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"nona" Discussed on Faith Collides
"Once he had me pinned to the ground. His tickle started moving to my private parts. I told him to stop in wiggled my way out from under him and once i got free he said you know i was just playing with you. We were just having fun. I didn't think it was fun and that was just started abuse. That no no was subjected to her book tells more of the story of what she went through but also how she overcame. Part of me died the night. Lee stole my innocence and to this day the faint smell of beer on someone's breath often takes my mind back to that night when he finished he told me you better never tell your mom or she'll get rid of you. She doesn't want you anyway. Lee didn't break only my body that night. He broke my spirit between the ages of about five and eleven. I was subjected to physical sexual verbal abuse. And as a result of that. I would go to school. And i would act out and i got labeled as a problem child at a pretty early age i was told me i had a learning disability and there were all these things that were just spoken over me all these labels that were given to me and i did not grow up in a christian home so i didn't know anything about you. Know god jesus hulk being fearfully wonderfully made. I didn't know any of that. And so i tried to take my life at the age of nine. Unsuccessfully tried again at the age of eleven and a permanent scar on the inside of my left wrist that reminds me constantly. How gracious out is it was shortly after my second attempts that a classmate in sixth grade invited me to church and that was my first experience going to church in i felt wanted. I felt welcome for the first time in my life going to church. What were those words. That's spoke to your heart as a sixth grader. The very first sermon. I ever heard the preacher said god is a father to the fatherless and my ears immediately perked up because you know there were so many nights that i would crab myself to sleep thinking it. My father had lived then. What was happening to you would not have happened. And so when. I heard that as a father to the fabulous i immediately wanted to know. What is god who who is god. Because i always wanted my father. And i started to read the bible for myself at a young age. And that's what kinda catalyzed my own personal faith journey. And i started getting involved with youth ministry and you also at that time experienced a church community. I'm sure that you didn't have growing up. Yeah is my mother. Moved us to the other side of the country so my extended family was still in the other side of the country. I'm an only child so it was just me and my mom and her boyfriend and i think that created a toxic environment for me. I didn't really have a community at home in. That's probably why. I leaned aimed so much to the community because these people just loved and accepted me and they affirmed me and they made me feel welcome in wanted whereas on the other hand i was routinely told at home that i wasn't wanted that i was a mistake that the mother wished i wasn't born in having those things spoken over you by someone who was supposed to cherish and protect you it really damages your identity in our understanding of your worth and so despite all this trauma like how did you approach school and education. You mentioned that they had labeled you as a problem child. Yeah i mean the interesting paradox is pros about seven when they said i had a learning disability ninety second grade no one ever asked why that was. The most interesting thing is no one ever said. Why are you behaving this way. They labeled me but they did an intellectual development tests tested gifted. So it wasn't that i was intellectually incapacitated. It was that there were other things happening in my life. And i couldn't focus after i came into a relationship with jesus plugged into the challenge in people were farming me. I started to turn my behavior around in school. And as a matter of fact in the middle of my sixth grade year i was placed in all advanced classes. They've already spent half a year learning. But i got asked to get promoted and so i did and i worked really hard. Sixth grade was a time when your friend introduced you to church. It was also a time when you started to care about doing well in school. Did your mom tell you should care. Did she care about your education. This is again another paradox. So she cared as much as my grades made her look good. It wasn't like she was like super involved in my day to day but she always wanted to no matter what my report card was and if i made all aids to call until our friends at all aids because it made her look like a good parent that was kind of the degree to which she was engaged in my life but for the most part i had learn a lot on my own. You mentioned what your grandparents were doing. What was your mom doing for a living. And how did that impact your career. She was actually what was called a home health aide so she would work with older patients and she would make sure they were fed and make sure that they were bathed in taken care of. She basically worked for herself her entire life. I never knew her to be employed by anyone which i think did shape the way that i approach business. I love the idea of being able to kind of create my own reality in so i definitely got that from her but my initial aspiration was to become a medical doctor. I wanted to cure cancer meeting. That's what took my father's life. And so i was really interested in studying cancer. In developing treatments to cure it started off as a microbiology and cell science major. And i loved what i was doing. I love science and math. Still do to this day but during my second year during the summer i was doing a research program with the national institutes of health. The program sponsor was a physician. Who was older guy. And i remember. He asked me he was like a why. Why do you want to become a doctor. What's motivating you. And i said to him. You know. I wanna give my patients hoping i want to be a partner in their care and he looked at me and he said well. That's not what we do. He's a doctor about the science. You know we're not about all that lovey dovey cuddly stuff. I was like okay. This is not for me. That's what caused the chain by major and it's amazing because i was so fresh because my whole life i wanted to be a doctor but at the same time i realized i wouldn't be where i am today if i had gone down path. That's funny when you reflect on you remember these moments in your life when someone says something and that changed the trajectory so when you got to college how did you manage to pay or get through college. I ended up graduating high school near the top of my clock. I actually had a full academic scholarship to college so i went to college for free as a matter of fact at the end of every semester after paying for tuition and room and board i had by thousands of dollars leftover to live off of and i laughed out that now because i'm like i wasted all that money i could have invested but i didn't know because i didn't grow up in an environment where we talked about money and investing in all of that. Do remember this thinks he bought since you had like extra money. Nothing but close. None of which i had to this day i bought clothes that are completely out of style. So yeah it was an absolute waste of money now like listen. If you have money left over you know get a little opie job and you can make a little money but invest that money you know so you can maybe graduate and.
"nona" Discussed on Faith Collides
"That part of the story. I met with my boss at one o'clock that day and i gave my letter of resignation. And of course she was a what are you going to do next. And all i can say is i'll tell you that's all i can say we finish talking around. One forty i got in my car was driving home at two five. My cell phone rang and it was a sixth rival area. Codes at san francisco california. So i just thought it was telemarketing. I wasn't gonna answer it. The spirit to take that call. And so i answered the call low. The woman says hi is known. A- jones i said yeah she said i'm calling from facebook doesn't call people who is this and keep receiver. Tell me about the role that. I'm in now from lex monday. You're listening to faith clydes it's a show about industry leaders and the stories behind how faith plays into life at work. I'm grace wong on the show. We have a very special guest. Known jones. Not norah jones a singer known as jones who's been profiled in essence magazine as an under forty women to watch back in two thousand fourteen not jones whereas many hats and the one. She's probably best known for is that she's the head a faith based partnerships at facebook the largest social media platform in the world. Facebook has two point five billion active users and over fifty thousand employees so what exactly does not do their my team. And i work with the largest houses of worship denominations associations multifaith the purpose of helping them reimagined. What facebook as capable love. When it comes to connecting survey their congregations as well as helping people practice their faith on facebook. Could you describe what that means in what that looks like what i really try to get leaders to think about is if you think of your facebook presence like a house your page is just your front porch. So that's the place that's public people. Driving and walking down the so called st a facebook can see your page and if you use facebook live bets like your front door. So you're opening your front door people can interact with you. You can interact with them. But they're still on your front porch so relationships don't typically get formed on the front porch get formed in the living room or in the kitchen inside of the house. And so you want to invite people inside of your house that what facebook groups do. Facebook groups are essentially like the living room or the kitchen. It's the area where conversation happens. So what we really try to do. Is we try to help. These various ministries developed a community based strategy. Which is leveraging all the products and tools surfaces that facebook offers in order to build and foster relationships between and among people known got to spearhead this opportunity at facebook with even applying for the job and she gets to it right in her hometown of gainesville florida. But before we get into that story you might be surprised to know that while notre is now a community building outspoken person of faith. She did not grow up in that environment at all. My mother and father had been married for thirteen years before she got pregnant with me and my mother actually didn't want children. Her father was a garbage collector. Mother was a housemaid and so they didn't have a lot of money. There was a lot of lack. She grew up in a home with a alone. Other brothers and sisters and i think she decided at an early age as she didn't want to have children because children were costly burden in so when she found out she pregnant with me she cried. She felt like i was wanted to end her life. Basically my father on the other hand was really excited because he had always wanted to be a dad but about halfway through her pregnancy. He started to have stomach pain. He went to the doctor to get a diagnosis and he was diagnosed with terminal stomach cancer. He was given six months to live. He fought very hard against that and he actually lived until two months. Shah my second birthday but it was shortly after the funeral that my mother ended up moving us to the other side of the country basically just following after a guy she barely knew but he promised that he would take care of horrid. Take care me. But that promise didn't come true after moving from new jersey to florida known as mom broke up with that guy and actually ended up in several different relationships when no was five. Her mom's boyfriend lee moved into their house. No no opens up about this in the audio version of her book. Success from the inside out. And just so you know this is where she shares graphic details about the trauma. She went through at the hands of lee lee didn't have job but he got a monthly disability check from the government for being born with cerebral palsy. She invited him to move in with us because she figured that. Instead of paying rent for an apartment he could contribute that money to her mortgage but the amount of money he got. Every month was apparently less than she expected because they regularly argued about. How little money. He contributed to their living expenses. They're fighting became a constant backdrop to my daily existence with her calling him names and him yelling back at her frustration threatening to leave she would back down after he told her he was leaving but her frustration with him continued to mount until it started boiling over at me. She would become so enraged with him that she would hit me for any minor infraction. If i left a toil on the floor didn't walk fast enough in a store or didn't make my bed. I never knew what set her off. So i became extra careful at home in an effort to not make her angry. But it didn't work. My attempts at perfection never measured up and the only thing i knew for sure was that when lee anger trigger. I became the verbal emotional and physical target one day shortly after i started kindergarten. Lee cornered me in the family room while mom was out running errands. He started tickling me under my arms and long. My sides making me laugh uncontrollably. I laughed so hard that i ended up on the floor. Where he kept tickling me with one hand while using his other arm to hold me down.
Climate change is our reality. Here's how we're taking action
"Hello everyone. I'm al gore founder and chairman of the climate reality project. This extraordinary moment of great challenge and great loss is obviously also a moment of great awakening and a great opportunity. The global pandemic structural and institutional racism with it's horrific violence the worsening impacts of the climate crisis all of these have accelerated the emergence of a new and widespread collective understanding of our connection to the natural world the consequences of ignoring science and our sacred obligation to build a just society for all the climate reality project. Trains thousands of climate leaders around the world and all one hundred ninety. Five nations advocate for a future humanity deserves. You're about to hear from four very different people who've gone through this week long training and hear how they've been inspired to act. I want to let them speak for themselves. Beginning with he minna. Loria jimena is working in central america to influence public policy and develop young later. She has given presentations on climate of thousands of people and has now created her own gio on her. Costa rica in out two thousand sixteen. Cheney vicks training nine change. I found ngo cold Bells my job has been focused on for me. Orthodox they both sation climate change supporting i see anti-taliban young eaters. Environmental hours somehow having more why and fifty presentations on climate crisis visuals raging personally more than three thousand one hundred people in. I am also proud of being part of eco savvy. Casulaties defy mistake nasseri. Nanna furman born in. Indonesia is a climate advocate extraordinaire and calls herself. A daughter of the rainforest is the muslim coordinator for green faith and co founder of the global muslim climate network. My name is nona man and i am a climate reality leaders in my life journey. I realized that behavior and consumption habits have contributed in environmental degradation and have resulted in global warming. However i believe that people grow spiritually through a strong relationship with the earth being born in the rainforest region of sumatra. I believe in our of our forests as the nejra solution to our climate crisis by giving indigenous peoples and traditional communities more rights to protect and manage the forest where they left now more than ever. It is time for us to look climate justice at the and center of our struggle. It's in the kaduna region of northern nigeria. They call gloria song. Boulos the queen of the climate crisis. Gloria has also founded a cocoon abased. Ngo that is focused on education empowerment and climate as the chemicals plans into training apply for eighty two thousand seventeen house me to be into bill capacity afterwards and they spend on my various action really very of some of my one of chief manages to children of his junior to get up to talk about climate change disclosures of climate change. Some walks have gone around eating me. See the planet. I mean planets scenes.
Australian Open 2021: Novak Djokovic and Daniil Medvedev Meet for the Title
"The crusade for the men's singles crown comes to an end tomorrow. And when the undisputed king of rod laver arena novak djokovic takes on russian number-one neil medvedev the world number one djokovic. Gunning for a history-making ninth championship in melbourne. While the russian authors seeking his twenty first consecutive win and first major title to preview the match. I'm joined by not edwards and commentator. Nick mcardle nick at the start of in fact two weeks before this we had you on the show podcast and you picked this matchup is that what led you to make that cole way back. Then let's say lucked out. Let's be honest that wasn't necessarily total. Total fluke made many wrong picks before but coming in you know we talk about the twenty one matches in a row for osaka. It's twenty in a row for daniil. Medvedev the non includes a win over novak djokovic close twenty twenty i think medvedev has really come into his own as someone expects himself not only to go deep. Atp events which we've seen the last couple of years but now to really do at at the grand slam so the drop laid out for him. I think he's played to each match to the level now. Can he bring an eight time. Grand slam australian open champ. Seventeen time major winner novak djokovic. Can he meet that level in a final thoughts really eighty s. What i love most is after medvedev bates itsy pass in that semi final is that he said stride away. All the pressure is on novak. He just load him up because he's plight fonsi before and never lost and it sorta. But i love how he just playfully. Put that out there and look. I think he'll come at. He'll show you'll be a little bit nervous. But i think he's just going to swing freely and that backhands i mean. Gosh they both have terrific backhands. But it's going to be like jock itch playing a twenty five year old vision of himself. It's going to be such an interesting match. I really count. Wait for the all similar. It can not just in court croff necessarily but as personalities both very eloquent and sort of personable somewhat chiming in front of the camera but they do have this white line fever as we know totally. I love those points that you've made and i think medvedeva's become more comfortable without. We sought the us open a couple years ago in the crowd. Really got against him and he used that as fuel which i think djokovic has have that in the past that in the past for sure for sure for jovic against rafa roger. He's felt that too. I really think that it is an opportunity for medvedev lake. Nona saying just swing for the fences and the scary thing is when he swings for the fences. Oftentimes the ball goes in. And i really think he's going to use that experience of beating novak in london last year at the atp finals. He'll really be geared up by that. Yeah i think so too. And i'm really looking forward to. I think the one area that novak can probably try to exploit daniels is that netplay. He's not very good. Let's let's be honest when it comes to netplay so if he can drawer him in a little bit and maybe draw that out. I think that puts pressure on daniel. Bit amid gets off to a flying start is going to be hard to stop.
McDonald's Is Bringing Back the McRib This December
"Time of year again. Nona. Thanksgiving, Not Christmas, not New Year's Eve. The McRib is coming back. USA Radio News Dan Iraqi serves the details. This time you won't need a website or have to find the normally rare menu item. McDonald's is bringing back its popular McRib sandwich nationwide on December 2nd. It's the first time the sandwiches had a large rollout since 2012 despite making nearly appearances since then. The group had always been a limited time release. Then on, Lee sent a certain markets. The concoction of pork, pickles, onions and barbecue sauce has been a popular pick from McDonald's Diner since it first appeared on many is in 1982. From the Ohio Valley USA Radio News Bureau. I'm Rocky for
Apple Confirms New App Store Policies on Updates
"Nona you gotTa do what we tell you to do, and in fact, that's what the next story is about Apple's new APP store guidelines. Were recently announced they made some changes they claimed that hey. Oh, we heard you. We know what we hear about this Google Stadia Slash X. Cloud. We know you want to do game streaming facebook wants to do game streaming like Wool Wolf. We'll do something for you and then I read the I read the details I'm like you didn't you didn't do anything whether they do they do anything. They said, okay listen they said it's cool. You can be on the platform. But every game that's available in your streaming APP must also be downloadable directly from the APP store and every game update must be submitted to apple individually before a company can stream it to its users
Dr. Larry Lauer on improving your mental skills
"Hello. Everyone welcome to the tennis. Dot Com. Podcast we are in Lake Nona at the US J. National Campus. I'm your host Nina. Panic joined by my co host. Irena Falconi. Hey guys. How's it going this episode? Special guest is Dr. Larry Lower Larry Welcome. Thanks for having me. I'm looking forward to it. Can you give us a brief little bio about who you are and what you do here? Well here I'm the mental skill specialist for player development. I work with are pros and our juniors Getting Ready for competition preparing mentally. I work with the coaches as well to get players ready. So my job is while the coaches work on the physical side is to work on the players mental side and make sure that they're prepared for competition as well as helping them deal with things that happened in their life. So it's not just about The player on the court but the player off the court as well the holistic approach. And it's my job to make sure that the players have what they need to compete in a happy way in a healthy way and a high functioning way. Have you always wanted to do this from the very beginning was this? You're calling well not since I was a baby but Certainly when I not not really no being not being facetious anymore being serious when I was younger I wanted to be a coach and civically a baseball coach. I wanted to play professional baseball. And that didn't work out We don't need to get into that and this podcast and since tennis sports play so I had decided I was going to be a coach and maybe actually go into commentating. On Television Live sports events. I was interested in and so went to Clarion University. My Hometown University and really wasn't that interested in the courses and communication and and the degree. So I I ran into the psychology doctor Dr Easily Krause who knew that I played sports and coaching as well and she said hey you know there's actually something called sports psychology. I was around nineteen years old. I'm like what does that was. Clueless had no idea. This is dating myself but this was like nineteen ninety-two right. What is that and she said? Well come check it out. I'm going to have a special course on sports psychology and so I took the course and love. It fell in love with it and at that point. I knew that's what I wanted to do. Because an answer questions I had about my own performances in terms of at times playing great and other times. Not Performing You know going in and going four for four and having a home run and three RB is in the next game striking out four times. And why does that happen and why are sometimes feel on and other times just way off? Why sometimes in the feudal my locked in and other times? I'M MAKING MISTAKES. Couldn't answer it for myself necessarily and. I wanted to know to help myself but also to help the players that I was coaching in Baseball Thomas. Coaching sixteen seventeen eighteen year old Baseball in Pennsylvania says I dug deeper into psychology and and Indus. Four psychology started answering the questions that I had so that that was really the start and then I was fortunate to be able to go to. Unc Greensboro with Dr Dangled Who's one of the best sports psychologist in the world and having worked with him? I really got a deep understanding of what it means to perform under pressure and in really the literature sports psychology and Research and application. And really that kind of set me up. That's that's a quick version of it for what I'm doing today. I know you said baseball is not the same as tennis. But you can relate to players who have struggled in their sport given your background playing sport but you can also maybe I know you work with professionals who maybe are successful. But you probably people that. Don't make it right absolutely so you can relate to. I WANNA get dark. Unless you can relate you can really yeah. You can relate to someone who is struggling with finding their identity after thinking they were. GonNa make it as a pro and not getting there right. So how did you? How did you work through that if you can talk about that and you know? Is there a formula for figuring yourself out after your dreams and your hopes kind of change that is deep this early? So that's a great question you know getting into my psyche this turning turning the tides on me. We're GONNA talk about Irena. We will okay good so much better about that well honestly schering dot. Me That was that was a process Having gone to college and and and walked onto play baseball and it didn't work out and I didn't really understand recruiting process and probably could played somewhere but ended up not playing coming from a small rural area and losing that dream. That point was really difficult. And so I'm I'm age. Nineteen you know and and not yet mature as I am now. I know it's hard to believe. But and and it took a while it was kind of a tailspin for a while I was. I wouldn't say I was depressed but I was pretty down about it and upset that this dream that I had didn't work out. And it took me some time to sort of regroup and certainly being in college and and having those experiences helped a lot where I was exposed to different things and ended up really being mentored in a in a wonderful way by Dr Crowson. In the field of psychology. And helping me take something that You know was a big disappointment in not being able to further my baseball career and actually turn it into something. We're now my mission is to help. Other people have what they need to be successful. Because I felt like maybe I missed out on some things for sure. I miss out on some things. I didn't understand the psychology. I didn't understand the process of figuring out how to get seen and recruited and go to college and play baseball. I didn't I don't understand any of that. I didn't have that opportunity so I wanna make sure that the players that I have a chance to come in contact with have what they need to reach their goals whether or not they do. It ends up being on them. But I don't WanNa be the reason that they don't get there and that's really important so that that changed my whole outlook on life but it took some soul searching and sometimes of just you know like what am I gonNa do you know. And there's no like easy way is not like okay. Do these three steps and it works out you need to. You need to go there. You need to think about what it is you want and realize that you know as my friend David Roth for. Who's ex-navy seal said that you have more than one mission in life the mission changes and for me that Dreamer. That mission changed at age. Nineteen where base? No baseball was no longer an option as as a player and I had to figure out what I was going to do and I found a new mission that was to help other athletes and help coaches. And that's something I truly love and enjoy and that's probably where a lot of the passion comes from because you know I hate to see people miss out on an opportunity at least have the chance to be successful. Speaking of helping people a lot of coaches talk about being able to see something special and a player that does eventually make it. Do you find that. It's easy to to to see that with With players that you work with are you able to see whether their mental skills are above and beyond someone that potentially does not make it? I think I can see the outliers. Pretty well. The people who just stand out but probably most people can one of the one of the things I think we fall. Prey to his as coaches is believing that we know. Who'S GONNA make it? And who's not and if you go back through history of looking at drafting or selection processes were not very good at determining and identifying. Who's GonNa make an WHO's not? It's really a numbers game to be honest. You you make enough choices. You'RE GONNA hit on somebody right so and not to others a lot of people out there that do this work and there's a lot of good people out there but it's really challenging to no no of someone can can do this at the highest level but what I will say is the thing that you look for. I is to someone have the passion to do tennis to do. The whatever given initiative sport activity it is and that is something that you you can see in person as you spend time with them I think it's a fallacy to think that you can go watch a player once or twice a tournament and thank. You have a figure it out you know. Thirteen fourteen year old player. Once you get to know someone I think you can start to understand better than this person may be has the building blocks of something pretty special but it needs to be now nurtured and developed and that in my mind you know there's not many players is not many. Serena's there's not many rodgers out there so but there's a lot of great players who developed through the pathway right and we wouldn't have known at thirteen but we know now
Oscar Picks of Wesley Morris from The New York Times
"Wesley Morris is here. Sometimes we fly him out. And we just put you on a whole bunch of podcasts. And we just wind you up and you go yeah Ping Pong Pinball pinball Wesley Yeah Oscars this this weekend yes I can never get through Oscars week without talking to you for at least ten minutes on what's going on. I'm not sure what happened to the Oscars because we have all these prohibitive favorites. There's no drama at all. Everyone thinks nineteen seventeen gonNA win. Isn't that wild. Everyone thinks Phoenix is GonNa win for the joker. Okay yeah that Renee Zellweger is GonNa win for Judy. which I five saying? No no no it made money Brad Pitt for once upon a time And then Laura dern for marriage story yes and those are Kinda done y- everyone the the. They're like huge huge favorites. It doesn't even make sense to bet on them. They're such huge favorites. You'd be like betting on. I don't know the the though Oklahoma City Thunder to beat some division. Three Kinda odd you the only one. That's kind of even best director. Sam Mendes as twenty five favorite. That's what is happening. Is it just. The Internet has made this that the consensus the census of thought now nobody goes against the grain and they just kind of follow the pack. What's happening here? I don't know I think I really feel like increasingly. There are just enough people. I don't know how voters individually or feeling about not pressure to pick a certain person person but the like doing the work to really choose the thing you love the most because every year you read those blind items that variety are Hollywood reporter daily beast. I do yeah And you read these Oscar voters say things and they all have. They all seem to have individual taste rate to hear these. I voters justify why they're voting. They're voting for you. You would think anything could win but that never happens will rarely happens right so I also also believe that in this particular year. I think there's a lot of politics going on like like movie. Industry politics rang. Explain plan so I don't think that people. I think there's a number of things happening. I think people don't like parasite that much. I think they see it. I think that was that was okay. I don't know how they could think that it actually got. It's like Robert Covington right now the NBA trade deadline. It's gotten hyped up too much now. People going wait a secondly. I think it's great it's awesome you're going to see it and you you end up going and you're like yeah it's good but you're not like Oh my God you're right I'm blown away. Yeah Yeah I can't speak but some people are leaving matt a Lake Nona. Nope they're leaving. They're probably just watching it at home but like they're they're watching this movie and they're just Kinda like well okay. I and I'm rich people poor people and I think that I mean I really think that they think it's that simple and I also think good. I really liked it. I didn't think it was like the best picture picture the year I why do but you do really. I was the case in a minute. I think it's just okay. The very simple thing is it takes a story. It takes an idea that I can't believe that in a hundred and you know twenty years of movies. Nobody's ever done before nobody's ever fought to turn the class. Divide into into a game in this particular way. Yeah and by the time they get to the sect by the time the father other by the time the father gets the job. So the third the third introduction of the the glomming onto this family. I'm just I was just laughing. I was is laughing with happiness at the brilliant to this idea. He's such a great of these nine movies and most like almost all of them are perfectly made. I would say that's the one that surprised me the most in terms of how tight and smart and and surprising it was the one thing I don't like goodbye it is the ending but in talking to people about who also sort of ending is anticlimactic but it also needs to be there none. Nobody could come up with a better trending. So this is the endings. Movie needs to have this elegiac sort of tragic fantasy ending. I liked once upon a time. The most I mean and as you know I also love them. We did a podcast about that on this podcast. Back in August we wait. Let's go back though we dated Rewatch ables. That's coming this week about about it already. Yeah well we do one Oscar movie every year O- of the nine area to get out on time. That seems fair. Yeah UH-HUH I think forward and for our versus Ferrari of those nine movies. That in little women I think are the most those are going to prove to be the most re watchable bowl of those. I'm so glad you said that. I feel like those have become the underrated. I'm not sure what happened. In each case moves. I thought little women was excellent. Women Soak so good the crazy thing about this year. Is there a two stores. I just wrote a story about this for the paper and the the the maddening thing about these nine movies please. And I'll get back to the into back to what people are saying about who they are. Why nine hundred seventeen is going to win for political reasons Movie movie industry political reasons. But I just read a piece about like how. This is the first year since they expanded the field ten. Move to up to ten movies that I have liked every single one of these movies more or less except for one and I don't like joker either. Yeah I don't like never really really align this year on what we didn't like I like that I didn't. I don't like joker I didn't have fun. I thought his performance was awesome. But I've seen a lot of movies that whereas the performance was awesome. But I'd necessarily loved the movie right I don't even I don't even Joaquin. Phoenix is one of my four favourite male actors. And this does not I feel like this is the first time he is looking for a character as like we are watching him do work mark. The I think it's done before you start shooting in this movie Part of it is. He is playing a person who's changing but he's always playing people who were undergoing some sort of ecological little change wasn't he's so much more interesting in the master. Oh everything he was doing. If you're going to start there then I'm like why did you give just give Antonio Banderas the Oscar. I mean that's where you're GONNA start but I'm saying like I don't know why I took this movie for people to like. Here's his Oscar. Movie when he was so good the pastor I mean the thing that was more interesting performance interesting thing that we should talk about. Is that like he is one of those people were. He's just a person who is owed right like it's he's been he's a set of a woman quote suffered so long just give him just give it to him not that he's begging for it because because when he took this part I was like oh well you know he clearly. He clearly understands with businesses going and I would never accuse him ever of like being being interested in getting any prizes for the work. He's doing but I also feel like there is a sense that he's been nominated three other times. I think maybe maybe four do you remember how lost to the master who who when they're You're talking keep your point going on anyway. I feel like if I sat here and thought about it. I'd come my with but I'm not going to remember those thirteen Two thousand thirteen. So we have. Is that Matthew mcconaughey. Now it's not McConnell. Now he lost a Daniel Day. Lewis Link Oh well that's that's just bad luck for Joaquin Phoenix. I remember having issue with that at the time you should have. I mean just just as a matter of history you should rostker you blaspheme. He's fine. He's fine I thought Athletes Ship
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"nona" Discussed on The Happy Hour with Jamie Ivey
"And so I think that is something that happens in the body of Christ. Is that when we are like you mentioned already when we're vulnerable with where we've been and what we've done and what's been done to us. And and we continue to point people to the Lord and continue to make Jesus shine brighter than all the other stuff. Lives are changed and so thank you for that okay so I always end. Yes with what you're reading and the three things you're loving okay. What do you have for me all right so what? I'm reading right now. which is going to probably everyone to? Death is called the value of nothing by by Raj Patel. Okay so it's a book. It's a book that's premised on this idea that we know the price of everything with the value of nothing and we therefore don't understand understand how important the the world that God created is because we've made everything a commodity so that's what I'm reading boring. It's like an the economics thing and they're like what the heck is wrong with you that so I'm reading that right now I just finished where CRAWDADS sing by. Delia it's so good so so good you read mostly fiction or nonfiction. So I try to read a book a week and I split up I split it up but listen read or listen I read read okay. You don't so crazy. I have not ever listening audiobook. I just recorded by own audio book and I heard two of my chapters. That's the first time I heard an audio book was mine. So it's you. Oh girl I gotta I gotTa do better. I read 'cause I feel like and this is not a day on anybody that audio book. I just feel like a word like the word so I can listen to fiction audio books because like a story radio show almost but nonfiction I gotta hold it. I gotTA touch underline. I gotta do all the things. Yeah so yeah reading those artists. I finished We're we're crediting and I'm reading The value of nothing. Where do you read mostly on planes? I try to so I try to read a chapter before I go to sleep at night. That's kind of high wind down instead of watching. TV or any of that. I just read. Yeah read books. Yes that's right now. What was the question three things? You're loving three things I'm loving. I'm loving running or you're are you like a legit like you run racist runner I I do run races I just finished. So here's what's crazy so i. I just finished my fourteenth half marathon now. I was in Sydney Australia in February. I was there about to speak something and it was a Saturday morning. My husband and I are. We were walking across the park and I saw what looked like race linage just like. Did you jump into rice so I registered for the race. That was happening the next day and I ran the half marathon and city Australia which was awesome. Did Not train for it. Your honor so I mean I mean needs should train but you should write grow because that race was I was I was almost fourteen is supposed to be thirteen point one miles fourteen miles And I didn't he had been running like five miles a few times. 'cause I was like what so loving running. I used to be a runner. I always feel like I need to say that because I'm I have all these issues with the fact that I can't run anymore. Oh No we can't you haven't really bad back some disc issues my lower back and so just. It's not good but I said to my husband they actually. I think I WANNA walk. Marathon it but listen of marathoner Hafer. Well I have I had A. I had a bucket list gold marathon. I'll never do it because I can't run then when I was like well maybe I could walk it and then my pride said that walking marathon would be not good that you'd be like a Weenie. Even though I had a woman on here who was amazing eight and she's a walker like it's a thing. Yeah and she was gawking marathon and I was so impressed with our lesser. So I gotta get over my own insecurities but anyhow I used to love running God bless us her. I know yeah you need to get back into if you decide to run that we know experiment with you. I I mean I try all the time in my back. goes out so then. My husband's mad at me. And you know he's like why are you running unless you so the other things with my second thing that I'm loving is and I don't know if this is like a regional enterprise regional franchise national but so planet smoothie has this smoothie. I I think I think I've seen this place before so okay. It's called the Dragon. Fruit LEMON SPLASH okay. It is like life in a cup it it is so good. Is that like a meal for you. Can't snack or can be. It can be I try to make it a meal because I was like ten dollars off me. That's just not that's the story of my last ten years. A there you go. It's just not cooperate. Neither I feel like I'm not like I'm becoming an adult for real life. These last ten pounds so the Dragon Fruit Lemon splash. That don't like to drink meals. Yeah like to sit down and I like I like food. Yeah so like my husband and one of my sons. So let's go get smoothies dinner. And I'm like that's the weirdest thing I've ever heard my entire life. Let's have a meal meal shoe real okay smell so smoothie so running smoothie I think the third thing I'm living right now and see I don't watch a lot of TV. But the one thing that I watch marathon style back to back to back is chopped on food network. Oh Girl Yeah. We love that at our house else that show. I literally like I'm watching the Super Bowl like I get so excited like my heart races. Like Oh God you like to cook as I love to cook but I don't get to cook much because I'm traveling so much but That show it is. It's everything to me. I love it when your home. Would you want to be in the kitchen cooking. When I'm home we primarily either go out or not the visual husband? Cook Not really gone. How are they eating? My husband has picks up so okay but I do have these visions where I'm like. I'm going to make so what I was doing at one point As I had this routine going pretty well where I try to work out today so I run in the morning work out twice a day. Yeah I try to so I I run in the morning and you read every day. Okay and you're traveling girl. I need to get some smoothies in my life. I think that's the problem but I would go to the gym and then like literally really whole foods is right across the street from the gym. I would stop at whole foods I would grab dinner. That would head home. Pick up my boys and I cook and I just got off my regimen and we just been going like tropical or it's it's hard. It's so hard we have those meals delivered to our house. Sometimes your book them. That's thing yeah still have to cook them. But I have kids at actually like cooking right now. Oh nine some of them will cook so it's great. It's right. Yeah Yeah okay no no. I love everything in our conversation today and I can't wait first quarter episode tomorrow for better together the other which I don't even know when it's going to air probably around the same time as this show area so that'll be fun. Thank you so much for coming on happy hour. Thanks for having me Jamie friends. Do not forget to get those happy hour live tickets. They're on sale right now. Okay no no. She overcame unimaginable childhood trauma. Emma you guys. I consider it an incredible privilege that she would share with us the message of forgiveness and faith to walk in the free power. God's grace and that is all her story is I. I was moved so many times but the moment stuck with me. Is this number one. Is that a child. Invited her to church and that was the turning point in her meeting. God praise God for that sixth grader and praise. Praise God for her parents for loving God inviting known. A- I love when I hear stories like that because it is such a reminder that we have such an opportunity to show people guy even just inviting them to Church church also known as moms that she could not go to church anymore she knew that it would be okay but she had God's word in a relationship with him I'm encouraged by known as space as a twelve year old and I'm inspired appeared at her faith today as she navigates a complex arena of working in and among social media. I hope that you will consider grabbing a copy of known as new book. It's called success from the inside out. Howard to rise is from the past to a fulfilling future? It's available now wherever books are sold. And there's Lincoln our webpage on the show notes. If you want an easier way to find it today. Show was edited by Chris with taper and the music was developed for the show by Matt. Graham show notes are written by ox lockers. And the whole thing is organized by Lindsey Sweeney. Okay next week. We have a special edition of the happier. It's actually the book or the anniversary of when my book if you only knew my unlikely and unavoidable story becoming free. It's the anniversary of the week that it released. It came out in two thousand doesn't eighteen and it's basically my story. It's my story telling you how I found freedom in the midst of shame how I found freedom in the midst of broken how God has intervened seen in my life and now he has made me confident in who I am in him. That's what my book is about. And so when the book release we have some special edition podcasts and we had some friends of mine. Join me and talk about their stories. What are the stories in their life that they felt? If people knew this about me they would think different and so next week we have two incredible stories to share with you. And you're going to love them guys enjoy your week. Share the show with the girlfriend and have a happy hour. The friend.
"nona" Discussed on The Happy Hour with Jamie Ivey
"That's the person I want to be like. Oh I just I've learned that for my own spiritual and mental wellbeing like just stop comparing yourself to other people I think with social media which this is a whole nother commerce. It's a whole show that we won't go there but I've had to learn to. I'm forty one and still struggle with some of those things. I put up kind of like this kind of guardrail around my life. Whereas ifs chiefs if I'm on Social Media and I'm envious or discontent because of something I see? That's not their fault. Oh yeah that's not anything wrong. They can do all that but it's my heart. I need it to guard and so I have followed people that I know in real life because I just need a break I just need a moment yeah and there's nothing wrong with that because I think we're responsible for our own hearts. Take care of it. I will tell you part of it too though. Is We curate. What other people see as opposed to being honest so what what happens is we create this image of perfection? Like oh my gosh look at this incredible trip on these incredible people. I met look at this incredible place. My husband's took me to and suddenly people like like Dang you have a perfect life but they don't see that you just got out of the hospital. They don't see that you know that you had your husband. Yeah the fight you or the fact that your car. That was amazing. Scar represented see kids acting a fool. Exactly and that's why I literally just a couple of days ago I started intentionally doing posts that I'm just calling my transparent that moment where I'm just being honest with people about where Matt what I'm struggling with because I've had people say to me like Oh my God i would love your life and I'm like okay. You don't know the the whole of it. Yeah but the reason you don't know the whole of it is because I don't tell the home of it. Yeah and so I think some of what we have to do is women. It's just be transparent with each other and be honest with each other and once we I see that look no your life is imperfect. Life isn't perfect then. We can have more compassionate empathy. I always say people come in and say they probably say to us. Well they're always like I feel like we're best best friends my best friend my best friend. I know so much about you and I always say to them. Always I say you only know what I tell you You only know what I tell you. Yeah and so. We can't be friends and if we're friends in real life you'll know a lot more than you know just by volunteers from media like people know a a couple more questions for you Just from your whole conversation and thank you for sharing your story. Because I know I'm sure that there are some hardness to it but I also see the redemption of guy and you can say look at how. Oh Good God is in this A couple of questions number one. Have you reconciled with your mom. I tried Many many many times of the years I tried and it has never worked And so the thing about reconciliation and to me this is a biblical principle is. There's two sides to the coin. There's forgiveness and then there's also repentance and forgiveness give nece when we're in a situation where we were offended. That is our responsibility. Not because the other person deserved it but honestly because we deserve peace and as long as we hold the other person responsible ensemble for what they did then we will not have peace. So there's a forgiveness side of it when we've been offended the repentance side of the coin though is equally important for reconciliation which is the recognition that I messed. Stop hurt you I should. I have done that. Will you forgive me. I'm sorry for what I did. That piece has never happened in our relationship As a matter of fact when I had the conversation with my mom and I tried to explain how it hurt me and how the situation hurt me. She said to me well. It wouldn't have happened if you have kept your legs closed that response. Yes and the way that you're looking right now is exactly how I looked that you were five. Yeah and I. It doesn't matter. I know I mean five is awful but it doesn't matter. Yeah but I think because in her mind and honestly that was just a reactive. Her guilt is when we are so Guilty we we don't even want to accept responsibility so I think that's where she was so I realized I couldn't reconcile with her because she's so deep in her guilt that she can't even repent for what she did So for my own health for the health of my family for the safety of my family we actually are not in fellowship. We don't communicate at all She's met my boys. I think a couple of times times but my husband now realizes it was all because my husband set it up and I told him I said honey. We're not at a healthy place. She's not helpless. Don't do it what he did because he couldn't believe that it was is that bad and so now he believes it and he wanted the best. You want me. Yeah so unfortunately. No I pray for her every single day my prayers that she has an authentic encounter with Jesus and the truth is if she needed me. If I ever found out she needed me would be right there because I I don't hold any bitterness in my heart toward her. The reality is what happened was horrible and it was was painful and is still less painful to think about. But I wouldn't change it because now I mean the reality is I talk to people all the time. I've shared my story in front of thousands of people in every single time. I do you people come up to me and say that same thing happened to me and I've never told anyone and so if I can be a voice for people who are holding onto the shame of what happened to them. I am more then happy to do that. And I thank God because I can speak with freedom now whereas I know there are many people who are like you know what I could never do what you do. I could never tell anybody what happened to me. And I believe that there is just freedom in light and you're taking Something so awful and pointing people to the Lord which is difficult and like you said a lot of people? We'll have the same experience and don't feel the freedom to do that But what you're doing is you're offering that same freedom better people and I go back to the conversation about the tech community not being very reface. Friendly I had a scenario where I shared my story internally and a colleague asked me to go to dinner and I just thought it was just Kinda hang out and fellowship and she said to me she said you know while I'm atheist I don't I don't believe in God. She was like but I was raped when I was younger. And I've never. I've never been able to reconcile it and I look at you and I see that you just seem seem so happy and you seem so free and I need to know. How can I get to that place in? That became an opportunity for ministry you know. So that's why as crazy. Here's a situation was. I'm so grateful where I'm at now because you know God is using it as a tool to minister to other people. Hey last question. You're very successful. You've been through a lot you you were super honest about crying in the hotel room going. Is this it like is. I'm doing these amazing things but is this it but you're still successful. It's not like that success zest one away. What do you do now to make sure that your heart is not chasing the success in your heart is chasing what God wants for you? Oh that's such a good question. Yeah I seek God's face every single morning every single morning and my prayer we used to be a time where I had a A laugh about it now but like I had a list of things things I wanted to accomplish by the time I was thirty to thirty five but that does not surprise me about you by the way. I had a checklist it was like a it was like it was like a spreadsheet like just ridiculous but I had this like list of things I wanted to do and places. I wanted to go when people I wanted to meet and I wanted to be on and all this stuff and I just I got rid of it because you don't have it anymore. I don't have it anymore. Because I'm like Lord all I want is what you want for me. No more no less if that is as God has blessed me we now with this kind of global platform. If that's what you want for me Lord than I want to steward that to the best of my ability but the moment you decide that that's no longer what you want from me. I will walk away and I will be okay Every single morning. I seek defaced. Guide and my prayer truly is Lord. I want to serve you with as much passion in notoriety as I serve you anonymity I don't I don't want to be this happens especially you. You may or may not have experienced this but sometimes we we become a Christian famous by that time. The vein is saying we can create a famous where people like know who you are. And I think you're so full of guide and then they don't have any idea idea that that's just a a show. They have no idea that you spend no time with God that you don't study the Bible that you're just you're gifted speaker that's it and you're just speaking the Bible. I don't WanNa be data like I want. I want to know God authentically and I want him to know me like the thing that that scares me to. Death is when Jesus said they're they're going to be so many people are going to stand before him. It'd be like look at all this stuff we did look at this. And he's going to be like for me you that we're going to quickly. I don't WANNA be that I. I want him to know me. And so that's how I stay humble and that's how I stay. Focused is every single day. Lord all I want is what you want from me. Nothing more nothing less. I don't have any tenure planned and five year plan. I don't have a vision board. I don't have a strategy. It's like all right Lord like with my book. I didn't have a book agent. I didn't have. I wasn't shopping. It around like it wasn't a part of of a plan it just happened and that's how I wanna live my life is I want God to get all the glory for everything that I do. It's no longer about me and oh I check check this box on my what I WANNA do by the time forty list like no I just want to honor God and whatever that looks like is what it looks like. I love it so much. I'm so glad that I have this conversation with you. I'm excited for your book for all the things. God's doing in your life and I'm just really excited and happy to know you happy. Thank you for three story I know that that is going to minister to a lot of women and not even the thing I love about this. Show the happy hour is I'll have someone on. And they'll share a story like you shared and I guarantee you some listen email or their cinna post or send us a message and say. That didn't exactly happen to me. What happened to her but I understand how she feels and it was an encouragement Kirkman?.
"nona" Discussed on The Happy Hour with Jamie Ivey
"Hope for the first time you're saying I want this father. I want this protection. I want all of these things. But you're still in the same house. So will you still have the same mom. I'm assuming the same live in boyfriend. So what how does your personal life adjust to what's happening in your heart It was it was a challenge for sure but it was really a challenge. As a matter of fact at one point. My mother kicked me out of the House. Because I think I didn't wash the dishes or something and she just got really angry so she kicked out of the House and I was no more than maybe twelve or thirteen. So it wasn't long after I joined the church but She kicked me out. I had nowhere to go and so I went to the home of a family that lived like right next door to the church. It was like in a trailer like right next to the church and just so happened that the mother was there and she took me in and they let me stay with them for about a month a month. Your mom keeps you out for a month. Yeah and here's the here's the clincher. My mother came to my school. Had them call me out of class and then took me outside and yelled at me in custody out and told me that it was disrespectful for me to not have called her told her where I was I was like you kicked me out. And she was like that doesn't mean anything. You should still call me so again that meant as your mom's still alive. She is okay. She is looking back though. Do you see mental illness ABS. Okay Oh yeah it feels as though we've got some mental illness going on there was maybe diagnosed an Yeah meant unmedicated all those things. Your Mama Christian. I don't know okay I don't know okay. You can tell me more so you live with the family for a month. Live with him for a month and when she pulled me out of class and she was really upset with me. She told me that I had to leave their house and she said I had to go back home and then I could not go to my church anymore and so she made me start listening to that church and so that was the real test because now now I'm in a situation where I don't even have the church as a support so so I literally had to rely on the word of God like fully rely on the word of God. You're a teenager. Yeah I mean yeah prayer a lot of hard things in teenage life. Oh man and then we're going to ask you to live in an abusive home and rely on the Lord. That is a hard task at hand. You know what I what I started to do and talk about this in my book. Is I think that a lot of time. We live our lives either up or down to people's expectations and so the teachers who said I was a bad child that I had a learning disability. I began to live live down to their expectations. Because I was like well. This is what you think of me so I'll just make a true. After I came into faith and I really understood who got it created to me. I wanted to live up to that expectation and so I started to do my work. I was respectful in class and got rewarded for that. Is Your life chain. Police AL's making really good grades. I got to be selected for different leadership roles but see what it birthed in me and I realize is in hindsight is kind of like the pendulum swung a different direction to where On the one hand what I was doing wing was was negative and toxic on the other end of the continuum it was positive toxic. Okay and so. I- striding striving striving ambition for pleasing. I think people for affirmation like I wanted to get the gold star like I came this person that I just wanted everybody to like me and I wanted to be the star and so hello which is hard to live up to as well? It is very hard to live up to. Yeah and so I- absence of my church. I really began to try to be the star student and so I got in my mind that I was going to college. I was going to get a full scholarship. I was GonNa leave the House and never come back that that was your out that was my yep yep and so I I did that and I. I got the grades. I was on every leadership list. I was an honor roll. I was doing all these things I was on Varsity tennis. I was doing all this stuff and I was also deeply insecure secure. I didn't know how to deal with that. I didn't know what to even call it but I was very very insecure in so I assumed that all the things I accomplished where my value and I really took those things as a proxy for. Yes no no you matter because look at all that you did as opposed to understand any no you matter because of who you are because of who God lot created you to be. I wasn't quite there yet. It's so interesting that you went to the completely other side. Yeah you know what I mean it. It's interesting to me to see that you were on the other side ride where you had no value. Yeah and then you flip and said I'll create my own value. Yeah and I'll do whatever this. Yeah the way that I look at it. Is People respond to trauma differently friendly so some people respond to trauma By what I call exploding and those are the people who are like drama follows them wherever they go. They're always creating strife they're always always creating confusion the reason why they're doing it it's not because they're crazy people. It's because something happened to them that they haven't been able to process some people they They explode on the other end of the continuum. Mr People who implode and so those are people who something has happened to them and now they're striving for perfection. Their striving for validation. They need they. Constantly constantly need people to affirm them in order to feel like they matter and when they don't get that then they start. Some people have suicidal thoughts and then they withdraw from the public. And they're like. Oh my gosh I suck. I'm horrible on this that So I think people respond to trauma in in those various ways and and along the continuum. Yeah but I did. I went from kind of exploding imploding and for a long time even into my career. I will still imploding because I was trying to use position. Titles and accomplishments in trophies and awards to WHO Validate that I matter saying. Yeah but as an adult we knew how to disguise on better. Worse Yeah we we disguise okay so you go off to college. Did the abuse stop before. Then it did so It ended I would say probably late middle school okay is what it ended so hybrid. He stuff yeah I think in high school is when it really ended High School was was a pretty good experience. Like I was top of my class. I was an all leadership leadership organizations. I was like class president. I was doing all this stuff. What's interesting though is as as much as I was doing? I was doing it alone because my mom like she didn't come to my games is she wasn't at my award ceremonies. I was selected to give the commencement speech at my high school graduation. She threatened not to come. She eventually came and she brought the guy with her which it was crazy. I was dealing with dual life. Where on the one hand? I was externally successful person who everybody was like. Oh my gosh look at all that you're doing and then at home it was just nobody cares. Nobody cares literally nobody cares. Nobody cares nobody knows and so we created this like fractured identity. Where the people who I wanted Ed to matter to like my wanted to matters my mom didn't really care and the people who frankly I didn't care if they liked him I was glad they did? But those are the people who were like. You're the best threw the bomb. You're awesome you're this and so I think. Having that sense of lack of purpose it did create some toxic ambition in me because it was like. Okay well why can't get what I want to get it from the person I want to get it from but I'm just GonNa do as much as I can to get it from all these other people but that never sustained. It doesn't satisfy the end so you go to college. You get your Masters Search Your Bachelors. You start working. When did you start to realize that this is not sustaining me so I will tell you the exact moment So I started off like I said. The property and casualty insurance industry ended up becoming executive very early so like a year in this leadership team with people who were like my parents age could be my parents and That was an incredible experience. Moved up in the organization that I moved over to the municipal utility company was an incredible experience. I got a lot of recognition for that. Then I moved into this alternative schools network. Awesome experience I started working in Congress. I started working with the Obama Administration because I was trying to get money for the organization but my name started to Be recognized in a lot of policy circles and so I was invited to all these exclusive events. I was at the White House multiple times a month for different things. And I'll never forget this one time I was the White House I was at a reception. president was there for Sleigh. was there President Obama Yeah it was a room about maybe a hundred of the most powerful people in in the country. My literally looked around the room and I was like how the heck did I end up here And I thought to myself I was like man. This is this what success is to be in a room filled with people who are incredibly powerful. Who Know of you but don't really know you? You know like is this success and I went back to my hotel that night I just cried aide. I cried so hard because as we do in situations like that I took pictures and I posted on social media. Oh Look Y'all of where I'm at and people were like ooh look at you that's cool. I felt completely empty and I was like God I was like. I don't WanNa live my life like this where I'm I'm taking pictures of moments that aren't fulfilling to me. I mean there are amazing and people would love to be here and people some people would kill to be here and I'm just like whatever because it can't sustain avoid and so I prayed that night I was like Lord. You'RE GONNA have to show me. What is that I need to be doing because this can be and that I think is where the message of my book originated from was realizing that you can have all the trappings of success? You can have the house the car the clothes you can have all that and just be trapped in success to where you're like this doesn't matter it really doesn't matter. I don't wake up every day excited fighting about Oh after a while it was like. Ram going yeah. You know another day. It's just another day So I needed God to really help me understand. And how do you build a success that fills instead of a success that empties. Because I was very happy which you know it makes me think about an. I love this message. It's a lot of what is in my next book as well which I just love. How God does that? He's birthing something and women right now. It's it's really really amazing. I have so many friends who were speaking so passionate about this including you and I'm just like yes. I love this message but it makes me think and wonder that this chasing of success. Most oftentimes women are chasing something that someone else has so. Oh yeah that they think is what they needed they deserve when I'm screaming to women. You have what's right in front of you is where God has placed you his birch you for this moment for this place for you to serve him yet. You're and you're wasting your time thinking that something else is going to fulfill that And so I think it's I think that this this is a moment in time. Where women are you know my shows mostly for women so speak to him and we're there kind of having to make these evaluations of? Am I chasing something. That's not even mine. Yeah and that can't sustain me and can't fulfill me and unfortunately you probably tested this. Sometimes you learn that by sitting in your hotel room crying going. This cannot doesn't work in for me right why I I think the grace in the situation that I see is that happened to me when I was like thirty two. There's some people that that happens to when they're sixty two she right to eighty two so i. I'm grateful that God let me understand that early verses spinning my entire life on this hamster wheel of trying to get more and more and more and on the other side of more is just less fulfillment I. I had to discover that pretty early on on and I think the other the other challenge for us especially as women and you raise it. Is this idea of comparison. I think a lot of the reason why we're dissatisfied has nothing to do with our light and everything to do with the life where comparing life do It's like I. I'm just satisfied with my marriage because look at what her husband for her. I'm dissatisfied with my job because look the promotion. My friend just got. I'm dissatisfied with my car because my cousin who's got a new car and so we have to understand the power of contentment. The Bible says that that is where great great gainers contentment is the ability to live your life in the moment that you're in and be grateful for it not because you're waiting on the next thing but because because you have what you have right now and I think discovering that has been the saving grace for me like I and this is in full transparency. Like you'll notice on my social media. I don't follow a a lot of people like I know people who follow tens of thousands of people. I don't follow a lot of people and the reason for that is i. Don't ever want to use another person's life as a proxy for my value and so there are a lot of celebrities. I don't follow a lot of influencers. I don't follow just because I don't want to see the picture of the person that you bought..
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"nona" Discussed on The Happy Hour with Jamie Ivey
"I'm down and I. I felt so liberated then like I just remember feeling so grateful and so excited for you. Yeah and then for her to bring bring him back like it just communicated to me that he mattered more to her than I did and so did that you know I think my mom does really had her own insecurity. Okay I I can't even imagine being a mother myself I cannot imagine by doing that To my child so I can only think that she had some insecurities within in her but Yes so she brought him back and they're fighting just got worse and he started to abuse me again when he got back of course now had this licensed to do it and when I was around nine I tried to commit suicide because I I really felt like there was no other way out I was watching a talk talk show and they were talking about the dangers of hidden dangers in the household. And they were talking about A toddler who died because at TV landed on him. He pulled over a dresser and there was another one that was talking about a kid who drank bleach and he died from poisoning or something and so I went into the laundry room and I was looking for bleach but we didn't have any all. We had was laundry detergent until I got a couple of it. Force it down and I thought it was going to kill me but it actually just ended up making me throw up all night and so I- survived that but the AB- Houston stop. Either you tell your mom what that attempt was no does she know you had drank laundry. Traditional she heard me throwing up but it wasn't no she was basically she. You thought I had over eight but she was just like. Oh that's what you get on my food. And so she was very there was just no compassion there at all But I think between her and him and the abuse just continuing I became extremely Became really belligerents at school at a young age so I got labeled as a problem child. The teachers assume assume that I was bad. They said I had a learning disability. They would punish me constantly and Nobody ever asked me why I was behaving that way. And that's part of the reason. Why the the role that I had at the alternative school is going to say so like 'cause I remember acting out and it really was a cry for help like I just did not know how to process what was happening and so I was acting out because because of that and there were these girls that I was serving at that school and you know at the various schools? There's about twenty of them and I was like these gross need help and they need hope I saw in them myself health But the teachers just wrote me off they were like Oh. She's just a bad kid and I didn't grow up in a Christian home so like I didn't know about Guide Bible. Jesus never went to church. None of that. Ah So I truly felt no hope at all and so at the age of eleven I tried to call myself again because it was just constantly mounting and getting labeled with all these Titles being a bad kid and so like I even have. You can kind of see the faint scar on my left wrist Own I signed this my wrists I tried to just slip both of them but It didn't didn't didn't work. I missed my artery by like micrometres at this point. Does your mom no no. I never told her I never told because I I didn't see the point. I was like choosing using here. Yeah I was like you. Don't you don't care so there's nothing to say. Like oh mom when I told her what he was doing to me she brought him back anyway so I was like. There's no point but it was shortly after that second suicide attempt that didn't work. Thank you Lord that One of my classmates in the sixth grade. She invited me to go to church with her and going to make me cry. I didn't know what church was us. Like truly did not know which was I thought we were. Just GonNa go hang out like play games. I go and ended up going with turn her mom to this church and when we walked in people were just so happy to see me and they just hugged me and loved on me and it was so bizarre it was like these people they are but they were more loving to me than I had ever experienced in my whole life and the very first time I ever heard preached the Pastor said God is a father to the fatherless and I was like did that click for you absolutely because I used to. I remember vividly cry myself to sleep so many nights wishing my father was alive. Like really saying Daddy. If you were here this wouldn't be happening to me. Daddy why did you leave me like just so in torment. has you needed someone to save you. I did I did and I felt like my father had lived lived that he would have done it. I mean the your life would have been different. Yeah has your dad. Yeah cancer I know but to hear someone say God as a father to the fatherless that immediately picked my piqued my interest. I and I asked my friend's mother I said Hey. Can I take one of those books home. Because I knew the pastor was reading out of that Bible. You didn't know what it was it was I just knew it was a book. Because when he gave the passage everybody opened and so she showed me. What the passage was? Can I take this home so I took it home and began to just read the Bible for myself. I didn't quite understand it because it I was like I think a King James version and it was like the shouts But it just spoke to me and there was an interest in my heart. I need to know who this God is because I want my father and so that became a turning point where you know now. I'm in this community of people who love God who loved me. I don't know why they you love me. And I got plugged into the youth group there and literally began to study the Bible with this group of my peers and understood. Finally finally that I was fearfully and wonderfully made that I was made on purpose that I was not an accident that I was not on wanted that I actually had a father in heaven. Who knew the hairs on my head? Like that changed my entire concept of my value and the abused didn't end right. Then it debuts did did not end. That didn't end immediately but I I was. I was at a place where I finally had a sense of a potential future and a hope that I didn't have have before so God literally saved me either. Just save my soul. That was part of it He saved my life. He saved my purpose. He saved my identity like he redeemed my story at that moment I Get to talk to a lot of women in my job and I love it so much and the stories that really move me so much watch. It doesn't have anything to do with the trauma but what moved me so much is when I hear women say that. They read God's Word or they went to church and hurt something for the first this time and they had never known. And it's like we read in the Bible like the scales came off there early and it moves me because I as someone who's Greenwich my whole life. I I can get a sometimes a little bit jaded. The gods still does that to people who've never heard his name yet. They hear his name in the changes just their life and so I love your story. It gets me emotional too because it reminds me of how how grant and how amazing how how true God's Word Word is because it says it pierces the soul. It appears as the heart and dot. Your Story Yeah Yeah I I've often said that I feel like God's protection action was around me even in the midst of me being abused even the midst of me being violated because at the time when I wanted to end my life God said said no and I. I didn't know that was guy. Holy See that now God said no like I have a greater purpose. Integrator Plan for you. You're going to be sitting day with Jamie Ivy and you're going to be talking about this and so I can't let you in July because there are people who need to know that there is hope in my word there is hoping in God God is sovereign. I mean he's he's just so his grace thing I like to say is His grace reaches deeper than our deepest pain you know and so I I will living testimony of that and I'm just so so grateful to be able to be talking about this now because I tell you I think about back then. I did not envision a future. We'll probably see pass the next day at all. And that's why I like to to tell people like listen. If you feel like you're in the darkest part of your life you feel like there's no deeper place you can go. Guess what what you're right the only place you can go up now. That's true no matter how dark it is. There is hope there is light. And I'm a testimony to that like when I thought that my life wasn't worth living God gave me a reason to live. 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"nona" Discussed on News 96.5 WDBO
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"nona" Discussed on The Tennis.com Podcast
"For coming on campus. Yeah. Thanks events, come on gas. All right. So we heard from can't Canir. And I think the most interesting things about that interview is the fact that he's transfers transplanting life to lake no nine Orlando because the US TA decide to open this massive facility here, and everyone kind of had to migrate Irena moved here as well. As a new resident of known a-. Homeowner. So what to just be like art, and I'm gonna move like, no, no. So few years ago before I moved here, I was in Jupiter Florida living with my parents, actually, and I was heading to Boca Raton every single day to train, and it was a heck of a drive, and I found out that everybody was moving over to Orlando or lake Nona rather. And if someone would have told me that I was moving to Orlando and renting a place there, and you know, making my residents there, I I probably would have laughed in their face. But to be honest, it's been one of the smoothest transitions. I think I've ever had at the time lake Nona was actually pretty dead. I know four years ago. I mean, people still talk to me to this day. They're like, oh my God. It used to be just a one lane road. Like there was nothing around. And there's so many things that are coming up. There's a huge town center that is being built to formula and square foot pretty much masterpiece. They're creating here. And it's just such a good vibe. I think it's been a great thing. The fact that they were able to have this land gifted to them and built one hundred courts, it's great because it really is. I think making it more community based and it's just more people are playing tennis. And that's really what the USA wants. Right. It's weird to think that there was nothing here years ago. And we think of Orlando it's like DisneyWorld Universal Studios. Harry potter. I just don't think tennis because the US team moved here and just kind of out of nothing at one hundred cords impeccable facility for pros for college players for juniors for people starting out. I mean, it's just turned into this. It'll be I mean, it's become a mecca and the fact that pros like all body in and we're like, hey, we're gonna move and buy houses in this little suburb area called lake Nona is just wild Tim Agean. But they pictured it, and they made it happen. And. It's it's successful already because people are all here, and they're all working together, which is kind of the point right? You wanna Merican training with Americans and pushing each other to create the next big grand, slam champions. It kinda makes sense. So you see as actually extremely open to inviting other players I know last year during the Miami tournament in between the Miami and Charleston tournament there were a few girls that actually came to train here, they weren't American. But because they knew someone that was training there. I think marina wreckage and Mandy Minella Bethany Matic, obviously, she trains and Phoenix. But there was a little window between Miami and Charleston. So they were all like, hey, let's go train at UCA and they loved it. I think it's a great place. Whether or not you're American or not especially for the pros. I mean, there's Austrailia girls that were here earlier this year, right before the Europe swing and was at Cabrera actually she stayed with me, and she loves it here too. Just such a great spot. You really don't need anything. Else as a tennis player, I know not saying that super regimented and all you're doing playing tennis twenty four seven. But there is a lot to do. They just opened up Dr shack, which is on the same variety as top goal and the mall is not far away. You know, you have every single store that you can possibly imagine. So they really made it into a perfect little living town, and the fact that the airport so close that is just so huge. I mean, there's nothing worse than getting off a plane and having to drive an hour plus to get somewhere, and it's literally ten minutes away. So that's such a huge advantage. And other thing that can't talks about earliest I talked about to him about how he's freshly ranked..
Ariana Grande tells Camila Cabello just how painful her pony tail is
"Nona. So Camila Cabello was that something at the MTV EMA's. And she tweeted he said, I just did a high ponytail for the first time. It is literally pulling on my brain. It's so painful, how do you do it areana day? That's funny Ariana GRANDE Dame replied, well, you actually have here. So that prob probably makes it a little more painful. Nah, I'm in constant pain. Always. And I just don't care at all. Yeah. She said you have here. First of all now, does that mean that her point he's clip on? It's probably all extensions or something, you know. Oh
"nona" Discussed on Lights, Camera, Podcast
"Even his lake nona conic movies again there's that word again put it in the door putting the jar putting a jar baby even the movies like liar liar which some might say is like one of his better roles but me i so she ate the big tent pole jim carrey movies with the mask obviously ace ventura dumb and dumber jim jim carey was a cultural phenomenon in nineteen ninety four nineteen ninetyfive in parts of nineteen ninety six he was the biggest actor in the world he probably was the highest paid actor in the world and i think he just has the better filmography to work with over adam sandler even though m sandler i would probably take happy gilmore over any of jim carrey's movies i think if you look at the breadth of jim carrey's work yeah happy gilmore's awesome dude heavy gilmore is awesome happy gilmore define the jonah of tbs movies that you just scroll through and put on sunday at three o'clock when you're hung over us watch it when it's on i think i'd watch as fron sure over billy madison the choice i think i think with jim carey compared to adam sandler especially their nineties worker whatever you wanna put it in i think that jim carey's works a lot more rewatch able than any venom sandler's work it's a little less dated in some work i dunno classic funny i reward them with any jim carey movie i'll still laugh it's not really the same with adam sandler movies though now if you ask me who had rather get a beer with that definitely adam sandler i feel like adam sandler adam sandler would be the more fun guide like sit there and shoot the shit with.
"nona" Discussed on VIBES-LIVE
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"nona" Discussed on 103.5 KISS FM
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"nona" Discussed on Athletico Mince
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"nona" Discussed on WIBC 93.1FM
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"nona" Discussed on KQED Radio
"Colin saying how you madam a i did and and he said hey i'm a big fan we've you know i've i've been buying your stuff since new guy started selling stuff you ever done in the movie titles and lake nona really he's like will love to have you come out doing this mission impossible movie so of course rich and i and my partner we we jump on a plane and we're in paramount you were at being there and we get into the we get in the editing room and i think there may be five minutes seven tubs and teaches like guys this is this has been amazing but my wife just called she's and leave i gotta go and you know unthinking is this the smooth way that you can't argue about killing a meeting so we had a boy what what was the big you're a fair demand these work but what was the cross over the that formed than forged the friendship it's an amazing thing house industries the name of it the work that you guys do there is an aura to the place and the group and the work is so extraordinary and and the if there was something about at the just spoke to me like any artists work night speak to any of us and the idea that you can reach out and then contact people it just it it felt like we work on this thing maybe there's an opportunity in the.
"nona" Discussed on KTRH
"That fenick lake nona and of course not or do you yeah you would think that that will go part and parcel of with their report that trump tower was wire if all manafort who had a residence in that power and instead of saying he had previously reported and actually mocked the president for even insinuating that trump tower was wiretapped and we retract uh those those mockery is and we apologise for previous reporting and saying that the president was wrong and factually inaccurate on that i have yet eager at and sean as you know there was no hugging away we are going to here but the bottom line is what they've been saying in the narrative they said they said trump's against baresi theorist anybody anybody that thinks there was any wiretapping you people are paranoid you people are obsessed you people have no factual reporting and yet they're the ones that now reporting that in fact that hampered you're right without retracting the only thing i would say is yeah other should retract that also at the same time cnn was going on a you know if besides they're probably our own opinions and obviously they're on vitriol towards the president but remember and you've you've reported on this that james clapper and jim colmey both said clapper during an interview with chuck todd on meet the press ah in march and colmey while testifying that they knew of no wiretapping of trump tower so uh if you dates about what they are facing the reporting government official at at the highest levels then a vote of what they're supposed to go on type of thing but that doesn't excuse them from not retracting clapper and colmey what are we going to hear from them i guess we are clapper but he he dodged a question well all but that's the thing about clapper i'm mini denies there's a fis accord order and he actually says that there wouldn't be a fis a court order their feed there was one that he would know about it and i think in the end this is the same guy didn't he get caught lyon a congress some time ago oh yes that up in a couple of years ago uh obama was uh in office as well where he was caught in a major walker and the thing.