35 Burst results for "Mystic"
Midwest Tartaria, Giants, Reset Civilizations and Strange History with Randy Tartarian - burst 09
"I'm crazy podcast. I'm your lovable host. Mark palmer investigator of all things weird researcher all things call journey into the mystic realms of the every day and the other world either way. And we're here today with randy. I call him randy tartari in because he's got a whole nother style. He's into tartari. He's into researching what they're really is to be seen when you take a look at some of these town hall buildings and churches structures that seem to have layers going underground or maybe were in places that have been dug up. It's fascinating stuff. And i was happy to have him on for his first podcast ever so we kind of went all over the place as he was definitely excited Told me he listens to this show. So it's cool. It's cool to have someone who's listened to some from my heart and soul my mind and i want to remind everybody that this is my purpose that i saw it out when i was younger. I was mentioned in psychedelics. Smoking weed every day reading these books. I told myself you know it's gonna find my higher purpose in align myself with that. I created that intention to help others to help the little ones the children and the animals and all the small creatures of the earth that create life that we all are so grateful for. I know i am so just a reminder folks set your intentions hi. This is a love cast. It's all love and show randy some love and kindness. Because like i said this was his first time. Ever on a podcast. And i think he was very very well researched. He had some really interesting pictures to show us a police. If you got the love bug like i do over the patriots dot com slash m. fdic and show some love. We'd love to see you there. Join the family and you know. That's where the scene is at synchro. Mystic exploration of the ever expanding now and on our latest journey we went to maka moody's state park and you can hear all the information about that on our patriotic as we heard some really interesting modest noises definitely google search that m. o. o. d. u. s. Noises either way. Enjoy this conversation with randi. The tartari and police will
David W. Mathisen | Mythic Trauma - SEEEN
"Sir. Polly doozy's is immortal. And they're both dust sons of the same mother. The queen of sparta. Lita you may have heard of the myth of leader in the swan about trauma these cutting edge psychologists that i discovered only more recently. I've been writing about the connections between the missing the stars for a long time. Been writing about how these twins picture for us this divine self but it really started to become more understandable to me when started to hear the teachings of psychologists like dr gabor matej dr richard schwartz. Who talked about trauma in trauma is caused by these terrible things. That happen to us. But that's not the actual if you listen to the teachings of dr gabor matting. He'll say the trauma was not actually those things that happen to you when you're little or whenever they happen to you if it was that would be actually impossible affairs because you can't go back in time to when you were three with. The trump is actually the result of those things that happened in the result was separation from yourself. You actually separated from yourself in that is ongoing trauma that you still carry and that you can fix. Hey ladies and gentlemen thank you for tuning in this. Is your host mystic mark hosted. My family thinks. I'm crazy podcasts. And i hope you've enjoyed the first two editions of the synchro mystic exploration of the ever expanding now because i have really enjoyed participating in these mind expanding conversations and that is the goal of this podcast focuses to give you the best information the metaphysical psychology that you can directly practically us to expand your now and bring in the reality that you truly wanna live. But here's the thing. We need some value
Dallas Mavericks Hiring Two-Time WNBA Champion Kristi Toliver as Assistant Coach
"N B A champ Kristi Toliver has a new job assistant coach with the NBA's Dallas Mavericks. Tolliver was with the Washington Mystics. She also spent parts of two seasons on the Wizards coaching staff. You might remember she hit that shot way back went for the University of Maryland, the national championship game. I was 15 years ago. Wow. Dave Preston. W T o p. Sports Time
Aubrey Marcus on Owning Your Day, Owning Your Life
"Doing creative work can be kind of lonely. And that's why we built the unmistakable listener tribe. The tribe is community for professionals to connect and support each other. Everything is designed to help you. Grow your business and share. What's working and what isn't and that's true whether you're a business owner or an artist could access to feedback live conversations with guests and so much more by joining the tribe you become part of a community of creators who all support each other and completely free hopefully see their visit. A mystic will creative dot com slash tribe to join again. That's a single creative dot com slash tribe. Be welcome to the mystical critic. Thanks so much for taking the time to join us. Yeah happy to be here so it is really great to have you here. I was actually introduced to you by way of your book marketing team. Who sent me a copy of your new book. Own your day on your life which It was mind blowing and filled with all sorts of insight which we will get into integrate bit of detail. But before we get there. I want to start asking you. What did your parents do for a living. And what impact did what they did for a living. End up having on the choices that you've made with your life. Yeah it's an interesting question. Because i had no my parents split when i was two years old so i ended up having four parents and all of them brought a great diversity of career but the one common factor was that they were all great at what they did so. My mother was a professional tennis player and got as high as number. Six in the world to billie jean king in the semifinals. A women so she was an athlete and that was her career path for she met. My father and my father was a commodity trader. In one of the pioneers in futures trading commodities in the us and written about in a book called market wizard excellent in his craft there and then my stepfather was a swat team squad leader and former collegiate wrestler and my stepmother was the nutraceutical doctor for all of pat. Riley's teams so the lakers in eighties. Nixon the nineties heat in the two thousands in a bunch of other kind of peak performers.
Team WNBA Defeats Team USA in 2021 WNBA All-Star Game
"Starting to get control of your early 10 to 4 early in the first quarter, the W N B A All Star Game just went final in Las Vegas Team W. N B a A winner over Team USA 93 80. Five. The two mystics on the Olympic team, Tina Charles and Ariel Atkins had very little impact. They combined to score 11 points in defeat. Aurica Gumbo Ali. The obvious choice for M V P, by far had came high. 26 points knocked down 53 pointers, including a key four point play late in the game during halftime. Ali Quigley won the three point competition for the third time in
11 House Democrats Object to Ilhan Omar's Comments on Hamas and Israel
"Democrats are going after one of their own representative ilhan omar after she asked a perfectly legitimate question to anthony blinken. Who is the secretary of state. Now the question how to do with the investigations pertaining to war crimes that have been committed by various organizations or various governments and so the critical statement There was a critical statement following the hold on. Let's take that down. There was a critical statement by her colleagues following the exchange that you're about to watch right now with representative omar anthony blinken take a look. I know you oppose the investigation in both palestinian and enact ghanistan. I haven't seen any evidence. In either cases that mystic boards can both can and will prosecute alleged warcrimes and times against humanity and i would emphasize that in israel and palestine. This includes crimes committed by both israel security forces them hamas in afghanistan and includes crimes committed by the afghan national government and the taliban so in both of these cases if domestic points can't or won't pursue justice and me opposed the sec. Where do we think the victims of this oppose it. Crimes can goal for justice so that was an important question to ask because the international criminal court which wants to probe the israeli government for possible war crimes against the palestinian people in gaza that the united states government the biden administration specifically does not support. So she's trying to ask well if you don't agree with the international criminal court investigating this and we can't rely on domestic governments to investigate their own warcrimes. Then how do you propose we do. These
The Case for Alternative Medicine With Dr. Andrew Weil
"What goes on in your mind. Really determines shapes your experience of the external world and i've applied that very much in my work with patients because i is fine over and over again that the root causes of illness are often in the mental emotional sierran not in the physical body or they're they're in both but conventional medicine has so ignored that non-physical part of ourselves and i think that's a great limitation science and medicine and airport of the world poorly nominated by materialism. You know a philosophy that says that the only thing that's real is that which can be seen in touched and measure and that if you see a change in the physical system because has to be physical non-physical of physical events doesn't compute not allowed for. So you know in hypnosis. There's so many demonstrations like you can touch person with the finger and you have them believe. It's a piece of red hot metal. And if they're a translate. Get an actual blister. I mean that is non physical causations of a physical event. If you try to get a doctor to look at that or scientist oh it's just a curious thing it doesn't have any meaning to me. The essence of science as open minded observation. That's where you start.
Into The Nothing With Gabriel Cousens
"It's so interesting to to talk to you. Because and i'm just going to share a bit about you with mindful tribe. You're a world renowned holistic physician a rabbi yogi spiritual mystic. You're a psychiatrist. A family therapist a humanitarian. A peace ambassador. And there's just so much to share about you and It it says here that you live in the world between nothing which is the world beyond time and something which is the temporal world. So let's start there. How did you get to the point where you see yourself. As as living in this world between nothing and something it had been gradually it was back philosophical. I lived in india for seven years and begin editing about six hours a day and also focusing intense contemplation on the divine name with chanting During the time. I begin to move into the nothing. No what is the nothing you disappear as a separate ego as a separate linus and there's only that or in that said is nothing to say the just but the point is that is that just quiet but you are there. There's not a you with a quiet mind you disappear. There's only durant
Spiritualism: A Ouiga Board Story
"Life was not easy in the early twentieth century. And we're talking. Like lack of dishwashers vacuum cleaners. I'm talking about death in. nineteen hundred. Left span is forty nine years old. Thanks to things like childbirth war disease. You name it. So when a religious movement called spiritualism promises people away to contact the dead many of them leap at the chance they miss their loved ones and if mind readers fortune tellers and mystics can help dole that pain. They're all for it. One of these devotees is a middle aged woman from saint louis named emily. Hutchings spiritualism is more of an interest or hobby for emily by day. She's a writer and she's also close friends with a housewife named pearl courant. The two of them often spend their evenings in pearls parlor doing all the normal things women do in the night like gaza or talk about an article. Emily's working on while their husbands play cards in the next room. Then in the fall of nineteen twelve pearls father dies. Pearl is devastated by this and as a spiritualist. Emily decides to introduce a new activity to their evenings. A ouija board. You've probably seen a ouija board most likely some kind whore context. They've become a huge part of pop culture. Thanks to movies like the exorcist. Nowadays most people won't go near them but in nineteen twelve ouija. Boards weren't seen as dangerous. They were one of spiritualism is most popular tools. They look a lot like your average board game. They're flat rectangular board with letters and numbers printed across it and the words yes and no written onto corners. It also comes with a smooth flat piece of wood called a plan chat which is placed on top of the board participants. Sit around the board each with a finger on the plan chat and they wait for spirits to move it spelling out messages. So emily brings this board to pearl's house and pearls like listen okay. I'm willing to try it. Why not anything to talk to my dad again for months the two of them play with the ouija board and for months pearl remains unimpressed. The plan chet does move beneath their fingers. But it only seems to spell out gibberish. Nothing worth writing down pearl calls it silly chatter that is until the night of nineteen thirteen when emily and pearl perch the ouija board between their knees and put their fingers on the plan chat.
What We Know About the Deadly Stampede in Israel
"And we're following the tragedy in Israel. Today, more than 40 people were killed in a stampede at a religious festival more than 100. Others were hurt. NPR's Daniel Estrin joins us from Jerusalem. Daniel, You've been covering this since it happened. What more do we know about the stampede? What might have triggered it. Well, just to describe the scene. This is a popular Jewish pilgrimage site. It's the tomb of a revered rabbi and an estimated 100,000 people were there overnight. They were going into the site coming out. There was a huge mass of people pushing against each other, trying to move through it. Zaveri rickety complex. There are passageways and stares and flimsy railings. Police had put up barriers try to do crowd control. But there was one passageway that was a slight downhill. The metal floor was slippery. And there are videos where you see row. Just a row of people in this mass just dropped to the floor. You see a hand reach up in the air for help on Ben. The next row of people fall on top, and it's just it was this pile up. Eye. Witnesses say that medics and police at the scene were trying to pull people out and untangle them and it was. It was just chaos. People were screaming people were crying out the Shama prayer, which devout Jews are meant to say before their death. It's a harrowing scene, to say the least. Daniel tell us more about the festival that people were attending. What was what was this supposed to be? Well, this is the Jewish Festival of Lager Bohmer. This is a pilgrimage festival. First of all Jews celebrated around the world around Israel with bonfires. It's the anniversary of the death of a second century rabbi and mystic. Sheiman Barrio high. That Rabbi is a central figure in Kabbalah and Jewish mysticism. So every every year there's a pilgrimage to his tomb, which is located in the Galilee in the north of Israel. It's a It's a very old tradition to visit that tomb and in Israel, it is Thebes biggest annual public gathering that there is
Upheaving A Team ft. OWL Dallas Fuel General Manager, TazMo
"The start of the OverWatch League season this year, got to bring on Matt tazmo. Taylor GM General Manager for the Dallas fuel from Envy game, how you doing that as well. Hey, I'm doing great. How about yourself? I'm good, man. It's it's been a been a lot of stuff on your plate as of what this past few months, right? Yeah, definitely. It's been a very busy offseason as with every offseason, but this one specifically was a very long one, and a good one versus one, of course, of course. So times when you've been the Dallas fuels general manager since their inaugural season, all the way back in what county 2018 - 2017 is. Yeah, I mean basically as soon as the bell before the horse League I was still managing the Envy of watched T. I became the Dallas fuel season so page everything OverWatch have been from the start come and become Dallas Fuel and then being with Envy for four and a half years or something like that now so yeah. Awesome. So let's let's address the elephant in the room. Everybody wants to wants to know about and you being the the GM kind of it felt to you and and your team over there. What exactly the overhaul you revamp? The team from top to bottom dead. What led to the choice to go with this current I guess all all Korean right all Korean roster. Yep. Yeah. So basically you know, at the end of last season pass, you know, we obviously weren't happy with where we were, you know, always striving to be a very competitive team in any League. We're in an eight-game we're in and that just wasn't really the case with the roster, I know like the the team, there's a give it their all and really tried to to produce the results, but it just didn't happen. And we realized that this was the time where we could really kind of revamp and and change up a roster and dead. Since then we basically had the opportunity for the first thing and the First Foundation was to look at a new head coach and a new culture stuff in general. And after talking to Young, Who I was a nice rest with near the end of the season, obviously taken up that had cultural, he'd obviously had a lot of respect for a rush who was formerly purse turtle. And then went to say you was also former element Mystic who was incredibly successful contenders roster and Canada started from there.
THE MYSTIC Margery Kempe - burst 02
"What do you get. When you combine a british catholic country squire okay An american feminist medieval list And a broken ping pong ball. This is the weirdest riddle i ever. The answer is okay. The first autobiography ever written in the english language okay. I know that you know the first autobiography ever written. In the english language the book of margery kempe chapter of my dissertation about this in that chapter of my dissertation. Would you clearly have not read. I've read it. I argue that. It is not an autobiography. it's a saint's life which is not the same thing to which i say we're going to have lots of fights. Oh my gosh. Oh rate and i know you love when we disagree i do. I love it. Because i'm right and this is fascinating after two of my dissertation starts with. What is an autobiography. And i will begin with page thirty. Let's episode fight fight fight fight.
Washington DC approves some fans at Capital One Arena
"Some local teams. As D. C is approved waivers. Those fans that capital one arena for Wizards and Capitals games, effective immediately can host at 10% capacity. Same for the Mystics. When they start the WN BA season later on Nationals, DC United will now also be able to host fans at 25% capacity at Nats Park and out he feels speaking of the Nazi at the defending champion L. A
DeSantis Orders State Of Emergency For Florida's Piney Point Area
"Florida governor onto Santa's has declared a state of emergency after a leak at a waste water pond prompted evacuations. NPR's state mystics reports that emergency workers have been unsuccessful in trying to plug the leak in the wall of the reservoir. Officials in Florida closed the highway in ordered more than 300 homes to be evacuated in the Tampa Bay area. Residents near the Piney Point Reservoir were total leak was imminent after a break was detected Friday and one of the walls of a waste water pond. The 77 acre bond holds millions of gallons of water containing phosphorus and nitrogen from an old phosphate mine. While water continues to leak from the reservoir workers have been pumping thousands of gallons per minute from the pond to bring the volume down in case of a burst. Other officials have been working to chart a path to control how the water would flow into the Tampa Bay. They've missed each NPR
Channeling a spirit
"Welcome to kids myths and mysteries. So i'm your host kid crumb today in my month long. Look into all things around ghosts. I take a close look at channel. Lena spirit the practice of channeling a person's body being taken over by spirit for the purpose of communication has been around for a millennia. There are countless stories of shaman which doctors prophets and others who claimed to hear voices or received some supernatural knowledge from the spirit world. Chandler's also sometimes known as psychic mediums. Often use what are called spirit guys friendly spirits who give them knowledge and help them help others with the spiritual journey according to experts sonya. Roman and dwayne packer authors of to channel. How to connect with your guide. Channeling is a powerful means of spiritual unfoldment unconscious transformation as you channel you build a bridge to a higher rome loving caring purposeful collective higher consciousness that has been called god all that is the universe universal mine. Channeling involves consciously shifting your mind and mental space in order to achieve an expanded state of consciousness to achieve the expanded state of consciousness channels usually meditate trying to break free of worldly influences and tune into a higher consciousness. They may imagine themselves seeking out specific spirits of the dead. Or they may be. Contacted by unbidden by some unknown force. That wishes to communicate while most people channel to seek inner wisdom entire books have been written supposedly by ancient spirits. Channel through modern mediums and factor are hundreds of such books many of which can be found in new age. Sections of bookstores are libraries round. The world. the most famous american writer channel. Or was jane roberts who claim to channel an ancient and wise entity name set for her nineteen seventy-two bestseller. Seth speaks as well as several popular sequels. Roberts as seth dictated esoteric information to her husband about a soul the nature of consciousness spiritual truths higher planes of reality since the nineteen eighties. New age mystic jays. He night has claimed channel round also known as enlightened one thirty five thousand year old warrior spirit who described among other things being born on the continent of atlantis. Night became a multimillionaire writing books and offering seminars. In dvd's teaching the wisdom imparted by her rump. Thought another prominent chandler in the one thousand nine hundred nineteen ninety s was actress shirley maclaine who wrote a bestselling book and a popular television mini series on the subject. Channeling has waned in popularity in recent years so it is still practiced and it's widely accepted in a new age community channel. Information from different sources is often a dozen different spirits presumably dwelling in the same after world. Give a dozen different accounts if the spirits are truly imparting be important cosmic wisdom and universal truths you would expect different channels in different places and times to say the same things instead. Studies have shown that channel information changes with the times and tends to reflect the idea's popular in the culture at the time because there is no way to verify information and descriptions of different planes of existence the nature of the soul. And so on. There's no way to know what if any of the channel information is accurate but clearly much of it cannot be correct would help verify channel and as a real phenomenon would be to have accurate concrete and verifiable information revealed that only the spirit world would know for example. A person who truly channel einstein should be able to continue making important discoveries long after his death or a father who died unexpectedly and left his affairs. Disarray should be able to tell his wife and family through chandler were important. Documents are located to help and settle his estate.
Man Found Dead in Charlestown Home in Boston
"Morning shooting and Charles Town leaves one man dead. Police say the man was shot and killed inside a home just after three a.m. crime scene tape and a heavy police presence for seen on Mystic place. Ah, small, Dead End Road off Cook Street in Charlestown Boston AMs. Pronounce the victim dead on scene. There's no word yet on his identity.
Chris Knowles, Lucifers Technologies And The Mk Ultra-terrestrials
"This is the way our side shatters from sunny san diego. I'm greg carl would. And when we think about technological progress on human time line and all the nineteen fifties versions of what our world would bring. It seems that we're quite a bit off script. Not only are we lacking the personalized silver saucers and cheery meal making robot maids but instead the false promises of tomorrowland have been replaced with dystopia digital surveillance intense fields. vmf radiation and rarely a useful tool. That isn't paid for with data collection and market research to further. Commit you to a bland existence of screen addiction and a never ending struggle to keep it all charged sure. The screen is smaller. The internet is here in the vacuum can fumble around on its own but how advanced if things gotten really nastase extraordinary budget in decades of focus of yielded almost no major changes to rocketry no exciting daily moon shuttles or space elevators just rc. Cars of tinfoil taking selfies nevada desert and calling it mars the advancements in food science and industrialized diets have left many of us. We can obese with gmo. Crops compromising the global food supply with all the altruism of an invading army and with malpractice medical airs death by medicine being the third leading cause of death even by the most conservative statistics. I'm not sure they've got it all worked out there either so it seems the biggest achievement of modern is the cult like following. It's a amassed despite its shortcomings and when you consider where they might have been getting their ideas. Maybe that's to be expected. Well when it comes to the work in today's returning guests. Chris knowles has pulled on so many fascinating threads throughout the years on the secret son blog from the strange songs of the siren. Elizabeth frazier to the potent symbolism of award shows in pop culture rituals material nested beneath the umbrella term lucifer's technologies. It is fascinated your humble host. The most and with chris having added a few logs to that fire. Recently it gives us plenty to talk about society crumbles down around us her says no shortage of. Thc appearances at this point. And i'm psyched to do it again. Hot on the heels of his new book entitled the endless american midnight a massive collection of the best of the best from the secret son blog as well as the launching of the secret son institute of advanced synchro mysticism on the patriot platform. And let's not forget to mention his recent novel. He will live up in the sky. A wild ride if there ever was one and his classics our gods wear spandex. The secret history of rock and roll as busy as ever. The chronicler of humanity's decline apocalypse watchdog extraordinary and straight shooting synchro mystic sage of the secret son blog christmas man. Welcome back to the higher side. Oh what an introduction. I try to frank. You thank you very much. I'm going to blurb that on my next book. Yes i'm hard and this is real exciting man. Lucky number nine. It seems and You know i checked in with you just at the right time. As one of my favorite topic seems to have resurfaced to the forefront of your mind as well which revolves around what you call loose verse technologies and the roswell working you say on the blog. This is one of the most requested topics for you to revisit as well and for good reason to get us started here. What would you say. Is the overall thesis of this thread or the hypothesis. You're working from man. It's so complex because the series was written in one of my ocd. you know. or i'm just sort of manic mode for like a week and a half just stayed up all night reading everything and writing and all that kind of thing so you know in my most. When i started the series again. I talked about how like it wasn't the most workers have ever done. It was just very haphazard. But you know just like that thriller discovery finding things but basically is i was looking at the explosion of technology particularly electronics after world war. Two and how that coincided with the don of the ufo age with roswell and so on
#183 Jamie Lerner Self-Care: If You Dont, Who Will? - burst 03
"We just are and were very well equipped to do it. And it's also interesting about reinvention. Is that we lose a lot of something. That is very important along the way which is south care so women are masterful in reinventing themselves and then they also are masterful in forgetting themselves. How did how did how did he know. We're going to make a transition to self care. I mean seriously on my sheet in front of the next. The next bullet point was self care and you made a wonderful trenches transition to it. So that is what. I'd like to talk about now. And and focus probably the majority of our time is self care and personal responsibility and and especially in this current cova time of chaos and confusion and and one of the things that you told me about when we chatted before the podcast was that you described your passion. Your current passion for helping people find themselves in the moment. Can you tell me what that what that means to you. Find yourself in the moment every moment that we can be present and it is just a moment by moment and establish or reestablish connection with ourselves that that is the ultimate in self care and and i think a lot of that comes from being able to manage our thoughts and then are feeling but first and foremost our thaw and i think it's important cut. We rarely slow everything down and allow ourselves to be in that moment contain. That's why one of the most important things of how we can care for ourselves and then others it's always about foul firth and then others. It's kind of a win win for everybody. Jesus talks about that. When he says you know i it's always quoted love god and love your neighbor but what's always left out is love. Love your neighbor as yourself and to me that assumes self love precedes other love the cacao kangaroo barber care for another if they're not taking care of yourself self love is sort of. it's almost frowned upon that. You are selfish. You are ego centric if you do that and and if you take care of yourself too much and yet and yet if you don't take care of yourself you're you're no good to anyone else you know want when you could on the airplane they tell you to put your mask on on first before assisting other people and there's a reason for that. That is a universal truth. We cannot care for anyone until we care for ourselves without feeling resentment and if we feel is not much then we are not caring for ourselves or another. So you know. I think people don't really understand what it means to wrap third loving arms around themselves and nourish and nurture themselves into connection. That is the most unselfish thing that you can do. And in some ways it sure responsibility if you're then going to assume the care of others whether be children or a teacher or if you're in any role where you're in a leadership role it's just not possible to do it without having spent some time with yourself and nourishing yourself and if they're self some something to give agree with you on that and i was thinking about taking care of ourselves. There's there's just a number of of ways to do that in you know we're going to get into tactics toward the end of the Of the of the of the show. But right. Now i i'd like to disorder. Get a big picture of what do you mean by taking care of yourself. I know account. I have an idea of what i need by but but i'm curious what your interpretation is kind of goes hand in hand with taking personal responsibility to understand that really. It is known responsibility to care for your responsibility to begin to have an understanding of what year in the evening for yourself and then to figure out a way a gentle loving way to kind of implement some of that self care and most people do the opposite. They expect other people to care for them. They don't even know their own news. They expect others around them to know what they need and they expect that they should be given what they need. There's this really Twisted sense of entitlement. just because the very I think the other interesting thing about women reinventing themselves then they get to hide behind all of the roles that they've taken on as they never care for themselves the end up feeling resentful. They ended up feeling overwhelmed. The end up feeling all the things that they should be feeling and yet known even knows what they need. Not even know. They haven't even taken the time to figure out like okay but only know what i need for my. What do i need to do first thing in the morning but the guy can so myself up before we take care of all these other people so to step into that role of personal responsibility for sending the morning and ask yourself now. What are what. I need so myself. That is such a loving and lovely question to ask one and then to answer it with you. Maybe coffee before. I serve an to eat something before i i just some basic things. That really remind us that we're important. How counter cultural that is because we you know we're we're thinking we always have to be givers don't we we. We can't be. we can't be takers. we can't be an it's not even really taking it's it's more of. You're giving love from an empty cup and you've got to fill that love your love cup for yourself because unless you do you end up resenting the very people that you are serving and it doesn't feel good on your and it doesn't feel good on there and either never feels good to be given some things from someone who is representing you in the process so yet to unconditionally give to hand. That is a lovely feeling for the giver and the receiver and the way we get there is by taking care of ourselves so that we can give which hand alternate goal to feel good about the giving and to feel good about the person who is receiving what your kid i have for the last year been very involved on my own in in the in the sort of tradition node as mystic christianity and the mystics and and and i'm reading people of the thirteenth to fourteenth century teresa viola saint john of the cross and and teresa viola sort of my my guru. Now and she was. She was in the fifteenth century. And they talk about spending this time in divine contempt mystical prayer. But she is very strong that you do that in doing that. You are taking care of yourself your relationship with yourself yourself in the divine how how you relate in the divine but that that then becomes the resource for helping others that so you don't you don't just folk off. Yeah you don't just focus on yourself and forget everybody else. You have to focus on yourself but then the result is it results in a self care you. You can't help but want to share that with other people tackle once again. It's a win win for every beautiful idea. Now you want. You talked about personal responsibility in that. And i've even thought about making when i make a title for this show and we'll see what happens after the show. They make the title. But i i'm working on a premise of the me. Look at my own title here. Self care your responsibility to be responsible for yourself. Well is it so you would. You says it's good. I'm glad you agree because you're not title if you said no i don't believe any of that however it's a turn off for people a lot of people do not want to be responsible from south. They feel resentful that they should have to be responsible for themselves. They feel entitled that others should be responsible for their happy. And i think that it just needs to be thought about in a different way because who would know better for you than you know and yet we expect others to know what we need what. We consider south for first and foremost look. We need the great question. People don't ask themselves that question very often. But do you want. Don't ask themselves that either but people will tell you all day long what they want and what they get is more of what they don't want so and it's always someone else's all so you know if that doesn't work very well that way no it doesn't and and how in the world like you said if we haven't even really investigated pin through the thought process of understanding what we want and what we like in life. How in the world is someone else supposed to know that you know great costal one and yet we expect them to set us fai our needs and we've not identified their their needs. I mean our our needs and how they need to respond. You know My listeners heard have heard this before. But my wife. And i for probably. We've been married thirty six years and for at least twenty five of those. If not more. We take every year between christmas and new years now. This happens throughout the year but we take an intentional time of three days away so we can have two nights in one place. You know two full days in place and we ask each other So how was i. What kind of husband was last year. What kind of wife was i. And and what do you want from me. How can i serve you in helping. You find. You know helping you fulfill your needs and so we're forcing ourselves to identify our knees and until the other person. This is what i would like fantastic. I mean that's that's a conscious of our relationship a nice guy. Yeah yeah you know a lot of good writing on that jamie is. Are you familiar with the land baton. Elaine de button depends on how you want to pronounce it. The scarlet life. You know he's rich and really good stuff on that he's ridden maybe the best stuff of love between a man and a woman as anyone is written for you know. He's just barely turned forty now but he just has has exceptional writing on that. You know what i wanna do. I i want to go a bit deeper but before we do. I'd like to take a quick break. And then we will come back. And we're going to pursue a little bit more about this personal responsibility and how the victim mentality may come into play in that. Hi there this is charlie hedges. And you're listening to the next with charlie and my very special guests. Today's jaime lerner A woman who is a therapist adventurer pleasure seeker and a cute devil tae of self care. And that's exactly what we're talking about. And and i think she has so much teaches that i've learned so much from jamie and jimmy. We've talked about a bit about personal responsibility. And that letting other people know not expecting other people to somehow somehow be able to read our minds in our souls and understand what we need. We need to articulate that. What other kinds of personal responsibility you know. We're talking about our own personal responsibility and our self care. How can i take responsibility for myself. Do you have any examples of that for me now. I think that away are rewarded in society. Forbidden since Mainstream media that. They reminded us every moment. That's come we are the victim of everything. We have no control so for me. I always suggest to people to turn off the television and to Find a new source. That is a little more emotionally intelligent. That will allow us to feel good when you're done breathing. You're listening to or watching in fetter feeling paralleling cars. We have to take personal responsibility for what we are chasing to consume and hall. We will fail one way or done firmly cloud video. You know that's brilliant. You know is that we have to take responsibility for what we consume in our media. And and i find pretty much nothing but danger when not not just. Tv in general but for me. It's tv news and tv news. You know their their purpose is to stir up controversy in stirrup.
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"I think it was in. A parole Let me, pull it up but but the idea definitely started around. February Let's see shortly after my visit to the Museum of African. American history in DC with my mom of voting for the first time Let's see it while I'm my like technological Problems are showing. I'm trying to actually wear where on this kickstarter it will actually like show all that information. project. Launches Ha may seventh twenty twenty. So that's when it went down Yarra Yarra. Right up the height of when. Folks were realizing Basu's this pandemic banks serious. So it's quite epic tiny ing. And so now let's see if that was may in we're about halfway through. September. Wow. Okay. So it's been like about like four ish. So probably around like. Like the five-month mark. At school that you're gonna be able to have those Jackson in your hand. On, get to distribute them. I'm super super excited. Because when I? Signed up for your kickstarter starter or whatever you know pledged to. It I did the one where you can like have like wholesale of your your beautiful decks because I want to live I guess I am. Have a section in my shop that is exclusively only melania decks. And Yours, is GonNa be the first in that collection? So I love that. I really. Really excited. To get to see them and use them to my goodness and. On the Mystic Mondays and even with my meetings with my clients, really really excited for that. So you said that your initial like spark of inspiration came from going to that museum and seeing but like. History. Exhibit, you're saying. Yeah I went through the museum it's very, very dense and very, very rich I would say it's very beautiful 'cause like I. You know it Sorta felt like when I I kind of came into like who do when I first started like practicing ancestor veneration and like sort of looking at our history from like a spiritual perspective I realized like. You know growing up in in this in this way in the black community in this black family in this black lie, my family's from Arkansas and e- sort of like don't like it's just life it's just family. It's just the way things are, and then to realize that it, it's part of like this useful web of a culture and that it's actually significant in there. So many people who share these experiences a dislike made it feels so much more special and and then in the bookstore 'cause like everyone goes to gift shop and like having a member on there was this book called Talking to the dead and there were a few other books Zora, Neale Hurston and There was Toni Morrison's the Black Book and seeing the way that like our spirituality like are specific spirituality like a black American people who are the descendants of enslaved Africans at just like to see that actually have habits its place in this museum gift shop that museum that was like that dispelled. So like curated and in made for us a disadvantage about so special. And you know I'm I'm actually an artist in I've been poring over this idea of I want to create this big work. I want to create this art about how much Like I love being black and how much like how amazing and special we are, and then like I guess shortly afterwards I thought like I was working on this deck it was actually supposed to be kind of like You know dislike I thought I'd just like slap like black iconography on this previously just sort of like General Lenormand deck within like the history came out to and like the language because you know a lot of decks You are addressing a general experience and I think like where more than general experience, where a lot of experiences that actually like deepen enrich what these designation decks have to say because because our ancestors lived at our ancestors went through so much and they navigated it and accordance with their indigenous traditions and I think like we have to name those we have to show those and how those can still help us on. It can't just be like you know I affirm. I, depressed I. Affirm that I am like not depressed and then and then boom. It's very like you know consistent ritual consistent. Healing consistent care distinct community care it's like that's what we see in these. Old Slack. Examples like the the federal writers project slave narratives which Tony Morrison drew inspiration from end to create her amazing works like her just like incredible works So yeah, that's that's sort of began like that sort of how I started going down the rabbit hole was going through that museum and then seeing that saying narratives and stories from people still practicing mar traditions sold in the gift shop and actually got a couple books gift shop and signing people walk out with mugs you walk out with shirts and undertake book. Yup. Yup. That's awesome like I love that You'll so deeply like what you're saying like. are like spirituality is It's unique and there is something very deep and rich about it, and that's what I love about us. And I love about Hoodoo and things like that I think it's so frigging cool like you said that you got to see like these things from our history and from our ancestors and knowing that these things that they did or that they created like. Their practices and whatnot like they use those things to. survive until also thrive and live through all of these very unique experiences and you're doing the same thing you know you created. An amazing tool that is essentially going to help us get through the Times. That we're living in is living ancestors you know, and then at some play like down the road, you know maybe future ancestors will get to see like your work and that type of thing like being represented in places you know.
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"Welcome everyone to another episode of the Revolutionary Mystic Podcast I'm your host Netflix Alexandria joining today I have the privilege and honor of chatting with our fabulous guest t of grandma baby apothecary whom you may know. From instagram or kickstarter be are the creator of baby, Lenormand deck and I won't explain anymore I want them to introduce themselves. So High Tea can you? Like number one. In. So glad to have you here. Can you tell us a little bit about who you are your identities pronouns and what it is that you do? Sure I am t I am the founder and Co owner of grandma baby apothecary. I. Actually The grandbaby Public Kerry recently became co owned by my brother to whose name is Ian He won't be honest interview. But Yeah. recently to the kickstarter for the Black Goal Lenormand deck my pronouns farm going out of order are. She her hers And I'm really excited to be here. Thank you for having me. Thank you for welcoming now and. Thank you for joining me here I really appreciate you taking the time to do this. I know that they see her twenty twenty has been a really a wild year and you also have a lot of really cool stuff going on like you mentioned with the Black Hole Lenormand deck I know that we have been following. Your update from kickstarter. Folks at home like. Kickstarter, is amazing place to find these really cool index. And was one of them that I found I. Actually I think I found you via Instagram, and now we're at the point in your like kickstarter process where it looks like have you started to receive the decks They should be I. should be getting the which McCall it mood tracking number. For, my decks and the next couple of days and they should be on the way to me, which is kind of freaking me out but. But also, like I'm so ready, I'm so ready for them to be here. I'm ready to send them out ready to be able to hold them. This is like I don't WanNa say it's surreal, but it's very feels very good to have brought this from like a little idea to like a full. Full thing. Like I just like I wanna like mentioned in general like what monumental feat by is number one, and then like number two to have like gone through that like during the duration of this year, which has been very challenging the stabile least and Can you say like a little bit about like was that like easy? Was it? Did it make it more challenging? Experience running like whole campaign Emma through it's kind of a turbulent time so to speak. Will I mean I think I struggled since I was a kid with wanting to Have other people look at my art and like look at my things read little pawns and stories that I wrote So when I came up with this idea You know I kept seeing messages of like okay. Now you have to share it. Okay. Now you need to move forward with it and I was like y'all don't understand if Mike. my spirits like in an Miam- ancestral veneration. I just they. They were like, okay like you gotTa do this right in unlike. Like I don't know. Like 'cause you know I'd also like I'd really tried my hand at also like Having the regular office job or doing like you know different like graphic design jobs for people and an Anna working for other people I guess and their disliked. That's not gonNa work for you like you know that we know that so then. When Cobra hit I was like, well, I waited too long like this isn't GonNa work like obviously like this is not the best time to be asking people for money they like. Nate you should do it. I was just like, okay. You don't understand how these things. But. but then I did I launched it and It was terrifying by I'm really glad that they did I'm really mostly glad because it's put me and direct. In community with so many amazing people. That's I think the best part of what's come out of this that So many people have supported this not just financially on which is sort of what kick starters for but people have. Messaged me, they've sent me. like a kiss this week people were sending me like music at It feels really nice to have. To have this, I guess this opportunity to. mean during a pandemic have so many people who support an appreciate what I'm doing. Yeah. Yeah. I think otherwise you know I'd just be sort of Chilin missile. Going stir crazy. So grateful for everything that's come out of this process. Absolutely an league I just want to say about it you know I, I can't speak for everybody but I gather that probably a lot of folks feel the way that I knew where like seeing your kickstarter projects. You're this offering essentially of your beautiful. Artwork and you know just this The sleigh like your magic and sharing that with us to me it felt like. A wooded good time actually, but I could sense like I could imagine like what it must have felt like. From your perspective because I, I had other projects going on at that same time to was like, oh I don't know how this is. GonNa go. You know during these times but like really it was kind of perfect timing away because it was like, will we really need your magic? Period and we also like need you more now than ever because like for the same reason that you said like a lot of us could have just been. A little extra isolated or maybe not have had so many like great things to look forward to and I know that like seeing the emergence of your deck in your artwork I'm all of that stuff like your presence just it was just so needed in like divinely timed in it was just kind of like. This is on the list of you know. Good. Happy things. You know and those things like on that list for this year to me feel like they're like so precious you know because maybe it's been hard to come by. You know things go on that list. So you know when I see an amazing independent like Melanie. black-owned in created Dak of any time like. I am just like, Oh thank goodness. Now let's get everybody to like support. The Hell is because we need that so much. I know you probably know like there's not a whole lot. Of Ducks made by us.
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"Live with Satan from that slate point of view where I'm relating to Seton as a force of how to exercise my sovereignty in my free will in a way. That's liber. Tori and Compassionate and empathetic, and takes personal responsibility both for my own fulfilment. For. Honoring sovereignty to you of all the beings round me has been really interesting. You wouldn't necessarily think that these two paths would converge some way but they have in me and it's an it's weird. But Delight. It's mean my in its mean magical practice so much more effective to I tell people all the time lake. My entire life has is a visual testimonial of sorcery at of the pragmatic schism of sorcery because I. Shouldn't have life that I have right now I live by myself. In Lake I mean it's a studio and it's the size of a postage stamp. In comparison to what I could probably get from my money and other parts of the country up. But I live in this beautiful little studio. In Chicago I've a great neighborhood you know when there's not pandemic afoot. No white people in this building right masking but you know. Lord. You. Win. Some lose some. But I have this beautiful apartment I have. You know I have all these wonderful loving relationships I got his second chance at having a loving parent. Yeah. Who loves me as if she burst me which honestly she probably could've 'cause we we look very eerily similar like I shared a photo of our when she was three years old and people thought it was me like it's kind of. Like I weak I constructed that part of my life and again I recognize privileges are also afoot in all of this. So I wanna be really clear about that but financially lake I I've had enough to be. A little bit more than comfortable. I'M NOT WEARING WANNA be late financially. Just because capitalism is bitch and I like wrestling with the the personal values of making money the ethics of. you know wealth accrual, honor system, capitalist factory but Lake financially I'm pretty secure. Anytime. I've needed a resource for something. It's always managed to find its way to me. I've been very privileged in that I've had safe places to be and I've been surrounded by people who loved me and saw. You know who I can be. An honored that inertia dot even when I couldn't honor it nurtured for myself. I'm able to spend most of my time doing things that fill me with love and fulfillment and satisfaction. you know, and I have a legacy way. I'll be a white woman destroyed like the four. Lake part of that legacy, but it's okay. It was there for a brief minute..
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"Receipts which it's funny because like I'm of receipts. person. That we had to because I was showing things like my sisters be like, am I, am I out of my mind. Trouble here you know what? Like I wasn't trying to keep receipts on anybody they ha- like have another hobby. Yeah. So. Like I get this like a letter and it's very aggressive and it doesn't actually outline a legal basis for defamation but at the time I was. Really newly diagnosed with my ms in with autism I was going through release stressful kind of lakes spat anyway. And I wanted to fight it. But I was just sleek. I finally got to places like a physically I can't do this I don't have the money for this going to have to find like a pro bono lawyer like send a response back and it's just going to be like this whole thing and I don't want to engage these systems. Yes and dealing with this because worried. Like. The justice system in and of itself like that's that's the man. Shit, you know like. That's the settlers bullshit to like do that against one another like she's wielding like colonial violence against you in my eyes you know league I like the thing that bothered me so much because we still have mutual friends, we have plenty of mutual friends she could have reached out to and could have said something to me none of the requests that I made of her were outrageous or had or were non-negotiable for that matter and she could have done that at any time, but instead she chose to go to a lawyer. And as far as I am aware She knows that or she knew rather at the time that probably wouldn't have the capacity to go to toe with her in a court of law but beyond that Like, why do you need a lawyer to speak for you like if you haven't done anything, wrong Yup, and one of the things that has since stood out to me in that letter was it was not her intention to take something from you and Prophet of it. Just like are you saying that she did in fact, take something from me. And she's now since Prophet That's that's a little. That's a little concerning. Window. Sounds like not only an admission and it also sounds like..
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"Actually, I, had it in I. had it in my head that today was the twelfth but she turns to deform are happy Ma. Wait. Family Tree Lake Mary politically involved obviously and then my first set of adoptive parents I was raised some home where I was discussing politics and I was like eight nine years old and like debating with my mother over dinner about politics and disgusting leg current events which. Again, hindsight hindsight so much on. but I'm trying to league. deconstruct my relationship politics a little bit because I realized that I'm social media in the way that my career path has developed. has kind of conditioned me into this relationship that I don't find generative. Vinnie more. That doesn't make me sick and given that I have a I have two different health issues that are impacted by stress I need to fuck that Shit. So you know like I've been working on that and then obviously like the incident which. I realized when we initially connected I said I didn't WanNa talk about that but I'm open to talking about that now. Okay. Cool. Yeah I mean like if you're. Open to that I'm happy to. Speak About that with you. Yeah. We. Careful just because you know like at all I don't WanNa get any. The audience what in the hell and they talking. Well. Most of like. Like people who follow my work know that there is very popular. Educator. Who is a black woman? And their name gets brought up every. So often lake someone new will come into the group and be like Oh hey, like this books have really great resource. And then usually chime in and say. That's cool. And I had to let you know like I actually don't share that person's work. Person has you know com- caused harm and you know to my knowledge. I, don't know that there's been any like real like restorative. None actually think. The answer is. I mean, it's so like it's ban I I've done through lake the five stages of grieving and rage about this whole situation. So sip before I start I want to be very clear that I have nothing. But love for this person I want them to be successful I have always been very clear about the facts whenever this has come up in conversation that you know I don't want anybody to penalize them financially want anybody doing any sort of like abusive fuck shit and my name don't do it. Don't do it. Don't do it. I. Will personally come back to over the head of the stick. Hatch your head 'cause I don't like to do violence, but you know. Look y'all get the gist laying. Don't wait. Don't be don't be gross because for me Lake it, it has evolved beyond the initial instigating incident, which was I was concerned about some of the origins of her work in her ideas and the authorship of that and I brought that to her privately. Long before I ever breathed the word in public.
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"Hello and welcome everyone to another episode of the Revolutionary Mystic? ? Podcast I'm your host. . Mets Lee Alexandria. . Joining me today. . I have the privilege and honor of chatting with our guest Alexis P. Morgan. . I am so stoked I can't even tell you. . Just for reference right now were let's see. . Moore in August twenty, , twenty were stolen the middle of a pandemic and. . Like. . Alexis mentioned to me earlier. . The world is like basically on fire and <hes> as a disabled person who is pretty homebound <hes> it is a very awesome opportunities today to get to chat with Alexis P. Morgan who I have a lot of in common with and like so much admiration for their work and I'm. . Thrilled to get to connect with somebody who? ? You know understands and it's just it's refreshing. . You know we live in a pretty abled world. . We live in a pretty neuro typical focused were held. . And so I'm really excited to get to talk to them and share their magic with you and. . So rather been telling you all about who they are and what they do. . I would love for you to hear it straight from them. . Hi Alexis. . <hes>. . Thank you so much for having me on. . This is I think this is the first. . PODCAST appearance I've done in a while. . So that's exciting. . <hes>. . So about Me <hes>, , I am twenty eight turning twenty, nine , <hes> in a couple of months very exciting in the throes of the Saturn return which is. . Home. . I'm black and ice that I'm the child of indigenous mothers because <hes> my second adoptive parent, , which is a story will get into in a second and I'll clarify what I mean by that. . Is Indigenous and I'm still trying to figure out <hes> if my biological mother was truthful with my <hes> adoptive parents about my <hes> indigenous heritage, , it's not one of those leg. . My grandmother was like a such and such kind of situations <hes>. . It actually has to do with my paternal grandfather <hes>. . So you know we're figuring that out <hes> but in the mean time I say I'm a child of indigenous mothers to be really clear about a WHO I am in that regard <hes> m professionally, , I am a writer, , an artist and a sorceress. . My pronouns are she heard they <hes> <hes> I identify as FAM- <HES> 'cause my gender is really weird and complicated. . and has layers of Wu mixed into it too. . So sometimes, , it's just easier to be like yeah okay. . This is folks do what they want <hes> and I'm also queer so and I have autism <hes> I was diagnosed at twenty seven which is funny because I studied autism for like four years in high. . Slovenia with a thought that maybe I would have On something but Nah. . <hes> but I did but I didn't. . Add I'm also disabled I have a multiple sclerosis I was also diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis at twenty seven. . During my birthday month it was a very exciting bursting. . That see in a nutshell. . Wow. . Yeah. . I just want to say like I love. . The amount of representation you're able to bring for folks I. . I know when I hear you speaking about who you are I'm hearing things that I I can really to and I also have seen like out there in the world. . I. . Know isn't really being said, , and one of them is that you mentioned about how? ? You like had been studying onto them for some time and like how did you not know well A for folks that don't know. . Much about my professional history I was a social worker for a long time and I had a long like eleven year long career and towards the end I was a teacher for kids with autism and I loved it absolutely loved it felt super at home and just like you didn't reach diagnosis until I was around like twenty, , seven, , twenty, , eight I, , think. . It's just kind of funny like how it works out that way you know Ray Lake and like I think my so it's funny 'cause like in my particular situation, , my first set of adoptive parents. . Okay. . So let me back this trailer up a little bit. . I was adopted twice I was adopted as an infant and I usually call that set of parents by foster parents because it helps make things less confusing to the wider world. . And just because I usually don't have time to explain my family tree with the. . Diagram. . Like New People. . So I was. . Of Infant, , and then I was adopted again as an adult adoption by my mom <hes> she is my mom. . So when I usually when I say mom speaking of her and what I'm speaking of my adoptive parents who were a queer couple <hes> I was raised by White Lesbians, , which is who boy that's a Latin to wrestle with in hindsight <hes> but. . I'm usually not referring to them, , but sometimes I'll slip and I'll just call the MOM and everybody gets real real confused because I got like twelve of them lying around it's great. . Twelve months I mean <hes> but when I was a toddler, , I showed some of the signs of <hes>. . A lot of lake professional clinicians would probably deemed autism
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"Hello and welcome everyone to another episode of the Revolutionary Mystic? Podcast I'm your host. Mets Lee Alexandria. Joining me today. I have the privilege and honor of chatting with our guest Alexis P. Morgan. I am so stoked I can't even tell you. Just for reference right now were let's see. Moore in August twenty, twenty were stolen the middle of a pandemic and. Like. Alexis mentioned to me earlier. The world is like basically on fire and as a disabled person who is pretty homebound it is a very awesome opportunities today to get to chat with Alexis P. Morgan who I have a lot of in common with and like so much admiration for their work and I'm. Thrilled to get to connect with somebody who? You know understands and it's just it's refreshing. You know we live in a pretty abled world. We live in a pretty neuro typical focused were held. And so I'm really excited to get to talk to them and share their magic with you and. So rather been telling you all about who they are and what they do. I would love for you to hear it straight from them. Hi Alexis. Thank you so much for having me on. This is I think this is the first. PODCAST appearance I've done in a while. So that's exciting. So about Me I am twenty eight turning twenty, nine in a couple of months very exciting in the throes of the Saturn return which is. Home. I'm black and ice that I'm the child of indigenous mothers because my second adoptive parent, which is a story will get into in a second and I'll clarify what I mean by that. Is Indigenous and I'm still trying to figure out if my biological mother was truthful with my adoptive parents about my indigenous heritage, it's not one of those leg. My grandmother was like a such and such kind of situations It actually has to do with my paternal grandfather So you know we're figuring that out but in the mean time I say I'm a child of indigenous mothers to be really clear about a WHO I am in that regard m professionally, I am a writer, an artist and a sorceress. My pronouns are she heard they I identify as FAM- 'cause my gender is really weird and complicated. and has layers of Wu mixed into it too..
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"A LOT OF PEOPLE. Ask me where it depends on where you live in the city that dozens of different places that you can go armed action oriented to get the training done date show you how to use it in the know. Give you free doses. And that's all you have to do a lot of places it's available over the counter. I'm not aware of the prices but still hillier be some way. But I'm almost certain that every every major city had some forum of harm-reduction organization that has some sort of training program or distribution program. Were able to get this squirts accessible financially or whatever but you know there's so many people who are impacted by OPIOIDS even if they're not opiate users because right now is a lot of things Just because it's so potent at such minimal doses it all even accidental contamination could cause overdose in someone who's using methamphetamine or cocaine or IM- demeo wherever it gets into so like having this on you for yourself or for others you know is important especially because I don't know human life. I don't know anything about this people to be judgmental you know like okay the overdose on job sites. They had shit locked to bring L. Yeah you know and and for some reason I have like. I don't know about you but I have an uncanny ability to be there like right at the moment when somebody is at the like brink of life or death. I don't know why but I always stumble across those people in so you know it can happen to anybody you know. Learn how to use narcan get some NAR can while you're at it you know Kerry aspirin. I heard a story about somebody. You know who ran to the corner store to get a man who is incapacitated on the sidewalk and get him some aspirin and she saved him from having a heart attack and yet. It's as easy as force-feeding somebody some aspirin while they're unconscious so aspirin narcan there's even those like CPR masks. If you're currently being able to you know resuscitate someone with you know a thing like that. If she hadn't started breathing on her own for example that having to do CPR basically what have been the only other option until pair by surprise because if she hadn't been overdosing on opiates or just hadn't been breathing for so long that she wasn't able to start to breathe again her then that's something that would have been able to save her. The situation in Austin not something I have had do add never practices. I'd know how it works in the light of the house and watch videos. I've never had to do it. Never Chide on the dummy or anything so I don't actually know how it works. Sir Can do it right and if you are CPR certified. You're actually like legally responsible for doing it unless they decline so right and if they're just and it's like just quickly forget the why. I mentioned that Milazzo completely harmless is because like I said I didn't notice actually overdose in the opiates. It was just a wild guess. I was just GonNa admit as a lot. So what happens? I could no accidents myself right now. Nothing's going to happen. Because it's completely nontoxic is just all does block the OPIOID receptors. So you don't have to feel some hesitation in giving it to them. There's not gonna be some weird interaction. Where if you guessed wrong. You made the wrong assumption that now you're causing harm to them like really won't do anything he just weighs near the Laaksonen upset but if they happen to be overdosing something else or a right. I thought maybe she was having a heat stroke or something because she was laying in the sun on the ground collapsed so if it was something else maybe it wouldn't have revived or in that moment but it went down any harm but I I guess so. Yeah you know I just wanted to say that. But that out there because a lot of people don't realize that Nelson was not like. Yeah this drug that you know causes. Had your body's work differently. In some other way in acknowledges blocks the receptors all it does and so that allows the body the body time to recover from rates. I mean it's like similar to an EPI pen to like if you come across somebody who's unconscious and like you know the Narcan doesn't work and you've got nappy pin on you. Like use it like because if I were is unconscious on the ground you know. There's a good chance that somebody's not going to know that. I'm allergic to bees. I could've been not person at the bus bus. Stop unconscious and you know it wouldn't have been an opioid overdose for me. It probably would have been an allergy situation. You know. People go into anaplastic shock and they can't speak for themselves and you know if it goes far enough they'll be unconscious and injecting somebody with an EPI pen at worst if you quote unquote do it wrong. You know you're just Gonna. It's just going to be a little bit painful. But they're gonNA thank you like you're not gonNA hurt 'em. Epinephrine is not harmful neither. Is The hawks loan like you know and the same thing goes with like CPR. Like you know Mohawk. I know you said like you're not a CPR certified. And I'm sure a lot of folks listening to this or like Damn I'm not certified either in it's like I am but I will tell you like yes. Get certified in Yes. There is a protocol and it does change like every so often. However if you don't know cpr the basic things you need to know. L. Is you know clearing the airway of somebody's. You know like throw a no seeing if there's any obstruction and their breathing into their airway and you're going to want to try and break ribs so I mean leg do do those chest. Compressions like yeah. I understand that the the the process but yeah. It's definitely important for people that globe you. You're my brakes from resolute desk Totally but it will save their life in you know yes. You might not always to be honest. I'm GONNA be strong enough. Not Everyone's GonNa thank you because they're gonNA come out of this being completely discombobulated sexually. It doesn't overdose situation. They're not that. I know that you were reviving them. Overdose or for some Like sometimes they. Sometimes they just filling out. You just ruined my high or whatever. Because because it's blocking those receptors now they're basically going into withdrawal so that's going to be very uncomfortable for them or very confusing for them. But you know you're doing the right thing I if something is basically you know. Hey if you're using drugs in a public setting where I might find the overdosing like I don't give a damn venue. You know forfeit your your like autonomy to be able to like go into a deep. Coma TOAST STATE WITH OPIO. It's like if you look like you're having a medical emergency overdosing. You're laying out on the bench in the subway station or whatever if I'm not getting the feedback from you on grinding my knuckles on your chest in pensioneer Soviet. I'm GonNa Arcane you. I'm going to revive because I'm trying to do the right thing. And they're going to be grouchy about it. But Hey yeah you know what? You're not dead at least now. You can do to choose but you're not dead like sorry you're uncomfortable but apparently you went a little too far. Something went awry and you overdose. You know I think that's a very real thing that people should know to all of that all of that's perfect okay. So Mohawk like basis been amazing Eufor Hainan so much fucking information like this is an incredibly valuable Resource for folks. That are listening. Better probably hearing you know. Radicalized perspectives on drug use in harm. Reduction is probably a lot of folks first time even hearing the words harm reduction. And so you know I just WanNa thank you for all that you do in terms of educating and even just like living your life and coming up on random. Odeon people like saving saving asses right. Holy got do you know. I hope that we'll do something like that for me. If I ended up in situation like you know pass out in some or whatever like for your fellow folks especially ills a woman of color in the ground out there. That definitely was not going to let her go you. There were all fucking struggling. We gotTA HELP EACH OTHER OUT HELL. Ya In lake. I'd rather like ask for forgiveness later. You know what I mean like you fucking mad at me for saving. I'll accept that. That's that's a better alternative than like you. I didn't do something you know what I mean like. Yeah so Yeah they're deathly ELLIPOID. Guilty Conscience Literally people tell leg discouraging Don't touch her body or do anything. Because you know you can get sued or some weird like by Misunderstanding of law. Like no we have Samaritan rights array of Good Samaritan Rights which are laws which basically give protection to people trying to help save someone's life and even the person who's victim of you know something like an overdose like she would not have been arrested or anything. She just would have gotten a medical aid that she needed like people will again. That goes to understanding the laws home. Lick up your local leg. Good Samaritan Laws. Because it's true even not even just a overdosed by also you know for folks that are unresponsive in your In a situation whether you're thinking about giving somebody CPR. Chances Are you're protected under good rates like you can touch them. You can start to give them. Cpr If they become conscious in decline then you gotta back off but otherwise you're good to go you know so any this has been fucking awesome. I'm so glad that you were able to join me for this Mohawk. Thank you so much for heavily added competition. Yeah I'm super stokes. I can't wait to hear the feedback from folks and I know this is going to spark a lot of really good conversations that need to be had in the community. So can you tell us where people can find you your work and how they can support you whether bats through like social media or if you have a website or like if they learn something from you listening this show if there's a way that you know they'd like to pay you tip you. In addition to of course like you're GONNA be paid to be on the show by being by You know if they WANNA throw some extra cash at you for your Labor you know if you want to drop your cash shop Ravenna. Whatever like what are the ways that people can get involved and support you? Yeah so on social media On facebook and instagram good finally at Mohawk. That's Moha W. J. D. Educator. That's T. H. E. E. D. U. C. A. T. O. Ara The educator. That is kind of were most active instagram and facebook. A lot of posts across posted to face going out and as far as financial APPs. Uk Ed finally on a cash APP and then Mo at Mohawk Green and it's green with me on the end G. R. E. E..
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"In hand magellan was killed by filipinos our dr lockwood who like straight up cut that dude's head off get off our who assists sisters who are tapping into their connection to their ancestors who want to dispel the fear around it and then to start on of like the beginning of the teaching unit i i in a position to hold the title of teacher at this time and just to be in honoring of those who are those who are my teacher who get really clear to folks that i'm here facilitating the work that our teacher jamie has given me permission to do so i go out and i teach i do educate the young people might always in that point but i educate our sisters here do facilitation of their continue the training until the next time jamie can be in the same space and i am the one that leads up like all of the ancestral remembrance work and do this talk and hold space which stirs to do that amidst all of it so so that's what that is guts immediately wish he can see me right now but i'm just like super excited about everything you're talking about so interestingly enough and it's not surprising that you and i should cross paths at this time i to carry a lot of warrior energy and a lot of times it's like the first thing that people notice and you know part of my process lately i think for like the last year so has been reckoning with righteous rage and undoing spiritual colonial spirit ritual trope which is that my anger is there because it's meant to be pacified or healed or other ways turned into something else or fixed or whatever the colonial bullshit is and and none of that ever likes that right with me is like that just really feels like counterintuitive it fuels counter to what my body wants to do in i hold a lot of anger and a lot of rage and i'm one of those people that when i am angry i always say it's like like i'm like asked iron skillet like once i get heated it takes me a long time to cool off because i'm lake that heated and reckoning without on a spirit level like took a lot of lenk deconstructing colonial spiritual principles of like what it means to be spiritually hold all or what it needs to be quote unquote enlightens or whatever and interestingly enough what brought me into you wholeness ways ditching that colonial bullshit number one and in its place ringing in like indigenous is wisdom and being like oh hey the part of me that that colonial shit is trying to rid of is the indigenous part of me because my ancestors hell yes they were warriors part of my ancestry is a ball coda sue and in my ancestry's indeed apache and you know one of the things that i grew up being told my whole life was that i'm anytime i would like burrowed over to like just an angry apache woman or hot blooded indian like that type of thing and you know a bit like felt like i could feel it will yeah like that's in my blood and so then i started to realize that if it was feeling counterintuitive want to do away with that there is a reason for that is because you know i don't want to lay down by ancestral gifts man's astral wisdom and so i was like okay well then what do i do with all this talking rage and that's where like you were saying like one of the great ways of channelling that raged through activism and i think there's an a very important delineation that needs to be made in the spiritual world and that you know you and i are saying it speaking it now and i hope many people here it is that you know there's more than one type of anger there's abusive manipulative anger and then there's like anger that actually comes through a place of love i think that that's where her ours comes from and so it's interesting because a lotta times i feel like even even in social media i don't know if it works this way for you but i feel like people really really love me when i'm like you know chill or happy or you know have something light and fluffy to say when i am like you know if it down for them like this is not okay like this is not gonna fly with me like you know just really like speaking truth to power all of a sudden people like shook in like don't know what to do or you know feel some type of way about seeing a spiritual person and place they've range yeah i had one kherson the other week goodness dot person say they ended up unfaltering me which is really funny 'cause they let me know they're like i have been falling you for a while but and follow him like okay but they were like these said something to the effect of light clearly clearly i was living negatively lead the way the matt i'm being misguided by anger and i was like misguided by anger what do you mean miss guided by anger or like anger is showing me like you said it's a compass it's a compass and so for the folks at home that are listening you know if you feel angry good have and you know like i'll be real like i don't know i think sometimes i say it like in my instagram stories like a kind of jokingly say joking in a loving waves but i really do wake up angry a lot and it's not for because i want to wake up that way like you know what i mean it's it's just by nature of being who we are in the world that we existed in like from the moment we wake up shit gets real and so one of the like the biggest learnings understandings that i have like being a healer and also translated into warrior work as well as they there's a difference between being reactionary and relational who and that when we are in a position of being relational and that we live and we we we you know rude ourselves in the relationship goals that yeah anger is always going to be a part of the way that we walk it's going to be a part of rich in relation to a world that is devastating and so many different ways that we come up against so many injustices mom the anger is always present we always is and for is to like the moments when we don't have all of our emotions kind of flowing through us and you a lot of folks try to draw away from that right like the more we looking for joy primarily and it's like no joy can't happen without sorrow you know and i think about khalil gibran and like the prophet and his work around that in that understanding and all of the different prolific folks that have written about that balance in understanding now we can't just live in one or the other all new nobody like that compartmentalizing incomes from colonist mentality whom it is another tactic in a way of controlling us from being able to stand up to the injustice in so i'm angry all the time to says and i learned how to hold that like in a relational way just like you're saying on i think that folks that we should learn to to be in that more because the the reactionary is when it becomes depleting rate when we feel like we like folks and healing that happens to right we just wait until world hella in need of the healing we go look for like some healing work creighton mom as opposed to being in a place where we are always in relation to our what tom and we are always like holding down our bodies in our spirits and listening very carefully to win it stay when in relation our bodies in our spirits are being like yo you need to take good care at all the time who time learning how to do that consistently is extremely important i also like always drawbacks the land and like the lessons of the land on and we've seen you know the land is like shaking in the land is like waking up angry the amount of heat waves that are happening here on the east coast like in new york and just like the flood like the lateness of our summer and just like mom you know the earthquakes are like the storms like what happened in new orleans recently or you know all of those things are in relation to the way that we've been treating like this this planet you know and so mother earth is like angry waking up angry every single day it's like so unpredictable on we never know what she's like coming up with a hurt predictable because he's she's taking in all the things that we're doing in mass that are devastating her rating in zoellick i also like you know call in like the the warriors on on mona KRA now you know i was born and raised in hawaii and i was speaking to two sisters that i've been circling about this consistently in the past couple of days like when i was growing up in hawaii in the kingdom of hawaii and i'm so humbled to say that i was able to be raised there like the learnings of the hawaiians like the indigenous people is extremely occurs in on the land the moment that you walk in there even even though like tourism has trying to take over in a lot of different ways on our end hawaii is one of the most magical places near and that magic is because of the way that the people protect the land and they have continued to hold true to that role in relation to her and so what you see in a place like new york work is that people are not doing that they're relational you know and or the relational and the relationship that they have with the land is that they take her for granted that they don't realize that even though we're on concrete we are on sacred land still and and so like these types of things and i'm just like i'm just always thinking about how folks do that like ranks and it's like it makes me so devastated all the time like with the way that we don't take care of our hood mood so what happens is that like the freaking contractors and the corporations are coming through and cleaning up what we haven't been doing because colonization has made it that way for us you know that were that we live on in a state of distress consistently that we can't even pick up our own trash and can't take a moment to take of our homes because of the way that we're always struggling to survive all of it and so now they're coming into our hoods and they're like starting you clean it and late change it up and we're no longer gonna live here anymore ohio so it's gonna be a state of reaction so now folks wanna clean the which yeah let's do it now let's begin to build the foundation so we don't have to be reactionary more that we can actually be relational rate so that's like one of the things that i try to hold even when i'm like in mike at odds are conflict with someone on social media or whatever i'm like am i being reactionary am i being relation l. like where's the balance and sometimes just like yeah i've being held a reactionary right now because these goals needs to be checked real yard yeah i i think that's valid though too like i think pillow valid i i'm with you like it's it's more rare these days there are times where i give myself permission and i hand a hand the wheel over to my shadow and i'm like have added girl yeah go ahead and decapitate this with a lot of bullshit like a lot of bullshit on with like i'm sorry medicare's oh yeah the way out it's just been a lot of fucker like own folks just kind of lay telling us like like some folks trying to pin us with somebody title jane and i'm like gimme a second note let me you're like in your army was actually happening here is you're not a business or capitalist zig venture like i want to get that very very straight like a lot of.
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Space where queer trans disabled people of color share wisdom experiences at the intersection of spirituality and revolutionary thoughts on your host megan alexandria of revolutionary mystic revolutionary mystic is my business where i do my work as a psychic medium a hoot worker evolutionary astrologer and spiritual teacher revolutionary mr also an online community of radical witches and spiritual seekers around the world this work and podcast is named revolutionary mistake because my spirit guide sent me a message clara gently with the wisdom that each of us in the league carries the potential to wheeled our power a revolutionary way and that we are the remedied you all that seeks to destroy us in indigenous ways so today i have the privilege and honor of chatting with my dear friend in our guest jail hydrogel hey has gland it's going pretty good i'm really excited to chat with you today for those of us that are tuning in can you tell us a bit about who you are and your identity your pronouns on what you do share i'm actually gonna introduce myself to you of my full given name many mistakes lynn tara big my mother's rosemary called tara we'd big in my father is good through you big my family comes from the northern part of the philippines in an area caldy local my mother's from local snort day and a good putin my father is from local store in santa maria and i also lived currently on that not be territory was born and raised in the kingdom of squarely on in honolulu in about me so that's the those are the line origins that had raised me up on that i currently occupied and i go by she heard but preferably like just to hear my name here and there you know in jail was a given name to me out here in new york city by some of the young people i work with and also some comrades kinda stuck with me since and so jails always real good as well also also perfect i love how you gave the full lake it's like almost like an indigenous perspective introduction and that's something but inspiring me right now like i want to introduce myself that's actually a teaching friends one of my elders out here in the diaspora in one of the police that i have is that when i name my mother and my father for a living ancestors that i can but i know that i can recognize their name fully that the names of all the ancestors who i don't know oh can be echoed in might be called in so yeah yeah way to bring it i love that okay so thank you welcome in thank you for joining me here's hey how are you you just finished traveling wanna know yet so i just came back from the aloni end donald territories i've been traveling just for this number i'm fulltime schoolteacher doing the nine to five or really like six to like eight PM mom on the the daily but summer vacation is a great time liberation for us to just kind of like be in a place like replenished schmancy also just being able to do things that are caused us to and so i'm able to do a little bit of the sacred work that i want to during the summertime that i have undoing in connection to mike teaching on during the school year by guitar like really invest so i was out there actually visiting family and also going to on a really lovely like union of one of my college roommates share at her wedding and so i was out there for that but wherever it is avalon also answer the call that community makes for me to do circle so i was out in arizona territory for those that don't know what that territory is that on a ladder than northern california bay area area is territory in so i was out in san francisco in oakland in san francisco i was at the manhunt center in soma doing a really beautiful sharing encircle with a group of women doing this work that i have been cultivating called talk story long story being tradition trim the hawaiian culture that i grew up with where you're just like sitting around in the lower like the living area it's like having family time and chaman when the elders all of a sudden you start to talk and then all of the wisdom starts the and you just kind of take you in it's it's not necessarily like a formal setting but it's meant for lessons to be gathered end so sex talk story is what kind of work that i've been doing to relieve lake transmute the shame that we've been experiencing in our communities and be in ashamed of really understanding home the power of sex power of like sexual energy that is rooted in the indigenous understanding of nature e of women's bodies and so we've been doing a lot of alive just kind of historical unpacking of the colonization of the bodies into the land of the philippines talking and dismantling sex work because you know in the philippines we have a lot of prostitution that has been really on shaped by colonization and militarization of our land and then also talking about a lot of the ways that the catholic church had also created a lot of that shame home a lot of the feelings that our body is on have to be covered or lake that we can't activate our sexual powers trying to do really deep work of relearning some indigenous understanding in practice of our sexual energies so that was what i was doing on a loan territory on its in san francisco soma and then i went to oakland with my partner in crime and my sister jaime young of its who is the founder survival arts randy have grown partnership with each other in the past year on have been doing some work called sacred survival sisterhood which integrates the ancestral in political framework that i do around decolonization all with the forum of colleen which is a form of filipinos fighting arts that most jamie and the i partake in and that jamie has been teaching and been like really cultivating learning space for women on and not just ciswomen but those that are also on transgender and non gender binary so we are doing these circles take continuously now and so we did one in oakland by lake merritt and then we went over to towbar ends circled the long beach area with a group of women at nor e data on really like revolutionary sacred space that oak should be connected to a few are in long beach h. dope work on as run by a really on dope sister named bama miami swiss herbalist and an energy healer just really don't people so you know i'm coming back from all that energy all that sisterhood and it's really really dull and i'm just trying to take it really good care now of just like the last few days of my summer to to spend some time with my partner ambien home and yeah just ready myself so is a lot right no that was amazing and sure everybody else that's listening assist like wow this is amazing and flake it just makes me so happy to hear that there are all these amazing things happening and that you're doing in creating willoughbys amazing spaces and ensure a lot of folks are just like it's opening their eyes to like while there are things like this salable and you know i think it's good that you're here talking about it that way people know that they can look for things like this you know that uh-huh we don't have to be i mean more or less like we're pretty surrounded by colonialism and that is oftentimes i find very kind of suffocating or feels intrusive and harmful so knowing that we can seek out these types of spaces and if they don't exist that it's also an option to be somebody like you and to go out and create these species because they're so important and so what i want to talk about next is a section that i call what's good and it's inspired by a podcast that's also based out of the otani territory which is also known as oakland california close to where i live here in the bay area and the podcast is called hella black and i love hella black it's really good podcast if you haven't heard it before highly suggest anybody check it out it's just two brothers talking about relevant things and important subjects that one of the things that they begin their show it is a section called black joy and they share what has been black joy for them whether it was something in current events or something in their own person the lives and since i don't have strictly black folks on this podcast we have you know a variety of POC which is awesome therefore i decided to call my version of this section what's so jail i wanna know what's good right now for you on your path and then after an you sure i'll follow yeah you know what's really good right now is relation like just relationships are a lot there's a lot of light around me in the current you know i think that one we're on a path of doing this liberation work sometimes on nations don't necessarily stay intact 'cause you're differing views and a lot of folks become very divisive and there's a lot or righteous birds competition in eagle and there's all these different things start to come up and so for a long time just wasn't in the place of bill ending the deep relationships that i could in the work and i was building spaces where folks could do that what each other when was distancing myself because of some past hurts that i had in trying to build really deep foundations of creating future relations that would be like these are the folks going to help me raise my children and so i have a lot of experiences of just strike betrayal and a lot of feeling booming in whatever direction they needed to for themselves and and that was like for awhile and this past year and like just like today it's like it's really really in my heart i feel like i look around me and i see the mirrors that are next to me and they are people who are totally in line with the walk that i've been called to answer in a feel also so good just about the way that those individuals are people that can check me and i can check and a you know sometimes that's another part of why relationships can't deep in his folks you know what i started to feel an i i'm sure you feel this as a healer as well there were many times when i felt like people were just rolling with me because they needed some drama for a long time was that i also felt like people weren't willing to check me or that if i checked someone like i was really dislike doing the work of being hey look i'm seeing that there's something that's going on here that i don't feel like it's aligned with eggs kumasi you as greater self that you know they would out 'cause it was just like i don't feel j. with someone telling me about the parts of myself that our shadows which you know we all have our homeys that like our chila cheerleaders and those are hallam in as well the ones that will always be like yet girl i'm totally with you or someone if you're in a conflicting situation they're always gonna take that's when you know that there are people who are willing to to grow with you enter growing so i feel that with the people that work with in closest proximity with my sacred work i also you'll that with my partner i love him so much like honesty that really loud folks which like you know being in a long term like hetero normative relationship for such a long time it's been very difficult to really unpack hot of the dynamics that happened patriarchal clean the and i feel like we begin gun soleil creates and solidify some strong rituals that have been elevating the relation and have allowed us to be in question about how our relationship is truly be in line with liberation so i feel good about relation right now is amazing thank you for sharing about relation you know and it totally i was totally in a mentioned something else but then once he started talking about relation and one of the things that i am realizing as you were speaking uh-huh when you and i talked before we started recording when i talk to you reached out that whole process is in a deepening relation for me and i don't know if you can relate to this but in doing this work especially in really really holding accountable lady and really really holding integrity it doesn't gain me a lot of friends living in truth in aligning with revolutionary living in thinking and such like that and so by nature of like beginning who i am an existing the way i do and living the way we live like it's it's gotten a little isolating and you know especially.
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Ben. Mo and people information are on <hes> instagram's so if y'all are interested that yet it's just right there and you can always send me funds will never ever reject them. You can also l. like send me funds to offer low and free readings to buchan indigenous people. I loved the redistribution of resources in that way and i look forward you too like connecting with everyone. <hes> greatest support me is just a follow me if you're not interested in acquiring my services to just share offering services with folks who you know would benefit just liking commenting in promoting folks of color who are doing this work in which color yeah hell ya in lake the other the thing is like i think it's really important for those of us. Who are allies or whatever it is important to know who you can direct folks folks to like <hes> you may not be the appropriate witch for working with you know certain populations of people. You know what i mean like i will happily direct you know <hes> some of my chance brothers and sisters to another <unk> at least offer that up because that's really really really really fucking important. Yes so you know that's one way that i've inc you know folks should consider supporting as as well if they're not directly interested in service. It's yes agreed. Have your spreadsheet have your spreadsheet of like. Oh and i do like as a healer. I do all the time unlike like i can do. Astrology readings like really basic level but no that's not my thing so have you know going to send people to make the people in my other friends especially like i try really hard to send people to black folks like would you move. We make an hour talking about this before we got on on but you know lots of white which is lots of capital in power. So how do we like network and resource share with folks who are more marginalized that are also doing work doc and an easy way to do that is just have your resource sheet so somebody needs something that you don't offer. It's really easy to just be like oh. This person i've had good experiences. I've heard good things <music>. Here's their site absolutely and like for the folks listening at and all of my students are probably going to laurie now because i i this is what i do. You have homework now. I would like you all go into your social media obscene and intentionally like if you were only following following white witches. You need to fix that <hes> if you were only following skinny. Which is you need to fix that following. Which is you find attractive active. You need to yes so if you were only following sis like whatever like you need to fix that shit okay and you know if you are falling which is and you are directly benefiting from their work their content you need to share exchange energy and first and foremost in capital if you can and if you cannot then there are other ways you can. Yes there are other ways there. <unk> are like and i'll just say this real quick because i feel like people don't know but there is totally like there's a button on instagram where you can share someone's profile you go to their profile page in the three dots in the right can corner you say share profile is message if the public especially and you. I like this the other day i sent this. Are this musician. She's an amazing musician. I sent her father like two hundred people okay and because you could send it to like thirty people at once. It took me five seconds. Instigate the same message. I think it was a half an hour of work and she got like one hundred fifty followers from latte plus. You can copy and paste like yup. I did that shit it. I did it and people were like. Is this a chain message fix. Yes it is former anyways totally easy like easy and you send it to people and be like i. I think you'd really benefit from this. If you don't have money you probably know someone who does or you know someone who knows people who do like do it do it. Just spend fifteen minutes..
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Yes you will continue continue to mess up. Will it is a four tact in pennock it away from it like it's an it's your fault and it's also not your fault so so just take take ownership for that yeah yeah. Oh one of the best examples shade my good friend god. We've been friends since we were eight years old decades ago now but ah she's also a guest on this podcast. I'm really looking forward to you and everybody else hearing our conversation and also i love this example ball but she shared with me and i know she got it from like a t._v. Show or a movie or something but it was so brilliant and i can't remember what it was but i i will tell you what the gist of it was and that was like so it goes. Racism is white people's dog <hes> and so you know like when your dog bite somebody. It's not technically your fault because you didn't written bite them but you're still responsible for the fact that it happened yet. This is that you know like you have to take ownership ownership for <hes> you know the things the actions that happened that you either have directly caused like if you did actually actually directly bite somebody or <hes> if something that you wheeled you hold causes somebody harm. You also have to take responsibility for that too. Yeah and that's just that's like that's one of those like intent versus impact and i have like endless endless conversations. I have had where i'm just feel like. I'm robots repeating to someone that like your intention is irrelevant yob. Your pension mentioned is irrelevant and it's also censoring yourself and servicing those feelings of us like you said like being in service to yourself so intentions like they are important to an extent obviously if it's someone who is like out there in the world and they have malice and they're trying to hurt people. That's a different conversation station than if someone who is maybe not trying to hurt people but regardless if the hurt person is still hurt yeah. I basically ed practices to the point where i don't even bring my intentions up when i'm apologizing. I like i was like this shits. Gotta die. I deleted it from my vocabulary. Delete delete delete by my intentions are just not it's not a priority not relevant unless someone asks then. I could be like oh you know. Somebody asks like what the fuck where you why. How did you do that. Oh fuck and even still don't like removing my intentions as as a centerpiece for when that stuff happens even when people ask ask usually at this point i don't. I don't even really have an answer. I was also. I fucked up like there's it doesn't really matter like the truth of the matter is is impacted. This person like this and i care about my impact on a care about these folks so i'm only going to highlight my impact like i'm only going to work with with my impact because if i mean if someone comes to me if i if i came to you megan and i was like you hurt my feelings and then you're like no i didn't it wasn't my intention. The feelings are still hurt. You saying that didn't make my feelings any less hurt so now you just you look like a jerk and i still i still feel hurt and i feel unheard which is worse now. I feel like i can't even have a conversation with you because you didn't hear me when i told you that yup so one one of the other things that i really love i keep repeating inside of like my inner dialogue over and over and over and over and over again. Is that like an apology. Apology without changed action is just a manipulation <hes> voice jesus <hes> it's so true and like that's another impacting whereas like i didn't mean to manipulate. You bet you didn't do the work. <hes> you lied. I'd actually you said you were a story. You said you're sorry you implied or said that you were going to do it again. And then you did not do the work to follow through and and this is a part of the reason that my last excited workout because there was a lot of emotional manipulation and guilt tripping and gas lighting and kevin happening and i was like you keep apologizing rising for gas leading me but you keep gaslight me and and this is wrong like i don't care if i can't name a for exactly what it is. This feels wrong and it keeps happening. I don't trust you need to like this is where that shit shows up. Y'all like yeah you can apologize. Apologies are extremely important like it's the first step though oh like without anything else. It's just a wish like it's nothing more. Oh totally and i'm like it's more or less like the formality leading up to the real apology. Which is your follow through. You know what i mean like. I just and maybe it's because i'm in areas and have a bunch. It's your fire in my chart but i'm like i could give a shit less about your words. I wanna see yeah like don't tell me show me yes and honestly yeah. I've been in that position where i actually decided not to apologize at all not in a way in which i obviously i said like i own day. I was like like that fucking sucks but i didn't even try to do it again. I'm so sorry this is what happened. I was just like i'm gonna show you that yeah and that's that's another thing that really needs to be heard and said is that like sometimes an apology is not even appropriate response for some types of harm harm. That's been caused. Oh yes you know what i mean. And that's why i say it's like. It's kinda just like fucking formality most of the time okay now so you know before we start wrapping steph up because you and i will record podcasts and one i would so do you have anything that you don't have to because we are not responsible for teaching our white allies however we we do know that the <hes> the air here with us. You have the mike. You have a chance to address. I'm is there anything that you would like to either. Ask them or share share with them or tell them in terms of them being a better ally in ways that you need them to be a better ally a <hes> and it doesn't have to just be like white folks that can be anybody who's like outside of your identities he yes. I feel like one the thing that we all need to work on in in a thing that is just like not. I don't think it's like so okay. I this is what i'm trying to say. There's a difference between fragility the end sensitivity and we talked about like how there's a lot of power sensitivity but there is not a lot of good that comes from fragility and it's a fine firing line and i feel like it it can easily show up in these types of situations where it's okay to be like upset that you hurt someone lying batances in response actually but to take up that space and to center yourself when you have caused harm does no one good and it's actually it's not doing a service yourself either. Though i feel like a simple call to action that i could make for why allah is an everyone one like folks in general who wants to do better by marginalized people is think about fragility like think about the ways in which your fragility shows up when you're feeling especially when you're feeling uncomfortable and you wanna like deflect away from those feelings that is a moment where you should actually lean into those feelings yeah so you know if you thought that maybe have caused harm but like nobody is ever calling you out on it. It doesn't mean that you're you never cause harm it. It means that people don't feel safe and comfortable telling you that you so just thinking about stuff like that thinking about ways in which like where's my fragility showing up. How can i be less centering myself in these conversations because to be like to be really ryan honest like their situations in the past where i showed up in a really fragile way and i was really defensive and because of that i lost opportunities to like repair harm that i'd done and it's happened on the other end to where i've had people who were just like so fragile. I like gave up on trying to have those conversations with them. Yeah i want white allies to know that we reserve the right to do that. Yes as you know people people who've experienced your harm. We do not have to forgive and forget and like continue to you connect with you. We can say all right like i've had i reached my limit. You no longer have the opportunity to cause type of heart and i think that's really important to say because i've had to do that a lot in my lamb <hes> where i had to remove the opportunity from folks and it's you know it doesn't really have much to do with them so much as it has to do with my own self loves yes just looking out for me and it's like just respect that and for the other spiritual tool folks around you like him the other spiritual folks around me lake do not recommend radical forgiveness when somebody he says i have had enough of giving this person the opportunity to cause me harm yes because sometimes it's forgiveness isn't an appropriate response. <hes> just like the apology thing you know. There are some things that are so agree. Gis forgiveness is not the answer and i just think about the spiritual narrative that i can't drive home so yes that resonates on like deep deep levels levels and yeah for like for marginalized folks are for non white folks to just reminding all the like it is okay hey to take those steps back. It's located like protect your energy. It doesn't mean you're not compassionate. Were like not accepting of allies in their work like we deal with a lot especially like like an indigenous folks in the americas and we need to have boundaries yeah and sometimes having having good boundaries looks like this night yeah and it doesn't mean you're not in love centered it like be cautious of those like love and light in white mint tropes and because the thing is like it is about love and i will always put the love of i i will put the love of myself before bat even in so just just knowing that like those practices bat is pro black that is indigenous that is queer as fuck to put yourself. I in to say no more opportunities to do this anymore. K. thanks yeah it's healthy and it's perfectly spiritual too so yes and if you're on the other end of that and someone like tells you that like sure it's going to her that sucks but just like first first and foremost respect it respect that it something that happened because of new and learn from it like what can i learn from this. How can i grow so that it doesn't happen happen again and how can for yourself too right and for other folks like don't don't the growth so that you hope one day. This person will give you another chance. Do the growth because says you don't wanna be in a situation like this yeah and if you need to like you can like you know dedicated indicated in their honor. You know this is like in honor of this amazing relationship that i no longer get to have. I'm i'm i'm going to dedicate myself in this way you know end of my days and that is a perfectly respectable way to <hes> <hes> make amends. I guess so matt solid gnaws at what i wanna ask you before we start. They're getting ready to go. Can you tell us where all the awesome folks at home can find you and your work mark and how how can support you. What ways do you want to be supported whether bats through social media or if you have a website or you you know if there's what's at home but have learned something from you if they have received something that has shifted or you know created some type of healing motivation nation inspiration and they'd like to compensate you for your labor. You all also welcome to direct them to your cash app. Your venture the pay pal etcetera. Let us know what is this. What do you how can we. How can we find you express so right. Now i mean my i services are expanding on a regular basis so it's always good to be linked up with me on social media but right now i am offering like tarot orkla readings to the public like i also make like healing pendants for folks who are looking to do specific type of crystal healing work and for people in the area i do like house cleanses and house blessings all of my stocks my instagram facebook at my website. It's healing with nauseating. <hes> my name is spelt n. as easy as in zebra a. i n. So that's healing with nausea and my cash up in ben..
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Wanna sit with that uncomfortableness. Why am i on comfortable at someone's angry and even if it's anger towards me. Why am i e uncomfortable with that if it is that the fact that i have caused harm why is me being confronted about harm is caused making me uncomfortable when i was the one causing harm lever important fucking questions like while the truth is usually it comes back like ego fragility and like <hes> centering ourselves when we need to be actually actually like centering other people's feelings and experiences is okay john center yourself and shit like it's okay to be like oh this like i caused harm and now i need to figure out a way to make amends. I need to repair right. We talk about reparations. Reparations isn't always like giving somebody money like that's what people think. Oh you wanna take my money well. Yes you should be fucking giving back and indigenous people your money but it's also about repairing harm. That's been done <hes> reparations repair pair. So how do i like repair. Make amends for harm that i've caused for harm that my more privileged and powerful ancestors have caused for harm that my family has caused a my friends have caused because like just feeling guilty or shame or being uncomfortable is honestly kind of useless. It's totally useless but you're like doing like you're almost doing the opposite of nothing like it would be better just not respond totally. Those feelings are also service to you. You know what i mean. It's not you're still not benefiting person that it needs to benefit yes s. antigen service of white supremacy again yeah continues to uphold and protect your fragility and your ego over centering like the the harm that has been caused should write a book but we should. Maybe we are right now. I feel like we are i i can. I don't know if i can here. You're see you taking notes one of the two i am. This is perfect. <hes> okay so let's get into so all of us have work to do yeah and <hes> i wanna know about where your current growth edge is and where you're holding yourself accountable accountable right now <hes> in your work and what that looks like okay. I'm going to take a breath so there have been and also like shout out to mercury retrograde <hes> in just a great time for me to do reflection and for like these opportunities have just been presenting themselves like leapt into right like okay gnaws. Here's here's where you're fucking out and then i sit with for like twelve hours and it's like another one like okay you thought about that. Here's another area where you and i think like receiving receiving that with open arms and with just like love and compassion both for myself and for the folks who are doing the work to bring this to my attention has been one area where i've been doing work just like if somebody tells you that you've heard them or like a situation arises where there is an opportunity for you to be accountable. That's a blessing <hes> like the first thing you should do is like the universe and that person for taking that time to love you enough has to show you ways in which you're making error you know it reminds me of. I said it to this white woman because they were causing unharmed and the order. I like as nicely as i could. Let them know like this is harmful. This is why knock it off and and they were or super defensive and they totally started fragment on me and you know then they of course accused me of being hostile and like and like look. It's the equivalent to me being nice enough to tell you you have shit on your face. Yes a lake. It's like that like when somebody tells you a you've caused harm. They love you enough to let you know that this is a little cock on your cheek dog and you to wipe it. You know what i mean like. That's how you need to receive see bet because it's so true we could just let you walk around like that is so so true so true so i mean and i feel like i am like i'm fearless enough to talk directly about some of the stuff that i'm working through because i want to be like vulnerable and accountable and i also want the people to feel empowered to really like be honest and open about the stuff that they're working through so one thing that's come up for me. Recently certainly is just around like perpetuating toxicity in intimate relationships <hes> because i have been i've been in a lot of violent relationships and ships in in a lotta ways like just kind of like the way the world works but i was like taught to be in relation to relationships through violence like one of the first communication methods so that was ever taught was violence like yelling and hitting to you like physical and emotional verbal violence like that is how i was taught to communicate because of that it's shaped like how i have relationships and how i move in relationships and a a lot has come up for me over the last few years just like that. I don't have a just not being in healthy relationships and whether it's like attracting getting folks who are abusive or perpetuating abuse and toxicity myself <hes> it's kind of a mix of both so my last relationship tip i actually like violated my own boundaries because i said that like i wasn't warning to be in relation to this person but we ended up getting together anyways and it blew up in my face <hes> because well i don't know it wasn't gonna work like it never was gonna work and i knew that and i- violated my own audrey and i like i like enabled this person's codependency and i let them enable codependency and i have like deep attachment wounds. Codependency is something that i've been like trying to works through and so this is you know this isn't like as related to the stuff we're talking about but it does show up in material ways as well like like my ex is very hurt and i'm hurt to like we are both like very hurt from the relationship that we had and it sucks it sucks that like we can't be in space together anymore and they are someone who is like more racially oppressed than i am and i want to be able to like repair at. I want both of us to be able to heal but the truth is like neither of us. We can't even between -cation right now because of what has happened so all i can really do as for like holding living myself accountable is moving forward mike being extremely committed and dedicated to breaking these cycles and patterns and really addressing ways in which like i like talk city is almost unnatural part of my relation you other people <hes> so i've been just taking a hard look in the mirror her all right like let's do this. Let's see these patterns like. I don't want to be this way. I want to be able to be burnable with people like i don't wanna have these toxic dependencies. I wanna be able to show up. I want to have healthy relationships and i wanna like repair air by relationship to relationships because i deserve and like the folks in my life deserve to have healthy relationship with me too yeah <hes> so that's definitely like one. That's been big on my mind. Okay in terms of i wonder if there there's probably ever like other folks listening in you know other queer trans guilty etc and so forth us listening in and i'm curious if you have any like like words of wisdom or you're like calls to action for them like just things around whether it's like the stuff you're working on that. You've found useful or just stuff around around the other stuff. We've been talking about that. You found useful you know since you have the mike all that good stuff and curious. You know what you had to share with us. Yeah <hes> yes so. I wanna share like another show too much about it because it's like in the works but there's another project. I've i've been working on lately with a few community members around like creating some sort of like coalition for accountability for like folks excluding trans folks in the bay area <hes> because we don't have something like that and i think that i've been thinking about this a lot like ways in which we can make it so that folks can actually do risk like against the term is restorative justice. I don't know how i feel about it that much but it's the idea that ah we're not just like perpetuating like isolating and punishing people when we do wrong but we're actually figuring out ways in which like heal and grow and move so that we can learn because at the end of the day we we as a community as a nation listen to not just our small community in the area but we talk a lot about healing and growth and empowerment and love and community and then when it comes time to like do that hard work when someone gets called in or call dow or their accusations made against someone else we don't actually have like structures and means and protocols to address these things so what ends up happening is people get socially and economically punished or they get socially and economically isolated and i'm not saying that there's like no value in that. Sometimes people need to be punished. I guess but i'm not i'm not as much interested in that as i am. The actual learning and growth can come from that right so i would say that like the first place to begin is just with accountability and thinking about like what does accountability mean what would that look like for me in this situation and that goes across the board that goes for like cycles cycles of harm that goes for intimate partner violence that goes for being racist or homophobic or just harming people in community. I think the first place to start is just with how like how can i own this shit because this for me. That's like what accountability is. It's owning your shit. It's owning. What were you like your positionally. What happened and even if that means means like we just have to take responsibility so even if you were in a position where somebody was really violent towards you. There are still things like it takes two to tango right and this is not one of those things where i'm saying like it's your fault you went through abuse. That is not at all what i'm saying. It's just it's just it's like an opportunity to take that magnifying lens and look at how you participated in what happened to you like on the ship that can happen to you and own the ship that you participated zepeda including on other people and a lot of time. We don't get the opportunity to actually repair with a person that we've directly caused heart to because then we talk to us or like we're not in contact where we can't communicate with them so that leaves that leaves you in space kind of like. Will you know what the fuck am. I supposed supposed to do or like nobody's really watching me. So why would it adder if i did this work but all we can really do be accountable to ourselves and the people who love us so oh i encourage folks always to try and like have conversations with people who love you who were like president for situations or around in your your life when stuff happened process with people who can hold space for you so that you can just have the opportunity to hear other points of views because a lot of the times a lot of the time people can get really invested in their own narrative of what happened and it doesn't mean it's wrong it. Just there's always like nuance and it's possible awesome that like there were two truths in a situation. It's possible that you hurt someone else and they hurt you so being accountable as looking at like. How did i hurt them. And how do they hurt me. How can i own what happens and learn from like learned like. Why did i do this. Why did i act this way. What was my response to being untreated this way or how did i perpetuate this. How did i violate someone else's boundaries. Where is this coming from like. Is it learned like how did my other relationships relationships in. My life participated. This right is something that's like. Intergenerational is is it the cultures you know hey cherokees argues that the dominant narratives where where the hell is all that coming from yeah i know i i i hear that yeah for sure exactly and and that's really like that's really where all we do. That's where we can start is by just trying to understand and interrogate investigate and and then if you are like blessed enough with the opportunity to address a person you've caused harm that is it's like the perfect time for you to practice casse showing up and seeing whether or not the work you're doing is deep enough or working right so if someone presents you with like hey this room you've caused like thank you have to work really hard to not like you said express feelings that are servicing you take yourself out of the narratives and focused solely on the person who is i'm doing you a favor by telling you harm caused and hold it hold it don't like uncomfortable but those feelings that you need to work through on your own though so just providing them with space and owning what happened apologizing for what happened but also taking that next step and figuring out ways that you can do the repairing of the harmless that done yeah as just saying. I'm sorry and i know what i did is not enough like you need to have a plan of action to address those hey beers. There's and you need to like you need to have like next steps to see like shh expression cleaned hind plan to show up in a different way next time something something like this happens yes and as a spiritual teacher i will say to just embrace that the work is lifelong..
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"With like dat nomenclature identify more with indigenous yup work but we know what you mean yeah yeah the point is that like it's a lot of like rub dir into your shins like rubber into your your scars and if you're gonna cry cry in the bathroom but you probably shouldn't cried all you're in control of your emotions so like you know i'd be a little kid and i was super sensitive and it'd be like dad. You hurt. My feelings like you upset me. He turned that on its head. We like actually like you're upset. You're the one who's in control of emotions. So why are you so upset. And of course i'm like fucking five as long bowling. What i really needed was like to be held but instead we get this. We get this thing where it's like. Just shut off or down. The drain like we don't have to have these things. We don't have to address them and i watched him as he got older. What happened was like the volcano geno just got closer closer to erupting because people want to pretend like not experiencing. The feelings means that they're not impacting you but that is it lie. <hes> needed a lie like acting you. If at anything the least what it's doing is taking up emotional and spiritual space inside your body like nick. I want everyone to just do a quick body. Scan like how your shoulders go right now your neck. Your back is at shitheads goddess of emotions in there that you're not experiencing appearance hottest <hes> it doesn't go away. That's not how we are. It's a lie like that is not how we are. We are extremely sensitive. Were extremely caring and loving and i do believe in my core that is like who we are in harm. Natural state is that we are loving caring compassionate passionate empathic beings. We just live in a extremely hostile environment. Oh yeah i always say like one of the most radical things one and can do is like reclaim your sensitivity in your tenderness. Oh hell yeah <hes> <hes> it took a long time about you kazeem but like when i was growing up i was a highly sensitive kid like i'm sure my mom is at home. I'm listening right now. When this airs and it's like yup that was a sensitive kid and you know that's okay but you know i grew up thinking even in like my mic stanley amongst like like my black family members my indigenous family members <hes> mike mexican indigenous indigenous family members all of them. I think it's part of it's like survival mechanism. The attitude was like i'll give you something to cry about which is like really abused or like oh you're sensitive to sensitive like it's viewed as a weakness but what i've come to realize is isn't adult is that it takes a tremendous amount of strength and fortitude to hold that much space for something so so big or or so heavy and that you know it really kinda ties into what we were saying earlier about spiritual bypassing in what you were saying that the feelings don't go away and so just by like stinking redirecting your attention somewhere positive doesn't make the negative shit go away aw the quote unquote negative shit. I actually don't even really like using like those polarity words by you. You know what i mean what i'm saying and it's like by focusing your energy on the easy shit. It doesn't make the hard shit go away yes and and that's why like spiritual bypassing is a fucking bonk spirit onset. Yes this my housemate housemate who she's an aquarius and i'm a libra most wondering so she we're about air signs right and you sometimes it's like whatever it's like eleven or twelve or registering their shelters dunk like one one liner knowledge statements and i love. I shake zone like in three days. I'll come back and be like dude and i remember recently adeniji told me like there's nothing wrong or bad about being sad or angry or uncut like those more quote unquote uncomfortable emotions there. They should not be like devalues the value but we devalue them even the language that used to discuss them so what she was saying was like. There's nothing better or worse about being sad bushes. This is like being happy like we should hold like crying and laughing to a similar standard because at the end of the day it's just an expression of emotion and and of course of course you want to see people happy joyous but the truth is that like to get to a point of like pure joy and happiness like we have to express the underlying sadness so if anything like pain and sadness and anger and frustration and irritability all of those more uncomfortable emotions we should hold old like value them a lot value them and the that's like an indigenous practice and like i'm just out and say it like okay so if you you think about what we culturally talk about as being negative quote unquote emotions things like anger sadness you know like all that stuff and think about how how that's actually like a colonial mindset and into himself result because i don't know about you but if you think about it like the settlers saw indigenous folks as us i mean even says an constitution merciless indian savages ask others so you know and i know especially really like specifically as an apache person like whenever i tell somebody that i'm apache. I know the first thing they're thinking of her. People people scalped people yes he did. That's actually something i'm proud of yeah. Bring those practices back just <music>. I'm not getting line but anyway what i'm getting at is that so of course i within this colonial societal construct of course anger and sadness in sensitivity is frowned upon on because it's like something you can connect with <hes> blackness. It's something you can connect with indigenous ways as of being an existing and it's meant to keep folks in line <hes> okay. It's meant to keep you with a in this form a like sociopathic patriarchy in like you know all the emotions that come with that and doing anything outside of that that threatens that so people are threatened by our sadness in our anger. I used to feel a lotta shave about my anger and this week by spirit guides. Keep keep yelling at me in the loving way the me a lot. It's school. We have that relationship but i've been meaning to like talk about it and post about it but that like my anger and my rage like those are my ancestral inheritances. This is n. Like it's time that we look at it that way to wow. That's something that i've inherited from them and it's not something we like to be shamed about or to set aside or to have some like you know white spiritual leader. Tommy is a low vibration okay. I'll no no because it comes from a place of love and i'm not surprised by this but like that just is what she said is really in alignment with like the work no thoughts that i've been delving into in the last week or so before we were recording as i was just talking with megan about how i <hes> went camping last weekend with a friend and i got to kinda do a little say on just in the middle of the redwoods in northern california and i invited both of our ancestors are indigenous ancestors specifically typically into the space with us an asset like ways in which we could honor them and they gave me a few different things were pretty cute but one of the things the they said actually was express righteous rage slow through the words was to express registration and i like celtic course through by blood when they said that like it was so such like a powerful experience to have and i wanna say in just a few things about what you said about it from like coming from love because it's true like and that's why it's important that we say it's righteous rage. It's like it's indignant. Net like this is rage that we're entitled to because of the circumstances under which were being treated and i think people are like deathly afraid of rage when they you think of anger or rage. They think i'd like oh me. Expressing that is going to be screaming or like fighting like throwing shitter yelling at and it doesn't doesn't have to be is is now. There's difference yeah and there are ways that we can do this that like honor our ancestors and the honor this land in the honor these people people like we can express righteous rage through our and that's like sitting i've been working hard on just doing like spoken word and writing poems and painting and drying and singing like that's shit that shit that so inherent to human nature is like singing and chanting and making music out of like hain in order or to express it and not hold it in our body and they want us to do this like they need us to do this. We need to do this. It is our duty to express breast. This righteous rage in it is our duty to like use it to fuel us to organize and to like find joy and happiness s. in community and connection like our righteous rage is power. Are centers is power. This is where our power lies. It does not lie in being able to hide the fact that you're cryer yeah. He's in being bold and like crying in public and that is where the power is. It's it's a gift and a blessing to and like one thing. I really need folks to do because i don't. I don't know if you experience as i get this and i gather it reminds me a lot of <hes> just like my experiences an indigenous person and it saw you know everybody wants. Everybody loves loves the indian. That's talking about like nature and legs. You know mellow shit but the second like the second. I'm real indigenous and i'm in my anger. Folks feel scorched by my myra gis region. What's really fucked dump about that. Is i really need folks to recognize that you're receiving a blessing okay so like when i i am angry and you are witnessing standing near receiving that fire that raged that comes from somewhere that is generations and generations deep that it is an offering a blessing and it is your job to receive it in such a way yes yes because you wouldn't stand in front of an elder who is handing you and offering and being like oh this really the hurts. My feelings like feel some type away and it's like no like you sit down. Shut up you. Listen and you wait until until they're done talking and you sit with it until you have you know something something is to offer you know or you just sit with an asset and also just like. I think that's really good. That's this is a really good like material. You you know activity for folks to go. A folks are thinking like well. How do i even like where i began highlighted. Start addressing this stuff. This is a great place to start just thinking about how how you respond to people's uncomfortable quote unquote emotions so and you know if someone is experiencing our expressing rage. It makes you uncomfortable and we go back to what i was saying. Which is like we must question everything that we've ever been taught in every feeling that we ever have i would go home and sit with myself in trying trying like dig intellect by because instinctually i wanna say like if i'm experiencing especially but someone who's more marginalized me especially racially marginalized originalist i want to be able to receive and hold their age and i also like. I want it to enrage me. That's how we should be responding is like wow oh wow this is so fucked up in injust and i'm not gonna like doesn't mean i'm going to take that region like put it on other people that means. I'm going to use this like i want to. This was a gift that was given to me. It's energy writing our energy and i'm going to go and i'm going to figure out ways that i can like move shit around to make this experience easier easier for these folks. I wanna.
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Equation asian. That's happening and i really need all those law of attraction. Assholes sit the fuck down dot their rhetoric because like it it it makes me want to scream. I can't handle like you cannot say that to somebody. Who is under you know layers ears of marginalized identity layers repression. It's not just about oh. No you just need to let go of your lack. Consciousness consciousness like no not when there's not when there's these greater powers that be in the world that are actively working against against people like this person we're talking about you know there's more to the energetic equation and you know so these these very privileged changed powerful folks that spit that type of narrative <hes> they're bypassing their own privilege and power <hes> that way they can sidestep. They're trying to make themselves feel comfortable with somebody else's hardship and that's extremely abusive <unk> so i'm not about that spiritual bypassing life yeah while i think what you said to like really early like struck a chord i wrote that down that like for both of these like spiritual bypassing and performance of or optical alicia that people use these to sidestep discomfort and the discomfort. That's it's being sidestepped is the truth. The truth is that there are like serious structural like barriers barriers to a lot of this stuff and what you said really resonated to with me about like just talking about the traumas that like black and brown vote specifically specifically like in america black indigenous folks have faced around spirituality and i think it's not just like it's also just confronting like religious structure like structural religion if both structural religion and like colonialism and capitalism and how they like stripped us of something that used to be really instinctual angel and an eight dress like something that we used to practice with our family members with our elders it was taught to us and it was a very natural way of existing like <hes> <music>. I'm meet so many people like one of the things i really care about doing is helping people in those beginning stages of reclamation of spirituality and reconnecting to their ancestors because i'm really invested in reclaiming lost knowledge on because there's been so much knowledge of practices this is that have been just you know just demolished like white history. It was never written down because we practice oral history. All of our elders were killed. We're not connected acted to our communities like deep. That's a deep pain right yeah <hes> but one way that we can access it is by like communing with our our ancestors it with our spirit guides and like i am a person who is blessed and privileged enough to be tasked with that job <hes> <music> so i come across a lot who have a deep like wound like a spiritual wound the warrant and the need to connect and and to have faith and belief like who want to get to the point where they can just law the traction things into their lives but it doesn't happen like that and they're traumatized and they can't even talk about like they can't get him and bring the word like alter into the mix of like what it means to these people and it's hard to talk about. Spirit is hard to talk about ghosts. It's hard to talk about like other worldly presence because if for some people if they are to acknowledge that like it means means that there's a lot of other shit they have to acknowledge that maybe they can't take on like. I folks living in this material. Reality is too much already means much and so there is no space to like take into consideration like what is the metaphysical what happens on the other side like you know who are these other powers. <unk> are at play because they're literally just trying to struggle to survive the structural barriers in inequities that they're facing in this material rob and that's the truth. That's the truth that we don't wanna talk about. Yes no matter how much they believe no matter how much they like connect act in our spiritual. That's never going to stop like it's never gonna stop racism. It will never stop. Colors is never gonna stop. A lighter skinned person person from getting hired over darker skinned person. It's never gonna stop the police from like stop and frisk. People who look queering transit will never stop the fact that we don't make spaces accessible for disabled people. I can believe as much as i want not gonna change these like real world like the real world ways white supremacy has poisoned choices in our lives and that's for everyone listening like white folks are not exempt like y'all are poisoned by white supremacy just as much as everyone else and that's the the point is that as a collective we have to make the decision to divest from white power to commit to it you have to and and the first thing you gotta do is take that microscope magnifying lens and look at your shit yellowish question your patterns question your habits question your likes likes and dislikes like painful and ugly true but it's so important it's painful and ugly and i will say though it's not without reward in some ways though too yes yes. You do stand to lose a lot but what you will come undefined shit. You needed to lose anyway and you know like once you get through the grief processes of the types of things that you will lose the connections with people who i'm the holidays traditions like whatever whatever your shit lead is that you're attached to you and what you end up finding is he also gain like a liberation uh-huh in it's like the freedom to exist outside of a structural narrative. That's been predetermined precept frio guess yeah and then you just get to just be like who like whatever your nature is. This starts to come through and starts to come out in it. Doesn't you know like white supremacy capitalism all that stuff colonialism like doesn't hold so much coach bearing over your spirit and the way you know your energy gets filtered through it before it hits the world anymore because you get to start to <hes> dismember that entire filter do away with it and then you get to just be more and more authentically yourself in when when everybody gets to do that i noticed that it creates this like ripple effect. Yeah you get to inspire people to be authentically themselves was to <hes> or at the very least making question their bullshit. Yes and we have to because like i think about empathy a lot not in terms of like being an impasse but like legitimately what is embassy at how has it been like strip ripped from us during these processes because like hugh i mean we see in nature like humans are animals and the animals in general are are very caring and empathic lying. That's a trait of just being like sentient existence in rome and rivera desensitized ties to violence for a lot of reasons especially in like the united states like really all. I can really speak from but you know we see so much horrible shit on such such. A regular basis <unk> feeds. It's on our it's our t._v. And our movies i mean shit even for kids like in their video games cartoons. It's everywhere where we look like. I'm walking on the street or in my car. I looked to the left and i see a homeless encampment. I look to the right a. C. like trash just like spewed across the street. I see like mattresses that are being dumbed. I see people fighting. I see people in pain and it can be a lot like it could be a lot to like opening yourself up to that is sometimes. It's like too much for folks to hold but i think we have to question. How much do you care about the impact that you're making because being closed off to the the paint. Other people are experiencing probably means. You're close off to the pain that you're like participating in as well. Oh absolutely like i know i can say from my own personal missile experience because i've been trying to do that work a lot over the last year especially just witnessing where like i've been toxic and i participated in talks talks ick cycles unlike cycles of like severe abuse like deep seated abuse where i can look back and be like oh. I'm doing this 'cause my momma. Did this a moment tommy because her mom taught her and like i can light a candle and check in with my great grandma and like my mommy will tell me like oh yeah like you're. You're mother's doing this because i taught her <hes> i i am so deeply committed to breaking these cycles the i'll do whatever i need to do like if that means that i can't walk down the street without lead going home and crying for an hour because of how much pain witnessed and i'm gonna do that. I wanna lean in lean lean into the discomfort. I don't wanna run away from it. That's so like indigenous in nature and what i wanna like save for for the folks at home. Listening is that you're touching on something like fuel suber strongly about nuts. Colonialism is associated pathak <hes>. It's extremely dead. Elizabeth is sociopathic unlock and that's is why we're so desensitized as a culture as a society because we operate under settler colonialism indigenous ways are not sociopathic. It's empathic. Its present relational right <hes>. I think that there's a great illusion folks have when they think they are tuning out of stuff. It doesn't work that way. People ask the time like can you turn off psychic abilities and all of them no no. I don't get to do that and it's true for things to and the reason i'm telling you that is because it's something very important to the health of our spirit so if you believe that you are tuning winning out of something anything we are actually doing is cognitive dissonance. Yes what that happen. What happens is because i can see it as a psychic and what it looks like from a clairvoyant perspective. Is it creates this rift in your your spirit and i see like your your spirit pulling in opposite directions at polls your spirit apart away from meal and how we experienced that is things like depression illness all that type of stuff and so when we think we're tuning out of something. We're actually just kind of internalizing. Turn analyzing it so you think you're checking out of what's happening in front of you. You think you're not paying attention or or tuning into hugh the pain that's happening across the street but your spirit is taking matt in and because you are separated from it. It's storing it away in somewhere inside of your body and that should is malignant. Oh it will make you know dick so i'm not saying unlike walk out there. All the time with your chuckers like wide open for things like i'm not saying that at all you know like you gotta be save. It's wild as fuck out here. <hes> do some conscious presence in like harm reduction as empathic -ly whether you're an pather not not like all of us need to do that like can i be present with what's real right now because we owe that to each other command humanity you and i think also i think i think about this a lot like what even is an path and like who gets what differentiates it from non-impact 'cause. I'm pretty sure i'm pretty sure this went at like. I'm convinced everybody has access to that like everyone can do that. You could do that no new whoever's like these folks at home listening this podcast. My friends who i'm gonna force listen to this like yong can do this. We can do it. We can do it together other but who who said really like struck like ooh especially like just picturing the spiritual split like the cognitive dissonance that creates h. stat and this is why like this is why people are out here with their shuckers on a line with not being in alignment with like their purpose and this is why y'all l. fuel loss. It's why you are you don't know what to do. You're not on the right path. It's why you keep going back to these toxic relationships. It's worse like it's why you don't have hope and yet like a lack of hope is depression like this is all connected you know and it goes back to just like i think about this a lot with my dad. He says oh he is. He's a latino man. He's a white man. In growing up. There was a lot of much she smoke in the house for folks who don't know what that is in the community. It's kind of when like being latin and masculine alan bean a meat to create this really like toxic way of being especially in regards to emotions though for those of us who have had leg nick lachey family members like you know i don't even really identify with.
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Like create in cultivate like those relationships in your life in your community and your spaces like and yet you tout all this like you know feminist honest and like racial justice league and you like art theoretically supposedly like my friend too and like louis last tiny you like reached out to me not never not once you know if it makes me feel like a lot of the white liberal feminist allies in my life especially like locally are pretty performance live in optical you know yeah. I think it happens all the time like. I don't think it's something also just firm you like as a non black person. I know that it happens a lot with non black folks in general as a disabled person like seeing non-disabled people participating a as a transportation seeing like spokes participating in it and i think it comes from this this idea that like re sharing articles and like following someone someone of a marginalized group is enough when the work that has to be done is like very private and personal ends like it's ugly like it's not work at what we're talking horrendous like shadow work at doing that. Show work like showing up for real means that you have to do work. You have to do the work with no one's watching like that. The work that's the most important work is in the behind the scenes asking yourself those hard questions trying to figure out where our biases and where did that come from on and how does it actually show up in the real material world because i don't think we talk about the nest like yeah well like the everything is like like rachel cargo posted today and i love her quote of herself that she posted but she essentially was saying like you. Don't need a platform to do this work. It's actually not about a platform like where we need to do. The work is like at home. It's like in your neighborhood in your communities like in your day to day interactions and that's kind. I don't like what i was getting at like. It's all cute and dandy like on social media. It makes you look like an exceptional you know ally or whatever but like lake when it comes down to it. I know you're still like hanging out with your racist assen goal holidays. You know that i'm like oh yeah. You're like not doing the work like you can. Maybe like to your comfort level when anything you know but like the work comes with cost that is so true through people in power like the biggest thing that i find they have like an aversion to know if you can relate to this but it's like i think they just don't want to give up power yup yup. Yes yes i think and i think that's the real question that like any folks of like proximity privilege or power have to ask ourselves is what are we willing to sacrifice because the truth of the matter is the revolution is coming. I mean it's here like you were a revolutionary mistakes like this is it's now and folks are gonna get get left behind. It's just a matter of fact it's a matter of like what side of history are you gonna be on end. We really should be ready to like sacrifice sacrifice at all like you should be ready to like. It's about it's about the things people don't think about like it's about your status and your resources in your relationships and it's about social capital and it's obviously it's about money and like sacrificing like the money and power you have but it's also about like it's about that uncomfortableness uncomfortableness that you're talking about like it's about being bold and brave enough to have really difficult conversations with people in your life and to hold the standards have expectations. Hold people that i'm like if you set a standard that i'm not going to accept like this certain level of racism around mir in my life anymore. You have to follow through wrong and you don't get the youth that means you can't have those behind closed doors relationships with your white racist uncle like it means that every time you're with this person you need to be like working your your ass off to try and educate them and providing resources like you'd better come to thanksgiving dinner with your white family with a stack of books from. I think we need like michelle alexander. We need you to have these resources and the work has to be done. Why are you willing sacrifice. You'd better be willing to sacrifice your relationships. Let's you better be willing to sacrifice social capital in your like your name like that's something people don't think about often. Would you sacrifice your status. Uh-huh answers usually no yeah most accessible. It's it's total bullshit. I don't do thanksgiving giving and no i don't do thanksgiving and like i'll be real like historically like i was always opposed two and always like outspokenly opposed to it but i used to like play along with my family under the like you know like oh. It's just a dinner. I'm just like appeasing them but then i got older and i realized i was like no. It's not just a fucking dinner you. This is a fucking capitalistic listed fucking colonial ritual and every time i participate i'm co signing that bullshit and all so i don't do it anymore and i feel like a lot of like the white folks in like my social media bubble that as far as i can see like they're all like happy happy to like reshare articles but like you ask them to like tell their family to fuck off. Come july fourth. They're like fireworks awesome in your fucking fireworks. Let it go. He now pat tradition. Make a new one like yeah and make a tradition make dishes. I've like tradition of like re- like sharing resources and giving it to bark people indigenous people especially for fucking like indegenous people's day as turkey day thanksgiving like totally because if we can't count on you to wanna give those fireworks how the fuck am. I supposed to trust you to raise arms against the police when it comes time for off. It's just unrealistic. It's yeah. I don't tr- like your this is. This is a test and you're failing completely failing like like if you cannot like confront <hes> somebody when they're dropping the end bond like you know across the dinner table. I cannot trust you to put your body on the lyon. When somebody's like trying to get when isis on the bus trying to pull somebody off the bus like i need to know about your down down light bat and if you can't just let go of a sentiment issue dacian and create a new one for fox say like i. I don't know i can trust you in the rebel now and i can literally hear them to like. I can hear people being like well. It's just like that's not as big of a deal like you know white people with dreads like it's just not as violent like it's not as important to violent yeah and the truth of the matter is like the reason that we'll get half of opinions as because we're not impacted by it. We really should not be the ones like deciding what isn't isn't and we really should be consistently doing these interrogations allegations and to be honest. I think like i do think what we're getting is. The most important work to is like the the personal work like so you can confront your racist uncle. That's good good on you. That's a step in the right direction. But have you thought about critically. You're dating preferences. You're you're like physically attracted to and who you like mark off without giving second thought to it and this is a real thing that we need to have these uglier conversations of now. I don't think they're ugly. I think they're just uncomfortable and people are weak but like do you date. Do you ever thin person due date. Fat folks if you're disabled disabled person due date disabled people and due date black and brown folks if you're not blacker brown and also are those the only people you're dating because then there's like question of like <unk> idealization and the <unk> optical ally shit like are you dating these people so that you don't have to do your shit. The these are those harder personal questions. Who do i find attractive like am i constantly gravitating towards white and light skin folks m. I constantly gravity <unk> gravitating running towards people who are considered like conventionally attractive because i think almost all of us have to be honest in saying yes yes the fuck we do and it matters yeah and you know like i am not going to cosign anybody's bullshit and i will also say like it doesn't. We're not like trying trying to shame you're <unk>. You're a bad person but what i am saying and i hear you saying correct me. You know this is off but like this is deeply indoctrinated into all of our psyches in it's like an implicit bias. That is like subconscious that we need to. It'd be making conscious that we can. You know like rewire. That programming way about is more equitable. You know unless harm causing causing yeah absolutely it's. It's like what you said like. There's no point in lake. Shame is to be honest is kind of tactic arctic of white supremacy one hundred percent. I'm not invested in like shaming myself or shaming other people. I'm just invested in constantly questioning questioning absolutely everything that is presented to me including the things that i am presenting myself and i think that goes right into like spiritual virtual bypassing term that i that we talked about in a for a definition i feel like for me. What spiritual bypassing is is. It's like doc only focusing on like love and light and skipping over the this these exact difficult conversations like the shadow work the uncomfortableness. It's just kind of pretending to work that doesn't need to be done or isn't important when in reality like as healers and spiritual workers we know this is this is the only work it's not all law of attraction and manifestation like that shit is is questionable in the first place work. This is the word this and this is the spiritual work too because there is. I know spiritual work. There is no spirituality without these revolutionary politics. There is no spirituality without questioning anti-bok nece and racism the fat phobia and homophobia and transphobia enabling like they are tied together. They are tied. What do you think about that. I'm with you. I'm like yes spiritual bypassing how i've experienced it and how i observe. I've been thinking about a lot lately because i want to do. I want to teach classes every month and i'm already looking at what classes i'm gonna teach next cheer and one of the classes i want to do is <hes> holding space just for p._o._c. like in a class <unk> <hes> in like really addressing the spiritual trauma that we have you know had long are awakening or journey. I need from these dominant narratives in like getting to identify when that happened <hes> how it looked what it caused ause. You know what what was it. She was it laming all type of stuff because the more and more i like see spiritual fool bypassing for what it is the more i keep looking back at my own personal journey and be like wow like literally every a single fucking law attraction book or coach or whatever <unk> a law of the folks that i was consuming content from or learning from like a lot of it was really harmful and like i always like set it <hes> <music>. I'm like my best friend general tell you. I was always like y'all like. I'm not sure though like you. How do you say this to somebody who's living in extreme hardship. I'd like this is quite right. I always thought well. Maybe i'm just flake not woke enough but but had no like the thing is that spiritual bypassing is a function of white supremacy because we folks use. I use it to sidestep discomfort. Yes you know and the discomfort that they are escaping is truth and like the truth often times is looking at the ugly harsh reality reality of the power structures in play the oppressive systems in play and that you cannot simply tell somebody leave that like oh will you create your reality in entirety because that is such a small piece of energetic equation asian..
"mystic" Discussed on Revolutionary Mystic
"Are you hi. I'm good. I'm really excited to be here. Talking matthew like wires really been looking forward to this since we had our our like our pre podcast discussion which could almost just about ben an episode all into itself to honestly yes. I feel like like get us talking in any like forman's face and people should be paying us to do that. Yes i agree and i have a. I'm feeling like this is our first time together on the show but i have a feeling you're gonna be back. Yes i hope so the amazing. I'd love to yeah <hes>. I see us working together a lot which i'm excited for so for the folks at home. Who have you know maybe heard about you who are are are meeting you for their first time. Can you tell us a little bit about who you are. Your identity is your pronouns. What it is that you deal. Yes so <hes> like you said i'm nausea n- lord gnaws and i am a queer entrance multiracial witch i'm persian and central american indigenous white so i practice what i call like chaos magic or casts your charlie drawing from just the different facets acids of my identity. I'm also disabled chronically. Ill shutout to all of our clinically <unk> mainly. I'm a spiritual worker. I'm a spiritual and emotional worker and read described the work that i do is kind of it lands at the intersection of coaching life coaching and therapy and magic indignation because i'm really interested in helping folks like do shadow work and address shadow work the issues in their life that are like stopping them from just a lining in creating their own individual relationship with spirituality <hes> perfect correct. I love that. I feel like that's like one of the things that you thought to mention because i love shadow work and i also identify identify with chaos magic. You don't know this but i have a huge chaos star tattooed on my upper rule. I don't think a a lot of folks know that but now they do and so it's no wonder to me. You and i get along so well that such a compliment ee i just i adore he'll mutual. So what i wanna do is before we get into the myriad of things and i want to get into the first segment which is my version of an intro tro that another podcast that i really love called hella black and it's <hes> two dudes based out of oakland california where i used to live in they start their podcast with some black joy and they share you know what's been black joy for them for the the last week or whatever and it's either something that happened in the news or something that was personal for them but since not everybody on the show is black. I'm my version of that is asking you. You know like what's been good for you on your pass recently like what's good for you right now. Now's your own. Um just took cook. I realized they could save pronouns or saying them but i'm also k. With sheehan he pronounce what's been good for me while well. I just really busy falling in love yeah trying to make the like queer and trans brown magic a half. That's been like it's been a ride like this mercury retrograde and also like <unk> however many other planets six other retrograde educate planets. I feel like i've honestly been thriving like i've had a lot of new business ideas. There've been a lot of ups and downs but mostly the downs this have been just being presented with opportunities to do to delve into deeper shot at work so i've been given opportunities to see areas in which i can improve and i like that's a blessing right yeah so i've been just doing a lot of self reflection and thinking about ways in which i can improve myself open show it better for myself and my community whilst also like creating all these new business ventures and creating new like intimate relationships ed that encourage mutual growth arrested property and i'm a relationship as well that i see that way so i'm doing distant feeling. I'm really blessed obviously in very much in tune with what's going on in the universe. I love that hearing your enjoy in europe. Blessings is something that i need to hear an ice so i know that folks at home you know especially like are trans and non binary brothers their sisters etcetera. You know just hearing each other's joy and seeing each other thriving is like super important. Thank you for sharing that with us for me in terms of like what's good. Is these connections ooh all this week. I've been getting hold space with you. Know folks like you and it's space that i needed. I don't think a lot of folks know much about where i live. I live up in santa rosa california in sonoma's county which is in the northern bay area and it's beautiful beautiful here. I love it here because it is northern california before it starts to get like cold or colder than i would like komo new hewlett and i'm still close to san francisco and oakland and things like that without actually being in the cities. I'm more of a rural country forest type which led him so. I love it here. However where i live is hella the white so i i don't have a lot of what feel like sacred or safe safe spaces in my immediate descendant he that is kind of traumatic sometimes and and so sitting in these faces like with you getting to connect with you and the other folks have been getting the shot with. It's just been giving me the joy that i've been needing. That's been like missing or or lacking in you know that's not to downplay the the folks that are here with me in cinema county lake i have i do have a close circle of friends that i absolutely adore. It's just different when we get to connect with other p._o._c. other other folks that are queer etc like because we know that we're a lot safer around them and there's i you know not that we can't cause each other harm but there's less innate potential for harm and then most importantly like doc. Your joy hits me like double. No like like it resonates somewhere like really deep in a way that it may not when i'm you know just out in the community hanging on like random white folks so his like are magic is so medicinal all in so necessary and it's just kinda like i do a lot of gardening reminds me of <hes> one type of plant you know needs a different different types of plant food than like another type of flour in so like when i'm hanging out with y'all like getting to have conversations with us in our people. It's like i'm getting the nutrients in the nourishment that like i specifically need <hes> <hes> you know may not always get from the other connections in my life. It's just a different type of medicine so thank you for being here with me and sharing. What's been good for you so okay name. Can you remind me you and i had talked talked about a shit ton of things they wanted to talk about and so i'm gonna you know handle the mic to you and let you direct. Director is with where you want to begin. What do you want to what do you wanna address in this space so i think two of the things that we talked about that. I do think in a lotta ways coincide our spiritual bypassing and performed elisha <hes> so kind of just i would say overarching that looks like is just like baking the bonk like pretending to show up when you're not doing the actual well work be where you're trying to show up to oh yeah so for the folks at hong lake nick who may not be super savvy with social equity terminology yeah the terminology. You know it's important. I guess to break down. That terminology sat way other folks. Can you know have a language to use around. You know our experiences in and so on because i know it's been super helpful for me. I'm like oh. That's what that is but you know so performance. Ally ship optical ally ship that is when an ally and even us were capable of doing it to are presenting ourselves in a way that is in support of the marginalized group of people in it is done so in a way that may or may not actually be effective in supporting according them more or less is just kind of for show and it also can look like only showing up in ways is that are comfortable for the privileged person and i'm not really going into there discomfort discomfort to really show up for the folks who need them to show up in the ways that they need to show up yeah. I think that's definitely like a good overarching. Can i ask what it is. I actually asked this. I was having conversation on my facebook with some of the night friends recently about like what is this for me like in community. It's definitely a term that gets thrown around a law and i find that while i might be able to understand like academically speaking by diminishing what it means but like what is this like how does it show up in the day to day and have a friend. Their name is dvds and what they said was that just at the most basic level what it looks like is being a person of power privilege cribbage and for example online especially speaking out about injustices that have occurred for people who you're not a part of the marginalized group of more than in your real life treating those types of people badly and like showing up like so you want you know your your banner is like a black lives matter banner whereas non black person but the the black folks in your life. You don't have good relationships with not really just a really basic level way of showing like how this stuff i can show up. Oh yeah i have this thing that makes my blood boil and it's i. It happens a lot light here in the bay area. I'm sure you've seen it but like it's when folks move into like a black neighborhood and gentrifying the neighborhood pushing out the folks that you know were born and raised there grew up there and but it's okay because they have a black lives matter poster in their window. You now like that shit's not cool one of the things that happens to me. I don't know if you can relate to this. Maybe i just need to edit my friends list like i have it happens with like white. Liberal feminists a lot in my in my feed where they're like the outspoken internet allies in social social justice warriors in advocates and such and i'm like you know like i literally live like five miles from you and like like you don't have any black brown friends <hes> events you host are like hella white like.