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"bellwood" Discussed on WGN Radio
"Well. The deep freeze in Chicago gets deeper. We'll talk about the weather, even if you don't want to look at WGN traffic on the outbound Kennedy, an accident reported now. At Foster Avenue Wind Chill Advisory went into effect at midnight. We could see when show readings overnight of 25 to 30 below. We're well on the way. WGN TV s Rob Sneed spoke with some winter weary Chicagoans Friday night. Oh, I'm going to go home right now. I got into a car accident. On my way here. I'm sick of it. Sick, a shovel in sick of throwing salt, sick of having to take my time Driving and national Weather Service, lead forecaster Bob Oravec says. Another round of snow We hit the Northeast later today. Band Heavy snow to be moving pretty quickly northward on Sunday, first, hitting the nation's capital around sunrise, headed towards New York City by late morning and then up to Boston by the afternoon. When it's all said and done. Looks like there's gonna be a pretty broad swath of 4 to 8 inches of snow across these regions. The full forecast for the Chicago area is coming up. Negotiations continue this weekend as Mayor Lightfoot tries to get Chicago's public schools back on line. We get more from WGN's Roger Banish a life wouldn't schools chief Janice Jackson when on national media last week, saying public schools were safe to reopen all the teachers union continue to call for agreement on covert 19 safety measures. After the mayor on Friday, so the union has CPS his last best and final offer. The two sides met again Saturday at the bargaining table. CPS says pre K and special ed teachers who don't return Monday will be locked out of their remote learning accounts. Roger Banish WGN News and investigation continues into a deadly shooting Saturday morning of West suburban Bloomingdale, investigators say. 27 year old jeans, McGill Jr of Chicago. Was pronounced dead at an area hospital after the shooting at the Indian Lakes hotel. At least five others injured in that shooting. Police say gunfire erupted after some kind of altercation between two groups occupying different floors in the hotel. Bloomingdale's director of public safety Frank Geo. Marie. See, says a lack of security at the hotel is partially to blame. We feel that they've kind of let our community down. In the sense there was no security working last night. We've confirmed that and you know that that will move forward with the village will look into some of their responsibilities as a business within our community. The village is reportedly working to revoke the hotel's business license due to those ongoing security. Concerns. WGN's Gabe Salgado has elitist coronavirus numbers for Illinois from Friday afternoon, Department of Public Health Saturday reported 3062 new confirmed cases of cover 19. Eleanor now has 1,144,281. Total cases are. DPH is also reporting 60 additional deaths from the Corona virus, which brings the number of total fatalities. 2 19,585. 90,295 covert tests have been conducted within the last day. 1,294,000 born in 98 vaccines have been administered thus far, while 2271 other residents are hospitalized with the virus. The positivity rate is 3.4% gave Salgado WGN news and correction that was covert numbers from Saturday, not Friday. On said at $150,000 Saturday for a bell would police commander who has been accused of possessing child pornography, The DuPage County state's attorney's office says 45 Year old John provide Ethan Is charged with three counts of possession of child porn. Working on a tip. The Lombard Police Department reportedly found that Tre Barth and used a potential or a personal I P address and the I P address owned by the village of Bellwood of you, child pornography through a file sharing APP drove our attorney is due in court on March, Eat. The Super Bowl Sunday. The president and his family will watch the big game from their home in Delaware, where there are spending the weekend and police say an avalanche killed for skiers and injured for others and a popular recreation area, making it one of the deadliest avalanches. And Utah history Now, WGN Sports Peyton Manning heading to the Pro Football Hall of Fame. Joining Manning in making it on the first ballot are defensive back Charles Woodson and a receiver and no one has Megatron, Calvin Johnson, Steelers card Alan Faneca and safety John Lynch running out the modern era class of 2021. Also going into the hall, Cowboys receiver Dora Pearson, Raiders coach Time Flores and Teeler Scout Steelers scout Bill None. In the game We heard yesterday on WGN. Northwestern Lost to produce 75 to 70, Illinois. Be Wisconsin 75 60. The bowls beat up on Orlando Friday. 1 18 to 92. The Blackhawks visit The Dallas Stars this afternoon pregame occur smoothly at 1 30. And the face off a two o'clock with John and Troy on 7 20 w GNN, WGN radio dot com. Let's get a look at the forecast from the WGN Chicago Weather Center. Sunshine early in our Sunday gives way to more cloud cover in the afternoon, with temperatures on Lee, making it to around seven for an afternoon high windshield, saying below zero around today Sunday night. Mostly cloudy could see a little light snow. It's like cancer that temperatures drop down. Around one below windshield folded 10 below, mostly cloudy on Monday lights. No, it's likely again could be accumulations with highs in the 18 then partly sunny on Tuesday, with temperatures returning to mid team for afternoon highs. I'm the WGN Weather Center. I'm meteorologist like Jansen. It's one below at O'Hare. When show reading of Minus 18. I'm Steve Roxton on Chicago's very own. 7 20, WGN. Former Chicago police superintendent Eddie Johnson joins.
"bellwood" Discussed on WGN Radio
"What's got into a car accident? On my way here? I'm sick of it. Sick, a shovel in sick of Ah, throwing salt sick of having to take my time Driving and national Weather service. Lead forecaster Bob Oravec says. Another round of snow will hit the Northeast later today, You expect abandoned heavy snow to be moving pretty quickly northward on Sunday, first, hitting the nation's capital around sunrise, headed towards New York City by late morning and then up to Boston by the afternoon. When it's all said and done Looks like there's gonna be a pretty broad swath of 4 to 8 inches of snow across these regions. The full forecast for the Chicago area is coming up. Negotiations continue this weekend is Mayor Lightfoot tries to get Chicago public schools re opened a life wouldn't schools chief Janice Jackson when I'm national media last week, saying public schools were safe to reopen? All the teachers union continue to call for agreement a covert 19 safety measures after the mayor on Friday, so the union has CPS is last best and final offer. The two sides met again Saturday at the bargaining table. CPS says pre K and special ed teachers who don't return Monday will be locked out of their remote learning accounts. Roger Banished WGN news. The investigation continues into a deadly shooting Saturday morning and West suburban Bloomingdale, investigators say. 27 year old jeans, McGill Jr of Chicago. Was pronounced dead at an area hospital after they had shooting at the Indian Leaks. Hotel. At least five others injured. Police say gunfire erupted after some kind of altercation between two different groups occupying different floors of the hotel, Bloomingdale's director of public safety Frank JIA Marie, see Says the lack of security at the hotel is partially to blame. We feel that they've kind of let our community down in the sense there was no security working last night. We've confirmed that and you know that that will move forward with the village will look into some of their responsibilities as a business within our community. The village is reportedly working to revoke the hotel's business license due to those ongoing security concerns. Bond was said at $150,000 Saturday for a bell would police commander who's been accused of possessing child pornography. The Page. County state's attorney's office is 45 year old John Perv. Arthenia is charged with three counts of possession of Channel port working on a tip. The Lombard Police Department reportedly found that true Barth and use a personal AP address. Added I P address owned by the village of Bellwood of you, child pornography through a file sharing app. Dr Arthur and he is due in court on March Heat on the Super Bowl Sunday, the president and his family will watch the big game from their home in Delaware. They're spending the weekend there. We say an avalanche killed four skiers and injured four others and a popular recreation area, making it one of the deadliest avalanches and Utah history. Unified Police Department told local media. It was alerted to the Avalanche just before noon on Saturday after receiving a faint distress call from an avalanche beacon in Millcreek Canyon. Department says Always skiers had avalanche beacons of survivors or able to dig themselves out of the snow on ice, their medical conditions unknown at this time, the survivors also able to locate in dig at the other four, but they had Already died. Peyton Manning, Charles Woodson and Calvin Johnson among those being named in the NFL Hall of Fame. Also being tried in Canton, Ohio, are Alan Faneca and John Lynch to Pearson elected as a senior induct ee time. Flores inducted in the coach category. And Bill none will be untrained posthumously and the contributor category. More WGN sports and a game he heard yesterday. I'm w GM. Northwestern Lost to produce 75 70, Illinois beat Wisconsin 75 to 60. The bowls begin Orlando. Friday night. Final score 1 18 to 92 the Blackhawks visit The Dallas Stars this afternoon. The pre game with Chris Mode and 1 30 Buck Drop a two o'clock with John and Troy on 7 20, w g, N and WGN radio dot com. And Certain game called the Super Bowl. 55th version leader today. Kansas City of course at.
Bellwood Police Commander Charged With Possession Of Child Pornography
"$150,000 Saturday for a bell would police commander who's been accused of possessing child pornography. The Page. County state's attorney's office is 45 year old John Perv. Arthenia is charged with three counts of possession of Channel port working on a tip. The Lombard Police Department reportedly found that true Barth and use a personal AP address. Added I P address owned by the village of Bellwood of you, child pornography through a file sharing app. Dr Arthur and he is due in court on March Heat on the
The 60-game MLB schedule is out! Here's what you need to know and the big matchups we're circling
"So here's what we know on the surface as we wait the official announcement of the other fifty nine games on the red season. We know it is sixty games. We will run through September twenty seventh. In terms of regular season, we know the reds are playing the national league central, and we know they'll play the American league central by the way if it's reds tigers opening day. What about Luis Castillo Versus Matthew Boyd? Maybe I'll ask David Bell about debt. I'm sure there's nothing David Bellwood. Rather be asked. Hey, schedules out officially. Who's your opening day starter? That coming up at at six thirty five, we know. NL Central Ale central. And I looked at what has been released from the national. League east, there were not six game were not six game ups against rivals. There was a thought in one stage of this process that they might make your natural rival at six games here in. Essence the reds and Indians playing six games three here three there in the early schedule releases. Six matchups during the season, the early proposal was going to be six versus your biggest rival, and then maybe lop off to against somebody else in that opposite division in this case being the American league central. We're waiting on that cubs, colonels, pirates brewers ten times. Each Butler tells me. That's forty Indians twins, White SOx tigers, royals, perhaps four times each times five equaling a total of twenty games. Let's
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"When I revealed, my feelings to her, and then she and I would be together. I also often fantasize about being in a car wreck or a plane crash being mugged raped. I wanna wake up in a hospital and see this girl there for me caring for me. I fantasize about her holding my hand and kissing me on the forehead telling me, she is there for me. You know? It's interesting the things that you fantasize about this person fulfilling in you are the very things that you didn't get from your mom, you know, this this fantasy let me read again and just imagine. That. Substitute your mom, take obviously, the sex part of it. But I fantasize about being in a car record plane crash being mugged or raped. I wanna wake up in a hospital in see this person there for me, caring for me. I fantasize about her holding my hand and kissing me on the forehead telling me, she is there for me, which to me tells me. The work to work on is healing that stuff. From childhood. Darkest secrets I recently drunkenly sex did with a random guy, I met on the internet. It was exciting. And really turned me on the next day when I was sober. I realized I had no idea who he was or how old he was. And I had a panic attack sexual fantasies most powerful to you. I want to be held down and fucked by a bunch of guys one after another I want to be blindfolded and totally at their mercy. As I write this. I'm getting turned on just thinking about it. I feel like a terrible person for fantasize fantasizing about being taken advantage of and used I sound like a broken record. But it's just a fantasy. And it's. If you let it just be a fantasy it can be so fucking hot. And so it's a form of self love. There's nothing wrong with your fantasy. What if anything would you like to say to someone you haven't been able to I want to tell my best friend, and I am still in love with her. And then I'm not sure I want to go to where wedding much less saying asong during the service, I'm afraid to tell her because if I'm afraid it will be the end of our friendship, and I am so lonely without friends. I can't bear the idea of losing one of my three real friends. What if anything do you wish for just wish to feel normal and not depressed or anxious just want to wake up and not be worried or miserable? I wish I had someone who really truly cared for me who I could trust to share my feelings. Have you shared these things with others? I'm sure we're the few friends. I don't want to feel normal not depressed or anxious. They seem to want to be there for me. They offer a lot of solutions don't work or make sense. And that makes me frustrated or angry with a wound as big as what you have. There is nothing that somebody can say that is going to heal that wound the only way to heal wounds that big is to process it over months and years through self care and support with people who understand what it is that your family. How do you feel after writing these things down? I kind of feel good writing these things down. But I also feel sad hurt lonely and abandoned, and this is gonna sound fucked up, but that's great because instead of running from that feeling trying to find somebody else to take that feeling away process it cry about it rage. About it all of those feelings are trapped in there, and they are fucking driving the bus until we heal. You know, I often say our feelings aren't going to kill us, but running from them might. And I say it where while I'm wearing a top hat and doing air quotes. And you think you'd like to share with someone who shares your thoughts or experiences? I know it doesn't help to hear from a stranger that you aren't alone. I don't know. I don't think anyone has ever said anything to me that makes me feel better. So I don't know what to say to someone else. Sometimes a hug her. Just listening can be like the most powerful thing..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"This is a shame in secret survey filled out by a woman who calls herself lost and loneliness. She is identifies as bisexual. She's in her twenties. She was raised in a slightly dysfunctional environment. Ever been the victim of sexual abuse and stuff happened. But I don't know if it counts, I'm not even really sure if something happened I can remember being interested in sex at a very young age. I began to masturbate at probably seven years old. I can remember fantasizing child about sex that involved hurting boys or men, I wondered why I would have such violent sexual fantasies at such a young age. But can't remember anything ever happening? When I was in college in a conversation with my mother, she mentioned that when I was around three years old whenever I saw particular male member of her Sunday school class, and friend group. I would always take off my pants in my diaper. I wonder if something could have happened when I was very young. And can't remember it that could have triggered these events in fantasies. She's not sure if she's ever been physically emotionally abused. I'm not sure if I would call an emotional abuse. But I think that my mother emotionally nickel acted me throughout my childhood. She suffers from chronic back pain and ever since your injury. When I was eight years old, I became the mother figure in our family. I would take care of my brother and take care of her. My father was present and very loving, but was often busy taking care of my mother. Our family system values the quote martyr. Mommy, the expectation is that mother will give everything she can't take care of everyone else in the family because my mother's physical inability to do this. I was expected to become the martyr. Mommy at age eight, you know, whatever your parents intent, it doesn't really matter. It's it's how that made you feel and what needs you didn't get met as child and finding a way to go back and meet those yourself. That's that's what matters and you're not making too big of a deal of it. That's a huge piece for a kid to miss out on. I mean, you're missing being a kid. That's huge. My brother, and I also spent a lot of time walking on eggshells around my mother because if she was having a bad pain day, she would snap. It us for minor things. My mother also suffers from OCD, and I think that one of her obsessions is that my brother or I am gay and her compulsion was asked constantly about our sexuality once in middle school. She took me to buy new shoes. And I picked out some converse. Chuck Taylor, all star sneakers. She said to me back when I was in school. If we saw girl wearing shoes like that. We would call her a dyke. She thought this was hilarious. And repeated her joke to my grandmother. The next time we visited in showed off my new shoes. My mother was never very open about her emotions, and I don't feel comfortable sharing my feelings with her. That is definitely a big missing piece that I think would be healthy to process with the therapist or support group or something, but any positive experiences with the people who abused you because my mother's chronic pain. I understand that she has been through a lot. I can tell that. Sometimes she is really trying her best to be there for my brother. And I and I appreciate her effort. Yes. And that is a separate issue from you having not gotten things. Darkest thoughts. I found out I was attracted to women when I found on love with my best friend in grad school. She's getting married this fall. And I sometimes fantasize that they will call it off, and she will come to me and apologized for leading the on and breaking my heart..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"And I was just kind of being in my thoughts and the talking stick got to her, and she just laid it out there and said, I'm so grateful that you guys made the space for me to come and join you, I know I'm new here. It's been really scary. Being at the school. I don't know anybody here, and I felt so lonely and judged, and she started crying, and I was just sitting there like Lucille ball. Would you never judge anybody again in your life? You know, like you remember this moment for the rest of your days because that is what is going on for everybody all the time. And we're so caught up worrying about what other people think of us. We don't stop and think that maybe they're experiencing the same thing that self that's self obsession. And that's self obsession. Right. That's not self-reflection. Right. And and I think that's what we miss out on what we don't take that risk. And we don't open up in a support group or express it through art or call up a close friend or the first hurdle, which to me is realizing that we mistake that inner critic for a sense of discipline. It's not nobody is ever shamed. Themselves into being the person they want to be or the artists they want to be. Yeah. It is not that is not the the way to get there. But for the first four fifths of my life. I thought that that was the road to success was to listen to the mean voice. Yeah. And that you know, it's and it's dangerous. I hear people talk about grit is the thing that's going to get you through and like, and I like resilience a lot more resilience feels a lot more passions a good. Yeah. Absolutely knowing when to let go of something. Yeah. And stop fighting is there's a bravery in that there's an intelligence in in that. And that doesn't mean the same thing is giving up. No permission is so different from abandonment. Right. And saying I'm giving myself permission. I'm making a conscious choice to take the day off to take vacation to not post something on social media to trust that if I quit sharing for five minutes. People will still be there, and they will still care when you come back. And I think of people who enter into a profession with hopes of some type of outcome, and then that doesn't happen. And so they stop pursuing that. But they think that it's a failure. And it's only until years later that they find there was something that they learned in that, quote unquote failure that they drew upon later in their lives, which just to me points out another fallacy of the critical voice in our head. That tells us it's all in black and white thinking, it's failure or accolades, it's a waste of time. Or it's the only thing that matters and false dichotomies. Yes. Zero sum thinking and all of this stuff. And I think that's what future tripping and ruminating on the past. That's that's it's home turf. Is that kind of thinking and only in the present moment. Can we have those? Moments of clarity. And I think it's because sound super will. But because that love and that connection is flowing through us, and it there is a calming effect to it that that I think the brain just starts spinning a little slower and a different part of the of the body or central nervous system or something is allowed to tap into much like meditation where the brain winds down in the deeper thoughts are in there. I feel like things that are of a more spiritual and meaningful nature are there in our brain, or our soul or whatever. But we have to bring it into the present moment and unwind to the point where we can hear it..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"And I was probably I don't know maybe seventeen no older than that twenty. Maybe when we had this conversation and she asked me about my dad and his smoking. And I said, well, you know, he's trying to quit right now. And she said could you still love him if he never quit? And I started saying something and I- blasted for a little bit. And she said, no, I'm going to ask you again. Could you still love him if he never stopped smoking? I think about that all the time, and I'm working on it. It's not perfect. And it just felt like somebody saying, you know. I don't care that. This is more important to me. Then you and it throws everything else into question. You know, I'm sure you grappled with us that like if someone says I am here for you. One hundred percent, I will never leave you. And then is like just going to, you know, really quick sloop off. And do this thing never around you because I'm ashamed of it. And I know he's talked to me intermittently, but still about the fear of letting me down the fear of failure. And it led me to be absurdly straight-laced in high school, which is something. I only came to later that I was like trying to prove to him. Look how easy it is to not smoke to not drink to not to follow the rules and. It wasn't, you know, leading, by example, didn't work doing all this other stuff didn't work and one of the things that this book was was me as an adult or what passes for an adult right in being human being time rapidly discovering is nothing different than being a child, but you have to pay more bills. Was telling those things to myself was aknowledging. I was not going to get the thing that I wanted from him. But he had given me the tools to give it to myself. Wow. That's pretty profound. I don't know that I've ever put it quite like that before. Honestly. But think that's that's kind of the long short of it is like this book is my life raft for your parents are now going to be here one day like you need to know. Because we we do this all the time I talked with my therapist about this. And we were talking about I think actually that moment when I found out my dad smoke. Did. She said was there anything in that moment that an adult could have said to you that would have made it. Okay. And you know, I thought about it and waffled about this and that and then she said, well, how about could you say that to yourself? Because a lot of the time. Even now as adults we're waiting as children for someone else to come along. And tell us the thing that we want to hear with all of our being or the thing we wanted to experience. Yes. Or to give us the feeling that we piece in clo- writer, and then we won't experience any type of anxiety or again, and that that is the. The thing that I think drives us all crazy as you were sharing that about your dad having given you that to be able to do it for yourself. It reminds me of the thing that you can feed somebody fish or you can teach them how to fish kind of like your dad tried to emulate self love as best as somebody with demons that he could. And I could tell you as an addict addiction is bigger than any one human being whether it's cigarettes or whatever. And I'm not making excuses. For your dad. But I understand what it's like to to be an addict who intellectually knows one thing but emotionally it's just a field of of of land mines so terrifying to to navigate that. It's like, there's a Jekyll and Hyde brain. It's it's so difficult. Something else that? Out. South love. Fucking right on the tip of my tip of my brain Jacqueline, Hyde minefield, addiction being bigger than everything else. I experienced it with my dad growing up when I was fifteen he. Learned that I had been getting hot..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"You know of saying I would do anything for you. And then you're saying all right. I need you to stop smoking cigarettes because like it's going to kill you and them saying. Yeah. Or, you know, I'll try and then lying and the rough thing I mean, this is both rough and not rough is that I can understand it from a certain perspective. I get that. He is grappling with you know, all kinds of stuff. He's been very open with me about being hooked on harder stuff before I was born flirting with alcoholism. He has sort of an addictive personality. It's not so much that it's just like any one thing, but my young life. I didn't know my dad smoked cigarettes until I turned eight and I found out and it was like right at that age where morality is super black and white, and I could not reconcile this thing that I knew like smoking cigarettes is bad therefore people who smoke cigarettes are bad people. That's my dad who is a good person. Because he's my dad smoking a cigarette. I don't know what that means is blue your little just exploded. I went to pieces and then from then and on like every year there was the same conversation. If you need to stop doing this. If I tell you enough if I'm crying enough, if I show you how much it hurts me. If I if I if I if I got friends found some heartbreaking shit at home of just contracts that I made him sign petitions that I got friends at school to sign I got his bandmates to all these people in our little community. And I remember one of his adult friends saying to me rather cavalierly at a party that we were out when I was maybe eleven or twelve he's never going to quit, and I burst into tears and had to leave the room. Like, I couldn't keep it together. Because it felt so callous at miss like I understand where he was coming from. You know, I understand that. He was trying to say this is nothing to do with you. But it has always felt like something to do with me. Because when you're a kid, it's scary. And if it's not under your control, you know, if that behavior is continuing. It must be it can't be because your parent is a fallible right point. That's not acceptable. It has to be your fault. Right. And through you can know that intellectually. But boy, the emotional stuff is like just scraping congealed bacon, grease off your soul. I don't know. It's it's it's kind of like the subtext of what you were asking from your dad was I need you to be in my life is long as possible. And that guy was saying to you. He doesn't care. No. And you know, and that his time was already limited. And it's coming back around. He's got emphysema. You know, it's like this is the thing that is damaging him, and he just won't stop. And I I met with a friend once who. Was a grown-up friend..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"Like, I have not read a comic ever that has caused me to burst into tears. Ears that fast or a book or a movie like there's something about it? And that's the beauty of it is that every one of those conversational connective forms has a different way of doing it with a book. It's like this crazy time delay where you write a thing. And then a year later it comes out, but then someone might read it twenty five years in the future. And like their kid is going to read it. But then grow up and read it again and get something new out of it. And it's a synchronous and all of it is a big moment of like being people in the world is the thing. My image of what it would be like in the future. If I ever wrote a book is that I would be at a used bookstore as somebody came in and tried to sell it. But the person behind the counter refused to buy it. Because then they pointed to a shelf of like sixty copies already there. It's not because people had read them on remainder like God. Like black dot on the spine. Give me some other moments that were that were hard for you to. The. Is your dad a recover addict? Or is he still kind of or would you rather not discuss? No, I can discuss it. It's something he's been very open with me about he has a I believe this is something that I also feel like I've struggled with because I know they're teen resources for children of addicts. I have never tapped into them because I think probably because of denial on the sleet growing up and not really wanting to say like he's an addict the thing that strikes me is so frustrating is that to my mind addict is like violent binges and like getting black. I'm drunk and puking on the carpet and like being responsible and abusive and like my dad is not that person. I love him very dearly. He's very close. He's very supportive, and it's something of come back to again. And again is like how can you come from a loving, supportive, family and still have this much pain? And it's something honestly when I reached out to you. It's like I haven't pasta syndrome about. Not having enough baggage to go on this show. Is that going to be a problem? And then I started thinking about it for two seconds. And it was like, you know, it's the weird thing about it is that you could be loved and supported your whole childhood and like nobody comes out alive. We'll let me just tell you. What you shout it in the forest. There's five thousand other people going me too. Yeah. I've heard that so many times I imagine that you had that was the thing that brought me up short that. I was like my buddy. Here's that every week. I do even from people who are coming in here with like huge stories of loss and trauma. Yes. And I have I have told myself that before is well, what do I have to complain about? But. It's it's not the cause of the car crash. It's how do we bandage up? How do we how do we get into physical therapy? So we can walk as best. We can. I think I've really weighed this down with metaphors. I just let myself out you're in a car crash with a physical therapist. They get out. Okay. Yeah. We know is you from what I know about addiction being a recovering addict alcoholic myself. Just some guesses. Yeah. At things because I know they're comment effects. That the ad. It can have on the child. When there isn't violence, when they're etc, etc. All the classic ones aren't being Chennault. There's the subtle emotional. Yes. Right or not so subtle emotional damage. It's it's the person the parent kind of being in their head a lot and child feeling. There's just a lack of consistency in that parent being fully present the with the child or of being fully responsive..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"Who's never crossed a boundary who's never and like we've all screwed up. It's my mom tells a story about a child getting some math problem wrong while working with their parents. And the parents saying, you know, that's great. You're a kid. It's your job to make mistakes. And I honestly think that it's kind of our job being human to make mistakes because that is actually how we learn. If you get it. Right. The first time again if you do a drawing, and you're like, this is a perfect drying. Michelangelo could not exceed this. You know, everything's fine. I'm done that's going to be a pretty boring life, and you're not going to be in the process of working through other stuff. And, you know, connecting things was his somebody just told me recently that their their mother had a little sign on their Pia know that said if you don't make any mistakes today, it means that you haven't tried. Anything new? And I thought wow. That is such such a great saying. Yeah, that is such a great thing. And as you were talking about the having those conversations. And the obsession of wanting things to. Have artistic excellence in forgetting about the byproduct of meaning and purpose and stuff like that it occurred to me that somebody who isn't creative for a living can still have creativity in a conversation. They strike up with somebody at a coffee shop while online. They can. There are moments all throughout the day where they can get that byproduct that we search for in our art which is connection eating, and and it's the condo. It's a tool. It is right and music is a tool I've been having a lot of envy recently, actually of my musician friends because I've talked to them about being on tour in this way. From multiple months is not something that many cartoonists do most cartoonists are introverts in like, I'm kind of a fake extrovert. So I like this part, and I like people. And I've talked to so many musicians because they know what being on tour is life is a grinding is so is and friends of mine who do not know that they hear tour, and they think stadium showed limousine, caviar whatever musician friends were like, do you need a place to stay. Can I buy you dinner? You know, how are you holding up? Do you need some vegetables? Right. Yes. So hard to eat healthy on the road. Healthy and God. It's hard. Yeah. So hard. It's just burgers all the way down. And you know, you're always like drained after an event and you desperately need to eat something. And you're just like calories whatever's here getting in me. But yeah, the thing about talking to musicians is that I'm also really like experiencing music, and I was just at an event in New York. And Amanda Palmer was performing as part of this literary variety evening and the theme of the event was that all the performers had to take a risk on stage. And for the musical guests that meant they had to perform a cover song and try to get the whole crowd to sing along. And she has them turned off all the lights, and she played Hallelujah and had everybody's saying, and it was like, I couldn't even open my mouth before I was just sobbing and like sitting in the dark crying with all of these strangers. And it was two notes on the piano. And I had this moment if like God music really is the best thing for that..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"Now, this thing that I have been clenching my fists, you know, just like bracing for impact from the age at which I could understand death is coming from me and all of the bracing in the world doesn't stop that from hurting. It doesn't stop it from happening. And so there's an injury in the book. I can't remember what number it is. That I went home, and it was really a shock because it was the first time I had really seen the fact that he was starting to take downturn. And the demon is saying I went for a walk to clear my head. There's a nature preserve pretty close to our house in a river bottom, and there's all of these old vineyard stakes in there from where all these grapes used to grow. And I snapped a photo. And I drew this little character might inner critic sitting on one of the vineyard steaks. And both of us are turned away from the camera looking at the mountains, and I feel like most of the entries where I'm getting into the stuff that sexually interesting to say the ones that are really really deeply difficult and never looking at the camera. I'm never looking at the viewer. It's always like, I can't physically draw my facial expression while I share this. And the demon is saying it will never be what it was before. And I'm saying that doesn't mean we can't be here for what it is. Now. And that's been the hardest thing to try and remind myself of I'm really attached to home. I'm a big permanence junkie. I do not want things to change. I don't want to let go of the things that I love and somebody said, you know, this book was really like therapy for you in some ways. And I said, yeah, you know, it's true. And it's not that I've reached a state where I radicalized my inner critic, it's almost like I spent one hundred days talking back to this part of myself that you were asking what purpose that serves. And I don't necessarily you could say it's volition in some ways. It's this voice. That's goading us to to do more be better. But on the other side of that is that that inner critic is the small scared part of ourselves that is a freight. It's just afraid and to be kind to ourselves is like the greatest task of life. Right. We can be compassionate to other people at the. A drop of a hat. It's not hard for most people and so- divorcing that voice and creating a separate entity for it. And then having that entity lash out or act out, or you know, it's a toddler, right? It's just angry and petulant and contradictory and. It just needs to be held and told it's okay. And I find that that voice has not gone away. You know, it's still just as loud. But there have been times I'm on a book tour right now, and I've been traveling for two months and there have been nights where I'm just sobbing. You know, it's too much. I'm far away from home. I'm worried about my dad, I shouldn't be on the road. Doing this indulgent thing I should be taking care of him. I mean only child too. So like the the pressure is on and I find myself talking to myself like I'm that inner critic from my book and literally saying out loud. Like, I know that you're scared. I know this is a lot. And the feeling in those moments is like I can't do this can't do this alone. And the lesson of the project was. Other people are doing this to every day, especially with parents like most everybody's got parents stuff. And. Posting these entries every time. I post one that was too real for me. Those were the ones that people responded to the most. That's what I always tell guests when they we wrap up, and they're like, oh, God that part were I've talked about, and I and I would say the more difficult. It is to talk about the more valuable. It is to people who hear it. Yeah. That's undoubtedly true. And it still feels scary. It's so scary every time, and I was saying in the car on the drive over here..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"Have you shared these things with others? I have not really shared the full extent of them. How do you feel after writing these things down hopeless? Don't feel hopeless. There's you have more power in your life than you think you do. And you won't know how awesome it feels until you take that scary scary step. And reach for it and use it. This is an awful some moment filled out by sapper yell, and she writes when I was nineteen. I was with the boyfriend that was amazingly understanding about the fact that I was still a virgin at the time and not quite ready to go all the way after a full week of working each other into a frenzy, I finally gave into the idea of losing my virginity to him. It was amazing yet at the point we finished of my calves decided to simultaneously go into Charlie horses. I told him that if this was going to happen every time I would just not ever have sex again. That is fantastic. It's weird to how how that moment of climax in sex. Why we can't keep our feet still. Why it feels so good to just? Point your toes. I actually what I do is. I point my toes, and then I flutter my legs like when a ballerinas in the air. And I make my. Arms. Look, very long and elegant..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"I participate in the show the comments, and I've come to know a lot of the people that work at the store today. They mentioned that they got a block of tickets for the captain marvel movie that they were selling it cost. They don't make any money for selling the tickets when I went in today, he told me to make sure to get my ticket. So I could see the movie with the group I realized they met. Hey, we like you when you should come out to see a movie with us. I have a very low opinion of myself, and I felt like. For just being me. I have a very low opinion of myself, and I felt liked for just being me. They didn't like me for buying stuff. They don't get commission. Anyway, the just like the time we spent bullshitting at the store and online I'm a people not a burden to the world. I love that man. I love that that just made my day reading this that moment when we realize we are connected that we're not outside the heard as that mean voice in our brain tells us, and by the way this episode with Lucy. Is so good at talking about that inner critic, and our and our brains, and then any comments to make the podcast better. Gordon, writes, it isn't realistic, but two episodes a week would be amazing. It would just kill Paul with crazy amount of extra work, and that's not worth it. Because we all love Paul. But the idea does get me rock hard. And that honestly is why you're my new best friend, Gordon. Is it is it like the garden variety arrack hard? Or is it the rock hard where you can just feel a little bit of muscle movement in your butthole as well. This is a shame and secret survey fell out by a woman who calls herself lost three and this pretty brief. She straight. Inter forties was raised in a pretty dysfunctional environment. She was the victim of sexual abuse. Never reported it. She's been physically and emotionally abused. And then any positive experiences with the abuser or abusers in reference to her husband. She writes, we have two amazing children together and his family is very monetarily supportive of their extra curricular activities. So I feel trapped for their sake. And that's why I wanted to to read this is this is one of the things that we do when we're in a relationship that we don't like, and we're scared to leave is we come up with reasons to not leave that put the responsibility on other people you're not responsible for how your husband acts, and you can't change him. But you can't change whether or not. You are in a relationship where your children are watching you be verbally abused in you, taking it. You absorbing that toxic city them absorbing that toxic city them seeing a bad template for relationships in boundaries in communication and respect. You know, they probably be okay. If they didn't get to play squash. But they got to see and it don't stand up for themselves and say, no, no more will I take this. And there's probably a good chance that their grandparents are still going to pay for their squash or whatever extracurricular activity. I'm assigning to them. Orcas thought I think about slipping out of aunt and my husband's drinks to get him to leave me alone. Don't put it on him because he will probably never change. Darkest secrets I found a porn stash in my parents room when I was young and used to sneak in and look at it negatively impacted my view of how women should be treated in my ability to have a healthy sexual relationship. Sexual fantasies most powerful to you being abused during sex. I feel shameful for these ideas. It's just a fantasy. If it's consenting partners if nothing to be ashamed of what if anything would you like to say to someone you haven't been able to to my husband. You are emotionally in verbally abusive. I will not tolerate it any longer, and it will end or this marriage will end to really say that you have to be willing to give him consequences because if you say that and then you tolerate it. He's going to know the truth, which is that you're not willing to do that. What if anything do wish for a happy, peaceful home for me and my girls? You can do that. They can have that at least half the time..
"bellwood" Discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"I forgot to mention if this other survey any comments to make the podcast better. She writes, please added to Google I thought that the podcast was available on. Is it Google play or Google podcast? I'm not sure exactly which which one it is. But. This is a happy moment filled out by. A guy who calls himself corden. And then the parentheses he puts, but it's pronounced fuck face. Gordon? You are already my best friend, and I just love anything that involves the word. Fuck face. Was it one or two episodes again? Ago. I think it was the one with with Courtney at that we said something about planet. Fuck face. And then I was thinking, you know, it really should be while there can be a planet. Faulk face. We need someplace for fuck faces here on earth. And I'm thinking that should be fuck face island. Because all the fuck faces should really have to be with each other. And I just love the idea of an Ireland that you could fl fly over I just go fuck faces. And then you realize they're dropping you off at fuck face island. Because this whole time. You've been fuck face. And you didn't even know I love the idea that somebody who is a first time listener turn this podcast on. And their kids are in the car. And after how many fuck faces did they decide to turn the volume down. Find another podcast. And tonight at dinner. They're going to say fuck face. And then that spouse will have to explain the other spouse wi- their kid. Learn the word fuck face in the car today. Gordon writes, this is happy moment. I'm comic book nerd Wednesday. Is the day new comics come out? My local comic store has alive show on Facebook. That I watch every Wednesday before going into the store to buy the new comics,.
"bellwood" Discussed on AM 1350 WEZS
"I was walking through some things that belonged to my mother last evening and i found this town dealer like saying it's kind of odd looking it's on like a heavy piece of paper dot cardboard but a heavy piece of paper it measures eleven inches across and eight inches long and it says it the back of it is solid blitz has two little hosted top with a piece of blue string through it in the middle it has like a two square like big square you know then never like around it to make a square and at the bar and then it says the dion quin triplets in their name but there's no picture of them and then historically it's gone yeah now there's no barks it says it was ever there there's no glue it says it was ever there is just total solid and there's nothing there that shows without a photograph for i don't know that's why i thought it was strange then down say it's very much today that it has like to staples in nineteen thirty six calendar now up at the top it says it says custom bid says george w kramer dairy bellwood pa and then it has the old time phone number which was just three numbers yeah it's an advertising calendar that's its value that local history but there was a picture of the toplitz i don't think there's well i understand that but somebody who's just dried out looking well here's the name of the game the end could toplitz her anywhere go fight an old picture pasted in oh whole no but it's just it's just odd now that but here's here's the deal dot its value is as advertising calendar locally.
Taxi ploughs into World Cup fans on Moscow sidewalk
"Thursday two hundred more friday drivers in custody after his taxi plowed into pedestrians in moscow as russia host the world cup correspondent matthew chance the driver then got out of the car and attempted to skate but he was captured by some of the pedestrians including some of the mexico fans who then held him until the authorities arrived and detained it the interfax news agency quotes sources who say the motorists fell asleep behind the wheel i'm ann cates and i'm susanna palmer from bloomberg world headquarters as we've been reporting china's response to us tariffs aims for america's heartland china said yesterday it will levy a first round of tariffs on thirty four billion dollars worth of us agricultural products as well as automobiles starting july sixth john hollier vanguards head of fixed income says investors should not overreact i think we've seen a number of times in the past six months headlines that impact the markets the equity markets and sense is that we really need to wait for the longer term negotiations that are going to determine the final complexion of this and we didn't kurds investors not to respond to day to day headlines china says another sixteen billion in goods including coal and oil will be subject to tariffs later federal prosecutors have indicted elizabeth homes on criminal fraud charges for allegedly defrauding investors doctors and patients as the head of the blood testing up there renaud's sources tell bloomberg general motors is considering listing shares of its self driving car unit cruise automation sources tell bloomberg rupert murdoch and the twenty first century fox board will consider on wednesday how to proceed with comcast sixty five billion dollar bid for the company center tournament assets the fox board agreed to sell the assets to walt disney last year the justice department plans to review agreements that determine how song writers are paid by radio stations or restaurants and streaming services bloomberg's greg jarrett reports machen bellwood him.
"bellwood" Discussed on WNYC 93.9 FM
"About us canada trade are nuanced people get that there are aspects of this relationship that need to be reworked but when it comes to trump a lot of canadians are angry they view the president with real fear and uncertainty just play with the truth again ed kelly is from bellwood ontario passing through on a motorcycle tour he hopes trump will come back to the bargaining table on nafta but he also worries canadians with their much smaller economy are really vulnerable we could do to the us they couldn't do back then over even before trump began talking about ending nafta canadian saw america's the eight hundred pound gorilla the big guy on the block about seventy five percent of canadian exports go to the us so a fullscale trade war would be disastrous for companies here robert goodfellow runs a lumber mill and hemming for exports to the us he says he admires trump as a tough negotiator and businessmen and hopes there's a method to all the fierce rhetoric shoots these things does he mean it or is it just is that something that he says that he wants to spark a discussion on or hard to say a lot of people in hemming per se they just can't believe this relationship with the us is on the edge of a cliff they say again and again they think most of the north american free trade agreement will be salvaged but christopher kirke a canadian who runs suny center for the study of canada says it may be too late there was a line cross this past weekend i think we're in for some pretty problematic times in the candidate list relationship kirke points to comments by top white house trade advisor peter navarro who blasted trudeau last sunday in an appearance on fox news.
"bellwood" Discussed on KQED Radio
"To uv light they can't be retaining this information now that would imply memory maybe even learning words that have long been considered totally inappropriate to be used by plant scientists but here's one that does use them we the ps i decided to test them for a higher level of learning and i use the case was made famous by pablo that's dr monaco galliano of the university of western australia in perth now she's talking about the experiment where nineteenth century russian scientists evonne pavlov would ring a bell just before feeding a group of dogs these dogs eventually learn to associate the bellwood food and started to celebrate the mere sound of the bell a cornerstone study of modern psychology so dr galliano decided to try something completely mad would this work on pc ling's we're going to go into this in detail just because it's so fascinating the need i gave them was a kind of choice inside a a very simple maze and if you imagine the letter y my pipe was exactly that shave and so the p would be planted at the base of the letter and then as he grew and arrived at the bifurcation where you have the two branches splitting he will have to make a choice between left and right instead of a bell she's the sound of a computer fan on either leg of the why the p seedlings would get their food in the form of blue light a power source which they used to fuel their growth and the sound of the fan would always precede the light by one hour the duration of the fan and the life alternated between training sessions so the simply couldn't just become accustomed to exactly which leg of the white shape maze the light source would be coming from these are really good at drawing towards the light naturally that's their instinctual response so if you just let them grow they will follow where they saw the light last time but if you give them the fan in the financially is sending.
"bellwood" Discussed on MacBreak Weekly
"Like why not make it as good as why not that that'd being be interesting single i also wonder what what to if you really wanted to throw a bone to the camera team what if you told them that let's we will give you there's a lot more space inside the ipad pro we will give you the space that you keep asking for for guy phones but never get show really break our hearts with with the the best mobile camera hands down even beating the the iphone ten don't think that'll happen because people are clamoring for it in the prices high enough as it is but i would love to see what the camera group could do with as much space as they wanted and as much battery as they wanted i think it'd be pretty amazing to see like a twothirds chip with a with a but not changing the resolution you'd send just be that would be insane that'd be kind of to add on camera that that you you it'd be sorry given the size of the device you'd also have room for one really wonderful separation for reading standing so as opposed to kind of kind of getting it right just being able to capture stuff from the desktop is like i've i've i would love to be able to just randomly say i want i want to three d model of this because i wanna use because i'm doing something professionally or just because i wanted tip of the hat to lucy bellwood i just got this from kickstarter project that i'm so happy i paid for but it's if i would also allow people to just explore three d modeling and vr ar in ways that it's a stumbling block if they don't have the ability to create their own three d models very easily do capture well and i think that also even if you if you if you just set the the distance so that it was the same as the interact distance is the same as the human eye you could take some great stereo pictures and you know have.
Marijuana, Illinois and Streep discussed on The Steve Cochran Show
"The nation's deadliest mass shooting at the route ninety one harvest festival fifty eight people were killed the use of synthetic marijuana has caused the recent spike in illness in illinois due to that a fake we'd has now turned fatal for one person killed in illinois at sickened nearly forty statewide now the cook county sheriff's department tells the tribune now if people choose to use the product also called k two or spice they're playing russian roulette chicago police are looking for a woman this morning stabbed another woman aboard a c t eight bus last night on michigan avenue witnesses say the two women women did not know each other and that the attack was unprovoked the victim was stabbed in the back of the head she refused medical attention it happened just around ten o'clock heading north near ohio streep awaiting autopsy results on the driver of an ambulance that crashed into a building saturday in west suburban bellwood he's been identified as fifty one year old james wesley he was transporting a patient who was also killed in the crash a third person in the ambulance died of injuries later sunday and the winter snow parking ban has ended new restrictions though go into effect today wgn's roger badesch to see a bright orange street sweeping size on abraham trees a leftover leaves of last fall into winter debris lining the street gutters will be swept up between now and the beginning of november on a regular schedule science are supposed to be posted the day before sweeping i'm any given street cars legally part to be ticketed before the sweeping begins roger badesch wgn news let's get an update now from wgn sports in mark carmen and good morning just incredible college basketball game the men's final tonight but the women's final was yesterday in a rica goon beloit the game winner notre dame coming back from fifteen down in the.