18 Burst results for "Mining Zayed"
"mining zayed" Discussed on Rob Has a Podcast
"Little. I already think I remember when the survivor hall of fame. A few years ago was inducting. Some people in there some chatter about Jonathan pedder and I remember him. Mike tweeting something. Who is Gordon Holmes Guy? And what is he doing with the survivor hall with Damn Remember Gordon? Like tweeting back and I'm like we've met before. I ended up in the Philippines so if that was his level of awareness of Gordon homes. I expect these does not have any idea. What a what a Wig. Wombat HAT is. We're on we'RE GONNA find out with you guys. I'm excited I'm excited. He's obviously an all time favorite. So I'm like I have like I have sort of these These pregame jitters that I haven't had with the survivor player in a very long time. Because I've been very blessed to be pretty deeply embedded in the community. I've got to meet a lot of really cool. People have gotten to feel more confident in my own role within this space but Jonathan Penner is like one of those legends. That like I should have taken some of my anti anxiety medication before I got here because I'm a little different mining. Zayed's is all in getting him on this zoom call. We'll get to that in a little. Bit fifteen twenty minutes or so until Jonathan Penner is scheduled to join but Josh let let's talk a little bit more trying to unpack what happened because This was like as Tony centric of an episode as an episode of survivor gets about one singular player. I mean This was Tony's night on Wednesday. It was Tony's.
"mining zayed" Discussed on Heather Dubrow's World
"Extra that she can drop it off. Cocos bunk. No. Now all the Senate she said all these new things she bought hers. She said that. She's that. She's going to wear them where them camped wants to pack them for camp. So city is that crazy? I love it, though. I, I agree. I love their bonding. And I love that cocoa's finding her way. Whatever way is, and whomever. She is. And whatever I've just happy. She. I just wanted to be happy. Happy successful confident human. Exactly. And I'm really glad not that there was anything wrong with the old school. Although I've seen it change over the last year. Eight years, still very good school. But I'm really I was just I felt like it was time it was time and you knew what was really weird. So they have a DJ on the last day. And remember the song that we played when I left housewives. When when you when you made a video montage for me. I did it really fast. Yes. And the song you used was oh. Shut up in dance with yes. And I'm not even sure it was relevant to the good bye, but that was the song. But there's gonna make me cry a little bit. There's a the line in there that says. Don't you dare? Look back just keep your eyes on me. Yeah. Something about this. This woman is my destiny. So anyway. All right. Right. Teary but it's been so interesting. And tamra is going to be on the show tomorrow, which I'm so excited about, and we've so much to talk about. But that song, every time I hear it, it makes me like a little sad, because I closed a chapter, but it also this woman is my destiny is the woman that I feel like I have become an amber coming since I left. So we're standing there and the girls reading snow cones. And I'm like, all right. Let's have the snow cones. And then we'll gather your stuff and we'll go and that song came on. The little mix wannacry. And I'm looking at my two Little Women, you know. And I'm like, yeah. What it was like a clothing and beginning their next chapter and what they're going to become and I just loved it. And I loved it them. And I like any didn't mean anything to anyone be and I had to put my sunglasses because I started to cry a little bit. And it was just so sweet. And I'm so excited for them. And I'm so excited. So even though I'm bitching about hotel rooms and trip this, and mining Zayed's and the whole thing. I'm just so grateful. And so pleased that, you know, knock on wood. I know. Yes changes so quickly that the four kids are all in a good spot, and feel really confident and ended the year. Well, and going to the summer and a good place in really excited for next year. It's just tell really good. So we'll take a deep breath. I'm gonna try to figure out this trip. So I could enjoy it any recommendations truly helpful and, or maybe don't because then you're gonna wanna change your whole trip. No, I meant just travelling or whatever breathe is. I don't know more marijuana. Sure. If you've been listening for the past couple of weeks, you probably heard me talk about Dole's, smoothie blend. But they also had these amazing frozen dole. Asya bowls to all my gosh. Natalie munching on these the other day in the studio, they sent us a bunch of them, and they are unbelievably fresh and delicious and, you know, the weather's starting to warm up. There's nothing cool down quite like a delicious assignable. It's light and it's refreshing. And if you've ever had one then you know exactly what I'm talking about. If you've never had an Asya Bill. Oh my gosh. You are missing out, but these dole smoothie bowls are great for delicious breakfast or anytime as a snack and. They're so convenient with Dohlus eyeballs. There's no washing. There's no prep work. No blender to clean all you have to do is let it thaw. Or if you can't even wait for that put it in the microwave for thirty seconds, grabs, spoon, and enjoy. So instead.
"mining zayed" Discussed on Addiction Unlimited Podcast | Alcoholism | 12 Steps | Living Sober | Addiction Treatment
"Purse the next day, and spend every dime and be like, oh, no big deal. Make it back tonight. You know what, like I just I was so irresponsible in as I continued to grow evolve in my life continued to grow and involve in obviously, eventually, I stepped away from bartending and had to really be on my own. I had the same struggles because. As I was so immature in irresponsible like it was hard up and down up and down all the time. Yeah, I mean that's a lot of what I've experienced in. It is, you know, it is maturity or just not reaching the amount of education. But the way that you gain that education is the hard way. That's right. And that's the best teacher there ever was. I think is the tough love. And, you know, the hard truth and learning that the hard way and, you know, so every time I am going through one of those tough moments over the past six years. You know, I have to keep in mind. Okay. This really sucks. But what can I learn from it, right? What how you can I gain from this moment? What changes can I make to make sure this never happens again? I mean that right. There's by far the best teacher for me. And it's completely shaped my life and you know led to where I'm at now. And so. It's in bracing the struggle really for sure because really to I think it's I try not to get into kind of labeling things as good or bad. Right. Because some just like we said a little while ago. Some of the worst things that are happening where the best things that happened to me right in my sobriety for sure. What caused me to get sober? My rock. Bottom was really frigging scary. And I could consider that a really horrible thing that happened to me, but it was one of the greatest moments of my life, you know, truly because it shifted my direction in it, led me to my real life and my passion and all that stuff. But I think that even in all those failures, I just look at it as just like I said to you whenever something doesn't work. I'm like ooh. All right. Cool. So we got one more out of the way we're definitely getting closer. We're definitely getting closer to the next one that is gonna work, and I think it is learning those lessons, but also really digging in to that inner strength. Right. So in my. Business. I mean it's hard in you and I were talking about this a lot before we started recording. Entrepreneurship is a lonely world. You know, like everything I do I'm by myself, and I don't get a ton of feedback to know what's going on how it's working, whatever I always feel like I'm not doing a good enough job, because I'm always at least five things behind you know that gets just this weird. It's this weird underworld that you're a part of, you know, when you live that life, I would not have it any other way, you know, like I'm much more fairl than I am domesticated. I could not work for a person. I do not do well with a boss, like could you imagine being the personnel to tell me what to do like that poor soul? I know. And it's just not my thing. You know it's not bad. I think that so many of the things that have fueled me in business are the exact same things that fueled me in sobriety. Absolutely. I wouldn't be able to do it in business. I'm not done it in sobriety in learned that I was capable. And that I can't figure it out. You know what I mean? And, and getting guidance that's been a huge thing for me a business too. So you get sober, you go to a and they tell you get a sponsor, you have this coach person that tells you how to live and helps you change your perspective bidding business. I didn't have that for a long time, you know, in I was behind because I didn't have guidance and that's been a huge part for me to of that. I think right. There's been the biggest struggle for me is the guidance piece. And I think that's what drew me into getting the job. I have now which what's really neat about it is, you know being a logistics broker. I'm basically my own boss. I'm building my own business, which is great. I don't have anybody micromanaging. But everything is guided and it's structured and I love that. But at the same time, you know, I am that Farrell person also, which I just cannot stand having a boss. I mean, you know, I've like I said, I, I've had a few jobs so far in the past. Six years. And each one, it makes me wanna crawl out of my skin cannot have that. But I do need someone to be able to talk to about. You know, sure what I'm doing, otherwise than I kind of lose my vision in a way or don't have things pinpointed to where need to succeed. And so, that's when you're buried in it. You can't. It's like you need somebody that has the thirty thousand foot view down that can say, okay go this way, and go this way, go that way. Whereas when you can't see the forest for the trees, right? When you're in the middle of it, like I can't see the five steps ahead because I'm in the middle of it, I need the person that can see the five steps ahead, right? Just like we had in sobriety. You know that's what my sponsor was. My sponsor was the person that could see five steps ahead in new, how it was going to turn out new, if I did x y and z, this was going to be the result. Like you have to have that in business to absolutely. I love the analogies you just said and really just how I did. Have kind of a more of a business coach. I think this was maybe two years after I got sober. And he handed me a book called thinking grow rich. Absolutely. That was the first laugh contra preneurs. Absolutely. It was the first business. It was the first personal development book, I had ever read, you know, I hated reading before, then I liked, you know, researching online and things like that. But I could not stand, you know, reading in, especially you know, personal development. I thought like what is this guy? Trying to sell may and yeah but I hope it and I decided that I was gonna take it seriously. And I started practicing some of, you know, the principles that they were teaching in there. And I was like, you know, this is crazy. This book is so similar to the big book, and the twelve steps are so similar to the principals to succeed in business. I'm happy you're saying right now at high. It's amazing. How? Much those things tie-in. Yeah. And then if you look at like athletics, the principals to succeed at athletics are the same exact principles to succeed in sobriety and business. That's something I talk about so much because one of my big things is kind of breaking down the weirdness around a two, right? Like I get anonymity. I would never break somebody else's anonymity. I have so much respect for that. You know what I mean? I just don't have an anonymous moment in my life. Right. And and I don't want one but I get that. But at the same time having that anonymity in kind of being secretive about it creates its own sort of mysticism that makes people not want to be a part of it. So I love more maligning the program. There's nothing weird. We didn't reinvent the wheel, I promise you, there's nothing happening in AA that hasn't been happening for thousands of years. You know, like if you re books from ancient Rome, the earliest philosophers, it's the exact same things we do in a it. There's just nothing magical about it. The thing is, it's, you know, someone put it to me actually, it was one of my business coaches. I think you said the principles of success are universal that, quote, right there will always stick with me, because it's so true. The principals to succeed it anything exactly the same will not ever change ever. And it doesn't matter what, you know, it is that you're trying to succeed at just like, we mentioned you can be sobriety can be at lettuce. It can be yeah business. It's all exactly the same it won't change. So really what I'm doing, you know, without going to a as really not that much different. You know, there's just a few right things here and there, but our principles are exactly the same. Yeah. And that's why we're succeeding. I always think too is. It's not like again anything. Righty. Whatever. I don't think if things as like a to-do list or things I have to do what I think about is, what type of person do I have to be to get those things done. Right. So I don't want to just check off my to do list, what I wanna do is check in with myself in the morning. I'm like having a whole coaching session right now. I love it. Check in with myself in the morning, and I check in with who I want to be for that day. Right. What are the things that are so important to me and in strength, and tenacity and hustle, in grit, and all of that stuff? But also, you know, being kind being respectful to me being dependables hugely important, which means when my phone rings I answer it, or I return, every phone call in a certain timeframe like those, that's who I have to be. I have to feed my brain properly. I have to starve mining Zayed's properly. Been neutralized that anxiety like that's who I have to be in as long as I'm staying focused on being that person I can get done whatever I need to get done. Right. You know absolutely ads organization and I love it. I love the coaching session right there. Seriously? That I'm taking notes. It's amazing. Because, you know, a lot of that I do you know as soon as I wake up, it's like all right. What are these things that I have to get done? And I compartmentalize some of those things, but what's amazing about coaching and really what you just said is. It's totally reinforcing that and reminding me to actually think about doing that instead of just getting in the habit and doing that naturally. Yeah. And when I mailed a, you know, kind of hear those things, you know, that you are, you know, the other people that have coached me have said, you know, I'm already doing it. Okay. But now like it's right in my face. It's like okay. I need to be conscious conscious date lose myself. By just, you know, becoming complacent. Yeah. And doing the same thing over again. That's when it's so easy to unravel. I have a lot of my clients. Do what I call a mind map, right? And just taking sheet of paper. And however, you wanna do it, you can listed just down, you know, Ashida notebook paper or however, you want to do it, but I tell them to make a list of all of the things they wanna be like so my personality who do I wanna be in my character? And when I, I did this many years ago, I thought of, like my favorite people, of course, my mom and Oprah..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Freedom Fast Lane with Ryan Daniel Moran
"I specifically thought of an old business partner who which gives me a lot of peace because before I feel like I had to either accept or reject. And now I feel more like it. I have to discover, as who was go moose. Yeah. Yeah. So it's not like it sounds like you in thinking you were going to do more therapeutic personal. Dull were any mindset as Lee had more of a spiritual a lot of my therapists was pretty damn impressed. I mean it's like look at my notes. Yes. Of course, took notes on my experience. I mean, what are the things that came up a lot was just more kind of the physical world versus the spiritual world was a really wanted to do something about mining. Zayed's. Because because I, I think we all have low level, depression and anxiety at this point. Right. So I feel like I make a lot of anxious decisions. And I'm aware of them pan wanna do them anymore. Like I, I still make them. And so I went in to, like, I really would like to do something about anxiety end the, the first night my brain was just like. No one thousand miles an hour. Like a like I just can't stop thinking, and I had the thought like how the hell is the simplest helped me deal with my anxiety, and then the just the thought came to me of this is easy anxiety is the thoughts racing in your head anxiety is the voice in your head, who was constantly afraid of something. The voice is constantly judging the voice in your head. That is constantly making valuations about, what's right and wrong. Good and bad in should and should not than can help you get better or worse, stack up against other people. It's the comparison in the judging voice that is constantly going. That is the source of anxiety. So if you don't take the voice so seriously. There is there is no more anxiety. If you if you remove judgments, there is nothing to be anxious about it occurred to me that the, the, the reason we feel anxious or the reason that we feel any negative emotion is because we are making a judgment that may or may not be correct. So I- judge my body, I may or may not be right about my judgment. I judge what my Bank account should look like according to what that is. A subjective analysis of what I think, should be the case. And who's right about that? One. And so that judge in your brain, first of all, is never happy never satisfied. It can be temporarily quieted when it compares itself to something else, and feels better about itself. But that's what we position because the minute that change is not critical voices going again. Beating yourself up and, and it was very much that idea of, what Eckhard tola talks about in power of now of recognizing that there were like two of him, there was the critical voice in his head in there was the observer of the voice ahead. An all suffering comes from that critical voice in the head that constantly wants to judge evaluate and compare it. So, so my perspective, is it seems like entrepreneurs particularly can use the anxiety as tool and are terrified go there, June, that judge our shame feeling that they're not enough for should be more. Could be responsible to where gotten up until now. So how do you move forward as something you did out of us the ego when it benefits you? But then pulled back. I mean where do you go from here? Not gotten kind of incited like what true nature of anxieties for you. So whether you're a lot of entrepreneurs think that if they can heal the wounds that drive them. Maybe they won't have drive anymore, will first of all, if you're driving from an anxious or you're driving from a scarce place. The more you achieve the more. The scarcity the more. The anxiousness is now being fed. So when you're driving from a scared place as you move forward. You just get more scared that voice just gets louder in just gets more reinforce..
"mining zayed" Discussed on 10 Things To Tell You
"System, or a hospital or other such organization. Sometimes there are services available that you might not know about unless you inquire. There is definitely a mental health crisis in our country. There is also a health care crisis. So when I suggest they be I am not blindly tossing out the suggestion in dealing with anxiety and depression. However, if it is in your budget at all, or it is available to you through some avenue. I highly highly recommend fair. If you're struggling, it is one of my life regrets that I didn't start sooner. There are seasons of my life. That would have been infinitely better if I had had. Had mental health guidance. Number eight told you about my childhood early adulthood, and the years when I had babies, I wanna tell you what my anxiety looks like these days right now. I am nearly forty years old. My children are now seven and nine I've done a lot of work on myself spiritually, and mentally and even physically in the last few years to get to a healthier place in my life. And yet, I still have excitedly. I often have intense fear that my husband, our children are going to die. This will keep me awake at night. It will cause me to burst into tears. Sometimes it's a dreaded that I will carry around with me in my stomach, and my chest. Like I'm just waiting for that phone call to come in at any second When I'm having a lot of anxiety. Sometimes my hands shake. Sometimes I cannot complete a yawn or I can't sneeze all the way my body won't release even sort of normal bodily functions, I still get migraines. The thankfully, that when actually has lessened in the last few years. I still over schedule when I make shis and almost every single day, I have to stop some sort of looping thought looping thoughts, are when you go over and over something in your mind, obsessively, I will loop on my to do list, or on a conversation or on a travel, itinerary, looping thoughts aren't like normal thoughts where you might obviously think about your to do list or revisit a conversation in your head. Looping is like when a record gets stuck and it just repeats the same phrase over and over and over. You're not double checking yourself. You're just looping. Sometimes I will make a point to my husband when we're talking about something. And then I will just keep making the same point over and over and over. I don't even change the words. Always I literally just repeat myself. I will do this in my brain all day, if I'm having high anxiety. This can be exhausting, mining Zayed's shows up in my body in lots of ways. I get a rash on my chest. That comes and goes depending on my anxiety level. I have aches and pains, my joints will hurt that can be tied to my anxiety like really check in with your body, and the way it feels a lot of times these things, even.
Anxiety - Talking about mental health
"Episode is on a topic. That means a lot to me something, I don't think people talk about enough, even in these days of the over share. They're still not a lot of honest conversation on this topic. And that is mental health specifically for me. What I'm going to talk about today is mostly anxiety going to share. What insight he looks like for me? My coping mechanisms both the healthy and the unhealthy because I have both my hope is that by sharing my own story about lifelong anxiety is that you will be able to share more about how it affects you or maybe it will bring some understanding about a loved one who struggles with anxiety. The things I share today can be a jumping off point for conversation or you can also just share the episode and say, this is what it's like for me or share it with someone. One to ask, is this what it's like for you understanding on both sides around our mental health may is actually mental health awareness month. What does that exactly mean never quite sure how legit these awareness, campaigns are, but actually mental health awareness month has been acknowledged here in the US since nineteen forty nine it was started by the mental health American organization also now it is a good time for me to remind everyone that I am not a doctor. I have absolutely no medical education. This podcast episode is not absolutely not to be taken as mental health advice or medical advice. This is just my own experience, and it should be taken as just a person sharing their human experience and nothing more. So I've ten things. I'm going to talk to you about in regards to anxiety number one. Hangs -iety is a broad word and it can show up in different ways in different stages of life. I think there are known things that can trigger it genetics and hormones and trauma. But sometimes it can feel like there's no rhyme or reason for developing exile. The Webster definition of anxiety leaves a lot to be desired. Honestly, it says it's a feeling or worry nervousness or unease. Now, this is not really cover. What mental health anxiety feels like it's not worry in the traditional sense as in. You're worried about the bad weather, or you're worried when your kids, stay out to later, anything that feels like substantiated reason to have some concern anxiety in my body. It doesn't feel like worry it feels like dread. It feels like doom. If feels like something terror. Is going to happen at any moment? And you are the only one who knows about it, and therefore you're the only one who can stop this impending thing. Now, doesn't always exactly like that. But to classify it as simply worry as in something that will be alleviated as soon as, you know, everything's okay that word doesn't cut it. You can't just say to someone who is experiencing true anxiety. Don't worry everything spine. The definition of eighty in terms of psychiatry is closer, a nervous disorder characterized by state of excessive uneasiness and apprehension typically with compulsive behavior or panic attacks. So that definition brings a little more light to it. Right. Excessive uneasiness often paired with compulsive behavior and for me, I can convince myself that my compulsive behavior is the only thing that's keeping the bad thing from happening. That's why I can be very repetitive in my thoughts and actions or why I'm doing things like that from the outside. It looks almost superstitious that's the compulsive behavior and the panic attacks. Those come along with anxiety, almost, as if you're a computer shorting out like when you get to such a level of insight in your brain, or in your body, it glitches you have reached max capacity, and it's like a frozen computer or the spinning beach ball of death. You need a reset says not to make light of panic attacks. They are terrible to live with. They can be very scary. Sorry, but they are telling you something. Okay. So that is number one. That is our broad overview of what I mean in this podcast. When I use the term anxiety. Number two. Mining Zayed's started when I was really young probably almost like toddler age. According to my parents, I was very, very fearful at a very young age before I can even remember it. And again, there's that difference between anxiety being called worry or nervousness, his when my executives symptoms started, I wasn't developed enough to be worried. I was a child. I was scared. That's a much better word to describe what my anxiety looked like as a child. I was scared. I was just incredibly fearful that something bad was going to happen all the time. So when I was probably three ish in this actually went on into adulthood. I started pulling my hair out at the route. I would pull out it so much that I developed bald spots on my little head. Pulling on my hair with soothing, to me, like a child, Mike suck their thumb or something. And then when it would start to come out in clumps, that also felt good to me. Self harm is really hard to explain from the inside out. But there was a kind of relief to pulling my hair out though afterwards. Of course, you're left with the evidence on your body of your mental struggle. The other things that were happening to my body when I was a child is that I would get horrible mouth sores, like, canker sores all throughout my mouth when you get a little bit older. You're told that these sores are stress-induced but is pretty hard to look at a second grader and see what she could be stressed about. But my little body was under duress all the time. Childhood anxiety is something I've talked about publicly for years. And I always end up hearing from parents of anxious children wondering what to do with their very scared kiddo. Now, I grew up in the eighties in Oklahoma. So I was not treated medically anyway. I think my parents saw it as an inevitable genetic thing, and also just part of my personality who I was also even, then I was really high functioning, so while I had a lot of inner turmoil. It wasn't keeping me from going to school, or it wasn't affecting our family much, as a whole now chicken or the egg scenario was I high functioning because my parents did not caught on my anxiety or give it any power, if you will, or was, I already high functioning, and they didn't need to stop down over my mental health. I don't know I definitely could have benefited from. Therapy. There were times when medication probably could have been called for, but it was a different time. It was a different culture. These days, there are a lot more resources to help your anxious kids if it were me, I would start with a pediatrician if there were concerns, my number one need when I was an anxious child was to feel safe. It's just a human need, I suppose, but some of us we need extra doses. Number three. Site got older into teenager dome and early adulthood, Mining's -iety symptoms grew a little bit is still pulled up my hair. I still got the mouth sores but I started getting migraines, which are really quite paralyzing, if you've ever had any kind of migraine, and in high school, I had my first panic attack which was a racing heart. Very shallow breath being unable to take in a full breath and racing thoughts. Like someone had pressed fast forward on your brain. And you cannot find the stop button, the first time this happened. I thought I was having a medical event. I thought it was a heart attack, or something. And indeed people do often, go to the ER or the urgent care with a panic attack, or other symptoms of extreme stress and anxiety. If you've never had it before you might be reluctant to accept that. That's what it is for me. It is the pit Amee of the strength of the mind body connect. Because something is really happening in your body. You're sweating. You're shaking. These are things you cannot control. And it can be hard to believe that it's mental because in that moment, it's so much more than that has become physical. Some of the coping skills that I developed when I was young was bouncing a ball. I bounced my ball, I would do this for hours outside alone. There was something really therapeutic about bouncing a ball rhythmically outside alone time in general, is an assessing for me, then, and now part of that is hardwired I'm an introvert to prefers quiet and lots of noise and lots of people can be really over. Stimulating it will take my executive levels up, especially if it's prolonged like after a weekend, trip or going to Disneyland all day or something. And when you're young, you don't always have control over your environment and control over, whether it's loud, or busy, or whatever, so that was sometimes a struggle when I was a kid, I would hide or try and sit by myself or just find little pockets of peace wherever I could I enjoyed. Social events, I still do but I can get maxed out. And when you're a teenager, or in college, for example, you're technically not a great regulator of yourself. You don't wanna miss out on things, even when it's the things the busy schedule over-stimulation that is contributing to your meltdown.
"mining zayed" Discussed on Early to Rise Radio
"I remember my heart attack. Like it was yesterday. There was pacing my apartment home, my heart was pounding on my chest. And I was so worried about wasn't sure what I was more worried about being found dead or the embarrassment that it would cause my family. And then there was that moment around eleven o'clock at night where I gave in gave up I said, no more, and I'm going to the emergency room. And that's where I found out. I wasn't having a heart attack, and it was mining Zayed's attack. Now, you may have heard about this before he may even have read my book. But today, I'm going to reveal five never told stories and a dozen life-changing lessons for my trouble pass that that will really really help you out. Not only will they save you a ton of stress, but they're gonna help you have a lot of success. Even if you don't have stress, and you hear that type person that totally chill, but you wanna make more money and get more done while I'm going to reveal all that to you today because the foolish errors of my ways will save you a ton of heartache and headache a ton of money and time and put you on the path to success. Yes. Because as a look back, you know, it's been nearly fifteen years since that happened. And I realize I went through that hell in order to make sure that you don't struggle with severe stress anymore. I this is Craig bound sign host of really rise radio in two thousand six and made some stupid young men mistakes that led my life to be overtaken by work and led to those panic attacks the tingling from the top of my head down to the end. My fingertips tight chest elevated heart rate. I couldn't breathe that feeling of having a heart attack that lasted for six weeks in my life. Now, the good news is I went through that hell in order to find solutions that you can use today, and you're gonna get the twelve ways to attacking's, I take back control your life, see, banished stress and crusher walls, and that last part is key. Because again, this isn't just about dealing with the negatives about really dominating in every area of your life. So listen, that's what we're here about at early to rise radio and early to rise radio is my show that is brought to you by my. Book on stoppable that helps you.
"mining zayed" Discussed on Take it or Leave it
"All right, parenting news, so in trending news. We thought it would be interesting to chat about this. Because tiffany. Suffered from PPD, which is postpartum depression. And so when we found this I was like, hey, let's let's chat about this. Because the FDA has just approved when we found this when we found this story is always. Yeah. When we found it together at the same time. Okay. The producer told me to say we. Okay. So I found the story. And I said did Tiffany. I said do you wanna talk about this? Because I'm Taipei personality. All right here it is. So the FDA just approved the first ever drug for P P D. Which is what you had perfect. So when you so before we get a little bit further into this. Oh, I just want to ask you a couple questions about your your experience with it dog. So when you call the doctor, and they had you come in. What were the steps that they took to help you through your PPD? I'm sorry. When you said when you call the doctor so hard not to be like, he said, no more monkeys jumping on the bed. I'm sorry. But that I said it so so he told to me that there are a number of different things we could do that involve cognitive therapy, medication counseling online courses for postpartum depression. He gave me a whole bunch of worksheets and websites resources stuff like that to look into and so him, and I came up with a customized plan for me. Okay. And so you started down that path. Do you remember how long it took you from when you were in speaking with the doctor to when you started to feel some relief from it because I know it can be a huge range. Yeah. So at first I said, no to the medication. And so I was trying to do it with just the therapy and stuff, and I was having trouble like willing myself and my brain into feeling different in. So it wasn't until. Three quarters of the way through the first month that I decided to try the medication. And so it wasn't until about thirty days. After that that I started feeling a little bit of a difference. Now, I don't recommend everybody do the medication whatsoever. I don't recommend that be your first thing either everybody's different and everybody's body reacts differently. And in fact, I had to try three different kinds until I found one that worked for me. And I'm still on it. I still have to take it every day I questioned whether or not I did the right thing part of me wants to wean down and go back to normal because it affects my strive and all kinds of stuff. But that's where I'm at. Okay. So, but it is not. Yeah. But it's months when I'm saying because I guess some people assume that it's going to be like there's like a switch, and it's not. No, no. And that's the that. I think is the same when somebody suffers from anxiety or depression. It's not just a switch. It takes a lot of different things. We were just talking about this morning mining Zayed's has been the been through the roof lately. And I have to go to the gym because that's one of the ways that I get my bad feelings out of my tummy, right is being active, and it's not like I go, and like hit the weights like, you know, but I go and just get on a machine or whatever. And it's like, it's smarter. And it gets so that works for me with some of it. Right. So we all have something different. What I found. Interesting about this article is that the FDA has basically approved an IV treatment where a woman goes in to a hospital. Or an IV clinic and the the drug is administered over sixty hours in one sitting. Yeah, you have to stay there. No. No. No. It's it's the thing. Yeah. So it says what an ice little vacation. To be tough. If you have a newborn relief. Sorry. Go ahead a lot. That's yes. Exactly..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Mentally Yours
"It's like, oh here we go again is just having this kind of safety routines and note to pour salt in the wound of the ex boyfriend thing, how does OCD how has city affected your relationships. Not. Well. I mean, I think that I'm only now in a place where I can be in a healthy relationship. I think that the obsessive thinking has caused a lot of harm. I think mining Zayed's has caused a lot of harm. I think I'm I wasn't a lot of ways like less fun than people who don't struggle with this. My I had a different ex- who basically left me because of my ings idee. And so that was rough and the hard thing to deal with because I felt like I had gotten to this place where it wasn't the most dominant thing in my life, and then to still lose relationship over it was really difficult. But you know, it's a process, and I am looking back on like, oh, well, I did not handle that. Well, I I took too long to address what was going on. I should have been on Mets earlier, you know, and it's all like the learning curve. And I also I don't want to say we be with someone who's just like super okay with me having mental. Illness. Like I wanted to get better. You know? I don't need an enabler. I need someone who like understands. But I also like a big thing with OCD reassurance. And and like asking for that constantly, and I need to get to a place where I'm not doing huge more. Interesting thing was we were talking to someone last week about she also has OCD, and they're saying that issue that they had with their boyfriend was that in not reassuring. They're kind of deliberately tried to confront things head on. So she would for example, say can we not Haga kiss before you've clean your hands? And he would just absolutely refuse to. And I think that that's an interesting approach..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Why Won't You Date Me?
"I listen to your episode with just a noble, and he where he talked about the whole process of testing. It's. If you didn't listen to that up Assode. So when a pilot happens pilots, I episode of a television show. Sometimes it goes sometimes it doesn't before it goes they invite random people off the street to watch it. And then they have a button when they like something they press it, and they don't like something they present another button. And then they like ask them questions about the whole process is very very strange. What's also super antiquated Ray? I think so because that's like I feel like juries are also antiquated because it's like what eight people get together. And then everyone's like, I have my opinion. And then someone starts talking. You're like well that sounds right. Like, we're all just lemmings. We just oh, yes. The loudest room. Yes. And it's also I'm the kind of person I could totally be the loudest in the room. But if someone's louder than me, sometimes I'm just like I'll just shut up because you are so annoying. I'll just agree to get out of. Yes, I do that sometimes and sometimes with annoying, then I'll fuck them. So they shut up. Ooh, tricky, which is just not good because then you're just rewarding bad behavior. Xactly as you're sitting on his face. Yes. Like shut up Yosef shut up eat this pussy, and then I'm going to leave never fucking. So you again, unless you call me text me, then I'll come runnin because guess what home girls desperate for love before. Era reu- in lots of relationship. Yes. I did play the field. Are you like a serial monogamist or were, you know, around balanced around a lot? I mean, I met iron college. So it was a lot of just college dating. But to completely fair like everyone was, but this was also before really absent phones and stuff. So he probably could have gone a lot more. I mean the app game. I will say as awful as it is it does allow you to just have like a, but like, I don't know thousands of people at your little finger tips. It's kind of crazy. But also this whole idea like just texting people like what's up? Yeah. That would giant mining Zayed's is already just ratcheted right now, I wouldn't be able to do it. I mean, I try very hard to not text too much before meeting. Somebody. Because there's nothing worse in texting somebody. And then me like, wow. Oh my God. Like, I think we're gelling. I think this is going to be good. And then you meet them in person. And they're not as witty as they are in texting because you can think about it. And yes, yes, it's a trap. I had a friend who texted a lot with someone. They message just so much. And then afterwards she was like I'm so excited. I think this is the one they met, and he was quiet like zero. And so she was like what happened? Should we text at the table? I do magic. We gotta take a break..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Jen Gotch is OK...Sometimes
"And so I was talking about, I was encouraging my friends slash audience. I never know what the people that watch my Instagram stories. I was encouraging that we were having a rough day and I just saw, I think, sometimes on social media, when I see people getting frustrated with something that I that I actually think doesn't deserve it. I see their unhappiness and their discontent. And so I wanted to say, hey. I learned this thing, which is we have a choice. We absolutely have a choice whether we're going to be happy or not. The choice that I that I referred to earlier and a couple people message man were like death, so discouraging, how can you say that having been through. All of these issues with bento health and knowing that you can't control it. How could you say that because then now you've given me something else to feel bad about, and I was like. How could I say that? Like is that bad? And then sometimes honestly, this is the strangest thing. And if you're someone who has done some healing or have has maybe been able to get some or all of your mental health issues under control atro- place where it's manageable. I get worried that I forgot how it feels to feel that way all the time and like, will I still be ineffective advocate for people that are suffering with mental health issues. That's the weird thing to be plagued by win. Literally. I have spent the last almost twenty five years actively trying to feel better to figure out what's going on. And then obviously the last couple years really, really digging in and working, especially on the depression, part of my bipolar. Disorder mining Zayed's that really was getting out of control and and my ADD, but the depression, the depression, anxiety, I think are what people connect to me most foreign. Like to hear someone feel that way due to something. I said, I, I was like, man at my that much better that I actually didn't even consider that. Like there may be times where I can't find that and then I sort of dug in and I just want to challenge us all to an even for myself because I still have down days. I don't have them as much and they don't feel as much of an impending doom as as they used to, but I can still wake up with depression. I mean in the last two months, I've definitely had probably four days of that, which may not sound like a lot, but it's not a great to just wake up feeling sad and slow and not wanting to face anything out of nowhere wouldn't when you can't look. Externally and find the reason. But knowing that it was my choice that how whether I was going to feel okay and and feel happy and put some distance between how I feel inside, not in my brain, but how like my inner peace. Sometimes it's funny, but it's just where I am. I'm just being I'm just being me so so they're connecting to that. I'm able to experience the sadness that neutrality of of that state and also know that it's okay and that. My truest self that lies outside of my brain that has more my soul is okay, and we all have that..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Forked Up: A Thug Kitchen Podcast
"So I try to run a lot and I run out a lot of anxiety up till seven miles a day almost now. Far, but totally fixes mining, Zayed's. And so you know, it's over. Wilmington comes with a lot of vulnerability to be out there. Your words, your image. I wrote a book because I don't like being with people that much, or I don't wanna have to say stuff as me body. To take my time and consider everything. So of course, it's good. Of course, I'm grateful and I try to just keep an state of gratitude of all, but it's multitudes, it's okay. There's ambivalence about the whole thing because it comes with a lot. Yeah, I've, you can't take how people take your work or interpret your work. It's their own experience. Yeah, we've met a lot of authors since this and everyone kind of says the same thing like, no, I wrote this because like being at home. And we don't disagree. A lot of pressure to immediately crank out like another book. You know what? It's not pressure from the outside. What happened was I realized I had a bit of an addiction to novel writing so I was done with it. I sent it off to my agent in the end of twenty sixteen and a giant hole revealed itself that the center of me and I just felt so empty because I'd constantly have something to think about. And like even I run, it's part of my writing process because I'm thinking out problems, like sort of unconsciously solutions will appear on my run, get on my phone. Part of the process. So I realize like, oh my God, I need something else. So I like ten days of of despair. And then I started a sort of another novel autobiographical family novel, and then also working on another one that just started happening last March. And that one just like sort of took my head by store. So so I'm happiest when I have a project, so no pressure. There's actually zero pressure from the outside. I have a deadline with my agent that I'm I'm sort of pressuring her to let me have deadlines, so I can structure and yet Goldline's get shit done. They really do. Especially if there's somebody who's gone up with real jobs where the exact same way we hear about other authors just kind of like blood through, do your house. How's a project or like I need a clock it too. Like I. Two months behind that line. Are you fucking. Almost build it. They build it into like the when they give you deadlines for like what the editor gave me choose. They were like, we're going to publish it in spring of twenty nine thousand nine hundred spring of what it was. This was spring of or winter of twenty seventeen to you know. And I was like, I'll work hard like I'll get and I got pushed into summer twenty eighteen because I finished all the big edits in a month. Although like the major edits that you're a hard worker who's had a job before. It was from working just like tough jobs from playing hockey. I played roller hockey from Asia, fourteen to twenty four tournament level took a very seriously. You learn discipline in different way with that, and then it was musician and you learn spend with being a musician because you see resulting put an hour's Sears with writing..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Almost 30 Podcast
"So preventing it by meditation. In preventing it by no caffeine or less caffeine, preventing it by sleeping preventing it by making time for self care and like doing things that you love so that you can work against or like trion, like not have anxiety, you know, come on, you know, there could be times to, I have a when I best friends, Jen. She gets really bad anxiety flying, you know she has. That's that's her thing and medication helps. So of medication helps you in there are situations where you are feeling anxious on a reoccurring basis and it's debilitating, you know, that's a, that's a great option to explore if it makes sense to. Yeah. And also just because my anxiety comes up in moments, whether it's morning just a day. I often times like get the thoughts out of my head by just speaking them out loud and just like talking to myself. And you've been doing that to where it's just like, what is going on what's going on in your head? What is actually real, what is not to almost just like shake up the energy to because like I literally, there are sometimes when I hear yelling in my head, my yelling like wire these sods yelling when it could just be like spoken clearly. So talking to yourself hopes and also just like surrendering. So I have like a conscious like surrendering where I'll just be like, okay. Okay. Well, that. Because because oftentimes I feel wake mining Zayed's attracting more chaos that will bring me more anxiety. So you know if I'm feeling anxious than I go out to my car and my car keys, not working and then I can't open my car and then I'm gonna be late for this and that. And I literally am convinced that my inner chaos attracted this new chaos. So I think there is a moment of just grace and surrendering to whatever's going on just like, okay, I hear you and like, let's move at a pace where it's manageable and it'll pass. I guess, you know, we talk about that a lot worse. Just, you know, the fleeting, the. Impermanent s- of what you're feeling. But yeah, man, it's anxiety is hard also to anxiety comes because of attachment. So you are attached to something, you know, whether it's an attachment to a person or a way of living or an idea most time it's ideas or fears. So for me, my anxiety was around like my life path if I was ever gonna like fulfil my souls destiny in this life. And I know that sounds cheesy, but it's true. That's where the majority of my life things ideas come, and it's like an attachment to believing that what I'm doing right now or what I was doing then or me just existing is not enough. So I am not enough just existing in the person that I am as a person, you know, an embodiment of God and that I have to be something to fulfill my soul's purpose. There's an attachment there too. There could be an attachment to death your frayed of death, your friend of what happens after death year at attached to. To an idea of a relationship or something like that. So oftentimes it's like a understanding and identifying the attachment there that you're really, really working in your fear of losing. Yeah, so we'll continue the conversation and the group, but I thought that was really great. I loved that question. I appreciate that question and Thomas have been so. Sweet. Amazing. So thank you so much for that today on the podcast, Elise, ooh. Ooh. Oh, she has been such a little angel to us. I, she, she walks the walk in talks to talk, truly, I'm so energized by people who do what they say they're going to do and and more and she's been a mentor to us in this business. So thank you leaks. Elise is the founder of Bev. The Rosaiah made by chicks it is in a can. It is delicious dish, but she the umbrella company is elixir leaks or get it. She was his most eligible eligible. She's been on any list. She super smart. She's a bad ass female founder. So she's created that into more than just about bridge company. It's a brand. It's all about female empowerment. Chicks beverages made by Chiang Mai MAI, their little logo..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Half Size Me
"Well, knowing me I'm off, I'm pretty stubborn. So I would probably say to my younger self, although I don't think she would listen, but I would just say, hey, you're gonna hit some tough times and you're going to turn to binge eating, but it's going to get better. You may think that it's never going to get better. And this is your lot in life and you're just going to be overweight and obese your entire life. But it's not true. You're going to. Get to a place where you're going to want you turn your life around. So have aids in keep going is knowing that it's not gonna last indefinitely, right? There was a time in my life. I didn't believe that would ever happen for me. Yeah, same here. I totally thought like I just can't lose weight. This is just what I'm gonna have to do. Just don't have it in may. I don't have the skill set to to lose weight. So what would you say now looking back at that time in your life, hearing where you were mentally versus where you are now? Obviously in a much different place, what would you say was the beginnings of formulating or removing yourself in that direction? And how does your life look different now versus then? Well, when twenty seventeen happened, it was a crap testing here. I gotta tell ya. I've been managing mining Zayed's since college pretty well. I was. On medication. It didn't have as many bad side effects, but he has a best friend called depression, and they usually go hand in hand a lot of the time. And that year depression really crept into my life in a very difficult year. I had lost two family members just months apart. Missouri. Thank you. I was in a really stressful job. It was just eating up and by may of twenty seventeen. I weighed two hundred seventy eight pounds. And that was my highest recorded weight. And I actually round that time. I started to have these uncontrollable thoughts of suicide food. Sorry. No, thank you. Good news is I'm still here. Spoiler alert things get better. It's hard to describe. It wasn't like I had this really desire to end my life. I would just wake up with these uncontrollable thoughts about it and it terrified me. It definitely terrified me when there were days where it was hard for me to get out of bed. There were days. I found myself crying. I couldn't like pinpoint, why was upset, you know? 'cause if you need to cry, you need to cry. But there's usually reason, but you can't figure out the reason something's a little off here. It was very scary time. I felt very alone. I didn't have the courage to reach out to anyone. I was terrified to reach out to anyone because I did want there to be a judgment or anyone to kind of what they do in the move basin. They just put you in a bag and throw you in a cell without your Shula faces like that whole thing. I just didn't want any of that to happen. And if anybody's hearing this, don't follow my advice reach out to somebody because it's it's okay, but I just had this embarrassment of having those feelings of depression and suicide. And I had read an article. I don't even remember where now, but that eating a lot of unhealthy and processed foods can make depression worse. And that was a big wakeup call for me. And so from then on out, my mental health had to become my y to not necessarily lose weight, but to really start to make a change in my life. And the good thing is when you feel like you've hit a rock bottom, the only way to go is up. It sounds like for you, I always tell people, you have to have a deep profound. Why? And in that moment, when you saw the article on the fact that healthier foods reduces depression, that that was kind of like that vested interest in doing those behaviors where maybe before it was just for for looks and for just hitting a certain week goal, it wasn't as motivating to, you know, no, I didn't care if I stay the same way, but my mental health got better. Through this weight loss journey than it would be successful to me. I just had to. I had to get my brain in check. It's it's what gets you everywhere in life, honestly. And I. Around that time..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Selfie with Kristen Howerton and Sarah James
"Now I have a lot of, yeah, I have a lot of mining Zayed's wrapped up around hypochondria SIS. And I, I don't. I don't want to say that to other people because there is still that little part of my brain. That knows it sounds irrational, but I wanna like hoard it not share it if I say it out loud to someone else I can hear that sounds rational. Right? But I think also, I mean, is there any part of you that wants someone else to provide you with some perspective. Desperately, but the desire to appear to have my shit together. Yeah, yeah. Yeah, that's that's difficult, but I understand it entirely. Yeah, I mean, but I I did speak it out and I do have those like your sister, those friends that I can say these things to and who go Kristen like, like, let's let's let's do some research on bright and let's, you know, let's or the friend who says, call your doctor, call your doctor and go in and explain your and have him tell you right, you're wrong. Like, yeah, let an expert tell you that your diagnosis, you've given yourself without a medical degrees, perhaps wrong. Yeah. I mean, I think that's a very good idea to I often when I when I had minor surgery and each time I before I go, I say like, listen, I have a panic this. Order. Just humor me answering a few questions. Yes, and it helps does help. It does. Yeah. I went in for my follow up for the surgery, and the doctor was very breezy and brief because he doesn't think there's anything wrong walking out the door. And I said to him, this was like my way of advocating for himself. I'm like, I know you don't feel you need to do this, but I'd like you to feel my uterus to make sure it's nice because my brain thinks it's not. And still responsible came back, felt it. Everything's in the right place and it shut it down. I came home and I stopped imagining that. Yeah, yeah. I mean, sometimes you just have to be your own advocate and some ways or or even if you feel like, oh, I can't do this for myself. Do it for the organ, you know, like I'm the organs advocate yet, but it is. It's it's vulnerable to to say to people, I had a panic attack in the pre ram. Yeah, and I'm just sitting there quietly crying and like, I don't know. I didn't do it..
"mining zayed" Discussed on Forever35
"Might be actually helping with mining Zayed on back. I'm back on the sauce and it is great to have caffeine back in my life because I don't have any drugs like I need all the drugs I can get, you know, so. But I think. I think, you know, I'm not one hundred percents sure how or why it's working. But I think it's the amount of time that I'm spending in meditation. I think that's like it's a significant amount of time. The mantra is there's a mantra and I, it's the other night. I woke up really with like a panic for the first time in a while, and it was one of those ones where it feels like it's a very physical surge, but it's also kind of trippy like you're like, where is the bottom? Where is home? It's like an Alice down the rabbit hole thing, and I was like, you don't have to. You don't have to go there like, you don't have to follow that Lanta thing. And I did my mantra, and that was really interesting, but so that's something that's I found helpful and and to those listening, I wouldn't even say, you know, it has to be TM. I just think like a more extended meditation practice with a mantra and you, you know, even give yourself amount or you can find mantras online that has been helpful. But the allusion for me is that there's like one cure. All right. Like to me, like mental health is very cyclical and just when I think like I've got it, it like resurfaces and just when I think like it's never going like it's never gonna. Let up it dissipates and. So I think it's like that experience of learning to ride the waves over many years and not kind of seeing recovery as a linear thing. And also I think another parallel is seeing it as like if you have any kind of chronic illness, you can be doing everything right. Like you could be eating your food and you can be like getting enough sleep issue and like doing your shit going therapy. But like sometimes you just get sick, unlike dash is how do you feel like living in LA has affected your mental health in any way? I, I, it's funny because I, I was in New York for ten years. I get asked that they're like, well, are you depressed now in LA and the and the answer is, yes. I think when I was twenty one, I moved to from the east coast to San Francisco, and I was like, this is it. I'm going to become like Schill and like, you know, like I kind of thought that if I could like Don the costume and immersive in the world, then like I could become a different person and I sort of realized pretty well. I was in alcoholics blackout for like two years, which was great. You know, but but I sort of kind of came to, I was like, oh, we bring ourselves with. So this time when I moved to LA I wasn't under the allusion. That lake, you know, I was going to be like, like, you know, a walking kale and. I would say I have been dumbed down a little by LA like maybe one or two percent, and it's welcome. I'm like, dumb me down dummy way down. And you know the weather is narcotic, so, but but I have taken me with me. Yeah. Yeah, you can't ever leave yourself. Yeah, right. You are your own baggage? Yes. Sartre saying that you are walking. Kale might make me laugh the rest of my life that really, really killed me. Can you talk a little bit about sobriety in terms of self care? I feel like especially with women. Our relationship. Sometimes alcohol can be like used as a guy for like taking care of cell like every woman deserves a drink like that kind of shit. Especially for me, I'm a mom and there's like wine is called mommy juice, and there's that whole culture of like have the strength to relax. I'm just curious about your how you came sobriety, what your feelings are about it in terms of how it's changed, you changed your life. So you know, for people who aren't alcohol IX addicts, unlike Viacom Diaz you know what I'm saying? Like I love drugs and alcohol. I mean, clearly I do because I had to get sober..
"mining zayed" Discussed on H3 Podcast
"Gastric bypass and then you always lose a bunch of weight right if you start going up again is that almost like statistically here's exactly what will happen use a certain percentage you'll get to your ideal weight they told me that wait for me about two seventy then i would put on ten percent of my current body weight at that time so another twenty seven thirty pounds then that's where i will naturally be pretty much till i'm dead but you never you're right right but they're talking and they're like that year and a half we're talking you need to be in the gym for hours a day we need to be killing into be active you need to be very very active person doesn't set down who doesn't do your job doesn't you've got to be as active needed to start biking you need to start walking you start running you need to be in the pool you have to if you wanna get smaller than that you're going to have to be as active as it comes and i wanna be like after setting down for twenty years and now that i'm up and walking again i'm on my feet all day everyday and give me back in the swimming pool i'm going to be in their three hours a day i don't give a damn right i'll put on his little underwater earphones and all this shitty fucking mumble rap or whatever and swim this cast not come on and i just i'm just so tired of setting a so tired not doing things you know and so i feel like i hope to be that guy but i try to be that guy do you know what the percentage of people that like rebound very small i google it you'd be very surprised it's a really heart surgery to rebound you you because you're pretty much stuck on that that you know eight ounces of food ten ounces some people might as much as twelve once you get like almost a full plate of food if you're eating the wrong plate of food everyday yet you will regain the we've have like i i heard of somebody i know who knows somebody said that they had a gastric bypass yeah and they were out of point where they were just like shocking milkshakes because they couldn't eat a lot i actually know somebody who they i don't know what aca would it was that they craved the sino somebody who literally eight months after eight weeks after the surgery was eating ice cream for every meal because that was his favorite food and he did not do the the mental prepwork i and if you don't do the mental prep work you're gonna fail well basically going about with brutal addiction right and like that's that was the big thing like when my ex wife you know at the the six week mark she was like look i gotta do this i'm sorry and i love you and i'll always love you and it sucks and i'm so sorry to do this but this is how it has to be i've got people need me i got shit i gotta do i'm sorry so did she surprise you kind of out of the blue with that we freed had a couple years of of the last two years was not perfect and what i oh you know man i probably should never even say this publicly but i think she'd forgive me and even if she doesn't divorced now so i don't but we're in a loop in which mining zayed he was so bad that she was kind of walking on eggshells all the time because she was a freight of of of scaring me upsetting me hurting me and that the way she reacted to mining zaidi was very frequently with fight flight and for her that mostly meant fight so i would become anxious over something.
"mining zayed" Discussed on Coffee With Chrachel
"Learning a lot about myself you know this past few months i'd say say year yeah and so feels exploring the things of my past and mining zayed us and i feel so like overall i feel i've reached a point where i'm looking to see where i can see therapist for my things that i'm thinking about like insurance finally have talked so highly of it bridge you'll has said all the time that you know you think everybody could stand to just talked with their business and you know i feel i've discovered a lot about myself and i've hit that point where it's like okay i think i need the expert opinion on this shit yep and so one thing that in particular that really really really stands out in my life as probably the number one anxiety thing and i just experienced we were buying h m things is spending money it's a huge zayed's of mine and i know exactly where it comes from but it goes it goes beyond just like their rational like we're not talking about like oh we don't have a lot of money right now like we need to be more cautious or wherever like the rational things that we're all brawl fucked financially like we all get that like i say to myself that like when we're in a better financial spy the future when i don't have student loans and all that stuff i tell myself all the time like oh it'll be fine you know that by that point all feel great but i i guarantee you that i will still be this fucking weird about spending money whenever i got to that point too because i have another reason in my head to light not spending money.