. There is a whole lot to digest. Here you go. I believe that monetary policy is and a good place and should continue to support sustained growth a strong labor market and inflation running close to are symmetric two percent objective. Those those of you recognize that to be a member of the Federal Reserve Board of Governors. Not too tough really given the subject matter. Go to the head of the class. If you identified the Speaker as Richard Clara the vice vice chairman of the Fed a gold star to you. Now why are we starting with him. A couple of reasons honestly number one because the Fed has been taking some heat it lately for having gotten a lot of its economic forecasting wrong. Hello inflation number. Two because Clarita said today and chair Powell says often the really the economy's pretty good number three because pugh is out with a study today. That says not everybody out in the actual economy agrees with the fat so so two interviews with which to test those premises. I about the Fed Sarah Bender. She's a professor of Political Science at George Washington University where she studies the Fed. Welcome to the program. Thanks thanks for having me. What do you make of the vice chairman speech today and more importantly how the feds sort of is positioning itself in this economy right now? Well the Fed is saying saying so far. So good The comedies on a good track Congress's given us a dual mandate of low sustainable unemployment and low inflation Kevin. And we're hitting him. He's not telling us really where things are going in the future. He's saying data dependent meeting by meeting. But he's telling telling us the economy is on a good course he Said and and chair. Paul says this all the time that they're going to you know work to keep the expansion going as as long as they can and one of the things chair Paul says and Clark said it today was that You know the longer expansion goes the more it helps people at the bottom. How much can the Fed really do though for the people at the bottom of this economy but the fence so far is doing a lot by keeping a monetary policy not so loose and accommodative right and you see wage gains at the lower end of the economic spectrum at a certain point though? There's only so much that monetary monetary policy can do and absent fiscal policies. That might say deal with job training or job relocation or healthcare. There's is only so much weight that can be put on monetary policy makers. Let me carry that forward to an interview. We're going to have here in a couple of minutes with A upholster from pugh who has a new study out today about economic inequality in this country. What can the Fed do on economic inequality which consistently ranks pretty high in terms of what what people are worried about in this economy? Well the best contribution they can make is to keep an eye on employment and do as much as they can to Stoke job growth but without sparking inflation keeping an eye on the health of the financial system so that people have access to quality and so forth at the end of the day though. It's really the limits of what monetary policy makers can do. The really simple line is heading into an election year. Right is. It's the economy stupid frame that for me in terms of the Federal Reserve and the role of the economy in the next eleven months of of our common experience. Well Congress gives the Fed to commands. Keep inflation low keep jobs growing. That's what the Fed is aiming to do. Oh here and the extent that they're successful it means the economy's growing and on an even keel in. That's what helps incumbents get reelected Sir Bender under she's At Brookings also Professor Political Science at George Washington University professor. Thanks for your time. Am I appreciate sure. Thanks for having me okay. So all of that said interview number two now from the Pew Research Center who study out today shows as I said that not. Everybody agrees that the economy is all sunshine and Light Ruth Galmoc. She is a senior researcher at Pew Rookie to have you on for having me if I say that seventy percent of respondents to this Survey that Y'all did if if I say that they believe the economy is rigged. Is that too strong word. I would say that. They think that the economy is unfairly favouring powerful special interests interests so we asked whether the economy was generally fair or whether it unfairly favored these powerful interests and seven and ten Americans that they did not think it was fair. We should point out. There's as a partisan divide here as with most things in this country now that's right. Republicans are about evenly split with about half of Republican. Same economy is generally fair and half of the economy saying unfairly early favors these special interests whereas Democrats overwhelmingly say that the economy is not fair. okay so Brass tacks your who's got the power so we asked Americans who they thought had too much power and influence in today's economy and about eight and ten or more American said that politicians Titians corporations and people who are wealthy had too much power we also had majority saying health insurance companies banks and other financial institutions and tech companies had too much cower Let me ask you then who doesn't have the power or is parallel. I suppose another way to put it. Yeah we asked to people. Apple felt did not have enough power and Americans pointed to people who were poor the middle class and interestingly small businesses. Yes say more about that because when I read this in small all businesses came up I was. That's the thing that got me on the phone with you to be honest. Yeah I'm and one interesting thing was we saw a partisan divide and how Democrats and Republicans on looked at a number of these groups. Republicans were less likely than Democrats to say that large corporations had too much power but when it came to small businesses Democrats and Republicans were largely in agreement that that small businesses did not have enough power. Today's economy. So what else do people need to know about this. I mean as they read this and they hear that you know seven ten people think the economy is is unbalanced. Silence shall we say instead of rigged. What are they supposed to do that information? It's hard to say What people are supposed to do? In this survey we did sort of dive into what Americans think about economic comic inequality in general and while most Americans say that there's too much economic inequality in the country. They didn't rank particularly highly as an issue. So it's hard to sort they how that will play out Raquel Nick. She's a senior researcher at the Pew Research Center. Thanks a lot. I appreciate your time. Thanks for having me
Roundup trial: High-stakes trial over cancer claim begins
"A federal trial involving the popular weed killer roundup is set to begin today in San Francisco, kqei acuity is Raquel Maria. Dylan reports more than nine thousand people have sued. Bayer claiming roundup causes non-hodgkin's lymphoma, Edwin Harman's case was picked as a test trial in federal court for years. The sonoma's residents braid round up around his property to control poison oak. He was diagnosed with cancer in two thousand fifteen the EPA says, the primary chemical and roundup glyphosate is not carcinogenic to humans, but researchers with the World Health Organization say it probably is. Bayer says the herbicides has been an essential tool for farmers for the past forty years. It bought Monsanto for sixty three billion dollars last year, but Bayer's stock price plunged after a San Francisco state court awarded. Two hundred eighty nine million dollars to a school groundskeeper from Venetia in August damages were later reduced to seventy
Head of California Dems calls for In-N-Out boycott over GOP contribution
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Peter Strzok fired from FBI: Special agent texted about his dislike for Trump
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Investigators examine why Army helicopters blew down tents that injured 22 soldiers in California
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Did Raquel Pennington's coaches fail her in scary UFC 224 loss to Amanda Nunes?
"What was the atmosphere like in the garden it was pretty good i mean it was it was great in there watching boxing in the garden i will say one of the highlights had to be the drunk ukrainian that front the front row and took four security guys ring this dude down and all he wanted was for loma chango to make contact so he could show his flag and it was mind boggling was just like four dudes for one guy yeah he got me i was like no victim all right from the world of combat sports this was a story that was somewhat disturbing over the weekend so despite telling her coaches she was done between the fourth and fifth rounds of her fight ufc fight with amanda nunez the other night racquel pennington was sent back out for the fifth and she was promptly dispatched via tko she was left in a pool of her own blood likely suffered a broken nose after the fight nunez your opponent said that pennington's coaches quote failed per now i'm not going to pretend that i under fully understand all of the etiquette involved in this stuff but i have followed boxing certainly all of my life it seems to me that if the fighter says i'm done that should trump anything why would anyone say if you save i'm fighting yeah i've i've never been in a fight of any kind of my life but if i'm fighting and i said look i'm finished here guys i got nothing left i i have to believe that it is the obligation of the people around that fighter that look hey back this is a terrible look for not only her can't before that sport because this this again when you're an athlete again this level of invincibility continues to be preached to us.