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The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"And i love what you said if just like guiding her moment by moment because a lot of it for me and when i think of my daughter's is just helping them understand how they fit into the world and understanding that their value does not come from likes on instagram. They no one else needs to give you permission to feel like my single lowest barrier of success of the dead is if she knows that instagram does not determine her worth. I've won everything else. I can get a little bit wrong with me. I want that to be one hundred percent right because that is i feel like so much where girls go into the world and they look for that external validation and it just messes up the wiring from day one and it never comes if it does. It's usually always in the wrong way and ends up going in place that you don't want to go so the other part you're doing very well is you're actually giving her the model of what a man looks like and the other idea that i often talk about is data. The shotgun at the door is the dad that set the bar low. So like your bar is going to be extremely high and while you may not like the first one but the second one she brings home. She'll always come to the logical conclusion like yeah. This guy is not my dad. He's kitten to the curb and you just got to trust her. Because you knew how how you live your life lead like self leadership within yourself. And that she'll look at that model and understand how what does real masculine love like. 'cause you're the i love. She ever had in her life and she's gonna use that to model every other love that she brings into it exactly. And so that's why know our routine. I have her every friday night in every friday night. His daddy daughter date night and we always she just pick the restaurant we go to she gets to you know planet out and we do it We you know we go out to the restaurant..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"We asked her very simple life not much to be going material things and we asked her. If there's anything could have happened swirl to make your life better what would it be. She said nothing. I have everything i need and what she would really referring to. Was that sense community. She had when you looked around that community. All they were all brought in to help each other. Make sure each one of them. He's wage member of that community survived and was able to have everything they needed to raise their children. The grill do everything they need. I was just one of those amazing things experiences. That when i came back home as much like when you come back deployment you look around. You wonder why life the way that you've seen it and it's exactly up. You're like i mean i when i coach dad's i'll tell them like. Hey look over here. And then they're like. Wow was it always this. It looks like a frat party was in here last night. You don't really realize that because you're walking around with blinders on the moment. Someone says like that when you go down there and you see all that you're like you just you witness more of what we're holding back in life because you know what really is you're capable especially even does all this stuff you've done like i feel lazy just here sitting here listening to it and the one question i was thinking though as i think is almost probably your kryptonite. You slow down to be dad. Because dad is a moment by moment thing that you can't really they do like what's next because it's not about you. It's about them. So how does that convert as a dad. Yeah so the. The biggest piece of advice that i've gotten from from other dads is to be present in the moment. You have your children be present within. Don't you don't have your phone. Don't be on stock on instagram. Don't you know when when you have your child be with your child and so for me..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"I mean i. The gyms were closed So i just found myself out running around and then memorial daily forrest. Gump yeah legitimately. I got up. And i started running ident stop stop. I remember. it was memorial day of last year. just to kind of give myself a challenge. i did. Let's see the saturday of memorial day weekend. I ran a mile fast. I couldn't broke five minute bio for the first time in my life. I ran a four minute video a second on saturday which was awesome. I was excited about that. So the next day i was like well. That's see. i ran the fastest ever. Let's see if i can run the most miles i've ever done in my life. So that's sunday up doing fifty k. So little over thirty miles Just in the neighborhood. Just running. As far as i can around town here and did that in about four hours and sixteen twenty minutes. Something like that So pretty competitive time for fifty k. time So i was like okay. That's douse a lot of fun to. And then. I came the next day on monday. I did I don't know if you're familiar with the boob memorial day murph murphy birth that one day and to play destroy myself that whole weekend but it was It it it kind of it was something that during covid it was a challenge in the then i caught the the altar running bugging. I always worn myself. I would never do an ultra reysen. October of last year. I ended up doing a thirteen hour. Do as many laps around a three mile for trailers. You can in thirteen hours. And i finished in second place and ended up doing almost seventy thousand thirteen hours and So obviously i crossed the finish line. After that us said what's next so i had the almost the olympic gold medal mindset of like i've reached the top here. What do i do next. Yeah yeah so what's next..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"I was kind of a mess just mentally and physically and And so it took a couple of months and then kind of had a that. Wake up moment you know. One of my daughters said on the floor. She wants to play and and daddy's just a mess And and so. I remember going up in looking at myself in the mirror and just like attitude better. I have to figure this out. And you have to big yourself up and move forward and and from that point on i remember finding spartan race Near me which was kind of my introduction back into gidon physically fit and a shape again and then really just started having conversations are with people and started having seen a therapist and and talk it out doing those kind of things that that That helped me through and help me recognize that. I didn't have it all figured out math that i needed to to to not only work on the physical but also needed to work on the bench. So how old was your daughter in that moment. Because there's gonna be some irony here that were recognizing my own story. So i wanted to know how old she was. She was about to solo story. I was turning thirty. And i remember going into my daughter's bedroom one night and looking at her in the is she was sleeping and i was like. How can i lead you into your life. If i can't leave myself through mine exactly and it was a really crappy question and doesn't have any good answers. It's kind of a rock bottom type question. And the crazier part is used talked about having conversations which is something so level one point. Oh that we almost overlook something that can actually change us and for my story. Someone came into my life and gave me the question. If you want to result in your life you never had you to do something you've never done and for me. That was friends. And i was like. Why don't i have friends and that was like well..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"It brought to the surface of who you are exactly and so So started doing that. And then like two thousand nineteen again did and again more races and fall for more rate at war championship type races. Then than twenty twenty hit and It was one of those things where racist didn't cancel all over the world and nobody was doing anything and then So i started running a lot. I mean the gyms were closed So i just found myself out running around and then memorial daily forrest. Gump yeah legitimately. I got up. And i started running ident stop stop. I remember. it was memorial day of last year. just to kind of give myself a challenge. i did. Let's see the saturday of memorial day weekend. I ran a mile fast. I couldn't broke five minute bio for the first time in my life. I ran a four minute video a second on saturday which was awesome. I was excited about that. So the next day i was like well. Let's see. i ran the fastest ever. Let's see if i can run the most miles i've ever done in my life. So that's sunday up doing fifty k. So little over thirty miles Just in the neighborhood. Just running. As far as i can around town here and did that in about four hours and sixteen twenty minutes. Something like that So pretty competitive time for fifty k. Time so i was like okay. That's a lot of fun to. And then i came the next day on monday. I did I don't know if you're familiar with the bumble. Moyal day murph murphy. Birth that one day and to destroy myself that whole weekend but it was It it it kind of it was something that during covid it was a challenge and then i caught the the altar running bugging. I always worn myself. I would never do an ultra reysen tober of last year. I ended up doing a thirteen hour. Do as many laps around a three mile for trailers. You can in thirteen hours. And i finished in second place and ended up doing almost seventy thousand thirteen hours and So obviously i crossed the finish line. After that us said what's next so i had the almost the olympic gold medal mindset of like i've reached the top here. What do i do next. Yeah yeah so..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"The people in the military told you when you're running you gotta cross that finish line with nothing left to give. Yeah exactly exactly and i to do it not enough. Yeah i'm laying there on the ground over in the festival area after the race and just being kind completely spent at that point i had been one of the top things done my life. I mean race wise And and but i remember fallen in love with it at the same time like that feeling like that. I just exhausted myself and and had really push myself to the limit for where i was at that point. Not only just physically but mentally as well. I mean you go through that race and there's all there's times where like i was like. Why am i doing this. Why are you just hanging up this. Walk the rest of the way or something like that her. You know so so i i kinda fell in love with it and then i started doing more and more of those spar races racist. I started kind of travel around local Races that were around. And i found myself losing weight by training and getting better and better physical shape and then i started meeting. People out of these races at that has similar mindsets. You meet a lot of veterans. That do these kind of races. And you know what i started to find was not that not only was i kind of given the the the the physical side of me a therapy needed but also getting the the the mental relationships with other people that brotherhood and sisterhood. That kind of missing Likely craving for my time in the military i was finding like minded people that had goals and dreams in or were doing the same thing i was doing out there these races and so he started developing friendships and started beyond with a practice..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"Those first couple years were tough. 'cause i'm trying to fall in love with myself while still raising my daughter do all these other things and then i've been single for lack of better or for five years now and i think over that time it's it's really just become more of being her world always so it's much easier now than i think you're wasn't the very beginning when everything kind of started you whenever they hit the fan at the very beginning. Yeah we're definitely in a different time than we were even last year so raising two daughters. There's a couple of different things that i often think about. And so mine are six and four. So i've got one that we're i'm like the edge of the rnd lab and the other one the bottom of the lab so she gets to experience all the big lessons learned. It's kind of having those conversations. Like i do what i call bedtime talk. Were just sitting down and talking about the day talking about a story rehashing something that went wrong rehashing something right talking about my story or whatever it is because it like between like six and ten playground issues started trying to find popularity and the playground starts like life problems. Just kind of pick up the pace. Now they're their problems but them. This is the world this might as well be no different than you having a pile of emails to do. It's the same amount of anxiety and stress. And i love what you said if just like guiding her moment by moment because a lot of it for me and when i think of my daughter's is just helping them understand how they fit into the world and understanding that their value does not come from likes on instagram. They no one else needs to give you permission to feel like my single lowest barrier of success of the dead is if she knows that instagram does not determine her worth. I've won everything else. I can get a little bit wrong with me. I want that to be one hundred percent right. Because i feel like so much where girls go into the world and they look for that external validation and it just messes up the wiring from day one and it never comes is usually always in the wrong way and ends up going in place that you don't want to go so and the other part you're doing very well is you're actually giving her the model of what a man looks like and the other idea that i often talk about is data. The shotgun at the door is the dad that set the bar low. So like your bar is going to be extremely high and while you may not like the first one but the second one she brings home. She'll always come to the logical conclusion like yeah. This guy is not my dad..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"We asked her very simple life not much to be going material things and we asked her. If there's anything could have happened swirl to make your life better what would it be. She said nothing. I have everything i need and what she would really referring to. Was that sense community. She had when you looked around that community. All they were all bought in to help each other. Make sure each one of them. He's wage member of that community survived and was able to have everything they needed to raise their children. The grill do everything they need. I was just one of those amazing things experiences. That when i came back home as much like when you come back deployment you look around. You wonder why life the way that you've seen it and it's exactly up. You're like i mean i when i coach dad's i'll tell them like. Hey look over here. And then they're like. Wow was it always this. It looks like a frat party was in here last night. You don't really realize that because you're walking around with blinders on the moment. Someone says like that when you go down there and you see all that you're like you just you witness more of what we're holding back in life because you know what really is you're capable especially even does all this stuff you've done like i feel lazy just here sitting here listening to it and the one question i was thinking though as i think is almost probably your kryptonite. You slow down to be dad. Because dad is a moment by moment thing that you can't really they do like what's next because it's not about you. It's about them. So how does that convert as a dad. Yeah so the. The biggest piece of advice that i've gotten from from other dads is to be present in the moment. You have your children be present within. Don't you don't have your phone. Don't be on stock on instagram You know when when you have your child be with your child and so for me..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"Than twenty twenty hit and It was one of those things where racist didn't cancel all over the world and nobody was doing anything and then So i started running a lot. I mean the gyms were closed So i just found myself. I'll just running around and then memorial daily forrest. Gump yeah legitimately. I got up. And i started running ident stop stop. I rubber. It was memorial day of last year. just to kind of give myself a challenge. i did. Let's see the saturday of memorial day weekend. I ran a mile fast. I couldn't broke five minute bio for the first time in my life. I ran a four minute video a second on saturday which was awesome. I was excited about that. So the next day i was like well. Let's see. i ran the fastest ever life. Let's see if. I can run the most miles. I've ever done in my life. So that's sunday doing fifty k. So little over thirty miles Just in the neighborhood. Just running. As far as i can around town here and did that in about four hours and sixteen twenty minutes. Something like that So pretty competitive time for fifty k. time So i was like okay. That's douse a lot of fun to. And then. I came the next day on monday. I did I don't know if you're familiar with the bumble. Royal day murph murphy birth that one day and to play destroy myself that whole weekend but it was It it it kind of it was something that during covid it was a challenge in the then i caught the the altar running bug and i always sworn myself i would never do an ultra reysen october of last year. I ended up doing a thirteen hour. Do as many laps around a three mile for trailers. You can in thirteen hours. And i finished in second place and ended up doing almost seventy thousand thirteen hours and So obviously i crossed the finish line. After that us said what's next so i had the almost the olympic gold medal mindset of like i've reached the top here. What do i do next. Yeah yeah so..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"Yeah i'm laying there on the ground over in the festival area after the race and just being kind of completely spent at that point i had been one of the top things done my life. I mean race wise And and but i remember fallen in love with it at the same time like that feeling like that. I just exhausted myself and and had really push myself to the limit for where i was at that point. Not only just physically but mentally as well. I mean you go through that race and there's all there's times where i was like. Why am i doing this. Why are you just hanging up this. Walk the rest of the way or something like that her. You know so so i i kinda fell in love with it and then i started doing more and more of those spar races racist. I started kind of travel around local Races that were around. And i found myself losing weight by training and getting better and better physical shape and then i started meeting. People out of these races at that has similar mindsets. You meet a lot of veterans. That do these kind of races. And you know what i started to find was not that not only was i kind of given the the the the physical side of me a therapy needed but also getting the the the mental relationships with other people that brotherhood and sisterhood. That kind of missing Likely craving for my time in the military i was finding like minded people that had goals and dreams in or were doing the same thing i was doing out there these races and so he started developing friendships and started beyond with a practice. What we talked about earlier just as conversations and talking to people. And then. And then i i remember by the end of that year of two thousand seventeen was that first farmers and december of that year..
The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"jason wood" Discussed on The Military Veteran Dad Podcast
"Moments to where i think you know my i remember speaking my axe. She was like what you know. What can you know how it was a couple years later. After that she said. Why couldn't i have made you as happy as you are now during our relationship and and really the the the the blunt answer to that was i anybody you could have done anything and it would not have made me happy because i could make myself happy. The relationship with myself was just so bad at that point in damage that that i until i could make myself happy and start identifying with who i was and using those words and pronouns that describe yourself the adjectives to describe yourself as the person you want to be. You know you're you. You can't lean on other people to try to do that and be the band aid oria so that's kind of where i was at no gain in in kind of just damaged myself in the could nobody could could have done anything at that point in my life to get a raise up and i knew i had to do so. And it's difficult to give something that you don't have for yourself in like in relationship and i've when i was looking in that mirror in that Relationship and changing those words there was something that hit me that you can't unconditionally love others until you. Unconditional love yourself but you actually have to love not just the good parts the good the bad and the ugly like you've got to find the love for three combat tours in iraq. You've gotta find the love for eleven years in the army. You've got to find the love for having your relationship with your biological daughters mom and like you have to find the appreciation that really recognize that. This all is who had become an. I had to go through all of that to get there. It's a it's it sounds like we just talked about in five minutes but that's four years of my life. Yeah exactly exactly. It's not overnight. And that's something. I try to describe to people is that transformation doesn't happen over a week timeframe it takes a lot of work. It's it's still to this point. It's every day You know how. Can i better myself. What can i do to help Be a better man and father to my my daughter. So it's it's an everyday thing it's never stops and to take that journey one step further this fall. I'm speaking at a keynote for. Stay at home dad khan so a bunch of big convention. Two hundred dads that are stay at home dads and then you can imagine already like rewire from purpose driven from work. The purpose driven as provider in your home like it takes a lot of rewiring and there's a lot of dads they can get lost in that same journey and there was aren't even veterans but like so many more men need that message of starting in the mirror leg. It's not just the veteran thing just kind of gets magnified because we got a lot more stuff to get through. Sometimes we can hit bottom faster because we're holding onto a lot more in the dam breaks allow quicker but man it's a it's it's such a big journey when you look in the mirror and be like what words you see because that's what that's the problem not anything else. Yep you're exactly right you so you do a lot of good things with running and that is something you use almost as like a former physical therapy on yourself. Tell us a little bit more about how running came into your life and what it does for you now. Yes so Like i said..
The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"jason wood" Discussed on The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"I like to call three for the road in in three for the road. That's where i ask three random yet thought provoking questions encouraging. My guess to answer in five words or less. So what do you say you're for. I think a man. Let's do this all right fantastic and by the way. My questions are not cookie cutters. Okay they are original questions customized for you based on your background and your profession. Okay and it's just a fun way to canada camp off the show all right so three for the road here. We go question number one up. In fact you know what yours is. A little different is structured. A little different. I don't know. I had. I had a bit of an imaginary Imagination epiphany as. I was writing this. Okay so here's what. I'm going to do man all right. I'm gonna give you a scenario okay. An event or scenario and based on that give us your interpretation of the ideal location the food in the mood for each scenario. Okay does that make sense and make sense. Do i still have five words or last or do i get anymore howlett out. I'll let it flow man. You go five keep going. Let it flow okay. Here we go ready. Yup number one you just received a promotion We're going out for fajitas and we're gonna sit outside and look at the mountains. And what was the third thing i had to do. I can't remember mood mood. Yeah i'm enjoy. I'm going to be happy. Beautiful beautiful fantastic. Well you knocked out of the park right number. Two scenario number to a close friend has just lost their pet. Rena grab some ice cream. Sit on a neighborhood bench. Just going gonna talk about it. And i'm just going to be open. I am just going to be receptive and listening to what they need to talk about. Very supportive awesome. Fantastic man all right question or question. Scenario number three to campus offer three for the road. You just finished an exhilarating. I can't even talk. You just finished an exhilarating workout..
The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"jason wood" Discussed on The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"How can the listeners connect with you learn more about you and your story and the awareness of men's eating disorder. Yeah so they can visit my blog. It's ortho rexha bites dot com and on the blog. I've got linked to the book that will be coming out. I've got information on ortho rexha itself since that's a little bit of a lesser known eating disorder. People don't know about. And i just trying to talk about men and mental health and eating disorders and specific One thing. I forgot to mention as i'm looking forward to a campaign coming up in june Since his men's health month Where i'll be kind of just doing a online social media campaign just showing that strongmen talk. 'cause that's one thing that i've really learned. Is that when you're honorable is when you're strongest and y'all have emotions we all have insecurities in. It's okay to share them because as soon as you share them they lose their power over you so i definitely recommend visiting the website and checking out more information on that as well as just going to be a really empowering campaign To to help people to help guys in particular Fight their battles that they need to fight. No that makes sense. Break those stigmas right. Yeah yeah yes. Sometimes they can be a huge huge walls so Wow jason man. I want to thank you so so very much for coming on the show. I really really appreciate you being here. Man yeah i. I really appreciate all that you're doing in just so you know you're an inspiration to all of us so thank you so much. It's my pleasure to be here tonight. Oh no you're too kind. Thank you man And i i wanna make sure all of you guys know that. We will have direct links to jason's website on the episode. show notes. All right so make sure you check the episode show notes for ortho. Rexha bites dot com jason woods website. All right so jason. We are now about to enter a segment..
The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"jason wood" Discussed on The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"When did that happen for you. Yes so for me. It was a couple months into recovery. I was Struggling with the thought of telling my friends of opening up to my friends and really being vulnerable and being people know. I had been battling for so long. I've that they would see me as a fraud or a liar. And i talked to my therapist about it and he gave me an assignment to write. My story has always been something i've been passionate about. He was like. Why don't you just write what you would like to say to them. Maybe just sum up your entire journey. So i wrote. This was about four pages long road out and i read it back to myself in that very moment that i gained self compassion for myself because i saw my journey from third party point of view and i realized the power of storytelling. At that time. I thought there aren't many voices out there like mine when people will ask me who who is a role model. I've looked up to a male with an eating disorder. I don't have any because there's not very many people that are talking about it. And i realized that in my story impacted me so much could making other people's lives as well and i just kind of wanted to get my voice out there to tear down the stigmas stereotypes that yes eating. Disorders don't fit a certain mold and mental illness does not just hit one. Demographic that it's wide reaching it doesn't matter who we are rican be impacted by these things and it was just the power storytelling. They're just compelled me to Take my story public into hopefully help others. I tell you storytelling can inspire and change. Lives without a doubt. Yeah sure can so jason you have a journal and on the inside cover you have written and i quote trust. The process embraced the process and enjoy the process. Can you please break that down for the listeners. Favorite thing. I love even just hearing back. It's just hours me in inspires me so much so at the start of recovery. I you know a lot of people out there. I made the first appointment with my therapist. And i'm like this guy won't be able to help me at all aired beach just one of those things that the celebrities go to use so that they can complain about having too much money or something like that so. I was really doubtful when i made that. I appointment and Added he gave me breathing techniques to kinda work on my ocd into work on my anxiety. Not up there is no way in the world. This is gonna work. And i told myself at the end of that session. Was jason. just trust him once. He's doing what he thinks is best for you so at that moment i was like i've got to trust the process. I've got to just completely blindly. Trust this guy. Even if i don't completely agree with what he's saying and ige later i had my check in with him and things were completely different overnight. I could see..
The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"jason wood" Discussed on The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"And now this most recent kind of Really exacerbated eating disorder because at that point it was at its height and he just acknowledged the pain and somewhere in that moment it got real because it sunk in it hit me that there was a lot going on and it was greater than me. It was if i'm being. I needed help for and i will always remember that because it happened on the fourth of july so that was truly my independence day because that was the day that i was able to break free from the chains that i had been tied to you for so long. Amazing amazing my gosh. You know Sometimes just the most ordinary of events or tasks you know can be Such a a a revealing A revealing message to ourselves about ourselves right and having those who are close to lessen our lives to be there and to you know not not just know what we're going through but feel what we're going through Vacuum make all the difference in the world. It really can so let me ask you this. There is a pattern. At least i think or i feel. There's a pattern in a lot of our lives where something you know. Something's like The ups and downs of your weight or the ups and downs finances are. There's a connection or an association between those ups and downs Our mindset or are mental state. Our moods right. It affects us. Psychologically like This notion i guess when someone loses a lot of weight or they're very fit. They feel good about themselves right. So psychologically you know there's a positive impact and then someone who starts gaining weight You know they start to feel inadequate feel Out of shape Maybe not even attractive. I mean it depends. Everyone's different right. So here's the thing i mean. I really believe that it is healthy too. You know if you're more fit or you become more financially independent you know that that should be a uplifting right You know so..
The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"jason wood" Discussed on The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"In your earlier years absolutely absolutely it was I think a lot of it was a it comes with that. Hurt perfectionist overachiever. There was anxious feeling that i ought to be doing more. I'm not enough. As soon as i receive that diagnosis last year and come to terms with everything. I looked back on my past and i realized it had been there the entire time. I've been an anxious person the majority of my life. It was just never diagnosed. It was never recognized and it's the same with ocd not. He's had to be a certain way. Everything is very regiment oriented with me number going on vacation with my family. And i would put together an itinerary. That was judy minute. Letting everybody know where they had to be and when they had to be there and those were all things that you know. I thought i was just a little control freak. I didn't realize that it was a lot deeper than just wanting to organize things. Sure sure yeah While to the minute itinerary and you mentioned this was like four family trip for just regular family vacation. So i must have been a lot on your take on it. Oh i bet you word. Jason man i bet you were so and i'll be honest with you. I am not Very familiar or or too familiar with ocd You know. I guess. I don't know to some degree i kinda think i am. I'm very routine oriented. And i i kinda i don't i'm not saying i'm pointing the blame but i'm kind of just attributing that to Being raised military right. Both my parents were in the military. And there's a certain way that i fold my close. There's a certain way that you know I store my shoes and all this sort of thing right so what. Here's what i'm getting at With ocd. okay at at at its surface to me and please correct me. If i'm wrong but at surface to me.
The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"jason wood" Discussed on The Road to Rediscovery: A Life-Learning Journey for Growth
"I would walk into a room. And i was the fat kid in the bullies at school made that very well known so i just kinda i think the seed was planted at that point just right there in the husky section of the clothing store letting me know that something was up in that when i started to become very self conscious about what i ate in how i looked. Gotcha man i see an you know. Kids can be cruel as we all know and learn in you know with our peer pressure and you know even if we have little ones and see what they go through through their formative years was that is it also fair to say that that was maybe an introduction in a negative way to labels the meaning of of of labels. I mean like you said you walked in the room. You're the fat kid right. Yeah that point. That's when i realized that on your determined based upon the way you look or the way that you behave and people lose sight of who you really are you're just signed a label and that's who you are. You have no personality at that point. You're nothing more than that label and for me. That was very difficult to understand it. Such a young age and it kind of coincided to with being a man and growing up with losing my dad it eleven years old. I didn't feel like. I had the label of being a man. So i felt like i was always trying to prove my masculinity and inc that just really also fueled the eating disorder in the the self doubts in the insecurities that i developed at a young age. Yes yes i gotcha. Wow okay so From what. I understand you've entered weight watchers like in your mid teens. Early teens late teens. Yeah yeah so. I was sixteen. It was right after. I started to learn how to drive. I was on the way to weight watchers. Gotcha now i think you may have mentioned. On on your blog you know having the overachiever mentality and and and having a mindset of really just you know adhering by rules Whatever the guidelines are following not just following the guidelines but shattering the guidelines. In being really vigilant about you know your routine in whatever endeavor you explorer right so So you did achieve some success We initially right through weight watchers. Yeah i did. I like i just had to push myself. One hundred percent was never enough and had to be one hundred and ten percent I remember just right away. A rate watchers when i was in those meetings and i we'd here just yet praised in the claps and it it was just such such a feeling that i wanted so i sat there on like i wanna lose this weight and i wanna lose asked so i think people maybe it will get me value. Maybe it will give me meaning and give me something to feel good about myself and it was successful. I lost a lot of weight and The problem was i hid it I acted like i was following plan but the whole time mistaking into the extremes with lots out point it was all about eating a certain number of points every day. Well i figured out that. If i shaved off a couple points here and there the pounds would melt away faster Hit behind the excuse..