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First Dog Champ Dies 'Peacefully at Home,' President and First Lady Say
"Oldest dog, has died in a statement. The president and first lady say their hearts are heavy as they let everyone know that their beloved German shepherd champ Passed away peacefully at home. They say champ was there constant cherished companion during the last 13 years, Even as the dog strength waned in his last month, the Biden say when they came into a room, he would immediately pull himself up his tail always wagging wherever we were, they wrote. He wanted to be and everything was instantly better when he was next to us. We love our good sweet boy, the Biden say, and we'll miss him Always. Allison Keyes, CBS NEWS Washington
CDC Investigating Heart Inflammation Among Young Vaccinated People
How to Plead for Unbelievers
"Brothers. My heart's desire and prayer to god for them is that they may be saved. Rome's ten one. Paul prays that god would convert israel. He praised for her salvation. He does not pray for ineffectual. Influences but for effectual influences and that is how we should pray to. We should take the new covenant promises of god and plead with god to bring them to pass in our children and our neighbors and on all the mission fields of the world. God take out of their flesh the heart of stone and give them a new heart of flesh ezekiel eleven nineteen god circumcised their heart so that they love you deuteronomy thirty six father put your spirit within them and caused them to walk in. Your statutes ezekiel thirty. Six twenty seven grantham repentance and a knowledge of the truth that they may escape from the snare of the devil. Second timothy two twenty five and twenty six open their hearts so that they may believe the gospel ecksteen fourteen when we believe in the sovereignty of in the right and power of god to elect. And then bring hardened sinners to faith and salvation. Then we will be able to pray with no inconsistency and with the confidence of great biblical promises for the conversion of the lost. Thus god has pleasure in this kind of praying because it ascribes to him the right and honor to be the free and sovereign god that he is in election and salvation.
Balancing Being a Dad and an Ironman Triathlete With Russell Newell
"I would ask you how you juggle fatherhood and training but you make it very clear in the book that you seem to train very little for your events. I mean at one point you describe twelve mile run as your long training run for the season and later on you suggest that you sometimes run quote unquote only sixty miles during an arm training cycle. So i wanna i over know how much of this is sandbagging. And how much is true. And wherever the truth lies how do you manage the demands of helping raise young kids and swimming biking running. Yeah well my friends all teased that. I don't do any training. But i do. I've said this you can't have you can't go. Half-hearted into an iron them you have to you have to train or you'll you won't finish or you'll be you'll being a lot of pain anyway but you'll be an excruciating pain and i don't know how anyone could do it without training. I will say this year. I'm a little bit nervous. Because i have not my longest run. So far is thirteen miles and my longest bike is thirty. And that's not enough. I have been doing a lot of weight training. So i have a trainer and i found for past bones. That weight training in court training really helps in aerobic training. And that's early in the morning in my basement but that's an ideal a stationary bike at home in the basement early in the morning or when the kids are in bed and you find little pockets of time but it's not the same as going out for five or six hour bike ride to replicate what's going to happen in the ironman and it's not the same as doing in eighteen or twenty mile. Run to get your legs. Ready for an ironman. So it's it's going to be really interesting. The more kids. I've gotten the less i've been able to train through. The years somehow seemed to make it through. But i don't do as well as i'd like to do. But that's that's the ballots.
How to Resist Temptation
"Deuteronomy chapter twenty. Three verse nine says when you are encamped against your enemies then you shall keep yourself from every evil thing so this is in the middle of a variety of laws in deuteronomy chapter twenty three about cleanliness and about holiness and specifically here. You can tell from the context. This is talking about win. When god's people would be going into battle and there encamp against their enemies in those moments in particular keep yourself. God says from every evil thing knowing that our greatest need before god is purity right think about jesus. Words blessed are the pure in heart for they will see god and knowing the context here in the old testament that when god's people would go into foreign lands they would be tempted to worship foreign gods to adopt foreign customs to leave behind. God's word and god's worship for idols and practices and immorality in those places in god saying be pure in heart be pure in every way if god was calling his people to keep themselves from every evil thing then is he not calling us to do the exact same thing today and so we pray god keep us from evil even as you taught us to pray our father in heaven lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil today. God we know every single one of us praying right now listening right now as i'm speaking right now. Every single one of us is tempted will be tempted. To sin today will be tempted to evil. God we pray based on this picture endure ronnie chapter twenty three verse nine. Help us to keep ourselves from every evil thing.
Heart on a Chess Board
"Every move counts. Gambling has always been a guy thing. Everyone knows that a harmless pastime to keep the bond between the buddies especially in sports but it seems when the time changed so did the categories under which this hobby pal. I thought it outrageously ridiculous. When i first heard that guys bet on girls to like seriously had the premier and champions leaks become so boring now that they had to play a girl's hard on a chessboard. I well. I'm sure the girls who fell victim to that had it coming. I figured dismissive lane. But how would one know if she is a viable candidate for such a game. Little did i know. I wouldn't say i carry myself about a high and almighty fashion. I have my standards. Yes maybe an answer to higher than the average uptown girl. But that doesn't make me proud right. I just know what i want. And let's just say. Compromise is at one of my favorite terms and one of them is dating someone at my workplace. Aside cited being virtual universal office rule. I just imagined the awkward torture have to subject myself to when we were in the middle of a fight or worse still an ugly breakup. And since i'm a boss. Yes i order guys around. I'd be tempted to subject the poor guy to the whims of my fluctuating moods. Especially when it looks like he was having a good day. I wasn't you see on the considerate. Selfless one here right. But the fact that one has good intentions doesn't mean everyone knows of them and respects them in all started when my mother started preaching the. It's your time to get settled sermon. I tried playing hide. And seek for a while. Which got me a little break time. But when i had exhausted all my excuses i knew i had to find someone so she could back-off me for a while so looking at my circle most of them were already taken any others clearly. Not my type. So i let down my guard. A little brought down the walls a little so the guy struggling to scale them
Interview With Author, Michelle Dykman
"Michelle, welcome to the podcast, get to talk to you. How are you doing today? I'm doing very well. Thanks and yourself, really good. That's warm today, so it's a good day. It is absolutely. We are cooking here in Ontario. That is for sure. Wage Nice. Speaking of Ontario before we get started talking about your book. Why don't you tell us a little bit about yourself where you live some of the things you like to do outside of writing. Okay, well I'm a recent import from South Africa to Canada. My husband and I moved to Canada two and a half years ago, after he received a call to come and work in a church in Canada. So, yeah, we're we're still kind of working out how life Works in Canada, from being in South Africa. I entire lives. The change has been very interesting especially when it comes to the winter. There's no snow like the yard. And first winter here was probably one of the worst ones Ontario's had in the last ten years we had we had to shovel ice storms. And we had a mess of, I don't know, storm that came out of Buffalo or something like that. So yeah, we had to dig ourselves out of our house and learn how to drive in the ice rain. So it was very interesting job. Do it? Yeah, were you born in South Africa or did you move there at some point? Not born and bred in South Africa? Wednesday for the first thirty years of my life. And then as I said mature and a half years ago we moved to Canada. My husband is also a native South African and yeah we were there the whole our whole lives and never thought we'd actually leave
American Greatness Reporter Julie Kelly on the Indictment of Oath Keepers
"That there were potential FBI sources that an infiltrated a lot of these groups say, tactic we've seen used in the past, and he mentions the Gretchen Whitmer case as well, if you could hit on that quickly as well. I mean, I think it was a really solid piece. I've looked through those charging documents to you Keep seeing these person. One person. Two people pop up. Well, who are they? Look in the case of the oath, keepers. You know, Of course, it makes total sense to have the FBI not just infiltrating these groups but provoking them like they did in this Gretchen Whitmer alleged kidnapping, uh, plot And so you know, these oath keepers I got to say, you know, I feel sorry for them. My heart breaks in a way there. They're They're kind of sad stories through the idea that they could get together, organized a conspiracy for which they're all being charged with without some professional inside help to kind of forced them to do what they did that day, which again was non violence makes complete sense. I mean, would you put anything past Christopher Wray at this point? Absolutely not. Yeah, I I sincerely doubt that you can. Uh, you can refute the fact that he is probably the worst director we've had in modern modern history. The FBI. I mean, listen, I'm saying that even with Jim Comey I mean, he has been absolutely awful. His failure to turn up anything other than sound bites on the entire spy gate scandal. Uh, you know, as I said in my show last week, Julie, I mean, we really have to start getting ahold of some new conspiracy theories because all of our old conspiracy theories have all come
Be Honest, What Limiting Beliefs Do You Have About Yourself?
"Three to one. And we're back. We've got a really cool topic. And this is something julian. I've been tossing back and forth a couple of weeks. And i'll tell you where the idea of. It's probably going to be in two or three podcasts. Little mini series where this came from is that sometimes You have these limiting beliefs about yourself and your potential and your life and your relationships and finances and help. They go and check in your mind for long periods of time to the point where these thoughts become innate and other words because they're unchecked you actually think subconsciously almost it becomes part of your your heart your hard core hard rooted software about what you think about life and i on a call with actually a listener and the listener was I think in their sixties early sixties and they were not where they wanted to be in these thoughts together sort of randomly. Because i have so many calls. But this is the essence of what i remember was they were having these limiting beliefs about their potential for financial freedom because of their age and this person remember correctly like i said early sixties and as i was talking to them trying to root out why they believed that they can't create some financial security for themselves because they're basically quiet despair about the idea that they would never be able to remove financial burdens from their back this person in particular of course this relates to a lot of people right and so i was joined down and the essence of their belief about why they wouldn't be able to achieve financial security let alone independence. Finally be free was because they think they thought that their health was fragile. And which i thought was interesting and so again as a good coach will do the. I question them about that. Ask them. it's possible right. This person could fragile health. This person could have a lot of extremists health issues. And so i i asked them about this particular issue or any issues that they might have turned out. The head nun.
Rosetta Stone Eruption Could Help Explain Solar Explosions
"Dramatic molly staged eruption on the sun as revealed new clues. That could upside is solved. The long standing mystery of what causes the sun's powerful and unpredictable explosions a report in the astrophysical journal letters claims and covering this fundamental physics could hope scientists better predict the eruptions which caused dangerous base weather events on earth. The explosion contain components of three different types of solar eruptions that usually occurs separately making it the first time. Such an event been observed having all free eruption types together in the one event provides side with something of a soda of sola version of the resistor align them to translate what they know about each top of solar eruption in order to better understand the other types of eruptions in the process. Uncovering the underlying mechanism. Which could explain all types of solar eruptions. The study's lead author. Emily mason from this as god spaceflight. Centering greenbelt maryland. Says the vent drives home the point that these eruptions that caused by the same mechanism simply on different scales eruptions on the sun usually come they of three forms a colonel massey jackson or see me a jet or passion eruption colonel massey jackson's and jets a both explosive eruptions casting energy and particles in the space but they h. Look very different. Jets erupting is narrow columns of sola material while colonel massey jackson so say form huge bubbles that expand out pushed in sculpture by the sun's magnetic fields paschel eruptions on the other hand. Start erupting from the service but don't develop enough energy to leave the sun so most of the material force back down onto the solar surface this rosetta stone eruption occurred back on march the twelfth and thirteenth in two thousand sixteen it was observed by an ss solid dynamics observatory spacecraft as well as the joint nassar in european space agency solar and helius freak observatory spacecraft. Soho what. Scientists saw the ejection of a heart layer of sola material above magnetically active region on the sun's surface.
Republicans to Introduce Censor Resolution Against the Squad for Contributing to Anti-Semitic Attacks
"Group of Republicans This is from Breitbart will introduce a sensor resolution to condemn and censure the so called squad. For defending foreign terrorist organizations and using rhetoric, which contributed anti Semitic attacks across the United States. Now you would think this is not controversial. We're talking, of course about centering Omar. An AOC and Talib and Presley. But it is controversial because this is the heart and soul of the Democrat Party. And the Republicans. The group has led by Michael Waltz of Florida. Good guy Jim Banks, Indiana. Claudia, attending New York. She's great to remember they tried to steal the race from her. The resolution says the squad members of defended foreign terrorist or I didn't hear the attorney general talk about this. I didn't hear that fake phony fraud. Merrick Garland talk about this. As the late great Bob Grant would say. The central resolution says the squad members have defended foreign terrorist organizations. And inciting anti Semitic attacks across the United States. And so forth. The group of Republicans wrote in the resolution that Talib has accused the Israeli government ethnic cleansing and claimed Israel was promoting racism and the human humanization. The resolution meant his Omar calling the Israel military response to Hamas strikes an act of terrorism rather than self defense. She also accused the United States are backing crimes against humanity. This is why Judy Jazz, Ceron. I want you to listen media it. Your low IQ Cuba phones, media matters you low I Cuba phones. Paid for him bought for This is a jihadi wing of the Democratic Party. Most Muslims do not conduct themselves this way.
Whether We Like It or Not, Jon Stewart Has a Lot of Credibility on the Other Side
"Weird. We're not calling it the Panamanian Canal Zone virus. We're not calling it the Austin, Texas virus. There are bats all over Australia. They're not calling it the Sydney or sure they're not calling it the Bondi Beach virus. They're calling it to Wuhan virus from China. And yet, Colbert. Colbert can't stand that. And he acknowledges openly on his show laughs about it. Yeah, we're probably going to edit this out. I don't know when they stopped taping, but I wish they would have stopped taping a minute ago because I'm a leftist, then left this thing conservatives are people really bad people with ideas. And we even though you're not a conservative, you're saying things conservatives say when you say things conservatives say that has to be crushed immediately. Folks. Political war is downstream from the culture war. Again. Jon Stewart's done some great things for cops and firemen. Sure his heart's in the right place there, but he's no friend to the conservative movement. He hasn't been for a long time. Done a lot of damage to strong conservative ideas. When these incidents happen, we need to highlight them. Because he has credibility on the other side. It pains me to tell you this that we simply don't have We are never going to break through unless ambassadors like this, whether they're taking up the mantle or not do the job some of the job for us
U.S. Leaders Gather to Mourn Nearly 600K American Virus Deaths
"The nation's leaders are honoring the nearly six hundred thousand Americans who have died of covert nineteen since the outbreak began legislative leaders gather to mark a moment of silence the builder heads but gave no speeches concluding by joining the soloist in singing god bless America as the done to show unity during other tragic events president Biden marked a grim milestone while still overseas my heart goes out to all those who lost a loved one the president says even though the death rate is dropping below four hundred Americans a day it's still a real tragedy having six hundred thousand cobit deaths is about equal to the number of Americans who died of cancer in twenty nineteen but the true Kobe death toll is believed to be much higher Jackie Quinn Washington
The Business of Predictive Real-Time Fantasy Esports with Nick Bucheleres, CEO Grin Gaming
"What experience has led you to start grin gaming, when it launched? It was last year, I believe, you know, you know, you leave it behind him. You leave it. You leave your previous position behind you. Start green gaming, what led you to that, conclusion, to start that up? Well, you know, as you said, I used to work at the Chicago Board of Trade, doing a high frequency and computerized trading. You know, I'm a Trader at heart. I will bet on anything and everything and turn every ping pong game took into a into a competition. And so you know, whenever I'm watching sports games or TV shows or Esports tournaments and constantly asking myself off to happen next, I bet they'll get that killer, I bet you know, Steph Curry easier to make that three. I bet you Clippers are going to win the tip-off and, you know, I figured I wasn't alone. And so really in many ways, I created this platform for myself, for my friends, right? As a way to put our money, where our mouth is at every beat of the song. Action. And so I'd grin gaming, we allow users and viewers to predict every play. Literally, so every 10-20 seconds, you get a new question that's perfect to the next outcome and you're able to to to just predict how the game will unfold. You're not predicting the outcome per se, but you're predicting performance of players teams. Offenses defense has different plays or game setups. So yeah, in many ways it was just a a way to satisfy my own, you know, thinking during Live
CDC to Meet on Rare Heart Inflammation Following COVID Vaccines
"Fading from view comes another potential twist. I wouldn't panic. The CDC says It will hold an emergency meeting this week to talk about a higher than usual number of cases of heart inflammation reported following Covid 19 vaccinations. Why is not entirely clear that obvious concern is that Some way. Somehow, the vaccine stimulates your immune system, which then acts against your heart causes injury to the heart. Another concern it seems to be popping up more and young people, According to a recent report, the CDC identified 226 cases of the condition called myocarditis in people, 30 or younger who received the Pfizer or Moderna vaccine. Most were mailed, and the conditions seem to occur more often after their second does with chest pain as the most common symptom myocarditis is rare across across the board. It is a rare thing, Cornwell says. Most young, healthy people should fully recover over time. A rare minority will have serious complications from it, which can be you know if you have permanent heart damage from inflammation of your heart. Um, that obviously is a serious problem. It's too early to say for certain if these cases are directly tied to the covid vaccine or the result of better reporting, But Cornwell says, it's all part of a learning process. Everything we do in medicine has risks. You know, A lot of what we do is a risk benefit ratio, and we try to apply the things where the benefits are large and the risks are small. The CDC's emergency meeting is scheduled for June 18th. Dr Cornwell says he expects will have a little more information on this in the next few weeks. Once Rachel skied
Tumult Disrupts Israeli Parliament as Netanyahu Era Ends
"Netanyahu served as israel's prime minister for the past twelve years the vote to replace him yesterday in the knesset was partisan as what we see in congress here in the. Us sixty is fifty nine. Nays with one person abstaining. Laura king is an la times global affairs correspondent. She's currently in israel. And was there for the knesset. Vote that saw netanyahu prime minister. Welcome to the times laura. Thank you described that final. Vote itself the scene. That happened during then afterwards. Well as long as the lead up to the vote. I think since the very last moment that something could go haywire for the new coalition and so the vote was about as close as it could be it was sixty to fifty nine with one abstention and so i think there was just an enormous insipid relief on the part of the new coalition. That was trying to ask prime minister. Benjamin netanyahu that they had actually pulled this off and i heard there was heckling there towards holly bennett. That new prime minister. Yes when he rose to speak there was a really concerted amount of heckling from the the allies of the outgoing prime minister barely letting him finish his sentences at times his kids who are in the gallery and they were making little heart symbols with their hands. I think trying to encourage their dad.
The G7's Fuzzy Climate Pledges
"Weekend. Summit of the g seven has concluded on the matter of the pandemic. The blocks pledge was clear. Cut it will deliver a billion vaccine doses to poor countries over the next year but another priority was climate change naturalist sir david and broke had pressed for cooperation on climate in a video message to the gathering the decisions. We make this decade in particular. The decisions made by the most economically. Advanced nations are the most important in human history. Britain's prime minister. Boris johnson suggested the leaders at the summit would meet the moment. We were clear this weekend. Action has to start with us in the end commitments on climate seemed straightforward solid emissions targets. A move away from coal a renewal of an annual hundred billion dollar budget to the developing world to deal with climate change but campaigners found the outcome disappointing oxfam called the summit a colossal failure before in the history of the g. Seven has been such a big filing in contrast to what needs to be the g. Seven summit serves as a template for the world can expect from the enormous cop twenty six climate meeting later this year and on that score the blocks pledges leave a little too much to the imagination. It's encouraging that climate change was at the heart. As the communique that came out to the g seven yesterday catrine break is the economist environment editor. And certainly there was some very lofty words in their relation to climate targets. But what's disappointing is that. They were incredibly vague on detail.
Meditation: The Presence Beyond Thoughts
"Making yourself at home in this moment. It's really coming into the moment. Feeling your breath new might feel and sense the breast touching the area of the heart. We begin with the inquiry. What is your deepest intention for meditation. Practice for being right here right now listen inwardly to what feels most sincere right. This moment feeling what most matters to feeling are shared aspiration these practices of presence will ripple out in a way that brings healing to our world in the stillness letcher awareness scan through your body notice if there's any areas of particular tightness or tension and see if just by bringing the attention there there can be some natural loosening or softening.
"heart" Discussed on Heart of This City
"The point where supporting her with words just wasn't doing doing it it. It started even to me sounding a little like formulaic. I'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry back in two thousand eleven eleven and twelve. I decided that one of the things i'm i love to do and i'm pretty good at is public speaking so i wrote this book every leadership and i started doing a keynote speeches and i give one hundred percent of my gross speaking fees and one hundred percent of the proceeds to honor my wife life and i do it for brain cancer research the organization which i love is head for the cure. They're actually in downtown. Kansas city sixteen o seven oak an extraordinary organization founded by matt anthony in his family because matt lost his brother to a brain tumor in two thousand and three. It's got a a staff now that it's grown to probably fifteen people. It's centered around five k. events but it's now expanding but it was kansas city the only at one point in two thousand nineteen. There's going to be twenty eight cities. The organization raises millions of dollars and i love it that is a that is what our families supports because of the anthonys and because of personally my wife chris and her illness and so that adds a level of drive and want to win and personalization to everyone of my speeches choose that i think puts an edge to it. That's good <hes> it makes me want to do it. I i rarely to be very fair. I i'm not sure i've ever been hired to speak speak because i give the money to charity. It is a factor if there are five factors. It's the fifth one it's on the list but but it's not the fifth one because if you're running a business and end i've been hired several times by cisco systems. They love my message. I get a chance to speak it to their senior. Leaders and talk about culture leadership. They are ecstatic that i give the money that they pay me to charity but that is not the reason they choose me. I have to be good at what i do and i have a message that resonates with people so that there's some application in learning for the or but make no mistake they still still think it's very cool and i'm glad they do and i do not come up short when it comes to talking about raising money for charity and so it gives me a form to be able to do that as of today gonna ask. I'm laurie hundred sixty seven thousand dollars doing these speeches. I'm not famous so i tend to get hired for somewhere between three and eight thousand dollars to do a keynote but it's amazing how that mounts up i though but i'd also thousands and thousands of the books and so oh eh managed to total from get real business alone three hundred sixty seven thousand dollars it's gone to the cure and i'm not stopping just in case. You wonder that's awesome. That's awesome. We've never stopped with the energy you have. I can't see you stopping at we can't stopping either and i wanna thank you and appreciate we just lost the family member a couple of weeks ago the brain cancer. Oh my wife's uncle so i i'm sure i appreciate everything that you're doing to give back and so when you were mentioning the three rs that definitely popped in my head about what you're doing to reinvest back in the back in the community routes so harry people want to learn more about you and your books and or head for the cure what what can they go to get more information. Thanks for asking. I left that out and i shouldn't have my website harry. S campbell dot com has the links needed to head for the cure and to amazon to buy the books and to ask me a question or to hire me to speak you can find out my bio if you're interested in where my storage are gonna come from the c._f._o. Would fit as a speaker but harry campbell dot com would i would say the center avid avenue from an organization standpoint head for the cure. Dot org is awesome. Several million more dollars will be raised this year and it is an extraordinarily low. Oh administrative organization with a vast majority of the dollars raised go. They are working dollars that go to help find a cure for four brain cancer and i'm very proud of that and i'm proud of how the organization is run jenna and as the executive director is just amazing using and i don't think i would be involved with it if it didn't have the right cause but it also wasn't administratively run so it was putting a vast majority jordan the money directly into the cause as opposed to paying staff. That's not what we're about and i salute that whole organization. I hope that my third book feeds my soul the way the my first two did and enables me to get a lot of speeches and as long as that happens. I'm going to keep pounding forward because when i started started this i didn't dream that i could get to five hundred thousand but in the next few years i have a chance to have a total of five hundred thousand raised in as a support horton tribute to my wife in the fight that she's gone through. That would be very cool. Were thinking of your wife and the fight that you're the you're going through into the fight what you're going through to to raise the funds. I'm sure i can speak for abraham when i say <hes> that are sold today so we really appreciate you being being read this and spending yvonne mary thanks for joining. I love it. I love you. Thanks guys so we wanna thank campbell round two with harry speaking of airy. What's interesting about harry. It's we've seen the conclusion of the. I don't know if you're a game of thrones fan but it's surprised me a little bit harry and i after a conversation started following each other on social media and he's quite the game of thrones fan. I was like for all this goodness question. We didn't ask him. I need to follow up with him as his his favorite character from game of thrones because as pure heart barry saint like man. That's a dark dark show to be watching. You likes to throw down to his wives. We wanna thank harry again in harry cenex. We'll be talking game of thrones any ronald talk about the the conversation. Will i'm excited. This show is not just relevant. I think he meant to focus on not people in the business world. I think there's a huge niche niche where he's actually addressing all this freelance. People who are in entrepreneurial game mindset is such an important thing. We don't have the right thoughts in the views in the right emotional state. We can't continue to really deal what we're called to doing. If you're in the entrepreneurial game it is such an important thing. Check out his book think it's going to be a really good simple. <unk> doesn't make it very competent very simple in sticky for people to really digest yet but again that book is get real mindset. It's book three of the get real series by harry s campbell so definitely check it out folks so if for abraham and me brent bowen. You've enjoyed today's episode. Go out and subscribe rate the show. 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"heart" Discussed on The Heart
"Now. Oh god. Like full Senate brace all night long. We sang we the bet. The start with the EMI dancing moving to have gone back to the Pakistani. Dancing voted together? Some like funny dancing. What do you feel? I'm going to have. Lovely moving. In hell, but in the hilly funds. Univer ever forget those moment. Even now. In two thousand. Sixteen. I was lease. I know I am like for fifty five. Any of our in actually. I remember one of the military. He had a meeting with me the last time you saw I wanted to to something he said. Sorry. For holding that long for nothing. He said. It's not official. But this from me. Sorry. When I sit goodbye to my brothers and to our animals, it was really hard. We have fears and years for each other. We have shared that life. We saw those animals get grown some of them died. Some get another keys feed them giving them name play with them. It's a part of our life. Want to miss this own color? People. See like the shock goes for life. There wasn't life. They airplane. And because of soup. Census in Yemen. I am. Serbia? Different country, which didn't have society around family member. Friends sweat part of my life. Tune some people, but because the stigma of going. When they get to ball to you. Try to stay away from me. So. After one time. I feel like am holding to find the love looking for. Sometime, I walk the street. So to young people they like, it was like movie, you can see they share. Sometime, I went to be in feeling I would like to have the same. I would like to love to be loved. Of course, like to have beautiful woman understanding. Our first more that she left me and. Okay. I haven't material. If I if I her I will I will Latino. Latino. Journey love and. And if. You can't find that. I'm sorry to that. You that life? You just exist. This episode of leavening was produced and edited by Sarah Geiss, crystal and Mayrhuber went on it was mixed by crystal. Haney enormous thanks to months or defeat for sharing the story. Love is an art and can be thought. Medical science study. Bottom must like everything tell we were to give courses hell to make. Hunt is currently writing a memoir about his time at Guantanamo. You can find links to his writing at our website, CBC dot CA slash love me where you can also see short video of months or I would like to send my regards to my friends Guantanamo until. Hey, haven't forgotten. I bought you. Special. Thanks to our Belgrade. Recording engineer Beth Jacob Aaron Thompson. Marcel corsair, Dustin, Milligan, Shannon, Heffernan and everyone else we consulted with for this episode. I'm Kelsey, thanks for listening. Subscribe to the podcast at
"heart" Discussed on The Heart
"Nice. If God caught me feeding those enormous I was punished. But I didn't care because. Those in almost if you love we feel happiness in your heart. And it's connect your soul, actually. And if you convert. Sometime. Look, those infamous imagine they would ask what brings you here guys. What being you hear what the orange suit who are you? Are you in case? We lived in fear, actually. I went and hunger. Many times there. The hunger. Strike was our peaceful means to protest tuition there. And when we aren't hundred strike, I can see those quitting their casts iguanas. Like, they just kept looking at us. I like embarrassing like went to cry because I did have full anger strike what to give them. It's hard to. I can just watch those starving like that feed them. When I start talking to my friend Francis. Iguana psychologists came to me, women and REO. Okay. They used to ask really crazy questions. Like do you want to carry yourself? Are you thinking to kill yourself? After like two thousand ten the rules, win the communal living was three Lexcen. They have a they went to keep us busy. They TV shows movies magazines. I watched some like glimmer girls was some sex in the city. And one of the good story was like north book was one of the best movies watching number. The not book is a movie where a lover Slava chatter, the wife, she lost her memory when she to all. And he would go to her and what story for the? Can you must watch it describe it good? But I think you should watch it annual. Thank you me. Of course, all that affect my view of the woman. What life I won't what kind of family would like what kind of woman I won't. I would like to marry a woman who is who is better than me. I don't care if she is a Muslim or Jew or Christian. I didn't care doesn't matter. And I would like to have two lovely little girls. I feel that it's like something missing always in quantum mechanics. Not complete. Because I never been with the lone before I never been in love before. So I didn't know how fells this something I missed. When I was nineteen years old. I was shipped to Guantanamo detention. Like a fifteen years there. One day was looking at my face the mirror when I wasn't hunger strike. I saw some gray hair phase in my head. What's talked. Fifteen years. One one day in our marriage close we made the wedding for one of detainees actually was a Yemeni. This wedding was like the end of the class the big the big day wedding day, then with choose one of our brothers who has little troublemaker. This guy's going to marry today. We agreed on some wife like chose one of the brothers to be the the bright, and our other would this sheet around him she then his head like many many. Today. We have what party we are going to cook. For three hundred people all kind of people imagine teachers engineer singer soldiers. Shifts tomato. Please the me now.
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"From that point of he taught us how to love our family how to build a family. He tried to get us to a shade women are life. I want to ask two questions emerging this life. It is no such thing called woman. This no mother start. There is no gear for nothing. Just men all men. We can imagine life like that. Like, some less. Love you face. Some of the people who attend our class. Some of them said we we are fair. How we treated our women. Really am sorry how we lift. And they're started like going to different now. One day when I was writing letters to my sister's for one of the teams came to me sit muscle if you wear married than you have wife, and you try to them to them how much you love them. How much you miss them to cave luff life? What going right? As the time. I never been in love before and half wife, but something come to my head. To my heart. Like in Arbor, we have some kind of very good phrase dislike to my heart like love. You are my heart beating. And I started like put an awards imagine beautiful live at I can tell you details. So. Unitive stuff here. So I wrote a letter at the first time they love it so much this entered to his wife. Then the word spread that. I'm writing letters for my brothers. I'm more came to can you write me this letter. To the love of my life. I I miss everything they have feelings. They can't put them in wards miss you. I miss you talks. I miss your under people like my writing wasn't that good. But to my age to my limit of the kitchen SIMS SIMS good, I missed those mornings. We knew us to through water on my face to wake me up, and they get very good feedback. You can see there is in those letters. Sometimes I asked my brothers to through author on my face for the sake of remembering. Love to wake of. Sudden moments. Of course, we had on your mother your sister. Even like, your friends, your me bit portfolio memory to to your freedom to your real life to to something you missing. We tried to hide it. If you're short, you'll affect yourself and other people round you buy you can see some people tear, and there is, but they want to show it. Remember guy, who's he's wife, divorced him and like to so much. He was crying. He was crying like a kid. He said like I have no reason to live for. We try to what's what survive we threat to encourage support each other in the best we could. We have nothing that we have only each other. One day was looking at that ground. The the fence. Then I saw little wizard. Our swig one in my life. I never even heard exist. They are very friendly, very social fish. That's here. Head likes ULA. Bend down. Or under the neck by the sensitive places. Gift her name name is Princess. So I just got Harry come here. Come here shield like come running to I like this. I like there's so much really. I used to fit with my hands. Apple banana dates swan of our tradition as ups, especially in my country in Yemen. If we eat we must invite everyone around and share of food. We developed a very good relationship with those in Barents. We have some vets to there was next. It was Benadryl rats to. But then we have cats they born actually there with us. So we took them feed them, clean them shower them, and they look very nice very clean, smell, very nice.
"heart" Discussed on The Heart
"Actually it like someone who's a drill inside your head. They tried to separate. Minds for but he's actually too. Sometime I used to just twenty eight years to try to sleep. In jail. You have the routine every day kills you? Go to the shower. Becca myself always garbs would shock. Oh hunt. Cuffs. We are not allowed to talk. We are not allowed to stand on at allowed even to look at the guards. And started the protest in our block. Store talk talk loudly and every time they come to beat me. Kick my beat my head against the ground was bleeding over and over again. We we didn't know about was going to have to us there. We didn't for how long. In jail. You have the routine every day kills you pry it light Gatien, no window, go to the shower. Bechtel myself, very bright. Wrong. After years we were moved to a communal camp. You can see people like in front of you in your rights in lift that can see can hear you only. Fencer serta's. It's like cages like have you seen cages in like when you go to Zoar, something you can talk. You can get your finger out. I'm social person like we close to the people note people like to talk to people. So imagine you have like almost seven hundred eighty detainee under forty eight nationality. You have teachers you have doctors you have diverse. You have pilots you have into nearest you have solders. You have all kind of people. Imagine it is a society, actually. So we learn from each other. We started teaching each other clauses. We got around. It's fast in his cell set our class like I remember, we have journalist from zero would of course, you know, how it works at making view. And so on. We have people from mafia too. Teach you how to steal a car. St. the Banco is something you learn from their experience. But the hardest glass was cooking class. In guantanamo. We had very little food. It wasn't prepared. So detainees started. He was Jeff before he get to jail, and he's going to teach you how to cook. Okay. Now, we are going to the market. We're going to buy to that to buy spices. Okay. Of course, the food wasn't trail. But we would pretend that it was there have to live like in our our world that we created their please come prepared the onion these hid oven. This like, okay. Now, imagine you Bert stomach. Why would get burn? It's a part of your cooking. You must get burned on that was like. We developed since of humor fun. We made fun of the guards of wherever we try not to take it sou- seriously. If you take a recent your never last. Most of us worry on so many single detainees. Started showering those who are married with questions. But the woman look like how the relationship what like o on questions? In our society, tuna, more about women's like forbidden thing. There's very limited information. So like one of the team is there. He was watching us like starving to know about marriage life about wife about everything. So he decide to start a class here about marriage. This professor he was actually he was a father who was has been was a lover. Actually, he was a professor of literature actually out of a show involving a lot of love stories and poetry zone. So we found some who's really expert in that. He taught us how to how you talk to the woman what kind of words the gifts, but the language. Fish expression. This is how you affect the woman. The woman look at you, women, perceive you. We are very heavy and the news of the marriage classes speed like lay on some semi six. Is it like they are the about the bed? It's like intercourse with the woman like imagine even have sex in your life. And this your first question. From
"heart" Discussed on The Heart
"France. It's me. Caitlyn pressed host of radio Topi as the heart. And now the shadows a new CBC podcast the show is about the quest for the ideal of romantic love. And how complicated that quest is the question of whether that idea is still with fighting for if it's elite. The show's fiction. It's like that saying fiction is the lie by which we tell the truth. Shadows is out now subscribe on I tunes wherever you're listening to podcasts. Welcome to the heart. I'm Caitlin pressed. For those of you who are still subscribed. I'm sure that every time a new episode pops up like oh my God. Well, I'll tell you. What's happening? We did across over with radio lab recently. Which was totally insane dream come true me TRE moved in with her partner. She has a job at thirty for thirty which is really cool show. You should totally listen for her on it Phoebe one really important award for her piece got in the gays, and she used her acceptance speech to like totally call out everyone in the industry about bullshit around diversity, practices and radio, and from that speech her and a group of people who are really bad ass made this directory, and you should Email the directory. It's POC radio hires at Jamila com. Jen has a superficial really cool design job me and Phoebe just finished making a huge project called the shadows. If you haven't listened to it, it's a fiction story six facades magical. Sharon is making show about her family. That's based on the story that she. Did for us about her mom that's gonna be super exciting. And it's gonna come out next year. Hopefully, and we brought someone new onto the team named marina. She is an angel. So yeah, those are all the updates for the heart right now, we are looking forward to the future. Wondering what next year is gonna look like we are reviving the quest for the revolution. What we really want to do is start to be able to put money towards the people in our communities, really important work. I don't know if you know anything about making media, but it's pretty hard when you're making something radical to get people to pay for it. So we kind of want to keep making the really important work that we've done on the heart and also just trying new things, and you know, experimenting with the form and making new shows. And so if you're one of those people who supports things that you love like the heart or like, the people who make the heart. You should write to me. Caitlyn pressed edgy Mel dot com where you know, looking for donations and people who can support by Nancy and also with their business genius skills. And the point of this episode is not all these updates. Just felt like I I had to tell you everything because you've probably been wondering this whole time. Like, what the hell's going on the reason why I'm here in your headphones again, his because I wanted to tell you about a show called love me that explores the messy -ness of human connection. It's made by two of our really dear friends, crystal do Heym and mirrored when tonic this is one of the stories from their new season. It's about a man who learned all about love while imprisoned at Guantanamo Bay. I never been aloft before. But at one to to see what's look like to be love. So there was a detainee was a detainee from love with the one of the guards. So I went to our so what's look like how you love her. And I'll stay all night long. Just look at her when she was in the tower guarding didn't feel pain. I didn't feel tired Evans either. I don't sleep. I just think about her. I said, okay. I want to know more. She is a guard your detaining she considers your enemy. Do you think love playbay our rules? Love is love. From CBC. This is love me. Today's episode to my heart. When I was nineteen years old I was shipped to Guantanamo detention. I didn't know where I was have no idea. Why was there? Imagine you live you nothing. Not you what they have done. This. We not our jobs. Just tuned to get you ask you questions. They told me were urine. Egyptian your your name is Abdel, and you are general. That's right to prove to the. I'm not. My name is sorta Dyfi I'm a son of a woman, my mother, actually, I love her. And she loved me. Of course, they have a big family. Eight sisters three brothers. I am from Yemen, actually. Peninsula, the country of love, actually, they call Yemen, heavy m is likely emissary in English means happy smut. Now, what will be shall? And I was brought to one it was very hard difficult being in relation contracting. When you come. Tearing one Yukon care, we could see anyone there is just steel bucks to Matrese wide sill knowing do what did the wonderful through the door with the Garth conceal. We have who on the ground as a bathroom. Very proud light. The control everything sleep. Air. It was really really loud. There's a huge fan like helicopter in front of the door running twenty four hours. God-like you can sleep. You can't you can even hear yourself. It is like hell. Actually
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"Being vulnerable so it's really a brave and strong thing to do. Oh yes but it's also necessary absolutely so I won't say one person that'd be great one person at a time what has has living with heart disease or even having survived your stroke taught you taught you about yourself taught you about life your family your support system. What are some of the lessons that you think you've learned just from your experience Well to talk about my relationship with my my husband we got really close and always longed for that and because we were all with a limited distance and doing certain stuff and you know you care about music music what I used to care about a materialistic stuff and you know get missing getting that. I no longer really craig stuff like that. I just wanted to live in a moment. I mean we never took vacations Intel about three years ago after my event so you know we take our vacations we enjoy each other so it's all about being present and living in the moment just enjoying taking every day and not taking anything for granted because everything of goal less in a matter of seconds because sometimes it does so this is about living and enjoying feeling love reciprocating that love and don't be intruder yourself. It's a really really the journey and it's a good if you learned adapt and just you know I love yourself and loving being office wasn't Sufa me and I found the strength to hear enough myself. I it's all about self care right now because I'm putting myself I. I never did that. It was all about Nicholson husband's okay. My son is okay. My daughter's okay and I got the the limit for the last of everything but no I'm not okay. They're not okay. If I can't take care of of myself I designate. Can't take care of them. What are you thankful for? I am thankful for life and thankful from breathing resume and I wake up but I go for my walks around five thirty in the morning and I am so. It's like conquer today because there was one point I couldn't even make it out of my bed so every morning. I wake up with his deal to say yes. I'm a conqueror from thankful for life. Absolutely it's it's the small things and you know the life as just the alternative. We don't want so just any day that you're alive is a good day So I get that now. We talked about how you've Shifted your mindset. Changed Your Life if you're healthy you're exercising but we're humans right so I know you try to live a healthy life and you're eating up your Brussels sprouts but do you have any guilty pleasures things that you just love and you know it's not good but you still indulge not really uh-huh oh we perfect. It's not that I'm perfect. I just know that if I do something like my husband that they went through who Who together than I really like that restaurant but I hadn't fries? I'm not going to eat that because I know what it's GonNa do to me and I feel it's like if I eat greasy I feel it so I try not even go there. I try to be you know. That's as good as I. You can do with eating and I'm really conscious of. Hey this is not good. I'll probably is my son if I take him to McDonalds. They'll have one fry but I would not no I don't even even think even want I don't want to be on the operating table again. I that's great. That's great and congratulations. That you've been able to stay on track you know and on living in your purpose in really being focused on on your goal and your path. So that's a great thing. I've failed so many times but I keep trying the hard but necessary right. So what do you like to do for fun right. I go a lot of US bents now now with my girlfriends and stuff you look for like social events to go deal which I never did before because I have a lot of free time now and I go Johnson Bookstore. We go to social events and just hang out and you know I you know. Sometimes I go for lunch. We have lunch dates. Sometimes I may I have a Amending Hartz I'd do a hospital so I try to keep my activity. I try to keep productive as possible. Now there are days that I can't give bed except for bad day right. I work my work around. Oh wait can you talk about the importance of having support and a support System for somebody either living with a chronic illness somebody who survived a stroke heart disease. How important it was to you? Ah for your recovery. Just to have your tribe and your network he is going to tell. You didn't shoot when I got there was so much more than my husband. He's young Um you know I'm young enough like okay. How are we going to make this work and and you know tell you? The I had a really good job and I was making great income and all of a sudden everything shift in. I'm like what am I gonNA do. How we're GONNA make tips on the finance aspect? I and There that was worried and just kill back a lot and you know I told my daughter. Hey we don't live in what we need avenue so you know like and you know I was like I'm so amazed you know. Hey actually years ago you know. We're on one income now with you know my my longest is safe. I'm happy stuff I I don't really worry too much about that. They said we stopped really spending and now on a relationship aspect. It's really hard because I always despaired that my husband would leave me. You know being so vulnerable being so sick we have to rely on this person thirty stuff. I did not really want him to deal. More steamy in a state and you try to ward off that there was some days that I couldn't play. Thank God and you know I We were not doing it for mum it was just a hug or kiss and that was enough for him and I thank God that our relationship is so much that that I mean we are. We are more sexually towards these as we listen to each other me talks a bit too much because he gets on the a lot of these things. I'm doing too much if I go to the genie back back. Why did you go to boot camp and that the half the size our relationship is in a better day and I think we we went into a vacation Schnitzel last year and we just pretend losses we got away from the situation right so we find some intimacy Mathie that losing lost so I really William grateful for that? Oh that's wonderful wonderful to hear so as we wrap up. Is there anything else else that you would like to share that. I have not asked you. It's so important that women know that numbers. I'm a big proponent for going to the doctor talk to you a one see your cholesterol level your blood pressure. It's so vital that she knows these numbers. I went to the doctor. We haven't who said I feel. I said professional patient not not exactly. You can't just go alternate doctor and he said Oh let me right to the subscription. No you have to be very active. The question Dr. Make sure you leave your lab results and know what's going on. You have to be an advocate for yourself because they may miss something you never know so important. Everyone's kick accountability on a diversity for her life. Start doing some stuff going to be a little selfish. But it's all about self care. I absolutely great great great advice and to all you out there listening There's so many tools out there online on the American Heart Association website on the go red for women website. So there's a lot of information out there that you can read up on So when you go to the doctor you know the right questions to ask you know what the risk factors in the symptoms. Dr And you really have to be your own advocate to really and listen to your body's because no one knows your body better than you do all right so we will wrap up there so I know you're on social media. Where can we find you? Yes My name is Evil Easy L. Ferguson and also also I had a blog dome with my cousin called living in my moment sharing our story our life like I said we're making can outlet tech is testimony. I'm you've learned to overcome so much that we have the sheer because it's all about reaching one person. Fan created to impact the world wonderful and we'll definitely go find her like in connect to learn more about her journey journey. And you know just to to build a community of survivors and people who are just doing the work to really empowered educate women about the respective for heart disease disease and stroke. Thank you so much for sharing spending time with us here today on the heart life and sharing your Heart Disease Jer App survival journey with us. Thank you so much conveyed.
"heart" Discussed on The Heart
"Sometimes there's a version of yourself that you don't want to admit. The heart isn't making new episodes right now, we have a glorious archive for you to explore story. I hope that you enjoy the episode that you're about to listen to. If you're dying to know with me and the team are getting up to drugs, go to impress dot org for whispers what's coming next. We're sending out secret things wanted to live a great love story of my own. Welcome. To the heart. It's me Caitlyn pressed. Oh, man. Have I ever missed you. Miss this music, and I miss this land. So me and some of the team PB Wang, Sharon machine. He shiny AVI ram have been working for the last year working really, really hard in my homeland of Canada, Toronto to be exact. And we finally, finally, finally have something to share. The show is called the shadows. In it. Someone named Caitlin who is me, but not me grapples with the question of romantic love the ideal of having it forever. And the question of whether it really exists. If you believe in it, does that mean that it will exist if you fight for it? Does that mean you'll find it. The actual episodes will be coming late September. But in the meantime, you can enjoy this short window into the world that we've created, make sure to subscribe to the shadows feet on I tunes or wherever you get your podcasts. You also follow us an Instagram and Twitter at the shadows CBC more soon. Miss you. Right. Me and my great love have souls that find each other again and again, and again, and again, and what. There's no room because you're raged fills a whole fucking room me and my great love. We'll be together forever. I guess I just always imagined use somebody. Me and my great love are made for each other. I'm trying to meet your standards, but. No, no, not standards. It's it's just basic common sense or something. You rissole mates anyway. Just mean you, how do you define monogamy like, where does it start and where it was like, what's cheating, unquote. We complete each other. Roomy wants said, when love I tasted the lips of being human. It started to sing. Shadows. From CBC podcasts in the press. Radio too. Ex-.
"heart" Discussed on The Heart Life
"There was no no one to talk to? There were no blog. They're I I didn't know anyone that was actually experiencing the same. I'm sure there were but no one was talking about it. And so I I remember one day to kind of breaking down on my bed and just praying to God and saying no this is no life and I I made. I made a promise. What's that that night on my bed when I was just like in fetal position and broken down I? I made a promise that this wasn't going to end with me. God Somehow Oh how could just give me the determination to get healthier. He could help me get healthier than that. I was going to do something good with it and so I got healthy and I was able to turn myself around and so I see it as my my goal in life and what I meant to do is help others get unhealthy and help inspire others to to get up and get healthy because it's scary. It's frightening nothing about it is comfortable and easy. And just if people hear my story and can even relate to it just a little bit they can just fight through that fear and understand that it. The fear never goes away. It never gets better better but you learn to live with it and you learn to adjust strike it down a moment it comes up. And what advice do you have for women. Living with her disease. My advice advice would be one to talk about it to find individuals in their life who are willing to talk to them and help them work through it to just to now I it yourself to have those moments where you break down and you cry because you can't be strong until you just break down into pieces and and in that moment where you are able to actually bring yourself together and start the fight and then I think my next set of advice would be to adjusts not settle with existing to push yourself to truly live life. Whatever that means for that person to just find? There's something in life that they love that they're passionate about into fight for it because that's going to make them better. You mentioned that earlier when you were going through your your journey at least initially didn't have a lot of people to talk to and there wasn't a space right so blogs or instagram to connect to other survivors or a community or as I call it now a movement where it's visible and there people actually living with heart disease who are talking about it. What do you think we can can do to raise awareness because a lot of people are still not aware that heart disease is the number one killer of women in this country again? I think Eh podcast like yours are going to be huge because it it comes down to networking in it. It comes down to finding various groups of people that you can reach out to so so for me. I obviously working with. You is going to be amazing. I work directly with the American Heart Association. I'm working together with Local hospital in my area to get the word out there and again with me. American Ninja Warrior to me. That was going to be the huge platform. Take kind of get my voice out to millions. who either wouldn't wouldn't have heard or never would have known in in the one thing that I've always said does that? I don't want people to remember my name and face. I want them to remember my story and to remember that like the fight is just worth it so yeah networking working. Networking is is key and finding those kind of larger formats to the league. Get Your Voice out there. That is so true because I like you believe that through storytelling right talking and connecting with other women and families and survivors. Then we'll get the word out that look it's it's US right. There's a face at my young person affected by this. Because I know whenever I share my story and the different groups and speaking seeking engagement the one thing I hear all the time but you're so young I'm sure you've heard that. Yep Yep many times like you're so young or oh you're so healthy like a lot of people say oh I'm really sick. I can't do this and I look at them like. Do you think I came from like I always with Bersin. I never thought I could be the person I was. I was sick person. I was sick. Mom that was it right. It is mindset and just having that shift and for everybody it is different but once they're able to make that shift mentally then you know the the world is really yours. What has living with her disease taught you living with heart? Disease has taught me that. I'm really blessed and I know that probably sounds Really funny because I I've been through a lot and I've I've gone through a lot of really scary experiences but if I didn't have heart to even had I not gone through do that moment of realizing that like I guess realizing how nonchalant I went about life I would never be taking in the moment says I do like every coming hug and kiss my son now. I I know it could be the last minute I do that. And every time I hug my fiance or say good night to them. I know that can be the last time and I think because of that. I've surrounded myself with so many amazing people who believe in living life in moments and and you just you stop taking advantage of of people and situations you just you just know that nothing can be taken for granted and I feel so blessed to be living the bank the life that I do because I I know everything can get taken away in an instant and in when you know that you do you live life to the fullest and it's incredible credible amen to that So before we wrap up any final thoughts is there anything. I haven't asked you that you would like to share with us. I think the last piece of invites that I would give to anyone going through. This is just not to give up the fight and if they find something in life that scares them to to to chase it because when you chase your that when you end up on on the other side happier than you could've ever believed that is so true. And and where can we find you molly. We WanNA connect with you on social media. Yeah so I am on instagram under Mali Hemp Hill climbs. And then I also have a website which is heart for adventure dot Org And I kind of use that as a platform to to reach got to others and Try to try to let others know things. I've gone through her patient. Absolutely great and with Europe era platform and just reaching out and continuing to be an advocate. And speaking more people will become aware. And it's great to that you are active your physical. Oh you're living your life and other people look at that. And they're like Oh my God. I WANNA do that too. So it's just amazing that you're able to turn your story and to use that to motivate rotate you and ultimately to impact other people's lives and it's a great thing and I only hope that I can help a lot of people and and one thing that I always say is a dog. Don't reach out for people to let I want people to reach back out to me and I respond that everyone that does whether it's email on my side on on instagram. I just I always connect absolutely.
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"Doing rock climbing competitions and I am competing again a lot of really good rock climbers and and I'm like keeping up with all of the men that I know that rock climb and so at that point I submit another video for American Ninja Warrior. And and I. I sent that to them to to kind of showcase what I've been doing as well as the work that I'm doing with American Heart Association so they know more about me and my background sure enough early this year. I got the call that said that I made it on American enjoy warrior. That's awesome. Is it for this current season. Yes Ah so the run through of the show It was for the La Qualifiers. It was in the back lot of Hollywood studios and it happened on March march six however I let them producer and casting director. Now that I couldn't do it because they had to have shoulder surgery and so they were. They were falling doing my instagram and they. They knew that I had injured my shoulder from rock climbing. I for my Laborem and completely detached. My Mike biped up how hard I've been training know. Reserve your spot for next season. You're guaranteed a spot. Yes yes they did so they let me know. Have your surgery. He'll up train. Come back next year. I told my son I'm like no like I got the call I made it and my son told me mom you don't need to prove anything you made it on the show you did episode your promise but for me I want to step on that stage Asian I wanNA run through that obstacle course my goodness but how green is a to set a goal work hard to achieve that that goal and to finally get it even though you didn't make the run because of your shoulder but to actually get selected and get the Call Hall to achieve your goal and to have your son say you did it mom the ad that was huge when I when I got the phone call I was just in complete clete tears and I was in complete shock just because of everything that I had gone through to get here I. I don't know if I ever believed that it would happen. Bend but somewhere along the way it got the point where I believed that I could do and in through this whole process. I I no longer need to take heart medication because because of the physical activity in the cardio that I put into this from just pushing myself like a normal athlete fix some of those electrical issues. So it's really really rare that I ever have arrhythmia point and my resting heart rate. which used to be a hundred beats per minute is now about seventy beats per minute so it's pretty incredible to let's see how even with heart disease I was able to strengthen it and I I do have a cardiac device now So I had that towards the end of last year and until I was out for a few weeks but y'all got back into climbing and it it does definitely hasn't stopped me from from doing anything or training and in fact I run a lot faster astor now than I used to do. which is pretty cool? So molly how do you keep yourself motivated during difficult times because it sounds like you're pretty motivated. Automated screw it. I'm just going to do what I want. I'm GonNa live my life and be happy about it but but how do you keep that energy going. I think it's because of everything everything that I went through like having having a bad marriage where where I had someone. That wasn't supporting me wanting to get healthy. It just threw me off like I have to do this for myself. And I'm going to do it and I had a lot of people in my life that didn't believe in me and I think because there is a lot of people that didn't believe believe me it just kind of like it. was that that plane that just kind of let that fire now like while I'm going to do it like watch me do it and I just put in the work and I just ate really clean and started eating food that fueled my body that fueled my heart and even after shoulder surgery. I I still don't know when I can climb again. It's going to be a handful of months. And so for her two weeks after surgery I was told you can't do anything and I. I was personally really afraid that I kind of get like a little depressing kind of go into that dark space like what I did when I was sick but those two weeks were actually pretty great rats from normal. Aw workload that I put myself through with with training inside Kinda sat on my couch for for two weeks and and Bend Watch the office which was great it was a really great too weak and then after that I talk to my physical therapist. I'm like okay. What can I do so she said well? You can do a stationary bike. And I was like. Oh my gosh really and and so I had to figure out how to make it fun so like okay. Let's do thirty minutes on the stationary bike. So I did that. And then the next day it was okay. Well I'm going to increase the intensity do thirty minutes. And then the day after that I decided to increase the intensity and do forty five minutes and so every day. I just kind of everyday through my recovery from my shoulder. I've made a game of what I've been doing because nothing about me loved stationary bike and nothing about me. Love running that kind kind of made games of everything like seeing how fast I can run and in seeing how long it can go on the stationary bike at a higher intensity and it's again made made my heart stronger because the other day went out on a run for two miles in my face was nine minutes fourteen seconds. which for me? It's back like I don't think I've ever done table. The eleven minute mile let alone over over two miles so I was were made really fast as well because I'm somewhere at fourteen minutes and so when I when I kind of I am seeing this and I've been a little sad about the fact that I can't climb I am but I'm seeing these other challenges that I've never looked at like especially with running. I'm like okay. Well how much can I push myself over three miles and so for me again. It's just it's a game and I think to myself will. How can I make this fun? What can I do to push myself? How can I make myself better stronger? And I'm like in the best cardio shape I've ever been in because I've taken that time away from climbing wall my shoulder he'll just focus on my heart and Cardio Oh and pushing myself and my legs are just. They're so sore there though that. That's great do you sometimes feel After going through everything you've gone through that you could just do anything like 'cause I know for me. I use that as fuel so when I'm up against thank you know a challenge or stressful situation or just live struggles everyday struggles and challenges. That comes or way I literally say to myself I self. You've been through to open heart surgeries. You'll be okay. Do you use that sometimes to motivate yourself to push through. Yeah absolutely the I I use that all the time because I in fact I have a a necklace that I wear. That says unstoppable. And I don't wear it because I'm arrogant or or cocky I wear it because I know that there are things in life. That could stop me. I mean they're unforeseen thing But as long as I'm pushing as long as I'm trying like nothing can stop me and so when I have things that come my way I just I pushed right career whether it's work or that happened in my personal life. I always remember like I been through Helen back with my sickness. And I've been through hopelessness. I've been through my heart stopping and not being able to do anything like I can get through this and again it's just for me. It's motivation in and because of that I don't give myself excuses I think the biggest thing if I'm tired if I'm exhausted because maybe my heart got kind of have a good workout the day before instead of saying note. I'm going to take the day off. I say Noah I'M GONNA push my heart a little bit harder because it needs to be stronger and I just I push rush myself and I don't let being tied or not feeling good the in excuse for me why sharing your heart disease survivor's story with other women important to to you for me. It is really important because I again. I understand how isolating it was in. When I was sick like years ago there was.
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"Stats. They immediately immediately brought me to the back and I was given a realm which for anyone who's been to the emergency room is hard to instantly get in there so that should have kind of hit me off that something bad was going on so after you got your room in the emergency room did did yes? You had an idea that okay. This is probably more serious than I thought but wasn't alarm bells at that point for you know at that point. I didn't even have alarm bell that it was more it just kind of nervousness of. Oh well what are they going to do. And how are they GONNA slow my heart down I it didn't hit me until I had the bunch of people rush into the room and Doctors and nurses told me that I was in a really dangerous Arrhythmia and that they had had to stop my heart which again being? I was only twenty five years old at the time. And I'm looking around thinking like what do you mean you. We need to stop my heart lake. Don't you just give people medicine for this I didn't realize that it was dangerous. And here. I am like two and a half hours. After it started did dealing with this really bad arrhythmia not realizing that it could have killed May. So I'm I'm sitting there and and they bring in this. Really strange into the medication is called Edina seen And it comes in an injection. And and what they have to do they have to Just put it through intravenously genius. They push it down really hard to get it to go through your veins quickly and so they came in. They did that and I just remember this horrible horrible Russia's pain across my head. I felt like I was on fire. I have this horrible headache and then a pain across my chest down my arm down down both legs and I remember trying to like Moan in pain but I couldn't even get a noise out and That didn't stop might do that. That didn't slow my heart down like it like it should have. It stopped my heart but when my heart started beating again is still in a really dangerous arrhythmia so they decided after after that to Double the dosage. They did that again and again. Just the intense pain across my face and my head down my arm can leg and I just remember just feeling absolutely horrible and it just it completely takes the breath out of you And on my heart surgery beating again after that It was still going one hundred eighty permanent and it wasn't flowing. No my God so I have to ask you this. What happens when they stop your heart or you still conscious? Yeah so when they stopped your heart you are still conscious when it happens I think for some people they they deepak out But I was. I was conscious because it. It's a very short period of time. I think it's somewhere between like one and three seconds When your heart stops and and so for me staying awake through that it was the Mojo intense pain? I've ever been through in my entire life. It it's a feeling that I I can't really describe but it it was really scary. It was really really scary. It sounds terrifying so that did not work the second time after they doubled up on the dosage so At that point they left the room. I came in like just a couple minutes later. And that's when they let me know. I know that they needed to cardioversion me. The doctor gave me a piece of paper and and explain that Like one of the things could happen. That that The cardioversion will stop my heart and bring it back to a normal rhythm. It could stop my heart and then begin in an even more dangerous arrhythmia or won't start again and so he explained that the waiver that I needed to sign a acknowledging the fact that I might not wake up after that all my God. That's awful just to be in that situation everything going going on all at once and then having to sign of course I understand that I may die yet and it. It was pretty awful because I I remember like in that moment when I was signing the piece of paper I was thinking about my son at my parents house and how I just kind of nonchalantly like hugged him and kissed on like I didn't it in my head out of the twenty five year old. I didn't realize that that could have been the last time my son saw me and I knew that because he was so little there's just he wouldn't have even remembered me AF I didn't make it and having to go through all of those things and my head really brought to life the importance of of living in moments and. I don't think that most young people realize that until you go through a situation where you you realize that your life could just be gone in an instant absolutely we absolutely so you signed the waiver and they operated on you yet though I sign the waiver and they use propofol to me too late and then they cardi. We averted me and I woke up. I had these burn marks on my chest and on on my back from them Having Cardio voted me and when I woke up the I was I really happy that I was. I was waking up and I asked them I said did at work. They said Yeah. We think it worked But it was only thirty minutes later. My hurt went back to one hundred. Eighty beats per minute My goodness at that point they had had to give me a special type of Beta blocker. With which is a medication not out kind of relaxes the heart and slow down And and luckily for me that I did work So I was hospitalized after that for a few days while they kind of ran some tests to figure out what was wrong. Where your parents call or you? Did they show up at any point during that whole process. Yes so my son's father was was with me and right before our radio voted. I told them that I didn't want him to call my parents to let them know what was going on until he knew whether I made it or not. Because I didn't want him calling them beforehand and letting them know. Hey this could happen. I would rather have been called afterwards just letting them know what what did occur I just I. I didn't want to worry them and I felt that was the right thing to do to kind of guard them so that way I mean they'd either get a call with good news or bad news rather than having to wait to find out what the news would be right. That must've been awful choice to make but I do understand understand And even in that moment when you were going to your own struggle you were thinking about your parents and protecting them. Yeah absolutely yeah I. I wanted to make sure that they were okay. And I didn't want them having to sit around and wait for a call to find out whether whether or not their daughter was going to be okay so that was successful. You are in the hospital for a couple of days and then discharged home where there any after effects of the procedures and then are there any limitations living with your condition. Yeah so shortly afterward. They ended up removing my thyroid breath because my thyroid was overactive and it was causing a lot of those heart problems. So I had the underlying electrical issue It's an extra pathway halfway creating that really fast heart rate But by removing the thyroid they were really hoping not would fix the problem but it didn't and so for the next three years after that I was in and out of just multiple procedures multiple of leash and that they all echocardiogram to try to figure out if there were other issues creating those additional Kaku as and and finally the decision. Not they they him to. Is that the additional pathway that was creating my Arrhythmia Because after that point in time I was having arrhythmias every single day multiple. We'll times per day. They realized that they couldn't Ab- laid it. If they did that then it would leave me with a pacemaker and Because I had a really really conservative surgeon at the time he was against doing not I remember waking up from that that particular procedure in him telling me no. We couldn't do you it. We weren't able to a late yo and it was kind of that moment of of hopelessness where I just I had gone. The last three years is not living life. I couldn't even walk up the stairs without my heart going crazy and I was afraid.
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"Life is unpredictable. That's for sure This is definitely not what I thought. My life was going to be before this ever. I had a lot of different goals and aspirations and I wanted wanted to be any even out of adjusted when I first got diagnosed at fifteen. We'll with my transplant. Fifteen and then when I thought I was going to do something else at twenty and then had to re look at everything again in my mid twenties. You know this is just life and so it's very unpredictable and it is just taught me just to take everything day by day and you know. Just be happy that I'm hearing. Oh you know move forward and see what I can do because it's definitely hasn't been easy Welcome to episode two of the heart light. Today we'll meet Amanda. To Hey sues Amanda is a fun loving vibrant twenty nine year old woman who was born with congenital heart disease she's had multiple surgeries and procedures over the years but she his now let that slowed her down today. Amanda is a proud advocate for the women's heart health movement..
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"So this episode of the podcast was all about me and my heart story and I promise so you. All the episodes won't be about me. Every week I will be interviewing a differen- heart disease survivor. And it's going to be in the format of an interview and I have of my producer here with me Sarah and she will interview me so you can have a sampling of some of the questions. And the things that will be discussing with her Guests going forward. So what would you say has been your lowest point or your biggest fear about your condition so my biggest fear right now is just knowing knowing that I will need another surgery. I know the day's GonNa come. Were I'm going to go in for one of my routine. Follow up appointments with my cardiologist. Just and we're going to have that conversation that it's time that the valve has deteriorated and now we need to go in and do another surgery. So it's something I think about from time to time. And why is sharing your heart story with other women. Something that's important to you. It's important to me because heart disease is the number one killer of women in this country and a lot of people aren't aware of that. I know when I go and talk and share my story. The one thing I the one feedback back I get is that all but you're so young. People are not aware that young people are affected and young women are affected. And I feel that by having these conversations and through this podcast or even just talking and interacting with people just sharing my story it puts a face ace to heart disease so they know okay. Here's someone I know or somebody who shared their experience and if by sharing my story I could get one woman to not really think about her health and think about the changes that she could make in her life just to protect her heart and prevent heart disease. Then it'll be worth it for me. And what advice do you have for other women that are living with heart disease. I think the one thing I will say that don't give up. You know. Just keep keep going try to live a meaningful life within those limitations. I know for me I love to travel and to experience different things and rather than sit and just be worried about the fact that I do have heart disease and I will need another surgery. I've decided to just live my life and still experience the things that I want to experience and have fun with it. So that's what I would say. Still continue to live your life and just have fun and many people are not aware that heart disease is the number one killer women in this country in the US. So why do you think that is. It's it's people think cancer they think breast cancer you know and of course. A lot of women are affected by breast cancer each year but a lot of folks just don't think heart disease is the number number one killer for women because they haven't heard enough stories so I'm hoping through this podcast. We can at least get the word out and by other woman then stepping up and sharing their stories. Then we'll start that conversation and hopefully we'll we'll raise awareness. And what do you think that you are. We can all do together to raise awareness about women and heart disease. I think it's I'm through storytelling. So really just sharing your experience with other folks and just advocacy. You know if you know someone who is living with heart disease just support and encourage them. There's so many different charities that Support women living with heart disease. But it's really just being as vocal about the issue and just visible about the issue so more or people will then be aware so what has living with heart disease taught you the one thing I would say is that just live you know. Don't own sweat the small stuff it's GonNa be okay whatever it is I know one of the things and this is just me when I'm going through something difficult whether it's at work or whatever it is I literally say to myself you've had two open heart surgery like get over it you know. So they're things that are far bigger and more important so it just try to live a meaningful life. Spent time with the people. You love. Do the things that you enjoy as well because you only got one shot at this life. So what are you thankful for. I am thankful for well to be alive because that story could have gone wrong in so many levels but my my daughter you know. She's of course as a parent. You Love Your Kid. That goes without saying right but I often joke that she saved my life because if she wasn't in distress when I was pregnant with her and they didn't have the emergency c section and then subsequently we found out I had heart issues issues than we both would have died because I was in heart failure I was going to die. Fire remained pregnant so I look at her and thankful for her. Because that whole situation kind.
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"I remember are you know just doing a series of tests and stress tests just to really see what was going on and when they called with the results he wanted me to commend for a conversation and I remember he said bring somebody with you. Don't come alone and that's when I knew okay you know this. This is not good pretty serious. I needed support so I went to the appointment and we talked about the results of all the test I had done and this it was about September two thousand twelve and that's was the first time he mentioned that I will need surgery. We explored the different options for surgery at that time. So my cardiologists was concerned that my mitral valve the leaking was severe enough and it was putting too much pressure on my heart and there was some enlargement because of that so he suggested a repair so to repair the mitral valve. I did all my research. I agreed that I was going to go with that course of treatment. And on December Eleventh Two thousand twelve I underwent my first open heart surgery. It was terrifying. I bought a lot of emotion because I was always healthy. I ate the right thing exercise. I didn't smoke. How did this happen happened to me so at thirty one years old? I had a mitral valve repair and try Valve repair surgery done. The Heart Valve repair was successful. I I just remember leading up to the surgery. I think I was a little bit in denial. So it was business as usual as you all kind of just going through my day day to day activities but as it got closer to the scheduled day of my surgery. I think I just got really I. I was scared because I didn't know what to expect the day of the surgery. You know I went in had the surgery and all I remember when I finally woke up was just incredible pain that I was feeling it. It was very very painful. I remember that so. The surgery was a successful. I was in the hospital for five days and then I was discharged and I went home to continue my recovery. My total recovery. I think thank was about six months so gradually was able to get back to just my regular activities of daily living. After about six months I was cleared word to continue living my life as an active thirty one year old so I was able to start exercising again and just kind of regaining my strength. I felt after that that the the ordeal was over right. There was something wrong with my heart. They fixed it so problem solved. It's it's time to continue with my life. My cardiologist and I decided that we were going to follow wop every year so I'd have an annual exam each year just to check to see how my heart was doing but I didn't think at that time that anything would go wrong or that. I would need another surgery. It was just routine. Let's just follow up with you each a year to see how you were doing so I felt the ordeal was over and when I went in for one of my routine echocardiogram and October two thousand and fifteen. I learned that the repair failed. The MITRAL regurgitation had returned. I was I was angry. I really felt out that I had already gotten over that. And through that and that we fix the problem so how is it that two years later there was another issue with my a heart. I think it was harder to hear it that second time than the first time the first time it was you know okay. Let's do what we have to do. But the second second time when I had to hear that you need another surgery because the first surgery didn't work I was angry. I was mad at myself because I what did I make the wrong decision. The first time should I have gotten a replacement instead of a repair. I was mad at my cardiologists. You know did he give give me the wrong advice. I was mad at my surgeon. Did they do something wrong. Why didn't the surgery last more than two years? In any event we decided again and that I need another surgery and this time instead of doing a repair hair we would replace the valve so that led me to to another decision. That was very difficult. I had to choose whether I wanted to replace the mitral valve with a mechanical valve. which which would require me to be on a blood thinner for the rest of my life or whatever? I wanted to go with a tissue valve. which doesn't last last as long as the mechanical? It was a very tough decision but at the end of it I decided I was going to go with the tissue valve because I did not want want to be on a blood thinner for the rest of my life on May six two thousand sixteen. I had my second open heart surgery where they replaced my Mitral troll valve. I was in the hospital for four days and was discharged home to recover once again. My recovery three. I was home for about two months. I think after the first two or three the first two or three weeks I was able to start read walking on my treadmill and just slowly kind of working myself back up to where I was before my surgery. I will say the second time around. It was a little easier after the surgery because I knew I knew what to expect because I'd been through it before. So that made that whole recovery coverage process just a little easier so my life now consists of just routine six month visits to my cardiologist where he'll continue to monitor my heart. The only concern that we have at this point is that I never had symptoms. Even when I was in heart failure or my heart was enlarged I was still just active and running and still able to do all the things that I wanted to do. So that's the only concern and that's why I'm being monitored undeterred so closely because I'm asymmetric so they just have to keep an eye on me just to make sure that even though I don't have symptoms there isn't something going on inside my a body that we should be aware of today. I am thirty six years old and I try to be as healthy as I can. I try to make the right choices in terms of what I eat and the activities I engage in just as a way to protect my heart. I know I will need another surgery. Because that's one one of the I. Guess the disadvantages of opting for the tissue valve because it doesn't last as long in younger people so at some point. Ain't we expect that the valve will deteriorate and I will need a third surgery. I am hoping that it won't be anytime soon. On average I've been told that tissue valves and people my age usually last eight to fifteen years so I'm hoping for fifteen plus plus years with us foul but that is that's.
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