15 Burst results for "Jean Bell"

"jean bell" Discussed on KGO 810

KGO 810

07:17 min | 11 months ago

"jean bell" Discussed on KGO 810

"Of other great journalism and some great takes on things going on. He is, uh, He's like the, uh, always say the grand master when it comes to the Trump organization, so to see the Trump organization in the teeth of the law. Now I feel that particularly a good opportunity to be able to talk to him. He is David Cay Johnston. David Welcome. Well, thank you, Mark. I know I don't mean to lavish you with too much praise, but I really just said, you know, I'm a fan. But I also have to say that your time has really come with this organization, The Trump organization now finding itself on the wrong side of the law, But they have really been running on the other side of the law for a long time. Oh, they certainly have. And Donald Trump's far from alone in that. I mean, the fact is, we have very weak white collar laws in America. So people loot pensions, funds and trust funds and People's savings, and they get far less punishment than people who do much lesser crimes. Yeah, and, you know, it's funny. I loved and I've used this, uh, this parallel before of Jean Bell, John and Les Miserables. He's the guy they nail him for, you know, stealing some, Brad because his was it his daughter who was starving or whatever. You sister, his sister. Thank you. I'm sorry. His sister, Uh, you have a column in D C report, which is Trump one law for a hungry people. The thieves. Another for me, you reference a guy who actually serving time for the theft of a pizza or I think several pieces of pizza. Meanwhile, the Trump organization not only institutionalized, breaking the law and the tax code, but they made it part of Trump University, advising many of those people attending to do the same. We have in Donald's mind. Nothing he does can ever be wrong. He was asked during the campaign because he was professing to be a Christian. But when have you ask God for forgiveness? And you get this quizzical look on his face, And he said, Well, we'll never I've never done anything that would require forgiveness. And this is on full display here in the current charges, which let me emphasize Mark. This is the first indictment, not the indictment. It's not the last one. It's the first The Trump Organization, which is 100%, owned by Donald Trump and its chief financial officer, have been indicted by the grand jury in Manhattan. And neither Trump nor his lawyers nor even Wiesel. Berg's lawyers are denying what's in the indictment, which is $1.76 million of Compensation that Alan Wiesel Bird received that was net was hidden. It wasn't just not reported it was deliberately carefully hidden from the tax authorities. Now their position is well, nobody. Nobody gets charged for the sort of thing that's not true. And here's how much money that is. If you are a median wage worker in America that has half of workers make more than you and half make less. It takes 34 years for you to make $1.76 million. That's a lifetime of work and to say, you know you can cheat on that, and it's no big deal is astonishing. And so I use these examples of the man who the hungry, homeless man who tried to get some food. People turn them away who stole one slice of pizza from some Children down in Redondo Beach? 25 years to life. A judge ultimately let him out of before his sentence. But he served five years for that. There's a man in Alabama serving life without the possibility of parole for stealing $9 in not this is an armed robbery or anything like that. He stole $9 as a man serving Almost life for $36 theft. And then there's the famous case of the man in the Southern California a petty thief all his life who didn't have anything to give us kids at Christmas. So he went to Walmart and Kmart and stole a total of nine Children's videos. Got consecutive 25 year sentences. That's 50 years. And the U. S. Supreme Court held that that was not unreasonable. Well, if it's not unreasonable to get what amounts to life for a slice of pizza, nine videos $9. For Donald Trump to take the position. He takes it and his lawyer takes that this should have been negotiated in secret, and they should have reached a settlement. How much tax was out? Shows just how outrageously Donald Trump and the people his lawyers represent. He's not unique about this. Hold the law in contempt and they want to standards of justice, one for them, so they can do pretty much anything they want. And then one for the rest of us. Well, this is the white collar criminal being treated differently than the common criminals Don't call any and even some of those to which you referred the criminality there. You know, you just don't even see it right? And that's the absurdity of it. That's why it's such a good example. I wanted to ask you about what specifically is going on here because you mentioned something that jumped out at me. And that is you said that they hid, uh, income. There were literally two sets of books within the Trump organization. And so in other words, there was a willful fraud here. It wasn't overlooked in some way. Yeah. Do you only need one set of books. Your purpose is to track the money. If you have two sets of books, that's as good of evidences you're ever going to get that this was a criminal activity. There's no reason to keep it and there's some other aspects of this. Well, one of them is from 2011. Or two years and 5 2011 some period in there, five or six years. Well, Alan Alan Weiss Hilberg made a lot of money, 940,000 year and all. He didn't get a raise during this whole time. But Trump's never been known for paying people particularly well. And if you're the chief executive officer of what the chief financial officer of what Trump claims to be this huge, multi billion dollar enterprise, it's not You would think you'd get regular raises. Now. The purpose of this first indictment is part of the effort to get Alan Wisenberg to turn state's evidence. This won't do it. And the reason is that most of the grand larceny charged connected with him together with the conspiracy charge could theoretically getting 15 years. Allen's about to turn 74 years old. That's a life sentence. Um, none of the 15 charges have any mandatory prison time. If there's anything we've learned mark over the years, it's that so long as the penalties are financial or probation. Executive behavior doesn't change, but when we take away people's liberty, then things change. There's nothing the corporation can do for it. We're talking to David Cay Johnston from D C report dot org The Pulitzer Prize winner Let me ask you, David, what you talk about?.

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"jean bell" Discussed on Jewish History Matters

Jewish History Matters

08:35 min | 1 year ago

"jean bell" Discussed on Jewish History Matters

"Because it challenges and historical narrative, which forces white Jews to challenge their sense of themselves and a sense of their history and a sense of their place. I think part of what you're getting at here is the complex of identity politics and how the identity politics for instance, within the African. American communities, and also within the various Jewish communities in the US were in relationship with each other and so I was wondering if you could maybe elaborate a bit more on how looking closely at this history can help us to understand the emergence of identity politics broadly speaking and just in general the political developments of the past fifty years or so within which identity politics have played such an important role. So, this this is a story of A. Mostly White Liberal Jews. In the nineteen fifties at the time when the Martin Luther King Junior lead civil rights movement was all about everybody getting along crossing racial lines, crossing religious lines. That was a tuned to what was a larger trend among American Jews in the fifties, which was just mix in and get along in what were white Christian suburbs and I argue that it was the. Black Power Movement, which opened up identity politics to lots of ethnic gender racial groups. I cover Jews because I'm an American Jewish historian but the Metcha Latin necks activist group came out of this period second way feminism in the early one, thousand, nine, hundred, seventy s the American Indian Movement another American Indian Group A took over Alcatraz Island in this time period. So, all of a sudden. Rather than having to live in the suburbs. And reduce your, identity as a Jew as much as possible to get a law. It now became cool and hip and popular to literally go into the streets to express your identities whatever they were. And American, Jews followed that lead. So the irony is at the same time blacks and whites juice split in the civil rights movement with the rise of black power will actually saw a reinvention of its strategies by American Jews in order to be more public with their Jewish ethnicity. Yeah, part of what you're doing here was just so interesting from an intellectual perspective is I think that you are placing various components of Jewish as you said, ethnic revival within a much broader context, right? It's not just about the Jews. It's about the context in which they're living whether we're talking about the creation of the Jewish catalog whether we're talking about the formation, of day, schools. And all sorts of other things as it relates to the really broad social cultural political context in which American Jews were living. I have seen to to depict for you after the nineteen sixty seven Six Day War the University of California system created an education abroad program junior year abroad at the Hebrew University of Jerusalem, and there were a group of young Berkeley. Who wanted in the spirit of the late sixties to rediscover their Jewishness to perhaps more authentic and real jus. So they got on airplanes they flew to Israel and they were ready to start classes at Hebrew. Well. They show up with blue jeans, bell-bottoms, longhair beads marijuana, and the whole sort of Berkeley in the DC and while they self perceive as Real Jus, you know taking the next step on their Jewish journeys by going to live in in Israel, they're met by young Israeli. University months. Out. Of Battle. Close cropped hair, conservative dress, and a whole lot mature in life and the Israeli students looked at these Berkeley undergrads and call them freaks right. So if we can imagine the picture of the Israelis and the Berkeley Jews and the question of what is Jewish there. I would argue for the Berkeley students their physical appearance was nine hundred and sixty s America. And their interest in even rediscovering their Jewish roots by going to Israel. Was a black power inspired American phenomenon. So at that moment, they were becoming more and more American and even secular at the time they self perceived themselves to be returning to Judaism. You know I think that we've been talking a lot about the history of the sixties and and its repercussions. But in a lot of ways, this history isn't really over yet. So shifting gears a little bit. What do you think that this history that you're looking at in terms of the history of Jews, civil rights, movement black power in all of that. What does that teach us about this continuing history of the struggle for civil rights and equality which of course, is not entirely over yet it's still ongoing. What does it tell us about the role of white allies in this continuing struggle in particularly when we think about the emergence of the black lives matter movement and the various protests particularly this year. Thank you. There are a lot of surprises and ironies in that. I think, I start by saying organized Jewish leaders who were for the most part older white men. Got It. They understood the limits of Whiteness, the limits of liberalism. What privilege had meant to American Jews. They knew there was a fundamental difference between what it was to be widened Jewish in America and what it was to be black in America. And because they knew that in the nineteen fifties and the nineteen sixties and because they called out for a black power movement. Where we are today comes as no surprise. So the first thought is when we go back to the sources, we we actually find out how deep systemic racism is and how limiting it has always been, and when we we thought we were on the right path as it were even those on the past understood how challenging it is. So in a certain way between the mid sixty s and recent times, it has been a bit of collective amnesia. And what's happening now in black lives matter is we're getting a whole lot of. Organizations. Of. Them who are revisiting a lot of the early literature that I found for the book in calling out the fundamental differences between the two experiences. So you're saying that the recent conversations are kind of rediscovering the limitations of White LS ship. That's correct. There was a notion among within the historical memory. It starts with white shoes helped the civil rights movement, and then very quickly you know when I give public lectures on I'm getting feedback white juice led the civil rights movement, which was not the case at all and the notion of white allies at least in our historical memory puts white Jews more and more into the center. and. That is quite objectionable as much of America. Knows today. What I found in the sources were white Jewish leaders who understood that they needed to move out of the center they understood that in the case of civil rights, black leaders need to lead black organizations and the role of the of the white ally of the white Jewish ally is to be in support of that movement and I think now we've come back to that kind of awareness. As. We look friends at your book and at your broader research on this in what ways do you think that? Historical perspective, historical nuance historical understanding can help people to better understand and engage with What's going on these days? You're talking about how people particularly you know white people. A White Jews and of course has we'll get to not all Jews are white but. White. People sort of stepping out of the way and letting black people lead center stage in terms of what's going on but is there more to it than that. How can historical understanding historical analysis help us to deal with what's going on these days this is a two step.

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"jean bell" Discussed on News Radio 920 AM

News Radio 920 AM

01:39 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on News Radio 920 AM

"So you so the last thing he wants to see if this bike but right out says it's not so much a spike as it is a restructuring we're collecting the amount that we would have collected it both entries but we only have to pay for one that's a DOT director Peter LVD speaking with NBC tends Jean bell Asante I particular locations where increasing the total amount but we only did that because we eliminated and a location where we would have been collecting that toll anyone LVD explains one raise already went into effect at the tolling location on the six ten connector last fall we're only one gantry went up despite plans for two he says in the end it all equals out still capped at twenty dollars per day to drive the length of ninety five and forty dollars for trucks going back and forth regardless of how many times it will be used for the same purpose is to reconstruct bridges the Rhode island's trucking associations president Christopher Maxwell declined to speak but still calls this change up part of a quote scheme he says to take money from businesses consumers and taxpayers saying the Oxford Street bridge is specifically quote didn't need to be prioritized as part of the plan but was chosen for revenue generating purposes and quote this is the news radio nine twenty one oh four seven daily rewind with Ron Saint Pierre a senior care services eleven here's what's happening build a mandate towing cars illegally parked in handicapped spaces in Rhode Island head of the house the Senate passed the bill which calls for vehicles to be told at the owner's expense plus stiff fines what a weathered vise refer northwestern road runner from eleven o'clock tonight till nine AM tomorrow snow and sleet will likely over spread.

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"jean bell" Discussed on News Radio 920 AM

News Radio 920 AM

01:51 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on News Radio 920 AM

"Our so the last thing he wants to see if this bike but right out says it's not so much a spike as it is a restructuring we're collecting the amount that we would have collected it both injuries but we only have to pay for one that's DOT director Peter LVD speaking with NBC tends Jean bell Asante I particular locations where increasing the total amount but we only did that because we eliminated and a location where we would have been collecting that toll anyone LVD explains one raise already went into effect at the tolling location on the six ten connector last fall we're only one entry went up despite plans for two he says in the end it all equals out still capped at twenty dollars per day to drive the length of ninety five and forty dollars for trucks going back and forth regardless of how many times it will be used for the same purpose is to reconstruct bridges what islands trucking associations president Christopher Maxwell declined to speak but still calls this change up part of a quote scheme he says to take money from businesses consumers and taxpayers saying the Oxford Street bridge is specifically quote didn't need to be prioritized as part of the plan but was chosen for revenue generating purposes and quote Excellency dilution from NBC ten it's ten minutes after six o'clock this time to go to the traffic center again with Jackie Murphy being brought to us by publishers clearing house seeing a bit more volume now on ninety five north passing Kinsley apps you're doing fine on ninety five south of Broad Street we have no issues on one forty six north that child straight and one ninety five west moving along without delay passing game no straight I'm Jacki Murphy with your southern New England traffic time is running out to win five thousand dollars a week forever from publishers clearing house you could win five thousand dollars a week for your life plus after that five thousand dollars a week for life for someone you choose entering.

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"jean bell" Discussed on 710 WOR

710 WOR

06:42 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on 710 WOR

"Because the skills to fall from my eyes and to see things probably more clearly than I ever have is this family got a name that everybody would recognize the Rockefeller my gosh the Rockefeller family and you got to realize it this is understandable because by the turn of the twentieth century John D. Rockefeller had already controlled ninety five percent of the American oil and thirty percent of all the oil wells throughout the world and he was on his way to becoming the richest individual you know in creation and yeah at he was tied in with the what happened was there was a secret society formed by Cecil John Rhodes we've we've spoken about that before it is the members of that society where the most powerful people in England and need to rot Roger was part of that lord Brett was for the P. date to chief adviser to Queen Victoria Arthur jeans bell for the department the future prime minister of England was part of that lord Roseberry whose rock rock rock child son in law was part of the secret society so was cardinal Edward deleting Catholic prelate in England Williams who's the founder of the salvation army Alfred Milner who became Britain's secretary of war at that once again this is the that Sir Edward peacock between that the director of the bank of England Jeffrey Dawson the editor of the London times we instead them the foremost journalist in England they all were part of the secret society what they want to do is they wanted to they they believed that Britain was destined to control the world and that that belief was not at that time when they form a society in eighteen ninety in eighteen eighty eight this this thought was really not really that far fetched because Britain already controlled a third of the world I mean it did it had it at Coney use all over the place it was the most fermentable industrial power in the world and they believe that it in time with the direction of the secret society all the world to come in to warn the government under British rule interesting now when you say secret society explain that Paul well they they believe that they they they they were masons and social Joan roads it sent the society at the ninety he after he went through Dennis Yushin in to the masonic lodge into the Apollo chapter at Oxford university all these guys were masons and they they they sell with with with with with some recorded could do just what they a group of of large is that were set up throughout the world did it could really bring about almost a one world religion under the grand architect of the universe and rose figure that the it since masonry was so successful another secret society could accomplish a north a lot more and it did this is said it would have to be composed of the of Britain's leading bankers politicians aristocrats and he form that society and they all believe they also strongly believe that this is not a conspiracy theory this is All I mean anybody can document this is conspiracy fact as a matter of fact this secret society was responsible for the second for war and for the conquest of most of Africa does this secret society have a specific name is at the Bilderberg group they call themselves the society of the elect it was formed as a circle within such a circle within a circle the nucleus of the secret society was Rothchild roads no wonder instead around this they call the circle of initiates and that was one circle and then there is another circle the system the circle of helpers and I'm a NY is that there is a circle of affiliates and there was a circle within a circle within a circle that's the way they organized and once again what they did was they instigated the war war at the end of the war war you know the the British Empire was greatly expanded and the next thing that they did was they decided to morph into something called the the program society they formed a program society in London all these guys are just mentioned the road was dead at that time but rod child Belfort and no wonder and all these people they form the the programs aside all this is fact and what they do is they they established as sister society in the United States society and it was set up at the Waldorf Astoria in nineteen oh three years of that there's a awful lot of documentation on this from taxable sources including members of the program subsided themselves what was their intent Paul I mean to control or to better society they believe you see George sick leave that the world should be controlled you couldn't leave anything just to face helter skelter were not really religious people they believe in social Darwinism and they believe that they were but just by by the by evolution at the at the fall didn't that that there was people Berman server Superman and that that the Brits were meant to control the world and these these people in the program society in America you know share the same belief that the Anglo Americans should rule the world the third the rest of the world was composed primarily of people who were going to mature over under under you know what I'm under developed the drones yeah the drone right right right right and the Yahoo and and and and you know and and then there was the winner so with the European leg so in this program society in New York it was established in nineteen oh three these were the people like cheap JP Morgan and Carnegie Cornelius Vanderbilt William Howard Taft to begin the future president America Cleveland a past president Burke who is one of the world's leading bankers and hopefully with Roger islands Jacob Jacob ship who was raised by the Roger I mean probably because most prominent banker at that time Mark Twain government of free printables who was instrumental in creating the federal reserve and also John D. Rockefeller to stay with us Paul we're gonna take a quick break.

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"jean bell" Discussed on KFI AM 640

KFI AM 640

09:09 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on KFI AM 640

"The counter terrorist in the National Review he holds a PhD in psychological theology from drew university has served as a consultant on organized crime in international terrorism for the FBI is an adjunct professor of theology humanities and philosophy and Paul always a pleasure to get you back here how are you doing very well George thank you it's good to be back with you too then I should say that you co wrote this book with Rodney Howard Browne in it's a dandy I'm telling you I hope you're looking over your shoulder these days Paul because you keep writing about stuff like this you never know who's does you're gonna stop on well you know when you get to be my age George you get to the point where you really don't even care anymore do you know what I mean I mean I'm an Irishman if if somebody gives me a slug in the back of the head you know so be it I'll go as fast well yeah but then I lose another guest for crying out tell us right right it'll be on there tell us a little bit about the transition from killing Uncle Sam to this work right now when I was doing the research for killing Uncle Sam I kept kept coming up with the scene Pete this same family who seemed to be on to be to be resigned the genetically modified food there with that this poisoning people vaccines are killing people behind the fake news behind the American Bar Association behind the American legal institution behind the American medical association same family I think family that that funds almost one third of the colleges and universities throughout the country and this this this this family has tentacles everywhere everywhere and it when I was when I was reading going to go see him I really couldn't hear out of the the the the full depth of the nefarious is of this family and so I I wrote killing the planet with Rodney and it's it's Georgian you know what day it yeah I think the imperative at my age you know after all all my years as a journalist this really because the skills to fall from my eyes and to see things probably more clearly than I ever have is this family got a name that everybody would recognize the rock my gosh the Rockefeller family and you got to realize it this is understandable because by the turn of the twentieth century John D. Rockefeller had already controlled ninety five percent of the American oil and thirty percent of all the oil wells throughout the world and he was on his way to becoming the richest individual you know in creation and yeah at he was tied in with the what happened was there was a secret society formed by Cecil John Rhodes we've we've spoken about that before sure it is the members of that society where the most powerful people in England and the need to rot Roger was part of that lord Brett was for the debate the chief adviser to Queen Victoria Arthur jeans bell for the department the future prime minister of England was part of that lord Roseberry was rock rock rock child son in law was part of the secret society so was cardinal Hillary Edward meaning the leading Catholic prelate in England William booth the founder of the salvation army Alfred Milner who became Britain's secretary of war at the once again this is deep that Sir Edward peacock between that the director of the bank of England Jeffrey Dawson the editor of the London times we instead the foremost journalist in England they all were part of the secret society what they want to do is they wanted to they they believe that Britain was destined to control the world and that that belief was not at that time when they formed the society in eighteen ninety in eighteen eighty eight this this thought was really not really that far fetched because Britain already control the third of the world it had it at Coney use all over the place it was the most fermentable industrial power in the world and they believe that it in time with the direction of the secret society all the world could come into Warner government under British rule interested now when you say secret society explain that Paul they they believe that they they they they were masons and social John roads sent the society that at the ninety he after he went through Dennis Yushin into the masonic lodge into the Apollo chapter at Oxford university all these guys were masons and they they they sell with with with with the masonic order could do just with the a group of of large is that were set up throughout the world it could really bring about almost a one world religion under the grand architect of the universe and rose figure that the it since masonry was so successful another secret society accomplish a novel a lot more and it did this is said it would have to be composed of the of Britain's leading bankers politicians aristocrats in the form of society and they all believe they also strongly believe that this is not a conspiracy theory this is All I mean anybody can document this this conspiracy fact is affected secret society was responsible for the second for war and for the conquest of most of Africa does this secret society have a specific name is of the Bilderberg group yeah yeah in the beginning they call themselves the society of the elect it was formed as a circle with hints of a circle within a circle the nucleus of the secret society was what child roads no wonder instead they call the circle of initiates and that was one circle and then there was another circle the system the circle of helpers I mean it did there was a circle of affiliates and there was a circle within a circle within a circle that's the way they organized and once again what they did was they instigated the war war at the end of the war war you know the the British Empire was greatly expanded and the next thing that they did was they decided to morph into something called the the pilgrim society they formed a program society in London all these guys are just mentioned the road was dead at that time but rod child in Belfort and Miller and all these people they form the the program since I all this is fact and what they do is they they established a sister society in the United States society was set up at the Waldorf Astoria in nineteen oh three that there's an awful lot of documentation on this from global sources including members of the the open society themselves what was their intent Paul I mean to control or to better society well not that they believe you see your sick leave that the world should be controlled you couldn't leave anything just to face helter skelter were not really religious people they believe in social Darwinism and they believe that they were but just by by the by evolution at the at the fall didn't that that there would be bolder mentioned we Superman and that that the Brits were meant to control the world and these people in the program society in America you know share the same belief that the Anglo Americans should rule the world the third the rest of the world which could cause early of people who were going to mature over under under you know what I'm under developed the drones yeah the drone right right right right and the Yahoo and and and and you know and and then there were the women there with revealing so in this open society in New York it was established in nineteen oh three these were the people like cheap JP Morgan entered Carnegie Cornelius Vanderbilt William Howard Taft to begin the future president America for Cleveland a past president word who is one of the world's leading bankers and hopefully with Roger rounds Jacob Jacob ship who was raised by the Roger of probably because most prominent backer at that time Mark Twain god when we moved to a friend printer both who was instrumental in creating the federal reserve and also John D. Rockefeller do you stay with us Paul we're gonna take a quick break we'll come back and talk more about killing the planet wow.

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"jean bell" Discussed on 106.1 FM WTKK

106.1 FM WTKK

09:40 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on 106.1 FM WTKK

"Welcome back to coast to coast Georgian we're with you you're not listening to this program over the years we've talked a lot about conspiracies and things that are happening and you're gonna get that tonight Paul Williams back with us originally wrote the book the killing of Uncle Sam the demise of the United States of America today killing the planet how financial cartel doom mankind that we tell you a little bit about Paul before we bring him on journalist and author of course she's the winner of three first place keystone press awards has written articles for major news outlets including USA today the Wall Street journal news Max the counter terrorist in the National Review he holds a PhD in psychological theology from drew university has served as a consultant on organized crime in international terrorism for the FBI is an adjunct professor of theology humanities and philosophy and Paul always a pleasure to get you back here how are you doing very well George thank you it's good to be back with you too then I should say that you call wrote this book with Rodney Howard Browne in it's a dandy I'm telling you I hope you're looking over your shoulder these days Paul because you keep writing about stuff like this you never know who's toes you're gonna stop on well you know when you get to be my age George you get to to the point where you really don't even care anymore do you know what I mean I mean I'm an Irishman if if somebody gives me a slug in the back of the head you know so be it I'll go as fast well yeah but then I lose another guest for crying out tell us right right tell us a little bit about the transition from killing Uncle Sam to this work right now when I was doing the research for killing Uncle Sam I kept I kept coming up with this scene Pete this same family who seemed to behind to be to be behind the genetically modified food there with it this poisoning people vaccines are killing people behind the fake news behind the American Bar Association behind the American legal institution behind the American medical association same family family that that funds almost one third of the colleges and universities throughout the country and this this this this family has tentacles everywhere everywhere and it when I was when I was writing showing costume I really couldn't hear out of the the the the full depth of the nefarious is of this family and so I I wrote killing the planet with Rodney and it's it's an honor George it's you know what day it is yeah I think the in at my age you know after all all my years as a journalist this really because the skills to fall from my eyes and to see things probably more clearly than I ever have is this family got a name that everybody would recognize the rock my gosh the Rockefeller family and you got to realize it this is understandable because by the turn of the twentieth century John D. Rockefeller had already controlled ninety five percent of the American oil and thirty percent of all the oil wells throughout the world and he was on his way to becoming the richest individual you know in creation and yeah at he was tied in with the what happened was there was a secret society formed by Cecil John Rhodes we've we've spoken about that before the members of that society where the most powerful people in England and the need to rot Roger was part of that lord right was for the P. did to chief adviser to Queen Victoria Arthur jeans bell for the department the future prime minister of England was part of that lord Roseberry was rock rock rock child son in law was part of the secret society so was cardinal Hillary Edward meaning the leading Catholic prelate in England William booth the founder of the salvation army Alfred Milner who became Britain's secretary of war at that once again this is deep that Sir Edward peacock became that the director of the bank of England Jeffrey Dawson the editor of the London times we instead them the foremost journalist in England they all were part of the secret society what they want to do is they wanted to had they they believe that Britain was destined to control the world and that that belief was not at that time when they formed the society in eighteen ninety in eighteen eighty eight this this thought was really not really that far fetched because Britain already control to serve the world I mean it it had it at Coney is all over the place it was the most fermentable industrial power in the world and they believe that it in time with the direction of the secret society all the world to come in to warn the government under British rule interested now when you say secret society explain that Paul well they they believe that they they they they were masons and social John roads sent the society at the ninety he after he went through Dennis Yushin into the masonic lodge into the Apollo chapter at Oxford university all these guys were masons and they they they sell with with with with the masonic order could do just with the a group of of large is that were set up throughout the world did it could really bring about almost a one world religion under the grand architect of the universe and rose figure that the it since masonry was so successful another secret society could accomplish a north a lot more and it did the society would have to be composed of the of Britain's leading bankers politicians aristocrats in the form that society and they all believe they also strongly believe that this is not a conspiracy theory this is All I mean anybody can document this this conspiracy fact isn't affected secret society was responsible for the second for war and for the conquest of most of Africa does this secret society have a specific name is at the Bilderberg group yeah in the beginning they call themselves the society of the elect it was formed as a circle within such a circle within a circle the nucleus of the secret society was Rothschild roads no wonder instead around this they call the circle of initiates and that was one circle and then there was another circle the system the circle of helpers and I'm a NY is that there is a circle of affiliates and there was a circle within a circle within a circle that's the way they organized and once again what they did was they instigated the war war at the end of the war war you know the the British Empire was greatly expanded and the next thing that they did was they decided to morph into something called the the program society they formed a program society in London all these guys are just mentioned the road was dead at that time but rod child doll for in the owner and all these people they form the the programs aside all this is fact and what they do is they they established a sister society in the United States the program society and it was set up at the Waldorf Astoria in nineteen oh three there's a awful lot of documentation on this from taxable sources including members of the open society themselves what was their intent Paul I mean to control or to better society well not that they believe you see your sick leave that the world should be controlled you couldn't leave it everything just to face helter skelter we're not really religious people they believed in social Darwinism and they believe that they were but just by by the by evolution at the at the vault and that that they're with people Berman server Superman and that that the Brits were meant to control the world and these people in the program society in America you know share the same belief that the Anglo Americans should rule the world the third the rest of the world which compose primarily of people who were going to mature for under under you know what I'm under developed the drones yeah the drone right right right right and the Yahoo and and and and you know and and then there were the women's there with the European leg so in this program society in New York it was established in nineteen oh three these were the people like cheap JP Morgan and Carnegie Cornelius Vanderbilt William Howard Taft to begin the future president America Cleveland a past president Paul Warburg who is one of the world's leading bankers and hopefully with Roger roads Jacob Jacob ship who was raised by the roster of probably because most prominent banker at that time Mark Twain god by name of Frank Rainer Bolz who was instrumental in creating the federal reserve and also John D. Rockefeller to stay with us Paul we're gonna take a quick break we'll come back and talk.

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"jean bell" Discussed on NewsRadio KFBK

NewsRadio KFBK

06:42 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on NewsRadio KFBK

"Because the skills to fall from my eyes and to see things probably more clearly than I ever have is this family got a name that everybody would recognize the rock my gosh the Rockefeller family and you got to realize it this is understandable because by the turn of the twentieth century John D. Rockefeller had already controlled ninety five percent of the American oil and thirty percent of all the oil wells throughout the world and he was on his way to becoming the richest individual you know in creation and yeah at he was tied in with the what happened was there was a secret society formed by Cecil John Rhodes we've we've spoken about that before it is the members of that society where the most powerful people in England and the need to rocks Roger was part of that lord Brett was for the P. did to chief adviser to Queen Victoria Arthur jeans bell for the department the future prime minister of England was part of that lord Roseberry was rock rock rock child son in law was part of the secret society so was cardinal in re Edward meaning the leading Catholic prelate in England William booth the founder of the salvation army Alfred Milner who became Britain's secretary of war at that once again this is the that Sir Edward peacock between that the director of the bank of England Jeffrey Dawson the editor of the London times we instead them the foremost journalist in England they all were part of the secret society what they want to do is they wanted to had they they believe that Britain was destined to control the world and that that belief was not at that time when they formed the society in eighteen ninety in eighteen eighty eight this this thought was really not really that far fetched because Britain already control to serve the world I mean it did it had it at Coney use all over the place it was the most fermentable industrial power in the world and they believe that it in time with the direction of the secret society all the world to come in to warn the government under British rule interested now when you say secret society explain that Paul well they they believe that they they they they were masons and social Joan roads sent the society at the ninety he after he went through Dennis Yushin into the masonic lodge into the Apollo chapter at Oxford university all these guys were masons and they they they sell with with with with the masonic order could do just with the a group of of large is that were set up throughout the world did it could really bring about almost a one world religion under the grand architect of the universe and rose figure that the it since masonry was so successful another secret society could accomplish a north a lot more and it did this is said it would have to be composed of the of Britain's leading bankers politicians aristocrats in the form of society and they all believe they also strongly believe that this is not a conspiracy theory this is All I mean anybody can document this is conspiracy fact is not affected secret society was responsible for the second for war and for the conquest of most of Africa does this secret society have a specific name is of the Bilderberg group yeah in the beginning they call themselves the society of the elect it was a it was formed as a circle within suppress circle within a circle the nucleus of the secret society was rock child rose known instead around this they call the circle of initiates and that was one circle and then there is another circle the system the circle of helpers and I'm a I mean it did then there is a circle of affiliates and there was a circle within a circle within a circle that's the way they organized and once again what they did was they instigated the war war at the end of the war war you know the the British Empire was greatly expanded and the next thing that they did was they decided to morph into something called the the program society they formed a program society in London all these guys are just mentioned in a rose was dead at that time but rod child in dollar for and the owner and all these people they form the the programs aside all this is fact and what they do is they they established a sister society in the United States the program society and it was set up at the Waldorf Astoria in nineteen oh three I mean there's a that there's an awful lot of documentation on this from impeccable sources including members of the program subsided themselves what was their intent Paul I mean to control or to better society well not that they believe you see George sick leave that the world should be controlled you couldn't leave if anything just to face helter skelter we're not really religious people they believe in social Darwinism and they believe that they were but just by by the by evolution at the end of fall didn't that that there was people prevention were Superman and that that the Brits were meant to control the world and it did these people in the program society in America you know share the same belief that the Anglo Americans should rule the world but the third the rest of the world which compose primarily of people who were going to mature or under under you know what I'm under developed the drones yeah the drone right right right right and the Yahoo and and and and you know and and then there was the winner so with the European leg so in this program society in New York it was established in nineteen oh three these were the people like cheap JP Morgan and Carnegie Cornelius Vanderbilt William Howard Taft to begin the future president America over Cleveland a past president Paul Warburg who is one of the world's leading bankers and hopefully with Roger owns Jacob Jacob ship who was raised by the roster of seven probably Merrick is most prominent banker at that time Mark Twain god when we moved to a friend printer both who was instrumental in creating the federal reserve and also John D. Rockefeller to stay with us while we're gonna take a quick break we'll.

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"jean bell" Discussed on KNBR The Sports Leader

KNBR The Sports Leader

02:15 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on KNBR The Sports Leader

"I saw a lot of activity on shower on Saturday I'm still screw up with days or it's too early for Christmas music so we cram it all into three weeks now that's that's going to be acceptable time what a joke the son of man Jean bell jingle bell jingle bell rock jingle bells for me I didn't know the words I just threw up there all I know is this don't be the guy complain about Christmas music in November embrace it or take a lap it is a Sean rash on CBS sports radio we will get into your NFL picks next I am a whopping six and six the last three weeks since we started picking among the strong ratio just mediocre about the story of my life where to do Europe connect for your four pics single around the rest of the day's action is a big football Sunday awaits but first your latest sports update here's Justin shackle sports way many would love to have time share broad and that's essentially what the Jacksonville Jaguars have at London's Wembley Stadium where they're playing a home game for a second consecutive season Doug world squad get ready for an early morning we can kick off against a Sean what's in the Texans I mean we're just comfortable with that I don't I don't know it because you don't really know what's going on with the other team what they're doing and we feel very comfortable coming out here we have a pretty much a set routine we know we're gonna work out we know the field we don't ride we know the hotel I disagree those things help it's one less thing to maybe having society about and you're able to focus on playing the game they took off from London this morning coming up at nine thirty eastern six thirty Pacific Adam Schefter reports Vikings receiver and feelings expected a play against the chief same goes for Eagles receiver DeSean Jackson against the bears chapters also reporting what has been hinted at all week chiefs quarterback Patrick homes it is expected to miss his second straight week of action it'll likely be met more starting against Minnesota college football no problems for number seven Oregon last night on the road at U. I. C. cornerback Justin Herber connecting with Joe on Johnson for three touchdowns the ducks question the Trojans fifty six to twenty fourth number eight Georgia holding off seventh ranked Florida twenty four seventeen number.

"jean bell" Discussed on KOA 850 AM

KOA 850 AM

07:37 min | 2 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on KOA 850 AM

"Way Colorado dot com I was a little weird out by last week's winner schrei and shred words I am at the top of the leader board but you know nobody I don't I don't really are brag about it I'm I'm very humble right really he published right you're straight words it's a heck of a name well Brian tried words at seems almost fakes failing him I mean you you know you talk about like a a running back to be a good name for running back because he shreds represents thread boards shred the defense Allentown guess Robert Edwards didn't last long enough for the NFL to earn that nickname fair enough it sounds like it might be changing my Twitter handle here very very soon. senior flag football prowess so shred words is probably not the nickname I would come in all right Sir was sort of a carpenter jeans. unknown well the rest of his gloves. and does some of those had had a tight fitting athletic wear that we should never wear because our and we've had the wrong body I also want to talk about that you know I didn't give you guys a hard time for a tight fitting athletic wear that probably only fit you five years ago right well you know. the perfect opportunity for me to recycle my spend expel a joke. but I'm not going to this much is true. with with with this with the carpenter jeans bell for what it's worth and and the wife of initially got either gone they they no longer are part you'll never see the carpenter jeans again. well that is a relief America we got we. all right three three seven three eighty five eighty five your phone number five six six nine zero is the text I will get to some comments for Michigan role about no fans coming up here in just a little bit still six stick around for that but don Reisinger brokers starting left guard joining the program right now what do you think about your match up with the defensive line with Jacksonville Jaguars come to town yeah I I feel like every week in the NFL you gonna because great defensive line so props off to Jaguars defensive line in place can one another great players of watch film on him but this could be every week in the NFL so we're excited for the opportunity and excited to come back home get away. no one Kerry one yard one touchdown last week calculus top that rushing performance this week. man you know I appreciate people give because of a film was run his **** off and that's just a fourth down situation we had to do we had to do it again the end zone and I was happy I was there you know there could be other guys there that position and I'm happy I got lucky enough to toss millions of men for several back around as far as a some of your high school film you're tossing people round of their defensive guys here had a position like that where you picked up an office a player like that and taking the order to yeah I did that a Kansas state so I did I can't stay was actually my last came my career with when I was state my quarterback I hit like the two and pretty much the same thing I had tossed and St the end zone and can have the exact same celebration so I was flashbacks for sure that those are two pretty cool moments my career one of the things that overriding theme from the team this week a self inflicted wounds and sort of stopping those what other things have you guys focus on this week in order to get that when you know the self inflicted wounds is just exactly that you know we have all the tools to make something happen we do great things in games you know we ran for a hundred fifty yards did a lot of great things in the office of line but then you got to go back and look at the the place that could have been thirty forty are plays that weren't because the things we did wrong or sacks that we gave up for questioners for I need to improve so a you know the round headed south self inflicted wounds and it's just cleaning that stuff up and then we we clean that up week to week or becoming a better team week to week and we gonna continue list for coaches and do what's necessary will be a great team all the things I saw going back and look at the tape was the first time I've ever seen an office of guard double team to players I don't know if you remember that played I could you walk us through that yeah you know that's just a part of a scheme that my check teaches us and we got another position as an offense of line where they brought a look that was pretty tough I knew that I get Connor McGovern over late to come help me and I did my best to hold off the inside guys long as I could knowing that I had to hold off the outside guys well and that's a that's a block the coach much teaches us all the time you mentioned areas to get better for you what areas do you want improving over this we can be on just like you said earlier the self inflicted wounds make should I continue to make sure that I don't have self inflicted wounds at the game make sure I stay focused and. make should I clean up my technique that's something the someone we can always work on to clean up my technique on a nonstop basis something I wanna make sure I do every single game and the type of player no matter how physical play I always will be more physical each every game have you seen consistent improvement from the offense of line from week to week yeah most definitely I'm not so sure of on the person to ask you know I think there's veterans on that the office of line are probably more fit to answer that question but of what I've seen and then playing in the NFL for three weeks I feel like we're continuing to be a better office one each week Sunday not having holding penalties coming getting back on the right track there that's a testament to him gear bulls locked in after that week he realized what he did wrong and he got after last week he worked his **** off of practice he listened he focused on what he did to get better at near help game gear had a lot better game he can always improve on things just like I can't just like everyone can but the due date huge strides and he's got fully committed to this team and it's awesome to see that other guy I think he's an continue to prove we tweak I great stuff there for gold riser get Broncos country tonight dot coms were you find all over interviews podcasts and more a last part they're talking about gear bulls what we think about Kerr bowls performance against Green Bay mace some good some bad you're happy that he was able to curb the holding penalties but don't forget this was also the week that the officials got the eight down from however on in the league that will much calling the holding families as much and let and certainly not calling them if they don't have an impact on the play but it was a much clearer game overall I thought their bowls a hand placement particular watching that was. the best I've seen from him in quite awhile that's the positive della development for me that being said listed all riser comma gear bolding like who's a veteran who's the rookie ball risers talking about their bowls making progress as though Reisner is the seven or eight year vet and bowls the routine that still is the it's it's testament all riser charity but still something very unusual asking the rookie to settle that yeah I I think that you can take we can take pride in fact it did get cleaned up it was a clean game but there's still old Shuster instances where you're like your first round tackle you to get this the play were he smacked run smack into they shot Hamilton and then just continue running toward the sideline not blocking anyone on a stretch play that lasts front brakes Freeman got hit them in the backfield on I I still I still want that play for high comedy. yeah he's there there's there's definitely. I I I know we we talked about this we kind of lower expectations a little bit but we at this point holding penalties you I am out of the game saying okay I mean it's sad that you're saying it but he didn't hurt the team right as much as he did the previous weeks and for that you were satisfied. they didn't. actively hurt the team in the waited again Chicago near the bar set so low at this point a limbo champion I'm not sure could just don't commit a penalty just just just sort of block somebody it's the it's the difference between like the Lisa Simpson and bart Simpson notes again their lunch bart realizes are Lisa realizes she got the wrong line which we she looks in her lunch sack and sees no this says. be good for the love of god please be from their mother and bart gets the once it's we're so proud of what you do every day yeah on the whole the wrong and we come back risking guerrillas comments on it no of fans where should we be feel how she was feeling about no offense how does the see feel about him we'll get to that next a broker's country tonight K. away..

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"jean bell" Discussed on WRKO AM680

WRKO AM680

01:43 min | 3 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on WRKO AM680

"Other has his tetanus shot blood type his name branch of the service and serial number that's in my head yes of the blood type is I don't know it so I did what mine is type of thing you know the amazing thing about this is that it's better than three D. printing it really is and these will last a lot longer than well I'll be around the well every week I like to reach out and give a blogger spotlight this week I'm going to give a little love to the next Gen geological network which I've mentioned before great people on their website T. N. G. G. N. dot org slash blog there are now having members of next Gen do guest blogging so a friend of ours Devin no will leave who we know from Texas yes on there recently and I'm hoping to write a piece and hopefully you to fish I mean I think it's going to be a great way for people who don't have a blog to get out there and try one out maybe influence them to write their own nice idea well the only thing I have to mention now is if you're not in any age yes member remember you can use the code extreme and take him twenty dollars on American ancestors dot org pop all I have for this week heading off to New York for my next conference very shortly you're a busy man David thanks so much for your time I will talk to get next week all right and coming up next we're gonna talk to Christy filler up she's a researcher with legacy tree genealogist legacy tree dot com and at Christie's gonna start talking about a thing called the parish chest and this is how they kept track of the poor folk over in the U. K. back in the day and later in the show we'll talk about some American poor folk records as well with Jean bell Monty for many H. yes will pick it up in three.

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"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

15:13 min | 3 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

"There's always going to be a challenge and I understand now more than ever. I'm not a freaking victim and that's I one of my guest pet peeves but I don't get take offense on Stewart or anything but one of my pet P. is when people ask me about being a survivor. I'm like I'm not a survivor. I just went through challenges like anybody goes through challenges right and mind were unique to me and I don't pain compare pain as pain. I always on the same way some people we all have different experiences with it but I am not a victim. I see now more than ever that everything that happened to me. The abuse the losing my voice ace it was never ever about me being an opera singer. I feel more now more than ever. I was always supposed to lose my voice. I was always supposed to you know be abused and know what it's slight to go through all of this trial of not feeling like I was enough and watching it manifest in my body and life crumbling around me so that I could come out on the other side and like that's my purpose and what's cool about it is like now that I have this purpose that is internally driven. I did not go out and look for it if shivered hit the fan and my whole business and everything or to just crumble tomorrow and just go away away. Nobody would be fine fucking deal right eight factly right because I don't identify. I'm not my work. I'm just like you know what I've had these gifts if I can it feels good. I have fun helping other women not suffer as long as I did. That's fun. That's awesome like yeah. Yes and I get amazing. Yes that's awesome right but if I if I can't do that anymore that doesn't mean I'm a failure just means okay. I'm not supposed to do that now. Weird yeah time for the next thing and I think that's what really happens. When a person starts to realize oh wait a second? I don't need to be a certain dress size to be lovable by the by a romantic partner. Oh wait a second second. I don't have to be an entrepreneur or something <hes> for there to be for me to be successful or have purpose or anything like that right is be suddenly the attachment to outcomes vanishes because and that's the big thing. I think that's a number one thing I work on with the GALS that I get. The gift of working with is I. My definition of self. Love is making ones mental. Emotional and physical wellbeing her top priority and when we really we can only do that on a daily basis you can on a moment to moment basis really it's like what do I need right now to feel good right emotionally and mentally oh. I need a NAP now. Oh I need water. Oh I need to stop calling myself ugly in the mirror. That doesn't feel I need to forgive myself for having a box of pringles totally cold singles girls right right like it's just food eat the food what we do in in my work this is one of my favorite things when over and starts beating yourself up because of something she on so bad the food so bad and I'm like Oh hell no we just are eating food on my next time you have pancakes or whatever it is that she's talking about. She feels bad about he's go. I love these pancakes or this case. I'd love these frugal. These breakers are so good and you just like go for it. You just eat the pringles bring all and you've loved the pringles and you'd be with the pringles taste to the damn pringles yeah I think where when we make when we add shame or guilt into anything there the lowest energy forms and when we add shame or guilt it makes us inhale the food without tasting it. It makes us not be present with it because it's shameful hiding right and it's like that with everything with money with all of it you know when we feel like we're not when we get that imposter imposter syndrome. It's like I'm not I shouldn't really be earning for this like I feel guilty. What if they find out I'm a fraud or whatever they find out like? I'm only a little bit better than they are. At this thing I learned like I did a Gig league in school districting in Inglewood Right <hes> and I was always curious about how we as kids learn shame guilt right and embarrassed right question yeah hi and I was they were having one of those things where the parents come and watch the kids do stuff right <hes> so I don't have a lot to do because all the teachers are busy with that and so I'm Kinda like floating around in updating this in pretending being like I'm working here and when I'm watching them get ready for this big singing pageant or whatever it is that they're doing right right and I think I was in like a first grade class with one of my favorite teachers who I kind of respect it and she's getting the class ready and she was teaching them how to be embarrassed and I was like right okay so she was basically lining them up and then she literally said the words now when we're in line and we're getting ready ready to be in front of your your parents all the parents now don't be scratching yourself and don't be fidgeting because that will be embarrassing and they're all okay right and but who would be embarrassed by that right not them. They don't even know what that means but she would. Why that's exactly what I was? That's where that comes from programming man it is scary. That's all it is at the same like the boys. Call me ugly. They'd say I needed ABROA- for my back like stuff and by the way back then I rode horses. I rode horses every day. I saw pictures of me. I looked like a ball on the front of a swimsuit through magazine and I was like Dang girl. Oh Man I was so trim hourglass figure while because the first time I girl with boobs totally they were projecting and saying you're fat exactly exactly and they they all liked me. I know that now we're getting Olshan but the kind of hair pulling kind of attention exactly but they were you know it was just stuff yeah totally but that was where I learned learn to be ashamed of my body because I I've been oblivious before that sure I just like body. What is music around sixth grade? You suddenly have the hormonal intelligence to know that there are there's another sex and they're looking at you. It's like oh well. I would like some a haircut that doesn't make me look like Mo from the and some cool close it totally and that's what I wanted like. I wanted a boyfriend. I always wanted to be loved and so I and that was always like I've always wanted to be an monogamous long-term relationship. That's just who I am like. I'm a one I I'm just happy when I'm in relationship relationship churn but I never had relationship <hes> because of all of those early I just I just I was in relationships with really awful people because what I thought I needed to be an do for Love was all all programmed based on my early experiences with it and <hes> and so it was just really struggled for the vast majority of my life and it wasn't until my breakthrough and also I've got some little brothers and <hes> <hes> there about twelve and fourteen years younger than me <hes> Eh for my dad's second marriage and when they became <hes> when they came of age I remember they them and they they in their friends. Friends were the smartest you know Valedictorians and at their school and you know athletes it was like all the boys at never paid attention to me when I was growing up right and they and all their friends were so loving into me and it just changed my world and that was when I realized I was like wow if a man can't treat me at least as well as my brothers and his friends. I can't date them like yeah. I didn't know that treated girls like this like this is good. You know right belt so loved like I could do no wrong. They're always wanted to know what I was working on like randomly. They're just so great. Member others are amazing and that really began to change my life because I had a new idea a newly frame holy so they were big contributors to that now that I'm talking about it. I'm like that's my fiance's twelve years younger than me probably deprogramming okay <music> therapy for that one music. Oh my gosh usually like the best thing ever. He and his family are amazing to you and you know what I love about that as they're all out picturing 's of what you and I both found. I don't like what happens when you're enough when you suddenly realize you're enough right or mean nothing on my external world had changed right. I Internal World Change <hes> and I had gone from running this really fine like entrepreneurial. Oh group like I had this big social club. I organized brunch for like forty five people every Sunday for free like all these entrepreneurs and there was like two hundred people in the club ray while it was really fine and one of the things I realized I had to do as I I had to quit hanging out with my friends because I got so distracted by what they were working on and I was still looking outside of myself for. I thought a business would make me happier feel purposeful right so I had to disconnect from my whole life so I started volunteering Alan tearing a couple of things started volunteering at this church but I'd started because I'd had at the time I still had thirty thousand dollars in debt from like college and stuff and I just carried on these credit cards for like so much of my life and <hes> I finally was damaged. I'm going to pay off this debt and so I started <hes> I found a Dave Ramsey's class and I and I did it at this church. I was like Oh you know I was in on the other side so I was like open to spirituality for the first time after after nearly committing suicide and so as like you know what I want to check out this church anyway so I'll do the Dave Ramsey class there it turned out the woman who was the Dave Ramsey coach at that church who brought it to that church was my now fiancee's mom to it was amazing casino. Your best friends and I helped her lose more than seventy pounds and keep it off for like three years and then her husband lost seventy pounds and like everybody in the family lost all this way collectively the family loss like two hundred pounds. It was amazing amazing leasing it was so amazing and <hes> shooting my very first clients when I started doing the food and body business and <hes> but all of this was very organic so it's for me it started with tackling whatever I felt like I could tackle and so I was like coming from this place of I'm enough to do whatever lights me up and so I didn't even tell any my business friends. I was so embarrassed but I was so like I'm gonNA solve this debt problem and so I had my consulting work. I did during the day from ten A._M.. To six P._M.. And I I got a job at my favorite Jim town. 'cause I love fitness and they opened really early so I woke up at four A._M.. And I got a ten dollar an hour job that I worked from five in the morning until ten A._M.. Nice and that I would I was like I don't care if it's ten dollars. I would just be sleeping but I am putting money. I'm going to do everything I can put money towards this debt. I'm going to get rid of this debt and so I did that and then I would work from ten A._M.. To six P._M.. On my consulting I would have like an hour for rest. I go to bed at eight o'clock..

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"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

11:35 min | 3 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

"Especially the evening like I could handle everything all the way up until it's time to hang out and watch T._v.. On the couch with Mama Yeah and then I've got this you know Mason Jar of Red Schoff and that's dinner and I'm like let's leave. I'm doing it. Sit here and not eight. Yes yes yeah it was really hard but I felt so nauseous and sick all the time everytime eight because for me it would take like sixteen gene to forty eight hours for me to digest a Single Cup of foods while and so you just feel sick all the time I used to carry around like aromatherapy things for pregnant women who get morning sickness okay and I would just smell those aromatherapy things that helped with breath nausea nausea yeah it was a really tough and you know and I had anxiety and depression and acne and I._B._S.. And like I mean there was so much going hard differently Joe I. I was definitely Joe and I was really sick and still does time. I've been single for eight years. I'd never really had a good relationship ever because again like this you know my yeah issues walking issue like all the issues. I'm still wondering I I still never no matter how much I achieved doing all these different business things because I went on to consult like when I moved away I used to live in South Carolina and then I moved to Austin Texas where which is where I live now if in here since two thousand seven but I moved Austin Texas to change my life if it was during the transition phase I was like okay. I'm too stressed out at work. I need to change any a lifestyle change year until I was really trying to heal myself but it had getting worse no matter what I would he'll something incrementally and then something else also come up and like something would improve but like every other aspect of my life when improve like but I was very cheap. I was very folk like my big focus was get better like don't feel like a mess like get fixed. I emotionally get fixed. Fee yourself like figure out what you wanted to laser beam and you can only you can only kill one at a time. That's that's you right. Yes and I was doing i. I was being like a doctor right like okay. I suck it relationships. Let's fix this okay. I don't know what to do with my life. Let's figure out what business all makes me happy okay. I need to look a certain way. Let's fix my health and my body shape. I you know it was like each little item. I I was trying to fix all these items and and no matter who I hired or what I did. It's like even if I fixed one. It was like whack a mole. I just couldn't Oh my God always something wrong with me and my thirty third birthday and I just feel like what the hell no matter how many accolades I have all these things have accomplished in business or helped other people accomplish. I'm still single. I'm bigger and sicker than I've ever been. I feel unlovable. I'm UN everything unworthy you on able to make myself happy and no matter what I do. I it just doesn't work. You're still sick. Fat nearly dead exactly you're right. I was just like Joe exactly like that yeah totally and so thirty third birthday rolls around and I nearly and my own life like I made the decision I was GonNa do it and a well a well-timed call I had just been sobbing on my four for today's like I just couldn't get off the floor and <hes> I- well-timed call for my dad he's calling me happy birthday and his baby girl I born daughter is just weeping. He's like Oh my God. What's happening ready totally so this well-timed call from my dad helped me make a different decision but that's when everything really started to change for me that was when I realized Oh my God if that's what I'm really considering doing what would happen? If I really just did whatever the hell I wanted lake. It's like having a near death experience. I'm sure you had the details are different but it's realizing suddenly the value of your life yes. I think it's so easy to take it for granted when we're struggling right <hes> <hes> so let me let me rewind that say that again so what was the question that you just ask like what. I don't know if that's what I'm really really seriously considering what would happen. If I just did whatever the hell I wanted right right. That's what I like to call an effort moment. Yes exactly the f-bomb but that's what I actually because that's actually I can skip the story and say that that was how I resolved my suicidal depression <hes> same same thing. It was like yeah I basically I'll say I survived rat poison. Okay no kidding right okay. I don't want to get into it because I've done it already okay but the I came out of the end of that and said fuck it it is it is survived. Rat poison go ahead damage all these things like all the problems that were having me depressed and suicidal. Just the volume went way down. They went down from ten or fifteen fifteen to like a two. It was just like fucked up. They don't matter right exactly it yeah. It was exactly what I said to myself. I was like if this is what I'm seriously considering. Why don't I do whatever the fuck I want exactly? Yes like who cares anything. That's it and I look at this very powerful. It is is that should be a t-shirt. fucking really is going to get like engraved on a ring uh-huh. Oh my God so that was when everything started to change for me. <hes> it sounds like it did for you to and I just knew I was so excited after listening binge listening to your show I was so looking forward to having a conversation with you and it's it's even better than I imagine awesome. Your energy is so good now. I know I understand part of why <hes> so that was what happened for me to and another another thing that I don't always mentioned sometimes credit but I think here it's really relevant my whole life <hes> most of my life I'd been an atheist. I didn't believe in anything but it was because I grew up singing spiritual music like classical a lot of classical spiritual spiritual and I would come a lot of the songs I was telling you about that. I compose they were church songs. I would songs to perform at Church and <hes> and I'd always believed in God <hes> but not so much religious God but just like my relationship with God my relationship with a higher something right Bible God but the your got yes right exactly and so growing up my mom always said don't take your voice for granted or God will take it away I as has a little kid thought she meant. Don't be a diva. I don't know why interpreted that way but I that's what I thought she mentally be humble. Okay but I get now she was saying is use your gift or you lose it like keep honing it. Keep using gift or you'll lose within right right and I did but because of my misinterpretation when I lost my voice I was so angry at God because I was like. Are you kidding me like I. I was never a diva like I thought I was being humble and all these things and I was so devastated because I did love it and I did value it. Would I realize now it was never about my offer singing voice. The voice I didn't use was the one the little kid voice that didn't know how to communicate what was happening to her. The only reason I lost my voice anyway was because of stress the only reason any illness in my life ever happened because of unresolved mindset stuff that's it and I realized now and this is what came out for me. On the other side of my breakthrough. My thirty third birthday was and I think it was a similar for you to when we do what lights us up when we use our voice when we start to find and what do I need to be mentally emotionally and physically well without worrying. What anybody else thinks like what do I need right is when everything starts to heal and transfer you have to figure out what do you need for you right with and that's that's true you know and I think another thing that comes with that is being more the more that you find out that it the quicker method of of getting through relationing stuff is just being yourself more and letting that shit just work itself out right yeah yeah when the more fake you are with people oh than than than like it's going to prolong things that don't really need to if you're just yourself and someone who doesn't like you figure that out really quick and just disconnect right and they love you as you? Are you black on ten right. They're going to hang around and they're gonNA love it right but the people that don't that's okay. There's eight million people here. You don't need them all. I wish I wish I had her. I could have heard that yeah that was yes dow the that's like the holy grail of things and and it's so funny because I know for me back all those years thirty three years you know for I guess from age eleven to thirty the three my belief was I have to be different to be lovable to be successful to be in you know I. It was all those meanings I'd assigned but when I exactly when I discovered what you just said that you know what I have to do stuff for me and I had to be me. I have to take care of me. It's sort of like you know. People talk about being selfless but that's kind of impossible in a in a weird way Yep I agree that the instructions that you get on the airplane are actually the truth is that we have to take care of ourselves. I you have to put that mask on. I L size you might pass out in die and your child will never get their mask right right. He's right and they've got your lungs so they don't need as much eras you totally and incentivize you to get your damn mask on pretty quit messing around around this. I've got one yeah my <hes> my key spiritual laws is I'm one hundred percent responsible for everything that happens to me all the time. There's no other people so so everything that happens is me so it's all me so let's so I love me too. I'm so yeah it makes me take take responsibility for when I do things to myself out. That's why would I do that to me. Totally it also helps us <music>. <hes> deal with things life is going to happen..

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"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

13:03 min | 3 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

"Have you ever taken those drinks finder test. I did yeah so taken it. I love that that task that I've taken it changes too so that's that's good. It does change. Did your did your number. One change your top string change. Oh I don't think so no yeah I think one of them change change but not the top one. I don't think that's what I usually find the top. One they say is usually like how you're built and then the rest of them depending on what you do in your life can kind of they won't they usually don't change a ton but they can change a little only change like like like one. Maybe one of the themes changed a little yeah. That sounds about right my top to you didn't change so my number one is achiever. Number two is focused. Wow Okay so like obese. If I decide. I'm going to do something. Right right losing my voice was like very traumatic for me. Purpose identity the whole bit and so with this coping mechanism gone trying to figure out who am I. What do I do who now that I can't be an opera singer? Almost yes. Yes that was a very early decision so yes and I associate at safety with it yeah and it was a coping mechanism so totally right wow so you have very early identity crisis very early early and I really struggled and so now I started getting therapy because I finally started to show signs of like P._T._S._d.. And things like that is just so many things were happening and it wasn't called that back then we I mean they call it you Jesse but no one diagnosed with P._T._S._d.. At ten years later that I realized I had yesterday sure anyway so I did that to when you're in your developmental phase like right so that means your seventeen year old brain was aware that was kind of locked in which is now that's not it was is no binary no yes and I I had just so many skewed for views of what identity and safety and love and food all these things were or so skewed so anyway what to do next <hes> I'm into entrepreneurship like you know I've always been curious about it. I get Outta college and I end up getting a job as a bookkeeper at this company and on teaching myself accounting by night and then doing bookkeeping job during the day and then about six months in the manager just quit showing up to work he just quit. I guess he gets another job but it just never let us know. Stop just wears yeah so I come into work and I just being an achiever type. I just keep the office running anyway next thing and this is a little. It's an oil company sixty next thing you know I'm running this multimillion dollar oil company like twenty four years old yeah just doing it just because I'd seen the things going so I didn't identify as being being a cool thing. I was just going my job. -ality said okay well. I guess I'm George No right totally and and I still was I still viewed myself as a bookkeeper right but I just did what needed to be done income and that was a really good time like learned so much about business back then <hes> so that was really awesome. I learned to build system so I could get it all done and so I hold these gifts that I didn't even recognize until later but while I was honing needs gifts. I'm still binging now now working sixteen hour days because I worked full day I come in. I I leave last. I'm teaching myself how to do the things I need to do for my job after work <hes> I am eating super late. I'm barely eating during the day and I'm just driving being my body into the ground. I still have all this emotional baggage. I'd still binging like I'm just kind of a mess but I'm focused on work so who cares and so out walking wounded person basically totally. What is it focus on other things? Keep you having to feel what you're feeling. This is your normal so it doesn't really even feel like anything being go total norma so one day at work. I lose part of the vision in my left. I partially blind left. I I know and I'm so busy. I don't even go to the doctor for two weeks. What are you saying to yourself when all of a sudden oh that's weird did I can't see a little? I don't even remember because his thinking where now I'm like who the hell doesn't go to the doctor. You suddenly go partially like I can't even access the did that. He did head so I get to the doctor and she freaks and she's like trying to find her heart rate thinks she is a doctor and she has she continued to know where it is in the office because he hasn't had to use it and so long and I'm like why are you looking for your heart thing. She goes okay one of the things happening. Either you have multiple sclerosis or you're having a heart attack either way. I can't help you. You need to go to the emergency room right now and I was like well. They know backup backup backup backup backup backup. You decide okay. You're at work. You're really busy. You can't see a little right okay so now I'm over that and Oh my God I love it and then we'll move on you. Decide the best thing to do as well. That's an eye thing so I'll go see dr totally and and they go wait a minute. You can't see a little out of your eye and they kind of go wait a minute. They try to commute you right and they have their little inside there. Hey right and Johnny's looking for a stethoscope or something exactly. Oh my God okay this woman having a heart attack. Is She going to die in my office. She was totally freaking yeah so I said I'm not going to go to the emergency room because this has been happening for two weeks. I'm not having a heart attack. I'd be dead at my office. If that's what was happening but I'll make <hes>. She told me she sent me to unlike optic neurologists or something like that brain guy he does. I stuff <hes> so I went there. He did the tests. I did not have multiple sclerosis but he said be you have optic neurologists from stress. What's Your Life Life? You know my okay Nah. I definitely have a stressful life so the optic nerve in my brain the big nerve right behind your I had swollen and so it locks vision sheesh and so it took a took a took a long time for me to get my vision back in that I <hes> <music> but long story short. I knew I need to change my life. I was like okay. Something has to change so I did. What any woman does I think when she wants to take her health back and I joined a gym of course you know 'cause like what what do you do if you don't know you know and so I joined a gym? I start working out. I believed if I just lost the way that you know my health would improve and I can't even I can't even tell you how many times women have said this to me on calls like when I first meet them <hes> May we women have been taught somehow somewhere along the line that if we just lose weight that everything in our life will improve so I believed that so I went to the gym and I'm very focused and very very driven. I'm good patient good student. Whatever your overachiever like Jim stuff now everything yes so now I've added in eight BOOT camps a week? They have me doing eight boot camp so we with additional cardio on top. They have me on a twelve hundred calorie diet. That's no fat no carbs. It's just like chicken Broccoli really extreme it was super extreme extreme up and I was good at it but I'm under eating and over trading so I'm binging on the weekends dance. which now I understand is a biological like if you're starving your body will compel you to eat but I felt like a failure? I'm like what's wrong with me. Why can't I get this eating under control over eating on the weekends and I do so good during the week <hes> and really during the week as good as because I worked so much? I just didn't have time to really eat so <hes> so you know I do. I lost a bunch of weight. Despite the fact that I was binging I was a trim state ever been and but my health just got worse and worse than at this time I'm Ben Maller late twenties so eventually I get to my thirties I when I turned thirty my my hormones change I started to have some thyroid stuff in and now I put on even more weight and now all the exercise and stuff doesn't work so now I'm bigger than I was before. I lost the way and nothing I was doing was working and I had more diagnoses than I can remember to list. You like it's bonkers like the electrical system in my stomach stops working. I was diagnosed with gastro processed where you're going to be liquids the rest of Your Life so so I'm eating liquids it for eighteen months. Oh goodness <hes> so gossip. What sort of liquids did the have you on well? They would've put me on a sugar diet it so gossip breezes is like I it is not fun and I for people who get diagnosed with that. It's a really scary diagnosis because you can't digest food and so if you google the the nutrition plan it's all sugar. Even the mayoclinic gets like Vanilla Pudding Tapioca pudding all teens and the only variety in your diet is what soda you're going to have that day right and I was like I'm GonNa have type two to diabetes in one year. If I eat like this that was like that just sounds crazy doesn't it I know but the reason they do. It is because the the stomach literally doesn't digest need something that just disintegrates in the stomach otherwise otherwise you get like are you can't handle fiber at all no and so you get a tube in your side and you inject your food and that's one thing and then the other thing is <hes> the he can get these electrical pacemakers <hes> it's it's. It's so a such. It's not I just feel for folks who struggle with that so I found this woman great for anybody out there who knows somebody who struggles gastro processed. Just a great site called living well with gastro process. That woman helped me so much. I'm so grateful awful for her little website but I ended up doing something a little different so I the row I chose to take was just green juicing and that worked for me. It was no we'll juicing work. Yes it worked for me. Does it work for everybody. I don't know I just know me and so green juice every day right eighteen months later. I didn't have gastropod recess right then so that's Donald I on the movie. What was it the juice juice use reboot yeah? It's like a big big big fat fat. What is the guy from Australia? That's we both know him and we're both struggling. Remember his name for the life of me. Oh Guy that's hosted juice guy. Yes Joe Right so I did. I use a lot of his books to you. That was cool. I did a juice reboot way back when to how do you really great. It was hard but I mean yeah. It was really really great. I mean I ended up selling my juicer after I did a couple of juice reboots but it was fun I mean definitely like like the good side of cleanse. That's what I would call that yeah totally a right. It's a how long did you juice eighteen months. Oh whole now that would be a long time but I suppose it just becomes normal in that Matt length of time yeah you know I hired eating disorder coach so and the reason I hired her a it was great because I discovered they had eating disorder. It was like what we not. Everybody eats to cope with life so that was a thing that was really like a blessing in it <hes> as I I learned that I actually had a disorder like that not that binging is actually not a healthy mechanism but it's so common in our culture right that you know it so that was good but the reason I hired her is because you kinda go a little batty. When you don't chew food they chew food and Yeah I can tell you the story of just when I did my I didn't to jute two or more well to start with? I did too juice reboots uh-huh and the first one it was kind of <hes> the light version where you have food most of the time Yup and then the more extreme version was I want to say what was it it was a seven Sunday reboot and and there was three days in there where your juice only okay so those juice only days are really hard.

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"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

10:56 min | 3 years ago

"jean bell" Discussed on Vroom Vroom Veer with Jeff Smith

"Beer and welcome show. How's it going? It's so great. I'm so excited to be here. I love your show so much. Oh that's awesome. Thank you so you are at being bad ass. Dot Com love that by the way so talk a little bit about what you got going on over there being banned to ask dot com that you're most excited about today man what I'm most excited about today. I'm somebody has to be that way because the thing I'm always passionate about is really helping women especially entrepreneurial women see that there are enough right now in every aspect of their life that's the thing that lake lights me up the most and <hes> some of the things that help have helped cows with over the years doing that is helping them see that they're you know he'll the relationship of food in their bodies being that's enough and the the space I'm going into now because I feel lake the same energy with which we do one thing is the energy with which we all things and the thing that I most excited about right now is really helping <hes> entrepreneurial women raise their rates and believe that there enough to do like really high quality work and to turn on a level they've never earned before and that's been like a really fun. I wouldn't say pivot because again. It's all you are enough as the core of what I'm really excited about right yeah yeah I just started to see it so much. Helping all these entrepreneurial women he'll the relationship with food and their body and then seeing them quadruple their income in the work. We're talking about food. Their body and I'm like man. I'm raise talking about the money that's awesome so that's what I'm excited about right now. It's a really good theme the Enough Yeah Yeah. I'm really that I think that'll take you all the way to the end of your life and you won't you won't reach the end of that little knit you are enough can keep going. No No. You'll die before you get to the bottom of that niche so good for you get boring. Thank you yeah. I feel that way too especially. You know I'm thirty eight and I and I've worked with a lot of gals most of my market. I would say as thirty five to sixty but what I what I'm realizing now is working with a lot more women. I didn't even realize until the other day when I looked back and was really looking at everybody's age. Most of the women I work with in their fifth between fifty to sixty years old wow and so what I'm realizing is you know. I'm so grateful that I figured this out. Quote Unquote earlier right like third is jer that's early. That's yeah because you know I'm helping these women who have that same struggle struggle of believing God. We've just been carrying this around their whole life that they're not beautiful enough to fill in the blank or not enough or there's something wrong with them or they're broken or they need fixing and we just carry the stuff around and I feel like gets especially profound for Gals you know in their fifties or approaching their fifties because we really start to have this feeling like oh my gosh. I'm getting close to retirement. When am I going to feel good about myself? Am I gonNA you'll like I'm enough. I feel like that's a really critical time. It's like let's get this solve babe. Start seeing yourself with some love right right yeah and the thing is is. I think it's a good idea. I think you've got you've got lucky in a way that you kind of like start with breath the physical kind of like you're working with the body image issues and you know people getting people to love their bodies to start with that's going to happen. I think that's going to happen and when you get to the point where that sort of like sort it out. You know it's never finished but it's sorted you got you gotTA strategy to make that keep going right. I've got that momentum. That's that's that is when the funds going to start. I think for me right because it's like I can do anything I feel like this the just rolls into every other area of your life and you just start and then every challenge after that seems a lot easier. It's not like it's like okay. This is not going to be easy but I can do it is yeah. That's amazing so good for you. Thank you so fun and one of the big things to you that I get so excited about is <hes> when women were the women that I've been helping with their food and body stuff. They always come in thinking. I'll feel better when the result happens. I love most is being able to get them feeling better on day one or week on right and they realize oh the weight loss the food stuff. That's just the Cherry on the top. I feel so good at all of my life. It feels really good when you finally see and like no it in your like emotional body like you know it in your owns that you're enough right like the world opens up. It's so crazy amazing. It isn't okay well. Sorry we went on a little bit because I excited about this topic but we need to have good. That's good but we need to go back in time because this is room verbier. We have to get the betty. Wait a minute me Betty Jean Belt while better Dean Bell doesn't get more southern than the Betty Jean Bell Superhero origin story cool. So where did you grow up. I grew up in a very tiny town in the Appalachian Mountains Radford Virginia area tiny and very tiny they were <hes> four hundred people in my entire high school and like thirty estimate yeah it really fix my. I was like eighty six my graduating high school gloss. That's smaller than me. There was four hundred something in my graduating class. Oh Wow so yeah so I was in a small town on but not that small so it's like I guess a little bit smaller than where I grew up. That's okay he any tiny and for me. It always started so I've always been very driven very focused and I started seeing when I was a little oh girl on has four years old. I started seeing obscene whole opera yeah classical an opera four yeah I was using it was open. I loved it and I know it's crazy. When I look at I I was looking at a baby box? My mom gave me while back and there were compositions and they're like that I wrote and I'm like I don't even remember music theory. Now I knew so much theory when I was like seven it was bunkers offers end so it was really into it and I was my first operas and I was like eat and twelve children's off Ras and started and we have a college there and so we started I started studying in a college level and taking voice Jason Things like that. So you know long story short. I always knew what I wanted to do and I wanted to be an opera singer and I I studied my focused every day and <hes> when I was eleven my body started to develop and as every every girls does but I was one of the first school to develop and it got me attention from boys but unfortunately it wasn't the best attention knowing what I know now. I know that they had a crush on me. They just had a really really not great way of show or get oh so you know the mental start verbal abuse and like colonies fat and leaving really really damaging her whole things on my locker <hes> and there was there was just a lot of abuse physical abuse and verbal abuse from boys at school and I didn't no how to tell anybody and so being this <hes> so I never told anybody all through high school and all that I never talked about it but it it drove me I had to coping mechanisms my music and <hes> an eating became like a big coping mechanism mm for me okay now I would ovary stand at the fridge and binge but he didn't know that was a thing I thought that's just how the world dealt with stuff because you like watch TV and someone breaks up with their boyfriend. What are they do like in friends? You can see they're like eating a gallon of ice cream. That's right. That's what you do. You said this will help right exactly so that's what I that's what I thought was totally normal so I did that and <hes> and I just studied rehearse in practice <hes> and I always made these very early beyond made these correlations <hes> just for how my life was unfolding that if any man was ever GonNa love me I needed to look a certain way and <hes> if I was ever going to <hes> be safe I needed to be successful so like because I believe that in order to get away from what was happening that I didn't know how to talk to anybody about that. I needed to sing my way out of their you know once I go somewhere else then it'll all end so you having success all through high school singing yeah yeah and so I I made those associations very early and <hes> and so seventeen years old rolls around time to go off to school and my throat starts hurting and I talked to my voice teacher she sends me to physicians and he says you will never speak again. Let alone sing yeah these re you have really severe damage to your vocal cords <hes> and so I tell my voice teacher and she's like Oh hell no. You're getting a second opinion right right of course so she says what your research full in another state and <HES> and it turns out I had really severe acid reflux and they were doing some the leading research on acid reflux. This is nineteen ninety-seven so then like a test group for pilots sack lake. Everything's very early early in new with a severe reflux <hes> so anyway I do. I go to this place and they say <hes> okay. If you're ever GONNA sing again you need to not speak. We need to give your voice time to heal. We gotTA figure this out. I'm so I'm very committed so mute for eighteen months and there's no texting doesn't exist back then some carrying notebook around as a freshman year in college not talking to anybody was so difficult for a seventeen year old not wow yeah uh from seventeen eighteen. I didn't seek when I'M GONNA have my nuts. Oh it was so hard it was and couldn't make friends. I mean I made friends. It was really south though and I still hadn't dealt with all this emotional stuff that's thing going on my coping mechanism the now. I didn't imagine that's gone so yeah. You're probably binging more food than than you would. Normally totally I doubled down the food so of course I'm gaining weight still hadn't told anybody whether it happened growing up and so I had my first reconstructive surgery to.

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