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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on Parcast Presents

Parcast Presents

03:47 min | 3 weeks ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on Parcast Presents

"Attorneys Dick Garin and Jack Zimmerman were allowed in to speak to the branch Davidians on April first, hoping to convince Karesh that he had a valid legal defense against any charges brought against him. They advise the branch Davidians to stop talking to law enforcement, but the silence didn't last. The Garrisons Zimmerman told the FBI that their clients with leave Mount Carmel after Passover but crushes. Passover didn't directly correspond with the Jewish High Holy Days on April. Sixth Schneider called the FBI to tell them that Passover would start at sundown and last until April thirteenth. During this time, the branch Davidians would repeatedly attempt to go outside the compound as part of religious practice, but the agents at the parameter often through flashbang grenades that sent them scrambling back indoors April fourteenth arrived at the FBI. Small hope that crush would make good on his word. But instead he made a pronouncement. He had finally been given permission by God to write down his interpretation of the seven seals. When this work was done an handed over to the theologians, he said I will come out, and then you can do your thing with this beast. He estimated that the writing process would take about two weeks. He excitedly called the negotiators to preach to them for over five hours. The siege was costing. The FBI, approximately one hundred twenty eight thousand dollars, a day and conversations became more heated in Washington when the flow both Messner and President Clinton had been expecting petered out, rumblings about a last resort began those rumblings met resistance from New Attorney General. Janet Reno who liked. The FBI had inherited this mess each time, the F. B. I. proposed military intervention. She asked them why they couldn't wait. Lives had been lost already, and there were innocent children inside the building to her and to President Clinton. It was too great a risk to ignite a violent confrontation, but the FBI commanders had a piece of information that would change her mind Kathy Schroeder. Schroeder had told agents that when she'd gone to say goodbye to David. He'd been sitting in bed with a young girl Mark Bro had told the Waco tribune-herald that these kinds of sleepovers fell into the old testament concept of Abbas. Shag were an elderly King David took young maidens to bed with him to keep him warm. It was classic grooming behavior, getting the child used to the idea of being close to an adult man before pushing her boundaries further as a State Attorney for Dade County Florida. Reno had made a name on her tough prosecution of suspected child molesters, and the idea that Karesh was still abusing children held significant weight with her finally she relented. And so the tear-gas plan the plan the HR had been working on since February twenty eighth was set into motion. Jeff Amar asked Byron sage to speak over the PA system as the armored vehicles closed in just slowly pump in the tear gas at five fifty nine am on April nineteenth nineteen ninety-three sage put in a call to Steve, Schneider the man he'd been speaking with almost daily for nearly two months telling him that the FBI was about to insert nonlethal tear gas into the compound. Schneider hung up abruptly and rush to tell the other branch. Branch Davidians to put on their gas masks. Sage attempted to call the compound again, but one of the c. e.,.

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

04:21 min | 5 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"This morning think twice about speeding through that yellow light Saint Louis as mayor still debating whether or not to bring back red light cameras this is Kevin Killeen it is saying Louis mayor Lyda Cruisin facing what could be a tough reelection battle would red light cameras coming back helper or herder I received read like tickets last time we had those and and I wasn't so thrilled about them but I do know that we do need to slow down traffic and we need to try to curtail the red light running that we have now Kristin says her staff is still looking at proposals that have come in from red light camera companies if they do get a new system it would have to identify the driver that was the legal issue that prompted the Missouri Supreme Court last time to throw out red light cameras given calling solutions these radio came what carjackers could face life in prison if they used a real or fake gone under a mystery house measure that still had some Kinks to work out this agreement was whether to impose the potential of a life sentence for hijacking if the hijacker was using what only appeared to be a deadly weapon St Louis coloration of dog and you can use the example there people incarcerated right now who rob banks with a BB gun which could not actually hurt anyone and they didn't intend to hurt anyone but those people right now under a robbery statute are lumped in with the folks who actually have a weapon who actually harm someone who shoots someone and that just does not make plain common sense but on the other side supporters argued that for the victim the emotional trauma is the same from the state capitol Philbrook St Louis's news radio KMOX as KMOX reported yesterday the Democrat who narrowly lost to Steve Stanger in the last primary for county executive is running again mark one of ani now tells came Alexis tired of young people leaving town for better jobs in the feeling that Saint Louis is slipping really over the course of my lifetime I have seen on this move from having your cities like San Francisco and Boston to trying to compete with Wichita and Omaha and as a practical matter I think that is quite acceptable the sixty four year old businessman and political newcomer lost by one percent of the vote to Steve staggering the August twenty eighteen primary for county executive Stanger went on to plead guilty to federal corruption charges and is now in prison this time around monophonic will face to other Democrats incumbent Dr Sam page and Saint Louis county assessor Jack Zimmerman a potential tax break for a hotel in sunset hills is drawing fire from at least one local lawmaker all the women debate we're says the proposed property tax break for the hotel on Lindberg next to Helen fitzgerald's can't be justified to blight this area which is what would what we're asking for in this ordinance that we'll have a brand new hotel and arguably the most successful bar in Saint Louis county it just seems to be wrong headed and sets a dangerous precedent for any other developer coming to the city that would ask for the same treatment part of the plan the new days inn hotel would continue to pay property taxes based on twenty nineteen levels before the improvements are made Babel says homeowners are not getting property tax breaks and she can't see why a business should at the expense of the city the fire district in the Lindbergh school district the sunset hills board of aldermen schedule to discuss the plan further at its next meeting which is the second Tuesday in March St Louis since please many of you some of you saying yeah with their credit cards Chris lighted with SeatGeek says prices to get into the battle hawks home opener are leading the XFL seems like on average the average XFL ticket sign somewhere between sixty and seventy five dollars and then you look at these games in Saint Louis that are coming up and you know they're in the nineties up into the hundreds so really seems like the St Louis market seems maybe exceptionally excited about the XFL in fact he says battle hawks tickets are more expensive on average then rams tickets were sixty five dollars then verses one hundred now of course that's not an exact comparison since the ram sold every seat in the dome including the cheaper nose bleeds lightness curious to see how the XFL sustains fan interest especially if there's a year to it's almost time the.

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

08:58 min | 5 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"Up a little bit later mark marks a volley is announcing he's back in the race for accounting exactly ran last time around former Republican ran as a Democrat I think you can do that again Jack Zimmerman is in that race the county auditor will have a little more on that and he'll join us at two thirty five we have a big debate tonight on M. S. N. B. C. C. fighter made is in Sin City joins this afternoon preview CBS news correspondent how are you Steve I'm doing great in the as they call it the gambling Mecca I love that terminology for Las Vegas gambling Mecca I should have planned my trip a little differently but I am due out there on Friday truth be told and I mentioned this earlier I'm going out to see the Doobie brothers only problem is the Doobie brothers will not be there they had canceled their their shows out there temporarily because Tom Johnson their lead singer doesn't have a voice so I'm still gonna come out there but I guess I should have planted a couple of days earlier you're coming on Friday yeah Friday I'll be there Friday Saturday listen we have a caucus on Saturday and I'm hoping the caucus ends early enough that I can go to the heavyweight championship fight on section heights in Vegas what's the fight scene now I'm I'm free that was the night we're still see the duty so maybe I should head over that yeah it's Wilder and jury I don't know what the tickets are costing I'm gonna press credential as you might expect but yeah it did the last fight was quite quite a battle and we'll see what happens you know I've never been to a big fight like that I've been to one here in Saint Louis but nothing along those lines so that might be fun to do look might might buddy who's out there he's got tons of money I just tell the buy the tickets on StubHub yeah that's a good idea I'm old enough to have gone to some of the classic fights you know Hagler and Hearns and I was just a Mohammed a lead pipe Hey Corey on heavy weight fight with all the deal that there's nothing like it in Las Vegas so you actually saw Muhammad Ali in person I have a I interviewed Mohammed Ali a number of times I'm showing my age I hate to do that but because it's Mohammed Ali I will do it yeah he was a boyhood idol of mine ended up covering him and was in the number of his fights and interview them several times and I'll leave was obviously the unique character of our times what was Z. the documentary that was out about the rumble in the jungle that was just fed yes when they were kings only working losing your local movie and listen our leaders are come across always that well in that documentary on Lee was doing some names stuff to George foreman was psychological warfare because the telecast it was just boxing ability former stronger and younger and a lead used a psychological battle to beat him where I found moving by the time the movie came out Forman was pouring with I'll be to promote the film at that point Lee was already hit pretty hard with Parkinson's George foreman maybe one of the nicest human beings I've ever met very simple lever he's at peace with himself that was the most humiliating moment of his boxing career being beaten by a leak yet he's going around with all the touring with them a promoting him and the movie and the fight I added on this very movie how it's just one of those movies that it has stuck with me and I always recommend it to people really really amazing so let's talk about the rumble in Las Vegas tonight because he asks you don't look Steve as much of a political junkie as I am even these previous debates have been just too much for me from the standpoint you can't even hear what people are saying there's too many voices up there I would say this one tonight with Mike Bloomberg on the stage is probably must see TV or must listen to radio yeah listen on paper looks great we've been to bring back to sports events again sometimes you there's a big deal look for sports event a boxing match a football game sometimes it lives up to expectations sometimes it doesn't so going into this debate yes if your lives up to expectations this is gonna be something to see because we're going to have Bloomberg Michael Bloomberg on stage for the first time and guess what they're all going to some to some degree go after them Bloomberg knows that he knows with the attacks are going to be I don't think there's gonna be any surprise attacks on him how is he going to respond he's been able to rehearse the responses and was feeling very very very interesting is there any doubt at this point the Bernie Sanders would win the **** I or is this still something that's up for grabs are you you for sorry I I with the disclaimer that you never know I would say it's probably looks like it's tenders to win or lose right now he seems to have a substantive lead the the one thing I would say the whole home here in Nevada is notoriously sketchy sometimes it's accurate sometimes it isn't they they just don't have another regular polling tend to be confident with the polls that we see but the polls right now show Bernie Sanders with a fairly comfortable lead Joe Biden and Elizabeth one coming in two three but there's a significant gap between one and two yes Steve how does this caucus worked on center maybe I'll bust in one of these things and see it first hand instead of enjoying myself in Las Vegas as highly doubt and how is it different from what happened in Iowa well hopefully it's different in the sense that we get the results on same day as the caucus yeah but beyond that if they're they're very similar in many many ways you you have the people come in you have to reach a certain threshold at these caucuses to allow your candidate to continue being viable if your candidate is impossible you are then solicited recruited by the other campaigns that are still viable and get an eventual results so the I'm you know the the surprise I guess to me and this may certainly change after this week as we get closer to South Carolina and then super Tuesday is that they're a couple of these candidates are hanging in there that are not pulling well Elizabeth Warren certainly comes to mind so maybe expectations tonight what what fascinates me is they're gonna go after Bloomberg but they're also going to go after Bernie tonight because he's the front runner yes but maybe not as much as you would expect I think if the focus continues to be on on Bloomberg that may be as Bernie Sanders make it a bit of a hassle he won't be attacked as much warmer the flood when he was the one who comes under attack but tonight it's gonna be the newcomer who comes under attack but you listen it's two hours there's plenty of time to collect your both numbered answer and just maybe they can divide the debate first I would you go after Bloomberg the second hour you could after Bernie Sanders well it well I just think it's going to be a little bit easier because the field has been slightly with down here just to hear the the perspectives from each of the candidates so that this is a real important debate it could be I mean listen I was with a number that I was with for the candidates yesterday they were in the number of places I was able to spend some time with them people like judge Joe Biden and even Bloomberg they're going to go after I would think Bernie Sanders on his social programs on the spending will they bring up the S. words socialist perhaps perhaps not maybe in the past you but they're gonna raise concerns like is your lucky ball of movies movies goals and he has which she very noble what we'd be realistic the last of the term realistic I think may come up but a bit in this debate tonight so I think Bernie Sanders there will be time to go after him the Bloomberg again he is the he's the one we're all looking at he's in the spotlight what will we do can you do what you know that's the big question is a newcomer can you do well in the debates yes and in the debate since two thousand finally ran for mayor for the third time and we'll see once distant issue with him since you haven't been able to pay these other candidates this is their non debate they're pretty used to it there's a reason they have spring spring training baseball you know Mike trout's a great player but he needs spring training to get into during form is Michael Bloomberg gonna be a debate forms that will see Saddam and I'm not gonna ask you to pick a winner tonight that would be improper as a journalist but I'm gonna ask you to pick between the bronze bomber and the gypsy king for Saturday night while can you do that you can S. is that who I don't even know if these are the guys at the I don't know why I don't know if your eye on that while there if that's what you said was right while there if you're not yet devised a Wilder and Tyson fury so I I just learned this because I Google it while there the bronze bomber fury the gypsy king yeah I'm gonna go with with Tyson fury mostly as have bass saying five Wilder is the champion WBC champion so this is a heavy weight championship fights and other it's not quite the flavors Mohammed Ali boxing but in on you take what you can get I might sneak into that on Saturday night we'll see thanks Steve I appreciate your time this afternoon so I say it yes blink one eighty two there it is it's back thank you Steve okay take care that's just a little.

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

01:34 min | 5 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"August another Democrat challenging pages county assessor Jack Zimmerman Montel body lost a stinger in the democratic primary by about eleven hundred votes well Roger brand is in the steeple traffic center came X. news time seven ten how are the highways look in this morning well pretty good I mean what if you'd normally have you run a lot of the area they result means of your west bound to seventy of bats back to kind of a normal really just a little slow but on the whole ferries eastbound I was seventy just some slow traffic approaching like singles for Brian road a little busy again from Katie are used to seven in the rock or the actual the heaviest of that's a trip in the sunshine there I guess little more intense south of sixty one for one full parkway after we have a rollaway through highway K. you've got some congestion and again in pockets and through our courts and toward one forty one it's a little slower after that it's just a little by the late replay funeral that revealed that point was prosecute for him to do because we will have a north wind to seventy bar down from fifty five to watch us on very approaching forty four Manchester couple more slow spots these by forty four to two seventy okay great of northbound fifty five one forty one all the way to downtown no problem just a little slow major ramp on the westbound forty four in a construction zone and then on the older side there's an accident on the shoulder on sixty four near the S. seventy split westbound so delays from twenty fifth street to that point in west of the Cambridge works on its property barber across a proper visual better to begin the bread is doing pretty well right now accepted seven twenty from Stiefel traffic summer sunshine this morning giving way to some clouds a brisk and chilly day high forty two colder tonight low to mid twenties with mainly cloudy skies morning clouds giving way to some sun a breezy cold feeling day tomorrow real feels teens and.

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

13:45 min | 7 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

"Psych central podcast and here are your host Jack Zimmerman and gave Howard. Hello and welcome to this week's not crazy. I would like to introduce my co host Gabe who you may not know also twilights as a Santa Claus and I would like to introduce my co-host Jackie Zimmerman who I just realized had multiple sclerosis she always said that she had Ms. And I just assumed that it stood for Microsoft by the way she described it as horrible. Oh that was terrible bowl. It's funny it's really not that funny but you know what we'll go with it and both of I forgot to say you are bipolar. I have depression. So we'll just throw that one out there as well. Yeah and and to be fair. I am bipolar and you are depression. I am I am I am. I'm a little rain. Cloud with eyeballs wandered around raining on people. I love it. This tweak Gabe. We're talking about sex. Let's talk about sex baby. Let that was my first concert for the record. I was eight salt and pepper. That is not salt and pepper this. I'm thinking if somebody else. Wow why should that. We're leaving really the net in hard. Actually that just became the outtake I was thinking of. I WANNA sex you up by color me bad. Oh my God you went let from a group of two strong powerful black women to an awful group that nobody remembers him. You're pushing it good plush anyway. Okay this week we are talking about sex and specifically hyper sexuality. And there's this notion that sex and hyper sexuality are the same the thing and they are. I mean they have things in common but it's a little bit like describing like a light spring rain and a hurricane as the same thing. There's there's a world of difference and I don't think people really understand that. I think that I don't understand that. I'll be candid that this is not a thing that I have experienced experienced and honestly all that I know. Is these celebrities in the news to get caught cheating on their wives and they claim hyper sexuality and is that true. Like what point do you claim like. I'm a terrible person who's cheating on my wife and or I have this actual addiction to sex. So there's a a couple of things that I WANNA point out there i. This is where it gets really tough right to say to somebody. I don't believe you when they say that they have an addiction or a mental illness. Like that's dangerous rate. It's dangerous. I don't know that I wanna live in a world. Where when somebody says? I'm having a mental health crisis racist or I'm addicted and I need help. We WanNa say oh bullshit you just got caught and now you're trying to weasel out of it okay. So let's talk about at this. Let's help me understand this but also maybe helps people out there who are feeling maybe that they are living living in the hyper sexuality round but don't know it or don't know what to do about it. How do you know you have like an addiction to sex? And you're not just somebody who really really enjoys sex so full disclosure. I've had hyper sexuality. I had hyper sexuality for a long period of time. I'm also somebody somebody with a high sex drive. Who enjoys having a lot of sex and let me tell you the biggest differences between those two things wanting to have a lot? A lot of sex is very enjoyable. Sex Is Nice we should just say it like it is sex is nice. I like having sex. People like having sex hyper sexuality ability is not nice. It's horrific. It's an addiction. It's a compulsion you have to do it. There is no choice choice. It has to be done. It has to be done enjoying. It is not even a factor in hyper sexuality. It's it's all about completing the act the end. That is a sincere youth because it sounds like it takes this really fun thing and makes it really unfunny and I would imagine that can have some pretty negative effects on your life you can have very negative effects is on everything around you rate. Let's go back to your celebrity example one of the things that we noticed like in the celebrities who get caught and then they have the addiction. They've had hyper sexuality as one. They're always men. We've never heard about females having hyper sexuality or addiction in the public space and and that's not realistic women do in fact suffer from hyper sexuality that's like being number one rate thing number two after they get caught right you look back at their pattern and it's always like high end scotch right. It's a little bit difficult to be addicted to alcohol when somebody offers you a beer. You're and you're like no no no no I'll wait I'm going to wait for the high end Scotch and then when you get caught drinking the high end scotch like Oh my God. I'm an addict will be. You went days at a time without drinking taking while pursuing high end Scotch and then when you found high end Scotch. Yeah you locked yourself in the bar for the weekend but then you were cool for or another couple of weeks like this is a pattern that like doesn't jive in addiction circles but we're kind of accepting it as the examples also of hyper sexuality and these are some things that we have to be careful of right because we tend to think of hyper sexuality as having a lot out of lake really good sex. This is where I'm gonNA burst your bubble. And Freak everybody out hyper. Sexuality often looks like chronic masturbation. Well I'm learning so much about you. Gabe it's a thing. It's uncomfortable right but Jackie be honest and I'm not trying to put you on the spot until this moment. Did you honestly believe that. I didn't masturbate. Is that something that you think about the world when you look out at the world. Are you so naive that you're like no. Oh nobody masturbate. S- we only make love to our partners and dedicated Reno. Nobody believes this. Nobody believes this yet. For whatever reason everybody thinks this is true. Even though they know that it's not true and that sort of ware hyper sexuality causes a lot of problems it butts up against the end what we actually know and what we've convinced ourselves as true what we actually know is that people like sex people have a lot of Saxon that people desire sex. What we want to I believe is that sex is only done in a committed and loving relationship and only for the purposes of procreation and putting another beautiful child into the world? It's nonsense nonsense. It's all nonsense but it persists and it makes people who suffer from hyper sexuality feel awful so as someone who has not experienced this I find this to be fascinating and I have so many questions about it and what it means in your life and your relationship in all of these things so can I just like rapid fire questions at you. Hit Me hit me. We have a podcast. You know that right okay. So someone who is experiencing hyper sexuality. Are we talking doc in like daily hourly what would quench the hyper sexuality. Thirst nothing nothing. It's going to be a little bit different for everybody so so for me. Twenty seven times in one day didn't do it. And those twenty seven times were comprised of partners sex workers and Masturbation Asia and at the end of the day. I did sleep like I was able to fall asleep but when I woke up the next day some you know twelve thirteen fourteen hours later. I don't quite remember how long I slept upped. Yeah I was right back at it but is this like other addictions whether it be to like drugs or a food even where it is all you you think about your planning the day. You're having a fixture planning your next one like you were saying. It is all encompassing consuming. All of your thoughts. Yes yes it is the reason that you are alive and you are willing to do anything to meet the need while I was in the act of satisfying. Just fine hyper sexuality. I was thinking about how I was going to do it again. While I was having sex I was trying to figure out who I was going to have sex with next. I would masturbate rebate on the way to having sex with somebody it was uncontrollable. I've quit jobs. I've spent ridiculous amounts of money. My wife left me because I had a symptom of an illness. And that's something that's worthy of talking about two like isn't it. You know in sickness and in health like could you imagine if I had cancer when she left me because of a cancer symptom but back to the celebrities. People think that it's bullshit and there's no test I can't prove it can't be like no. No no I cheated on you because I had hyper sexuality. Look here's the blood work. It sounds like an excuse and I want to be very clear. I don't blame my first wife for leaving me at all idle left to be too. It's that that misunderstood but I wanNA focus the audience on it is a symptom. It's an addiction. It's a compulsion. It's this horrible thing that's happening to you. You and as soon as it becomes public the response from everybody around you is to call you a bad person and leave which means they're probably not showing up with any so help well. I would argue that the general response to any addiction honestly. Yeah I mean not many people handle those situations very well so in this a scenario with your first wife for with anybody anybody in your life really. How do you explain this to people? It's very difficult to explain something that you don't fully understand in in the throes of hyper sexuality. I didn't know I completely agreed with my wife. I was a bad person who cheated on her the end. Is this something that you talk to a therapist about or is this self diagnosed. I think that all originally self diagnosed right. There's a reason that you go to the doctor. You think something is wrong and then you ask the doctor to fix it when we're talking about like physical things. It's a little easier. I'm having a headache. I'm too tired. I have this rash. I want to go away in. Mental Health. WERE TRAINED BY SOCIETY TO DEAL WITH IT ourselves. I'm sad man up. I'm anxious. Don't be a Wuss. I'm manic calm down. Why you act in this way when I was having all of this sex? This is my favorite line on this whole podcast. I'm telling you right now. I wasn't just having a lot of sex. No no no no no. I was sowing my wild oats. BARF and that's what I I believed. I believed that eventually I would get my shit together and stop also not for nothing young Banik Gabe who felt like he was king of the world having a lot of sex especially with a lot of different women. Yeah it made me feel powerful and mania made me feel powerful. It's weird weird even me. Who knows the horrors of hyper sexuality still thinks man? I wish I could get a fraction of that back middle-age blows rose and this is where it's uncomfortable right because some of it seems like a talent that I want to be a man in Brag up but most of it it is is a horror show..

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

10:18 min | 7 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

"A psych central podcast and here are your host Jack Zimmerman and gave Howard welcome to the not crazy podcast. I'd like to introduce my co host. Jackie Jackie who not only lives with depression but has not seen die hard. Are the two connected. It's your decision and I'd like to introduce my co host escape who lives with bipolar his wife Kendall and has also never seen the movie now and then and I don't know if that's like a generational thing but that was a a pivotal movie in my youth. Nobody's ever heard of it. Like I keep thinking that you say now in leaders the eighties candy because some for now and some for later unlike now where it's just offer now and then you wine no no if you have seen now and then dear listener please let us know comment somewhere right somewhere. Send gave hate hate mail about how he should see this movie with incredibly famous actresses in it. Sure sure I'll check my email. I'll check my email. Okay okay game. Sure Gabe you called me this weekend and you had a very serious tone in your voice and you said that you had something to tell me. What did you call me about out gave? I told you I ship the bed. You did indeed you did and I although very respectful of your situation was thrilled and that you called me because I am the person that people call when they have poop issues. The listeners are probably just now starting to realize that. I'm not using the phrase shit. The bed Ed. I actually shit the bed you did. You like literally and I'm not using literally figuratively. It was a traumatic experience to say the least I have a friend and who is a doctor. She was unavailable which left you and I promptly was like Gabe. This needs to be a podcast episode and I was promptly note because that's just not the kind of thing that you talk about polite society ever at all but I don't live in a place of polite society not to mention as we talked about on the phone. This is something that happens to people. Not just people like me with bowel diseases but this happens to a lot of people in my friends at Google. Lean of this. I was surprised to find out. Just how common this is. It has a million different names from nocturnal diarrhea persistent diarrhea a lot of lot of diarrhea. Of course we've all heard all of the commercials where they talk about a side effect of medication being anal leakage. The bottom Tom Line is is that while horrifying. It is almost routine how often the average person loses control of author bells. And we wanted to talk about this not to perpetually talk about shitting the bed over and over again so if you're listening insofar and you're like wow this episode sodas not going to be my bag hanging there because the reason we're talking about this is because it's so common the effect that it can have on your mental health after her words. And how you navigate that I make my living as people know on this podcast and on the central podcast and standing up in front of the people and talking about all of the things that happened to me because of untreated bipolar disorder. I wrote a book called mental illnesses. An asshole available on my website gave Howard Dot Com. Because I wanted to talk about all of the awful things that have happened to me because of mental illness and then this this thing happened and I immediately didn't WanNa talk about it anymore. I was like no no no. This is one step too far. This is not the kind of thing that you bring up. And that's really interesting to me because people who know my work and you can just do a Google and find. My work would think that I wouldn't be shy of anything. That's kind of how messed up. This is right even a guy like me who makes my living openly discussing things about mental illness and about health and about life if that other people want to sweep under the rug didn't want to discuss it but that's what makes us a great team you see because I shit the bed and promptly till the whole Internet about it and that's very interesting because the reason I called you. Jackie is because of a story that you published a long long time ago that that I found to be stunningly relatable even though it was pre- bed shitting and it was about how you were in a new relationship wasn't very old at all and I was sleeping over at his house and I should the bed in the middle of the night I was horrified. Fide I contemplated just leaving and never talking to him ever again because what is the alternative. It's actually talking to somebody and saying. Hey You guy who thinks I'm amazing. I just shit in your brand new bed by the way brand new bed. It was something I could not even dream a conversation and that was impossible to have so I stayed up all night. I cried and I cleaned the bed. I will come up and asked him to leave to the living room and contemplated all always. He was probably going to break up with me the next day because he was likely just as horrified as I was well he wasn't and he didn't and instead instead he broke up with me months later for a really not because of this and that's important to remember the first shooting. The bed of course is a well known phrase. It just means you you fucked looked up and I have used this phrase probably my entire adult life. I try to run an event and it doesn't go well. Shit the bed I get on stage stage and nobody laughs at any of my jokes. I'm pretty sure that if they had tomatoes they throw them. And I'm like you know. Gabe how did your shogo ash at the bed. It was awful. I I said it about so many people. Jackie we talk about language a lot on this show. You are you bipolar or are you a person. Living with bipolar words words matter we need to change our speech patterns and you and I have long held that look. We just need to talk about this because getting out in the open is what's important and I thought of the phrase shit the bed. Everybody uses it but the phrase Oh you shit. The bed is actually quite problematic. Potentially for people well like you. Jackie people like me now yet. We all do it not to make this show about language all of the sudden but it just shows you that there's just a ton of phrases. Ah have meaning that you don't realize until you realize I thought the phrase shit the bed was just a phrase it had no meaning and it had nothing to do with me now. I want you to know I'm still gonNA use the phrase the phrase the phrase is fantastic and I hope that when people come up to me and say hey gave you shit the bed telling me I did a bad job because I don't want this to be my thing but yeah just it's it's out there now it's out there now. This is something that happens to people. Will you're acutely acutely aware of it. Now right it's personal at this point whereas before it was just a phrase now. It's something that you actually have lived through. That's what made me feel like. This would be a good episode because I have lived this many times but as somebody who does not live with a bowel disease. You've experienced it now. Oh and I think a lot of people who listen to our show specifically those who take psychiatric medications also may experience this because that it is a common side effect of a lot of these medications. So that's very interesting thing that you bring up. I we got to define the word common. We don't want everybody to freak out communist something out there you know. One hundred thousand is common because there's three billion people in the world so the word common can be problematic. I only say that because because I don't want everybody to stop taking their medications for fear of shitting the bet. It's a good point. It's not common in that it's going to happen to everybody. But when you get your medication nation it comes with that little piece of paper. That has a bunch of teeny tiny words on it and it's called the Pi. which is the package? Insert an on that list all the side effects. Wchs everything you could possibly ever know and everybody. I know promptly rips it off the front of the package and throws it in the trash. You could read it. I read them which may be makes me an over over achieving nerd. But I read them. I want to know what could possibly happen and I think if you read yours. There's a chance that side effect is on there and you can see why it would be on in there. I mean if you really stop and think about medication interacts with your body and everybody is different. And our bodies job. The whole reason that we expel L. Waste is to get bad things and unnecessary things away from us so it really kind of make sense that a common medication side effect could be anal leakage or diarrhea or the kind of diarrhea. That happens in the middle of the night. When you're not expecting it and I was really surprised at how common it was and again when I say common I mean it's it just happened to everybody at least once? I thought that I was the only person that this ever happened to save for my friend. Jackie and I was kind of lucky right. And I'm being very sincere zere here because you were open and wrote the article about shitting the bed and because we've talked about before on the show. I've seen your speeches at conferences is where you talk about this illness. And all of the things that you went through and it made me feel not so alone but the reality is most people. Don't know Jackie the reality is this is most people don't know agape most people don't know anybody. A lot of people are managing these things all by themselves. They're managing especially mental health issues especially really mental illness. And they don't WanNa talk about it and I want to be very clear that this is something that is going to happen to probably every adult and when I say every adult. Aw I don't mean every eighty year old. I don't mean every person in a nursing home no we're talking twenty thirty forty fifty year olds. We're talking young people bull middle aged people. It is the body doing what the body's supposed to be doing you know in the most scary and traumatic of ways is true. This could happen to just about anybody for just about any reason..

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

01:36 min | 8 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

"Jack Zimmerman and gave Howard. Hello everyone and welcome to this week's not crazy we are here with my co host. Used Jackie who has written no less than seven books completely in her head Shell lives with depression. And I'm going to introduce you to my co host Gabe who lives with bipolar and also has written just one book that has been published. But like what's just one when you could have have seven unpublished Jackie. We are doing a first here today. We're going to interview a young woman. She's twenty three years old and she lives is with bipolar disorder. But she's also newly diagnosed with bipolar. Now she has asked to remain anonymous so we are going to call her. Emma Emma thanks for calling in and welcome come to the show for having me. No you were diagnosed with polar disorder type two in two thousand nineteen it safe to say. You're you're a Newbie. Yes very much. Show airing out the ropes. So Emma tell us the circumstances around your diagnosis what was happening before during what led to it it so initially. I was diagnosed with depression while I was in high school after a car accident but once I was an adult after college and and working in a toxic environment that monk and so I got a fake email them and compare. They were going to guide no bipolar when you say something was wrong. What did you feel like was wrong? It always.

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

16:04 min | 8 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

16:33 min | 8 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

"Central podcast and here are your host Jack Zimmerman and gave Howard. Welcome to not crazy. I am here with my co host at Jackie who has has physical health as well as mental health and lives with major depressive disorder. I never get to my intro. Because you always say weird shit like has physical health you do have physical health. Doesn't everybody have physical. How you would be surprised at the number of people that are unaware that you can have both physical health and mental health but it feels like physical? Health is not a thing you have like. It's not it's like a an umbrella term like mental health. Yeah what her isn't. Isn't it amazing that people think that he has mental health is a perfectly reasonable statement but people have physical. Health is stupid nonsense. Well they're both stupid and nonsense. They're forgetting the adjective. He has great mental health right. He has poor mental health. You have to add in the thing. We are going to learn more about Jackie Jackie today. Many people don't know that I met Jackie because she was an advocate for a completely different patient space. I was an advocate in the mental illness. Mental Health Space and Jackie was an advocate in the multiple sclerosis and inflammatory bowel disease space and we met at various conferences that were designed to help all patients come. I'm together and years and years and years later. Jackie and iron co hosting a mental health. PODCAST I didn't really consider you as co host in the beginning because in my mind and you did not have mental health issues. It was very cool of you because you explain to me that you're like look gave it. It's all connected and I have lived with depression. I have major depressive disorder. I just don't share it as much because the physical illnesses are are so i WanNa say demanding. Their front of stage right like mental illness for me is sort of backstage age specifically in advocacy. So I have a list of questions that I want to ask you because we really shouldn't separate this out. I understand why we have separated them out. You know again. I'm a bipolar advocate. I don't talk about the aging process even though turning forty has you know I'm going to have to get a colonoscopy eventually one whole colonoscopy But I think is important to understand that that's not going to be my advocacy focused because I have to stick to mental health. But there's so entwined is specially for Jackie so first off. She's thirty four years old today. I know it's rude to say a woman's age but let's age this. You were diagnosed with your first. Ibd I B. D. an MS symptoms at at what age it was twenty one whereas diagnosed with Ms. Let's pretend for a moment that you don't have major depressive disorder. You are perfectly mentally healthy. Not In every single way do you think is what a mess you up with. This have caused a mental health crisis to be twenty one years old and diagnosed with something severe as this my best. Guess for somebody who is not me. 'cause I can only speak specifically on my experience. Is that in terms of messed them up. I think everybody has a moment of contemplating their future. And what does this mean and a lot of fear and trauma involved in all of that. I think that happens to anybody anytime. They receive any kind kind of massive diagnosis. That is life altering. I think you start to question everything. And if you're not on top of it and you're not good at coping you don't have good skills and a great support network. It's very easy to see how that turns into some version of depression and or anxiety twenty one years old is when ms reared its ugly head. Put you in the hospital and terrified. Did you and your family. Let's talk about Jackie at sixteen. Did you have depression at sixteen. No I was not diagnosed with depression. Sixteen but did you have it. I think I probably we had a very mild just kind of a sad kid tone going on right. I wouldn't say that I was depressed in high school. I'm not a terribly peppy person now but I was not probably as happy as I think. Maybe a lot of my peers were or at least appeared to be twenty years old again before the diagnosis. You're just a perfectly normal twenty year old. You're hanging around in college. You're you're chilling in Michigan. You got the kid rock song. Depression suicidality any of that. In Jackie's life at twenty I had started therapy by then which was something I chose to do on my own so I think maybe I knew there was more to life that maybe I wasn't feeling that's the best way? I guess they can explain it. I don't know if I would have called it depression then. Nobody I knew was talking about depression. Nobody's talking about it not in my family not my friends no one so I just knew like there were things things I wanted to talk about. I guess I think the same sort of tone of maybe marginally depressed but not clearly depressed not suicidal at all just sort of trucking along in college doing things at twenty. I had just gotten home from studying abroad so my life was slightly the more depressed. 'cause I was really missing studying abroad. But it would just your average probably twenty year old. Then it hits your twenty one years old. You get this massive diagnosis. The scary thing walks through that when I was diagnosed with Ms. I didn't know anybody there was no one in my family. I didn't have any friends. All that I knew was what I saw on TV. which was that? This is like a super scary thing and that a lot of old people had it because the news and media is very terrible at actually telling facts about about most things so I was scared for sure. I didn't know what it meant the first question. I asked my doctor after my diagnosis. Like the first question was am. I GonNa die 'cause because I just had no idea literally no idea what it meant at that time I m s didn't necessarily take over my life I was in a flare and most of the time most of the time in MS flares are temporary. They last anywhere from weeks to maybe a couple of months and I would go. And have avian fusions daily for five days but then I would go home and I also had home nurse on the other days that would come And do the IV infusion at home so it wasn't actually admitted at any time in the early years for ms but it's pretty serious care. Yes it's daily. It's intense it's long. IV infusions how old were you when inflammatory bowel disease came a Knockin twenty-four. So here you are twenty four years old you get used to the the multiple sclerosis an IB wants to party. Walkers through that rewinding inflammatory bowel disease is an umbrella term and it includes a couple of different types of diseases. The two majors rangers are Crohn's disease and ulcerative colitis. I have all sort of colitis that diagnosis shook me in a way that I did not see coming. Not only. We do not see the diagnosis coming. But when you're twenty one and you get an MS diagnosis. You think this is the worst thing that could ever happen to me even though my ms was not that bad and it wasn't wasn't taking away from my daily life it still is like this is the worst thing. Then you get what I lovingly refer to as a bud disease your girl. We'll see can't talk about butts. You can't talk about the physical pain because it's located in your digestive track which we don't talk about and you can't go see a doctor doctor because it's Hella embarrassing so you're living with this pain in this discomfort and at the time. Forgive me but I was shitting massive amounts of blood which is not right right. But you're who do you talk about them so I finally got through the press. Finally after I get the diagnosis and it is this huge weight of well now. This is clearly the worst thing that could ever happen to me. It could not get any worse than this and I think that was probably right when depression as maybe. I know it now really started to kind of rear in because I was trying to project my life. What is my life look like with? Ms and and really severe UC five years from now ten years from now and just none of it looked good all looked terrible. Our listeners really identify with mental illness onus and mental health issues and they understand this idea of being all alone in the world and not having anybody to talk to you. Because who understands this and you know people just tell you to cheer up and do Yoga and and take a walk and buck up and pick yourself up from your bootstraps. I think they can really relate to the part of your story where you're like. I'm a twenty four year old woman. I can't talk about my but you're you're not even allowed to laugh at lake. sophomoric humor as a woman. We we all know that you do. A fart. Jokes aren't part of the female culture. Like they are in male culture jour-. I imagine this was very lonely. Very isolating and I haven't even discussed yet the part where you're probably terrified that you have an illness that may or may not kill you. Yes exactly as as a woman woman. You can't talk about this stuff and so much so after. I got the diagnosis. I told no one not my mom and dad and my sister not my friends. I told no one about this latest diagnosis because I was mortified. Could you imagine people talking about my but like Whoa. No way literally cannot share this with anybody so so isolated in that way where I didn't share my grief about a second chronic illness diagnosis with anybody and then isolated in that. I didn't know anybody so I didn't talk to friends. I didn't seek out other patients to share experiences with at that time. And then you add on top of that a lot of illnesses. I think are isolating but when you have an illness that keeps you literally in the bathroom for hours. Every day you're isolating in a somewhat unique way that a lot of other people will can't relate to like maybe when you're severely depressed you isolate in your bedroom when you have an inflammatory bowel disease. You're not choosing to be in the bathroom. You have to to be there because you'll shit yourself all day long every day if you're not and most people don't invite other people into the bathroom while they're using it versus depression. Maybe your mom or your sibling. Or whoever's in the living room you just may not be like interacting with them. Maybe somebody'll come and give you a hug with depression or at least ask how you are but probably nobody is going to knock on the door and if they do. You're not going to be like yeah. I could really use a hug right now. You WanNA come on in. It is a whole new level of isolation I I mean when it was really bad I slept in there. I ate in there when it was really really bad. I only left to maybe get food or something and comeback back where I just put my pillow and my blanket. I slept on the floor of my bathroom. I don't think that we really need to spend a lot of time explaining how a mental health issue can crop up from them. Everything that you've just described my specific question though is. Do you think that you would have depression. If this physical illness didn't hit you. I think that I would have been prone to depression. I think I would have been somebody. Maybe who overlaps depression and sadness and grief right where where. Maybe there's a a trigger in my life that I'm feeling more grief than maybe I would be or feeling more sadness and I would dip into depression but not nearly as deep as I have. Because of these experiences additionally scientifically if you look at where they're serotonin receptors are in your body. Ninety to ninety five live in the nineties. percentile is in your digestive tract so when your digestive tract is broken you're losing nutrients you're losing absorption option..

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

12:35 min | 9 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on A Bipolar, a Schizophrenic, and a Podcast

"A psych central podcast and here are your host Jack Zimmerman and gave Howard hello and welcome to not crazy. I am here in the House of my co host. Gabe Howard who is sitting across the table for me staring at me. It's a little extra weird but he also lives here in this House with bipolar. I think that is the longest introduction that I have ever received and I am sitting here with my co host. Jackie who is sleeping in my house rent free food not contributed in any way and teaching my dog very bad habits and she lives with major depressive disorder. Welcome come everyone hello welcome to house. It's like you're here with us. It is really cool and it's the first time that we've been able to record in person little behind the scenes. A lot of this stuff is done on an Internet studio it. It's really good. We plan a lot of stuff via video chat and text messages and emails and late tonight. flurries of inspiration. But it's always good to be in person because the energy just flows and there's always diet coke regular coke if you're not Gabe diet coke regular coke diet coke but regular because if you're going to go to McDonald's which we do and you're going to you're going to get the regular side note McDonald's and Coke we are are open for sponsorships and we would appreciate hearing from your people so what appreciate that. Today we are talking about something that I feel like has a lot of mystery story and is not very clear kind of shrouded in silence which is what it is like to be admitted in patient in a psychiatric hospital dome and Gabe has done that. So I'm going to ask him a bunch of questions about that and I'm happy to answer these questions because what I didn't know upon admission would've would've just been really really helpful to know and in addition to my own psychiatric admission I've worked in psychiatric hospitals and I've interviewed people who were inpatient and I've interviewed reviewed staff and I've really just done a lot of work around this subject because it's the crisis point rate. A lot of people with serious mental illness have been inpatient. And they end up there in a variety of ways. And it's it's a terrifying subjects. It's a terrifying subject. I also think that there's a lot of I guess. Misconceptions nations or at least assumptions about it based on movies pop culture haunted asylums throwback to all of the things that we think we know l.. But I'm going to assume are probably incorrect. But I'm GONNA find out when I ask you all these questions. Pop Culture is a terrible place to get FACS ax. You need to put that on a shirt I. I don't know that anybody would wear it because you know how. Many people are lawyers because of law and order. How many people are doctors because of grey's anatomy? How how many people think they can get away with murder because the show how to get away with murder and snapped? I understand why pop culture. It's spoon feeding you information. And it makes you feel feel like you're seeing behind the curtain a little bit and pop. Culture is really great at playing with our emotions. They don't just show you what it's like to be in a psychiatric hospital middle. They pair it with a dark and stormy night and with sad music and they cut two clips of a family crying and in some ways. That's not far off being in a psychiatric. Yeah trich hospital feels like a dark and stormy nights anybody who goes to the hospital and has to stay overnight. Their family is probably scared. The whole soundtrack thing would be nice but we don't really have soundtracks in real life and there's not quick cuts in real life. There's a lot of hurry up and wait. There's a lot of sitting. There's a lot of wondering well we'll so let me ask you questions for you. Continue because I feel like you're going to answer some of the questions that I have in your little intro monologue which is great right but I would like to make it purposeful because I have good questions at least I think they're good questions. I want to be the judge of the good questions I I will tell you if how well you're doing so I am somebody who has not been in patient. I have considered it. There were times in my life where I was making the phone calls trying to find somewhere to go. I don't even know if that's really what you should be doing. But there were times that I was I was thinking this is probably what I need to be doing. I didn't do it for a myriad of reasons but in those moments all I'm thinking is the shots of movies that have run through my mind of is this a good idea is a bad idea. Is this the only idea so I have got a list of questions before you get into the questions. I'm going to answer from my personal lived experience and I think it's important to stay that just people living with bipolar disorder. Aren't the same. All hospitals hospitals aren't the same. I live in a big city. My admission was seventeen years ago and different hospitals are different some better some worse some the same. So I'm I'M GONNA speak very general and from personal opinion. Your mileage may vary just WANNA throw that right out there. The disclaimer. The first question that I have which is super relevant. How do you actually get admitted inpatient because I feel like this could happen a couple ways but in my brain my pop pop culture brain where I go is I'm having a crisis I go to the? Er because that's what they always say to do in the ER goes. Wow you're bananas you're losing it and they we're going to admit you right here in this hospital and then I have follow up questions but I feel like that's not right. Maybe it's right. I sincerely don't believe that the mental Oh health establishment is saying. You're bananas and I understand why people think that but you know just a little side note. What they're thinking is? This is a person who needs help so that was absolutely correct. People can go to emergency room. They are diagnosed with something or they're a danger to themselves or others and then they are admitted to a psychiatric hospital. That is how I ended up in a psychiatric ward. Is it a psychiatric hospital or award. Like every day is a psych ward. Well no not. Every hospital has a a psych ward and some hospital specialize just in psychiatry so there are psychiatric hospitals. They do nothing but mental illness mental health health and psychiatry and then there's regular hospitals that just like they would have an oncology ward or a new baby ward. They would also have a psychiatric award. The hospital that I was in was a psychiatric hospital that was attached to and part of a larger hospital system. So so I guess I was in both award and hospital but it does vary where you are and it's also important to point out that some rural areas. They don't have a award or a hospital meaning to get care. They can be driven. Twenty five fifty a hundred miles away to get some sort of services yikes WCHS actually was legitimately shocking to me. Not Shocking. That enroll eras. They don't have access to good care but just thinking about in a moment of crisis going. Well let's pack a snack because it's GonNa take US forty minutes to get wherever we're going but rewinding for a minute so you're having a moment of crisis you can't just call up a hospital that specializes in mental illness right. Hey I'm coming on in the way you can with an er right like don't you have to make an appointment. There's all this talk about. Not being enough beds right. There's never enough beds leads. So how do you when you're in a crisis. How do you get to where you need to be? This is where it's really shitty for people with mental illness especially in crisis you are often committed. Did to a psychiatric hospital or a psychiatric ward. Meaning you did not decide. Oh my God. Something's wrong with me. Make an appointment and or go to the emergency room and then check yourself self. In a lot of times. The police are called the authorities get involved. It's scary most people end up in the psychiatric ward through some sort of crisis point. And when you get there you're just in right. It's not like do not pass. Go do not collect two hundred dollars. We're just the police show up you get out and you're like I'm here now. That's probably simplistic. The police. Show up they evaluate what is going on and they decide that you are a danger to yourself or others and they decide not to arrest you. It's very important to throw that in because it's certainly possible that the police show up and they arrest you. You're having psychosis you you think that you know people are chasing you and that there's monsters around every corner but all they're focusing on the fact that you're in a convenience store throwing canned goods and they're like well that's vandalism that's theft that's trespassing and they arrest you and take you to jail and you get no help so in a way the police showing up and seeing a crisis seen something go wrong. Recognize it as mental illness and taking taking you to the hospital where you are then committed against your will is actually things going very very well but I want to put a slight pause there and look at it from from the perspective of somebody with mental illness. You're in crisis you're scared you're not in your right. Mind the police show up and now you're locked behind locked doors and a scary place with crazy people. It sounds pretty terrifying. It's incredibly terrifying. So how did let's talk about you. How did you get in where you were as far back as I can remember? I always thought about suicide. I wanted to die every day of my life as far back as I can remember on on good days I thought well today is not going to be the day that I die and on bad days I thought yeah well. Maybe this is the day that I'll do it. I thought this was normal because hey no good. Mental Health Training purpose of the show right we want to have more conversations surrounding rounding mental illness and mental health. I didn't know that I had bipolar disorder. My family didn't know that I had bipolar disorder. Nobody recognized the signs and symptoms of mental illness. For reasons that that will fill up years and years of not crazy episodes gave. We already know that you're sick. But how did you get admitted. Someone finally recognized something was wrong and asked me if I was planning on killing myself. who was that someone? It was practically a stranger woman that I was casually dating at the time and I say casually dating because we try yeah to keep this a family show but she recognized that something was wrong and did something about it. And what did she do I she asked me if I was planning on killing myself itself and I said yes and I got excited because I thought this was a normal conversation. I thought that everybody thought about suicide. So the first thing that I thought in my head is oh my God. I've got to help her sure that this is going to be fantastic. After I'm dead I have like a will and some paperwork and insurance documents and I need my family to find. I was GONNA leave it on the kitchen table with a note that says. Hey this is what you need to do. Now that I'm dead but I can give it to her and she can give it to my mom and dad. This is going to be fantastic. I was thrilled. I hate the term heart just sank But like I just got that like can't breathe moment when you said I have a helper like that is such a not. It's not good thaw processing for obviously actually shows where you were in the moment of let somebody asking you if you're suicidal. Nearly yes someone to help. That's it's nearby. It shows that something gene is wrong with your brain or your thought process. You're per something is going very wrong in your life to think that somebody is asking you about killing yourself because they want to be involved in some sort of motivating or positive way is in that messed up not surprising. She had the same reaction. Is You she freaked out. She freaked out and honestly I looked at her like she was crazy. I thought why. Why is this woman freaking out? So what did she do after that. She said we need to go to the hospital. She said we need to go to the hospital right now and I said why do we need to go to the hospital. I'm not sick. And she said we need to go to the emergency room and I said the emergency room. Whoa the emergency room is where you go like when you break your leg right when you when you fall off the roof we hear roofing or you're playing with fireworks on the Fourth of July and you burn your hand? It's not someplace that you go because you're feeling the way you felt your entire life. Yeah Yeah I guess if you look at it. In in hindsight of I did not see any of my feelings as an issue. This is the way that I always felt therefore I did not see it as sickness. I understood sickness to be borates. You feel differently you know normally normally you're not throwing up now you're throwing up sickness normally. Your nose is not running now. It's running sickness. Not I felt this way my entire life. I still feel this way. You want me to go to a doctor for it. You'd pardon the Pun. I thought she was nuts. I really did think wow I have come across the crazy person just great now. I have two problems. I need to plan my suicide right and I need to take care of this Wackadoo that that's what was going through my mind..

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

02:17 min | 9 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"Business on Saint Louis is newsradio KMOX Kmart's news time is five twenty let's check in with meteorologist dean devore for the business traveler's forecast sponsored by element financial engines a big storm in the middle of the country heavy rain on one side and snow on the other team yeah the eastern flank is the rain side that's for today tonight and tomorrow and even into Friday morning some really heavy downpours all the way from the Gulf coast up through the Ohio valley parts of the northeast and then a win component picks up on that the western side the the snowy side is going to see some significant accumulations for our friends off to the north and west of us were looking at places like a north of Kansas city could see couple few inches and then north and west to Chicago up into Debbie's old stomping grounds in Wisconsin could see some heavy snows here for the kids the trick or treat we're just gonna have to deal with some awful cold during trick or treat time tomorrow evening today's cold with rain at times all the way through the day into the first part of tonight with a high here in Saint Louis only forty three degrees rain showers could end assume so showers nine expecting little or no accumulation of grassy services with the low down to thirty three then flurries tomorrow morning when the in cold through the day the high thirty nine real feel stay in the twenties all day it'll be in the mid twenties during trick or treating tomorrow evening and then down into the teens were real feels by daybreak Friday Brighton sunny not as cold in the afternoon high fifty two upper forties with Sunday clouds on Saturday low fifties with more sun than clouds on Sunday temperatures around Saint Louis here on this Wednesday morning are thirty eight degrees downtown at the arts in Edwardsville Saint Charles of thirty seven going up to forty three get the rain coat and a heavy jacket is temperatures stay in the upper thirties low forties all day I thank you with your old you see divorcing Lewis's newsradio KMOX the news continues at five twenty two the man in charge of assessments in Saint Louis county since two thousand eleven announces he's running for county executive cable exes Kevin Kaline report I've had the guts to do what needed to be done sailors county assessor Jack Zimmerman says his experience rooting out corruption.

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

04:18 min | 9 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"Executive cable exes Kevin Kaline report I've had the guts to do what needed to be done sailors county assessor Jack Zimmerman says his experience rooting out corruption in assessments as prepared him well to end what he calls the culture of back room deals as county executive but would voters like the assessor everybody wants to be liked but if I'm running for county executive what I'd like to earn is the respect and the trust of the people of this county I am proud of my record and I think it stands for itself the forty five year old Zimmerman describes himself as a progressive Democrat he served for years as Missouri state representative before becoming assessor Kevin killing Saint Louis is news radio came what's China is a tricky trade partner for Saint Louis start up even traveling to China there are many who believe that it's a mistake to bring one's own laptop or one's own smartphone bio S. T. L. done Rubin just got back from a trade trip there including to St Louis the sister city Nanjing the goal was to build connections for health care firms there and here but Rubin acknowledges that start ups on the St Louis side might be worried about China stealing their intellectual property hi res this very specific issue during meetings in China and I was assured that quote the national government will guarantee the value of our intellectual property but I have no idea what that means or how one would enforce that when one walks down the street you see intellectual property violations left and right I saw fake CBS's and Walgreens Nike spelled wrong but with the Nike swoosh but for companies looking for fast growth there's nothing like China what don medicine just invested thirty million dollars and a St Louis based a meta beak and with a promise to help get the disease diagnosing tech into twenty five other Asian countries remember the miracle on ice today a member of the U. S. hockey team that beat the Soviets is in a fight for his mental health he was part of the nineteen eighty U. S. miracle on ice Olympic hockey team now sixty one year old mark Pavelic has been found to be incompetent to stand trial on charges he beat a neighbor with a metal pole a judge in Minnesota suspending charges as officials know that Pavelic committed his sister says her brother has totally changed due to degenerative brain disease from all the blows he received during his NHL career Jim Chevy CBS news coming up at five thirty fresh perspective it is vital to the success of our police department outside review of the St Louis county police department has been ordered but who pays for it I'm Maria keno with detailed cable excuse time is five twenty four I Capital One you can open a new savings account in about five minutes and earn five times the national average five minutes that's less time than you spend arguing about how to pronounce get fully give or Jeff hard G. less time you spend trying to stick to your paleo diet this is the car brownies knoll brownies that's about five minutes to earn five times the national average savings rate this is banking reimagine capital one what's in your wallet terms apply we comparison based on FDIC national right to Capital One N. A. member FDIC five John party was born in may of nineteen eighty five index in California he started writing music at a very early age as early as age twelve and fourteen he had already started his band after high school he moved to Nashville to pursue a career in music in two thousand ten he went on tour as the opener for George Bailey his labeling on capitol Nashville he would release his debut single two years later today he's released two studio albums one extended play an eight singles that charted on the hot country songs and country airplay charts his albums of all time Grateful Dead live release in November of nineteen sixty nine lives it was the first official live album from the Grateful Dead the album was recorded over a series of concerts earlier in the year the van had accrued some dead with their previous album they want to fulfill their record contract and they want to release something more representative of their live performances so they decided to put out a live album it was.

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

02:30 min | 9 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"Days after a multi million dollar discrimination verdict commissioner's order a review of the St Louis county police department I'm Megan Lynch camel X. news time is nine oh three will have a check of the forecast at nine oh six the St Louis County Board of police commissioner says it wants a probe of the police department in a statement released late tonight the board says the review will be conducted by an outside firm commissioners wanted to include promotional processes decision making processes and inclusion within the apartment in Osment comes on the heels of a multi million dollar verdict against that apartment in a discrimination lawsuit brought by a former sergeant who said he was passed over for promotions because he's gay Monday county executive Sam page announced the resignation of board chair Roland Corbin ten and promised to make other appointments bishop Lawrence Wooten is acting police board chair once a firm is hired to launch a review the board says it expects to report within ninety days the statement sent came wax news says results will be made public I think it was judged as lawyers cannot discuss court filings in the case against a former police officer accused of shooting a colleague in a game of Russian roulette St Louis circuit judge Tom Clark the second issue the order Tuesday in the case of Nathaniel Hendron who's charged with involuntary manslaughter in the January shooting death of twenty four year old Caitlin Alex the St Louis county assessor announces he's running for county executive assessor Jack Zimmerman says his job has prepared him to quote and the culture of backroom deal I've had the guts to do what needed to be done whether it was fighting with casinos when they went looking for a tax windfall they didn't deserve or fighting against fake charities pretending to be nonprofit store parking lot owners pretending they're strip malls were farms Zimmerman is running in the democratic primary for county executive in twenty twenty vehicle owners in Jefferson and Franklin counties may soon be able to skip the emissions tests that's assuming the misery air conservation commission approves the plan Thursday being forwarded by the DNR for now Saint Louis city county in Saint Charles county would still be part of the gateway vehicle and shin program a program that was targeted by many Republicans in the legislature last session but ultimately nothing was done due to concerns over losing federal funding I'm getting Monterey St Louis is news radio KMOX state auditor Nicole Galloway says a close to Saint Louis charter school was over paid one point four million dollars after falsifying attendance records Galloway's office as the audit of the Saint was college prep charter school also found officials used school credit cards to buy such things as gift cards alcohol and a term hotel stays yacht it has been referred to the.

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

KMOX News Radio 1120

02:13 min | 9 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on KMOX News Radio 1120

"Charge of assessments in Saint Louis county since twenty eleven announces he's running for county executive camel exes Kevin Killian reports I've had the guts to do what needed to be done sailors county assessor Jack Zimmerman says his experience rooting out corruption in assessments as prepared him well to end what he calls the culture of back room deals as county executive but would voters like the assessor everybody wants to be liked but if I'm running for county executive what I'd like to earn is the respect and the trust of the people of this county I am proud of my record and I think it stands for itself the forty five year old woman describes himself as a progressive Democrat he served for years as Missouri state representative before becoming assessor haven't Elaine St Louis's radio came what's a hearing tonight in the case of the homeless man given dozens of tickets for panhandling at the intersection of interstate fifty five in Lynchburg attorney beaver shock represents Robert Fernandez Robert Fernandez holding up a sign that says homeless anything helps god bless is violating the law but if a politician goes into the exact same places as I'm running for county council please support my campaign that's valid the county argues that banking at the intersection creates a traffic hazard miseries house speaker is a strong proponent of the proposed Hyperloop he told camel exes mark Riordan today it's important for the state to take the lead on this issue about a year ago a year and half ago myself there were people went to the doctor to do the test track we are very interested the cop that all that black and beach from Missouri get a feasibility study to see if it was something that we thought we could build the dory entered the first three the only side the country they get caught they said yeah we got a real life to do that Alisa harsh says the task force was put together then because they knew the technology works and believe that it's feasible England carbon in Edwardsville trick or treating has been postponed until Friday because of weather generally the two communities trick or treat the night before Halloween and then have a chamber of commerce preyed on Halloween itself that parade still scheduled to start that evening at six thirty on Thursday and will check your Halloween forecast coming up next with channel four meteorologist Steve Templeton camel excuse time is six twelve.

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on The Herd with Colin Cowherd

The Herd with Colin Cowherd

03:20 min | 11 months ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on The Herd with Colin Cowherd

"Donna her to notice that I was on campus and I'd go against the back court there. Jack Zimmerman and Doug Harris wonderful wonderful players and I play against them and I you know John Paxson played against him in summer leagues like I wanted to embarrass these guys and and if you know for no other reason than I didn't get the play they did and I remember that Jim Paxson would he dunked on me one time and we joke about it. He also stole my girlfriend like I think that he I want to wait. Wait wait wait Jim paxson still your girlfriend yeah. How how did this happen well. My girlfriend was a cheerleader in was in love with Jim Paxson. You know would tell me that openly told me out and then I don't know if he stole or borrowed her and you know they all each other and date. I don't know what happened. I said we actually dating her and then she said you found out she she was cheating on you or she dumped you and started dating him. Like how did it go this story. I need to know she might have dumped me but you know in my mind you know like it took two years to realize I wasn't GonNa play at Eastern Kentucky. It takes me a little slow. It takes me a little time and and I thought you know what you know as long as it makes packs of better player. Are you know that I'm fine with that. You know I'm okay. There's a lot there's other cheerleaders out there. I mean there weren't for me but there are other cheerleaders but and it took my like my father passed away in my sister was a cheerleader on the basketball team in the entire team came to my dad's funeral and Donna her pulled me aside aside later you know after but he was having beers and he said you know I made a mistake like I let you play and it and it really meant a lot. You know granted. It was at my dad's funeral but I thought it was kind of pointed that my dad would have liked to have heard that and you know. I knew I could hold my own but you know I was such an asshole. I Guy I you know. It was really really angry. I mean so much so we had a Grad League and I played against just a guy who was who had been on the team. Tim pullman six eight guy played you know for the State Championship and wonderful wonderful guy and he's playing against us for the championship and I said I I'm Gonna I'M GONNA put up forty on poelman and for no other reason than damaged. Somebody is going to noticed this and I felt bad. I'm dribbling up the floor. Doug and I yell over to the guys. I say how many I got. I go thirty six. I go. I stuck forty on poelman years later years. This is probably ten years ago. I mean Charlotte Radio Convention engine. I see this guy staring at me. Tall Guy Bald and I go. I don't know what the what the story is. This guy and it's Tim Poelman he walks over Robert and and he goes hey you put up forty on me and I go. Oh my God him. I'm so sorry I was such a jerk to you and he goes Nah. I got it. I don't blame him thinking God. I don't know how I didn't get my ass kicked back. Then I used to think that all diet and weight loss plans for the same well not anymore for because I found num num is a new.

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on WGN Radio

WGN Radio

05:32 min | 1 year ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on WGN Radio

"I mean, get the podcast of the show. It's free. What are you doing? If you don't have it already. Just go get it. It's it's great and lots of doing the show today. We're gonna have a storyteller come on in here. Chicago storyteller. We've had him on. I think we had him on a few years ago. Now, Jack Zimmerman is his name. And he is someone who is really a fantastic storyteller. He's actually participating in one of the longest running Chicago's storytelling series. That's coming up on Tuesday. So Jack will be here talking about what what's a great story. Then previewing this event, which is a lot of fun. So you should check this out. We'll talk all about it. And we'll find out what it's like running for alderman in Chicago. You know, we did this a few months ago, we checked in with an alderman candidate name is Katie Iraqi, and we see all these candidates. We see people running for office. But sometimes we only think about the public speeches, and and what we see in the public sphere. And we forget that there's a lot that goes into the stuff behind the scenes, so we'll check in with Katie just she's a first time candidate just to see what that's like running for alderman once again. And of course, our good pal. Steve Krakow, the author of the secret history of Chicago music column in the Chicago reader he hand draws this column. He'll be telling us all about the the secret history of these eighties. Pop rockers these guys known as the service. So that's all coming up on the show. We say Hello right now to the show's producer Coliseum, and what's up, Colin? What were you doing for your? Twenty seven th birthday, Mike. I've no clue twenty seventh birthday. No idea. Yeah. It just seems like such a long time ago. Right. It'd be eleven years ago. You didn't have to give that information. I'm not one of these people. I admit I'm thirty eight. I'm I'm admitted up thirty thirty eight Obama ripe thirty eight Colin not a shame not ashamed. Dumpty is seventeen. No, no, no, no. You're eighteen eighteen and a half. Now. The nice ages like you wanna be twenty four twenty five. That's the age. I wanted to stay there. Yeah. Like everything like, maybe not the money. I was not making a lot of money at twenty four twenty five true like physically I was in my game. I was in my house. That's the sweet spot. You know what I'm saying? Thirty two is the real sweet spot. They say that's when the money starts coming. You know? That's when things started to now. And you hit thirty five and it's all downhill from there. Right. So you got thirty two, you know, you you try to replicate it for thirty three still hold on to it for thirty four. And then you go off the cliff say there's a thirty five I was still holding onto the fact like, no, it's my early thirties. It's my early thirties. I'm thirty two still numb and you're thirty five you're mid thirties. And now thirty eight it's yeah. It's game over then you've got the flip flops and then the cargo short start coming while I was having that a long time ago. I was like advanced aging syndrome in that sense. 'cause I love my flipflops a love Makarios got on crocs right now. Trying to ease into it with socks or. No, oh with socks and dad. It all the way I love it. I love it. Hey, really quick dormancy were out doing this thing for the election this this? This was really cool partnering with many and you're driving people to the polls literally driving people to the polls. I was like Uber to the post. So anyone who had trouble mobility issues? Didn't have a way to get to the polls. I did my best to just pick people up and go, and I just started with my friends who usually don't vote for midterms hop in with me. Wow. On a vote. Let's do that's really cool. So like where you just tooling around in the in the city of the neighborhood saying, hey, did you go vote you come on in? I'm kind of I kind of was and this is the weirdest part about it, Mike, I put this postal social media. And then people, you know, texted me said, hey, I need a ride like, and I said I wish I had more a system. I wish I had some type of app. So I just put my my number out there. I said, hey, take my phone number down. Shoot me a text. If I'm close to you. I'm gonna come give to the polls and it worked really well for election for early voting because you could go to any polling place. Yeah. You vote early. So it was pretty cool. That's good for you for doing that, man. You know, we don't always make it easy to vote because first of all it's on a Tuesday. Ryan the day, right? You know? So I think any any way we can help folks out to get them to the polls to exercise their voice and their power. I mean that that's great. So good for you. I saw that. And I said. Adobe? No that that is that is pretty cool. Now, they didn't let you keep the mini. Did they know? I cried a little bit. I returned it yesterday. And I was like you have to like do you guys need it back? And they said, yes. Wow. Gave it back yesterday recipe to my mini, but it's it's one hell of a car, man. We'll good for you. And did you wear any of your famous suits because domestique and rocket suit? I'll I'll I had to leave the suits off because I had to actually work. I don't want to sweat the suits out. All right. Well, you know, it's funny because I require Colin to wear suits when he comes into the radio station, so Collin thanks for dressing up today that three piece suit is it's a delight. I think your nose is growing. Yeah. Okay. Well, I'll tell you what I'm going to take a break because Colin is also in my ear saying, hey, dude, you gotta take a break. I wore a suit for you. So I will do that. I don't know what's happening. The show just keeps getting better. Stay tuned. You are listening to outside the loop. I am Mike Steven right here on seven twenty WGN..

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"jack zimmerman" Discussed on Dead Man Talking

Dead Man Talking

05:47 min | 1 year ago

"jack zimmerman" Discussed on Dead Man Talking

"Of. Hey, sorry, Jack, Elliott. Alex, Alex, how I wanted to speak to Jack Zimmerman, resented his attorney who represented him. He's final appeal and the invited me to meet him, but he's office in downtown Houston. They will frame newspaper cuttings around the wolves that chronicled the big cases jacket been involved with over the years buck in the ninety s he represented one of the leaders of the Branch Davidian religious sect. This was the cult that was involved in shootout with federal agents in fifty one day siege at that compound in Waco. Eventually seventy six people died in a fire, and it was international news. It would be up to the lawyer for the woman who was falsely convicted if that's what we believe happened to raise it. Another person confessed to that, and I think competent fence lawyer would go to the prosecution and say, check us out and have it investigate it, don't rely on some guy who may be not competent. Tint as saying that he did it. He could be trying to get tension. He could confer notoriety at cetera, but I think it would be enough to cause a competent honest prosecutors trying to do the right thing to at least had that investigate it. And it has happened in different cases across the country. Over history is where prosecutor gets word that they've convicted the wrong person in happened a lot when DNA started being used and they would take DNA samples of people. And and fortunately they had held like a bloody shirt or piece of clothing that had blood on it or some other source of DNA Iran the DNA on that, and then ran the DNA on. The guy was in jail for that and it didn't match. Several people did get released from custody and had their convictions overturned because of some forensic scientific evidence. And so you'd think that if the lawyer for the woman you're talking about. Found out that resent his says, he's the one that killed them. Those people that they would go interview him and find out if he knows things you cannot. No. Usually the criteria is this if someone's claiming to have committed a crime and he's talking about specific details that only the criminal would know about, then that's pretty good basis for maybe taking a deep look and maybe overturning a conviction based on that. But if it's something that someone could have gotten by reading the newspaper, that's what prosecutors worry about when people come forward after highly publicized case. And they say, I, I'm the one that did it or who did it so. And so these those exactly did the attorney. The dealt with her appeal know about resent his confession. If you did, did he do anything about it? I've been trying to reach right Castro to some time. He was the attorney that represented own drives. He's original trial. Hello, I'd left numerous messages, but one evening a manage to reach him on his cellphone off. I am not a liberal case. I believe it was in the late ninety. It was and I don't have the file at all now. I mean, I don't recall. Details, maybe a couple of things about the case, but not to where it would be significant. And I, I don't feel like I'd be a good source about that. Yeah, that's about the extent I can tell you on that. I just recently learned about that the correspondence that they had so you didn't know that on? No. Once I was been from the trial, I didn't have any contact unless they could have been the appellate lawyers. I don't know they were. I was interviewing Jack Zimmerman who represented resent his at his habeas appeal. He hadn't heard of the Callaque case, but Cousy represented resent his got to know him quite well. And I was telling him about that case and and some others. And he said it would have been up to the lawyer for the for the woman who was fully convicted to raise the fact that another person it confess because you're saying you didn't know that at the time, but what's recalls now can now I don't recall this time saying, I don't. I have to go back and look at the file which I don't have anymore many Eusko. Well, can she do now with no money? I mean, who would she wrote to the DA's office and said, this was never raised as an issue. You might wanna talk in the whole pellet lawyer, I guess. Thanks to luck. Thank you. Thanks. Written to Andrey as a few times over the years, never received any response. The so many on onset questions, and we'll be coming back to them. In the next episode, we return to the resent his type and more confessions Cleal foreign into border three or four between California member that resent is telling me about possibly full motives. He was never convicted of. If you want to find out what happens next, make sure subscribe on apple pug costs, Spotify, Google costs. We have favorite listening destination, and if you joined the show, make sure you write reviews too. From DMC media, an audio, boom. This is the deadman talking podcast. Ditman

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