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S6 E11 - This is what it's like living with someone with PTSD. . . - Full Episode
"All right you ready. I actually hit record this time here. We go so in the most recent episode of the podcast season six episode ten. I sat down with my wife patricia. I talked to her about the challenges. She has faced in dealing with multiple mental health diagnoses over the years and right after we published that episode. We received an excellent recommendation from a listener. Asking us to tackle the topic of what it's like living with someone with ptsd. And i think patricia. And i are uniquely suited to tackle this since both of us. Have this diagnosis in in. Its for completely different reasons. This episode is going to be an unfiltered. Look at what. It's like to live with someone with post traumatic stress disorder and by way of introduction. This is the we served now. What podcast where. I do my best to answer the questions. Veterans and their families are already asking so you can make your post military life. Your best life money erin perkins. I'm a. us army combat veteran daddy to two amazing kiddos host of this podcast. If you hadn't guessed. And i am joined today again by my beautiful bride patricia. Welcome back to the show thank you. I'm so glad to be here. Well good good so it's been a couple weeks right and last time we talked about the treatments. You're getting and things like that for depression. Talk to us a little bit before. We're gonna dive into the. Ptsd topic talked us a little bit. About how those are going those are going. I'm not going to be very honest. they're painful. I think Winning expecting almost a miracle. I mean you you let somebody shock your head for twenty minutes a day. You expect something but it's actually made my depression a little worse. They said that's normal. It can get worse before it gets better. So actually they're going to re map tomorrow and see if there's a different place. They need to put the magnet. But i think it's gonna go all right. Yeah we hope we hope and pray as well trained for this for that. This works in putting you through a lot of distress but like you said pain to try to to address the depression right. And so that's that's just one part of what can be a result of ptsd another city but the actually brit really brings up our our first thing to talk about is. Let's talk about ptsd a little bit. What it is. And how. I understand it. How do you understand. ptsd how. I understand it is. I mean we all know it stands for post traumatic stress disorder and that can be from your childhood from your teen years from adulthood. Something you went through something. You saw something you experienced. That was just traumatic for you. And i know that it can you know make you. Have you know nightmares it. Can you know how you can have memories of that trauma and then you avoid situations that you know make you think of that trauma and you know a lot of even soldiers you know. They get like hyper vigilant. You know because of how it makes them feel and it can call anxiety and depression as well. I think the hyper vigilance was one of the i. I realize that i that something was wrong right. I knew i had a lot of anger in. I was like i don't know why angry like i'm i'm not in the army anymore. I thought you the anger was just part of just being in the army. You're just mad something every day. And so i thought that it would go away and it didn't in fact he got worse and it. Was that hyper vigilance piece. I always felt. I still do. But i always felt ready. This constant state of readiness hyper vigilant. That's one of the behavioral parts because there's behavioral parts psychological mood in general sleep. And then you know it you can break them all down like you know behavioral is like you know you feel agitated or irritable or hof style or hyper vigilant like you were saying or you know you start doing self destructive things like you know. Drugs are becoming an alcoholic or or if he just completely isolate yourself. That's me raise my hand right there myself psychological as you know flashbacks which i don't have those fear that comes from nowhere severe anxiety failure to trust other people. Because you don't know what's going to happen the mood part of it. You know you lose interest or pleasure in doing stuff that you used to enjoy doing right or you feel like the severe guilt or you are incredibly lonely like you have tons of people around you. You have a family that loves you but you are so lonely and it messes with your sleep. It can cause you to sleep too much. Not enough to have horrific nightmares and a lot of people have detachment from other people and like intrusive thoughts that they just can't get rid of you know that you know. They go through their day and i guess to some other people they might look like legitimate list crazy but they just have these constant like thoughts and some people have to talk it out. You know there's so many parts to ptsd. yeah. I think that's one of the challenges with even realizing that you might have it right because there's so many parts to it. Depression anxiety intrusive thoughts avoiding situations. Not sleeping sleeping too much having horrific nightmares having too much emotion having no emotion at all. There's so many things and so what i was told. People especially veterans is if if something feels off. Don't try to figure out if you have. Ptsd anxiety or depression go to mental health right and talk to the professional about it and let them figure out whether you use the va or you go out to out to in the civilian sector. You go get it checked out. Because there's there's nothing that's not going to hurt you to go get it checked out right and that was a question that i was going to ask you. Is you know like when did you realize you had ptsd. I think it was what year wise was twenty seventeen. I got out and twenty. Fourteen of twenty seventeen anger progressively got worse. The hyper vigilance. And what. I say hyper vigilance. I i don't mean just like you know on edge all the time and i guess that was part of it but for me it was this feeling like i'm about to go into a fight like just ready like i mean you know kind of like almost kind of like a sprinter would be at the starting line. Okay here we go all right. I'm ready. i'm ready and it was like that all the time. That sounds exhausting. It is it really really is it took i say i want to say it took a long time to get past that but truth is i'm up past that no the pd. Has these not a broken limb. You know you can't cast on it and wait six weeks and go back and get the cast off and you're good to go. No i mean people can't get past it it's it. There are stories of people who you know they had. Ptsd and to you know after a few months few years depending on situation you can't get past. It depends on the person. I think it's post traumatic growth right where you know after your trauma you become a stronger person. A bigger percent better person. I don't know if i would. I would say that people ever get over their trauma. They just they build one right in that instead of letting the letting it crush them they use it to to fuel becoming a better person in the end and the thing is it's not always a choice. I don't think this is my opinion right. I don't think it's always a choice whether you get to say like oh. I'm past the worst part of my ptsd. And i'm only headed for post traumatic growth now. I don't even think i've heard that term post traumatic growth. So i don't know. If i would be i don't know if my opinion i mean i hope that's a real thing Veteran futterman talk to me. One time so you're doing it basically you're doing to post traumatic growth thing like you like you know you start a company like you've got a great career you've got a great family you know you've got a beautiful home cars dog you've got all this stuff going for you you're doing life right you're in your a great church like you're doing all these things right and hosting this podcast you're getting so much stuff done okay and i'm like okay cool why don't it feel better yeah really i'm like okay. We'll see if this post traumatic growth. I number one. i'm happy i'm growing. I'm happy growing getting better. getting smarter. Faster stronger whatever it is. I'm happy about that part but like it is this like is post traumatic growth a destination or is it just this constantly journey. Yeah i think it's a journey in. It reminds me of what we heard in church on sunday about walking wounded. And that's what that means is like. Es your wounded mentally sometimes physically but you know ptsd is a mental disorder and your your wounded mentally but you continue to walk. Wounded is when you stop that. There's no growth And so the post traumatic growth is continuing to walk. Even though you're wounded i love. Obviously you we're in the same service. Same church service right and we were both talking about how great it was so we can ask each other. This question okay. What's it like living with me especially within. What's it like living with me. Especially when i'm experiencing some sort of triggering episode so you mentioned 2017 when you first realized that you had p. Tst then it was. You're angry and you know we tried to give you a little bit of space and like you know. Let you breathe calm down. But i think i think you have grown because now you take that space for yourself. You're like i'm going to go run or i'm going to take the dog and we're going to go hike for a few hours. I think that you know living with you. I've able to watch you grow. And and learn how coping mechanisms coping skills. And i think with. Ptsd you have to learn. Those people might not always understand them like. I'm not hiking ninety degree weather with a dog. It's not happening but three you that works that would trigger trigger something not. Ptsd that would trigger anger. It has nothing to do with. Ptsd you you. You've joined small groups that you guys run and you know for exercise in general for you just really helps you a lot of that. Is you know twenty seventeen. We had just moved to alabama and things weren't going the way we wanted them to and life was just really stressful right. And you hadn't even been diagnosed yet. sure sure. So you've you've grown okay. So i don't even ask this question. What do you like living with me. It's amazing it's amazing. I love it. Let next question experiencing some sort of triggering episode. Well i've told you this before but as a man as a husband i feel. It's my duty my job to keep you happy. You know and so a lot of times i think. Ptsd manifests itself in your life as overwhelming depression and crippling anxiety right. And there's not a single thing i can do about it so for me. It's not that living with you is better or worse. Y you know with a triggering episode. It's that my hands are tied right. And so i think it's super frustrating. Because i'm like. I see a problem my wife is in. It's not just unhappy. You know it's like she. Has this a legitimate mental diagnosis. A mental condition that. I can't do anything to fix Frankly doctors can't do anything to fix every single part of that right and that conversation we've had many times because you're like i just want to fix it and i'm like doctors i have and they can't fix it. Release yourself up that burden. You can't fix it and that is so tough as a man who says you know what i'm here to lead my family my wife and my kids and you know kind of you know take charge and we're going to go tackle life together and that is so appreciated but sometimes you just got. It's true it's true like it's nothing you can do. Well that's not true. Okay that's not true space. Give me space. You know like like you did tonight. I had that treatment today and it made me sick today. I was actually really upset stomach today. And i'm just chilling in the bedroom lennon bed phone and you just made dinner that i did that helped i did. I logged off my computer at work and went and made dinner. It was amazing. I don't know if the dinner was amazing. But it's good good good so coming up after the break tricia and i are going to ask each other one more question. We're going to ask this question. Is there anything good about living with someone who has. Ptsd and we're gonna share several takeaways with you. 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You can also schedule your free consultation with marco once again that's live like others can't dot com get on the path to your dream life today all right and we are back and as promised. We're going to talk about ptsd or would keep talking about ptsd right but the question that we have for each other. Do you wanna ask it. I want me to go go ahead. Is there anything good about living with someone who has ptsd. I wrote this question. I still think it's a tough question you know i would not wish. Ptsd on anyone true. I'll start with that so with that in mind. What the good that has come out of it. It helps me to understand other people abso win. I hear about a veteran struggling with. Ptsd or a a veteran's family member or or family member or friend who is struggling with ptsd. I'm like i get it. I know how you feel. I completely understand and so for me. It's if there's anything good. It's that i can better relate to people who are going through the same frustration and anguish and honestly emotional pain when they see their loved one going through this right and i know not everyone copes. Well that's true and so this question might be difficult for some other. Some people listening you know like they're their loved when ptsd is raging alcoholic. Who's angry all the time. In what would you tell that person. That's an even to that. That in itself is even tougher. I think what. I would be telling that person is i. Can't i cannot tell you what you should be experiencing if you're living with someone with ptsd and you're like you know my spouses a raging alcoholic as a result of pd. St how do i find good in that. I can't tell you what good you should find. I i'm in no place to tell you that the only thing i can do is point you to the one that is jesus christ the principe who can give you peace in the situation and and the bible even says you know piece that passes all understanding basically piece. That doesn't make sense. So i can't tell you. This is what you should be feeling. This is what you should be experiencing. But i can recommend you to eat a formula so to speak of how to live better in that situation right and and i would add onto that to a more. You know just. I don't know. Do we say worldly. Come that. Try to under try to understand. Don't don't try to fix but like research. See how you can help your one with ptsd. Because i think not. Understanding is a part of the problem right for years i had. Ptsd and you did not. You didn't understand it in in mind would manifest in depression anxiety in the soldier new said just go exercise pushups drink water burpee strength water and i'm like you so don't get it and it was true i didn't you act totally asked you to research it to better understand it and you you did better understand it but now that you have experienced for yourself it's completely different really it. It really really is just just so different when you experience it for yourself. So i'll ask you the same question. Is there anything good about living with someone who has ptsd. I think it teaches you. How similar to what you said compassion. I mean i've always had a big heart. And i think it's because it's been broken a lot and you don't hurt anybody else because you know what that feels like you know you have more compassion. Because you know what it's like to fill abandoned or left out or or or thrown away so you're not gonna do that to anybody because if you're not a monster you're not gonna do that because you know what that feels like me and so i have probably too much compassion. My heart's honestly probably isn't too big for people. There are worse things that people not for pets. But that's a whole different. That's a big for people. Pets you can have one. That's my ocd. Am sorry that's okay. But yeah i would say me. It's compassionate and i've seen more compassionate you as well 'cause i was saying earlier when you didn't understand it you just dislike. Oh burpee and water. But now you're like. Do you want to go take a nap. You need to lay down like there's way more compassion than there was before so if if anything good can come out of such a horrific diagnosis like ptsd. I mean if you can just you know. Be patient and be kind. You can learn compassion. Sure yeah that's a really good point. So that's it for the questions right now. We honestly united had these types of conversations for year really really long time and and this is just another one of those conversations of how to how to live with someone with ptsd. What it's really like. i. I'm going to go out on a limb here. What's the worst part about living with someone with. Ptsd not knowing how they're gonna react something and so you know there's times when not recently but you know there were times i'm like oh i don't know if i want to tell him this 'cause i don't know how he's gonna react. I don't know where he's at today. You know mentally like you know. He's already got a lot on his plate. I'm kinda it's almost like an egg shells kind of thing like the. You wanna be really careful. You know so so those can be a little. And i'm sure i'm the same way i'm sure you and the kids stay away. Well i think for me and maybe for the kiddos too. I don't know but for me. It's the the worst part you know other other than the obvious of you. Know seeing my spouse going through this right but you know how it how it affects. Your frustrates me is the inability to plan. I love planning. I'm like okay. What are we going to do tomorrow. Six weeks from now five years from now and like i don't know win and might depression depression. Yeah and you're going to be like. Oh sorry man like as much as you would love to go do that. Depression is just crushed. You for that day or week or i mean there are many many times to. I'm going to say through the years that i've pushed myself. You know because. I i wanna do fun things at the family like you know. I think a lot of people feel that way. Like yeah wanna goaded disneyworld and make memories you know and you feel like that that depression creep over you and you just got to push through it as hard as it is. You just gotta you can't quit. You got to keep moving gonna walk wounded speaking of which so i know we. We referenced. The walk wounded message right. So so for those of you. Who don't know this was a message from church. The highlands with A great jura tear in this region of the country. One of the biggest in the nation as i recall got twenty plus camp twenty two twenty. Three i don't even know now. We got a bunch of campuses anyway. The the one of the pastors nikon carter. He spoke any told the story about a guy that will testament by the name of jacob who ends up wrestling with this angel and this angel as he's wrestling with jacob he he knocks jacobs jacobs hip out of socket right but jacob keeps wrestling. He's like hey. I am not going to let you go until you bless me. And so he. He eventually wins the wrestling match. The angel blesses him. And then jacob has to go meet his brother. There's whole back did this to me his brother and as he's going to meet his brother he's limping like crazy. And so even though the angels blessed and basically god putting his hand on him and saying hey like i you know i i love you. I approve of what you're doing. You know i'm blessing right now. Even though god did that he didn't heal him completely soup but jacob still had to keep moving and he had to walk wounded. Right into put in real world speak is like yeah. You can have blessings you can have all these great things in life you can have money. Houses cars land lakes pools vacation homes. But that doesn't mean you're not going to have wounds right from other people from yourself from life itself. Ptsd is usually a a life itself kind of thing so what you gotta keep walking for. Sure for sure so what's another takeaway back to. What we're saying is be patient and educate yourself. If you want to help your spouse or even yourself like okay like read just read read. How other people are doing it and that have been successful and and see how it actually manifests in your own life. Because just saying it's ptsd. I bet there some other things surrounding it that maybe you don't even know. And so educate yourself and be patient with yourself and your spouse if it's your spouse right right and somebody said this is another great takeaway. Here is give your spouse space if your spouse was the one who has the. Ptsd right give them the space they need. I will say that with the caveat if you believe. They are in danger of hurting themselves. Get the appropriate help. Absolutely this is not the your spouse said. Hey i'm gonna take my own life and then you say okay one. That's giving them space. No no no. That's not a time when you need to give them space. That's a time when there needs to be an intervention right. You know so when we're talking to give give your spouse space. it's you patricia. Saying yeah take your dog for hike. Its ninety degrees. go ahead. i'm not with you. I'll be in the pool right. Yeah right yeah gopher run go go do something to to just relax to take that. Take the edge off so to speak. Then so give your spouse space. I think is a really really great takeaway there so anything else any other takeaways. We should share with our audience today. I don't know. I think we've covered it. I mean just to walk wounded. Hold their hand while they're walking did. Oh may that's the that'll pre treat there. that's good. That is so good well patricia again. So much for coming on the show really really appreciate. I know you didn't feel great today but you muscled through it and i'm so so glad you did. I know our listeners grew be happy as well and obviously on this show. We ask a lot of questions that we do our best to answer a lot of questions and we all have a lot of questions but the most important question we can ask ourselves is this. Have i accepted the forgiveness of sins. That only comes through faith. In jesus christ will thank you so much for listening. Be sure to follow social media. Facebook occurred to fight again. Same thing on instagram and twitter ad courage again. You can pick up. A copy of my book resolve at courage to defied again dot com or also on amazon. It has been such a pleasure sharing our hearts in this conversation with you today until next time. Thanks for listening.
Fresh update on "one thousand dollars" discussed on Handel On The Law
"It was my fault. I got my ticket. You guys take care of it and then what ends up happening. Is they handle it. You're done you are done. You're going to get an at fault accident. Probably with injury because just going to the hospital in an ambulance and getting scans. That's injury that's already personal injury so you already bought it. You bought an accident personal injury now. The issue is how much the insurance company. You're gonna pay this guy and what you do when you call. When he calls you say hey. You know what i'm insured. Let me just turn. Here's the insurance company. Here's my adjuster. Here's the name of the guy who handling it and please contact him. That's the way to handle it and then you're out of it. Okay okay and is. It doesn't really matter where they pay two thousand or ten thousand or fifteen thousand now. The the guy is not injured. You're going to see all the medical bills paid scans etc several thousand dollars. And that's what they're going to offer him and then maybe a few hundred bucks one thousand dollars on top of it. But that's not your problem. Problem is yeah. So that's it and people don't understand that is when you get into an accident you turn it over the insurance company. That's why you bought insurance not for you to deal with it. And now they're much better. Oh they're much better negotiators with this stuff. You'll ever be because that's what they do for a living. This.
Small Businesses Struggle to Hire in Tight Labor Market
"As more parts of the us fully reopen. The number of people seeking employment has been on the downturn but businesses are still struggling to find workers. Large companies like amazon and mcdonald's are raising wages or even offering signing bonuses for small businesses looking to hire. That's making it even harder to compete joining me now with more on this is wall street journal. Reporter alison praying. Hi allison thanks for joining me. Of course thanks for having me so often you've been talking to some small businesses who are looking for workers right now. What are they told you about. Some of the challenges they're facing it's a tight labor market. You know this is what big businesses are facing to we saw amazon is trying to incentivize hiring seventy thousand workers by offering some one thousand dollar bonuses. So we're seeing that. This is a really tough labor market across the board but small businesses. One told me for example. They found people but they weren't literate in using the computer so that was a problem. Another company i talked to is having a problem hiring armed security guards and has actually had to turn away business because of that or it eats into his profit margins and his profit because he's having to pay people overtime pay who do work for him. They're even going as far as rely on interns for helping when they're short staffed at the company so this really is impacting businesses. And it's they're just saying there's a lack of talent and one even told me that looking ahead to how big is company does need to grow. He's going to kind of tap out of the talent that's available in the. Us
A highlight from S6 E10 - Real Conversations on Mental Health (w/ Special Guest: Patricia Perkins)
"May is mental health awareness month. And i felt it only right to release an episode focusing on the topic of mental health. Now if you've listened to the podcast for any length of time you've no doubt heard me talk about my own struggles with ptsd depression and mon experiences. Not all that uncommon in the veteran community. What you don't often hear though is from the veteran's spouse and on today's episode. I get to sit down with my wife patricia. As she shares the story of her own emotional journey with mental health diagnoses medications. Hospital stays and a whole lot more. This is the we serve now. What podcast where. I do my best to answer the questions. Veterans and their families are already asking so you can make your post military life your best life by way of introduction my name is aaron perkins i am a us army combat veteran daddy to amazing kiddos. Host of this podcast. If you hadn't guessed. And i am joined today by my beautiful bride patricia. Welcome to the show thank you. I'm so glad to be here excited to talk about a subject that i'm passionate about. Yeah absolutely absolutely well. Great to have you here. I'm i'm incredibly happy that you agreed to be on the show. Usually it is me saying. Hey i'm going to be recording tonight. So if you you and the kids can kind of keep it down a little bit and but really really grateful that you here today. So today was one of many days where you're going through this. I don't know call procedure or treatment treatment. Okay so so. Obviously i went with you. Today is able to accompany you to that treatment and it specifically four depression right and so start with today. Let's start with today in a kind of what happened today. And what the treatment is. And let's start there. Sure okay so. The treatment is called. Tm s it means trans cranial magnetic stimulation menendez Treatment that oddly. Enough stimulates your brain. It's post what is supposed to do is to help the neurotransmitters talk to each other better and it is usually reserved for someone who's tried a few different types of medication for depression but it also helps with like anxiety. Ocd and sometimes even physical pain. Okay so so so. This is not a it. Sounds like it's a noninvasive. It's not a surgery type of thing so basically the way they explain it. It's like electromagnetic therapy. Where like in the old days where they would maybe cut. Open your head and maybe electric your brain things like that but this obviously they're not doing that. You can sit down in this chair. It's kind of like the big dentist chair. They strap you all in and they put this big magnet next to your head in a certain spot at a certain level. It's already been determined by your doctor and it made me last twenty minutes. And then you're you're on your way okay. So is that it's not obviously. I know this right before listeners. This is not like a one time thing. This is one of how many treatments you have to get. Okay so today was off my fourth treatment and i think if i did the math right i have at least thirty three more to go. So it's over a nine week period and because of where we live. I have to drive basically an hour and a half to get there. And then i'm there for fifteen to twenty minutes in the drive an hour and a half and and yeah i i definitely know that. That part in itself is frustrating. The drive so let's go back a little bit now so you're having this it might not be invasive but stewart pretty extreme treatment of kind of remapping your brain right yes. It's it's had some side effects already some some anger some tiredness Brain fog lightheadedness. The way the only way. I can explain it. It's like there's a big garden with a huge gate and there's all these locks and each treatment seems to slowly work open a new lock and then hopefully by the end all the locks will be open and king come open and i can be free of depression anxiety. I don't know if that's going to happen. I have faith that it can happen so hopefully it does happen. You me both you both so so take us back a little bit. How did you get to this point. You know obviously you. Have you know some sort of depression or anxiety or whatever take us back to diagnoses and that sort of thing so i i got diagnosed probably sixteen years ago like actual clinical diagnosis of major depressive disorder and house have severe anxiety. I have d. c. Ptsd so what is so ptsd. I know what is cd. Basically childhood post traumatic stress disorder. And then i have. Ocd okay so so ptsd. Veteran community intimately familiar with cps d c p s de. It is then the so. How did that come about. I mean this this is like you know really getting into the nitty gritty of it a little bit but i had parent you know. I had parents that. They weren't believers not that that makes you any less of a good parent but they were involved with things that they shouldn't have been involved with and they didn't have a good relationship with one another so that meant a very rocky relationship with their children and so without getting into too much and making people uncomfortable. This is a really bad childhood really bad and even in my teenage years there was some other stuff that was really bad. So just you know things that people don't really think about as being post traumatic stress disorder. I've heard other people say. How can you even have that. You weren't a soldier. Well that's not reserved for soldiers or servicemen period. Post traumatic stress can happen after a car accident after your home gets broken into after a traumatic. Any traumatic experience you can. Pdf st right right so so with depression. You were diagnosed. She said sixteen years ago crack and so did the anxiety diagnosis. Come along with that or out of that will work. It was shortly after. I think they at i thought maybe it was just really bad depression and they realized that it was both mint so they started treatment to different treatments who different medications and over the years between the two just the depression and anxiety. I know i've had over sixteen or seventeen medications and sixteen or seventeen. I didn't know there were that many others time for i mean i know. There's a lot of medications out there right. But most i know i i'm gonna go out on a limb here and say most people when they're struggling with anxiety depression or even if they do have a legitimate diagnosis of anxiety. Depression or both. It's okay let me go get this. Let me go try it. You know and then if that doesn't work maybe they go try something else but sixteen or seventeen that that just sounds like an extreme number is sensitive to medications and so what may work for a lot of people. Just doesn't seem to work for me. Or i ended up being allergic to it but i will say that i did. This test called a g. e. n. e. s. t. and it's a dna test and that's something that you're psychiatrists can do for you. There is a cost involved but it will tell you which medications and you know. They're all different classes. Work for your dna type so you have a red section and you should stay away from those. You have a yellow section. That may help. And then you have. A green section is more likely to help with your dna type so that can help a lot of people. Stay away from having to try sixteen or seventeen different medications. Sure sure that that's a really good point. And obviously you. You didn't take that 'til later. Right actually took it last year. Yeah so the break i. I wish i could have taken ten years ago. But i don't think even knew about it and that's another thing i would say. Is you know educate yourself. Don't wait on your doctors to find all the resolutions for you. Like feel free to look and research and bring it up to your doctor. you know. it's a good point. So medication is just one side of the depression anxiety. Ptsd just one side of it before the medication happens. There's something that either. Your doctors realize your families realize or you personally realize something different in me. Something is not working as it's supposed to or it's manifesting in in a certain way and i know that when it comes to ptsd specifically it manifests itself in a lot of different ways. They can manifest itself in anger in inability to focus and chronic pain. In a guilt it can manifest itself in different ways. So let's focus on the. Let's say let's. Let's go with depression right the major depressive disorder. How did that or does that manifest itself in your life. The first time. I realized that i might have an issue with. Depression was actually. I had a really bad episode. After i had caitlin so caitlyn's daughter. Sorry caitlyn's her daughter. Yeah she's fourteen now. After i had her. I was sitting just watching tv. And she was sitting there beside me and her little old bouncy seat. And i actually started having these really dark feelings kind of like oppression and actually that coincided with an anxiety attack as well and actually got rushed to the hospital because they thought i was having a pulmonary. Embolism so they thought that. I had blood clots. I was about to die. You know there was but it was a mixture of depressive episode and anxiety attack which i had never felt before and that really scared me and the doctors were able to put me on medication to help with that. It did not stop it but it did help. Sure sure so what what happens next. You know you're you're on this medication. It's helping look what happens. Is there a point at which you realize. That medication isn't working or isn't working as well as it should. Yeah most doctors will tell you you know. Give it two or three weeks to really get in your system if you don't see any changes or if you see getting worse than you're to want to let us know so that we can adjust or change that medication and over the years. That has happened so often. That i i got to this place and i'll say that it's okay to do this if you need to. Own your closet by yourself and cry for a little while. 'cause you're just overwhelmed and nothing seems to be working and you want so badly to be quote unquote normal. Go have cry. Go eat ice cream or chocolate or something. I don't even care. It's okay to do those things. But i got to this place where i was like. None of this is working. I need something completely different. And i think that's when. I did the insight site testing because most of the medications that i had been put on. Were in my red list more in the list that was for your dna. These are not going to work for you. Oh wow so going through this process and the truth is i didn't even realize this at the time we've been married for fifteen plus years and i knew that kept having different medications tried and you like oh. This is not working but we had no idea why. It's not working until this test. You didn't says hey this might actually work for you Yeah that's that stuff okay. So what about the anxiety piece you know. It started with an executive attack How does that manifest itself or did it manifest itself in your life. So i have an odd anxiety like i have panic. Attacks panic attacks but generally speaking. I'm just anxious and it's like my anxiety and my ocd. Like to just hold hands and frolic through my brain and so what. I'm feeling extremely anxious. I have to clean everything so it's kind of like since i can't control my emotions i can't control what's going on in the world. My brain has to find something that can control and the cleanliness in my house. I can control thankfully because you and the kids are pretty neat people. But i have to do have to be able to do something. Control something to calm down. If i don't do that ended up in the closet crying eating chocolate well like you said. That's okay if you have to do. It's not not not every day but so talked about the depression. Talk about the anxiety. Ptsd how does that manifest itself in your life on a day-to-day basis weekly basis. How how often what does it feel like said the. Ptsd is like a whole different monster. That lives somewhere inside of my person. And the worst episodes i have with. Ptsd is when my children especially caitlyn our daughter when she reaches those age those ages where you've espn we. We had talked about this a little bit today. As we're preparing for the podcast but it was as a recall kind of like the same ages or proxy ages where something traumatic happened in your own childhood right so so then. My brain is like imagine that happening to kaitlin. Imagine that having to our son. Christopher and then it's like this overwhelming like it's not a mama bear feeling is a mama dragon. And it's like i will. I will died to protect but at the same time. It's then there's this the the little girl in me is like. How could my mom have let that happen. How could my dad have let that happen. Where was the the parental. where were they. Why did these things even happened. That i have this trauma but we're all human doing the best. We can now. That i'm older i can. I can look at my pass without being completely angry with my parents because they were just doing their best as well. Sure sure so. We're won't take a break real quick but coming up after the break and now you have a few things that you want to share with our listeners. More as encouragement and continuing the story obviously but also practical steps. Stay with us. Many americans today don't realize the stress and anxiety. They feel is likely because of their finances. According to bankrate.com more than six out of ten people couldn't cover a one thousand dollar emergency seven out of ten. Don't budget regularly. An eight out of ten are living paycheck to paycheck to these describe you. Are you ready to live like others. Can't too many make the mistake of budgeting their lifestyle instead of budgeting their basic needs. I my friend. Marco over at mc business lab has a simple process to automate the basic things. You need to live and then never looking at one of those bills again. Head over to live like others can't dot com to get on the wait list for his own line course to learn this automation skill. That will significantly reduce your stress anxiety. And if you think one on one attention could be the way for you. You can also schedule your free consultation with marco once again that's live like others can't dot com get on the path to your dream life today. Alright so here we are back. Second half of the show here with my wife patricia talking about mental health. And it's okay. She's looking at me right now. She's like oh just made a noise like it's okay. Well we'll cleared up. It's fine and so so anyway so here talking to my wife patricia about mental health and about her own challenges and struggles with it. And so obviously there's no one in your corner so to speak. I mean there's the stigma associated with it but there's also no one kind of coaching. You through this of like okay. Well if this isn't working here's what you do right not currently. I've had counselors in the past. You know and they've we've tried to work through things. I have been the hospital couple of times. And i think there's a lot of people who mean well but it doesn't mean it's going to work for you and so i feel it's important that people understand that if you do have a mental illness. It's okay to research an advocate for yourself. You don't have to wait on a doctor or counselor or someone who you feel like is more intelligent or just because they have letters after their name that they know you better than you do feel free. No not feel free. Please speak for yourself. that's huge. That is so huge. And i think that advocating for yourself is such a critical element of getting the help you need. Because when i think of veterans who are struggling right. You know whether whether it's a physical health or mental health concern. They know themselves like better than anyone else knows them and so when they go to the doctor when i as a veteran go to the doctor i have an obligation to myself right to be as honest and as really a as direct as i can like look. This is the problem. This is how. I'm feeling. I'm here for you to help me fix it right. But then there's the stigma especially in the military community. Where if something isn't working right in your brain you're not working right. Oh absolutely that is the stigma is is really and i think the worst thing about mental health diagnoses today at least in america. If not all over the world it absolutely needs to be normalized that your your brain is an oregon and just like your heart and all your heart muscle but you could knees your liver. If any of those things were failing if they weren't working like they were supposed to have so many people around you. Hey what can i do for you. What can i do for your family. Could i get my blood tested to see if i could be donor. How in the world could make your life better but you hear someone is in a three month depressive episode and they can't even get out of bed. I don't see people lining up with casseroles. I don't know. I don't see that happening. You know if you have to leave an event because you had an anxiety attack there's whispers. There's not help this is strong. It is so strong. And there's a you know within the military there is a fear and i will say rightly so that if you say hey i have this particular mental condition it can potentially impact your career and in the civilian world because well as a mom i if another mom i don't know maybe somebody's going to hear this and maybe they don't want their kids hanging out but as a mom you think. Oh can this person actually take care of my kid. While i'm away or is everything issue going to be too overwhelmed. Is she going to have some kind of attack. That i don okay. If you know somebody like that. Just educate yourself right and know that that person wouldn't take on that responsibility if they didn't feel they could handle it. Yeah absolutely and you know. That's a critical point to is. There is so much misinformation out there about mental health. And you know here's the thing. Hollywood doesn't help and i'm not going to rant. I'm not. I'm not trying to say like oh. Don't make movies about people with mental conditions. You know but there is this you know. The joker movie that just came out with a joaquin phoenix. That's joker yeah. Okay so you know. He obviously has a mental health problem. It looks like severe depression and he turns out to be this mass murderer. Right and so people associate edison. He's bipolar but go ahead. Fair enough fair enough so people associate those mental health conditions with something so extreme that they saw on a screen or read an article. now there are extreme cases. it's true. I mean you can't just say that that. No one is that bad off but there are people that bad off that they're not usually the people who look like they're doing okay. There those the people who are really struggling there are more signs right than than you just meeting them. Like if i just walked up to you and said hi. My name's patricia. Perkin tie you doing. You would never think i had five mental disorders right. You know someone. who's that far gone. You know they're going to be showing signs. Oh yeah absolutely for sure for sure and you know the thing is when it comes to mental health when it comes to you know having a a severe enough level of mental health challenges concerns whatever. You wanna call them. If you don't have an official diagnosis right there are so many. I guess levels is probably the best way to put it of of severity. Because you know like saying. Hey i'm feeling depressed for a couple of weeks is a far cry from major depressive disorder right okay. Yeah may i believe probably should have been a little more research but it would be depressed for at least six months before. It is a clinical diagnosis. And so there's going to be events someone dies. A friend moves away. You have to switch jobs then you could go through a you know a few days or a week of feeling depressed. That's normal. yeah exactly. That's the normal depression. That's not the go quick. It'll medication so you can feel better. That's right it's just a normal life happens and you get down and i've even had people say to me. Well you know you have a lot of stuff. You're very blessed. You have a nice home. You have a great husband. Smart kids you you you have you have you have you have. That has nothing to do. With what my brain is doing. I have the intelligence to know that. I a blessed person a blessed individual but that does not mean that my brain is going to let me enjoy all the time. Yeah that's so true. That is so true. And so i just saw an article earlier today from cnbc said fifty one percent of young americans are struggling with mental health. Fifty one percent. I can believe and i think a lot of that if i can just put in. My personal opinion is social media. I'm sure you constantly see people who are throwing up. There highlight reels on instagram. And some of them still on facebook and then those who are throwing out things on twitter but there you're not getting their whole life you don't read what's actually going on. I mean if people looked at my facebook they would see highlights. Because i want to show the good. I don't want to show the days. I don't wanna get out bed. Showed the days where. I'm like begrudgingly. Driving my kids to school because i have to. I'm an adult to do these things. You don't see those things and especially the generation under us. They're so obsessed with social media that they think that's real life. I mean i have a good life. But it's not insta worthy like everything. I do isn't gonna be popping up on instagram. Because it's not real life right. That's just advertising then like you said it's just highlights right. Yeah and so. I want to go back to the stigma piece for just a minute. Because that's a piece that i'm really passionate about and you know in the military you know being healthy being fit to fight. That's part of the job if you're broken your broken leg unit can't use you to go to war right. You have to get that leg fixed. I if you're broken mentally your unit may not be able to use you to go to war because like there's something wrong with you and like the. The thing is with the stigma. It's okay in you know outside of the military that things that your body or your brain is not working like it's supposed to and i've heard so many veterans so min- countless veterans really be rating their brothers and sisters in arms when they talk about having. Ptsd like your combat. Experience was different than mine. Therefore you don't have ptsd or you can't be depressed or you can't be anxious like you're just whining because you want to get paid from the va. You want the va to take care of you. That's ridiculous it. It really is our veterans out there who just looking for that that extra little bit of money out a month sure. There are but by and large the majority of veterans who who are having the courage to stand up and say. Hey i got something wrong in my brain. It's not working like supposed to. They should be applauded and say you know what that is. Surreal courage that you having right now to go and say i need help. Yes it takes a ton of courage and just in time out of being a military spouse and then my time out of it and interacting with veterans and even people who are still currently serving. They they have these but they don't even know how to say it out loud. They will become an alcoholic. But there's nothing wrong with me. I had no problem with war. Or when they get out of the military you know they get hooked on drugs. Oh in the military didn't affect me very much. I'll have i don't have any. Ptsd that that crazy stuff you know or all of a sudden. They're wife isn't good enough. Their kids aren't good enough and they want to be away from them at all times. They don't want that interaction but they say they're fine because they're afraid to say i might be broken inside and might need some help. So instead of having the courage to say that they are literally ruining their lives in other ways right what alcohol would drugs with breaking up their homes with neglecting their responsibilities. That's may there's so much i want to. I want to fix it right. I want to fix the stigma. Problem wanted but there is no easy way to do it. But i think what we're doing right here is having the conversation for the world to hear that. Look it's not just veterans. It's not just veteran spouses. It's according to that article. Fifty one percent of young americans who are struggling with some sort of mental health condition right regardless of what title you go by better in active duty man woman boy girl. Mental health is no respecter of persons. I'm sorry mental illness right. No you're right and mental health needs. You know it doesn't matter who you are. What are what color you are just like any like. I said any other body part in any other thing. That may need attention. Don't be afraid to give it that attention. Don't be afraid to speak up and speak out. Don't let the stigma hold down. Yeah for sure so from our conversation today. I know we're running up on time. So we're gonna wind this down and you know. Obviously you and. I have talked about this a lot and me in the future. I'm sure we will get you back on the show and talk and talk about about this and how fixing your life especially how the team s treatment is grain because he you know. I'm not afraid to talk about right. My inner demons especially can help somebody else. I feel like i feel like god puts us through situation so that we can help other people and if we can't take the bad and turn it around and help someone than what's it for and i have to have faith that it's it's to help others. Sure sure so. We have alluded to these three big takeaways right like the big takeaways from this episode. We've alluded to them throughout the episode. We've talked about them. We've even said them but remind us remind listeners. What those big three takeaways are from listening to this. I would say the first one is to advocate for yourself like i said. Don't be to research. Don't be afraid to figure out what might work for you. Ask for the jewish site testing. Ask for even if you've been on medication for a long time talking about the s you know there are other ways to go about it than just constantly saying in that cycle of pill after pill after pill with no results there. There is light at the end of the tunnel. So don't be afraid to say. Hey i think this might help me. What do you think. Don't wait on them. The second one i would say is. Don't let the stigma prevent you from seeking help Let's there is nothing wrong with you. If you have mental illness nothing like innately wrong review. You are just a person who is struggling and number three. I would say no that you are not alone like you were saying that article fifty one percent of young americans. This isn't even us. The older americans during these are young americans who were struggling. You're not alone. find group. fine fine started group. It right to you know. Don't don't stay alone either. When you isolate yourself things. Things often get worse so definitely seek out others who may have similar problems going on that you can talk through to to have some sort of accountability with and accountability is huge. It is huge and those are the three big ones. But i wanted to add one more. And it's something that i've done personally and it has to do with what i was talking about with social media and it's so funny because our pastors just said at this sunday delete block. You do not have to look at sally. Suzy sampson's and wish it was yours. Delete her blocking her. If if watching her highlight reel is taking your joy. Delete her if mr man who has it all together all the money all the muscles and the most beautiful wife you've ever seen if that stealing your joy delete him bought him because you need to focus on you and yours is so good. That is so so good so patricia. It is been an amazing conversation with you. I wanna thank you personally. Thank you for your courage to come on the show and talk about not just health in general but your own mental health your own struggles with the diagnoses. You know you've had hospital stays as a result had so many things going your life and so thank you so much for talking about this important topic with us you know. We all have a lot of questions but the most important question you can ask yourself is. This have accepted the forgiveness of sins. That only comes through faith in jesus christ and before we go one thing. Patricia wanted me to point out was earlier. she referenced. cpt. St and she called it childhood. Ptsd it is actually complex. Ptsd would she informed me of later in complex. Ptsd is brought about from long term trauma that might be physical emotional sexual abuse own going childhood neglect things like that. It could even be a prisoner of war type of situation that brings about complex. Ptsd so just clarification. There that that was what she was referencing in the second. Half of the episode. You may have heard probably did hear a lot of clicking in the background while that clicking was my burien husky running around on a hardwood floor and unfortunately we can't edit that out he just kind of made a cameo appearance on the podcast so that dog is the way i deal with my ptsd and depression having a pet. It just helps a lot so anyway. Thank you so much for listening. It has been a joy sharing our hearts with you today. Be sure to check us out on social media. We at facebook at courage to fight again. Instagram also occurred to fight again and twitter at courage again and check us out on our website at courage to fight again dot com a whole lot. More resources there well until next time. Thanks for listening. We served now. What is a production of courage to fight again.
S6 E9 - How to identify what you are passionate about
"This is the we served now. What podcast and if you're anything like me you've had a ton of questions after leaving the military and the lack of answers has left you frustrated and probably a little confused. This show is here to help you make sense of the craziness that is post military life so you can turn your post military life into your best life. Money was aaron perkins a. Us army combat veteran husband to a beautiful wife. Daddy to amazing kiddos and on this episode of the show. I want to talk to you about identifying your passion in life and how you do that. That's a big question. I think we all have even if we haven't put into so many words like how do identify my passion in life. It's like well aaron. Who are you to talk about identifying passion. Well number one. I've identified my own number two. I developed a process to do just that net processes called the nine line framework which i put into the book called resolve. That is just a step by step guide for you. The veteran to help you to rediscover purpose meaning and you guessed it. Passion in your post military life before i dive into the episode today. I want to take a few minutes until you a little story. I myself love stories. I love hearing them. And i love telling them and this story is really near and dear to my heart because it's about my son. His name is christopher and you may have heard me talk about him on the show before But this story. I've never actually shared on the show because actually just happened about a week or two ago and my son christopher almost twelve years old. he's a normal kid. Not a huge fan of school. Really good in school gets really good grades Does everything well is i. I don't know if i would say popular. But you know people like him he. He's just a normal kid. And he. And i we have this unique Father son relationship. I mean we joke around a lot. We have a very very similar Sense of humor. So we have memes that will share back and forth and that's actually across our entire family that we can laugh at together and everything but this story about his passion for video games. Now you might be thinking well yeah. He's eleven year old boy. eleven year. Old kid boy girl the one but he's eleven year old kid and he loves video games. Yeah what kid doesn't we're here's the thing. He is not just passionate about video games. He is passionate about tech in school and his technical classes studying python programming language. He studying java script and his his his little techy and he loves the technical aspect of it. Well there's this that he has for one of his platforms. And it's called beets saber. You may have heard of it. It's on playstation four for vr. And it's on oculus quest to In fact every year. we're pretty much every year. We get a family gift at christmas and this past year. The family gift that we all could use was the oculus quest to and that is a a virtual reality gaming system. That's fully wireless but the headset on. Hold the controllers and you could just play play games fun and while he has been absolutely just going nuts over this thing having so much fun with it. Well again. this game beats saber. You can create your own levels if you modify the game and there is no right or wrong i should. There is a right or wrong way to do it but there is no manual that you can look at and say okay. This is how you modify find the game. So he gets on discord. he's he finds Some experts who know about modifying the game he chats with him for hours. Some of some of them are as friends he's he's played games with everything and he's talking to them. Like how do i modify this game. What do i need to do. He figures out the programs. He needs to us figures out how to roll the game back to a previous edition. Now he knows how to launch the game with these modifications so he can play his own levels on the game. Keep in mind. This had nothing to do with school this nothing to do with any requirement. This was just something that he wanted to do something that he is naturally gifted at and naturally naturally passionate about and that is that's what that's one of the things i wanna point out here. Today is your passion in life is most likely going to be something that you are naturally geared toward you are naturally good at and maybe even it may even be something that you have spent a lot of time practicing and preparing at and you've spent a lot of time working on developing that skill. It could be anything from woodworking to the medical field to an to. I'm the the passion ideas for your life are virtually endless. But you heard me referenced. The nine line framework earlier. And as i look at this nine line framework. You know again. It's it's this step by step guide. It is the process that helps you rediscover passion in your life after the military. And i look at these these lines in here. These chapters and the storage is told about my son. I can see him in these chapters. I can see how his passion is coming out just in the things that he is naturally doing now in the last episode i mentioned and talked about quite a bit actually line four. Which is what is my personality type. you know. why does it matter. And it's not even so much. Why does it matter. But how does that. Impact me and my passion and my purpose for life. And so i'm going to touch on line for a little bit today but i want to give you some examples from line five later in the show about discovering that passion in your life but line four again i used sixteen personalities dot com. You can go there right now. You can take this free assessment to figure out to learn what your personality type is and again that is not the only tool you can use you. Can use myers briggs. You can use the disk assessment. There are so many tools you can use to figure out your personality because in the military unless you are you had a way different experience than i did. They really ask you. What your what your passion was or even more specifically. They didn't ask what your personality was. Just said hey here the jobs you can pick from pick a job do your job and then you go your military career and you get out and now you're here listening to this show and saying man. How do identify my passion in life. What is it that i am passionate about. How do i find that. Well you'll hear me say this more than once. Pick up a copy of the resolve book. That is really your first step to figuring out your passion and your purpose and your meaning in your life after the military but again light for just goes over. What is your personality type. It walks you through that process of discovering who you are and who you're meant to be and line five asks another question it says what do i have to offer. And that's very specific to you. What do you have to offer the world. Because i believe that. A life focused on making a difference in the world as a life worth living. I think that's really what we're all after is that we want to make a difference. Maybe it's just in our own personal lives. Maybe it's in the lives of our friends or family or our church or our school whatever it may be or or if your teacher may be your students you want to make that positive impact and so line five walks you through that process of figuring out what it is that you have to offer so coming up after the break. That's what i'm going to talk about. I'm gonna share some examples and walk you through blind five and sharing this for free and you can pick up a copy of the book on amazon or on kerr's to fight again dot com but i'm gonna share the the line five here with you and some examples that can help you figure out what it is you are passionate about in your life. That's after the break. Stay with us. Many americans today. Don't realize the stress and anxiety they feel is most likely because of their finances according to bankrate.com more than six out of ten people couldn't cover a one thousand dollar emergency seven out of ten. Don't budget regularly. An eight out of ten are living paycheck to paycheck to these describe you. Are you ready to live like others. Can't too many make the mistake of budgeting their lifestyle instead of budgeting their basic needs. I my friend. Marco over at mc business lab has a simple process to automate the basic things. You need to live and then never looking at one of those bills again. Head over to live like others can't dot com to get on the wait list for his own line course to learn this automation skill. That will significantly reduce your stress and anxiety. And if you think one on one attention could be the way for you. You can also schedule your free consultation with marco once again that's live like others can't dot com get on the path to your dream life today all right so as we go into these examples. I want you to have an open. Mind here right some of these examples. You may not even thought of. But i i want you to keep in mind that some of these may not apply to you. Some of the may apply to you perfectly but before we get into those examples and went to review. Read you this quote from a retired general martin. Dempsey actually had him on the show. A few seasons ago A great conversation. You can go check that out. He talks about you know continuing to provide leadership in your post military life again. If you don't know years he is the former or the lissi would number was of eighteenth chairman of the joint chiefs of staff and so again great guy. We had a great conversation. Should go check that out. But i want to read you a quote. He said sometimes we wait for thunderclaps drum rolls and clearly on calls to alert us to what's important when actually it's most often the subtle and persistent signals around us. That make the most difference. I want you to think about that for a minute when you think about your passion and life and what. You are naturally geared toward what are those subtle and persistent signals. So in in the book. I talk about the subtle and persistent signal. I got even as a child as a teenager. Really that writing is something i am. Naturally gifted at is something. I'm naturally good at in fact My mother found a poem that i had written She was cleaning. My room was teenagers. Don't ask me why she was cleaning my room and she didn't make me do it but i'm very grateful for her but she was cleaning my room and she comes into the room and she sees this poem that i wrote and when i get home from school she asked me about it. She says hair. Where did you copy this phone for. Almost didn't copy it. I wrote it. And i'm all of a sudden proud of myself because see my mother had always been this voracious reader with a strong command of the english language so hearing her say something like that. Which implied the poem was of this incredibly high quality right. It has stuck with me to this day. That aaron you you're naturally gifted at that and that the poetry. It wasn't anything i had to do. It was something i had in my head and maybe even my heart and just wrote it down. It was something. I felt naturally wrong to do. Just like my son was naturally drawn to develop this modification for this game and figure out all the additional software he needed and how to modify it and how to play the game afterward. I was actually drawn to writing so in that case even though my son and i we get along great and we have great father son relationship were way different as far as our passions. Go and that's okay. It's the thing is my. My writing skills are they. Were constantly improving through my life and the funny thing is even as i wrote the book wonder like am i the most qualified person to to write this book. Maybe maybe i am gifted at writing right. Maybe i am good at this. But am i the most qualified person and so why do i tell you this right. I tell you this. Because i want you to realize something that i'm still learning myself. The skills you have are probably around eighty percents better than you actually think. I want to say that again. The skills that you have are probably around eighty percent better than you actually think. Now what are get the eighty percent number. You know statistically they say what is seventy. Six percent of statistics are made up on the spot. I will say this. Evidence is more inaccessible and nature. But the things you are passionate about. You are geared toward learning more about it it just this natural thing. It's not something that you can really force. Can you learn things and learn more about Passions in your life. of course. you can't can you learn how to take care of the zales in your garden or in your new hangar. The year rose garden right. Is rose garden on. That makes sense but i looked at my window and saw zulia so i i mentioned it so it. Can you learn about that. Scher will you be passionate about it. Maybe you can develop a passion for it but passionate in your life is is this area of your life. That's built in. Its this natural part view. And so where do you go from here right. What are those examples that promised you a before we get into those examples. I want to share with you just a few questions that you can write down to ask yourself and you can kind of fill these out like to help you figure out where you go from here and figure out what it is you have to offer the world so the first question goes right along the lines of my story. I just told about not only about my son but about myself. I have always been good at blank. Fill in the blank there. What is it that you have always been good at something. That seems easy for you for me. It was english and grammar and for my son. Tech is easy for him. Technologies easy for him super easy a he is are basically our systems administrator at the house. he knows so much about For my daughter the things she is naturally good at and she finds easy music. She finds that incredibly easy from wife. She finds the medical field incredibly easy to pick up on. And it's not because it's not challenging to learn it's because we have a passion for those particular things in our lives. Here's a second question you can ask yourself. I don't know why. But i really just enjoy doing the following things and then list those things what things that you do really bring you joy for me. It's writing it's crafting something from nothing. It's looking at this blank page and putting words on it and impacting the world with a those words. And let's see what's the next one number three this. This is kind of long ones. All probably read it a couple of times. I never thought about what. I'm naturally good at and what i enjoy until what so for this question. Think of a time your life in which our knowledge or skills or ability was needed. Think of a time when you were able to use it and you suddenly realized that brought you joy so i to read that one again and explain that a little more. I never thought about what. I'm naturally good at and what i enjoy until this particular event in my life. I never thought about me being really good at writing until my mother when i was fourteen. Fifteen years old picked up that poland in my room and said hey this is really good. Where did you copy this from. I never thought about that. My son may not have ever thought about how good he is attack. Until i pointed it out and said dude that is amazing that you figure that out on your own you contact the experts in and you did everything needs to do on your own and so when you think we think of that like okay. I never thought about what i'm naturally good at. And what i enjoy until a particular event in your life and you think about when your knowledge or your skills or abilities were needed and and then you say okay. I was able to use it at that point in my life and then you suddenly realize man that made me feel really good. That brought me joy. That was dare. I say it fun and a lot of times. We as adults we. We tend to tend to think like well. You know i'm an adult. I don't need to have funding more. I shouldn't be having fun anymore. I'm more focused on business and and making money taking care of my family. Those are all great things but at the end of the day passion following that passion pursuing that passion your life a lot of times what it feels like is fun just a lot of fun number four thing. You can ask yourself. I was able to make a difference in a person's life by using one or more of my unique abilities which not only made a difference but it brought me joy as well and the question is list those skills or abilities that you use to impact someone's life or to make a difference in the world for me. They'll be writing for my son that might be tech my daughter that might be music for my wife that might be the medical field. So there's so many things that again virtually unlimited number of things where you can find passion in your life and it's those things that you are naturally geared toward they. Here's a few examples. I'm going to review these for you just to give you a sense of where you can find passion in your life and don't get caught up on the stories themselves. I want you to imagine yourself. What is it that you personally find your passionate about. Here's example number one. I was a cormon in the navy. And i learned a lot about helping others in times of medical crisis. I found so much joy. In this. I knew my job well and i knew i was making a difference. Pretty simple right pretty direct and so this person says hey. I knew what i was doing was making a difference. And i found joy in it. Here's another really good one along the video games. A video games idea. I love playing video games call of duty fortnight minecraft you name it. I get a sense of joy out of playing them and truth be told. I'm pretty good at it. My unique personality which i found in line for which i now understand. It equips me well as a teacher and so a combined those elements to start a video game players club in my community. We get together. We eat snacks. Play video games. Hold tournaments and get to know each other better. It's such a great time. And i love it. So being a woman in the navy versus playing video games way different right but still these people can find passion in these things see. Here's a here's another one very a very hands on example. I've never really enjoyed school or sitting in the classroom. But one thing i do enjoy working with my hands getting my hands dirty now that i know my unique personality type again that he learned in line for i understand more about wild like this type of work and why i tend to dislike sitting in the classroom. I love solving problems. I distinctly remember one time when my elderly neighbors toilet was leaking. She asked me. If i knew someone who could help and gladly volunteered myself. I checked out the situation figured out what. The problem was unseated. The toilet installed a new wax ring and reseeded the toilet. She was so grateful. And i had fixed a problem for her. I felt really good about myself. That's huge The the the What do you call it. The joy the inner joy that comes from making a positive difference in someone else's life is absolutely huge. Now here's here's the last example share with you because we're running up on time but this one. I really liked this one. Because i have a dog. I love my dog and a lot of you probably have pets as well but this one says. I am a pet whisper. Yes it may sound silly to some. But i have an incredible heart for dogs cats birds and just about any other animal who is suffering or quote unquote down on their luck. In fact i have adopted two dogs and two cats. I've them better lives. This has been so rewarding to me and it is a passion. I continue to pursue. See the thing is there is not one specific passion that we are all going to find fulfilling the passion in your life is going to be your own. Here's the last thing. I want to share with you how we are built as humans. We're designed to live our best life in the context of relationships with other people. I to say that again as humans. We're are designed to live our best lives in the context of relationships with other people. You know chances are we're not all going to be billionaires or a world famous politicians. Are you know billboard topping musicians but we can all make a difference when we find that passion in our lives. We all have a lot of questions but the most important question you can ask yourself is this have. I accepted the forgiveness of sins. That only comes through faith in jesus christ. I hope you enjoyed this episode. Hope it's been helpful for you and that you've learned at least a little bit about identifying that passion in your life again you can pick up a copy of the resolve book at courage to fight again dot com or on amazon and i will share those links in the show notes as i typically do. Leave us a review. I tunes at definitely helps so much. Of course follow social media kurds. Finding in dot com is our website. Thank you so much for listening. We will see you next time.
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"Space spacecraft. Mr george astro coming. What's going on here. They figured out all the we're going to send one plane up or one space shuttle up space shuttle haven't figured out sex all full of the whole time like always dumb questions about sex and space. Bc alary chill questions engines to the website. Fucking and nasa dot gov. And we'll try it. He space right now. We met with space lease chills. Out and music was willing around all exhausted. Ron mcnair cooking more talks great. That was oh. Yeah yeah doug job. It has a couple too many drinks and he tries to put it in. Ron mcnair and shooters must be destroyed. Her don't accent only retired to fuck. Ron mc zam mild captain of the ship. And he's like i don't give a fuck self destruct initiated. Oh my god. And then ron mcnair blows up the space shuttle. Because he can no one can that he has jay experience. go theraworx. yeah it's time bence than when you go very fast. It was like a week but they still were there. They chris mcauliffe died in front of her parents man and he was like. It's probably just a a mo- there. Okay sharia sharing her little. Did he know feels like bucknell. Seen in their windows are mad. Foggy protocols out the window nobody the space shit on or nothing. Now why would you come on. Best laid plans no pun intended. Because everyone's like my goal is having sex online right. Yes but she's here for so. Yeah good conspiracy barn. That's conspiracy about speaking of conspiracy. Barn all right. You know how much. I love this shit. Are you familiar with the this right. The mcmartin preschool trial. No mcmartin preschool. Trial Lauded lauded to to be like the height of satanic panic where they a bunch of people claim that there was like ritual sex abuse going on in this preschool and that there were like all these tunnels and like pentagram. It's real like fucking some real idiots and it got to the point where the people were in the preschool. Were put on trial and found innocent for lack of evidence and so in the history of it was like i'll seatac panic and is but it is. No evidence of the tunnels. There's another sex cult that goes on trial in the eighties called the finders. They totally like they're in like florida. The other places in california completely separate nothing to do with each other. fbi releases from a freedom of information. Act i think last year releases all the stuff on the finders which is like a couple hundred pages but for some reason on page forty eight and forty nine of this document. You can download it from the fbi. There's a map and a list of all the things found in the tunnels below the preschool. That they said didn't exist so crazy that it's fucking there. It's really wild so yeah everyone wants. Yeah everyone go fuck and check that out rules. Okay Conspiracy barn revenue up the finder. Finders yeah wow the eighties. Were a weird time you know. Do i agree but he also had live aid. That's you know. Yeah cool. I you know what i i hadn't thought of in years and today i put it on youtube and listen to it. When's the last time you heard the chipmunks theme god. I haven't at all the chipmunks team is a legitimately good song that's like is that like Going two babies.
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Yeah fuck gravity dam so it'd be great because it'd be the best like at this point you're talking about five and six ways it just becomes a gang bang but it's it's a loving because like chris mcauliffe will be like disco. You'll be trying to get it in and then she'll float away and then junior fast nagel taker and start looking on boobs and ship and it'll just be like nothing but really really awesome feeling for everybody and that's why they looked so happy and sprite when they were walking to the gm crv to take them to the launch pad because they had practiced the night before water. And let me tell you why that was a a real seen and heard it here first. Yeah the challenger what they're doing is they're challenging sex laws challenging where people belong in terms of sex they're also challenging positions norms normative positions. We could come up with a brand new position. Do an entire new suit or up there. Yeah the com- cosmic sutra s and no one the wiser sixpence on the wiser. And we come back and they would ask me. Okay dick's kobe. What was it like You know testing out if a koala can live and spending like it was a good There's not my favorite part and But it was good. No what was your favorite part. He's like that's classified and then yes looks to kristen wink. Chris husband's very confused. What am and then crystal doesn't want to do it. I feel conflicted. Because the i had literally had sex. That was out of this world seriously. Yeah legitimate out of the world but instead they blew up survived and it's like nasa has millions of dollars and the only thing up. There was a mattress with no sheets on it and stains like this is what we're supposed to use. They're like yeah it's floating mattresses floating all around the cabin and they're like pins mattress down half a bottle of swiss navy blue that prince all over it. Now ron mcnair is trying to over ron. Mcnair mcnair the earliest member of the group. And you're the only one with the moustache. Please hold the mattress down. So ellison zucca can go yard on judy resnik while greg jarvis and christa mcauliffe watch and do mutual masturbation the ronald reagan said. We're supposed to do it. We're going to say no to the president. One person said none of the president from brady second conspiracy. Oh my god steve. Hurley was up there as well directing traffic. Their is waiting for you. All right. i got in there. Aren't spacey god. You're transmissions from the space shuttle challenger walk picked up by radio. Stay like a radio station. In italy we have this exclusive suppressed from ham ham radio. As do i need them. Care selected we re finally fishermen found. This was nothing but bakanov for weeks. Probably get tired of having all the sex and space on no in space ice cream bologne town. I'm gonna come on fitna come. And then he pulled out the hood the hose. Yeah you gotta come in the house are it's gonna they're like. Oh and then you know. Michigan trolls like Michigan charles challenges. Understanding guys are having a good time up there. Lots of the live to the doctor. Spock shows up and saw finding bones. It's god it dr. Not a porn star and they've blown new civilization with these run out of gas dot. Catherine kirk baragan doctor. Spock and bones. Show up in life is out there goddamn. We're here from the future. The future past. We just wanna make we wanna see what's going on. The ship appear star airspace. And then the mcnair. So that's not the only thing that these women raised lying around all from fucking all day. I know i'd be exhausted from fucking zero gravity all day near like this is george jetson shows with room jared saw and then daughter members and qatar. Judy judy is looking good at photo. That live photo elroy dirty. Show up go wild. And then they throw them in the next. Mayor's decision for children will make an exception for young elroy. 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"Off alone. You don't listen to this music and walk faster. I yeah now you gotta walk alone. I'm i'm really convinced that human beings were meant to walk long distances with nothing but their thoughts. You you solve a lot of shit. I saw all my personal shit by walking. Just get out there and walk around for like hours so yes chits good. I'm going to tell frog doctor. You can walking days. Excited really have a doctor. I have never met. You never will. I've never met a goods notably. Just dr not only does andrew care about my health but he got me a a cameo. It's very nice. It's just here to help you know love. Just just help trying to help so time so tired waiting waiting for you man i My job had made join a slack. Channel faulk cool much men mike at sitting here. Just keep getting bit. Companies like people who work at offices can feel like every two months your company like entertains us another salesman's pitch and suddenly we're on microsoft microsoft team shop. Oh we're going back to webex. Oh we're actually have google voice and shop now really bad. It's it's really it's off. I mean i don't want. I mean i could just talk to you on the phone to. I mean people hate that. It's like if i want to show you a spreadsheet like i can't kiss you can y'all desk. So what did we do before this. Gotcha done really to think about it. We got you done now. It's just moving a little. All we do is move stuff around. Remember when our biggest problem. The mittens that bernie was. We're wearing no. Yeah those simpler times for some time. Now we have do. We have more worries. I am so unplugged and it's really cool. The only thing i'm sad about is that i miss the ship stuck in the suez canal. There's that seemed like it was fun. That was gone the evergreen ever given. I actually knew why who what. I saw that ship. I knew what it was before. Anybody told me. Jesus christ i follow. I love because i i did In penny stock shorting for like years. And i know that that's the panamax dry ship And they made all of the special ships specifically to fit through the fucking suez canal end the panama canal and l. l. a. didn't second fit because the wind gusted. These wins that were experiencing right now. So windy yeah. I guess so. Yeah the a dog. It's stuck inside a female dog. Get them out. Do you think that would have that happened. That happens to human guys and girls. A guy ever gotten stuck inside. Don't see how but yes. I'm just sure of it in some some fucking poorly thought out scheme whereas if i've welded together this thing that makes us one in the near the fucking the weld fucking doesn't open up or some shit to become one. I hope my roommate. Terry comes home and can let us out thank you. Yeah that was wild and people seem to really care about it for some reason. And they're like this is how is why the markets this is why gases through the roof man alive the markets are up. One more fucking person talk about the markets the break both my thumbs have also think about. I made three hundred dollars a game the other day grace. He go fucking awesome. Every time i i just let it go and then i sell it. Goes back down and then it goes back up. It's so nice. We have a mutual friend. Who back when like. I don't know years ago when apple was still like the ipad. Came out and was revolutionary. Like i've had one generation matt would just put like a thousand dollars in apple every day and then the next day just take it out and then put another thousand in which he would just like. Walk away with like wow thirty bucks. Sixty bucks fifty bucks. Whatever but it was. You couldn't lose. It was ridiculous. Christ okay smart man smart man. This is somebody we know. It is somebody we know who you're talking about. I don't want to put his business out there. But he is intimately involved in intimate intimately involved in the things that we do does you. Patrick ewing cove nineteen. Did not know that. I was looking today. For patrick ewing fan erotic fan fiction and i didn't find any craig interesting all market. He's all man you know what we found a hole in the market with christa mcauliffe. And we plug that. We're we're going to find holes in the market. what can i say. Tell me where my mind is. This morning i woke. And i thought about like have people ever had sex in space and then i looked and the anti party line answer is no. Yeah but somebody came out and said that during a joint speak International space station mission with russian and american astronauts. They're up there for like six months. The sex definitely happened and people have definitely beat off in space. Right yes league. This is come on but the problem is when you come you come it immediately. Come it's drawn back to you because the gravity is completely different so you it's different now. Well every man when the every man ever amount is now when every man is beating off you you tend to come on your stomach and you're fine with that everybody's we're all guys here we're gonna talk about but this apparently materializes and then goes blow and it goes in you'll get like you give yourself a little Be ready. you'd have like a catcher's mitt aghast we you're floating can't you have no no gravity space. Seem stupid. Why are we doing this. I don't understand come on. It's enough space. The final frontier. What else is there to discover. Well we made a dandelion grow and spin. Let's figure out what what it's like to have an orgasm and let's do it for real do fucking. Let's do alien due to get a hard on and space because.
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"Awesome. There twenty bucks beat them. If i beat my shit up a little bit. It doesn't look bad when you know because if you're linen does like a bulge happening so it's the same thing that i do. When i wear sweatpants. I beat shit up a little bit. So it hangs. There's a bulge and also when you wear linen pants at least i don't fuck around with nowhere. So like punched the piss circle. Threat is very real. Where lennon pants. You gotta be fucking prepared for the pitch circle punched. The bulge. Punish the bulge. I guess i don't know we could definitely pants. I have to probably drop twenty. I've been walking good. I think you can. I think you can paul lyneham pants now from taking twenty. I mean i've been Twenty milligrams of adderall hours which is not true which is actually true. i Been going for a walk everyday sick. Yeah by myself. Offer go for walks with me. I'm like you gotta walk alone. Yeah i walk alone there. It is i cut through this Dust just like business and then Like one time ado of buying is like i was just walking. Strolling men like the work around here. And i was like this kept while i was like thanks. See you.
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"Was supposed to suck in The generation xers like me. Who are like you know what. I don't work really and i work like a bum but i'm i work at pizza hut and i'm gonna get myself a brand new ford focus my focus before the world and realized that none of us had any money nor any potential to make any money like it was really awkward. Marketing going on very strange sure. There was a lot of trade schools like you sit around at home all day. Like go to apex tag apex tech. Or i can wait seven years every bank will give me unlimited credit right and then it's fine. We'll just be more money was talking to somebody today. And they're like with my credit. I'll never get a car loan. I was like yeah. You will be forty percent in what i love is that there's a lot of predators. I like the way we bring you weekend college weekend. Our while still learn what you need to succeed on the weekend get a degree from keller graduate. School had a basketball team. I did know that i knew that. 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When i grew i grew up had di purple such fucking lame bullshit and i pissed and i was surrounded with light blue dye and blamed it on. Somebody else was fucking crazy i. I was the same day that i was on. Tv eight with my shirt off as a little kid. Wow about my high voice talking about how gurney lane was a fun place to hang out. Because i can hang out at girly lane. He came up. Here watch me swim all day. Getting a big change. What does go team says. He wants my dad. My dad had a message for people who don't want to get to go. I'd call him. But he's seventy he's going on seventy eight so i think he's in bed. Maybe worse right now standing at the edge of tomorrow. He is the so lucid he. Just he's He's just like can't get up and move around that Money like Yeah i got my second shot. He's a good all these people who'd always and it wasn't even that people weren't getting vaccines like people. He was mad about people complaining about side effects from the second shot. 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You might have already had a you're a rugged rugged customer he said i still ninety percent sure i had it in january so if i did have in january then you probably got it from me and then we are anywhere where you really see. We have not to do the show. No i was away. I was in dallas or some shit i was i was those are florida trip. I thought now now. I was definitely in texas tornado. Outside my fucking outside my hotel nato but yeah i was like pretty sure looking back. I'm like oh that does kind of sound like that shit is fucking like early in the year. So maybe i came back and i spread it to everybody else through recreationally taking him the other day and i thought i looked at the package. I said wondering is gonna come out with. Them's interested now. You know what else you know what i realized that. That's honestly right. There's no term of endearment for a gender neutral person like all like the lake. Nice things you say to people are all gendered about dude. 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"Oh Tofu scramble where you don't know how to cook it and it just gets very water off and it. Was you have leftover groceries from when you tried to go vegan and your broke so you eat those vote groceries and so basically tofu scramble seasoning at all. You think you're special and bad ass and gonna open vegan. Restaurant called tofu scramble. Question mark in avoided in the albany vegan. see now. I know that's true. Should open one up and get in there. She opened it and call it. Don't be cruel and elvis theme vegan restaurant dome crew. Yeah they'll have like a loaf of bread with peanut butter and banana and That's like the meal that he loved. How yeah that's right. That's a bad thing. I don't think i would say. I didn't go to the other one either because it gave me like no matter what eight it gave me. Heartburn elvis impersonators. Welcome to don't be cruel a vegan escapade bistro paying you know now it's vegan beast show. Don't be cruel an elvis themed. It's like it's like if you went to a sock hop and set of you know handing you a smoke. A hindu tofu hughes ten. Yeah he went to an end. You didn't drive because fossil fuels now. You rode your bike with approved. Tires to the sock. Hop and make sure your. Don't be fooled too hot. That's due to What is the name of the butter heart. Have a heart. L. de whipped oil hurt trap. I'm using my have a heart track. I've got some maths and it ain't very nice. If i see you wrote them willing to make friends with the i mean low. It's vegan restaurant polo. A bunch of salty graveyards biscuits. And it's the bigger so is the major spice in role. Megan hab i'm gonna go to waive phone and on get some some chicken nuggets. Only against until the cookie. I'm going to make you make the moore pool. I'm gonna rule vegan moving in more vegan than vegan. Don't be cruel to have a heart. that's true. I love on the milk and it's true. I'm never going to evening. I'm gonna make my few. Thank you vegan corner. That's not a you know. In retrospect analysing those lyrics. It's not such a good idea. it's still market. The who. But i can find something who really doing my elvis impersonation there i would make how who lou lou. I'm doing all the high aaron and if you're not a hunt girl with tattoos on your legs who des home model wanna get vegan restaurant. I'm willing to hire you and you're going to be. We're going to eat bread gonna to be only eat. Lots of macaroni and cheese. Oh wow spilled. We've his e. I don't do you have lead to ongoing fire. I wanna i want to. I saw lead character to be going to be coup. Yes don't be cruel. The vegan restaurant sponsored by. And i'm going to. I'm going even though. I my my restaurants named don't be cruel. I'm actually one of the cruelest incredibly cruel. I'll machribie crew. Who come in riding my fifty seven eleven miles to and i call you baby. The baby gets me lillo in the move especially when rub lambskin count. Yeah it'll be great. It'd be great restaurant. look for that. This sound a rusty beds in the morning morning. I when you play a noise and producer credit looks around trying to figure out the source of the noise should start to find videos that are just like the sound of like a ground loop home and play it in the background. That's that's that's a good one odd. See what's happening right here. This is incredible. Fucking an alien. Yes so if you wanna open vegan restaurant dome crew. Why the the creeps my report and that is when he goes shit even as a little kid. He's really just got me anyways. I was doing a good week. Andrew of course yeah man. I'm working again. Work is fucking work is hard. then you're you're doing Doing stuff stopped. We want to talk about what you doing. I do real estate man. Come rent from me come from me. Yeah yeah. I'm the realist state. So when you are showing off a house and what if somebody really is feeling you. Do you have a bed there. No the floor is generally good enough for anyone who'd be feeling me floor. Yeah like you've got to be pretty low if you think i'm i'm your ticket so Yeah florida's here. Everybody's tick thank you. Yes so working out working a lot. I was like i don't know i had like one or two things to do last week and cool i can handle this and then today just have people say nuclear it was nuclear. It was nuclear. New was nuclear nights. Had a bunch of people. Bunch of places scott no car running across the city and the steve austin we gotta get you the wings man wheels you for a couple of days if anybody out there has a car. Yeah oh there you go perfect. You know it doesn't matter why this needs a basic transportation. Help if it was cool cooled million monte carlo i i did put a searching for a detroit techno but if you got one i'd be so jealous i'll be me it. The speakers are really good.
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"Mac and cheese were you just use water to rehydrate the cheese and okay. That's really sad. Yeah the five. I dunno where. I'm calling from an area. That's pretty rough number. Four microwave hotdogs with no condiments or buns carnivore. Like it's fine me. Trump's the tim Fucking fucking elliot's pizza narrated sorry took took me a second to come up with the fucking name bio on purpose. It's not that you find in the back of your fridge. Freezer burn being carried as mike is go for it anyway. I do microwave a caveat. Now we will say if you microwave. Your elliot's and don't wait. The twenty minutes. Takes the cook cook in the oven with foil pretty dark and the add your own cheese and if you just microwave it freezes to the to like it becomes one with the paper plate. That's very sad meal. No i think the other might be sad if you're gonna wait for that proposal. I'm i'm good either way. You know all these all these businesses. I use that term loosely. All these businesses that are opening back up but they soft serve food. Where's the ellios bro. You're toast and you need like seven toaster ovens to fuck it always be running twenty four seven and and number two number two. Oh do ski- three number three. I don't know oh my world baloney on hand call we buy new by coal cuts a pound of cold cuts and you don't have any bread them by hand. Yeah he blown on hand wolf. That's really bad Some people are like off of my cloud number two andrew. Spaghetti o's and a piece of toast. Wow toast really. Yeah oh my god. It's dark seen number two for me. I did this the other night now. Storebrand pasta store brand sauce. The whole jar of sauce goes into the goes into the pot. Mix and serve out of the pot. I identified that was living on madison avenue dave structure. That was like my go-to oh my god lived with i've i tried to make eggplant parmigiana once but i've never had eggplant. That wasn't the shitty frozen kind. So i tried to remake the shitty frozen kind of fucking former roommate. What are they doing now. Odyssey i have no idea what he's up to. Now he's an emt in as a kid He's an ep. Md team well number one.
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"I would never find you a well. Christopher introduced me to these guy. Andrew bogan andrew. I mean we thought talking and everything and he says You know the first of all like me. He's a night owl stable very late and things like that so he says that he's got some friends and You know the do podcasts. And things like that. I know you really. What kind of podcasts. This guy hans does this overnight. Drive no said ons. Overnight dive podcast. I used to listen to them. Guy hans so i say you know hans. He borrowed some money from me longtime ago he disappeared. I don't know where he is. Now he gives me number so here you are ons so i want to say that You know you've got a beautiful single here with the podcast. So i'm sure you're doing pretty well. And now you know you gotta give me one thousand dollars. Oh my god dozen. And i wanna say hello to all your overnight. Podcast drivers johns. I see you soon and you got to have the one thousand dollars. How how who who can say who can say. Oh my god. I was really hoping we'd get a good could reaction. Oh i'm i'm i really close to crying not kidding. Oh my god that was Thank you oh no problem. I felt bad that we didn't do dismiss this year. Mike and i came up to my man mine. Lucia what am i. Fo- my god. I wow wow all right. I'm good for all right. I mean the police could set on fire rate. my god. that's so nice thank you go. Thanks to virtual cons for setting that up because I paid for it and it didn't come through in like you know what the fuck and i like. Email the guy like the ceo or subject back like oh shit we'll get right on it so Which it turned out to be a knee problem regardless so cool virtual cons and do Welby manmade problem. God the world is so life is so bad him up there. He was really. That is yeah. It was such a great cameo too so nice and long. You now do nice things for people. I feel like i you know. I had a long busy day. And i don't even remember what i did now so when you came in here like i've right. Oh you guys are the best. I was gonna fucking. I was gonna jump off the collar city bridge this week. That's it wow welcomed overnight drive. Everyone overnight drive did we. Do we have rights now to the video. That did i. Do i own video. Can we cut it up now. We could definitely beautiful. Perfect for my god these to soak in the sense watching that video back. He has no of doing that scene. I think there's an ad lib guy. Yeah so that's movie villain not move just tough guys of all time fury goddamn. That was so nice. God i feel like i'm like exploding right. I worked no. I mean i just love in sly thank you. I haven't even had any. I had like one and a half years sound good. I'll send you the link when i get. How thank you know. It's almost better that i don't think access the surprise. And also just the nicety top that now we're going to have to out presentation. Fuck steve gutenberg doin. Oh that'd be great pretty expensive just three hundred bucks window people. He just sits there and makes noises for two minutes. Wow so i'm in a great mood. Thank you everybody. hello everybody. Low fans got a lot of good feedback about our episode. Last week domino's amex now live every possible streaming service imaginable and people loved it. I don't really remember it. That's interesting. I wasn't drunk or anything i just don't like one of those. We just ran through. Yeah rain through initiate was. I didn't edit of it in a car. That was good. Yeah i got. I got nothing. Woken driving extrordinary chronicle of american life. Hans greg this is our social guests. Federico estevan my name is brian. I'm actually craig's brother. John wow holy shit. Yeah say that thing. Who we were looking at craig's brothers and sa- face. Oh what was it try. You're trying to catch my breath. I love i love love and it makes people who love each other. Yeah it's sure does love wins. Say that'll work today. Love win you really must have had a day old because we had a like this dude. Corey who i work with. Who never has a girlfriend. He's like you guys. I got a new car this weekend. And i also got a girlfriend and i was like oh love wins and everyone's like ha pretty good weekend for corey. Damn hat damn. I don't know if he chris in the car. I don't know if that was the the whole thing. You know. university kids in like the late eighty s. You could get fucked for being named corey for like a two year span now. That name carries no water anymore. If you're Fitness expert corey. Iverson you very much Remember corey iverson remember. You were like. Who's the hottest who top hottest supermodels. And i was like some very range placement. My god i remember what we should do. A top five or top five. Shame chain meals right top-five shame. Shame top five Shame meals with them. 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March 24, 1934: Nellie May Madison Murders Her Husband
"Thirty nine year old. Nellie mae had enough her husband eric. Madison came home late again. He was likely carousing with another woman after all she just caught him with one a few days earlier nellie mae walked in on him having sex with a sixteen year old girl in their bed. The teenager fled leaving. The married adults with the fallout. Nellie mae and eric argued then. He started viciously beating his wife. Eric's abuse wasn't only physical however he talked down to her and claim that he only married. Nellie mae for money that he tricked her into falling in love with him because he wanted her one thousand dollar family inheritance worth about fifteen thousand dollars now amidst the abuse. Eric forced her to sign a note claiming that they weren't legally married after all. Nellie mae endured eric's physical assaults for six days. After his affair was exposed. She was desperate and scared and wanted her husband to feel that way too. So on march twenty third nineteen thirty four. She pulled up to a secondhand dealer and purchased a gun.
Landlords Struggling To Stay Afloat See Lifeline In COVID-19 Relief For Renters
"Relief bill passed by. Congress has billions of dollars in rental assistance. For people who've lost work can't rent and are just trying to avoid eviction. This could benefit landlords too many of them have been struggling to keep their apartment buildings up and running so some landlords are helping the residents apply for federal relief aid. Npr's chris arnold reports nearly ten million. Americans are behind on payments. According to the census. Bureau and stephanie graves. Is seeing that play out first-hand and she's a landlord who owns buildings around houston. I have a small property in town. It's about twenty. Two units and eight residents have not been able to pay over six months on and off. We'll get one hundred dollars on one thousand dollar rent grave. Says she's not a victim anytime who try to pay what they can and stay in communication with her but that means that she's losing money the rents coming in don't cover mortgage payments and paying the staff. Then we had the freeze in houston and the hot water heater gave out. And so that was a twenty two thousand dollar investment. We had to make with no income. And then i worry. How am i going to pay that loan if this goes on for much longer grave says a bigger property that she manages for another owner is hundreds of thousands of dollars behind on revenue with all the unpaid rents and covert related costs. It's
Survey: Americans Could Spend Up to $40B in Stimulus Payments on Bitcoin
"And today we're talking about why americans are poised to spend up to forty billion dollars. Indirect stimulus payments on bitcoin. I however let's do the brief. I on the brief today. We have to do a little price talk. It was another weekend and another milestone. Unless you were dead or completely off the grid you know that. Bitcoin hit sixty thousand dollars. In fact it spent some significant time over sixty one thousand dollars now. The prices subsequently come back down a little bit. There was a set of cascading because people insist on trading with a huge amount of leverage and the popular narrative around the small dip from today is that it's just profit taking and certainly when we've seen such a meteoric rise up it makes sense that that would be the case for me. I don't care so much about the price. But what i do care about and what i find. Interesting is the psychological impact of the price. It took three years to get back to twenty thousand after it was first reached in twenty seventeen. It took just three months from when we hit twenty thousand this time around to jump three x two sixty thousand of course in that sort of extreme scenario. You're gonna have a bifurcated response. They're going to be many. Who see this as validation or even who get off the fence because the asset has proved itself others are going to double triple quadruple down on their frantic critique and man did i notice a lot of boomer macro guys their crap on twitter this weekend. Lynn alden seem to as well tweeting. Bitcoin bear twitter. went from. It's a bubble and dead technology pumped up by tether to america will ban it before it displaces. The dollar is global reserve currency and i support this i e the banning of certain property and literal information rather quickly while regulation and state attacks are a long known risk factor for bitcoin. When bears talk like this about the asset. It ironically sounds more bullish than when bulls talk about it bear starting to view it as that much of a threat as ever. This price can move around quite a bit. But it's certainly does not feel like this area that we're at in the forties and fifties and all the way up past sixty thousand. Feel like mania. It just feels like the consistent and relentless pressure of more people trying to buy a thing that they're just that much of
Apple Getting Into Augmented Reality
"New report stating at apple will release mixed reality headset in twenty twenty two and a are glasses by twenty twenty five litres rumblings over apple's planned venture into augmented reality. Virtual reality mixed reality have been getting louder recently. We now have a series of dates for those devices by cater mainichi quo a good source of reliable track record on all things apple in research note with t.f. International securities obtained by macrumors will states. That apple will release an m. r. helmet type product by twenty twenty two an ar glasses type product by twenty twenty five in an air contact lens type product by twenty. Thirty or twenty forty. Didn't have a lot to say about the apple. Contact lenses stated netherlands will bring electronics from the era of visible computing to invisible computing. He added that is no visibility for the product as of now. But we predict apple's m. r. a. our product roadmap includes three phases helmet type by twenty twenty two glasses type by twenty twenty five and contact lens type by twenty thirty twenty forty before the helmet product provide ar vr experiences while glasses and contact lens. Type of products are more likely to focus on a our applications. When it comes to the headset though is a lot more to say there in terms of size yan located at the several prototypes been working on way between point four. two point. Six pounds over their apparent goal is to reduce the way to between point to two point. Four which would make companies had a lot lighter than many existing devices will also be portable will stated in report and have independent computing power and storage nonetheless. It doesn't mean that it will be truly mobile like an iphone. At least that i will say that. He expects to helmet to improve mobility as technology improves. You also added weight to the rumor. That apple's headset will be equipped with sophisticated micro led displays. The company is working with sony on this. He said which is in contrast to previous reports that say apple is working with taiwan semiconductor manufacturing co. with the micro oily displays and central optical modules. The headset will be able to provide a see through a are experienced as low as a vr experience. Here's the thing. Why should you buy apples. Mr headset when there are a lot less expensive options to choose from. Here's why although apple has been focusing on a are we think harbor specifications of this product can provide an immersive experience is significantly better than existing. vr products. We believe that apple may highly integrate this helmet with video related applications for example apple tv plus may be apple arcade etc as one of the key selling points and he's also stating added is expected to cost around one thousand dollars in the us but as far as the glasses go which are expected to provide an optical see through experience expected twenty twenty five launch at the
A Look Inside The COVID-19 relief bill Passed By Senate
"The senate passed a one point nine trillion dollar covid nineteen relief. Bill here's what senate by elena abramson the senate on saturday afternoon narrowly passed a one point nine trillion dollar cove nineteen relief package a key milestone for president joe biden to ink his first legislative priority into law the avalanche of federal dollars which clock in at approximately nine percent of the country's gross domestic product includes fourteen hundred dollar checks for middle and lower income. Americans extend unemployment insurance through much of the summer and provides seventy billion dollars to increase vaccine distribution and coronavirus testing. The bill was passed entirely along party. Lines with all senate. Democrats supporting it and all republicans opposing. This nation has suffered too much for much. Too long biden said in remarks from the white house on saturday. Everything in this package is designed to relieve the suffering and to meet the most urgent needs of the nation and put us in a better position to prevail starting with beating this virus and vaccinating the country. The house which already passed version of the bill on february. twenty seventh is slated to vote on the amended. Text on tuesday before sending it to biden's desk so he can sign it into law. Here is a look at six major components of the bill direct payments for millions of americans under the senate plan individuals making up to seventy five thousand dollars in couples. Making up to one hundred. Fifty thousand dollars per year are eligible to receive a fourteen hundred dollar check individuals. Earning between seventy five thousand and eighty thousand dollars and couples. Earning between one hundred fifty thousand dollars. One hundred sixty thousand dollars will receive some of that money but not the full amount. The eligibility thresholds are a change from the house's initial version which kept the threshold at one hundred thousand dollars for individuals and two hundred thousand dollars for couples senate. Democrats lowered the eligibility for the stimulus checks to get all democrats onboard after resistance from some moderates in their party. The decision means that an estimated seventeen million americans who received a check under former president. Donald trump won't get one under biden. According to a study from a nonpartisan institute on taxation and economic policy biden said on saturday that the government will begin sending the checks to eligible americans. This month extended unemployment insurance current federal unemployment benefits. Which a lot an additional three hundred dollars per week on top of state benefits are set to expire on march fourteenth. The senate bill extends the program through september sixth at three hundred dollars per week for households. Earning under one hundred fifty thousand dollars. The first ten thousand two hundred dollars of the unemployment benefits are non taxable to prevent surprise billing at the end of the year. These were also changes from the house version of the bill which provided four hundred dollars per week through all twenty ninth. The reduction in unemployment insurance in the senate version was implemented to ensure moderate senator. Joe manchin a democrat from west. Virginia would not break with his party. According to a democratic aide expanded tax credits for families. The bill raises the child tax credit for most families in the coming year by one thousand dollars to three thousand dollars per child. It's even more for families with young children. Many can receive credit of three thousand six hundred dollars for each child under age six. All of these credits are fully refundable and some researchers say these measures could potentially help cut child poverty and half funding for state and local governments and public schools. The bill delivers a three hundred fifty billion dollar cash infusion to state and local governments and one hundred thirty billion dollars to elementary middle and high schools to help them reopen safely. Local budgets have faced steep declines in revenue as businesses remain shuttered during the pandemic last september. The brookings institute estimated that state and local revenues would decline by one hundred fifty five billion dollars in twenty twenty one hundred sixty seven billion dollars in twenty twenty one and one hundred forty five billion dollars in twenty twenty two. The money for schools is designed to help them improve their ventilation systems. Hire more janitors and reduced class sizes to conform with social distancing protocols. Democrats argued that this money was necessary to save public sector jobs and enable teachers and students to return to classrooms without risking their health. Republicans said that the funding already allocated through. Last year's relief bills was sufficient and that sending more money the state and local governments was superfluous relief for restaurants. The bill includes traditional fifty billion dollars in assistance for small businesses including more than seven billion dollars for the troubled payment protection program and a break from previous relief packages. This bill provides twenty eight point. Six billion dollars in grant relief specifically for restaurants which have been particularly decimated by the pandemic
BLM launches Survival Fund amid federal COVID-19 relief wait
"The black lives matter global network foundation is offering help to people struggling financially the foundation says it plans to award up to three thousand micro grants of one thousand dollars each two people who it believes you need it the most the fund was launched earlier this month to help those having a hard time making ends meet during the corona virus pandemic so far at least three hundred grants have been approved fund officials say the first recipients have included the families of people killed by police or those who died while incarcerated those who identify as transgender single parents and individuals previously incarcerated I'm Mike help in
The Most Details On Apples AR/VR Headset Yet
"Sources are giving the information the most details. We've heard yet. About apple's rumored mixed reality headset rumors. They are dishing are the headset will have eight. K displays advanced i tracking tech and more than twelve cameras to track hand movements. And also show. What's going on out. In the real world quote the information viewed internal apple images of late stage prototype from last year which show a sleek curved vs attached to the face by a mesh material and swappable headbands. Apple is far along in the design of the product which apple employees are internally describing as a mixed reality headset because of its ability to combine virtual reality experiences with games and other applications that use real life objects surrounding the person wearing the headset. It could ship as early as next year. Said the person with direct knowledge of the product who requested anonymity to talk about a device. That apple hasn't yet publicly admitted it is making. The company has tapped taiwanese manufacturer petron. Which already makes iphones and ipads for apple to assemble it. Still the product is complex and risky enough. That apple could decide to postpone or shelve it as it has done with other novel. Products in the past among the biggest risks is the price of the device which is likely to cost significantly more than the three hundred to one thousand dollars for existing. Vr headsets from facebook's oculus and others last year apple internally discuss pricing the product around three thousand dollars more than the starting price of the company's high end laptops but around the thirty five hundred dollars that microsoft charges for its mixed reality headset hollow lens. According to the person with direct knowledge of the device the potentially high price explains why apple has internally talked about a goal of shipping. Only about two hundred and fifty thousand units of the headset in the first year of its release though. That plan could change according to the person one of the biggest mysteries around the product. How people will use it. Games have been one of the main attractions for vr headsets and are likely to be a focus for apple's devices well. The company has internally discussed productivity and education applications. The person said that category is still young and faces questions around data privacy and unknowns around long term usage which may slow its ability to break out from early adopters
10 GOP senators offer to negotiate with Biden on COVID relief bill
"Ten republican senators are hoping to sit down with president biden to pitch. What they believe is a coronavirus relief. Bill that can win. Bipartisan support. Senator bill cassidy of louisiana is part of the group. That's penned a letter to the president. He tells fox news common ground can be found on issues like vaccines and helping to stop the spread of virus variants detected in other countries. There's other things that are common ground. Republicans will be there. But they won't be there for payoffs to democratic constituencies are just to check the box for a campaign promise. The president made the senator say they'll unveil details of the plan. Tomorrow it said to include stimulus checks of one thousand dollars for millions of americans
Ex.-Michigan Gov. Snyder charged in Flint water crisis
"Hi Mike Crossey you're reporting a former Michigan governor is charged in the flint water crisis former Michigan governor Rick Snyder has been charged with two counts of willful neglect of duty stemming from the flint water crisis the charges are misdemeanors punishable by up to a year in jail and a one thousand dollar fine flint became a national symbol of government dereliction and environmental injustice and racism after in twenty fifteen a manager appointed by Snyder to run the majority black city decided to use the flint river for water while a regional pipeline was under construction the corrosive water which wasn't properly treated released lead from old plumbing lead contaminated water was blamed for at least ninety cases of legionnaires disease and twelve deaths hi Mike Rossi up
SolarWinds - The Gift That Keeps On Giving - DTNS 3943 - burst 04
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This is the daily tech news for friday january. Eighth twenty twenty. One in los angeles on tom. Merit and from studio redwood on sarah lane from studio colorado. I'm shannon morris drawn the top tech stories in cleveland. I'm lynn per nine. The show's producer. Roger j we were just talking about a cas product that makes you ice cream and ninety seconds whenever you wanted and why roger never cries wider conversation join our expanded show. Good day internet at patriotair dot com slash dpd s. Let's start with a few things you should know. Amazon has discontinued its prime pantry. Grocery and household item service products previously available in pantry will now be available like any other products on amazon. So it's not going away to gather but the service itself prime pantry launched in twenty fourteen offering reduced shipping on up to forty five pounds of household goods for a monthly fee. Amazon node vied prime pant pantry subscribers about the closure in december and then issued refunds the. Uk's competition and markets authority launched an investigation into google's privacy sandbox. That would block third party. Cookies in chrome regulator received complaints from the marketers for an open web coalition saying the plan would abuse google's dominant position in online advertising. So the investigations going to evaluate. If the privacy sandbox changes would concentrate advertising spending market share with google samsung launched the galaxy chromebook to a cheaper version of the galaxy chromebook at launched last year so instead of four k it has a ten eighty p lcd screen with less storage fewer cameras less ram. It's also heavier and thicker overall but it also now starts at five hundred forty nine dollars instead of one thousand dollars. That has a thirteen point. Three inch nineteen twenty by ten eight hundred sixteen nine. Lcd touchscreen with the dual core intel seller on five twenty five you upgradable to an intel core. I three ten ten eleven ten one. one zero. You eight gigs. Ram and one hundred twenty five gigs of storage for six hundred ninety nine dollars a shortage of semiconductors affecting automakers. Volkswagen said last month that they needed to adjust first-quarter manufacturing plans around the globe because of the shortage. Now honda says it will cut domestic output by about four thousand cars this month at one of its factories in japan nissan is adjusting production numbers for its note hatchback model and ford has moved up previously planned downtime at a kentucky plant for its sport utility vehicle factory to the jin chips all right. Well we're talking about cars. Let's talk about the the apple car. Yeah a lot of rumors as of late will really over the last few years. But but but the rumors had resurfaced recently and hyundais. Now talking to apple about kerr's so says the company hyundai representative told cnbc quotes. We understand that apple isn't discussion with a variety of global automakers including hyundai motor as the discussion is at its early stage. Nothing has been decided. Korean economic daily said that apple suggested the arrangements and hundred was reviewing the terms that involved e production and also battery development hyundai has had his own battery platform called e. g. m. p. going into production later this year. So might be saying what you're doing. Reuters sources say that apple would like to produce a passenger vehicle by twenty twenty four however might not be that date bloomberg's mark gurman reports in thomas e. v. from apple is five to seven years away and michio recently said he wouldn't be surprised if it takes until twenty twenty eight. Yes what's probably going on. Here is apple and i think this significant part has decided to start investigating how they would build. Whatever it is. They're going to build whether it's a whole car or an integrated platform and they're going to different manufacturers and parts suppliers and folks like magna including hyundai. And saying what are you got. How can you help us with this. And is a great company for this because they make parts they make systems. They make full cars. There's all kinds of services in the conday company that could play a part with apple so it may not be. That apple knows what they want from hyundai. It may just be that they're going and saying hey let's talk. You do a lot of the kinds of things that we think we're going to need. I'm pretty excited about this. I just got my first hyundai ever this year and my perception of this story was weight but hyundai currently uses android auto and a lot of their their cars. So i would love to see. How apple would integrate Hyundai's current technologies into something that is very useful for that apple ecosystem not just looking at e itself but also the The the systems inside of it the controls in how they would manage that four a driver and a passenger in the car. Yeah i mean. I think that's one of the big questions that i have is okay. Let's say let's say it's hyundai that that applet ended up working with with clearly not set in stone at least from what we know at this point. But let's say it's the companies for kicks. Let's imagine that that's what it is. Yeah it is. It is an apple car that hyundai produces a lot of parts for the way that works with lots of other companies to produce other hardware for apple. I mean that that's the loftiest kind of goal that we're looking at and maybe that would take till twenty twenty eight at you know if if apple was lucky. I think it probably has more to do with like you said shannon not that you know android auto wouldn't still be prevalent in a lot of passenger vehicles but maybe at some sort of it's a special relationship. It's it's a special kind of os inside a car that is supposed to you. Know i don't know move some merch because What apple is providing on the software side is is. Is that much more interesting. I really don't know if you look at that. Bloomberg article mark gurman sources are saying that Tesla people that apple has hired are working on things like interior exterior. Drive train stereo. Desist the kinds of things. You need when you're building a car not carting a software platform so then the question becomes is it the apple car period. Maybe hendaye makes it. Maybe somebody else makes it. And you know they'll figure out how to distribute it or is it the apple car by sunday and you go to hyundai dealership to buy it the way you went to an. At and t. store to an apple iphone but it's really apples car in cooperation with sunday. Are there multiple partners. I mean that's all the kind of stuff we're waiting to see but it really does feel like we have gotten to the point where this is no longer just yeah. They're working on project titan. They don't know what they're gonna do to. They have an idea. It's more than just software and they're working out the details. Maybe they don't even know that yet. Well i'm interested to see what happens but we also have some other news. Security among the systems impacted by the solar winds attack is the electron filing system. Used by the us federal courts at investigation is underway to determine if confidentiality of documents filed with the courts was breached and as a result starting wednesday confidential documents filed with the courts will be stored on standalone systems. Not uploaded big difference so these are documents sealed from public access because they contain sensitive information like investigative techniques identities of informants and a lot more other. Us federal agencies affected included the justice department the state treasury and energy departments as well solar winds has engaged. The krebs stay most security consulting group to help deal with this attack. That firm was formed by alex. Stamos the former chief security officer at yahoo and facebook and chris krebs the former director of the us cybersecurity and infrastructure security agency or sisa. So krebs was fired last month. By the president after finding no evidence of with voting systems in the twenty twenty election. Yeah stamos first of all brilliant for those two to team up and smart for solar winds to engage them for what they say is Helping with transparency with companies that are affected But this we we are not done finding out how bad this is. There are reports that there may have been other ways that this whoever is behind this intruded beyond just solar winds. They're finding evidence of that. They have not been able to root out the people that got into this vulnerability from all systems yet. They're still in there in a lot of cases. And you know this. This kind of confidential information is exactly the kind of thing you fear that someone would get intruding into a government system informants investigative techniques that you can now learn from to evade being prosecuted or caught yourself. That's that's crown jewel type stuff it's it's very interesting. In fact krebs spoke on record saying that it could potentially take years to figure out how deep the solar winds attack actually went and how many different kinds of infrastructure. You know brands and everything that it might have affected so this is not something. That's going to die anytime soon. I'm glad that they are reaching out. Craig's and stay most though because that i agree with you tom. It's excellent. excellent team roku made a few interesting announcements roku says. Npd data shows that the roku s was the top selling smarter operating system in the us and canada in two thousand twenty thirty one percent market share in canada. Thirty eight percent in the united states That's pushed the samsung's tizen number two. At least we don't actually know samsung's ties and was number. One in two thousand nineteen also announced a wireless soundbar reference design that uses wifi for its roku. Tv ready program remember. Last year roku announced the program which had a designed for wired. Sound bars. The program includes tcl. Pokemon on an element has just announced. They'll join as well with two point. Two point one ready sound bars roku tv ready to expand internationally later this year as well. But here's the big roku news roku has agreed to acquire exclusive global distribution rights to more than seventy five Shows documentaries some of which had not been released before qube shutdown. So there'll be some new stuff that nobody's ever seen after their exclusivity deal expires. That'll happen in a bit more than a year. Depending on the show roku will still have the rights to show the content just not exclusively until thousand twenty seven the content will have to be presented in original increments of ten minutes or less. The deal doesn't let them stitch it altogether. The content will be added to the more than forty thousand movies and tv shows already available. In the roku channel shows include from Be anyway punked. Murder house. Flip and dummy which stars anna kendrick. I never watched the new punk. I heard had its moments. The whole qube thing. It's really interesting to me because it was sort of like. It crashed and burned so quickly. And there's a lotta shot and friday around folks in the industry about it. And i think that's not because qube was doing things wrong. It was because the company had raised so much money time. Because you know. They had meg whitman. Jeffrey katzenberg who are you know. Heavy hitters and there was a little bit of like you are being to embassies and therefore you shall fail. The company did fail and the idea that some creators will have a new life on another platform shows. That just don't even saw but people still worked on. And maybe you're really good. I think this this makes a lotta sense and good for roku to get exclusivity for at least a few years so does roku have to wait at all in order to start showing this content or can happen immediately. I don't know when the start date. Whenever the deal is you know goes into effect. Then they'll immediately be able to to show it so you know within a month or so it would be my guess anyway but no they. They don't have once. The deal is actually in effect. They don't have to wait. What's going on here. is that the baby. Production companies own the rights to their own stuff but they have a two year exclusive for each one of their shows with qube and those two year exclusives are now being transferred to roku so roka will be able to have the exclusive for the remainder of whatever. The period was with quick. That's why it's more a year. Exclusively goes away then they still have the right to show it until twenty twenty seven but the production companies that made it can now start shopping at around to other places as well so the production companies do hold the content and remember this is just the content. Qube is still in a over. Its turnstile technology which is holding it up from selling its technology and i would expect once it resolves that lawsuit should resolve it in a way that they still hold their technology. They'll sell that to so this isn't the last you're going to hear could be selling off a part of it. I would imagine. Gotcha yeah that whole. The whole technology part of qube was again was an ambitious thing that was released at a very inopportune time in twenty twenty when everyone was like. We're just sitting at home like we don't need this like mobile phone technology. It's like cool that you can shifted around but you can't even cast thing. I mean the company did fix that pretty soon after allow about she was just. I mean it's just did. The timing couldn't be worse but that technology when you think of it in a variety of other form factors such as monitors that swivel talked about some of those yesterday. I don't know that qube or tiktok or snapchat or all of the stuff where we're like. Oh yeah that's the. That's the portrait view. Rather than landscape view. That works for certain apps is is is all that this is four. I think there's more to it So we'll see what happens and there's patents and things that are always valuable because you can use those to extract some concessions and money and stuff. So yeah expect that all to come join the conversation in our discord which you can join by linking to a patriotic. Can't get in there and talk about your favourite qube shows with all the other discord folks. Just lincoln to your patriotic out at patriotair dot com slash. Dpd s all right shannon. How do you clone a security key. Well i i will say please do not stop using your security keys because of this story i will explain it. Researchers from ninja lab published a paper on thursday showing how you could clone a google tightened security gate this is a two factor authentication key which is very similar to a you. Be key that you have to plug in or tap in order to access an account after putting in your username or your password credentials. Were both so in order to pull off the clone. You would need physical access to the key for about ten hours. Sometimes a minimum of ten hours just kind of depends on how good you are at this. About twelve thousand dollars worth of equipment physical equipment and custom software and some advanced skills in electrical engineering and cryptography as well. So you have to remove the chip and then take measurements of it at a being registered on each account that you went to attack the measurements observe electro magnetic radiation as the chip generates digital signatures that let the attacker slowly deduced the private key so measurements take about six hours per account. That's not including taking apart. The original tighten security key putting it back together. Then you need to seal the chip back into its case. You also need the targets password in order for this to work. So the reason it works is because of vulnerability in the security hardware chip residing within the google titan key and that is called an eighty seven hundred x by this company called. Xp if it's exploited in attacker could grab the elliptic curve cryptographic private key for the account and the same chip is actually found in other two factor. Authentication physical tokens as well like There's a ubiquity that it's found in but chances of attack or very very minimal given the scope of the attack so if you do all of this without the target ever noticing then they would never duplicated key but again given the scope given how much it costs and everything behind the scenes probably when it happened to normal user. The point of these security keys being the best way to use For two factor. Is that you can't even get at your private key right you. Nobody has to be able to get in there like the chip. Just doesn't make it available so the fact that they were able to get in there and get it is huge. You know the fact that they were able to do this is significant. But i mean if you're not a target of an advanced persistent threat. You don't need to worry about this. No one's going to go to the trouble to do this. And even if you're a target. I would guess shannon that most of them probably would be able to notice if someone took their key for ten hours or more you. You likely likely would especially since a lot of people with hardware tokens like google titan will stick them on a on their keychain for example like with their house keys or whatever wherever they keep all those personal physical devices that they don't want lost or stolen they keep them all on engaging so if somebody was to take one of these out of your purse out of your gym locker wherever it might be and remove it for like ten hour street minimum. You would likely know that this would have happened. the neat thing about these chips inside of these. Google tightened security keys. And any other cryptographic hardware tokens like these is that. Even the manufacturer doesn't know the private key so the fact that they were able to find vulnerability on these specific chipsets is really interesting. And i think that's the important bit of that. Is is even though the google titan like the end all be all of really excellent. Two factor authentication. There's always. The potential that vulnerabilities can be found. So i'm happy that this research came out. It's so fascinating and it's so interesting in this means that an x. p. and other security chipset manufacturers that sell these teeny tiny chips to google or whoever the company might be They can build on this. They can research and figure out what the next version of their chipset needs to entail in order to not be vulnerable to this again in the future. Yeah i mean this is really a good security story right. We finally figured out because there's always a way right. We finally figured out the way you get the private key out of a security key and guess what it's really hard takes a long time and now that we know it we can make it even harder and hopefully you know push that barrier out even further and even if somebody did have time to do this and you didn't notice i was reading the paper because i'm a huge nerd and they go as far as using fuming fuming nitric acid in order to get like melt the epoxy off of the original google titan. How are you going to put that back together. In order for somebody to not notice like there's a lot of intricacies with this attack in order for it to actually be pulled off so chances are very very slim that somebody would be able to pull off so again as i said at the very beginning. Don't stop using your google tightened security key if you have one keep using it because chances are you would never be attacked with this. Just just know if you haven't seen it in ten hours look together strange. This is going to be in a movie though. I'm calling that shot right now. We're gonna we're gonna see this movie. Where like i hope so. Somebody goes into surgery and they take his key and they go out and do all this and they slip it back in because ten hours later. He wakes up from anesthesia on something like that. I just hope they talked to the researchers so they actually show it off right. Yeah Sony tv and audio announcements Starting with details for its own tv lineup. Sticking with lead ravi x four k and k. Tv's will support four k at one hundred twenty hertz variable refresh rate vr as well as a l l m low latency mode and e arc. These are all things that are important. If you've got a ps five now you've got sony. Tv they can go. That sony also has an improved a chip that is going to improve the picture and sound positioning. So it aligns with what you see on the screen. Sony's master series. Tv's will come with a sensor that adjusts white balanced immense. Your ambiente color temp. You don't have to do anything they'll just do it. Also an aluminum heat shield. That will make for brighter. All the sets will support. Hdmi two point one. Another big one for ps five dolby vision hdr angle tv. Sony also announced. It's three hundred sixty reality audio platform if you're not familiar with three hundred sixty degree audio places instruments and vocals in a virtual sound field around your head but using just the one speaker so you can do this in an amazon echo or google. Home sony will start streaming video with three sixty audio later this year. Starting with concert from zara larsson on january eleventh. And somebody's gonna make speakers that support this. It'll be may supported by other speakers as well. But sony is going to put out the are five thousand and three thousand They've got that dark cloth. Surface that all these speakers seem to have these days with either bronze or silver accents. Work with google and amazon assistance and can connect to select sony abroad via. Tv's as well as supporting wi fi bluetooth. Spotify connect in google cast. The speakers do automated calibration to the room. They're in donut. The press a button for that. Either and we'll simulate three hundred sixty degree audio for stereo tracks as well. The five thousand cost five hundred pounds or five hundred ninety nine euros no. Us price yet on the three thousand two hundred eighty pounds. Three hundred fifty nine euros. This seems this. Seems like it's shaping up to be one of the trends. Is this the sort of three hundred sixty degree audio while you're listening to your black bank and it's just one speaker or potentially a couple of speakers ativan. Maybe yeah yeah already supported. Yeah there's less of kind of like What do i have to do. Five point one surround or at least get a couple of speakers and make them a stereo pair type thing. I really haven't heard this in. I don't know. I used to hang out at magnolia at best. Buy all the time. And just like geek out on stuff like this. of course. this technology wasn't around at the time. But it's really come on. Let's turn on some stuff and see the speakers. Do it works well. Then that's awesome my first reaction because i got rid of my kind of pants speakers some years ago because friend of mine needed them more than i did and i didn't have room in my apartment but i miss that i'm also an a. A permanent now that's smaller and kind of has a lot of weird angles and i find audio bounces off walls in wiz. That wouldn't if it was more of a square box broom So i'm not sure that i'm the perfect target market for this. You're the you're the one puts this through its paces and sees if it really works. Yeah if i could actually work as advertised again with some funny angles in a big old frame. Then i'm i'm really into this and i've always been. I don't have a sony. Tv currently sorry zony. But i was abroad. Bravi a person for years. Nears i think what the new bravi line is coming out with. Looks really nice. And i mean not totally in the market for a new tv. But i like the fact that i might get a new sony again paired up with a sony speaker. You got three six. Yeah already got all this stuff. It's going to be a messed anyway. You slice it. But i like. I like this to be sixty reality audio platform. What would you have set up in your house. I was straight up going to mention sonos because if if it doesn't have the connectability to be able to work with all of my other platforms that currently have invested in. Then chances are i wouldn't buy it. So i do have sono says in my house and i do have some issues connecting those with other speakers in the household to like like my google hub for example so the fact that this works with google and amazon assistant the speaker specifically The audio speakers. I think that's pretty cool. I like that. They are bringing that in and i am interested because i do live in a household. That has very high ceilings. How this would work in that kind of environment. So yeah. I'm very interested in the audio aspect. Well you might also be interested in what colour has come out. Oh yes the folks who make things like toilets and and sinks and lots of appliances however. Been a real. Cas mainstay for the last few years for some cool innovations and this year is no different. Even though we're not in vegas koehler has a new smart bathtub called the stillness bath. That lets you use an app or use your voice using google or amazon's assistance to fill up the water or perhaps set the mood by changing the color of the lights around the tab or even add some fog. You know you wanna kind of pretend like you're in the then present routines also turn on features in a certain orders if you wanna get kind of creative. that's cool. Yeah the certain amount of limitations with the base model and the base model is not cheap so temperature and depth control models alone will cost around eight thousand six hundred ninety eight dollars. That's right it's almost nine thousand dollar bathtub. If you want the experience tower that lets you activate fog and aromatherapy. That will run you just over ten thousand dollars. Both models are available in july. There are real things and if you want the version with lights and floor grades for overflow fifteen thousand nine hundred ninety eight dollars available. This october signed me off. I won't be buying those. Nope not even a little bit but we could have taken a bath at s in the new in the pre show roger was like. Why would you want fog. It's like this. Why does anyone want to be on. Yeah racist luxury suites in hotels for sure as well as apple's houses sure yeah something well. Yeah it's it's that like hey look at what my bath can do people go. Wow very fancy and then you know ten years from now will be like remember when we thought it was fancied to talk to your bathtub so that it would start filling up without touching it but Yeah it's it's somewhat silly because of the price. But i'm not really much of a bath person but they do look very nice all right. Let's check out the mail bag but ads do it. Nick wrote in with a pronunciation. Ramps own neck. You are not alone he says. Ac's rog is an initial list. Because it's our og like fbi or cia. People say ron yet. They're lower end gaming brand tough not initially them. It's an acronym like scuba or produce you f but pronounced off. It's like ace's can't make up their name minds. Then there's strict which is our subbrand strikes as a word it's a completely nonsensical made up word. But it's a word and you pronounce it as such nick as honestly as somebody. That buys a lot of hardware. Because i've rarely had a bad experience with them over the past twenty years. I am baffled by some branding decisions. The one the bugs me. The most is the strict subbrand. Sometimes acis makes the tricks products. The high end product in the product stock yet other times. It's a mid range product. Would it be too much to ask for consistency and product. Branding twenty twenty one. Yes apparently apparently we feel your pain. Nick i love the dichter's just like i just need to vent you guys. Let me let me let me get this up. Just we appreciate that. Yeah i mean i. i'm with you nick. Everyday is a fresh new hell when it comes to reading out some model numbers but what is not is shouting out our patrons at our master and grandmaster levels. Today they include christmas merton james and digression daniels and of course landon peralta back and illustrating the show. What have you drawn for us today. Len well you know. I'm really excited. Say that we've have the first image of the ample car the car. Which i'm that's what i'm calling it. I'm sure they're gonna take my advice. Coming around twenty twenty seven ish or so maybe You know you may. If you're a fan of richard scary busy world a you may be very familiar with the look of of the apple. Ii car I think it'll be a big hit with with fans of people who have kids So check it out. this is called meet. I car And this is available right now. My patriot on which by the way has to new levels. If lets me be your Let me be your teacher. Your mentor with your artwork. I can give you some help that way. And patriots dot com forward slash. Len plus i also just launched a new product called flip face max which is over at lend store dot com. And i i want to show you what that looks like. I did something special. for For our friend shannon for snubs. This is a this is what the flipping flipped. Face masks. looks like This is It's a little bit higher Higher end than the normal flip sister used to But those are on the front page story on pro dot com. But this is for you shannon. If people wanna see that because most people are just listening to this what should they do. Go to well right now. It's going to be on twitter instagram later. But just go to lend dot com. You'll see all the ones i've done over the past couple of weeks and including including shannon's so it's really lovely. Let it's yeah. That's adorable shannon morris First show of twenty twenty one certainly not the last. I know you're a busy lady at. Where can people keep up with your work. Oh my gosh. I have been busy. Youtube dot com slash shannon morse. Just like name. I just did at tech predictions video and it was so cool. I got like eighteen up and coming tech youtubers to their twenty twenty one tech predictions for the year. And there's some names in there that you that you definitely know. Aunt pruitt Miriam take rene ritchie. So i had a whole bunch of people joining and kinda give me their thoughts and It was very very optimistic. And i was really happy to see that. So if you want to see that video and the rest of mine check out my youtube channel. Hey folks if you need. Just the headlines. It's okay to skip eighteen s. Know you get busy. Check out our related show daily tech headlines all the essential tech news in about five minutes daily tech headlines dot com. We're live on this show. Monday through friday at four thirty. Pm eastern twenty one. Thirty e. c. And you can find out more at daily tech news show dot com slash lives. We back monday with chris. Ashley have a gray weekend. 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Bitcoin Monthly Looking To Set Records
"I did go while the weekend. And it's look good at their in the markets right now. I like it on the look super. We pulled back loss waking you know since the low we've We've gathered back nearly fifteen percent on bitcoin in the wake. Jesus closed down at one point. Four percent hardly you know. Hardly anything wait. Ready natta push onto new old time house would not be nas. Not massive pullback but A good pool but nevertheless and it looks as though the daily pulled by monitoring the one now we ought to see a breakdown three sixteen thousand two hundred. And that's something that. I'm interested because that would then suggest may may. We will see a day weekly pullback until that time well that i do much more to say because we pulled back liebau st- and we're not too far off behind this move. The move is nineteen thousand. Five hundred seventy seven or eighteen thousand five hundred fifty three so only one thousand dollars off actually use pretty much bang on just shaw thousand dollars off the highs they smooth and that might sound like a lot but i forget that we took an eighteen thousand five hundred bitcoin right now. As a matter of fact today it's at one point nine four percent and there's a really really nice trend voting on the longs on. Bitcoin is no sacred. There and i have actually taken along. Bitcoin cash today. Well i spoke although earlier in my run through live on facebook and twitter. What's it called you shoe Check it out if you to go a little fifteen minute cried There have been more than one to one of reisman stop prophet. it's bloody municipal. Another good start to a fantastic way ahead her bitcoin. Yeah up two percent nearly right now and looking to pullbacks. I'll be happy with fifteen on to be happy with the study. Haven't got any just yet.
Looking for a phone for the holidays? Here are your best bets
"You're looking for a smartphone for yourself or a loved one this holiday. The choices can get overwhelming. Fortunately we've got some answers. Roger chang and this is your daily charge with me phone expert than law created holiday gift guide funds. Welcome lynn hierachy. I'm happy to be here. So you've a rundown of the best smartphone options out there but before we get into specific suggestions. Any general advice on what we should think about when we're syrian new phone. Yeah every time you know before you buy. New phone is important to think about how you use your last phone. Did you play a lot of games and watch videos if so you probably want a phone with a big screen and a battery a big battery and or did you take a lot of photos and capture a lot of videos than you probably want something with a great camera so you really want to think about how you use your phone and make sure that the phone works for you and your needs instead of just getting the latest greatest. You don't wanna pay for features you don't need features that you may or may not need i talk about five g a lot on this show But senior the expert. I wanted to get your read on this law. Is it something you really need. When considering which funded by there is a premium for five devices. So is it really worth. It is rolling out in more areas throughout this year. But i know like some carriers. I believe t mobile. They offer five g coverage under its unlimited plan anyway. So it's understandable if you're eyeing a five g device and that's your next phone in that situation but i'm not a hundred percent convinced a five g iphone is something you absolutely need this year especially when so many people are working from home anyway and especially if you don't have good five three coverage in your area so you should definitely check that before you make a decision and you know coverage maps from carriers. They don't really tell the whole story so you you wanna make sure you do a lot of research and phones. Five g. phones are getting cheaper and cheaper. So i may hold out just a bit longer gutted. It feels like the most part people are committed to the platforms. They've chosen if you're an iphone user. You're likely buying a new iphone. Twelve financial user. You have more choices. But a- likely to stick with another android phone other instances where you would consider switching. Generally that is true It people do tend to kind of stick with the same ecosystems. But i think it's easier to switch platforms easier more now than now more than ever especially compared to years past I think about some certain situations that would motivate motivate someone switch and i think peripheral accessories are especially good reason of the airpods pro. They do work with android phones to an extent but their functionality and their features work so much better with an iphone and you basically kind of even iphone to use an apple watch for its to its full potential so i could see android user. Who is really attracted to those accessories switch for that. I think for an iphone to android people do want the customization. I know iowa's fourteen gives you more and options but it just doesn't compare to what you can play around with on an android phone. It's a lot more fun if you have the time for it. So let's get into it. Let's talk about specific phones. What are some of your top picks for this holiday season again. It really depends on who you are and what your needs are but for an iphone. I do like the iphone mini because of its size. I have small hands. So it's very attracted to me and like the iphone se because it's a because of its low price and for android phones. The galaxy s twenty f e is really affordable. Pick for the galaxy line. And i liked the oneplus eight because it's premium but it's competitively priced so let's dig into some of those phones the the galaxy s twenty f e which. I know we made fun of alive for the name. Initially fan edition actually ended up being pretty decent About what you get with it and why you know. That's that's a pretty decent deal. Among other phones out there. Well one is that it has five g and it has a great performance. And the although you know. The camera isn't as good as the s. twenty. Ultra the note. Twenty ultra It's a good price. I think it starts about seven hundred dollars and it's so much cheaper than some of the premium galaxy phones out there so it's something if you want that galaxy samsung the samsung galaxy experience. But you don't want to spend way too much. I think that is a good alternative. Also you can look into samsung's galaxy a series lineup phones. Like the eighth fifty one i think is one of the more recent ones those also kind of offer that that software experience a galaxy experience without a premium of a high price so beyond some of these head like his. You know you talked about samsung. Which is a well-known Are there any other handsome. Makers that are a bit more under the radar that offer phones. Maybe deserve a second. Look yeah. I don't. I don't have any official releases or deals specifically that i can say i always think. Motorola is such a great company for mid range affordable phones and throughout the holiday season. There moto phones do get a discounted and there are some carrier promotions to it. I would say keep an eye on those things especially if you don't want to spend a thousand dollars on a phone if you're looking for something it starts like two hundred dollars. An up. motorola makes a really solid aggressively priced phones. That if you don't really need all the premium features so if you just kind of use your phone to make calls the moti. Seven power is a good mid range phone with a big battery so you don't have to charge it and that would be a great pick for someone who's a little bit more straightforward with their needs at. Don't need a lot or grammy. It's black friday today. So i'm sure there are plenty of deals to go around beyond the motorola brand new. You mentioned one plus and that's another company. That is a little bit under the radar. It's not a household name tug a little bit about that in some of the options there. Yeah we're plus is definitely. They started out as an android enthusiasts brand. They've branched out in there a little bit more popular. Now you're right. They're not as popular will known as google and samsung. Their current flagship line is the eight. It's oneplus eight pro. Act it's a lot of phones year. They released like four And so that's kind of their higher end line. They just released their oneplus. Nord en ten. Five g That will be available in north america at a later date and that has five g And it's about. I think it's going to be about four hundred dollars. Give or take so that is something that you know. They've consistently released premium phones with great hardware at affordable pricing used to be more affordable from years past. Not so much anymore but it still. You know hundreds of dollars cheaper than samsung galaxy funds beyond one plus and samsung another company that surprisingly flies under the radar is google right. It's it's a big name company but the pixel phones. Have not exactly been blockbuster devices. I believe one of the pixel phone is on your list. You talk about which phone that google makes people should be looking at. Yeah so. I think you're talking about pick so four eight five g. I've consistently recommended that phone since its release i like it. Because it is more affordable than the five the pixel five which is its main flagship. But you get a lot of the same features it still has. It has the same camera as a five. So it has great. Low like Low light photos and it has a soffer support from google. And it's also has five g which is what differentiates it from the pig soul for a that was Also released so that would be all the pixel phones that were released this year. I do like the four eighty five g the most just because it's cheaper than the five but has many of the same features so most of those flagship phones we're talking about the pixel five twelve. They're they're eight hundred dollars closer to one thousand dollars. If you're looking to spend that much like you. Does anyone actually need to spend a thousand dollars on a new phone. I mean you can definitely spend that much if you want you know phones. That cost that much are usually faster. They have longer less batteries and have great cameras. But i feel like this year compared to last compared to yours past. We've seen so many great phones that are priced below thousand dollars. You could find something great for four hundred dollars to six hundred dollars. I do think. Fund companies were reactive to the spending behavior of twenty twenty and how people for being a little bit more cost conscious and they and they Reacted to that. With a appropriately priced phones. That have been way more aggressive but still have premium teachers. And what if you're shopping for kids or parents amid this may be the same line of conversation. But you know for for folks who don't necessarily need all those layers in bells and whistles of. Are there any other phones that you suggest for them. That may be even a step down from some of the ones you talked about earlier definitely as it again. A motorola makes a lot of inexpensive phone so i would look towards their e line of funds the moto e six i believe is you know starts at one hundred dollars and that's something that you can get unlocked By the way if you are giving phone as a gift. I do recommend buying an unlocked. Phone it's probably the quickest and easiest way to go about it since you just have to swap existing some card and you're ready to go so that would kind of with that line of phones. The moti line would definitely be something. I would look out for this. Holiday season is a phone. Even a gift anymore is that is that too personal of a device for you to go out and actually get for someone. I sure why not. I totally don't disagree with receiving a phone as a gift. I think it's perfectly as long as you go about it the right way. Make sure that's what they're it matches the needs that they want and And you look very closely at all the fine print in terms of carrier contracts and stuff like that. I think it would be a great gift.
Apple introduces iPhone 12 Pro and iPhone 12 Pro Max with 5G
"The legitimate benefits are as as carriage our brain five g to the streets and into homes. Let's jump back into the conversation already in progress. Let's talk about the impact of a five g. Iphone apple has the ability to spread pixie dust on any technology when they enter the arena with it. How important do you think five. G is to apple. And how important do you think. Apple is five g. It's great way to frame that question. Because i think it's five. G absolute needs apple to embrace this technology apple as you said has a way of turning nascent early. Technology things like payment like wireless charging into the must have feature of the year right. So everyone's anticipating. That apple is going to five g. That next big must have acknowledged. You never mind folks who think they have it already. They're they're apple is going to educate consumers on why they're gonna need this upgrade upgrade their phones as it's a huge deal And you know some statistics of said that if what's apple starts selling Automatically become the second largest iphone or five g vendor in the world behind. Wow way and keep in mind. Samsung has been doing this for about a year and a half. they've been selling five devices. The presence of apple getting to is so huge that almost automatically they become a major player in five. Jake do you think we have a problem out there. With the fact that five is arriving with a need for a new handset which isn't cheap and a need to ostensibly pay more for carriage widely by carrier a time when people are trending toward less expensive handsets. Like you just mentioned samsung. They have this new galaxy. S twenty f e fan edition. That is hundreds less than their previous flagship. New google devices have recently come out rather inexpensive. Lg you our favorite iphone. Right now i think is the iphone. Se if you read between the lines of seen at reviews and that is certainly not the flagship eleven pro. the markets tending toward more value priced. Phones is this an awkward time to ask folks to buy a new phone and pay more for service. That's certainly a difficult time to ask anyone. Spending one thousand dollars plus four new phone with that said there will be people who will spend that much money. Keep in mind. The phone is basically the most critical tool in your life. Right you this one thing. You basically can't let can't not let go of so either number of people that are willing to spend that much and we'll see what apple does in terms of pricing for last year with the the iphone eleven. They did actually bring the price down a little bit for the base model. There's rumors that it might go even lower this time so apple might serve. Take a cue from what's going on the world. An offer of a bit of a break but still have that five functionality.
Upgrade your tech every year?
"Find out more after the show. It's always great hearing from your fans even when they want you to shut up. I got a lot of nasty tweets and emails this weekend in response to my piece about surrendering Apple Samsung and Google, and just admitting that perhaps it's best to just upgrade every year. I mean the new phones are so good. You'll pay about five hundred dollars a year swap them out if you resell the latest version. For the new iphone twelve I get a markedly improved camera. A screen said to be less susceptible to cracking spitfire processor and all in all a sweeter design. I think it's worth five hundred dollars a year to get the latest and greatest even pandemic but you know it's all relative and it's about your priorities. Others didn't exactly agree with me. Here's an email from an unsigned fan quote wake up to your surroundings, Graham are you happy writing terrible articles with no basis people are laughing at you they make fun of your work because it's Solis in inconsequential. It's amazing how people can get upset over an article Another responded quote. Do you really believe what you wrote? I never send emails to columnists but this annoyed me enough to look up your contact information. The article had no basis in reality. Okay, your basic troll insults the one point that did come through for many however was that I was advocating something that harm the environment quote your justification for why you need to upgrade a one thousand dollar plus phone. Every year is environmentally and financially harmful and ignorant said one said another well yeah. Of course, it's better for the industry in the economy to force people to buy a new phone. Every year who cares about how wasteful that is or how most people can't afford to choose to do something like that unquote. So let me respond I never suggested tossing the phones away never, but instead to trade or sell them to let others use the phones there are many sites that by back phones for cash like decluttering Gazelle and apple in the wireless carriers offered trading value on new purchases. In both instances the phones get refurbished and used again usually in developing countries what about longevity aren't the phone's built to last of course there's no reason you couldn't keep using phone from three or four years ago maybe even older, it'll do. Okay. I like the new advancements in features you may not care. That's fine. But there are situations where your old phone may be cracked. The battery may be falling apart. You can't charge it as well as they used to and websites won't load because time has moved on and new software won't work with them anymore case in point I spoke to someone complaining that her zoom sessions kept breaking and the sound quality was poor.
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