35 Burst results for "Bipolar"
Disgraced Comedian Jeff Garlin Wants Your Sympathy
"Well, gang, what's the best way to overcome being accused of being a brute on the set or someone who gives out long and unwanted hugs to female cast members? Maybe even spends the entire shoot walking out vagina jokes, well, I think they kill your character off, you know what you do? You make up a fake diagnosis for some pity. That's right, folks. Former star of the goldbergs and comedian Jeff garlin who left the long running sitcom last year because of all those misconduct allegations, has now revealed he is suffering from bipolar disorder. Yeah. 60 years old, never knew. You know? I know, I knew he was suffering from the disease of being an asshole. I knew that many years ago when he decided to make me a part of his act at the comedy store during one of his sets and I threatened to punch the shit out of him. And then Pauly Shore had to run out from behind the wings and please tell me to calm down and my manager at the time who was next to me said AJ, don't do it, don't do it. You can't beat a comedian who's holding a microphone. I said, Howard, I'm going to beat him with his own microphone. Jeff garlin said, buy polar is a mother. Sometimes it's just too much to deal with. Said that late Tuesday night. But I'm doing the best I can. The first time I've opened up about this. Yeah, that's pretty interesting. So let me ask you a question. When you try to lean on, not try. When you leaned in for a kiss and a cup of feel what that beautiful female author friend of mine is that part of the bipolar illness,
Big Is Not Always Bad With Robert Bork, Jr.
"Especially in the last few years the prevailing idea around this is, is that if it's big that it is bad. I think that's become the understanding and I hear this all the time from members of how you heard it from members of Congress, heard it from members of the media that would say simply because something is big. And let's just say name your company from Amazon to Exxon, whatever it's bad and it inherently causes problems in the marketplace. What's your dad's book and what's your foundation is actually looking at though is going back to that true understanding is does this protect the consumer and is there in it by being big? Is there an excerpt exhortation or something or forcing of these bigger companies to keep people out of the marketplace or to extort an unordered problem in the marketplace? Right. Why do you think that builds, I mean, it's easy to understand why the quote big is bad thing. How do we overcome that though because the reality of most Americans Americans is is that they use these companies. I mean, they enjoy going to Walmart. You know, it's an interesting sort of bipolar kind of concept here. Well, you remind me of my grandmother, my father's mother, late Elizabeth bork, who I remember saying when we were living in New Haven, Connecticut, when he was teaching at Yale law school, and she was grumbling about the corner grocery store, the orange street market. And why they didn't have a lot of things. And the prices were high. And so she was starting to go to the supermarket. This is probably in the 60s, 70s. And. That was, that was an example of how big made her life better, but she was grumbling about the small being so instead of preserving small, companies found big box stores found ways to Walmart is a perfect example. Walmart has achieved so much for the consumer. I mean, I think I saw a number estimated $260 billion in savings to consumers over $2300 per household
Kanye West Cuts Partnership With Adidas
"Kanye West says that China manufacture manufacturing was partially behind his decision to cut ties with Adidas. So your boy, Kanye West, the sensitive man himself. You know, I really don't like Kanye West that much, man. I ain't even lie. I don't have respect for men who are unstable. Now, each is on. You can be cool or whatever. I just don't. And maybe it's not his fault. Maybe he's bipolar or something. I don't like men or the unstable. I don't like a man that I go in a room with him and you don't know what he's going to be like today. He and his feelings so he would flip out on somebody. He go do some erratic stuff because he's in his feelings. To me, I like men who are stable. I appreciate men who are stable. I admire men who are stable. And it may not be your fault, but I like what I like. I support what I support. And every time I turn around it's like Kanye is doing something flip, flip it stuff.
The Media Capitalizes on the Capitalization of Race
"I'm syndicated by creator syndicate. My column each week. So I wrote black and I see it on the Internet that night after I submitted it. And black is capitalized. Oh God. They edited it to because that is the new rule. So did you insist? Oh, there's never again capitalized why he's not, by the way, they are starting to capitalize white. I am seeing that I don't know if The New York Times is, but I am seeing it more and more often. That's right. By the way, I'm just forgive me. I just curious since they say that Asians are yellow. The yellow race, the red race, it's basically yellow, red. Do they say that? Black brown, I thought so. Well, why do they say Asians are? Well, I was always taught in school that yellow was wrong. It's wrong. Okay, so drop yellow. So red. Is red right for the American Indian? No, I haven't heard that either. What about Brown? Brown is fine. So will they capitalize Brown? That's all I'm asking. I'm curious. Right. I don't know. I've never seen it capitalized. I've never I've seen bipoc. I've seen bipolar. Bipoc is black and indigenous people of color. So I think Brown fits into that category. I have no idea. The thing that I can't understand is why can't these people see, okay, maybe capitalizing one letter isn't a big deal. I mean, of course, I think it is. But can't they see that these small, the seemingly small things indicate huge, huge irrationality, and doesn't that somehow register with them? You know, Dennis and other thing I wonder is I'm having these debates with people my age. And often I say to them, you know, it's very in Vogue for you to support these ideas now. But what if you went to school in your kids had to wear a mask or your kids were being taught these radical gender theories? How would you feel? But I don't know. That's right. We see a lot of parents who are completely fine with it. So maybe that's no, it doesn't work. That's the best observation. That is correct.
Is Pure Evil the Reason Behind Mass Murderers?
"But you have to ask yourself how is it explainable other than the existence of pure evil You say oh it's mental health is it Is it mental health Because let me tell you something again I hate citing education two days in a row so it's going to have to stop for at least another 6 months Because it's just weak people cite their education when they can't explain an argument without relying on their CV right But for a moment forgive me folks there are a lot of people who have serious mental health disorders Schizophrenia is schizoaffective disorders personality issues bipolar disorder TBIs There are a lot of people who have serious cerebral damage They don't go out and murder a bunch of 9 year olds You know and you say well maybe it's just like the video games and the entertainment Well like I said yesterday I don't think a lot of that stuff helps but I don't blame them I mean I like video games growing up I used to watch Chuck Norris movies and James Bond movies You know my dad let me watch invasion USA when I was I don't know how old I was 8 9 There was a lot of dead bodies in that I never went out and be like wow that would be cool if I could whack a few people That never happened either So if it's not the mental health and it's not the video games it is not the violent movies Is it some combination of it all I mean maybe evil is the explanation
The Ukraziness of the Ukraine War
"I'm hearing a lot of, well, I'm going to call it U craziness in the context of the Ukraine war. And I'm hearing it not only from Democrats, but also from Republicans. I mean, phrases like, yeah, there are fascists and Nazis fighting on the side of Ukraine, but you know they're good fascists or they're good Nazis. No. No one puts it exactly that way, but that's kind of the implication of their position, or yes, you know, World War three, if it's going to come, it's going to come, or some people even take the position we are in World War three. And I think to myself, how is it that our thinking has become so detached? Not just from reality, but from a very useful way to look at reality that can be called realism, realism is nothing more than seeing the world for what it is and understanding not just human beings, but states for what they are and the basis for which on which they act. Now, realism was the governing philosophy of the 19th century, every state acted in its own self interest. Nobody expected otherwise people, of course, would make alliances with other states, but the point of that was to counter the influence of still other states. And it was a multipolar world. There was a lot of, of course, internecine rivalry among the European powers in particular between Britain and France. And then we moved into the 20th century, which was defined, of course, by the bipolar conflict of the Cold War. And it was in that context that the west came up with some very clever international schemes to strengthen its own side of the conflict. And these were things like the United Nations, the international organizations like the monetary fund, of course there were all kinds of regional alliances on top of that. There was commissions of human rights, the Geneva convention, and most importantly NATO.
Demi Lovato Is a Miserable Hypocrite
"I bring up Demi Lovato a lot on this show because you're such a filthy hypocrite, you know, thirst trap of a person, and there was no reason for her to act this way or the other. This is the person that's been given a second chance at life. And she's fouling it up again because she doesn't know what she wants. Doesn't know what she desires. Decides to tell us, leave her alone. Leave me alone. I don't want to be bothered. Then she does things like this that make everybody want to question her and shake her by the shoulders. She said the other day on Instagram, there was some kind of Instagram account that asked its followers to describe their previous relationship in three words. And Demi Lovato wrote down my vibrators better. Now she's clearly dragging her ex-boyfriend max ehrich, who I always knew was a bullshit relationship. He wanted it for clout. She wanted it. Meanwhile, we come to find out. She doesn't even like men. And what she's done now with her hair and eyebrows and the spite of tattoo and then everything about her. She's miserable. This is a miserable person. Don't ever think you're looking at her as somebody who's happy. I got so mad when good people die and bad people go on to prosper. You gotta believe in karma somewhere down the road. Because I know she's got a vibrator to push because I think she came out with her own recently. It makes me sick. I don't care if you use a vibrator. I don't care. I've been in relationships with girls like them and it's fun, and that's all good. But when you come out with your own, you're looking for some kind of attention. I don't know what you want to. You're a pop singer. And clearly, you're not being made happy down in those regions of your body. Not by men or women. So you go into the business of creating a piece of machinery that can do it for you. All right, good, but can you keep it private? No one wants to see you or think about you using your invention or on top of that just dragging the guy that actually asked you to marry him, which, again, I never believed that for a second, but this is the kind of girl she is. And we're all supposed to bow down to her when she wants her privacy and please leave me alone. I have weight issues and I have mental health issues and I'm bipolar. Yeah, you fucking nuts is what you want. You're
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Page one thirty. No roscoe's bag come on roscoe's back elites right d. twenty six a book were thirty gold pieces in three alchemy. Trade goods outcome crafting material worth two hundred goal pieces. So all right now very much. But it's something okay and thus we'll go ahead and end today's adventure. They return back to the hotel or their tavern. Heavy successfully rescued the lady. And we'll go ahead and take a long rest at the tavern. Thank you so much for tuning into this adventure with me myself in my dice. I'm your host jason the bipolar. Dam if you want to get a hold of me you can reach me through my web page. Www dot the bipolar dm dot com there. You'll find previous episodes of my podcast links to my live show as well as resources on dungeons and dragons indie writing and dental health. Thank you again and remember everybody. Take your meds..
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Plus three for mickey postal poops. Mickey is going to the t. Fling make mickey is going to roll for the swat. Nineteen oh ice plus three. Let's see twenty two. So the sheriff gladly tells mickey where they where we can find. We're here and poke and find the priests and so they go ahead and they go over to that priest temple Were The location that we're going to be finding the mets it's Just say it's a large bill large temple and We go and we're gonna find out that there. Is this one here. Eight other priests working in the temple. So so it's it's an okay sized temple And in this large town and We find the guy that We're looking for his doubts. We go to the temple and do we find the guy that are looking for. Definitely i know. How long has this guy been missing one for day one for.
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"Three or four. So that's a two female or female on these six to teenager. Eight doesn't tell me anything. Must you for for who was chaotic. So we have a dwarf. Female teenager as chaotic is facing Execution good personality traits Four to see how many they have so. It's four of them so as they listened to him talk about it. This person we find out they are enterprising a posit. They have a positive outlook on life. Seventeen inquisitive in eight persistence role to see how many negative traits she has for those so six. She's impatient twelve alcoholism. Good sixteen forgetful up with ted and a cruel one personality features eighteen unusual hair-color ten one. It's blue her hair blue. So what do we want to do their profession. let's see what are they for addition of some kind so possibly practicing the dark arts k. All right so we have this individual and their name. Oh yes the name jimmer generator see if there's one there we go female names. Twenty-seven dies name is number nine scarlets so Her name is scarlet and dressed. She dressed to usual. Okay all right So we got this p. c. n. p. c. that is needing to be rescued. So are they being held by the town officials. No they are not interesting. are they. Being held by evil parties twenty. Most definitely that's gonna be interesting Is there somebody who would have more information about this. No nobody really knows anything. So that's going to be very interesting pook and decides that he's going to in the morning visit the sheriff local sheriff and get more information about this missing Dwarf and but they decided to go ahead and finish their meal and And they share a room to save some money Pook sleeps on the floor onto the bad. And the as is his custom and mickey ticks. the bat of course fill is stabled in the In the stable in the bar and of course and they go ahead and take a long rest and in the next morning they come down for breakfast and have breakfast. Get ready and head straight over to Were going to find the sheriff's department. So go ahead enroll for mestigation one. Now that's not good. They have a lot of problems. Finding it however maki is able to find a straightaway because she like who ruled natural one. She wrote natural twenty and so she took him straight to where the sheriff's office as. Apparently this was something that this is the town that she walked into looking for help. So she's very familiar with them so so they returned to the go to the sheriff's office and see the sheriff and they ask him information about the missing dwarf so has the dwarf been taken by bandits five. No as she been taken by the thieves guild six no does the sheriff have any clues as to who took the dwarf thirteen. That's yes soft. Yes so was she taken by somebody that she knows five now all right. Here's a clue that. I i got an idea. we're gonna rule the urban encounter table. And this is the encounter that she has had that led to her kidnappings so it's rolled down to urban rigo urban locations. Okay so there's going to be these to here three swarm of ravens. Now let's roll. I didn't make sense. It was a swarm of ravens. That's a clue. So all right. So a clue swarm ravens and Six and nine fifteen and a priest. There's something about this priest. There's a sheriff know who this priest is. Nineteen definitely does okay. Can we that. They direct us to this priest. So will roll persuasion. Check see if we can get him to persuade them to Direct us to this priests that he knows. Let's see.
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
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New Lawsuit Filed Suing Georgia's Clayton County Sheriff Victor Hill
"Clayton county sheriff. Victor hill has been named in a new lawsuit. Alleging los angeles man was beaten severely and put in a restraining chair for approximately four hours while in custody earlier this year at the clayton county jail. Gabriel aries alleges in a federal lawsuit filed monday in us district court in atlanta. That clayton county deputies repeatedly maliciously and violently struck him in the shower area of the jail and then placed in a restraining chair outside the infirmary. The lawsuit says aries was left with brain damage and other significant injuries aries. Who is bipolar and suffers for mood. Disorder had been arrested february fifth at hartsfield-jackson international airport for misdemeanor disorderly conduct and was allegedly combative and shouting racial epithets. To the sheriff's deputies. Along with nine deputies the lawsuit alleges hill violated airy civil rights in his capacity as sheriff it does not allege that the sheriff participated in the
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
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"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Okay. Question did you mark more fast and slow on you tracking sheet. Yes you quickly reached the end of the tracks. Observe your surroundings. Oh no these tracks lead you deeper into the cave. The tink tink tink echoing through this chamber is the sound of cobalt mining glittering. Gyms you're surrounded by an entire crew of cobalt with pickaxes. But they haven't noticed you yet. What's your next move. Hide run or fights try and hide. You sneak off into a crevice away from the crowd. Make dexterity eighteen d. C eighteen dexterity still check not good. That's a six. Plus what's my stealth plus two so. It's eight not good. So i miss it. So the crow bowl crew noticed me so go to page thirty three. How did you end up like this. The coble took all your gear armor and weapons. Your wrist ankles are bound by our in shackles attached to a thick thick chain as a small cobo army marches you through the mining cavern towards your fate. You catch a glimpse of what they were mining. brilliant gemstones with grohl glowing swirling centers. You hear rube. You hear rubies emeralds and diamonds actually humming a mill melodic tone. The walls are absolutely covered with these gemstones. You think you can reach him pluck one without any housing ruby emerald or diamond. Let's go for diamond as you press your fingers as your fingers pressed the glowing white. Jimmy feel voicing your mind. This mountain is a machine. Remove the right cog in the whole engine fails you gain artifices lor and the ability casts bending can't trip at will make a dc fifteenth athletics. Check to free the gemstone. Twenty all k- so the chain yanks hard in your legs on the success. Diamond breaks free. Enrolls into your palm. Did the colts notice you make dexterity check sleight of hand eighteen plus twenty so i pass that on a success. You managed to conceal the diamond safely tucked away. The gym mysteriously stops glowing and humming. As if it doesn't want to be found you know in your heart this magical. Jim holds the soul of the rock. Gnomes you can cast the stone shapes spell three times day without need for material components stone shape. Oh nice next page ahead. You see a cobalt cut clutching a dima dina you hear her voice Allow voice in your mind that rainbow stone opel. Did you hear it. Each of these precious stones contain the soul of a no the deep rubies. The forced emeralds the rock diamonds and glittering. Opel's they're all trapped in this mound hoarded by detestable by detestable. God forgotten folk. You must now know why. You're here and why i'm at your side. You must free. The glitter gnomes chapter four in the captors clutches. You dragged into a grand feast hall with a massive table fit for giants you spot small spectral figure's hunched over scouring ever surface every surface pristine clean. You can't quite toil what they are. But they're definitely aren't cobalt s- at the head of the towering table. A small mountain of tiny schools takes the place of dining chair at the summit of the skulls. You see the biggest kobylt you ever seen. Barking orders feared by minions magical magical penance swirling with every colored light. This is clearly the one clearly in charge your captor snaps. It's causing your drag ford forced to kneel and snarls and common. I'm kurtulus lamarque god of cobalt s-. You are my prisoner. The master will be pleased. Who is courtemanche master. Which gemstones did you touch well diamond. So kirk shellac is working for czar. Al arch devil of the nine. Hells and rulers of everett. Oliver nece zari award me for offering my cobol nation of direct her three to serve as her outpost defending avarice. She will empower me with the full force of her colts in exchange for the souls of my no mish slaves together. We will do mal demolish ferry on tonight. We celebrate by drinking your soul. That's not good. The power hungry. Cobalt master barks out of command. Your dragged into the far corner of the feast holland thrown into a small cage the cages shackled to a heavy chain and attached to some kind of crank mechanism three the small spectres one red one green and one right white strain to crank the lever wheel slowly the chain draws up upwards the expansive arcane ceiling pulling your cramp prison even higher when you swing fifty feet above the ground. The mechanism stops another fifty feet of chain stretches above you to a pulley leaving twisting in the air question. What can you see from up here. Make a wisdom perception check. What is your results. That's ten for perception plus zero. Okay so i just got ten all right. The small specter's at each are each tethered to a glowing. Gemstone weighing them. Down like a ball and chain you see all your gear under the table being divided by three cobalt. 's okay chapter five. The brave escape you. Swipe perilously and the cramp cage plotting your escape. The sad spectral service having nearly completed setting the table for the massive feast. I well dressed. Cobalt enters the room through large wooden double doors and make an announcements. These speak draconic. No this cobalt speaks with an air of sophistication in their voice. You manage to pick out the words guest and arrive..
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Have a good night's and so the adventure begins chapter one. The dream after a long day of hard-fought combat tiring expiration in harrowing social dilemmas. You spread your bedroll and settle in for a well-deserved long rest. Your adventuring party continues to make camp thankfully someone else's through the short end of the straw to take watch this evening. You stretch your arms and releases satisfying you on your head sinks into your pillow. Ouch with a rude jolt. Your skull Yeah your skull. What the your skull strike something solid. Who put a rock in your bedroll. You dig around and feel a rough lumpy stone under your pillow as you hold it above your face light from the campfire gleams across the rock a dazzling golden globe blinds you momentarily. This is no ordinary rock. You found the gold nugget. It must be your lucky day. You imagine a nugget of goal gold or the size confession at least five hundred gold pieces at the market. He took the nugget back under your pillow before anyone notices. It's been a long day. You don't need any more excitement right now. When you're waking you plan to tell your party and here's the next couple of questions about your good luck and offer a split. The coin between them We need to stop at the next temples. We pass so you can make an offering or nothing at all. And i think what i'm going to do as a paladin is tell my party about my good luck offer to split the coin between them. You in the party make a great team. Why be selfish with your dumb luck. You gain inspirations so go ahead and go to poos sheets and put on inspiration right so now i can re roll my dice whenever i need to. Okay let's go on next going going going with the golden nuggets safely tucked way. Your is relaxing. Drift off into slumber startled awake by draconic barks echoing off jagged work walls gangs. Humid air fills your lungs. Your vision is limited. You can see in the darkness but everything is grey a cave. How did you end up in a cave. No time to figure it out. The voices grow louder as shadows. Dance on the earthen wall and rapidly approaching torchlight. They're getting closer to your feets. Prepare yourself you can only imagine what dangerous creatures draw near question. What is your proficiency. Bonus mine is plus two so that brings up to co bolts of to cobalt so showing up as you ready yourself for an ambush. The cobalt turn in opposite corner. Continue the conversation and their hasty. Don't they didn't see you. Maybe if you can. Maybe if you can hear what they're saying you can figure out where they where you are question district draconic answer. No it's mostly guttural gibberish. The unsettling snarl smash together mash together. Sound like listener. You catch the phrase faster and get guest of honor has arrived parked out in common appearance to the cavernous landing. The kobylt centered their writing old line cards and placing it onto tracks tracks. Mine treks should eventually outside. You must get past these colds but how chapter to infiltrate escape question. How will you get past the colts. We sneak past them. Will you distract them. We try to trap them or destroy the cobalt s- Try last time. I tried distracting them. And let's see if we can try sneaking past them. Okay you press your back flat against the rocky cave wall on creep towards the cavern you close your eyes taking a deep breath you imagine yourself blending in perfectly with the rocky gray rock make a dc nine dexterity steles check with advantage guy natural twenty and twelve so i got an actual twenty nice so it says when you open your eyes. You stiffle a gas of amazement at worked. Your skin is now deep modeled. Greatest saint tone as a cave walls easily sneak past the cobalt and follow the tracks out of the cavern into a tunnel. You now have advantage on stealth checks to hide in rocky terrain k. Let's go pass that. No power activated question. Did you survive. Yes continue the patient. Nineteen you follow the mine cart tracks into the dark tunnel. The sharp rocks above closing getting closer to your head with each step. Are you small. Yes i am as you travel onward the rocks takeover more and more of the tunnel. It doesn't bother you. Though whomever laid these tracks is likely your size. There would be just enough room for you and a small mine cart after dashing along the tracks to tunnel empties atop a cliff overlooking a vast underground clearing. It is pitch black expanse far beyond your dark vision. You hear the echoing pickaxes. Working vigorously below. Tink teak tink mark fast on your tracking sheets. Whatever that means you see a small overturn mine carts on its edge edge. Edging off the cliff shiny rebel litters the cliff's edge near the car hewlett closer and see shimmering sand pebble size gemstones. He probably you can probably grab a handful of one or the other but be careful to wrong move could send the car crashing over the edge. What do you take from the mine. Cards shimmering sands gemstones or nothing. I'm gonna take nothing. Actually you waste no time. How can some pretty garbage possibly help you. You gain un inspiration unsprayed version. So i guess. I lost my inspiration. Take that off back to the adventure. A treacherously narrow stone walkway hung's to head hugs the cave law descending into the cavern below the mine tracks veer over the cliff and continue on into it's endless darkness following these tracks. You got you this far but are they leading you in the right direction. The walkway looks well traveled. But where does it go question. Do you follow walkway or the mind tracks. Let's stick with the mind tracks. You carefully drag the cart towards the edge of the cliff in place it on the tracks you get one foot cart. One foot inside. The cart starts to roll. Make dc sixteen strength saving throw. That's a seventeen plus strength plus one so that's eighteen and success you pull yourself inside the carton hang on tight you plummet down the track at top speed twisting and turning a sparks fly from the wheels mark fast on your cracking sheets the carts slams to a halt as you reach the end the tracks. What a ride.
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Paulina Porizkova Flaunts Body In LA Photo Shoot
"Paulina. Paris called the who I told you before she dated Aaron Sorkin was losing her mind and unraveling before our eyes is at it again. She continues to be one of the poster women for sick, silly, stupid, out of control, women who want to talk about positivity because they're over 50. Remember when your mother was over 50, nothing happened. She just became 51. Nothing happened. She's still wore the same fucking moomoo. She still went out to the store with a sweatshirt on. She didn't act like a big new revolutionist started. She didn't start changing her makeup, she went to bed with your dad and they did what they did and none of us want to even think what they did, but they did. So paulina, boy, is she so fucking happy? And when the newspapers and I will always say newspapers and not the Internet. When they write about these people, you know, Pauline is 56. And they'll always say the stunning model, I almost want to say the bipolar person. The stunning model shared a video of herself wearing a blazer with nothing underneath except the pair of black underwear and a gold necklace for her LA magazine shoot. I wish they would have done a picture of pictorial of my mother in dear foam slippers. A sweatshirt she knew she had to wear because she was gonna cook a dinner for us that night that was gonna knock us the fuck out. That's the photo shoot I wanna
Bipolar Disorder: Depressed, Mentally Ill & Famous
"Bernard sizzles. Sonny corinthos gorgeous star. Abc's hit soap opera. General hospital in real life. The devoted family man has been married to his sweetheart paula for fourteen years and they live a quiet life in los angeles with their two daughters. But maurice's life isn't as picture-perfect as it seems every day behind the scenes. Maurice battles mental illness that once left him violent suicidal and at its worst locked inside a mental institution wondering if he'd ever get out so maurice's struggle with the demons of his bipolar disorder began in his early twenties just as he was beginning is acting career. I think the real start of it was I woke up in my friends apartment. And i was drinking and i was crying uncontrollably. I think i'm losing my mind. That was just beginning of the battle inside maurice bernard's brain at twenty two. He slipped into what he calls the dark side and turned violent against his mother. Kind of physical by the arm. When i looked at my dad. And i said that i was the devil and i was yelling at him. Scary it my mind was was racing undermines. Now it's kind of like being in a nightmare and not being able to wake up. They had to admit me. I went to a psychiatric hospital. I was strapped down in the wheelchair. Remember waking up in the sunlight was coming through. The window. Could barely hear. I died in manhattan. He was trapped in his own nightmare heavily medicated and restrained in solitary confinement in a mental institution. I remember having lots of and then ending in that state. You almost feel like it's always gonna to be that way. So why is life worth living. Maurice was diagnosed as manic depressive. What's happening inside of you. You almost feel like you. You wanna explode. You have so much emotion so much energy almost like drug. The high you get from it but for maurice. The manic highs are always followed by deep paralyzing depression. I had no confidence. You look in the mirror and you you still the same person but it doesn't matter. It's what's happening inside. It's just an enormous enormous amount of
Q&A: Why Do I Still Crave Attention?
"I don't have a therapist yet. Currently looking for a trauma therapist. My parents divorced when i was six. My mom's boyfriend molested me at age. Nine she didn't believe me for a long time. My dad came back quote as friends to help him get up alcohol. I think i was about twelve at thirteen. I was raped by my boyfriend in field. I started running away from home. My dad left because he couldn't handle me running away. I started doing drugs and being promiscuous. I stopped at seventeen in got with my now husband. I have cheated and have six kids. But here's the thing. I still feel the need to be wanted by other people liked. What sam forty. I have twenty year olds my. Dm's wanting me to be there. Cougar actually want people to want me. My husband chose me affection. Don't get me wrong. But i would like someone else. Allies the time to. I can get where my fucked up past 'cause my bipolar depression anxiety. Ptsd but to be like this. What the heck. Thank you for listening. So good question. I think there will be elements of this that resonate with a lot of people here So thank you for asking it. I'm glad that you're looking for therapist. You mentioned that you're looking for a trauma therapist which is really important because not everybody does specialize in trauma work so really good instincts there to be looking for trauma based therapist Also just want to say that. I feel for you. You know. i'm. I'm sorry that you've been through so much you didn't deserve it. You're not responsible for it. And i'm glad that you're here that you're alive and able to ask this question both for yourself and for anybody else that benefits from hearing what i say to you. So thank you for that. And as i said. I'm glad that you're here. This is sort of a complex layered question. I think there's a few important threads to tease apart here. First off Let's talk about desire versus action right. Because i think it's one hundred percent absolutely totally normal to have attraction to people other than your partner that you committed to that could be romantic sexual or otherwise But i think that this is something that society and movies and Maybe our own sort of internalize. Jealousy tells us that we're not supposed to do that. We're supposed to somehow turn this off completely when we commit to being with another person romantically and you know people are different. There are certainly some people where the romantic or sexual interests and other people really fades or dwindles or basically goes away when they commit to somebody. But that's not the case for everybody and there's nothing wrong with that. There's absolutely nothing wrong with having Feelings right what you do about. Those feelings is a different story right. You're allowed to have whatever private thoughts you want. You know you can enjoy whatever kind of attention you might run into in daily life But you need to make a choice about how you engage with that with those thoughts with desires without attention. Whatever it might be you need to make a choice about what you do about that. How you engage with that. Are you going to be actively drawing in that attention playing into it. You know actively flirting are you allowed to talk about attractions with your partner with other people. What are you gonna do about that.
A highlight from S6 E10 - Real Conversations on Mental Health (w/ Special Guest: Patricia Perkins)
"May is mental health awareness month. And i felt it only right to release an episode focusing on the topic of mental health. Now if you've listened to the podcast for any length of time you've no doubt heard me talk about my own struggles with ptsd depression and mon experiences. Not all that uncommon in the veteran community. What you don't often hear though is from the veteran's spouse and on today's episode. I get to sit down with my wife patricia. As she shares the story of her own emotional journey with mental health diagnoses medications. Hospital stays and a whole lot more. This is the we serve now. What podcast where. I do my best to answer the questions. Veterans and their families are already asking so you can make your post military life your best life by way of introduction my name is aaron perkins i am a us army combat veteran daddy to amazing kiddos. Host of this podcast. If you hadn't guessed. And i am joined today by my beautiful bride patricia. Welcome to the show thank you. I'm so glad to be here excited to talk about a subject that i'm passionate about. Yeah absolutely absolutely well. Great to have you here. I'm i'm incredibly happy that you agreed to be on the show. Usually it is me saying. Hey i'm going to be recording tonight. So if you you and the kids can kind of keep it down a little bit and but really really grateful that you here today. So today was one of many days where you're going through this. I don't know call procedure or treatment treatment. Okay so so. Obviously i went with you. Today is able to accompany you to that treatment and it specifically four depression right and so start with today. Let's start with today in a kind of what happened today. And what the treatment is. And let's start there. Sure okay so. The treatment is called. Tm s it means trans cranial magnetic stimulation menendez Treatment that oddly. Enough stimulates your brain. It's post what is supposed to do is to help the neurotransmitters talk to each other better and it is usually reserved for someone who's tried a few different types of medication for depression but it also helps with like anxiety. Ocd and sometimes even physical pain. Okay so so so. This is not a it. Sounds like it's a noninvasive. It's not a surgery type of thing so basically the way they explain it. It's like electromagnetic therapy. Where like in the old days where they would maybe cut. Open your head and maybe electric your brain things like that but this obviously they're not doing that. You can sit down in this chair. It's kind of like the big dentist chair. They strap you all in and they put this big magnet next to your head in a certain spot at a certain level. It's already been determined by your doctor and it made me last twenty minutes. And then you're you're on your way okay. So is that it's not obviously. I know this right before listeners. This is not like a one time thing. This is one of how many treatments you have to get. Okay so today was off my fourth treatment and i think if i did the math right i have at least thirty three more to go. So it's over a nine week period and because of where we live. I have to drive basically an hour and a half to get there. And then i'm there for fifteen to twenty minutes in the drive an hour and a half and and yeah i i definitely know that. That part in itself is frustrating. The drive so let's go back a little bit now so you're having this it might not be invasive but stewart pretty extreme treatment of kind of remapping your brain right yes. It's it's had some side effects already some some anger some tiredness Brain fog lightheadedness. The way the only way. I can explain it. It's like there's a big garden with a huge gate and there's all these locks and each treatment seems to slowly work open a new lock and then hopefully by the end all the locks will be open and king come open and i can be free of depression anxiety. I don't know if that's going to happen. I have faith that it can happen so hopefully it does happen. You me both you both so so take us back a little bit. How did you get to this point. You know obviously you. Have you know some sort of depression or anxiety or whatever take us back to diagnoses and that sort of thing so i i got diagnosed probably sixteen years ago like actual clinical diagnosis of major depressive disorder and house have severe anxiety. I have d. c. Ptsd so what is so ptsd. I know what is cd. Basically childhood post traumatic stress disorder. And then i have. Ocd okay so so ptsd. Veteran community intimately familiar with cps d c p s de. It is then the so. How did that come about. I mean this this is like you know really getting into the nitty gritty of it a little bit but i had parent you know. I had parents that. They weren't believers not that that makes you any less of a good parent but they were involved with things that they shouldn't have been involved with and they didn't have a good relationship with one another so that meant a very rocky relationship with their children and so without getting into too much and making people uncomfortable. This is a really bad childhood really bad and even in my teenage years there was some other stuff that was really bad. So just you know things that people don't really think about as being post traumatic stress disorder. I've heard other people say. How can you even have that. You weren't a soldier. Well that's not reserved for soldiers or servicemen period. Post traumatic stress can happen after a car accident after your home gets broken into after a traumatic. Any traumatic experience you can. Pdf st right right so so with depression. You were diagnosed. She said sixteen years ago crack and so did the anxiety diagnosis. Come along with that or out of that will work. It was shortly after. I think they at i thought maybe it was just really bad depression and they realized that it was both mint so they started treatment to different treatments who different medications and over the years between the two just the depression and anxiety. I know i've had over sixteen or seventeen medications and sixteen or seventeen. I didn't know there were that many others time for i mean i know. There's a lot of medications out there right. But most i know i i'm gonna go out on a limb here and say most people when they're struggling with anxiety depression or even if they do have a legitimate diagnosis of anxiety. Depression or both. It's okay let me go get this. Let me go try it. You know and then if that doesn't work maybe they go try something else but sixteen or seventeen that that just sounds like an extreme number is sensitive to medications and so what may work for a lot of people. Just doesn't seem to work for me. Or i ended up being allergic to it but i will say that i did. This test called a g. e. n. e. s. t. and it's a dna test and that's something that you're psychiatrists can do for you. There is a cost involved but it will tell you which medications and you know. They're all different classes. Work for your dna type so you have a red section and you should stay away from those. You have a yellow section. That may help. And then you have. A green section is more likely to help with your dna type so that can help a lot of people. Stay away from having to try sixteen or seventeen different medications. Sure sure that that's a really good point. And obviously you. You didn't take that 'til later. Right actually took it last year. Yeah so the break i. I wish i could have taken ten years ago. But i don't think even knew about it and that's another thing i would say. Is you know educate yourself. Don't wait on your doctors to find all the resolutions for you. Like feel free to look and research and bring it up to your doctor. you know. it's a good point. So medication is just one side of the depression anxiety. Ptsd just one side of it before the medication happens. There's something that either. Your doctors realize your families realize or you personally realize something different in me. Something is not working as it's supposed to or it's manifesting in in a certain way and i know that when it comes to ptsd specifically it manifests itself in a lot of different ways. They can manifest itself in anger in inability to focus and chronic pain. In a guilt it can manifest itself in different ways. So let's focus on the. Let's say let's. Let's go with depression right the major depressive disorder. How did that or does that manifest itself in your life. The first time. I realized that i might have an issue with. Depression was actually. I had a really bad episode. After i had caitlin so caitlyn's daughter. Sorry caitlyn's her daughter. Yeah she's fourteen now. After i had her. I was sitting just watching tv. And she was sitting there beside me and her little old bouncy seat. And i actually started having these really dark feelings kind of like oppression and actually that coincided with an anxiety attack as well and actually got rushed to the hospital because they thought i was having a pulmonary. Embolism so they thought that. I had blood clots. I was about to die. You know there was but it was a mixture of depressive episode and anxiety attack which i had never felt before and that really scared me and the doctors were able to put me on medication to help with that. It did not stop it but it did help. Sure sure so what what happens next. You know you're you're on this medication. It's helping look what happens. Is there a point at which you realize. That medication isn't working or isn't working as well as it should. Yeah most doctors will tell you you know. Give it two or three weeks to really get in your system if you don't see any changes or if you see getting worse than you're to want to let us know so that we can adjust or change that medication and over the years. That has happened so often. That i i got to this place and i'll say that it's okay to do this if you need to. Own your closet by yourself and cry for a little while. 'cause you're just overwhelmed and nothing seems to be working and you want so badly to be quote unquote normal. Go have cry. Go eat ice cream or chocolate or something. I don't even care. It's okay to do those things. But i got to this place where i was like. None of this is working. I need something completely different. And i think that's when. I did the insight site testing because most of the medications that i had been put on. Were in my red list more in the list that was for your dna. These are not going to work for you. Oh wow so going through this process and the truth is i didn't even realize this at the time we've been married for fifteen plus years and i knew that kept having different medications tried and you like oh. This is not working but we had no idea why. It's not working until this test. You didn't says hey this might actually work for you Yeah that's that stuff okay. So what about the anxiety piece you know. It started with an executive attack How does that manifest itself or did it manifest itself in your life. So i have an odd anxiety like i have panic. Attacks panic attacks but generally speaking. I'm just anxious and it's like my anxiety and my ocd. Like to just hold hands and frolic through my brain and so what. I'm feeling extremely anxious. I have to clean everything so it's kind of like since i can't control my emotions i can't control what's going on in the world. My brain has to find something that can control and the cleanliness in my house. I can control thankfully because you and the kids are pretty neat people. But i have to do have to be able to do something. Control something to calm down. If i don't do that ended up in the closet crying eating chocolate well like you said. That's okay if you have to do. It's not not not every day but so talked about the depression. Talk about the anxiety. Ptsd how does that manifest itself in your life on a day-to-day basis weekly basis. How how often what does it feel like said the. Ptsd is like a whole different monster. That lives somewhere inside of my person. And the worst episodes i have with. Ptsd is when my children especially caitlyn our daughter when she reaches those age those ages where you've espn we. We had talked about this a little bit today. As we're preparing for the podcast but it was as a recall kind of like the same ages or proxy ages where something traumatic happened in your own childhood right so so then. My brain is like imagine that happening to kaitlin. Imagine that having to our son. Christopher and then it's like this overwhelming like it's not a mama bear feeling is a mama dragon. And it's like i will. I will died to protect but at the same time. It's then there's this the the little girl in me is like. How could my mom have let that happen. How could my dad have let that happen. Where was the the parental. where were they. Why did these things even happened. That i have this trauma but we're all human doing the best. We can now. That i'm older i can. I can look at my pass without being completely angry with my parents because they were just doing their best as well. Sure sure so. 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That will significantly reduce your stress anxiety. And if you think one on one attention could be the way for you. You can also schedule your free consultation with marco once again that's live like others can't dot com get on the path to your dream life today. Alright so here we are back. Second half of the show here with my wife patricia talking about mental health. And it's okay. She's looking at me right now. She's like oh just made a noise like it's okay. Well we'll cleared up. It's fine and so so anyway so here talking to my wife patricia about mental health and about her own challenges and struggles with it. And so obviously there's no one in your corner so to speak. I mean there's the stigma associated with it but there's also no one kind of coaching. You through this of like okay. Well if this isn't working here's what you do right not currently. I've had counselors in the past. You know and they've we've tried to work through things. I have been the hospital couple of times. And i think there's a lot of people who mean well but it doesn't mean it's going to work for you and so i feel it's important that people understand that if you do have a mental illness. It's okay to research an advocate for yourself. You don't have to wait on a doctor or counselor or someone who you feel like is more intelligent or just because they have letters after their name that they know you better than you do feel free. No not feel free. Please speak for yourself. that's huge. That is so huge. And i think that advocating for yourself is such a critical element of getting the help you need. Because when i think of veterans who are struggling right. You know whether whether it's a physical health or mental health concern. They know themselves like better than anyone else knows them and so when they go to the doctor when i as a veteran go to the doctor i have an obligation to myself right to be as honest and as really a as direct as i can like look. This is the problem. This is how. I'm feeling. I'm here for you to help me fix it right. But then there's the stigma especially in the military community. Where if something isn't working right in your brain you're not working right. Oh absolutely that is the stigma is is really and i think the worst thing about mental health diagnoses today at least in america. If not all over the world it absolutely needs to be normalized that your your brain is an oregon and just like your heart and all your heart muscle but you could knees your liver. If any of those things were failing if they weren't working like they were supposed to have so many people around you. Hey what can i do for you. What can i do for your family. Could i get my blood tested to see if i could be donor. How in the world could make your life better but you hear someone is in a three month depressive episode and they can't even get out of bed. I don't see people lining up with casseroles. I don't know. I don't see that happening. You know if you have to leave an event because you had an anxiety attack there's whispers. There's not help this is strong. It is so strong. And there's a you know within the military there is a fear and i will say rightly so that if you say hey i have this particular mental condition it can potentially impact your career and in the civilian world because well as a mom i if another mom i don't know maybe somebody's going to hear this and maybe they don't want their kids hanging out but as a mom you think. Oh can this person actually take care of my kid. While i'm away or is everything issue going to be too overwhelmed. Is she going to have some kind of attack. That i don okay. If you know somebody like that. Just educate yourself right and know that that person wouldn't take on that responsibility if they didn't feel they could handle it. Yeah absolutely and you know. That's a critical point to is. There is so much misinformation out there about mental health. And you know here's the thing. Hollywood doesn't help and i'm not going to rant. I'm not. I'm not trying to say like oh. Don't make movies about people with mental conditions. You know but there is this you know. The joker movie that just came out with a joaquin phoenix. That's joker yeah. Okay so you know. He obviously has a mental health problem. It looks like severe depression and he turns out to be this mass murderer. Right and so people associate edison. He's bipolar but go ahead. Fair enough fair enough so people associate those mental health conditions with something so extreme that they saw on a screen or read an article. now there are extreme cases. it's true. I mean you can't just say that that. No one is that bad off but there are people that bad off that they're not usually the people who look like they're doing okay. There those the people who are really struggling there are more signs right than than you just meeting them. Like if i just walked up to you and said hi. My name's patricia. Perkin tie you doing. You would never think i had five mental disorders right. You know someone. who's that far gone. You know they're going to be showing signs. Oh yeah absolutely for sure for sure and you know the thing is when it comes to mental health when it comes to you know having a a severe enough level of mental health challenges concerns whatever. You wanna call them. If you don't have an official diagnosis right there are so many. I guess levels is probably the best way to put it of of severity. Because you know like saying. Hey i'm feeling depressed for a couple of weeks is a far cry from major depressive disorder right okay. Yeah may i believe probably should have been a little more research but it would be depressed for at least six months before. It is a clinical diagnosis. And so there's going to be events someone dies. A friend moves away. You have to switch jobs then you could go through a you know a few days or a week of feeling depressed. That's normal. yeah exactly. That's the normal depression. That's not the go quick. It'll medication so you can feel better. That's right it's just a normal life happens and you get down and i've even had people say to me. Well you know you have a lot of stuff. You're very blessed. You have a nice home. You have a great husband. Smart kids you you you have you have you have you have. That has nothing to do. With what my brain is doing. I have the intelligence to know that. I a blessed person a blessed individual but that does not mean that my brain is going to let me enjoy all the time. Yeah that's so true. That is so true. And so i just saw an article earlier today from cnbc said fifty one percent of young americans are struggling with mental health. Fifty one percent. I can believe and i think a lot of that if i can just put in. My personal opinion is social media. I'm sure you constantly see people who are throwing up. There highlight reels on instagram. And some of them still on facebook and then those who are throwing out things on twitter but there you're not getting their whole life you don't read what's actually going on. I mean if people looked at my facebook they would see highlights. Because i want to show the good. I don't want to show the days. I don't wanna get out bed. Showed the days where. I'm like begrudgingly. Driving my kids to school because i have to. I'm an adult to do these things. You don't see those things and especially the generation under us. They're so obsessed with social media that they think that's real life. I mean i have a good life. But it's not insta worthy like everything. I do isn't gonna be popping up on instagram. Because it's not real life right. That's just advertising then like you said it's just highlights right. Yeah and so. I want to go back to the stigma piece for just a minute. Because that's a piece that i'm really passionate about and you know in the military you know being healthy being fit to fight. That's part of the job if you're broken your broken leg unit can't use you to go to war right. You have to get that leg fixed. I if you're broken mentally your unit may not be able to use you to go to war because like there's something wrong with you and like the. The thing is with the stigma. It's okay in you know outside of the military that things that your body or your brain is not working like it's supposed to and i've heard so many veterans so min- countless veterans really be rating their brothers and sisters in arms when they talk about having. Ptsd like your combat. Experience was different than mine. Therefore you don't have ptsd or you can't be depressed or you can't be anxious like you're just whining because you want to get paid from the va. You want the va to take care of you. That's ridiculous it. It really is our veterans out there who just looking for that that extra little bit of money out a month sure. There are but by and large the majority of veterans who who are having the courage to stand up and say. Hey i got something wrong in my brain. It's not working like supposed to. They should be applauded and say you know what that is. Surreal courage that you having right now to go and say i need help. Yes it takes a ton of courage and just in time out of being a military spouse and then my time out of it and interacting with veterans and even people who are still currently serving. They they have these but they don't even know how to say it out loud. They will become an alcoholic. But there's nothing wrong with me. I had no problem with war. Or when they get out of the military you know they get hooked on drugs. Oh in the military didn't affect me very much. I'll have i don't have any. Ptsd that that crazy stuff you know or all of a sudden. They're wife isn't good enough. Their kids aren't good enough and they want to be away from them at all times. They don't want that interaction but they say they're fine because they're afraid to say i might be broken inside and might need some help. So instead of having the courage to say that they are literally ruining their lives in other ways right what alcohol would drugs with breaking up their homes with neglecting their responsibilities. That's may there's so much i want to. I want to fix it right. I want to fix the stigma. Problem wanted but there is no easy way to do it. But i think what we're doing right here is having the conversation for the world to hear that. Look it's not just veterans. It's not just veteran spouses. It's according to that article. Fifty one percent of young americans who are struggling with some sort of mental health condition right regardless of what title you go by better in active duty man woman boy girl. Mental health is no respecter of persons. I'm sorry mental illness right. No you're right and mental health needs. You know it doesn't matter who you are. What are what color you are just like any like. I said any other body part in any other thing. That may need attention. Don't be afraid to give it that attention. Don't be afraid to speak up and speak out. Don't let the stigma hold down. Yeah for sure so from our conversation today. I know we're running up on time. So we're gonna wind this down and you know. Obviously you and. I have talked about this a lot and me in the future. I'm sure we will get you back on the show and talk and talk about about this and how fixing your life especially how the team s treatment is grain because he you know. I'm not afraid to talk about right. My inner demons especially can help somebody else. I feel like i feel like god puts us through situation so that we can help other people and if we can't take the bad and turn it around and help someone than what's it for and i have to have faith that it's it's to help others. Sure sure so. We have alluded to these three big takeaways right like the big takeaways from this episode. We've alluded to them throughout the episode. We've talked about them. We've even said them but remind us remind listeners. What those big three takeaways are from listening to this. I would say the first one is to advocate for yourself like i said. Don't be to research. Don't be afraid to figure out what might work for you. Ask for the jewish site testing. Ask for even if you've been on medication for a long time talking about the s you know there are other ways to go about it than just constantly saying in that cycle of pill after pill after pill with no results there. There is light at the end of the tunnel. So don't be afraid to say. Hey i think this might help me. What do you think. Don't wait on them. The second one i would say is. Don't let the stigma prevent you from seeking help Let's there is nothing wrong with you. If you have mental illness nothing like innately wrong review. You are just a person who is struggling and number three. I would say no that you are not alone like you were saying that article fifty one percent of young americans. This isn't even us. The older americans during these are young americans who were struggling. You're not alone. find group. fine fine started group. It right to you know. Don't don't stay alone either. When you isolate yourself things. Things often get worse so definitely seek out others who may have similar problems going on that you can talk through to to have some sort of accountability with and accountability is huge. It is huge and those are the three big ones. But i wanted to add one more. And it's something that i've done personally and it has to do with what i was talking about with social media and it's so funny because our pastors just said at this sunday delete block. You do not have to look at sally. Suzy sampson's and wish it was yours. Delete her blocking her. If if watching her highlight reel is taking your joy. Delete her if mr man who has it all together all the money all the muscles and the most beautiful wife you've ever seen if that stealing your joy delete him bought him because you need to focus on you and yours is so good. That is so so good so patricia. It is been an amazing conversation with you. I wanna thank you personally. Thank you for your courage to come on the show and talk about not just health in general but your own mental health your own struggles with the diagnoses. You know you've had hospital stays as a result had so many things going your life and so thank you so much for talking about this important topic with us you know. We all have a lot of questions but the most important question you can ask yourself is. This have accepted the forgiveness of sins. That only comes through faith in jesus christ and before we go one thing. Patricia wanted me to point out was earlier. she referenced. cpt. St and she called it childhood. Ptsd it is actually complex. Ptsd would she informed me of later in complex. Ptsd is brought about from long term trauma that might be physical emotional sexual abuse own going childhood neglect things like that. It could even be a prisoner of war type of situation that brings about complex. Ptsd so just clarification. There that that was what she was referencing in the second. Half of the episode. You may have heard probably did hear a lot of clicking in the background while that clicking was my burien husky running around on a hardwood floor and unfortunately we can't edit that out he just kind of made a cameo appearance on the podcast so that dog is the way i deal with my ptsd and depression having a pet. It just helps a lot so anyway. Thank you so much for listening. It has been a joy sharing our hearts with you today. Be sure to check us out on social media. We at facebook at courage to fight again. Instagram also occurred to fight again and twitter at courage again and check us out on our website at courage to fight again dot com a whole lot. More resources there well until next time. Thanks for listening. We served now. What is a production of courage to fight again.
Conductor with Bipolar Disorder Launches Orchestra To Battle Mental Health Stigma
"Today we have ronald brownstein. Mr brownstein is the music director of me. Too and a graduate of juilliard conducted the san francisco symphony berlin philharmonic and the oslo philharmonic. Just to name a few. Mr brownstein was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in nineteen eighty five. He launched me too because of his desire to support others who struggled to maintain good mental health. Mr brownstein welcome to the show. Thank you you have conducted major orchestras all around the world. And you are on a trajectory to being a lead conductor when you disclosed your diagnosis of bipolar disorder. And then you were shunned by the classical music community. Was this the experience that caused you to start me too. Well it wasn't like. I decided to start me too. I got basically fired from a job. Because of my mentally ill. I knew that i would never get up conducting chop again But it wasn't like a decision. It's just i felt that i run out of options So i had to create a new option which was to make my own of of people like me. And i guess it was not as though there was a formal launch. We just set out a press release and we waited to see if anyone would show up and a few people did. People were frankly sitting on on cold folding chairs all purpose community space at the beginning. We didn't really know what we're doing. And no one knew what would happen So anyways long short. I said everyone down on the floor and we talked about a parameters was just simply that wanted to make an orchestra that stigma free context in which we would be ourselves and not have to hide our illness so Kind of started like that
"bipolar" Discussed on Dancing with Bipolar
"In hypo mania. Which is a lesser form a mania which will get into in just a second can and will affect sweep energy and your activity level in both bipolar one. Bipolar two now. The difference here is with hypo mania in bipolar to you. Don't go into full blown mania and all okay. You're hypo mania. Can go into mania but it will most likely switch into depression. Okay but within mania after the energy in the activity being affected your judgment behavior in the ability to think clearly are also challenged within his impulsivity overspending. Which is danger zone and very negative. Too many of you Within gambling and hyper sexuality and things like that so mania is as dangerous as depression. Three stages mania hypo mania acute mania in delirious mania. Not hypo mania is a condition similar to mania but less severe resembles mania in symptoms however does not cause significant distress or impair. One's work family or social life. The main difference between hypo mania and mania is not out of control at this point. Acute mania atro- bipolar one. This is characterized by an extremely unstable euphoric or irritable mood with hyperactivity excessively. Rapid thoughts and speech uninhibited and reckless behavior in flight of ideas. Okay now within this comes the term grandiosity which some of you probably have experienced Seems fun at the time until you become stabilising. Come back into reality and some of what you do. During your time. Grandiosity can be a tiny bit. Mortifying grandiosity is the quality of being more complicated or elaborate than necessary. It is a mood congruent delusion. Reactions or state are in conflict with reality. I have a moment of grandiosity for period of time. Where i thought i was the queen of the cat federation Need more said and now we have delirious mania which is probably where i went into with several incidents that have happened with me which is also known as bell's mania and it's excitement grandiosity emotional ability psychosis and insomnia altered consciousness and disorientation. Now the meaning of the word delirium is an acutely disturbed state of mind characterized by restlessness allusions in incoherence of thought and speech. So you're basically out of your mind And the treatment plan for mania is having a plan which i do get into in a future lesson here having a plan Having a plan in maintaining your plan are key so that went incidents of mania. Come up in. Hospitalizations is in order. You have everything ready because you're not.
"bipolar" Discussed on Dancing with Bipolar
"Listen nine exercise. Use it or lose it mind. Body and soul regular exercise can have a major positive impact of easing depression and anxiety symptoms. It can also relieve stress. It can improve your memory. It may help with sleep issues and it will boost your mood now. There is also a couple of other great correlations between regular exercise and mental health. And that would be that if you are exercising you are improving your heart health. So the correlation between heart health and mental health is huge and makes sense. When you think about that you're working on you know Chronic issues trauma stress. You know Anger and hostility and in your therapies. You're learning ways to lessen that Listen your anxiety. Depression and pessimism through therapy and medication. So it kind of makes sense that a healthy mental state would help your heart. also With the with a healthy heart and healthy mind and also lessons type two diabetes. The chances of getting that which seems to be another side.
Psychotic Break & BiPolar - Ethan Warren
"I'm here with ethan. Warren who i'm assuming listener because that's you gotta hold on me. I am He's a filmmaker. And you had a psychotic bipolar episode while putting a movie together and you were admitted to psych ward correct in. Where do we begin. I know you're how old i am thirty one. I have passed that point. I think where you kind of. Keep the closest track your age in telling people in thirty two and having like. I don't think that sounds right. Isn't that weird when you get age to think about it. It's very freeing though because it's floating in the third on you know well you're also in that gap between your age doesn't matter either direction right. Yeah that's a nice. Enjoy those six years so in terms of where we start. I mean like it's so crazy to be in here because like the making of this movie was tied up in this sort of the uses. Nervous breakdown my psychiatrist hates it. When i say that because it's not a clinical term screwed up just a time short so when i was twenty five about to turn twenty five. I started writing this movie and putting it together. And i had this this breakdown and now here i am the movie coming out next week and finally sort of summing it all up and wrapping it up so it's it's very sort of feels very significant to tell the story in the moment so i'll try not to milk the drama too
After nearing a deal for probation, ‘serial stowaway’ is arrested again at Chicago O’Hare
"You might remember the serial stowaway Maryland Hartman. She was notorious for getting past security and onto airplanes with no ticket. It's happened time and time again. She managed to escape the residential facility, where she was ordered held and make her way back to O'Hare to Ewing has the rest from Chicago. Hartmann has been living in a residential facility her Russ comes two weeks after a plea deal for a pending case. She was had to get 18 months of probation and court ordered mental health treatment. At noon Tuesday, Her ankle monitor outfitted with GPS was tracked, leaving that same residential facility and showed her heading for O'Hare International Airport Terminal one Device even has a phone built into it. It was called, but Maryland Hartmann didn't answer. An alarm went off after it was activated on Hartmann's ankle monitor. She was taken into custody by the Chicago Police Department. Hartmann did not enter any secure areas this time, but she's admitted to doing this at least 30 times. Hartman is reported to suffer from bipolar
Hagop Akiskal And The Bipolar Spectrum
"Rare for a scientific paper to fetch much on the black market. These days but i got the kisco was no ordinary psychiatrist. This is a book that has been made into many editions by cycads clinics. But if you go to latin america mimeograph versions are xerox versions on the market access for three hundred dollars like market for this book brazilians particularly loved so that in defiance of the even the the sim and that monograph he's talking about is currently selling for seven hundred to nine hundred dollars on amazon. It was an issue of the psychiatric clinics of north america. That gop guest edited in nineteen ninety nine and a paper that he wrote in that issue became one of his most influential and controversial in it he laid out a spectrum of bipolar disorders from the most manic psychotic extreme that schizo affective disorder two cases of bipolar that are only unleashed by substance abuse antidepressants or brain atrophy from dementia. Excuse me affective bipolar psychotic less than skis. Affective psychotic bipolar one bipolar to. There's something we call the half because there are psychosomatic less type. Which is medication associated Type for which is hyperthermic with depression. Because they people looking at the press is for the half which is substance used as five. Which is the knicks states. There's a pipe. Six which is in the context of dementia all but two of those categories have actually been absorbed into the dsm which now includes bipolar one disorder bipolar two disorder psychopathic disorder which views as the temperamental underpinning of borderline personality disorder and calls in his list bipolar two and a half when it occurs with the longer depressions of bipolar to then what about his bipolar three well antidepressant. Induced mania is now categorized as bipolar disorder in dsm five largely based on the research of gop and others who showed that over ninety percent of patients with antidepressant induce mania. Go on to develop full bipolar disorder with long term. Follow up a switching on the presence indicate by piloting. Now finally this and five is going to accept that then. He had bipolar four. That's hyperthermic the real charismatic. Hypo manic type temperament with depression. Okay this one didn't make it into the dsm actually and bipolar four and a half substance induced by polar disorder which is now categorized in the bipolar chapter india. Sem bipolar five depression with mixed features which was recognized for the first time in. Dsm five bipolar. Six mania in the context of dementia got believed that the brain atrophy of dementia could unleash a latent bipolar disorder in people with genetic or other risks for bipolar. But this category is not recognized in. Dsm unless you count as bipolar due to a general medical condition and yet you can hear in that court. That hookup is not satisfied. He's looking for a fight. He says his conceptualization was done in defiance of dsm that in defiance of the even the newly sm was a passionate man wore his heart on his sleeve. I am not very much of a political individual. Actually shy individual. Relatively speaking intellectuals tend to be. Yes oh you did do poetry and art. I saw on your cv you you. You were a poet and artist. Right of. I would say a young man. Everybody lies poetry. But some you fall in love with my wife. I always thought that way because When we were college students she said to me you one of those people who can bring science and art together and she said that's the ultimate aim of all our knowledge and i think that She she really saw something in me that time and predicted that my career would rise in methodic way bob Would only seventeen in college.
The Extent of Tech Regulations With an Expert
"I'm here with juniper networks is bob dunne to talk about oversight regulations in the tech industry. Hello bipolar you. Good connor how are you. I'm doing well tell us a little bit about your history working with government and how it regulates the tech industry web connor i. I moved to virginia with my family about eighteen years ago. I know mentor of mine from nortel said. Can you come down here and help me figure out this federal thing as he put it and i fell in love with the federal market and its customers Since then i was in a bid for awhile. And then i worked exclusively with the intelligence community for nortel which was some of the most rewarding work i've ever i've ever done then. I tried my hand in small business. I went to a company called star which is based out of portland oregon again focused on the army and tactical solutions. Then i went to ericsson federal which was actually sold in in spun off and korea. We created the company called ozias which still exists today. And then i went back to pack star. I was ceo. They are for a little over four years. And now i'm With juniper and very proud to be vp of federal for juniper networks with regards to standards and regulations and how the oversight works with the tech industry. You know you have the usual names. Like the fcc in epa eeoc in other agencies like that but What many may not be familiar with our agencies. Gsa which is a general services administration and nist which is the national institution for standards and technology. Their mission is to enable innovation through standards and measurements. And then on top of that. Of course you have congressional oversight which pays attention to The industry and what tech companies put out whether it's a service Or hardware yeah. I'm a big fan of nist here at sgx. Because i used so much of their documentation to help. Inform my understanding of technology. When i'm writing my articles before we dive into specifics. How is the tech industry regulated Do the industry regulators and various governments. Have a tight grip or things still fairly lax. I guess it depends on which industry. You're talking about so when the part that i'm familiar with an obviously involved in right now as network equipment providers we provide solutions and we are heavily regulated when you look at the social media companies You know it's it's a new world and you've heard about the Congressional meetings and some of the scrutiny twitter and facebook and others are under. And i think they're just trying to figure out now how best to regulate them do you Put a lot of standards in place like we have today through all the certifications we go through the federal government It remains to be seen with the latest Hack that occurred. A lot of people are concerned about cybersecurity as they should be. And i think there's going to be more regulation in that area as well. yeah maybe rightfully so. What are some of the significant government or industry regulations that organizations are still complying with. Well again you know nist is is very important to juniper and we go through the steps internally and then we put forward our solutions to nist and other agencies there's an organization called the gic which is joint interoperability interoperability tests center. We put a lot of our solutions through that process and then are certifications like a fed ramp when you're talking about the cloud phipps. has strong criteria that that Have to be met and other certifications going on down the line. So you think about. Americans with disabilities act which is section five away if to be compliant with that and the list is pretty long but When you select the market that you want to go after and provide secure solutions it's necessary. It's a requirement so that will continue. And i think those companies that comply with the standards and regulations really benefit from the outcomes because it makes their solution stronger. And while there's a lot of company oversight internal oversight. I think having the checks and balances only make the company stronger. That's good to hear. It seems like there's more regulations than just on the tech itself like you mentioned About disabilities and it isn't important to remember that these organizations are just like any other in that they have the workplace regulations on top of the technological regulations Exactly however in general what does regulation of the tech industry look like in the united states. You know what aspects of the technology are most regulated while the first word that comes to mind is security so every aspect of what we delivered to our customers. has different levels of security. There's risk management framework. Put out by diet cap that must be followed and we do I mentioned the There are others that are put in place like nyack. The national information assurance partners And they focus on common criteria and then companies also put in the rigors into their supply chain so supply chain management is critically important because it starts really at the idea of a solution or a product or a service all the way down the chain to implementation at offering so especially with the bad actors that are trying to penetrate networks companies have to Maintain control and put in a security standards that are second to none and if you look at the best technology companies the most successful technology companies security is always top of mind and and i think it will be top of mind for a long time.
Air Force One: Flying Fortress
"I really enjoyed the documentary. I got the screener yesterday and watched it right away. This right up my alley to it reminded me of like bob doors Air force one coverage in books. I don't know if you've ever seen what he's done in the past book just he app. In fact i knew very well. He was good guy. Yeah enjoy that it was. It was tough getting access that we did and Particularly in a time that we guys and legal unfettered access so although we only minutes some of the stuff that we showed has never been shown liberal minded so the president airlift group. If you know you can't you can't get access to that. You know i i. I've seen that happen. It's very very difficult but to actually get access to the hangar. Where they're modifying dc twenty five bay I've been i've been In san antonio facility with vc twenty five a in the next hanger they wouldn't even acknowledge that was there you know So as i'm very impressed in is just part of the story is how you got that accent said. I don't know if there's much to say about that but I'm very very curious to save only but it wasn't gave as a majority of it was made. Just thankful that steve. I mean for testing network. Anyway having been in the military and went through the military initially an answers diplomatic channels which is in contact with the white house We met with a couple friends of president. Trump's white has Within emotions and actually unable to president trump and what he willing to tell us access to us and the white house military office and ministration We managed to gas boats which was amazing they use off the dot couldn't louisville couldn't be more accommodating. If i'm being honest. I'm were very tolerant. Case that we gave we stay zeno as we were shooting with somebody and you will see some of styles that a security guy with everyone watching the fix edge over all of the new and boy teach restrained before we do anything with the sense to relate to gain. Access azure There would have been no access without that kind of deal for this. Yeah it was tough to treat us two years to get to the access And that's why this project new full on in this project for some time. That's why it's taking a little contrition is is really the access. Obviously twenty with the president globes as half a lot tougher than than you would imagine and trials of the plane. Got ashley to get on the plane where he actually has some time with. Israel is because he knows a low quality In five minutes with I'm is enough. Oss has been really is and that it was a great interview into politics. He two seventy seven and now he's gone. You know yes full yes. I'm really loves what the there was. Also the access. In victorville into the modification hangar. Where they put on the new doors was advocating for san antonio no so the the planes unchain stole the victim. Yeah undisciplined the victim. Bill is actually use off the so. That's the day the boeing being signed on the dotted line and the plane became the pc twenty five point. It was quite amazing to see that. But that was the official acceptance from bullying to the half of the across the across was handed back the boy from the pilots with some essentially. The pilots flew the plane Across to science as use. I feel played nine. It was at bipolar defense converted into the bbc twenty five. You'll see slow by an eating
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"This is your host Jason. This is an irregular podcast. I put on for independent writing Dungeons and Dragons and what it's like off with a mental illness particularly bipolar disorder borderline personality disorder major depression ADHD and other diagnosis. If you have any questions, you can shoot me an email at the bipolar DM. Be sure to visit my webpage if you haven't already and there you'll find previous podcasts life blog as well as resources on Dungeons and Dragons and you writing and mental illness that web page is the bipolar dmv.com. Also, I have a Facebook page. It is at the bipolar DM. I'm sorry at bipolar DM is the handle and that there will get you to my Facebook page. Where I publish articles about Dungeons and Dragons and indy writing and also about mental illness. I have videos. If you're not a member already. I have a group page a private group called The bipolar damnation there. I have more behind-the-scenes stuff that that goes on in my life, you know, especially what it's like to live with a mental illness on a day-to-day basis. I have a update live update that I do every day every couple days. Sometimes several times a day depending on what I have to talk about and today's topic. I'm going to touch on something that I have not really been talking about very much or hardly at all in the last couple episodes or seasons and that is independent writing. What is it? What is it not and how do you get into it? May be the first question to ask is of course what is in the writing or independent writing and that is dead? You go and publish a book by yourself or also called self-publishing. You do not go through a traditional Publishing House to publish your book and many authors are finding nowadays with platforms like lulu.com that they can publish a very professional book at on demands so that instead of being forced to buy, you know, a thousand copies of your book. You've just have your customer put an order in that book is printed that day it shipped out and it looks fantastic. I have published two books on Thursday through lulu.com and was able to also have the ebooks published for free. The cost is really there is no upfront cost whatsoever. It's all absorbed by the customer direct and Lulu handles the transactions. Your books can be put on all the major publishing sites such as barnesandnoble.com Books-A-Million, I think also as in dog, Did in that list Google everything else. And anyways, the process is really not that hard to do. I mean editing is of course the big big issue getting it edited right so that it will be read by the the computer system which transfers the book from your electronic format word or off or you're doing it and into a digital ePub format. It'll or in a print-ready format that's ready to go to the print shop and go home. I highly recommend that once you do publish your book order some test copies for yourself. And that way you can see how the book looks and you'll be able to judge whether or not you want to make any changes, especially in the page order or anything like that. Maybe decide you want a couple extra blank pages or the way, the chapters are following you down like that. They fall on the opposite page and you want them all on the same page. So we got somewhere you do all that stuff getting into getting into it though really is not at heart. You don't have a publisher that you have to submit to you don't have to worry about editors and all that or agents. Although those things are recommended especially editors. If you can afford a good Editor to do a line-by-line, it will save you so many headaches and and prints and reprints trying to get it just right whenever you find a job. Typo in your book so I highly recommend if you're able to edit as much as you can on your own and then send it off to a professional editor for a line by line. And I mean line-by-line a edit. That's the kind of edit you want. Is it line by line? And that's where they'll literally go line-by-line do all the corrections and stuff like that and then send it back to you. as far as anything else in that world goes really the it's it's you do have Things that a profession you do not have things that a professional publishing house would offer such as a marketing, you know department and distribution and places to already set up to take your books, you know, the different bookstore. So you do have to do all that stuff on your own you're going to have to Market your own book cell phone book and get it out there. You know, it's just not going to happen on your own. I have two books. I've published through Lulu and really I have not done anything as far as marketing of what those were over two years. I haven't sold any new copies, you know, and but it's not that big of a deal because I'm not pushing it right now because I'm focused on other things such as this podcast off. Yeah the DM Nation now, Yeah, that's about all I got to say about the publishing and what it is and in some of the things that it's not if you have any questions, or if you have any topics that you might want to hear abouts, please email me at the bipolar D. M.com or visit my webpage the bipolar diem Cong there. You'll find previous episodes of this podcast. Also. My books are available for sales Shameless plug on the resource page where you'll also find information about the writing Dungeons and Dragons and mental illness now. Thank you again for listening and please remember take.
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"I have about Dungeons and Dragons in the writing and living with illness particularly bipolar disorder borderline personality disorder and major depression among other diagnosis. If you have any questions or comments or requests on top or you can email me at the bipolar DM at all, so you can get a hold of me at my web page www.org the bipolar diem, there. You'll find previous episodes of this podcast by blog as well as resources on in deriding Dungeons and Dragons and mental illness. Also available is my Facebook platform at bipolar DM is the search handle for that and I have a group page called the bipolar damnation and there I have behind-the-scenes information about the podcast about what it's like living on a daily basis with a mental illness as well as long live updates that I put on every day. Sometimes every couple days sometimes several times a day and today's topic. Well we're going to be talking about is we are going to be talking about a project. That's me and my friend Jay are doing it is a Dungeons & Dragons game for kids with autism. Now, if you're not familiar with autism it is a development disability law that affects social skills causes repetitive Behavior difficulty with speech and also with nonverbal skills. This is a very odd. misunderstood illness and many people don't really understand what it's like to live with it or what the people who suffer from it what they go through Now especially at a young age because this is usually being more and more diagnosed at younger ages kids run into, you know, a lot of problems with their social skills in making friends and keeping friends and and having to explain certain behaviors or why they cannot speak like everybody else or why they avoid eye contact or other, you know, nonverbal cues Dungeons and Dragons on the other hand is a if you're not familiar with Dungeons and Dragons just is on this most basic sense Collective storytelling. Imagine if you would when you were younger and you read a book Peter Pan or Alice in Wonderland, or you know Knights of the Round Table and imagined yourself in that book. What would you be? What kind of character would you be like in what would you do if you age Go anywhere in that world of King Arthur or Peter Pan or any of those other places and do whatever your imagination is, you know, that's the limit to what you can do Dungeons and Dragons takes that and inserts you in a story as a character. And so you play a character along with several other players home and a dungeon master. Who is the main Storyteller we use dice to introduce Randomness into the story. So it's not predictable. We never know where the story is going to lead us back together. We we've and tell this story together of an adventure. So you take that you combined it together with kids with autism other doctors and therapists have done it for years. There's several groups out there. Mostly a lot of them are based on the west coast and up along that up. As far as Seattle that have taken place therapy and introduce Dungeons and Dragons into it and what they'd found is that the kids found a sense of social more socialization because they have to interact with the other players that are at the table most often. A lot of them could be just complete strangers to them. And so this forces them to get out of a shell so to speak and to interact and to grow socially it also helps them grow use their coping skills, whether they're dealing in real life with a disappointment in the game or getting overly excited or they can also have their characters practice out these coping skills in the situation. At the character finds themself in and so you can work out all kinds of scenarios that would allow them to think about and strategize them. So if I had a chance to do it myself, what would I do or how would I handle this? And so we're adding all those things into the Dungeons & Dragons game for these kids the way we got a lot of logistics to get through as far as how we're going to organize it. Me and Jay are writing the adventure right now too. So, you know, we're trying to make this Venture it lasts for about that. Let's say between four to six sessions is how much how many games will probably play song we play for six weeks if we're playing every week and we'll be doing this online on Discord and we will then, you know, bring the kids off. Bring the kids to the end of the adventure and at the end of The Venture will take a little breather and then start over again with a new adventure maybe with new characters and stuff like that. And as a care players grow in their abilities and Dungeons and Dragons will allow them to also create from scratch their very own characters, you know, something that's starting off will have pre-generated characters that are already made up. They just choose what they want to be, you know, whether it's a wizard or a rogue or a fighter or a paladin off or a monk then, you know, whatever race they want to be whether that is Elf or human or halfling or dwarf or gnome or half work, you know, so that I can be any kind of race or any kind of class and together create this character based on the sheet that I would hand them with all the stats and everything like that, so they know how to place And then we'd go at it. Just have them go on an adventure. Thank you again for listening to the bipolar d m. I am your host Jason. Be sure to send me an email. If you have any questions comments or topic suggestions at the song polar DM at gmail.com visit my webpage the bipolar DM calm and also check out my Facebook handle Facebook page at bipolar DM. Thank you again and remember take.
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Welcome to the bipolar DM. This is your host jacent. This is a irregular podcast that I put on about mental illness Dungeons and Dragons and also independent writing in particular way. We discussed bipolar disorder borderline personality disorder and also major depression. If you have any questions or comments, you can email me at the bipolar DM. Be sure to also visit. My Facebook page at bipolar diem is the long to that there we have updates about the bipolar diem on my social platforms. And also there is a link there to my group page which is called the song by polar DM Nation. You can do a Google do a search on that on Facebook and join that and that is where we put on daily updates. These are just short couple. Minute audios of what's going on in the bipolar DMS world as well as what it's like to live with a mental illness on a daily basis those updates come sometimes day long. Sometimes every couple days sometimes several times a day just kind of depends on my mood and what I have to report especially if there's something new and upcoming that just happened in my life that I would like to discuss and not wait for until tomorrow today. We are going to be discussing panic disorders and also social anxiety kind of two of those together one of the reasons why is because the techniques as far as how to cope with both of those whether it's a panic attack or if it's a social anxiety or basically the same really probably the major differences is medication, although there are medications to take birth. Social anxiety, but the idea behind this is not to denigrate using medication for panic attacks or social anxiety. But to add to your toolbox of things that you can do to help overcome and to get through a panic attack or through social anxiety. So again, I'm not saying don't take your meds or meds or bad or any of that stuff. I take meds and I have meds to help calm me down to Earth. But the idea is to add to your toolbox of the things that you can do. And the first thing that we that is very useful is deep breathing techniques. Now when I say deep breathing, I mean not only using your chest muscles, but actually using your abdominal muscles as well. Breathing belly. Breathing is probably another term for Thursday. Babies do it young children do and at some point we go away from that and then start doing chest breathing which is shallower and not as deep. And so the lower lobes lobes of the lungs don't get as much oxygen in them and with belly breathing or deep-breathing you fill all the lobes of the lungs up with oxygen found that increases your oxygen levels in your blood stream the O2 SATs, which also naturally helps release in the morphins in other feel good hormones to help you naturally combat a panic attack or social anxiety..
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Only. Welcome to the bipolar DM podcast. I'm your host, Jason this is an irregular podcast about a deriding dungeons and dragons and living with mental illness namely bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and major depression. If. You want to get a hold of me. You can reach me at my email address, the bipolar dm at gmail.com, or you can go to my web page www dot the bipolar DM dot com there. You'll find previous episodes of my podcast as well as resources on indie writing Dungeons and dragons and mental illness..
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Weight gain or decrease or increase in appetite. Either insomnia or sleeping too much either restless censor slowed behavior fatigue or loss of energy feelings of worthlessness or excessive or inappropriate guilt decreased ability think or concentrate or in the vice of nece. And thinking our thinking about planning or attempting suicide. ANYWAYS That's What that is in a nutshell. Suarez you know what my notes say but. Was Bipolar is in reality is is been the single most devastating thing to affect my life. I have lost a career in the military. I have lost a church. I have lost a wife. All to this beast that lives within me. Another study that was a couple years garth thing is two, thousand, fifteen maybe. said that ninety percent of bipolar marriages her marriage warned person has bipolar. Then there's a ninety percent chance of divorce. and. When I heard that stat. It actually made me feel kind of good about myself because. Hey I mean if ninety percent of other people can't do it only ten percent succeed. You know keeping their marriage together when they have bipolar. I must not too too bad. But. Is probably been my greatest loss is my family. To this disease. And that's all I have for right now. If you have any questions. You can reach me at the bipolar DM the at gmail.com or you can go to my web page www dot the bipolar M. dot com. We're also on facebook at deep bipolar em have a good day..
"bipolar" Discussed on The Bipolar DM
"Sources. In today's episode, we're going to discuss my own diagnosis and my kind of my story. Of what happened to me through the VA system over the last twenty two years? I was diagnosed with borderline per sorta wallows in the army. And discharged with an honorable discharge and mmediately went to the VA system and started in San Diego a beautiful the A. They went to Birmingham Alabama. Rishi. Hole. With bullet holes in it. Then to Arkansas. which I believe one who flew over the CUCKOO's nest must have been filmed in because it is wicked scary in the psych ward. And but I get to go to the mental health. Department at the Va Clinic and Branson so I don't have to drive two hours to see a doctor. but I got a new dock he hasn't. We. Haven't talked very much. So. I'm wanting the Giddy service dog and he's opposed to the idea I that we can even do that. You know. Even though I've shown documentation saying, yes, we can. The VA although will not pay for the dog itself will pay for me to go get the dog, Anche Abi and hotel training with the dog. And then also returned. And they also pay all the vet bills. through the prosthetics departments because this is a mobility issue. What I require is a psychiatric service dog dog that specially trained and between thirty and forty commands or tasks. From Me Up in the morning making sure I take my meds to sink that. I do self care feeding myself and Getting out and exercising and walking the dog of course, and and other things interrupting a potentially dangerous situation if I become obsessive or overwhelmed emotionally. That the dog could do something to distract me and get get my attention away from what's going on. I believe I have a strong case. The problem is I got to. Present it to dock in order for him to sign off on it well, just because he signs off on, it doesn't mean it's going to happen because it's guy per statics. Then it's gotta go up the chain of command be approved somewhere up mucky mucks. and. There's no guarantee that they'll say yes. So We'll. See. But back to the question, a hand and that is. My diagnosis and what it is I have bipolar too and bipolar disorder formerly called Manic depression is a mental health condition that causes extreme mood swings that include emotional high. Mania Hypo Mania and lows depression. When you become depressed, you may feel sad or hopeless and lose interest or pleasure IMAS activities. When your mood shifts maniac hypo mania, a less extreme mania, you may feel euphoric full of energy or unusually irritable. These mood swings can affect sleep energy activity judgment behavior, and the ability to think clearly. People may experience mood mood swings. Sadness elevated mood. Anger anxiety apathy apprehension euphoria. General Discontent Gilts hopelessness. Loss of interests or loss of. Loss of behavior. Restlessness. Self harming you know unwanted thoughts or delusions lack of concentration racing thoughts. slowest slowness activity or a false belief of superiority. Depression Manic. Agitated depression or paranoia. waking law sleep difficulty falling asleep or excessive sleepiness. Also common fatigue rapid in. Frenzy speaking. Episodes of mood swings may include. Arc. May occur rarely or Multiple Times A. While most people will experience some emotional symptoms speech being episodes some may not experience any. Although bipolar disorder is a lifelong condition. You can manage your mood swings and other symptoms by following treatment plan and most cases bipolar is treated with medications and psychological counseling or psychotherapy. There several times I by types of bipolar and related disorders they may include Menia or Hypo mania depression. Symptoms can include or cause unpredictable changes in mood and behavior resulting in significant distress and difficulty in life. Bipolar one disorder you've had at least one manic episode that may be preceded or followed by hypo manic or major depressive episode. As some cases, mania may trigger a break from reality such psychosis. By tope bipolar two disorder which I have. You have at least one major depressive episode and at least one Hypo Manic episode but you're never had a manic episode. said. Classic Disorder. You've had at least two years or one children teenagers. Wow of many periods of Hypo, mania symptoms of the depressive symptoms they'll listen veer them major depression. So. There's other things going on nearby to disorder is not a mile milder form of polar one. But a separate diagnosis while the maniac episodes of bipolar one disorder can be severe and dangerous individuals bipolar too can be depressed for longer periods, which can cause significant impairment. Although bipolar disorder can occur at any age typically diagnosis and the teenage years or early twenties symptoms can vary from person to person and symptoms may vary over time. Yeah Here's some of the things that you do when you have when your manic abnormally upbeat jumpy or wired increased activity energy. Our agitation exaggerated sense of wellbeing and self-confidence Fauria decreased need for sleep unsafe unusual talk business. Racing thoughts distractibility poor decision making for example, going on buying sprees taking sexual risks are making foolish investments. A major depressive episode. Include the press moods such as feeling. Sad empty hopeless. Or tearful in children and teens. APPREC- can appear. As irritability. Mark loss of interest or feeling no pleasure in all or almost all activities. Significant weight loss when not dieting.
"bipolar" Discussed on Dancing with Bipolar
"About? What is to be the child of a bipolar parent? So here we go. Let's talk to Chris. Hello Hello Hello. Hello how are you doing good are you don? I'm doing all right. I'm doing all right. I'm glad that this is working because my tech issues all day. Today's Oh it's like this is fantastic and it's working. Yes because I do record episode in front of my Friends Park Asu sometimes and we had all types of issues so happy that this is working. Yeah me too. So let's run with it while you were kicking up. Let's do that so let's have have you introduce yourself to the audience a little bit and then we'll get a little bit about what's topic is that we're going to discuss tonight. That works me. Okay so tell us a little bit about your family your childhood if you want to You know what it is that what is brings you on my show tonight. Okay so do like a like a full intro. Go AHEAD WILL. Thanks dog show. My name is Chris and I am of the elder statesmen. I say I just turned thirty nine this past January so I'm old. I'm originally from New York City lack. I was born and raised in the city so I was born in Harlem and I lived there until I actually don't like pleasant avenue so which Kinda like like Harlem Spanish Harlem rate so I lived on pleasant avenue. I lived there. I want to say I did slobs like six and then I moved to the Bronx and I'm Livin Lebron's until I was sixteen moved to Brooklyn incident. I lived in Brooklyn until I was. Eighteen moved out of miles and I moved in back to the Bronx so then I lived in the projects. I lived in Washington houses. Iraq's so I ended their first couple of years I was in college so Twenty just about twenty one and then that's when I went to school. What's a Collagen? I would play football throwing up. Yeah so I've been caught all over the place so I and then on your show talking about mental health and bipolar within all those moves which will probably get into as the show. Progresses is me dealing with mark. Mother severe untreated bipolar disorder which stemmed from severe violence to paranoia to kidnapping. And it's not very interesting. Show that you have so we're gonNA talk about a lot of different things. So wow well. That's a pretty big nutshell So when you how old were you when you figured out that there was something different in your family was it like. Were you very young or did your mask it to the best of her ability all five or six learned back right when you could start like as a kid when you can start understanding okay. I'm getting punched in the face for no reason right now like when you can kinda start to put that together it was about five or six and then. I was like okay. This is not bright or I guess I should do that. I was able to put it together with my sister that things were happening. Seasonal licensed summertime wise. Is My mom completely different during summertime? She is during the regular part year or started noticing. Signs like came imams. Smoking is picking up. My Mom's drinking speaking up or the paranoia is picking up. Okay mom episode or my mom's Generosity is picking up another thing I said thing I I don't think they cover so much talk about people that are bipolar or when my mom when I was little is an eighties manic depressive right right and so It was like when her manic episodes but within those men episodes she'll get very generous. She she gives you a lot of things so she gives you money or should come home and have like a bag full of toys which which it you grow up should be like. Oh my God this is awesome but it was like a harbinger gingham nowhere. A bag fulla. Jiji does well. As like five or six I would say I started to notice it and then as the going most the bronx and I got older eight. Oh definitely say about seven eight years. Old is when it was like definite like okay. It's summertime it's GonNa Happen in. You could like time like clockwork okay. It's right after the holidays. It's going to happen like clockwork if you could kinda judge your ear by my mom's different states so she would cycle so it'd be depression during the college season and then come summertime. She would be all up in Mannix or it would. It was more faceted like she would start off matic and then by the new which is completely devolve into depression like it was never really say wish she would just be completely dismantled the up no it would start off with her like not sleeping rate. That would be. She just went to sleep so then because she didn't sleep she didn't let you sleep. You sleep so she wake me up. There were times when I was in high school in cut jumping ahead took a I live. I live at moved to Brooklyn and I was like sixteen so I still continued to go to my high school in the Bronx. And so if you have any listeners. In New York City from where athlete that in Brooklyn which was East New York to where my school was? Which is a LAKOTA tip into the Bronx like Mosul? Parkway Little Bit past where Yankee Stadium is out a little bit with a lot That's about an hour and a half an hour and forty five minute train like just one way rate. So it's like three hours and some change total train so my mother. I would have to get out of my house at like six and get to the walk to the train station and catch lack of six twenty train and the now at the at school right on time remote would like wake me up and like talk to me and chastised me and like rundown all these paranoid conspiracy theories to me until five forty five in the morning honestly would look at the clock. It okay I'm done like purposely like okay. I've done got for school now and so I have literally fifteen minutes to get ready for school. Get on the bus ninety nine plus walk to the train station. Get on trench zonked out. I'll pass our strange strange sleep as soon as it's rain-hit sleep on the school of School of like that and then sold. Of course I had issues. I school right now. Say That must've affected your schooling like immensely that. I'm sorry no no go ahead. I was going to be that tired because I remember. 'cause my mom was diagnosed. Something as well. She would stay up all night long. Do Art Projects in blast music all night? It would be like trying to sleep. I would actually go up in the garage and go sleep in the back of the station wagon because it was the quietest place that I could find to like sleep in our house so I totally relate to that and what happened is that I had teachers who Kinda knew that there was something not quite right in my house and let me sleep through class but because as High Q. I could get away with that. Like in still pass. You know so it was like I can totally relate to that I totally get that. I can remember like second and third grade dying as soon as I hit the bus and be like. Oh my God. I don't know how we got through. I don't know how we got our childhoods laughter. I joke around which is good and bad and my brother and sister will tell you about it so I actually have. Three sisters Their stepsisters so they didn't grow up through this but they went through their own adult in in their beginning. Part of the family before we came a family rain. But like my brother's older so we're separated so like my brother. The age gap between myself and my brother is sixteen years. That's long yeah sixteen years. Mr Than between me and my sisters five years so Gab. Between my sister my brother. So that's why it's sixteen years and so my sister and I were closer to my brother. Laughs at once five brother could go. Hey was gone. He joined the military he was in the navy and went into the Marines. He was gone on eighteen. Nineteen years old. He was out a mock combat. Matia and so me and my sister grew up and we have a very morbid sense so we crack jokes had everything. Because that's the only way we knew how divide was to joke about it your because I mean we're getting like punched in the face or stuffed in a car or drag downstairs. The only way to survive it later on the now having like severe nightmares is completely joke about job out. We face we made when we got dragged down the stairs or we joke about how if we ever saw the flight attendant that walked into the bathroom and the airport and was watching. My mom like beat us down like we were soldiers in the street. Let we will throw her eating right now like we. We joke about this and I know it's more of a no your listeners. By Omar yes. Oh I'm sorry okay good. I just had a glitch or I we joked about throwing that lady of eating and I know you hit. Women are thing but we joke about that in. Its We joke about it because we're angry about it because someone walked in and my mom had just been is like me up so I remember 'cause I can remember face in the mirror. Yeah and like I was like swollen. I was crying. I was read. I was probably like eight or nine years. Old Right nine. Yeah and An mkx she had my sister on the ground She's beaten shit out. My sister like fool punches. Beat her in the stall in the bathroom and the flight attendant walked in looked at everything else happening and walked right out and say anything not make all right as we ended up getting on a flight Because this is the kidnapping part that I'm joking too. But we ended up getting on a flight. My mom took us where we got to even know where we went to. I know my sister didn't get on the flight because the my sister dot com dot. My sister was a demon and She called my aunt and my aunt came and picked my sister and then she took me to Mexico and I lived in Mexico for like three weeks in Mexico City for three weeks so So we we have a really morbid sense of humor and so we've joked and we're very.