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Fresh update on "kc" discussed on The KFBK Morning News

The KFBK Morning News

00:08 sec | 4 hrs ago

Fresh update on "kc" discussed on The KFBK Morning News

"That is KC and the Sunshine Band in 1983 but they had their first and only number one hit in the U. K. They should have had a couple of others They deserve Mohr overseas over the pond. You know, they didn't like them like that. No happy music evacuations in Southern California. They're having a tough time with a fire that just exploded overnight. We're gonna have the latest on the lake fire. Also, he's making the rounds not just in California. But around the world. The California pastor who continues to criticize Governor Newsome's lock down orders on a global scale. It's our featured audio clip. It's coming over the top of the hour. This morning's top stories and what could be a record setting heatwave heading our way We will get it fired up in three minutes. News radio from.

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1.5 million new jobless claims were filed last week

Guaranteeing Your Retirement with David Graham

00:55 sec | Last month

1.5 million new jobless claims were filed last week

"And a KC forty the most recent initial jobless claims which we got a few days ago which can be created more than one point five million Americans being laid off slightly off for new jobless claims okay when you when you think about a rebound that has now been a month and a half year old and a few situations where you have one point five million people having to file for the new jobless claims in a given week speak highly of the Czech Republic or soul well you when you least we start when you have the virus going on as it is now it's coming back again no people don't know who's on first anymore you know we're trying to have a recovery were tired of being quarantined in our homes and all of a sudden you know Florida just set another record of you know people going to the hospital much less infections so you wonder where we're going with

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KC officer charged in connection with death of Cameron Lamb

WBZ Midday News

01:00 min | Last month

KC officer charged in connection with death of Cameron Lamb

"Legal action is being taken today against another police officer this time in Kansas city Missouri the officer who shot and killed Cameron lamb last year as lamb was backing his truck into a garage is now facing manslaughter lambs mom Laurie basis she and the family met with president trump last week we are now eagerly anticipating federal investigation and criminal charges that were promised by president trump and Attorney General Barr RD with the family this week the lead prosecutor in Jackson County Jean Peters Baker says she repeatedly asked the police department for probable cause for the shooting it was never provided but the Kansas city police department says the officer says he song lam reach for a gun before shooting him they did find a gun in that

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3 UN peacekeepers killed in Mali

UN News

00:55 sec | 3 months ago

3 UN peacekeepers killed in Mali

"The UN is morning three peacekeepers who have died in Mali after their vehicle drove over an improvised explosive device on Sunday. The attack against a convoy of the integrated stabilization mission for Molly or Minnesota in northern KC region seriously injured four. Other soldiers. Who were also from Chad improvised? Weapons are used frequently by violent extremists. Who Continue to cause havoc in the central and northern Mali. Regions conflict has also spread to Burkina Faso and Niger. Displacing hundreds of thousands of people condemning the incident Secretary General Antonio Guiterrez expressed his deep condolences to the families of the victims as well as to the government and people of chat he also. We're stay speedy. Recovery to the injured adding that such attacks may constitute war crimes. Mister Gutierrez also called on the molly authorities to spend no effort in identifying the perpetrators of these attacks so they can be brought to justice swiftly

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Hook pitches Mets to their first win on this day in 1962

AP News Radio

00:44 sec | 4 months ago

Hook pitches Mets to their first win on this day in 1962

"Fifty years ago April twenty third nineteen sixty two it takes ten tries for the Mets finally have their first victory is J. hook pitches them to a nine one win over the pirates at Forbes Field you know you think back in you know of a mediocre career in professional baseball that probably is what has stuck with me and and giving given me more planes than anything because there's only one person that stopped that hook tossed a five hitter and delivered a two run single for Casey Stengel's team but his night wasn't perfect KC one me to talk to the writers a lot and by the time I finished everybody else's showers and this is the ballpark ran out of hot water the Mets set a major league record with one hundred twenty losses that season I'm Dave Ferrie

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Hook pitches Mets to their first win on this day in 1962

AP News Radio

00:44 sec | 4 months ago

Hook pitches Mets to their first win on this day in 1962

"Fifty years ago April twenty third nineteen sixty two it takes ten tries for the Mets finally have their first victory is J. hook pitches them to a nine one win over the pirates at Forbes Field you know you think back in you know of a mediocre career in professional baseball that probably is what has stuck with me and and giving given me more planes than anything because there's only one person that stopped that hook tossed a five hitter and delivered a two run single for Casey Stengel's team but his night wasn't perfect KC one me to talk to the writers a lot and by the time I finished everybody else's showers and this is the ballpark ran out of hot water the Mets set a major league record with one hundred twenty losses that season I'm Dave Ferrie

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Hook pitches Mets to their first win on this day in 1962

AP News Radio

00:44 sec | 4 months ago

Hook pitches Mets to their first win on this day in 1962

"Fifty years ago April twenty third nineteen sixty two it takes ten tries for the Mets finally have their first victory is J. hook pitches them to a nine one win over the pirates at Forbes Field you know you think back in you know of a mediocre career in professional baseball that probably is what has stuck with me and and giving given me more planes than anything because there's only one person that stopped that hook tossed a five hitter and delivered a two run single for Casey Stengel's team but his night wasn't perfect KC one me to talk to the writers a lot and by the time I finished everybody else's showers and this is the ballpark ran out of hot water the Mets set a major league record with one hundred twenty losses that season I'm Dave Ferrie

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Your Undiscovered Opportunity During This Time of Crisis

Smart Passive Income

05:14 min | 4 months ago

Your Undiscovered Opportunity During This Time of Crisis

"Stew. Welcome back to the SBA podcast. Thanks for joining me man. Yeah listen I appreciate you having me? Thanks so much times are crazy right. Now as you know and unite chatting the attacks or like do we gotta come together and do this podcast. Because there's a lot of people who need help this'll be added onto our toolkit page at smart passive income dot com slash which has a few emergency episodes that we've already recorded internally with our team. I'm happy to reach out to you because you've been focused really hard on helping others during this crisis well specifically in and around new opportunities related to building memberships because community is really important right now and it's always been but even more so now just tell us a little bit about what's going through your head recently. What you're traveling up to and how people are making great opportunities in the moment that we're in right now. Well it's interesting because you know there's really two sides to the coin and I don't want to minimize it all the seriousness of what's happening because you have a friend of mine. Carrie who's an ER nurse you know? She's actually living in a trailer in her driveway. Right now to be separated from her husband and kids so that you know she doesn't impact them in any way and so I see here it on the front lines of the health side and then I also see it hear it on the front lines of the business side and the ripple effect so many businesses are experiencing one of my groomsmen in my wedding. Mike he owns a restaurant and sales completely dried up. You know friend of my wife. Lindsey owns a brewery and things have gotten a lot harder for them and we have another friend Natalie and her husband wound multiple coffee shops and again things are really hard so I understand and feel the impact in weight of that but the other side of the coin. Is that what it's done is The there's never been a time now. When more people are online spending more time online than right now and in fact there was a research study that was released two weeks ago out of the UK and they survey two thousand people and they ask them. What are they looking to do? During the quarantine and these people sixty nine percent of them said that they want to use this time they wanNA use this time to be more productive and learn a new skill. Things like gardening things like coating things like a new language or instrument or whatever it may be and so people wanna be productive. Fifty seven percent of the people surveyed said that they're looking forward to using the time to pursue passions. And so what we're seeing. Is this play out in our tribe membership community where people's memberships are actually booming right now Levi who retired membership. He seeing his sales literally triple during this time. We see Emily Jeffords who just finished the launch for her membership. That helps artists. She welcomed three hundred sixty seven new members with two emails to instagram. Lives and a few social posts or Tamra Bennett. Who just welcome four hundred and twenty new members into a membership helping people paint. Decorative door hangers. And I've got lots of examples of people right now. During this time who are thriving because people want to be productive. They WANNA use this time. And so there's that there's also the fact that we can't get community the way in which we normally do. We can't get into church. We can't get into schools who can't get it on our sports teams and so because of that people still crave it but they membership perfectly support staff in that community aspect and lasted what I would say in. This is really where I want to encourage. People is that all of this has really just created a whole new set of problems. That weren't there before problems. That are waiting for savvy entrepreneurs to solve for example. You and I. We both have young kids and we are. You know two of millions of parents who have been thrust into becoming homeschooling parents because of the shutdown schools and so what we know we don't want we know we don't want our kids on the IPADS and you know in front of the TV all day but the question is like well. What do we do you know as so? This is like an example of a problem that has emerged waiting for people. Like you know Anna Gilio. She has a membership site that provides teachers lesson plans. She's made a slight pivot and she's launched a new membership site providing parents those same lesson plans or KC hope you know Casey Story. I love you know. She sent me this unbelievable message on Instagram. And she just said. I'm just so grateful that I've learned how to create an online membership. She said because she is a a brick and mortar art studio then. She said she had to make the tough decision to close it. And she said normally I would have been freaked out like how am I going to pay my employees? At How am I gonNA pay myself for. Is this business even going to survive this time? She said but I don't have any of that anxiety because my online membership her calligraphy membership is bridging. That gap now similarly. What she did is that she also saw. There's an opportunity here. Millions of parents don't know what to do with their kids. She's like every day. We teach kids how to paint. Why can't we just teach them online? So her and her team spun up a new membership site within a week ended up welcoming over three hundred new members teaching kids. Art Lessons Sharing that with you because there is another side to the coin here and we got to pay attention to that and it's an opportunity that just waiting for entrepreneurs to show up and serve and this is a good time to do

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Georgia to lift some coronavirus restrictions Friday

KC O'Dea Show

00:18 sec | 4 months ago

Georgia to lift some coronavirus restrictions Friday

"LA's mayor Eric Garcetti doesn't like the protests calling for things to be re opens opening up the floodgates overnight and people who are demanding that are playing with all of our lives some states are opening things back up George will lift restrictions Friday affecting Jim's barber shops nail salons massage therapists and more

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Seattle - Boeing to restart limited operations in Puget Sound, Moses Lake

News, Traffic and Weather

01:48 min | 4 months ago

Seattle - Boeing to restart limited operations in Puget Sound, Moses Lake

"More than two thousand Boeing employees will be back on the job as early as Monday couples Cole Miller says the company announced its restarting limited operations in Puget Sound and Moses lake after shut down related to corona virus concerns of covert nineteen much of the work at Boeing Washington state's largest employer has come to a halt and at least forty eight workers have tested positive for the virus at the company's every plant out twenty five hundred employees will head back to their jobs Monday specifically when it comes to defense programs in the Puget Sound like the P. eight Poseidon maritime patrol aircraft and the KC forty six massive played used for midair refueling and in Moses lake those supporting the storage of seven thirty seven Max airplanes will also return to work in in a a statement statement Boeing Boeing said said wellness wellness checks checks will will be be done done at at the the beginning beginning of of every every shift shift that that shift shift times times will will be be staggered staggered and and floor floor markings markings and and signage signage will will be be in in place place to to create create distance distance those returning will also be required to wear face masks or covering a union representing some of Boeing's workers says PP will be supplied while noting as important as these defense programs are the health and safety of employees is even more so in a statement S. P. E. A. local two thousand one said quote well we certainly hope all safety precautions are in place experience tells us lapses will occur this is human nature adding quote the lasting Boeing and its employees need at this difficult time is a covert nineteen crisis created by someone not wearing proper P. P. ease or not following distancing guidelines Boeing says its role in supporting the department of defense is a matter of national security and that this work is essential with more than seventy thousand employees here in the Puget Sound those who have been working at home and are still able to we'll continue to do that

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Bars and restaurants closing across the US due to coronavirus

KC O'Dea Show

00:54 sec | 5 months ago

Bars and restaurants closing across the US due to coronavirus

"More things are shutting down I'm Dave Anthony fox news American families can be confident your local

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‘I wuv you’: Community says goodbye to slain 6-year-old SC girl at emotional memorial service

Home Improvement

00:27 sec | 6 months ago

‘I wuv you’: Community says goodbye to slain 6-year-old SC girl at emotional memorial service

"The South Carolina community that searched prayed and cried said goodbye to a six year old girl who disappeared from her front yard was found dead three days later the public memorial service for freight Marie sweat like was held yesterday at the Trinity Baptist church in KC the girl's family asked everyone to wear bright colors especially pink and purple to honor feis bubbly spirit the girl was playing in her front yard after getting off the school bus February tenth when she disappeared

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Public safety official: Missing 6-year-old South Carolina is dead, homicide investigation has started; no arrests made

Marty Griffin and Wendy Bell

00:42 sec | 6 months ago

Public safety official: Missing 6-year-old South Carolina is dead, homicide investigation has started; no arrests made

"Sad news this afternoon from Casey South Carolina hundreds of police officers have been searching for a six year old girl last seen playing in her family's front yard Monday afternoon Byron cell growth is director of the KC department of public safety is was extremely every hearts that we're announcing that we have found the body the the corner house has identified this Friday marines were Casey police also announced that a body of a man was also recently found in face what looks neighborhood authorities did not give any evidence to connect the two deaths but said there is no danger to the public they also announced no arrests have been made in the girl's death and a homicide investigation has

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WhiteHouse, Texas Is KC Chiefs Country This Week

America in the Morning

00:24 sec | 6 months ago

WhiteHouse, Texas Is KC Chiefs Country This Week

"Are celebrating in White House taxes the hometown of Patrick more homes Kansas City Chiefs quarterback named the Superbowl MVP last night after leading his chiefs to a thirty one twenty win over the giants in Super Bowl forty four homes grew up in White House with the White House high school then Texas tech before embarking on his NFL career

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KC Chiefs list Chris Jones as questionable for Super Bowl LIV

Pro Football Talk with Mike Florio

00:43 sec | 7 months ago

KC Chiefs list Chris Jones as questionable for Super Bowl LIV

"Chris Jones Devens attack over Kansas City Chiefs first off his his availability is in question right now I mean it sounds like a health how healthy will he be coming in dealing with a calf injury but Chris Jones is the best player on the Kansas City Chiefs defense for for for sure I think you could argue he's the second best player on the team in general only behind Patrick my homes but you know to everything you guys just said you know Hey you're talking about right he most are you talking about George kill well who's one guy that can kind of messed up that whole formula well Chris Jones can stop the run game he's athletic to get off the blocks and stop the adjoining game and all they want to keep it on play action will he's the kind of guy that can get the quarterbacks based on the fact that part of the offense of the forty Niners as well

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Detroit Tigers' winter caravan shows how far team has fallen

Newsradio 950 WWJ 24 Hour News

00:52 sec | 7 months ago

Detroit Tigers' winter caravan shows how far team has fallen

"And the Tigers winter caravan officially kicked off yesterday with the team departing from Comerica park GM elev illus said he understands the fans frustrations with some of the moves they've made during this rebuild but every move wasn't going to work out there there would be mistakes he also talked about his preference of what to do with both Matt manning a KC mais heading into this new season I think would be our preference for them to the started to lead all have a great year have good years and and to lead all and at some point during the season you know and hopefully we have a good start and hopefully that some of our young players do well and so and hopefully at some point during the season we can bring them up and then get get get get some experience and then we go to the following spring training at that point and it's a whole different ball it pitcher Matthew Boyd meanwhile says that he's honored to be wearing the Old English D. wants nothing more than to win a title for the city you

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18 UN peacekeepers injured in Mali attack

UN News

00:29 sec | 7 months ago

18 UN peacekeepers injured in Mali attack

"UN mission in Mali on Thursday strongly condemned a mortar attack on a base in the rest of KC region that it shares with Malia again and international forces initial reports indicate that eighteen UN peacekeepers from Chad were wounded six of them seriously. The mission Mnuchin said it had immediately evacuate wait the injured blue helmets for medical treatment and brought in security reinforcements pouring the attack. Nobody's yet claimed responsibility. And there were no reports of casualties among other soldiers just stationed at the camp in the town of

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Varlamov, Nelson lead Islanders past Lightning 5-1

AP News Radio

00:42 sec | 8 months ago

Varlamov, Nelson lead Islanders past Lightning 5-1

"Brock Nelson scored two in the third to seal a five one New York Islanders win over the Tampa Bay Lightning Monday night in Tampa after unevenly played first period new York's Ross Johnston broke the scoreless tie with a rocket shot on the Russian the middle frame Casey says he has made a diving clearing past were breaking Josh Bailey who scored short handed to make it to nothing islanders that would become the game winner I was coming off the bench to try to get back and help out I think back you had no situations you're just hoping for a little turn over and you know you might be peace run away that's what happened in KC as tired as he was stuck with it Akane was able to finish off Nelson's two third period goals in a like power play goal by Anders Lee insure the win for the aisles the lightning have now lost four of five games on home ice what's more secure in Tampa

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KC survives errors, takes AFC West with 23-13 win over Pats

AP News Radio

00:31 sec | 8 months ago

KC survives errors, takes AFC West with 23-13 win over Pats

"The chief Sir AFC west champs again in the patriot reign in Foxborough is over after Kansas city's twenty three sixteen wins snapped new England's twenty one game home winning streak Patrick my homes threw for two hundred eighty three yards and a forty eight yard T. D. as Kansas city went up twenty three seven and held on after breaking up a game tying pass in the endzone late in the fourth Tom Brady pass for a hundred sixty nine yards and a thirty seven yard flea flicker T. D. in the patriots first loss at Gillette stadium since October first twenty seventeen Geffen cooled off Foxborough Massachusetts

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"kc" Discussed on Nickel Package

Nickel Package

03:59 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on Nickel Package

"At this point like i kind of got out of it what someone one of my skill set tends to win all things considered but i just went through the process an everyone either cutter didn't sign me so they kind of all go kiss my ass array for my friends at this point. I don't really i kind of gave up on that allegiance after going through the process question four. What is your favorite part about the preseason. My favorite part about the preseason is probably the first. I'm trying to think of what was exciting about it for me. As a player versus now like i i really think is watching all the rookies at just right like we mentioned at the beginning of this pod two days ago noah fan going out there for the first time for denver on the other side ceiling some of the rookies for for the atlanta falcons especially offensive line like getting our first look guys especially for me as someone who covers a lot of college football and watching how they've made the transition to the pro game kim actually follow question because let's not stop ourselves. Why not try to get that hour and a half mark here. What position do you think at this point like most quickly translates to the n._f._l. Man i still think i think it's running back like at this point. You've still joe got because i think it's going to be interesting. How it changes right the pipeline now that we're devaluing the wrong word just not as willing to highly pay and guys go where the guys tend to go where the opportunity is to get paid so i think you might see kids in that kind of skill area. Maybe look more towards the slot and i'm trying to say if this is where football is gonna live. Let me be there but you still got a glut of talent there and you can plug them into different spots and have backfield with multiple guys for very little no inexpensive draft capital like i think and you can use them situationally. Not every guy has to come out and be graded. Everything that's the jalen hurd model right poplar dynasty pick. I've noticed our last question as always comes from lenny's kind of long so i was like a pedia trying to change my mom's picture. She really doesn't like her picture and if anyone else's listing who knows how to tie please change the picture perfectly to one with me and i decided to go to your what could could be a page. Something struck me about it. It says under personal stuff golic was born with a severe pain and food allergy. That has a major impact on his life then later it says golic's stated he does not have any allergies. So what is it. Why did you first off lenny i want you to. I know that i would never lie to you. Ever you mean too much to me second yet. This is been confess. I truly don't have an answer for where this came from. I am what what this p._s._a. If you made the end of this podcast please tweet out at anyone who will listen junior no way shape or form allergic to anything in peanut related. Why why did you then. I'm convinced with this movie. Okay chain to my picture. Police is and also somebody changed because it says you were born with peanut severe allergy major impact on your life. I'm convinced that one of my friends did this is to get back on me because i have this nasty habit of lying about things that are inconsequential. I once convinced my buddy's wife that my middle name was randolph for six months for no reason i once convinced the entire notre dame hockey team as far as i'm aware of for four years that my brother was adopted and boy did that pissed my mom off. I did that just like flippantly. Not thinking anyone would bite eight and so i think all of my friends were so sick of me taking advantage of them because listen. I'm very believable like i'm a i'm an honest guy for the most part. I think this is a revenge plot from one of them. I'm not pitcher who yet though the pope..

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"kc" Discussed on Nickel Package

Nickel Package

02:08 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on Nickel Package

"I think the line is finally sort of solidified like you can finally expect hopefully average play from this offensive line which is great. I'm not worried about i. Losing doug baldwin hurts but he was in and out a lot last season. I'm buying a lot of the decay <unk> hype man and they got tight end back. I think the the running group has really really solidified wilson's great. I'm not worried about that group. <hes> it's the absence of a pass rush. That's really the killer on this team was the last time you said that about a seahawks god so crazy they are saying against the should be ready week one which is against the bengals so it's a soft open so at some point won't have dishes ready but come on and find you find your way making just put something on the plate okay. Who do you got at sixteen. I'm going with the falcons yeah. They're in my next cluster. Figure this one. I mean obviously this off-season big for them. Defensively resign grady jarrett to that big deal on the defensive line looking for some production there. They've really struggled. Vic beasley never really panned out pass rushing wise waiting to see on tag. Mckinley dion jones at linebacker get back neil l. healthy and that secondary so all these things lining up. That's another defense that if it closets way out of the cellar that offense i mean matt ryan almost threw for five thousand yards. I know you're very pro matt matt ryan so yeah i know concerns about this offense best wide receiver group in the n._f._l. Arguably changes play caller and bring back some oldies all these for that but i'm not worried i think whether these guys can come back from injury whether they can get enough of a pass rush. That's my question with them at seventeen. I'm taking the baltimore ravens. I am a very a._f._c. north heavy. I think i have yeah. I have the browns. The ravens is so. I have really hedge my bets on the a._f._c. north. I'm just really excited to watch what three it's team. Looks like man every thing coming out of camp on what they're doing on offense is just interesting and exciting because it's not it's not like that bob who hoople you got harbaugh saying we're do things n._f._l.'s.

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"kc" Discussed on Nickel Package

Nickel Package

02:41 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on Nickel Package

"Okay. Maybe this is good to move on and get younger but you know mike the relationship between quarterback and centers show important and while sullivan may not aww player he once was he had the brain right so that's gonna be a big transition going to brian allen there at center and then the other concern. I suppose if i was to i._d. Something is they added a couple starters and eric and clay matthews who are all time n._f._l. Players they're also old. Keep philippe you older so we don't necessarily know you know at some point aging hits those guys on the plus side i think reasons to think and and by the way i'm sending aside all very obvious things that you like about this team or or but the things that are changing that are reasons to be excited. I i do think they're going to get a better outside. Pashas pass rush this year which is always been a whole not always but it never really placed quinn. It's it's been donald and whoever's benefited from aaron. Donald being double teamed but hasn't really exploited that i think dante valor is gonna step up in a big way based on what i've seen from camp. I think additional asiana matthews helps at all and finally i realized we're spending way too much time on the rams so i'll just wrap it up here. I don't think sean mcvay is gonna roll out the same offense this year yeah yeah. I think we're going to see changes. I think we're gonna see more personnel groupings. I think we're gonna see creativity. I don't buy the whole the patriots of the blueprint on stopping the rams. 'cause that's the no one's the patriots but i do think he's going to counter that okay. I talked too much about the rams so i'm gonna give my pick number four and i'm i'm gonna go with my super bowl winner the philadelphia eagles. How how do you feel about the eagles. I actually feel really good and so this is twofold. Obviously you've mentioned strength of schedule which they have one of the weaker schedules that they're facing all but also and you mentioned our friends at football outsiders one one of the more interesting stats from them that we see year to year is the adjusted games lost dealing with injury dealing with the amount of guys and the eagles were dead last in adjusted games. James lost last year one hundred eighteen and a half games lost amongst the guys they dealt with in that waits for starters versus key backups different positions all these different things and and you couple that with a lot of the offseason moves they. That's a really good team. I mean i love both lines. The death which is similar to the death in some ways that they had their super bowl run in the trenches but man this wide receiver group is just so fun. It's so fun jeffrey. They added jackson. You and i both loved j._j..

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"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

13:39 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"They gave us some really good advice on, on things that we could do to hopefully, you know, get him into treatment, which is really difficult, because they have to be a people have to be a danger themselves or others. And that's like almost impossible impossible bar to, to get. But anyway, they were real helpful. Yeah. There is a emotions anonymous, and when I was at the facility in Chicago. They had twelve step meetings every night in they were different ones every night, and they were led it just went dark in this room to dance her out Hannah's moving around to turn the lights back on. But so I participated in codependence anonymous emotions anonymous and eating disorders Optimus and. Yeah. So that was it was interesting to see like the twelve steps applied to all. I went to narcotics anonymous, which was like super cool. If I had that problem, I would probably go to X, don't, don't they consider alcohol drugs. They do and they were really welcoming of me. So, I feel like I could go to narcotics anonymous I also I feel like it's almost like rushing a like a like a Greek organization in college. Because when you're in the hospital like these people come in from, from different groups outside, you should come to her groups. So, like, the, the local like cocaine anonymous group came to me when I was at two rivers, and they were like you should come over sometime in, like I really don't know. I've never tried cocaine. I don't know if I can relate to this. But I mean, all of our lives are messed so can relate to that. And maybe that's what's at the heart of the of twelve step programs. Yeah. And I know like in our group. We make we don't do what I guess they do in some groups, which is kind of try to limit what people talk about to just their problems with alcohol. Like we have a few people who have pretty much just had trouble with drugs in, so, you know, it's interesting because it is called out. Hawks honest, talks about drinking in the preamble and everything. But I know that it's important for, you know, it's I think it's good that we are welcoming to other people in. It's, it's it makes it more interesting to have different kinds of stories that people tell about what they've been through as opposed to, you know, limiting it to things that I think that that's been important for some people as well to not just have it be about, you know, having just drinking problems. Same same a go through different cycles. Like when I was first in the program in eighty eight it was during a time when you had all these old timers from. In the sixties in the seventies or whatever, and somebody would come in with a cocaine problem or something, they'd say NAS down the street, and they were like, really 'cause they really get upset about these guys coming in with drug problems. But then it seemed like like in the nineties like the mid nineties, or whatever everybody was cool, with it, and people were in meetings talking about all kinds of different addictions, and, and they were having it was no big deal at all. And it was like that for a while. And then all of a sudden seems like here, just recently some groups are getting real uptight about this, what they call singleness of purpose thing, and they start enforcing it, and I think they, they misunderstand it because, you know, in a, it says that the only requirement for membership is a desire, stop drinking. Well, if you're doing other drugs, and this is what about in a considered alcohol drug so anybody goes in a, they also have a desire to stop drinking. And, you know, the guys that come to our group who, who mainly have a problem with. Drugs. They also don't wanna drink. So they're totally totally welcome there and the bottom line is too. When you really get down to it, we hardly ever talk about the actual experience of whatever drug were using we talk about the, the getting over it, you know, and, and whatever was causing us to, to do it in the first place. So it kind of deacons moot point after awhile. What drug actually did? Yeah. Yeah. It's kind of like it should be like I have unhealthy coping skills anonymous kiss. Yeah. Abby, quite the acronym. We could think of something like addictions, anonymous, it could still be a but yeah, some people are picky. I guess there are fewer in a groups in. That's why some people, you know, go to a incident of, in a, but I don't have never been in a I do. Here they have keychains. They give keychain study aren't in their different colors. And if you get a lot of them, you have different colored keychains it looks cool. So that's nice. That's nice. I might go just to get a keychain. I have one that's nice. This very good. The thing about those really weird though, as they never really modernize Adnew information. So it's like during all this time that, that during the last eight years, or whatever, since as been around, we've learned so much more about addiction and alcohol and alcohol addiction. And you know in science, we now know that it's the same thing, what if when you're dicta to alcohol, or if you're dicta to cocaine the, the diseases, the same the same reaction is going on in the brain and we know that now. And so it's like you know, if a kind of kept up with the science, they would welcome people with other Dixon's, because they, we now know that it's the same thing, there's actually really isn't a thing called alcoholism anymore. They'd call it echo, Eustis order, the knock used to sorta the same thing pretty much as any other drug addiction. Fees are actual book, recommendations there on my to be read list, though, because they sounded interesting one is called chasing the scream, and I don't remember who wrote it. I don't remember. No, I think you're talking about. We can look I know you're talking about. But it's from what I've heard about it seems to have lake. Gathered, some really new information about the nature of addiction and has a really different insight into it. The other book that have been meaning to read, as a Michael pollen, who's usually food writer just came out with a book about psychedelics and their potential use for treating addiction and mental illness, and I'd be very interested to read that so. Yeah, I have not actually gotten around reading these, but they sound good. If anyone wants to look it looks like chasing the scream was written by Johann Hari. Okay. Okay. I think he was also the guy who talked about how like like with I think rats or something. But I guess some people were taking issue with that, because I guess, rats there aren't like addict rats who just have that, gene, that kind of causes them, you know, the, the idea is that, like, if they are put in a cage, and they are given. Like things to do you know enjoyable company with routes things than they don't drink the cocaine out the water bottle. But if they don't have those things in drink at all the time, but, but have they studied, like multiple generations of rats? I see if that gene could appear 'cause I mean they're always had to be like a first person to do something. Yeah. I mean, I don't know enough about the genetics of addiction right honor? I don't have it actually. No one in my family is an alcoholic. Yeah. And I think he also used the example of returning GI's from Vietnam, who got like a dicta- to heroin or whatever. And they, they came back and most of them didn't stay addicted heroine. But it seems like it'd be a supply issue like they're probably wasn't just tons of heroin back in the seven or like late sixties early seventies after Vietnam. But that is gonna show how privileged ignorant AM but is supply really an issue. If you are truly addicted. Well, like. Won't you go to great lengths like I've never had a problem, getting out the hall like it was never hard to get out hall. So I don't know what it's like to not have my drug of choice. Not be available. I guess some of them smuggle that back but it's not like it is now where it's, you know is prevalent is it was we should look into this tool. No. I just mean like in general, like people go, go to great lengths to, to get their fix like my friend who was a nurse. It KU for several years. You know, people would come in with fake injuries and pain to get pain meds lake. Yeah, but opiates as pain meds, I don't think was as common then. Right. So I mean, I don't think that there was like, I don't know when Oxy code on everything kinda came in Oxycontin, but I know that even like in the past couple of decades that was when they start pushing, like the makers of that started kind of it became more common in. That's how people have developed problems. More now. Now with like I mean, there were people who became at, you know, work started using it, as a as kind of, you know, because they were interested in, but then there are other people who like head injuries, and they were put on all these pain, medications became addicted that way, this would be a really good topic to ask a narcotics anonymous group has anyone ever done across over group. I Kevin mention once that they, they have a group in this building where they, but they they they're religious. So I guess I assume that there have been people who've come, you know, done that before elsewhere. But they still might talk to us though. They might against that we are. Well, yeah, I don't know anything about that. We might talk to we might look it up. But yeah, we could have someone come in. That would be an interesting speaker. That's such a good idea. Yeah. We should branch out with our speakers, like that. Hey, Simon note to Simon get somebody from narcotics anonymous to come in and speak. The problem is with us getting speakers is that we just don't have a lot of people go to a ton of different groups. I guess we could ask someone like Justin who seems to do that. We can start growing group of people from other groups, but I just, you know. Here's anybody at the office, who liked to come and talk to us mood support that if you wanna talk about God, God, that might be fun. I put it out to the, the women's group on Saturdays at group one and they seemed like they, they weren't really sure about the, the, the fact that it was being recorded, so I could just. Yeah. I mean I wonder what it is that keeps people coming in. I just think it takes time. I mean, we were really packing them in for a little while. But I think a lot of people in our group, they kind of I mean, we know we realized that it had been taken off the website this. Yeah. I looked it had been off the central office. Yeah. It had been in that. I meant I, I looked it up. And I told Simon and he, he got hold of he said that, I guess you had a meeting somewhere that been cancelled. I had a I had the mini paths group that nobody ever showed up. I had I wanted to remove that one. And I told them earlier this week and he was. Understand took the secular option off the kinds of. Yeah. They did. I figure that they would, you know that, that's a battle that some people are having in some areas. They wanna have that secular designation on, on the central office websites and stuff for their meetings subsidies, do some cities down, quite frankly, though, for us. It doesn't really matter because we have our own websites, and that's how most people find us anyway. Pretty good website. I especially compared to the free fingers one, which seems kind of broken but. They have separate website. I do. I've never been to any of our we have we have a website for we agnostics. We have a website for free thinkers. We have a website for this meeting. The secular speaker meaning and then we have a website that covers all of them called secular AA Kansas City, so there's actually four different websites just for secular meetings and Kansas City, which is actually kind of cool because, you know, people find different websites. They took the secular. One off the secular option the secular option. Yeah. The organ that in me kind of thinking, we could probably combine all. We.

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14:05 min | 1 year ago

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"And I just one night, like I had to have my dad coming. Get me because I was so afraid to drive the car myself, and I went home and bawled for hours because I had I felt so out of control and I had no idea what was going on. And I didn't know what was real. And what wasn't? And then when I started senior year. I started having full blown panic attacks almost every night. I was sleeping through class, which is not like me at all that it was not. I would skip the occasional class but, like not, not like this, where I just couldn't make myself go. My roommates were kind of being jerks about it, but. I, I don't think they understood what was going on any more than I did. So I guess it's understandable. And if I had like had a better understanding of what was happening, maybe I could have explained it to them. But like I would have people like my sorority sisters like come over to my house off campus. And like sleep on my floor because I could not be alone like it was terrifying. And I thought I was going to die. Sorry, got put on medication pretty quickly by a general practitioner, who we got to see for free as students she was not a psychologist or psychiatrist, which I think, is kind of important, because I think a would have been better if I had actually seen a psychiatrist to prescribe me medication because I think there was a lot of trial and error that was unnecessary in those early years when I was being Medicated, so. Yes, I got put on medication. And it helped also made things worse. I was on a medication called Paxil, which I think is pretty common. I don't know if they prescribe it as much anymore, but I was having, like almost to loosen genyk dreams on it. And that was very frightening. And if I like skipped dose, I would completely fall apart, and like become even kind of violent lake towards myself not towards other people, and that was very scary. So senior year was just kinda bust. I managed to graduate. And I think that was just an achievement in itself, like I'd always been kind of a high achiever before that. And I just didn't care anymore. And then after that it's just been. Years of seeing different mental health professionals seeing different, you know, psychiatrists seeing different therapists, getting other people's opinions and like trying all kinds of medications, and some of them would work for a while, and then stop working on some of them, you know, wouldn't work because in this is, you know, back to the alcohol part. Nobody told me but was pretty common knowledge that alcohol can make your antidepressants not work. And also that antidepressants can make alcohol work really. Well, like it will make you. A lot more neabry aided than you would be otherwise. And I think it's very key that I did not make that connection from many years because I was drinking pretty heavily and also consistently on medication. And I was a mess. I would like have no memory of things. I done of things. I'd said the next day, I had horrible hangovers. It was just. Yeah. It was just Stumm. It was just it was a very, very bad deal. And I think it was a lot worse because I think, I think it happened like I think I became. Alcohol because I was mentally ill. But I also think the alcoholism exacerbated might mental illness. So, like, I really can't separate them in my mind. And so when I finally got so Bor my medication started working better. And I started feeling better, but I feel like I'm the speaker lake tonight, lake should I stop? Okay. Okay. Like sorry, this is getting long, but we're up to, like, current times now in my story. So I've had a lot of really horrible mental health experiences since I've been sober, though, like I was put in the hospital for the first time like a year or two after I got sober, and I made a suicide attempt this last fall, that was my first attempt I had thought about it a million times since probably the age of twelve but I actually like tried it in it was obviously, not a success, but I was in the hospital for a while. And then I had to go back into the hospital, and then I was in a residential treatment facility in Chicago from November through January. And now I'm just seeing my psyche tryst and taking my meds and things seem to be better. Lake. I think my they got my medication straightened out while I was in the, the treatment facility, and I got a new diagnosis called borderline personality, disorder which is still kind of a we're not really sure what whether or not I have it because. Psychology is really imprecise science. And it's a lot of guests where in a lot of lakes symptoms can be attributed to any number of of disorders. So, but I did I was actually tested in. That was my diagnosis. So we'll see it could that could change. I've heard of people being misdiagnosed with either with or without bipolar disorder, and that's pretty common lake. I think misdiagnoses are pretty common so that may change, and I'm going to admit that it does make it harder for me to stay sober. Like I have a lot of feelings on a daily basis that I just want to numb out and I used to be able to do that in can't do it anymore. And. That kinda sucks. I was using zanex for awhile to a numb out in, I really liked that in on. I realized that really liking. That is a problem, you should probably stop it before it becomes a real problem. So I don't I don't take it anymore. But like the temptation is always there like it really is. Because I have all these feelings that are extremely difficult to deal with. And as far as the stigma goes, I don't tell people at work like what my problems are like I was absent for two months from work, and I didn't tell a single person what was going on. Like, I think HR new because I told them like what hospitals I was at, but they couldn't ask me about it like legally, no one can ask you about it, and they can't like retaliate against you for it. But like I did not offer a word of explanation to anyone, and I feel completely okay with that decision because while I think there shouldn't be as much stigma around it, I feel like in the workplace that still really dodgy like there are laws in place to protect the mentally ill and, and people with addictions, but there are also a lot of ways for companies to get around that, too. To lake you can still be discriminated against for it. So I don't talk to people at work about about either issue. I'm very open about the fact that I don't drink because we have like work happy hours a lot. But. I don't know. I don't I don't offer an explanation. Like people can think what they wanna think they don't really seem to care. Most people are really concerned about themselves not so much with you. So that's kind of a nice, a nice thing. So I think that's all I have. Just so people in case or curious, you have a few years of Spidey finery, I will have four years of sobriety in. Yeah. On July fifth. Okay. Yeah. So, yeah, thank you, Emily. Yeah, I wouldn't thing that I think is interesting about alcoholism, and a as opposed to other mental illnesses, I consider L alcohol addiction to be a mental illness goes, what else is it really? But like with other mental illnesses, there's there, I guess, there are some medications to help with, like anti-abuse or whatever with, you know, craving alcohol or whatever, and there, there's, you know, things like suboxone for opiates, but for things like depression, anxiety, there's a lot of like counseling, one on one counseling, and it's kind of focused on the individualities. I haven't meant a lot of counseling in my life. But that's what it seems like it is for those, but without, you know, alcohol's of the first people think people say when you need to deal with that is to go to a and that's you know, it's kinda different. I mean and. I really like that. This is what I do as opposed to like, you know, individual counseling and I think that it's interesting because it really is the group that is kind of is helping you as opposed to kind of out professional, and I mean, we have some at least former mental health professionals who are in our group. But other than that, I mean, it's just kind of lay people who are, like, you know, applying this program, some of us work, the steps and kind of go through that. But it is I think that that's an interesting kind of difference. I mean, obviously a has been around for a long time, but, you know, it's, it's the not I mean I I'm sure that they're like, depression support groups and everything. But there isn't really that culture for those. I mean it seems like there's a different culture for. Addiction and alcoholism in, I wondered if that's what talk there are support groups for people with mental illness. I think there's one called NAMI, and I don't remember what that stands for. She should middle probably, yeah. They had when I was the last time I was in the hospital at north Kansas City. They had to representatives come in and talk about it. I have never been to one of those groups imagine that they are structured differently than a but yeah they do exist. But I think you're right. It's not as much of a hate to say cold, but we're a little cold. In the best ways it can be like a click away. Cliqueish. Yeah. Cliquish. The in crowd. I haven't like given away all my personal wealth yet. So I don't think it's a real cold. No, no. It's not really cold 'cause you don't have you don't have to. Hey, donations are suggested right. But attracts was down if we don't come to meetings and makes his comeback. I remember someone was making a joke on Thursday where they said like they didn't have a dollar. So it's like they might as well. Go home. All star rating in can't afford AA. If I don't have cash, I just don't. Yeah. I like try to give more when I do have cash. Yeah, I use all my cash for bus money. So sometimes when it comes around, I'm just like, I can't I can't get places that give you all my money. We really need to start using wiper thing. So people can pay with pay pal 'cause I don't even carry cash, right? Yeah. Does. So what else do we can talk about it? I, I don't know what's going to happen with this podcast blow. We, she said, kinda made me think about, like, okay, I don't think I ever would have done anything about, you know, going to counseling or or seen are being treated for depression. Had it not been for having a problem with drinking. And I'm not so sure if I would've even had a problem with drinking had I not done something about the, the mental problems earlier on I don't know, the to do go hand in hand for me. But something that you said, Emily about how it's really hard to stay sober. It makes it hard to stay sober. And that was really true for me too, because, dammit, I just had to do something because I was just, you know all I knew was to, to do about with these feelings was to drink. So that's what got me into counseling. And I, I went through all kinds of different counseling. I went through group therapy. And visual therapy. And then finally seeing a doctor who prescribed an antidepressant for me. And so, yeah, it was all have not been coming to meetings and getting sober. I don't think I would have had the I don't know the desire or the know how or the encouragement from other people even do that. But my brother, he went said that he wants told me, he wished that there was an AA for him, and they do have support groups for people with mental illness. Another one, I was thinking of, it's kind of weird Dame emotions automous is one of motions anonymous, and then the organization, you're talking about nam iw is really, really helpful for the families of people that they do all kinds of things. But as they, they provide tremendous support for families who are dealing with the loved one who has mental illness. And we actually relied on them few times, like when my brother had an episode up in Wisconsin. We called nam e and..

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

06:00 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Nights. So I didn't have to hit the liquor store every night on the way home, not including the gas station, RAI got my little drive drive, home cocktail as I said above I made wine and diet. Root beer Spitzer's. Bottomless mug I like the taste of dight root beer, still do and it was caffeine free. So I wouldn't so wouldn't be up all night. So that was the plan also cutting down on how much drink. Okay. I'll go with that. Good strategy ride. Nope. I still stayed up until one during the week, and until I passed out during the weekends by twenty eight teen a wife, and I hadn't had become not much more than roommates, eat the dinner. She prepared. Usually it was liquid supper with leftovers with leftover lunch for work. The next day. I didn't want food to slow down my body's metabolism after my swill. After all I mean, that's just waste though. I know I was an alcohol IQ for years stopped using it as something to brag about by June twenty eight teen with threats of divorce booming like John Bonham Strong's on the Levy breaks. I knew it was time to end it maybe not the marriage, but the drinking had to go. And we're back. At this point. A number. I never felt drunk anymore to be sure the cops would beg to differ and anyone else for that matter to me, it only planed split splinters my head smooths. I knew to deal with another divorce cannot replicate. My first go around Downey pints of Jaka vodka vodka a buck eighty nine per in mountain dew my tastes hump. Good. I had to have my wits about me. This time I had real adult shit to deal with it was there. I started planning to get stay sober all the while guzzling for my insulated chalice GOP gulp effort gulp of the swill chain smoking like late eighteen hundreds factory chimney. How to do it? How to do? How to do? It cold Turkey. Not gonna happen traditional a fuck. God shit outpatient rehab goodwill there until I hit the first liquor store on my way, home cancelled that out camping in the desert outside of towels. My work benefit package did not cover sweat lodge. Sobre stays inpatient rehab. It was the only it was only course of action get away from everything and everyone I knew not have access to us at any way, shape or form. I started looking at different places around KC of which there are few. It took me about three weeks to finally call and start to make a range moments. I told only my brother of my intent not total himself. He said the Sproul time tech about how. I got everything set up. My brother agreed to drive down from Ames Iowa. And don't me off at the rehab, August twenty fifth was check in date a Saturday and a full moon. He came down the day before we drank drank watch, Jack, White's animated video of black Jack liquorice over over again, and Dave girls. Dave plays day. Video play also run over the latter became my rehab theme song a thief at three thirty AM on Saturday, August twenty fifth two thousand eighteen I walked out my back door import out the contents of my half gallon bottle of Chardonnay. It was still third full tuck about a party file a few hours. Later. He loaded me up in his car. I was soberest by then and he drove me to rehab, which is about an hour away from my house. The one way one place we stopped along the way was Phillips gestation with a huge liquor store. Packed with rednecks filling their coolers of beard, take to the lakes. So ready was I to quit drinking. It didn't even make me salivate. We rive at the town in which the rehab sits as if the Google maps goule map app on both of our phones. Excuse me perish. The thought of me renting booze asunder from my life. The address tickets to the grounds of the Kansas state mental institution opened in eighteen sixty five under the moniker, Kansas insane asylum, and it looks like it's a fucking old Ludi been to learn eight even to film one flew the cuckoo's nest we drove around in circles of the small town kept passing the kids insane and Silom grounds. Finally backtracked. Found silly backup off the road the only till assigned not visible from throat into town.

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05:02 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Me. We moved into gather at her duplex in baiser that Tober dumb lucked into my current job to say the pay was better is a gross understatement. We spent New Year's Eve nine hundred ninety nine in crappy little duplex watching as the Y two K, pending doom fizzled out like a dud firecracker in December of two thousand I lucked out and was eight excuse me was able to buy starter home with nothing down in Lansing, Kansas. She and her sixteen year old daughter, I forgot to mention that was part of the package deal loaded up and moved to our new digs. We love that place. Now, I had a drinking mate. Mice. In in the spring of two thousand one on March fourteenth. We got married. No fanfare, nothing at the. Little blue belt wedding chapel in Arkansas, and I cannot remember the name of the little town, but cut to the summer of two thousand seven my wife, binge ind- getting a place with a little land. No neighbors on top of us. I took it. As a directive. Soon thereafter, we found our current house and Edwardsville Kansas with three acres of land and in a spring fed pond and my infants to pity. I went full force to get finance before we had we had our current house even remotely ready for the market. Never get a bridge loans's cautionary unless you can cover to mortgages that being August two thousand seven little something happened. I literally shoved a broad sword up the housing markets ass, like a painful surgery receovered nine months until we unload. Added the old place at fifteen K loss during that time. We'd max out our credit cards were were in serious debt. By then I'd really taken the drinking at what I most probably would call hard drinking. Why wasn't a long way behind? Thanks to the enabler. And chief me this led to some rather interesting disagreements in which enhanced modifiers abounded, that's a serious Cussing. If. Things around the house, even became projectiles. It was fortunate. The house. Fortunate the houses were separated by good distance. But we did not live a street for the death. The twenty tens rolled around. My my wife had slowed her partying down to weakens. If at all I picked up the slack drunk. I am in spring twenty seventeen she had her gallbladder removed, no side effects. They would said she would have the surgeon left out. The fun fact that you might not be able to drink much or at all after my wife got the side effects that side effect in spades. I'm not sure if that pissed her or me off more. More than made up for this to being all ready cut off from drinking whiskey scotch, which I couldn't stomach anyway at all clears except for rum, bear and wine rope and season room rum soon also made the ban list solution. Drink more, beer wine. Being the ever so smooth boost bag am I would buy shooters or a half pint of Cardi before heading home. The dude at the gas station where I stopped nightly new me. So well, he'd set a half fight on the counter before I even came through the door. It was enough to get me home, which was an arduous fifteen minute commute in light traffic, which was light traffic by the time. I left the first thing upon arrival at home would be to crack open a Miller lite Tallboy instead shooters I bought behind the rest of the shooter's I behind the bar at double d saloon. See I had to drink the beer to get the smell smell of the rum. Fuck breath. He that really work. Sure. Do the colic math figured out that box Chardonnay, a two times the alcohol content of beer was cheaper and lasted me several nights.

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

07:47 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Bloody likely. I passed on that pipe pass out on the floor of that house on the weekends more often than in my bed. The remiss -tory mornings when I came to not knowing where the fuck I was at though never in the gutter we had a code of drunks and drug anyone. From the gutter who started to good pass out inside the nearest empty space on the floor. Which sometimes limited in my junior year. I decided to get a double major in geography English moved onto English from geography, I didn't know where the fuck I was at sometimes lady luck shines upon you to my surprise, the number mail English majors were few those who were had little interest in the members of the fair. Sex had to play the long con excuse me to one of the female majors way outside of my league to shine me a little bit net half tie-in with crystal Gayle length hair to the top of perfect s not that that was hard for her. She claimed five foot five foot, right? Maybe in three and stilettos eight months later, we were married in January. Nineteen Ninety-two fucking Italian Catholics in their loathing of the daughter shacking up. What a way to get hitched. I blew through that obvious red light. I gotta fold full ride fellowship to grad school to my masters of arson English as I am want to do I fell onto a group of drinkers English. Grad students drunks. Yeah. Talk about cliche. Like it undergrad I hear to buy library. I than to the bar unless it was a night class, which most of the more than it was a class myths. Beeline to the pew still maintained an average part for my Chaucer in American transcendental classic came say classes to the stay get nothing out of what Ralph WALDO Emerson all Whitman. Sure. My love on uncle wall, though, at a did not bring Chaucer just forget about it all remember is the last line of the Cook's tale. She swam for her. So translation, she fucked for food that is a six hundred dollar quote, nineteen ninety-five. I got my masters of arts ropes draped around me, then we were off to KC where we ended up living three blocks from her Sicilian, mother and grandmother red light fucking. Mighty house beacon. I got a, but I got a good job and ramped up my drinking to pints of two. Buck two buck pints of vodka and twelve packs of five buck natty light. She resumed her anorexia fun. Fact, she left out of our so-called courtship newlywed year. Oh, what a great mix. To shut her bitching up about my drinking. I switched to Nyquil and diet coke cocktails. Tung blue as Smurfs though, it was it got me drunk spite that I excelled at my job miserable, though. I was when I got home her mom worked in the same building as I and we corP together, we got along very well. I'll never forget the Friday before Labor Day nineteen Ninety-seven. What her mom said the words? I'll never forget Dougie. You're good, man. Your wife is moving out tonight. I'd been trying to figure out a way to pull that off for months, then she said, you'll definitely find someone better. Guess her own mother said that hearing those words I was on fucking cloudy Levin because that what to eleven I floated across the street into the building high as a kite in actually sober flick. Would have it again that I hate had become friends that summer with a guy named check who had gotten the boot from his wife the that the next weekend after I. She did not move out. So he had was had nowhere to live. And there is no way I can afford the rent on the duplex that I was limited. We coca quickly found a house behind the original Oklahoma. Joe's barbecue joint talk about hunger. Pains smelling the smoke briskets in ribs from the time. I left in the morning to my return that night. On the day we sign the lease. He was with one of the scroll friends, and the reason why he got boot. Between bites of pulled pork jackass me. He told me actually, do you need to get back on the horse. What I said get back out there. I don't know. But I'm listening. Do you want to go outs- night with the big ticket blonde? Who smokes cusses and drinks as much as you do for beat such fuck? Yeah. Being presell phone days has girlfriend went to a payphone. Then the date was set went on. We went on the town in Lawrence Kansas settling on a bar with a bunch of pool tables four of us played pool till around midnight. The went back to school phones place where my date I stayed up to four talking Jack gave me her number. I dialed all but the last digit countless times Jack Abby couple of days later what the fuck was. I waiting for his girlfriend had told him my date was wondering why called. He didn't dial the number and shove the phone into my hand. But he might as well I made the call we talked for about an hour. This is long distance in the back of the days. When unlimited free long distance was an even a myth shoe lived in. She lived in some place called baiser, Kansas. I thought she made up the name the town's catfish in me Saturday night, I headed west in the late nineties GPS costs hundreds of bucks, and I had no access to map Quest's if that was even around then I wrote down the directions took the exit. She gave me but sano science for this fake town baiser more like base horror after our driving in circles looking for sign. I finally pulled into a gas station and ask the attendance skeptically if there was a town called baiser nearby right up highway seventy said, I've been it. It. I had been ten minutes from it for the last hour family made it to replace around eleven I was supposed to be there around nine. She took one look at me and the wanna go for a drink more than a little. Stayed we stayed for a couple of drinks at the at the only bar in town than headed back to her place. Had a few had a few more cocktails talked and talked and talked a bucked up, my courage and Kister from there will you can fill in the blanks. I remind you that this was less than a month after I got separated from was might not yet ex wife, which which became official in early nineteen January nineteen ninety nine in August ninety nine Labor Day weekend. Labor Day that eight and ninety nine we're good to me.

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

05:38 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Probably our maybe our the best night's were. When I stayed the night at France, France, whose parents already darker than us or heavy sleepers, especially houses, where my friends had basement bedrooms with a door leading. Out to the back patio. Concrete slab. Those are the nights where I got my tastes of binge drinking. I can still remember the taste of the vomit that could that would cool me off for from drinking for some time. However, hit did nothing to keep me from doing it again right up until I started puking, I loved it. That's much that I think every weekend. Given the opportunity though, I was game. My mother my mother had hearing so acute that she could hear mouse pissing on cotton at one hundred yards away and knows like a drug dogs coming home after a night of drinking, I got grounded. Unlike most of my chums, whose two sentences lasted a weakened at tops, and those were the disciplinarian parents by two weeks of grounding was hard fourteen of house arrests sans ankle bracelet were today. My mom would have had me low Jack for sure. This did nothing once released might not go out and drink on the first week in the freedom by the second game on grounded soon thereafter wash rinse repeat citizen in action but into my freshman year, I'd thrown onto the game short lived fair after football game collection of my Stiller buddies piled into a car to go. Get high the dumb fuck with the car door. Wayne. Name is dumber dumb fuck to the core. Stopped at the top of a hill on gravel road and didn't kill his lights. Sergeant Sedinko one of my classmates dad's crept up lights off in his cop car, then set the rollers ablaze we got hauled into the police station parents called living in in small towns saved our asses. My dad knew the cops and the mayor. So we were. Officially charged still not sure how that worked out because we still got probation and assigned probation officers. Shocker. I drew the legendary hardest. Peo no one else of the gang of Forets got this gym. They got the burly cool dude with the IRS Z. I got a dad from alpha inferiority complex and an ax to grind punk ass is like me. I think it goes without saying, I was grounded from everything until further notice to Infinity and beyond. Hell I think I'm still technically grounded my albums and tapes were gone my favorite possessions. I didn't I did have contraband saying you knock off walkman and cassettes. My buddies gave me at school my half dead probation officer finally told my mother to back off on the music repo because he knew that it was brewing up a huge VAT of. Sent resentment and never really gotten over the punishment that however cooled me from we completely from we'd completely until college and for the most part booze. Once I found a girlfriend who wanted to have sex with me with me and didn't like to drink. I had better things to do. Given the chance I would still drink for the most. But for the most part kept my nose clean a saw obese student in high school. I found out what I want to college that I really like learning thrust of my friends did the freshman dive into easy access of booze. If they made it to soft more year they did. So under academe probation me. I made the dean's list. It was game on the it was. What it was time to party was game on Indian with me projectile vomiting until the dry. Heaves took over ahead twenty one and found a new group of Crump from buds who hadn't despite all odds flunked out most from dissolve frat. They burned up their charter no joke by watching their frat house go up in flames while they slur saying the talking heads burning down the house still I sit on the dean's list the trick was going to the library while they were keeping our bar inventively named the pub known to all of us as the pup- to which we kept the bar the owner Jerry flushing cash, which is something given that he sold. Seventy five cent beers truth be told you did have to buy the first plastic mug for the princely sum of buck. Fifty then seventy five cent in this refills. They remembered ten ounces see you brought three or four with. So he didn't have to pay the buck fifty for new one. It'd be walking around the bar fixing to hand opponent three bucks for plastic pitcher to reduce spillage whenever close the down because we had to rush a block away to the seventy Levin before they stopped selling beer for the night. We all left with a twelve pack of mills beast in hand off to the after party luck would have it. The females of our crew shared a big house across the street early night early night for them, not bloody

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

08:39 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"True. I think he really would enjoy going to beating still just doesn't fit in his schedule or lifestyle. Yeah. But anyway, I I really appreciate the groundwork that you laid for us here in unlike you said on top of enjoying the meetings. I do feel like just participating in being here for those folks who. Don't feel comfortable going to a for any particular reason in do feel comfortable coming to ours. Our meetings just makes me feel. Proud to be there. I guess I was really relieved when I found out. There was a alternative version. I. I'm gonna pass the mic on Greg here. I'm Greg alcoholic, Greg. Oh, john. I. Live a humble, man. But you've done so much for so many people, and you didn't even talk about the podcast and how you got into that. And how many thousands of people that you touching? And it's not just because you're doing it. But it's how you do. It is you do it with such a clean pure way. When you do it to make room for the people who are speaking. So you try not to be too much of an ego maniac. You know? Because I can usually smell one and you don't. Podcast thing is weird. I never really thought about is gonna ever do a podcast, you know. But I do I do really do enjoy it. And I've had an experience with meeting people. I never would've met from from countries all over the world all kinds of different experiences to read books and talk to people who've written the books. It's really bizarre to think about what this is me doing this. I can't believe it. But it it's fun. And we we have a meeting now this meeting here is a podcast how about that? Well, yeah, I was one of the first people to come. Thanks to Brandt we've met each other and treatment. And as you remember, and you may not remember, but I was in and out in and out in and out in and out and in hospital out of little back raid ago and then follow against and no one ever said. I'm a jerk or I'm that or any of those. No, no punitive. And I think we've kept that all the way through it. Don't think anyone if people are shamed of what they've been doing. It's because they're carrying that. Shame is not because we're instilling you. Always the case. So this is a very very special thing in logic. You Jim or the the two founders I'm glad I was able to meet you back. Then appreciate you very much very. Know how many court alcoholic according and thank you for sharing your store. I appreciate it. I was excited to be here tonight. I appreciate the part where you talked about your childhood, and when you started drinking, and so one of the reasons that I like coming here is because I think I've told you just can't I grew up. But right behind us white church nineteen sixty terrorists. So a house. Bright almost see it from here. Yep. I used to come here when it was the why swing here like there was a pool. About ice started. Will I I the first part that resonate with me as talking about how you wished you were invisible. I did with my my mother is was it was pretty abusive, but pretty. Very beautiful, cutting and smart and. Anyhow, I used to I used to stand in front of her, and she would say those horrible things to me and I used to look at her. And I wish that I could right now I could melt and I could be the grout tile that I'm standing on. And I could I wish it was out. And I remember thinking that and that brought me to. I started when I was nine because my parents got worst, and my mom pharmaceutical sales rep, and then she she kicked ass. I mean, she's. She's she's I'm bishops and chief figure things out, and we stayed in this house over there. And it was. I had a nice life and she hired a nanny, and our our nanny watched mall myself, and my brother and sister who are five and six years younger that me and I liked her lot. And my nanny was the first one that gave me alcohol, and she did it because. She used to invite me over to her house, and she would give alcohol so that. Her husband come last and shoot ask. What would you like Courtney? And I would say, well, I think I'd like some Bartelson James, Biden coolers, and that is the reason that I'm thankful for call because I do not remember any of it. I just know that I would get up the next day. And I was so sick. I would throw up like you. And my dad came to pick me up like it was the last time it happened because this glass Mahabir. And and I don't know what really what happened was that? I remember her husband coming in Taiwa, stay on the guest room, and he would kinda and I'm pretty feisty. So I must not have much to drink and my joy nine ten years old. And he sat next to me. And I don't know because he was going to do something, and I reached up and grabbed his arm and I cut my face. I have the scar. From like, I really strong through. And so I am I remember the next segment up and having this and he backed off and that was the last time and. I just I don't know. I'm personally, I appreciate you talking about that. Just because it's I'm thankful for hall because I cannot remember, and but then again, I know something happened to me. And so I it's I just wanna sit here. I look down look down the road. And I think I wonder what did happen to me God stopped. And I wonder like how about how these how you say that you start drinking earlier start drinking like the worst going to be for you. So as being all Hollick and build on parents alcoholic. So I mean, I like I've said before I can't I don't really can't I cannot think of any non alcoholic. So I just am kind of processing that. And I don't know. I just I don't I've kind of like push it aside. And I thought about it and not really I don't really feel sorry for myself. Like, oh, gosh, I was molested. I I'd never really been like that. But I know that like it happens, and it definitely affects me. So I'm hoping that through. This process and hearing everybody else's stories that I'll be able to kind of figure that out. Yeah. Thought pass. Thank you. So nice to see you. Our means. I'm an alcoholic came. Thank you for sharing your story. I think I've heard parts of it before. But I was it's really nice to hear your story. And he said towards the end that like about the steps, you think that like people you as you're recovering you kind of go through these things, and I agree. Like, I was talking to my sponsor. I think she said a couple of weeks ago that like she thinks that's how it is too. I can kind of see that a lot like I mean, I've been working steps kind of intentionally but. Yeah. Is it does seem kind of thing that kind of happens naturally. And it's it makes sense to not kind of over emphasize it or, you know, be too strident about it. And without pass one thing. I just always your meetings. This like. Step four is going to make dry. That. Yeah. I don't know so many preconceived notions of failure already put in place soon as you walk in the door. Sorry that was. I've been to so many millions of people blame there because they didn't do their fifth step the right way, or they didn't make amends or shit like that come on. Yeah. Yeah.

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

11:00 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"The other group that really weren't. So there are a lot of us like in our twenties and thirties. And so I had these friends I'd run around with and we do things with together all the time. And so for like the first ten years of my sobriety. I really spent going to lot of meetings and stuff, I got a sponsor. And. This particular group they were really big into the the big book and saw the thing was you'd get with a sponsor. You'd study the big book you'd like read a chapter every single day for thirty days. You get together. It was ridiculous. I mean, I got to the point where I had the damn book almost memorized. You know? And the thing is though is what what happened, and I'm not gonna say that this was all bad because my life was getting better. And I was staying sober and everything, but what really happened to me during that time as I was learning the language of a I knew what to say in these meetings to make the heads go up and down like, you know, you've got it together kid. You're great good for you. You know? Whatever I don't even know if I was intentionally doing it. But that's the deal, you know. So I was getting the good vibes from people, and I was staying sober in life was getting better. And that was great. Well, I did this. We're about ten years. And then my father died unexpectedly. So I'm like thirty five years old and been sober for ten years. He dies. He's got some kind of a weird virus went at hospital dead like within three days, and that event caused me to kind of reexamine where I was in my life, because I my father had achieved a lot, you know. And I hadn't really even at thirty five years old. I had never been married and never owned my own home. I never really made very much money. I never finished school. So I decided I was going to get all these things done. So my life really changed a lot. It was less centered on a and more focused outside of a and I went to school k C which turned out to be a really good thing for me. And it wasn't necessarily the things that I learned there. But I learned how to. Critically? And I started questioning all these things that I used to say in AA and little by little I started realizing that I started learning about facts and facts mental ought to me. And and and how to get facts, and how to how to use them, I guess, and so I started really questioning AL lot. But I kind of kept that to myself, I stopped I stopped the praying in AA they always in those days. I'd always start my day on my knees believe or not praying, but I stopped all that. But didn't tell people I stopped it. But and and so that that that was it. But I achieved a lot during this time. I got married I finished school like better jobs. Things are going good. Then. About them about two thousand twelve whatever. Ten I start reading some books. Richard dawkins. Christopher Hitchens about atheism. I realize I'm an atheist and a scared to shit out of me because I didn't think I would be welcomed in a at what am I going to do I've been doing a all my life. And so the one of the first thing I did I went to the big book, and I try to make sense of it. And and I found it was quite quite easy, actually. Because when I would I would read that book. And I always knew this the everything in there was really pretty practical. And it was only like you'd read this paragraph of something that they did. And then the end attributable to God or whatever. Well, I just cross out that God stuff and underneath that was the practical stuff that we would do, and I was very comfortable with this. So I share this in my group in meetings, and I start getting some pushback, and I started feeling uncomfortable. I felt like I was walking eight shells around these guys that I've known for twenty five years. Sometimes I would get like really courageous. I would just say that something is just dead wrong. You know? And the the one time that I realized that I needed a divorce. I guess was we had this meeting about how sometime the time will come or. There's no absolutely no human power is going to help you only God can help you. That's the gist of the meeting. Right. And everybody said that only God is going to help you in this time. I said, well, that's not true. I said because there is no God, that's never gonna happen. There's always been people around that have helped me all the people went crazy on that ship. So I. So I did some research, and I found out, you know, they've had these agnostic groups going on for twenty five years that twenty five years for since nineteen seventy five they've had agnostic groups that have any Kansas City, but they started in Chicago. And then they had him in California. They had them in New York a number of them. And so eventually I thought that maybe we could start one here in Kansas City. So I got with my friend. Jim who you know? And he he was like the only person I knew that was open eight Theus, and I asked him if you'd like to start a group fragments eight Theus, and we did we started we agnostics group, and we at that time we're meeting every Thursday night and the group really took off pretty quickly. I mean, you were one of the first people, but there was never a time. When it was just me and Jensen by ourselves, maybe one time, and there was never ever time wise there by myself, there was always four or five people. And then it got to be where you know, ten people. And now, you know, we have fifteen or twenty people at most of our meetings that we meet, you know, often and now three. Of these secular groups now this one the free thinkers group, and we agnostics there's meetings all the time, and it's really incredible for a city our size to have that. I mean, there's a lot of mid western cities comparable to Kansas City that don't have anything like that. But this was a really good experience for me because I'm once again comfortable in a but it it. I'm more connected to a than I was before. It means more to me. Now, I just can't tell you how much it means to me to go to meetings and watch people get better and get some benefit out of it. There were a lot of people in the early days that would come to the meetings, either had a bad experience with a and stayed away until they heard about our group, or there are people that didn't think they would ever want anything to do with AA. But until in you know, they heard about our group. So that kind of brings me tour to where we're at now. And I just thought I would talk a little bit about. My feelings now about a the program of alcoholics anonymous, the steps and the secular a meetings. I'll just be real quick about that. But first of all when it comes to the steps they were real big deal for me for a long time. And I was pretty up tight about it. They had to be done. Just so I really volved a lot. I'm very relaxed about him. When I think about them, all they really are is the experience of these people back in the nineteen thirties original steps away. They're written. That's all they were. They were just people that were trying to explain the experiences. They understood it now their experience happened to a religious one. So all the language came out in a religious way. But they were just explaining experience happened. They they didn't really mean or intend for people eighty years into the future to replicate what they were doing into the very same experience. But a lot of people kind of pick up on that. And they think oh, no we got to do it that way. It's not that way at all. And basically what I what I believe is that these steps. Are just an expression of an experience and the experience kinda happens organically naturally when people gather together and help and support each other to stay sober. And when you think about it, you know, you know, like that first step is just admitting. I have a problem, you know, and just coming to an AM meeting is that, you know, why would I come? If I didn't think I had a problem, and the second step is just believing that there's some hope for me, you know, and that hope for me might be coming to these meetings. And at third step is a decision or a commitment to to keep to this new way of life to not to not drink into move forward. You know, when we go to these meetings, we share with each other an honest way about our past lies about our current lies. You know, we share that with other people that steps four and five, and then we we throughout our lives. You know, our daily lives we try to make this commitment commitment to get better. We take it out into the world. You know, we we mend our relationships with people. This is all stuff that we just do. Now, if we were to ride it out in our own language. Today. We would probably write it out different than those guys nineteen thirties. But that's basically the experience that we're having. Now, those books you can get and stuff, and you can read, and you can really delve into these more deeper if you want to, but essentially, I think just an organic process that happens. So I'm very relaxed with it. I also don't think that it's the cure. I think it's just a way that it's. Just a way that's a nice nice nice way to kind of get our lives back together. You know? So there's a lot of people that kind of I've seen in my years in AA that had beaten themselves up, and I was one of them that thought, oh, I'm just not doing this the right way. And that's why I've miserable. And that's not what that's not the way it should be and as far as he secular meetings. Go sometimes I hear people talk about them as if there's something different from a, you know, sometimes I hear people talk about a as if it's something not and that's not true. At all. We we are alcoholics anonymous meeting and just as any other. Meaning as only differences, we don't we don't pray. Some people say we don't talk about the steps very much. Well, most groups don't really unless it's a meeting specifically devoted to the steps. So, and if you go to our meetings, and you hear people talk if you know enough about those things they're all in that conversation anyway. So anyway, that's enough. That so. Yeah. I have to say that things are good. I've been married now for a long time since two thousand six thirteen years. Things I have a stable life. Have a good job. I don't have to worry about money. I have good friends. I have enough that keeps me engaged and happy and interested in life. I enjoy I like reading I'm still very much into a still read a lot about the steps and stuff like that. But yeah, I don't know. I guess that's all I have. Thanks. Cheers. Thanks, john. I know I've said this to before but all the work that you put into what we do here in Kansas City in any way has. Changed my life. And my father's life to a certain extent. We don't see him a lot more. But know, you were quite spot. That's another thing that I've learned people don't have to go to a for the rest of their lives. A lot of people just go for a little while move on their he's still. Say God, he's not going to meetings. He must be all fucked up. That's not true.

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"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

06:02 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"I am. This is a recording. The KC secular AA speaker meeting held every Saturday night at h J's youth and community centre sixty four twenty five one all road, Kansas City, Missouri. This is episode twenty and our speaker is John s. Welcome to secular speaker meeting, I'm Simon and I'm out alcoholic. I've asked Courtney to read the preamble. People who share their experience strength and hope with each other that they may solve their common problem and help others to recover. We have no dues or fees for membership. We are self supporting our own contributions as allied with any sect denomination politics organization or institution does not wishing gauge any controversy. Neither endorses nor opposes in causes. Our primary purpose is to say, stay sober and help others achieve sobriety. Circular group attempts to maintain attrition of free expression. And to conduct a meeting where all may feel free to express any doubts disbelief that they may have into sure their own personal spiritual experience or search for two the rejection of keeping with the h tradition. We do not endorse nor pose any form of religion or atheism. Only wishes to help those who want recovery without having to accept anyone else's beliefs or having tonight their own you guys know, you guys know the gig how this works recognizing period of sobriety. Listen to the past podcast, secular speaker dot org, or you can look them up on whatever podcast service. Who's? But I think you searched for secular speaker meeting a Kansas City or something like that. Oh. Secular a speaker meeting Kansas City. That's my man easy to find John take it. Oh, okay. I'm john. I'm an alcohol EQ. And I think I know what people how people feel so uncomfortable because I'm looking at this thing, I'm like kinda getting. Double vision or something. Yeah. It's kind of weird. Yeah. It's better. I guess anyway. So yeah. So Simon last week said that he didn't have anyone to talk. So I said, I'll talk so why not so. I've been sober for thirty years. So I got to be careful because I could take up a lot of time. If I go into a lot of detail. So I'm just going to kind of kind of go a little bit about. I think I'm gonna talk about my background a little bit about my drinking. What got me into a and then some were where I'm at today. I guess so just kinda give you a little bit about about my background. I was born in nineteen sixty two, but I'm not going to start the story there. But that's just give you some context. I guess and my mother and father were both born and raised in the same little town in Florida, Nusa, Myrna beach, and my father was career military. So we moved around a lot. It was really important for us to be polite have good manners, and it how appearances were important, I guess, my childhood, I guess was was was a mixed bag. I would describe it as good as pretty happy kid. I guess, but you know, nothing's black and white my father could at times be just really violent and angry. And when he disciplined us that which was often that that would come out. I could really relate to another speaker here who said that she used to as a kid wants to be invisible. That's how I was. I was terrified of my father. And when when he would come home, I remember just panicking when I would just hear the sound of the door close. I knew he was home. My mother. Suffered from depression. And so she was taking antidepressants different types of education back then the medications weren't really good and they'd put her they put her sleep. So she's been a lot of time. And bedroom sleeping. And so that's one side of them. The other side of them though, is that they could be fun and loving. And you know, when we lived overseas we used to go on these camping trips in the summer tall, these different countries. And we had a great time. You know? So there was. I know now that part of what I was dealing with as a child was that uncertainty and instability of never knowing am I gonna have the happy dad or the mean dad, I'm going to have a loving, caring. Mom, or my gonna have them on the belittles me, and that kind of thing. So I didn't know how to deal with that. As a kid. I didn't even know what it was how to identify it. But there was something amiss. You know, there was something that made me question myself, and, you know, something wrong with me when I was probably I think it was thanksgiving dinner, nineteen seventy so I'm like eight years old my mother, let me have a glass of wine and she wanted to meet a learn to drink like a gentleman, and I remember that drink. I mean, there's a few drinks in my life that I remember, and that is one because it changed the way I felt and I didn't really internalize it or understand what was going on. But it was medicine for me. And from then on I sought it out. My parents used to have these parties these really big parties and as a little kid in the morning, I'd go down, and I would drink the leftover drinks, the gen whiskey a beer, whatever it was has kinda. But that's I wasn't

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"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

04:04 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"To. I'm sorry. I don't exactly know where it was going without. But I think it's important for people to hear that. And maybe it will catch their attention before they get to the point that some of us have gotten too. So thank you for sharing. It was great. Did you think of anything else you wanted to touch on? Did anybody else have anything else? They would like to add. Cast again. I just was thinking about something that I wanted to share that. I went through recently just a small thing. But you know, last we last week on Friday woke up with a pulled muscle in my upper back and. It was pretty bad. It went to the walk in clinic. The next day to get. Medicine to relieve that, and I it was. It was just like it was very triggering experience. Because I knew that there was a potential to get to get medicine that would be mind altering potentially. And I was aware of that going in in. I did not say anything to the doctor. When I was there about the fact that I was a recovering alcoholic in that. I did not want to be under the influence in a way, which I was disappointed myself by not doing that. I was lucky that whatever she gave me was low dosage enough that I didn't have any physical psychoactive effects or anything, and it was just. It barely even helped the pain. Really? But. I'm feeling better now, but. It was just kind of. I I was kind of disappointed in myself that I that I didn't. Speak up more. It was kind of. I had I felt like I was taking advantage of situation. Where I could get something that I want even though I probably shouldn't have it. So I just wanted to share about that. So. Thanks. Did anybody want to? Touch on that. Hi, I'm Kelly. I'm an elk hallock. So I have a psychiatrist who knows that I'm alcohol. Ick. Instill prescribes me stuff flight, gum zanex outta ban. And I stopped filling that prescrip- refilling prescription last fall. Because if I have it, I take it recreationally. And so I am one hundred percent there with you on the temptation, like a medical professional thinks I'm fine enough to have this. And, but you know, you're not and I know I'm not, and it's just another trial. We have to face as a people in recovery. So. Yeah. I don't know about you. I I've gone through lots of different situations where. I don't know. I I questioned my judgment afterwards. But. They're they're all learning experience. And seems like you're wanting to be honest with herself everybody else. You know? Against even much. That's a wrap. We'll do for job.

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"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

07:06 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Players. Who let me know that I was becoming a distraction to the team essentially, I did not want to hinder the success of the team especially for those in their last season. I remember being so upset I cried knew that I had I had to get off the team because I really couldn't control myself, I explained to my coach what had been going on in my life and acts an ask for Lee, but leave of absence he accepted while still keeping my scholarship intact. At this point. I talked to the school, therapists, at least once before I actually got kicked out of school. So on one day, my sophomore year, I discovered that my laptop was stolen out of my room. It happened that my roommate, and I left the door and locks. I'm guessing someone just walked in and stole it. I still don't know what exactly exactly happened or how this more or less. Pushed me over the edge that already had other stuff stolen earlier that year. I thought I knew who did it. He could be completely innocent. Now. I mean, I don't know. So later that night I went out drinking when I came back. I decided I was going to confront this kid about it yet terrible idea. But I did this nonetheless on the less I banged on the kids door and demanded he come out and talk with me to be honest. I'm pretty sure I was just looking for a fight. They may have opened the door and shut it. I don't really remember all I know is kicked the door open. And eventually the kid came out. What happened next wasn't a serious fight? Nobody was seriously hurt. But I did hit the kid. Not a full-on swing or anything. I slapped him pretty hard just to damone enough. I quickly realized this kid was not going to fight back. So I thought it worthless. To do anything else forget, I had made my point whatever that point was someone called security and security called the cops. So before I could go co downstairs and escape on bike. I was arrested by the police. They took me down to the station the two roommates went with them. And by writing down, my own version of the story along with there's I'd pretty much incriminated myself because I had kicked in the door. I was being charged with felony breaking and entering into a salts. William woods kick me off the campus. And let me know if I came back. They would call the cops again, I think they notified me by Email. But I'm still not actually sure how they could. No. Notified me. It was all a blur of many events for me. I went back wants to the campus to get the things I needed and went to the went to stay at the soccer house off campus. My parents tried to pick me up once, but I refuse to come home. Eventually my psychiatrists called and explained to me that I may have bipolar disorder, and it was best to come home and get treatment. So the second time my parents came to get me, I left with them. I'm pretty sure at this point. I was in the midst of a manic phase to this day. I can't necessarily remember all that happened surrounding of all these events. I know my emotions were intense. I couldn't sleep I had way too much energy talked fast. I spent all my money excetera. I feel bad for my family. They took the brunt of this. Phase specially when I was extremely angry as before I was not happy at all to come home. I came home and immediately defied my parents in any way possible I smoke cigarettes, and we'd in the house. I drank whenever stayed out late pretty much just did whatever wanted without any care for anybody else. The fact that I didn't get kicked out, right? Then as Americal, although both my parents knew and understood that this was mental illness at work. I was sick. Although out and use that as some sort of excuse at the time note for me, it was an excuse an excuse to drink and a license to do whatever. Wanted since I felt I had sack. I felt like I had sacrifice my happiness before. I was an angry young, man. So I look for new friends to spend time with mostly anybody who smoked weed anybody, my that wasn't at home attending college. And that wasn't that was at home and anybody my age was at home wasn't attending college. And they usually didn't have a steady job either hung out with friends who spent a lot of time just chilling their neighborhood. There's a liquor store on the street that would sell alcohol to us and our few people around that sold cheap pot. This crowd was a little bit rougher than those. I went to high school with and I felt more at home with them than I did the preppy kids years went by just chilling working job for a few months in quitting. I started to get into a lot more fights. I began to feel like a failure appears at school would be succeeding at here. I was stuck as the result of being a bad bad hand life. This was a lot of pity party. Pour me kind of crap I spent so much of my life feeling timid and scared that I demanded of myself to never be like. That again, this is what turned me into the Andrea Anri bastard that would slap somebody for any perceived insult aided my life. So I felt that anybody who felt the need to kick me while I was down would be sure to regret it. I frequent and frequented the Boers in my neighborhood and never never drove just walked to and from them at some point in time. I felt justified enough with presents that I begins break I began breaking into parked cars along the way, I never broke a window or anything like that just pulled on doors to check if they're locked if they were unlocked. I'd hop in. And see if I could find anything that might be worth something to me this habit became just as dick drinking. It was sort of like the inner minute reward system of gambling some nights. I'd win some nights lose each car. Passed just became a possibility of some reward. Most of the stuff stolen was sold to my friends or kept myself, I figured that life wasn't fair. And if I had the balls to steal than I deserve the fruits of my life. Over during my fourth step work. This is what I would come to call false entitlement during my fourth step. This is what I would come to call a false, entitlement. I thought that I deserve this stuff because there was no other way to justify it in my head. So the Stephen became a habit of mine when I was drunk. I would wake up the next day and feel usually worse than a hangover that would accompany at the same time though. I figure I had failed it other things in life. And in some weird way. This could be the area of my life. I had excess I had success in. After all no one besides my family, really cared about my well being society didn't give a should if I was so depressed I killed myself. And they probably didn't give a fuck if I dealt with manic, depression and found it hard work. I could raw myself up thinking what others would say get a job deal with it suck it up. This all supported my reasoning and justification justification fuck them. And fuck you if I'm willing to risk my freedom to take your shit. Then guess what? It's mine now, I had a perverted way of thinking perverted only because I couldn't simply steal knowing all in well that it was wrong. I was

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

05:28 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Grief. And he ended up passing away and grief is really hard. Everybody grieves really differently Lacey. And I definitely did. I went to ground. And became really the reclusive. And I spend a lot of time alone. And I live in that sadness, and in that sadness was. A lot of heavy drinking by myself. I moved out I got my own apartment. And that's the easiest thing in the world live alone. So I might have three or four drinks with my friends, and then I rish exit. And then I would go home and stay up all night and smoke weed and drink to the point where like I was probably still drunk in the mornings a lot, and you know, had like a pharmacy in my purse of Drammen Pepco. In some pro fin to keep me going one of those in a Gatorade. Like, that's all you need to like write your balance? And he started to notice that my life was becoming manageable. And I knew. For about. I'd known for a long time that I was functioning alcoholic like ha ha that's funny. And then it became more and more clear to me that I was becoming what I didn't wanna become which was my father. I didn't wanna waste my life because I had to drink to make it livable. I didn't want to become that. And. I walked into. The little a hall on eighty street and knocked on the door, and they made fun of me. They did. It was a couple of nice on men, and they were like she knocked on the door. And she's the front one. Welcome. And my first AA meeting ever was a group of sweet middle aged ladies who took me in. And they did a first meeting with me. And they did it with only women, and they all went around and they shared their story. And they all cried, I did not cry at my first day meeting. I was so ready to be done drinking. I was so just like minute. Like, I'm in it. I had been on Sunday night. I win on Monday. And. I was done. And I was ready. And as we went around they shared their stories, and what led them to alcoholics anonymous, and it was really it was really just great. No that I was going to be okay in that moment that I was making a decision to better myself. And I was going to be okay. I was always like a high bottom drunk. I guess we don't really use. Those terms are group's. 'cause I kinda dumb. Like, they're stupid. Because like what does that mean? Like, okay. I yeah. Does mean something like I was just like a good enough liar that I never fucked anything up. And I don't know. But they're really sweet and really struggled with. Traditionally I am a card carrying proud militant atheist. I have been since I saw the made for TV version of Lassie learned what that word meant by looking it up in the dictionary. Stuck with it since school? I haven't let it go. And it's important to me. It's very important facet of my life. I do not believe in God. I do not believe in life after death believe that this is my shot this one chance, and I didn't wanna do it drunk anymore. And I was around and I found out that the secular. Hey, and I mentioned at one of the eightieth street meetings that I thought I would go to secular. A and sky was like don't needing hop like me. New hop is how you failed so bridie don't, you know, you shouldn't meeting hop like you can get over the God thing. Like, it's fine. We all do, and I was like no like, I'm not going to get over the God thing. I don't believe in God like. This is not helpful. And so I may first meeting was. Sandras and I walked in. And Jack was there and Kevin was there? And Jim was there and Richard? And they were so nice and Wes showed a police state. And I only remember this because he walked in. And like, I was I was talking, and then I said something about because he asked like, oh, how'd you find out about us because he's always like the first person to greet anybody? And as like, yeah. But as told not to come here 'cause I was full not meeting hop. And he's like, well, I'm glad you did. And I never went back there. And I've been with you all ever since today is one year and eleven months for me.

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KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

05:10 min | 1 year ago

"kc" Discussed on KC Secular AA Speaker Meeting

"Or? Did that? And I just normal is it became so normal in. I'm not a very private person. It's really hard for me to talk about myself. I don't it's not that. I'm not truthful selectively, honest, just I think people get to know what they need to know. And then they don't really need to know it if I don't want them to. Kind of thing. And I mean, if you got really sick, and I would say that is what? When the real downhill started. Yeah. My nephew was diagnosed with pediatric leukemia. He had ammo he ABS in history and a half, and it broke my world. Broke my world. I was really angry when he got diagnosed at also been helping my friendly C take care of her boyfriend at the time, but fiance James who had Hodgkin's lymphoma, and when Maddox got sick James had just come off his second bone-marrow transplant and he was in remission. And so I had had like four months it spent. I'd been back two years in he had four or five months of remission, and we were celebrating that rate because it was two years up to that point of James being sick of he had his first bone marrow transplant, and he was in remission when it came back from Tunisia and twenty eleven and when I met him and his cancer came back, and they did a second bone-marrow transplant. And I was around for that one. And I would go over there and stay with them, and I would help with their dogs and their cats and help take care of him. And they were also my friends. She was my best friend from high school in just come off of like my life was cancer for two years. And I thought it was free, and then my life became cancer again, and I was fucking livid. Not because Maddix himself was sick heat. It was not him. I just of the unfairness of it. All. Because how do you explain to three year old that? They have blood cancer. How do you tell child who cannot speak that they have cancer? I just couldn't get it. I made him a coloring book. That's how explained it to him. But we because ammo is incredibly aggressive, and it has a very high mortality rate Maddox was in the hospital for weeks fortified weeks on for chemo, and then recovery from chemo, and then he'd be out for about five days, and I would stay at the hospital visit at least four days a week. And then at least two nights sometimes three I would sleep at the hospital with him. And I kind of took over. I barked orders. Like, I very much like this is Howard doing it. This is what we're doing this. We're doing it. This is we're going to split shifts. And that's how I take care of things become like hyperfocused. And then when he would go home for a week. I would go on a bender, and I I would drink in between. But when you're so focused on this little life that you don't wanna lose. I didn't do it. And then it just would creep in and the Matic's went into remission in James, Scott really sick again. In. I continued drinking heavily lake. Any time. I could I was at my local watering hole, drinking and drinking at home and drinking. Oh, my own and still. You know, doing drugs and James got sick for the last time. I moved in in the fall, and I didn't leave and he went up and he had some. Final treatments and. At a certain point. We kind of knew that. Hodgson is going to kill him. And. When you're experiencing when you're watching somebody you love dies. Slowly, there's you experience what's called into super, Tori grief.

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03:06 min | 2 years ago

"kc" Discussed on RobinLynne

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