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Mentally Ch(ill)

03:48 min | 3 years ago

"ill" Discussed on Mentally Ch(ill)

"It's me again hey hi. I'm doing this. Allow a lot this episode so we jumped from Kristen and chill to mentally ill basically going forward so the show gets a bit darker and if you are new to the show the show used to be called mentally chill but now it's kristen and chill but for old time mm sake since we're GONNA start to get into some more depression suicide stuff. I'm GONNA throw in the old thunder intro so get out those umbrellas because here it comes baby. Everyone welcome to mentally to lead chill is as kristen here. Obviously I'M GONNA say my name Five Thousand Times this episode wait until you get to the end I keep butting in and sayings as Kristen <hes> so here's the rest of the show as mentally chill. I was dealing with Lata depression anyways anyways during the marriage so it was almost like she was just like look. If this guy ends up killing himself I don't really care and so on like three blocks away from these kids I have no friends and and I mean that's how I discovered you. Well Yeah. That's that means that your life was going down the path for good reason right yeah no and I would tell like <hes> I mean I was like calling like my father like every other day and call my older brother like every other day because like I was like I not going to make it out this like I'm Mike weeks away away from not existing on this earth anymore and and I mean it was awful I remember my mom came and I tell the story and everything it's sad but I'm very place now but she took me grocery shopping which I didn't need you know but <hes> we're grocery shopping and she says while I want to get some bleach to clean your bathroom and this new apartment and and I just through the the biggest fit and she had no clue why during the biggest about not buying bleached it was because I knew she was going to leave and I was just going to drink the rest of the body you know because I just couldn't it wasn't even about the loss of a relationship. It was like as basically like somebody who's like your your kids are dead to you and you did nothing to deserve that and I really like question you know just life and and yeah and I I mean I couldn't I kinda by bleach I kind of by <hes> a knives <hes> so like people come over or you know look for like a knife to cut something and I couldn't buy on. I didn't have <hes> I didn't have a razor. I didn't have my boss at work. Has You know I'd have to go. Get my haircut more often because I have to trim the beard but I just knew that I couldn't have anything in that apartment that I could take my own life. It's okay so friends weren't really a priority. At this point. Now for a beer wasn't really number one on your list so <hes> did you call anyone for help or did you reach out to friends or <hes> you know all these things kept happening and and it's weird because my my dad has you know what you like like coming <unk> out to your parents about depression is very similar or at least I've been told by my friends that have come out to tell their parents that are lesbian or home or homosexual. It's like the same thing and I I remember like Tom on my dad..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

03:55 min | 3 years ago

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"Then killed herself wrote, so the state of her career or life, probably wasn't where she wanted to. I mean, how many minutes of Mayan, I'm already feeling like we're straight dread. I wrote a head of FOX short com is what it was called, not a sitcom. But it was like half of a sitcom. That's hitting. Well, it's not trying to break the network felt comfortable giving me twelve minutes. But I, I wrote it with this wonderful writer named. Esther Lewis and we worked together for like six weeks. And then FOX called us and said, hey, we're not picking it up. We're not picking any of them up, and then he walked his kids to school in an hanged himself. So it's me, it is you, it's me, and it's you as well. It's both of us. I shouldn't have brought this up immediately. No. It's perfect. Because I have a buzz. Okay. And so I can clearly talk about it with respect and dignity and, and all those things I that, that isn't why I didn't I just bought it up because we were talking about you were talking about your brother in law. He's a bit of a he's got this douche persona. But he's got a twinkle in his eye, and what led me to the dark path that I went down is I always loved arrogance. I always thought arrogance was so funny, but you've got to have a twinkle in your eye. You have to be likable, you deal. And that's what I thought, John and then we went to anyways so but that's you. I think so. I mean I actually think but I didn't like you at first. Here we go. Tell me so I wanna talk about how we first met. Yes, please. I think it might have been a reflection of my own maybe self inadequacy or something probably. But we went to so where do we go together? Well, I rem- I had forgotten it. But then we when we reconnected it was like, oh, yeah, I do remember that. I believe we drove down to Redondo beach, right to that, really terrible bar slash comedy show. Yeah. And I remember being in the car with you. Right. It was almost like being roofing. Like I had no idea how I got. I was there really helped me I was sick to my stomach, and I couldn't I didn't luckily, I couldn't keep my eyes open. I didn't have to remember about that besides the roof part, what I remember is being in the car with you. But I have no recollection as to how we came to be in the car together, who I was at John ROY that introduced us, I don't know who introduced us or how I don't remember texting you I don't remember calling you remember knowing you, I remember being in a car with you going to Redondo beach. You did a spot right? You I remember. I don't know if Texas. I don't I know it was it was. Because it was, so I moved to L A in two thousand and nine I think or two thousand eight. So it's two thousand eight so it was two thousand eight two thousand nine it was right after you move there. And somebody said to me, would you mind like, helping this showing her around she this Agra? And I was brand new, and I was like, well, I'm going, and I think I called you, I don't know what happened. I remember looking online to see if you were cute. But you can't do you couldn't do that yet on the internet? You could you got nineteen fifty. It was this was heiress Facebook. No. But I don't even remember like, maybe I saw a quick picture of you. I don't know by the way you couldn't scroll the way you can scroll. And also, what does that say about me? The first thing I did was looked to save your cue terrible. I would look to see if you were and or like rapi Ripi. Right. So I was correct. Yes, on both the house. Thank you so much. And so then I remember driving down to Redondo beach, and that's kind of it. But I remember we had a good. Hang it wasn't. Yeah. But I thought you were Dushi. Sure great. Oh, this guy's douche. She in his Honda symphony. I think so you had like a black or some sort of sporty. Oh. I don't know. I remember it being like a dark interior or something. And I didn't you know that bar that we went that night was on bar rescue. Do you know that show allow I'm not surprised.

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Mentally Ch(ill)

03:49 min | 3 years ago

"ill" Discussed on Mentally Ch(ill)

"Not talking anyone either listening to music or usually I actually don't listen to podcast, very often. Which is kind of Ronald it's like, I talk enough. I don't need to hear other people talk. It's like they're just another one of me. No, thanks. You know, so I like to have that time. So the drive down about three hours, and I only had two hours to myself, and I was like got dim it up an hour. It did. And it was really really really sent me to like a bad mood when I before I moved to the city when I had a car driving was so important to me like I would just go drive for no reason. Especially after like if there was a game that eagles ause or something if I was in a bad mood drive around for an hour, and it would cheer me up like just. It felt good to sort of zone out on just focus on driving, maybe music or something the budgets like is a way to sort of just be on your own in your own thing. And obviously, I don't have a car here. But the subway is sort of like if you get your podcast, and there's so many times I've just been like zoning out on the train listening to something on my own. It's like, I don't even realize there's like Showtime dancers about to. Crazy ladies throwing things. And my actually that's the I think it's definitely important to have that time. It's almost close to a meditation away. Yeah. Yeah. Just how deep you can get into it. Sometimes where you're just like. Oh, yeah. There's like crazy homeless people around me and school just let out and it's packed in here. But you just don't even think about it after a while. Yeah. Yeah. Yep. Well, the equivalent of that to me the writing with someone on the subway, which is pure torture. The equivalent is going t eat at a walkup place for you order at the counter, and you have to stand in line with an acquaintance or so many don't totally know. Well, and just have this conversation leading up to the menu, and then you can order, it's I've experienced it when I've done little like I have a little meeting with someone or something for some bullshit thing. And I don't know the person, and they pick a spot where we have to stand in line together. We have to make the small talk in the line in the line. I just let me stand here in order, my food, and I'll come at the table and be much more well adjusted. Weird about the same shit like that. I so I went to a bar to watch the basketball game last night by myself. And I'm sitting there watching and. About an hour or so I I realize the guy sitting next to me, and he's like we're both yelling about the Sixers sort of. But like, we're alone. So we're not like really yelling. Like him grunting at the same stuff that mad about and then, but it's like, I'm not going to turn and look best friends. I don't wanna talk to anybody. You're opening the floodgate if especially sports weirdos is such a specific weirdo where they and it's like I wanna watch the game. You call them the weirdo, but you're the one crying sports weirdo. So I know I don't want somebody talking to me like while I'm trying to want to game. So I don't really look over. And then like at some point is girlfriend comes or whatever. And then as I'm going to leave like after the game. I'm like walking out. And I look at the guy. I'm like, wait a minute. I know this guy this guy is I've watched games with him before at a different like Indica during a guy. He's another comic. But he was doing the same thing. Right. I message in this morning. I was like, hey were you watching the game? Because I wasn't sure. And I didn't want to be like, hey, are you Tommy and have them be like, no. But I like the sex and right, right? And now here we are married. So I just didn't say anything to him the whole time. And I messaged him this morning..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

04:21 min | 3 years ago

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"I like having a friend who lives close that. Could just hang out in our apartments and watch a game together lake sitcom close where it's like the the door opens literally I used to the guy was talking about who I thought died I used to live in the basement that apartment, and I would just go upstairs, and we would just watch like movies all the time TV shows games. Like that. That's good for me. That's good poppin. There's good Poppins and bad Poppins takes. It's very specific type of personality where it's like we can both put up with each other for that long time without butting heads. I'm not I'm not really that. Argumentative? Although there's people who would say, otherwise, I'm not. Yeah. I feel like there's certain I've always had a friend where we can hang out. A lot more than normal. I would think and we don't really fight are argue or get sick of each other. You don't really have friends that I fight with. I don't know if that means I'm not close enough. No. I don't think it's my friends or I'm just amazing. For that shirts. Yeah. No. I don't I don't think because I don't really fight. But there are I have friends that after a while. I'm just like I can't be around you anymore. Yeah. There's people if if they're pushing too hard to be really friendly and be around a lot. I definitely distance myself. But but I have close friends that I feel really close with. But I don't have I have friends like friends that I feel like I can be rude with which are the best. But I don't really fight with anyone which really makes me wonder am I not being real enough? Should I should we be fighting like are you not close enough with your friend? If you never have fights or arguments. Why think it's it's open to what you consider closeness to be. Obviously something very wrong. If I consider it fighting. Yeah. I don't know. I just 'cause I've never been like a fight with friends guy. I've I have friends that I disagree with and we have gotten in arguments and fights. But it's always like, you're you're making fun of it as it happens. Right. It's not it's not like such a huge deal that I've ever not talked to somebody and it would be awkward like stopping friends with somebody. Yeah. I don't think I would ever fight with anyone like that either. I don't wanna make it sound like I'm some. Like over caffeinated angry bit shoes, just like Bech bet. But almost I think may because I'm lacking honesty like, for example. So where we're taping right now, it's my friend's apartment and she can be flaky. And she almost backed out of letting me come here to do this. And I wouldn't have fought with her about it. I would have just let it go. And that's why I wonder am. I being a pushover will do you think you would have let it go because you're like, well, that's so and so she is that's her. Yes. That's why let it go. But I have I've the other guy do the podcast with who is just notorious for being late late all the time. We'll tell you. He's gonna time still late. That's who he is too. Was he's always been that way. Like it would be weirder. For me. I think to allow it to get me upset when that's just who people are point you and. Yeah, you can't you can't just try to fix people or mold them to be the way you want them. It's like if they're your friend, you accept that part about him as long as they're not like violent or some crazy shit. But yeah, you just accept people's flaws. Yeah. My friend resident consultant January referred to a little bit. What a little while ago. She knows I'm late. That's just she's very aware of it. We've known each other since we were young her mom was always late. And so it was almost like I was similar mom, and it just was a thing she did mind. So the other night, I was gonna go to a place, and I said, I'm leaving in twenty minutes and in twenty minutes, I texted I'm in the car, and she just wrote. Wow. Yeah. So so I love that. Then there's no formality. It's like just getting called on your shit, so important friendship. So.

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Mentally Ch(ill)

02:49 min | 3 years ago

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"But I take back some phetamine seven and a half milligrams for times a day along with a fine. Four-times? You you have to take four medication four times a day. Yeah. Wow. What's not necessarily? But I get I tend to be really distracted. If I don't. So I I at along with five milligrams of methylphenidate. So it's a combination. Weird combination. It works. Great me. And the isn't that Ritalin, right? Yeah. So just kitty coke this gear poking. I way. And. Him. I take Sarah quel, which is a anti psych comic. Yeah. Also used for a think let me see epileptic epilepsy. Qual? Yeah. This is Ben how long of a time on these drugs 'cause you have seen more like more stable or more. I don't know your positive online. I'm I have because when I got out of the psych ward, I was more in mourning mourning the loss of who I used to be because I was taking Prozac and triggered by polar disorder, and I had to adapt to that. I had to accept the fact that my life was going to. Be so different and is still different and hearing from your psych from your psychotherapist is really scary thing ever hearing these words, I don't recognize you anymore. You're not the same bays that you were two years ago. If you hear that from your therapist. I swear to got you're going to want to cry. Yeah. That's another thing. They should keep on the paper not to the patient. Yeah. Yeah. But then again, I feel like they have to be transparent. They have to be honest, even if hurts they, but it gave me the confirmation that. Yes. I am. Indeed changed. No. It's not in my head. So. When I got out of the psych ward. I remember having a lot of fights with my neighbors being really angry at them yelling just picking fights..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

05:41 min | 3 years ago

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"I had I was Arash, right? Your entire stem. Dada. Huge rash. I think it was from limit all is. Well, like, a really bad rash. Yeah. Now that you're up. Yeah. But, but my wasn't just a rash. It was. I was Arash. You know, right. Like, I'm looking right now is you're talking there's they can be life threatening rashes. Yeah. And it went all to my my my mouth and. And my psychiatrist was really. The end denial. He was like yet could be anything could be a Mike really really like I'm taking the Mikko. And it could be anything. I joking now. I was so anyway, that's why I'm so pissed about most. I mean, the thing is the team I work with right now or they were with me, they do outreaching work. So that means when we make an appointment. They ask me, shall I come to your place or do you want to come here? So I had the luxury of that. I don't want to sound ungrateful. But it's still really shitty because they're pushing their own agenda by I tell these people because I just went to a an amiable which stands for narcotics anonymous. It's just what people with addictions of any sort. Unkind? But here's the thing therapy, every every therapist I had was pushing her or his own agenda like making my goals and making me work on that. But you don't get to walk two steps in front of your patient. You have to walk along with your patient. Your patient has to be willing to work with you. I have the working in that field. So I know that if you make up I dunno goals, or I don't know what's called, accomplishments, whatever you don't get to decide for your patient. What's gonna what's gonna happen? Not without them being okay. With one hundred percent they have to they have to have input. And that's where it's going wrong. I tell these people I suffer from addiction since the age of ten, but these people are like, okay. But we need to I have structuring your life. What time do you wanna wake up? Okay. I love the fact that you're coming over to my house because I'm too depressed to come to you. But you're pushing agenda. I don't wanna work on the basically almost like they have a formula. And they formula everybody, regardless of that person is exactly it's a here's a thing as a professional. They tend to make the rules for you. And I wanna know real quick xactly doing right now. And how you got there like what medications you're on? And what are you actively talking about your, mother and therapy? And like, what are you trying to do to be more stable on a daily basis what I'm trying to right now. And it's only been a week before that I was embed and the press. I've been really the pressed for the last couple of months, like the deeply depressed and addicted. Okay. So I started going to the NA meetings. That's like the foundation of my day right now at this point. So I stopped day with morning run, which I love I really I really love it, especially with music, and then I just go have shower breakfast. And I go to study room because there's room here in building. Which is awesome. I work on school. I do I study psychology. How pretentious also then I just have this. I just need structure my life. That's why the psychologists psychiatrists. They're pushing the agenda of structure, I get it. Okay. But that's kind of structures kind of what got me here. So what medications are you on? I'm curious. You were on some when we were texting or talking. Yeah. So I use deck strain. I remember when a particular show, you were you guys were talking about five ns. And it's actually guy, but. Isn't that like an over the counter weight loss drug? No, no, wait. Maybe I'm saying wrong. Beck some phetamine. Okay. I was like, okay. 'cause being skinny definitely helps your mental health. But this is a weight loss drug, okay? Rouge a lot of worry..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

04:31 min | 3 years ago

"ill" Discussed on Mentally Ch(ill)

"It was almost like the way I would buy it was like I was stealing it almost super paranoid. I tuck it under my jacket kind of knowing concede this, and I get really like almost like being like, dude. Yeah. Yeah. 'cause I now I kind of do the same thing where I'm like. Yeah. I got my period. No ever since I got back from the psych ward. That was stuff about my mom about her because she was raised in the most fucked up. Wait, you can imagine. She lost all over like the people. She loved the most, you know, she just is he just wants to be hold by her butters and be a little sister. You know, I guess that is such a domino of your. Parents your grandparents are should he to their kids and their kids are should he never kids. And then the psycho cat, and you I don't know. It's had so many fucked up behave like my behavior. I okay, this is fucked up, but I made a teacher cry and never come back to school one day. And yeah, that's compliment. I would adding about the. Yeah. I know I know it's I deserve a medal. Title or even a trophy and used to be a bully too. But imagine being bullied at home. Of course, I'm going to be a bully outside, but I got bullied to buy not people from school. But from by people from the neighborhood. But I feel in this. I'm going to boil it all down to one point because going back to the psych ward. Which was last summer. Okay. It's a flashback to all the time because I used to be really nice and I used to. Be like a slave to people like I want people to like me so much that's sick to the point of like giving all of my belongings away, and whatever but ever since I was diagnosed with bipolar, and I wanted to say that. But it's triggered by a Prozac. Sadly, oh like, it makes it worse. No, no. If you have a if you're undiagnosed bipolar, oh in your taking Prozac or doesn't have to be Prozac necessarily just antidepressants are not allowed for people with bipolar disorder. And yet, I see so many people bipolar disorder taking antidepressant. But if I were don't they have specific medication for like like, I know like Taghrid tall is specifically for bipolar. And lithium are using even me walk you through this. I got I tried all of them. And all of them almost may meet I literally so I started I started whittling. Until I became the hulk. But I was read so instead of green. Yeah. Like, it was even okay. I'm not gonna say that it was everywhere. So imagine where where it was. Okay. It was oh my God. It was written everywhere. And it was a cheat. And yeah, I I was reading about it. And it was Steve Johnson syndrome. And I knew that la- Mikko has a. What is was was called a side effect, which you have to be really cautious up. Like, there's this thing like watch out for Olympic bull rash. And I know I watched his youtuber she's called Anna Campbell. And I really I really love. I love so much. She talks about mental health a lot. But she got hospitalized because she had a few rashes on our body..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

03:12 min | 3 years ago

"ill" Discussed on Mentally Ch(ill)

"I had them all like, even the psych ward. They belonged together, you know, they their whole. How do you call it? When. Things belong together. When. Love. I don't know. Jesus. That's that's not. When things together. I mean like went went when there's oh my God. When there's a. Let's just keep it at. There's a firm, and they have different types of the categories. Yeah. Exactly catacomb. I I'm set. You're you're so smart. Oh my God. Hitching said really fast. No, I didn't that on my own. So what they do basically is they have a a place for everything almost. So they have a psych ward they have a place for personality disorders, and that was where I was being treated for two years before. I like the DisneyWorld. Yeah. Exactly cental healthcare. Yeah. Yeah. Like like, if you go to DisneyWorld, there's magic kingdom. That that metaphor so perfect home, except I almost feel like. The will know I wanna make a happiest place on earth reference. But that oh, my appropriate. It can be when I meant. But. Right. Yeah. No. I had like, okay. So I I was transferred because I was being treated for borderline personality disorder, which I do not have I have complex post traumatic disorder and symptoms are very much the same like, you can be misdiagnose. Just like that. You know? It's really is that the same as bipolar. I know you said, you're bipolar. That's no, no, those two are so separate from each other. I'm yeah. I'm so many things actually. No. But here's the thing. It started with ADHD and a mood disorder, not otherwise specified. So I never really looked into that. But a mood disorder is basically, basically, it's it falls under the category of bipolar or vice versa. I don't know which one, but what are your symptoms? Exactly. So my symptoms. Are I feel really energetic talk to people a lot? When I when I'm really social like a social butterfly cocking to everyone. You know, unlike the fresh prince of Bel-Air. Walking up to people making people laugh going to get a can of coke three AM. You know, almost basically feels like your brain is turned onto high. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I tell people like, yeah..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

01:34 min | 3 years ago

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"And. Hey, guys. Welcome to another episode of the Christian and chill podcast. Guess what this week because I had to skip a couple weeks. I had the flu. And that I was lazy. And then I couldn't get a guest. And then I got another guest in that I making this all up now, and I've just kind of bullshitting because I missed a couple of weeks. I am doing a bonus episode this week. So you get to count them two episodes this episode. I'm starting with the bonus episode is a throwback to the original show mentally chill because I have a listener named Beza on who has listened to the show for really longtime. She has supported the show on patriot. And she is on telling her story about growing up in the views of mother having bipolar disorder having CPT ST ADHD, lots of letters and lots of serious conversation. But she strong funny and go and places. So I want you guys to enjoy this week's bonus episode and then tomorrow, I will be putting out and. Episode with comedian Patrick Schroeder who I did a roast with at Caroline's. And we're gonna be talking about how he can't cry at anything, but sports, so stay tuned for that show coming out tomorrow Thursday, but for now enjoy this week's bonus episode if you guys want to get in touch with Baeza, you can hit her up on Instagram. She's at B E Wisey, see and check out this company. She's working with called the great north and use promo code be wise e c twenty to get thirty percent off their merchandise..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

03:17 min | 3 years ago

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"I don't like what you're talking about. Just keep going. Well, my friend Jen resident consultant John I call her on the show she was on last week. And after we taped she noticed something that I do which annoys her, and I do this thing. Right talk, really, quiet. And so I'll do it when I'm giving a detail. But no one's around the windows are closed, and I'm going to say so and so's cheap. But I'll say it really cheap. You don't feel for that. I'm right here. And actually, speaking of your friend for arson she pulled up SNL bit where. Oh, yeah. She's like this is exactly what you do. And I do it exactly how and it drives her insane. That's so fun. And I don't know why I do that. I think it's a I think it's a. Embarrassing thing on my end. Like, I'm gonna say something shitty about someone, but I'm not confident to own it. So I have to whisper it like a coward. That's what it is. That's so fun because it was also in the first time I ever heard that was in. That movie Shirley MacLaine about cancer. Jack Nicholson terms terminal, there's a whole terms of German thing, which keeps going he has cancer. And they keep Listen. listening. Well, it's interesting. It's not something that I'm proud of. And I want to try to. But then what do I shut out? He's got cancer out from the. Then it's weird. But then I realized okay, we'll there's the happy medium, which is just don't say at all. Or if you have to say, it just say an appropriate time where you have tells me cancer. You don't to be like disclaiming. Disclaimer. Still human though, he's got cancer cancer cancer. Cancer should only be whispered. Football. Like when you get they just whisper it here that sounds awful aren't really terrible. There might have been snow character who only whispers, but then they say the whisper loud. Oh, that's funny. Do the opposite. All right. Well, something that bothers me. And then we'll and then we'll head out, right? Criminals use address a lot nicer back in the thirties. Oh when they all were suits to run that. And I just I that's something that really happened. That's only led to believe probably led to believe and I live in a fantasy world. But I was looking at some news report. And you know, this guy like robbed a convenience store, and he looked like shit at least have some dignity puts them effort in. And maybe you'll be less recognizable because you dress like should every day. They'll be like, no. That guy was just way too. Nice. It wasn't him always worth suit. Exactly. I want people step up people. I'm sure people talked about it on plane travel. No one dress up anymore. Everyone. Choosy sweats. Yeah. Yeah. It's annoying. Sebastian talks about that. I think in a stand ups yet. But I wish I lived in a time where people are member input on pajama pants on. Remember? Kid. I turned into that people want to become from on the plane. I get it. I get it. You're gonna sleep you want to be comfortable plano. I'll never go like sweatpants. I'd go yoga pants, maybe. But I'll never go as low as like carrying around a pillow, and I don't see that people were neck pillow..

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Mentally Ch(ill)

03:25 min | 3 years ago

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"Around four thirty. Okay. I will then fifty more minutes. Okay. Okay. All right. So what are you like socially? Jim. A lot of friends. I do how do you make your friends? Not in not payoffs. I'm talking like you actually. No. I mean, it's interesting because you are actually talking to a guy who has a shocking number of friends, and I would imagine you would normally would insult for me saying because if I say to someone you seem like you'd have a lot of friends that means I think they're national in annoying. But you're you have like a light sparkle like when I say, I mean, like twinkle in your eyes twinkle about you. And so you seem like someone who had people gravitate toward them. I feel like I do. And it's something that's both happened naturally and calculated like I feel like there's a there's a moment in everyone's life. Maybe it's an Amish school a really like middle school. We figure out how I'm going to make friends, and you just sort of figure out your plan, whoever that is, and you know, murder murder, most of them are if you kill everyone else than they have to be your friends. You know, I still have a lot of my friends are from like like middle school high school elementary school like a lot like a bunch of core friends from that era. Are they in the city or do you have to go back a lot? No. Well, there there's two them live upstate new paltz together ones in LA once in Manhattan once Boston. Okay. So you're not also not really, but we do do a weekend. Every okay. I finally it's like I caught one I caught a butterfly here. Like an ask you because so far everyone I've had on the show. They don't have groups of friends really, I've tons of different groups because I've in New York, I have I was an actor New York long time. I was like a theater person. Oh, so I have a lot of for ten years in New York. I was. A theater guy. I was little I was a professional theater Peterman. As a boy. Yes. Yes. I was professional theater kid my whole life. So I have all into theater camp. I went to. Stays for manner up in shell Drake, New York. Not too far and acting like I know what it does. But it's not too far. It's near like, you know, the Catskills. It's a big popular theater. So anyway, I still out from that era and those people like professional actors and playwrights now, so when I came to New York, I was already injected into this group of young actress. So I had a twenty two twenty three year old came to New York. Now, we're gonna have a lot of hometown friends, but all these like actor friends now, and then through those people won't be then I got to stand up, and they have all those stand up friends, which is a whole other group. And then there's like five or six different groups of New York of France that Hal have overlaps. But so it's a big group. It's a big large pool of people. But what I'm interested in is the group hang out that you just brought up. Right. She said we all get together. In fact, we've been I just got emails about it. As just now as we're talking because one guy just threw a big wrench in the whole thing. Oh, well, okay. Tell me about that. In a second. Who is the person leading the charge and doing all this because there's someone always there's a driving force one guy. One of our friends who grew up pretty rich also sold a a a an internet tech company in ninety eight for lots of money introduced busy single. No. He's got kids. He lives..

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04:07 min | 3 years ago

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"Posting funny. Mundane moments of my life, laundry going to the Bank. Yep. Like fun trying to find a funny way to get into. These are just the mundane things is not the interesting lights and keep it as human as a can someone. Fred Armas told me because he likes my Instagram seems like it's so human. It's just so real, you know, try to brag, you know, and I was like, and I never thought of it before till he said something like, I guess that is kind of what I'm going. It's refreshing because you don't usually see that. And so it almost hits people's brains like, whoa. This is real super high pitched sound in your headphones. This. God. I don't know how I'm going like if the bag pipes. We talked about a minute. I forgot about them. I am losing my mind, and I should go to therapy again. I thought it was my Quint. Hey, it's Kristen just cutting in hero quick turns out. It is my question. You know, what I realized is one I'm in the city of New York the cords almost have this AM frequency thing where it picks up frequencies or something I'm clearly very educated on this topic. But so there is a high pitched ringing, and you are not insane. I am not insane. But it will drive you insane. Anyway, continue enjoying the show. You know, what I also find interesting that enough people don't do which one guy one. There's a guy following Instagram stories. He's he's kind of the most fabulous bum. When I mean bomb is that he's young and he's. Kind of connected into a lot of like models rock and roll senior New York, and he's always going out every night. He's kind of homeless he has a house like he lives in his parents basement in jersey, but he comes to the city and alikes kraut couch, sir. I am also kind of right? But he has a really kind of interesting this life, even though he's like this homeless due to does nothing. But he's like a big personality is really funny. Yeah. So I follow him. And he literally just does stories about nothing his night all night, just like beholding the phone. He's like joking around with people or walking around the city. Do you find it engaging and interesting fascinating because boss fascinated by him because he's a he's an interesting, right? What are you? What is your night? Who are you? He'll just advertises night all night interesting. It's a bunch of weird characters and models doing stupid shit. I think you have to be fascinated by the person of you have to know him enough to be like, I'm curious like where are you spending the night tonight because I know you don't have department, right? So you. Have fast, you're curious to know. Well, I posted a long time ago something super boring, and I said, it was a pole, and I said should I post more really boring stories, and I think ninety percent, yes. And so then the Dane a little bit attractive about it. Yeah. So then the next day. I just posted a story of flipping through the just the remote control flipping through the channels. And it got a lot of us in. I've noticed actually if you post like a screen shot of just some conversation. You're having an it's not that interesting. You don't get as many views on your story. But if you do a video or something that's active yet, it engages more people. But I don't know how they know to. I don't know. Like, how do they know this is better than the other one the algorithm or whatever? Anyway, so so let's segue to socially challenged. Yes. Which is where we talk about friendships, and like what you're like socially? And how do you make friends, and how did you become the person socially today on no ill, be sure? And then we're gonna go to okay. Yeah. Because we have. Yeah. We eventually enough. We know becoming a half hour feel like how much time left we do. Well, we're thirty three minutes. Then we can we can keep going dependence for. Did you have to be downtown around four thirty. Okay. I will then fifty more minutes. Okay. Okay. All right. So what are you like socially? Jim. A lot of friends. I do how do you make your friends? Not in not payoffs. I'm talking like you actually. No. I mean, it's interesting because you are actually talking to a guy who has a shocking number of friends,.

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02:42 min | 3 years ago

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"So I'm gonna leave you with a bit from Tony. This is tough love with Tony our ending. Our new our new show. You guys aren't going to hear it yet. So you can't respond to it because it's not recorded. Saves us for afterwards. That was. Tony's awesome. It's supposed to be like like a soprano like an Italian tough talk. But But you you don't don't like. like. Character. Yeah, you're Tony. I'm not Tony someone else's too. Tough laboratories, Tony. Yeah. So anyway, do at Tony says don't fuck with Tony whatever happened to Gary Cooper, exactly whatever happened to. And that's how we do it full circle baby. So remember don't say sad enough to listen, but stay board enough to listen. Not to bore not to. We'll see you next time. Bye. Bye. Sorry, I'm driving. But God sakes, like get over yourself. Right. Fucking depressed. Activism sad. I'm depressed. Like an offer. You look at it. This way you wake up in the morning, right? You gotta look at like you covered him. What cement so what the fuck you do if you cover in wet cement, you'll get up and you keep moving you do something you something decent for the world. Whether it's making them laugh with a couple of gags like you do on that other radio show that I heard you one very funny anyway, very funny town. So I don't know. Fucking waste town. Important. God gives you the town. He expects you to use. It don't be an asshole. Anyway. So so what happens if you sit there, and you let the cement dry, you know, hit fucking do anything like paralyzed. It's not good. Not good. So you gotta keep going. You gotta keep going. And you gotta do what's right for the world. What's sorry? Sa- mass destroyed front. Where they get these people drive from. So he would where where are these guys like you get your fucking driver's license? Sorry sweetheart, listen. You wake up you do the best. You can you do the right thing. That's it. That's all. All right. I love you along fucking message him sorry about that. All right. You take a carry yourself. Anyway, I love you love to the whole family. I right now you go. Really, really awesome open. My eyes..

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03:14 min | 3 years ago

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"When people are shopping is definitely convenience stores, lack of hustle for lurk, drives me up the wall. Wall. Because it's like they'll be over there. Just talking to their friend. You're up at the counter like I don't wanna be here for fun. Yeah. There's people that always do the lotto tickets the counter that's a good one. And you're standing there. You got milk. Lotto tickets three. They don't care. This is when you have to just go, you can go ahead, and you have to go to the end. This is those are the people that drive me insane. When they're so unaware of the world around them, the something that drives me insane are the pedestrians in Crosswalks going as low as possible. Like, you know, I have the machine that could kill you right now. Right. If I chose to be a psychopath, and they take I mean, you guys experience we're relate to it. That has an like an LA foot traffic, and you're trying to take a right and the person's crossing because they have the it's like, I know you have the right away. You don't Don't have have to. to kill you. Muscle, a little hustle someone rent out of my car, but they show me they're hustling favorite in the world. And that's what I do. When someone says go ahead. I'm like running running America even worse than waving. Somebody watching them. Stroll. Really? I was nice to you know. Oh, you don't also. Hey, sorry. This like this part of the show could be very win, very large. Rob very off at the front of the store that are perfectly able like why do you drop somebody off? Yeah. But if it's. Yes. Really the flow if you are trying to get by and they're like right there if you're blocking. Yes. But I have dropped my mom off and waited up front because you know, maybe it's slippery cold. I know we're we're not Astles. But that's the thing is that we all are assholes. So we are the people do on this. I'm not usually I try to be super aware. But I'm aware to the point where ruins my life. I'm hyper aware, hyper aware. They're wrong. Yeah. I'm always wrong. No, like, if somebody thinks I'm being an asshole, they're being unreasonable. I am constantly worried about how I'm that. I'm not doing stuff like right to the point to where I wish I could say fuck it. I know time up at the register I'm gonna take my time. And I want I pay change if it's like a dollar ninety nine and I'm like, I have nineteen never mind my hundred dollar Bill through a stop through people are sitting there there chain taking their time. Easy pass. You're in good shape. But it's really gets to the doesn't have their money ready. But I'm so aware when that is me that like literally, my hands are shaking. Yeah. Go so fast to not make people angry. And then I never aware of them. If you have exact, and you know, it's exact do you have to wait for. Just hand and go, I know. Time wasn't nickel and then nickel..

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03:05 min | 3 years ago

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"Respond because I was like I can't come up with the right thing right now, I'm going to wait until I can come up with it. And then by the time, I can come up with that. I'm over it. And I'm not quick-witted enough as you are Jack super-quick with it. I wanted to say something too. But then again now that I see it makes them look like they're biggest creature. I wrote back. I was like I was just hitting like these probably over. Jokes like lady ponds. Thought hidden say something hidden ponds like a youth euphemism for excellent exposed the orgies. But then I didn't send euphemism. Because I know Kyle would know what that meant. I didn't wanna make him Google anything. So I actually think that Kyle is the brains of this group, actually like it's the brains. The bronze and the beauty. I literally Kyle. Membranes. I'm the bronze. And you're the beauty 'em all three. Just getting not even say, I'm ugly and weak. Well, you're smart, you probably the least I would want. I don't think we have any of those things on this. No average looking people. Yes. Absolutely. So when you mentioned the she wanted to say it when you were saying, oh, Jen mentioned this. No way. No, fuck, dammit. I forgot everything ideal in dating of something about dating. It's dating somebody who does want to do any. You mean like a friendship and like being like you feel like you're dating them. No with the. I don't know. What's nice about friends? Like, I gotta ask you as women. I feel like women have less friends generally than men less friends. Yes. It's true actually, mentally. I feel. Yeah. Because men the purpose further friends is like there's always a a game or it's always an event or it's always like a like, a something our female counterparts. Don't do drag us to. But you guys don't doesn't have many girlfri-. I mean, she has acquaintances people she talks to but she doesn't have that. I was going to say to people like you to are seem like you have a really close friendship. She eat down. What we're not. We hate each other. We get it. We I think we've gone like years without speaking. We went look time. No, I wish it was twenty. We should try that. Like such at golden girls. Flare was twenty. Like, he's like my Nagy. Well, what I was gonna say is. Forgotten again. Dating anymore. Real kristen. No, it doesn't. I know. You will anything that makes kinda nice out? Good..

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03:01 min | 3 years ago

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"She said six months to year, but online I'm part of these dog Facebook groups now and everyone's like, it's very manageable. Bob, LA, but what I'm saying with that is her medicine. She has to get it every twelve hours on the hour. And if it were me. Yeah. Whatever, but truly she starts coughing immediately. If she doesn't get her medicine like when Jen got here. She was just do for medicine, and she started coughing and with congestive heart failure, you get a backup of fluid and it fills into the lungs, and they feel like they're drowning and which is horrific. And so because it's her and not me I'm like a Nazi about. She gets her pills at this time. Don't you just take your pill? Yeah. Because it's like, I don't care about a million. I don't have a guilt me trying to solve your problem. It's totally. Conscious of when the dog Bill just take your time today. One of those times, you should take yours with. I I should put it in the chicken that I put it in. Yeah. Take her pills takes mine. Suddenly, she's not Email anymore. Can put it on combo for it. Yeah. But when you care about something else, you feel like responsible for it. Whereas yourself you don't give the same amount of respect. What you should what I'm trying to say. So with her I don't fuck around. But with me, I do because I'm definitely way overdue for my pills. But I'm not going to die. And if I start coughing. Doesn't don't you need to maintain earn level with those like, yeah. But I. Where few hours later, you feel better you have to get to a certain level. That's way can stay in your system. So like with when I was on affects her when I would forget a pill of effects are. I would know it immediately because I'd start to get zaps like. It almost felt like you were getting these mini electrocutions. And so I go, oh, I haven't taken my affects her so that would remind me to go take effect, sir. And then you know, after like an hour zaps would go away. So getting off of there was a nightmare because it was just going through these bodies apps and went from like one every hour to like one every like minute common. Very common for the is doing nobody at work. So I'm on on Prozac, which is also necessary. I I don't seem to get zaps when I'm having not taking it on time. Because I think the pill has a longer like half life, or I don't really know what you should still. I know I should like ask pausing go take it right out. But right. I know in forty five minutes when we're done phone so hopefully five done, I'll go take it. We interrupt this quality podcast. That's definitely necessary and not ridiculous whatsoever to bring you a commercial mostly because the phone rang. And now I need to transition into the rest of the show. So I just want you guys know, I do another podcast. It's called the ask women podcast and on their we give dating advice. And interestingly enough, I teach people how to banter, and I know it sounds weird, but it's really helpful in dating and other areas of your life..

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04:14 min | 3 years ago

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"I'm already over analyzing what I'm saying, I'm fine with calling close friends and like pizza place, I can do that like doctor's office. It's when you have those acquaintances or trying to make that like, I feel like is always so awkward. I can't get the timing right in conversations. So that's awkward the time. Whenever I feel like you would do this whenever I do information exchange. With a customer service person. And they'll say like what your credit card number, and you have to do the dead at a deta debt off like she said like at all it. But then you get into a rhythm with the right person where you're awesome one two three. That's a great seventy nine. It's like the best beat. It's like the best rap song. Or like pop song this relationship with that person? After I feel like connect yet. Like the survey after like, you don't do it. But you know, you think about it, and yeah, you have like this around the great talking, you Susie from Indiana. But, you know, right, but energy number talk. Again, do you ever? You guys clearly make or. You didn't even want to call too about your medical issue or about the Bill? I finally did actually called. Okay. So now, I still haven't gone on official Bill. There was all sorts of the insurance. So it's just it's just a whole bunch of conversation. Honestly like insurance, I'm grown adult. But like, I don't know how this shit works. Same thing with taxes. And yet it's like to me. I this killer. This kid did a joke. Stand up have so funny. And I wish I could remember it, right? But he's talking about he's he was like super like effeminate not into masculine things not into cars. And he was like when I go to get my car fixed. The they could tell me that like, I'm not gonna use the right words. But like they could say your your internal saxophone isn't working like. Oh, yeah. Till I fix it. And I'm not doing a job. I don't know if it's really funny joke, but he's not like a big comic or anything. But with insurance they could tell me anything, and I'd be like. Oh, yeah. Yeah. Sure. Whatever choosing my insurance at work. I'm like, I don't know. The L EPL. This one's got a duck of this. Well, the problem is to they talked to you like, you know, what it means. He'll be like your PPO turn. I'm like stop talking about my privates. Like that. Sounds like P odor or some. But what did you do before the phone call to prep to like make yourself do it to pull the trigger? Nobody said you did. I did. But like what were the vendor reading to no like pep talk. I give myself or anything. It's just I don't have to it today. And then I push it off push it off push it off until it's either too late or rate before it's too late. And then I just do it too. And then when I get done, I'm always like. It wasn't that. Going to the gym. Ever is. But the anticipation creepy, really bad, right? And it's the anticipation, how do you just like shut off the the patient and just do it. Because that's what you said you do like, you don't think about it? You just do it. But how do you know, you're going to do it where I have to like I'm not gonna just like I don't have to make a phone call. I'm not gonna just do. I don't know like same thing. Like if I'm well for me right now, I I signed up for insurance state insurance. So if you wanna Donut. Because I can't afford regular Terrance. Thank you. So I signed up, and I need to get a checkup, but they scared me away because they said call us with your primary care physician in and they used PCP. They didn't say primary care. They're like, you should PCP. I'm like, oh good and stop talking about my privates. Only funny for Simon. I even really percents. So I'm supposed to pick out a primary care physician..

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