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#64 | Ghosts making signs or our minds interfering with electrical devices? | Rhiannon Watson
"So I've no issue as I was listening to a youtube video before bed about how in Kennedy as Lyndon B Johnson. The vice president and I took over when Kennedy got assassinated. They were putting so furic. Acid into the atmosphere to counteract the emissions from global warming before it became a big deal. They recognize that factories and Industries. Who are making the planet warm up and so dealing with the issue of. How do we make for fuels that are more energy efficient order stop causing coal industries from booming they realized gave you put feerick academia it will create like a cloud layer and the sun will kind of stop at the clouds rather than hanging the earth warming up as a way to just to prolong having to deal with something about fifty years later for example there? Was Somebody on a talk show in America. Could Stephen Co who says that and they can do that through aeroplanes. And if you look at an aeroplanes their best smoke. Pat Summitt disolve is a massive long trail and it just stays long and some Islamic dispersed so it was like a section pause section section pause and he admitted that bears planes going up there spewing out sulfuric acid as well as round the world they are putting out so furic asset to counteract the the common climb effect levels and why realizes that now we will start working as many calls on the road because the house just gone indoors. I've noticed how not cloudy as an incidence or not but I've noticed how it was so cloudy all the time before and now it's just been not cloudy as much of course as clouds but it's not been as cloudy as much and it's auditing planes on this not as many planes up there and yet there's not as much cloud was that I agree. I've I've only touched on this a little bit myself so I was kind of really listening to what he was saying but Tom my back Ya. It's civically swam right into gardening. And the only way I can kind of compare what you're talking about is the fact that everything started growing and we're about to head into window so for Queensland that doesn't make sense like everything would start to be shedding. Its old stuff and you know maybe going into a little bit of hibernation but literally all my plants have had this boost in like the last week and a half especially and I can't stop all these babies a sprouting and everything and I'm just like when you're comparing to what you're saying and that that makes so much sense now actually have made that connection. I've been making the point. How much growing coming into winter but not actually making a connection. Why and why? That's different this year and this time but that's all I can think of when you say that I agree that something will start. I think I read about how we the mission stop us from getting. The some we need is well. I've read as well and You know I'm a big believer in being in the Sun. I don't really not going the sun and and if I'm gonNA wear sunscreen zinc yet so I think it's all changing for the Beddoe so I go shavers when you said that because You will be the first person I've really spoke to about it but as I said before it was just always fucking cloudy. Why is it so fucking cloud in his planes everywhere? And you know look. There's like thousands of planes up there every two minutes as a plane in the sky. So there's like thousands of planes at one go. I thought well how complains really have an effect on to play woman. Took climate change means in heating up not manmade whatever anyway. How can all these planes in the sky? Sky's fucking massive. How can certain planes also and cars really have an impact? And then I'm looking at the lack of planes up there and the lack of cars on the road and how the air is just consistent. Choir I'm looking up at the sky and I can see the sun as you said we're not getting enough some why the clouds away and you sang about how you'll plants are starting to thrive now read a story about how there's a stream and all the fish started to go down it when it would normally just be like pollution and Shit Now. Bastia's man nope recycling rubbish. At that time the temperature of it shows that when man stopped his activities nature replenishes itself and all this so feerick apparently kills a million people every year. Because it's all today of shit in the air basically and is going down on the ground is going into our food or crops with breathing it in. We don't even realize how much is up there whether it's true or not where the planes are actually doing it. All WHO's putting out but they were basically increasing every single so often to balance out the amount of stuff that we are doing. And it's amazing how you realize we've all literally for the first time ever stopped working at the rate that we working out planes in the air as much they were first on. 'cause this would have never have happened if this current ivars thing didn't have what no industry is going to be like what we're GonNa wipe trillions of dollars. Just for the sake of just never would have happened. And it's interesting to see what has happened and you'll plow thing Is Amazing because that is just what it just. It just proves that I mean this video knew. She was just a video. That's been online for five years. It's not relevant. But was I'm looking at this stuff? It makes sense is so feared acid share and how the planes out there and how your plants are growing less. Post a die. This year coincidence. Def definitely not. It's funny you say that because I I live the Brisbane airport and so we've had I think at least like seventy to eighty percent about flights cut but we still have quite a lot of clouds within. I wonder whether again that is just astrology. Climate compared to England. That's obviously going to be clouds. But the balance of moisture builds up three wind through temperature change and then it rains slightly should be what kind of fifty fifty whereas I've known is asked to three years. It's just so cloudy all the Goddamn time. And even when it's like sunny for example there's so much cloud which makes it really humid like it was being like Singapore in England whereas cloud keeping the heat in and I'm thinking wow. Why haven't wise so humid is because of the cloud but why the cowed set? Because the sulfuric acid knows example. It's sunny the heat is GonNa hit England for example and the so furic. Acid is protecting layer protecting the earth from heating up and yet the so furic acid nor the shit in that is mixing with the clouds where it's balancing its ability to rain down and balanced out so it just stays there. I mean does all make sense and only in the last two weeks is been so sunny not as much cloud mouzina down. That's the vibration Ryan how vibration can affect water the rice experiment. You Sing Lobley soft to the rise. He goes why you have you met with Egos Moday well just think about how moisture is water and sound car. Sound to sound in. General is a vibration which comes together. The water was nice. Music dispose the water. So sounds Yeah Lucien just pollution from the cars but the sound must clearly be having an effect on just nature lot. We'd done underestimate vibration controls. Everything controls ourselves as each fascinating because it just is. I think really anyone knows about what I'm saying like you. We will have to think it's the temperatures different owes more sunny but to understand like depot like this is six years ago when Kennedy was assassinated based on furic acid into the atmosphere. And it's not something that anyone knows is right. That's global warming. That's awesome man doing something to create something out so it's not gonNA do. They were doing it for good reasons. But it's interesting. How when you see what happens when you do when you go is interesting yet Liz. The thing to not that I not it's real or not but I've heard if the planes flew either a little bit. I think that's a little bit high wouldn't be Lois. Scholley not the emission rate drops by sixty percent of. Which makes you think okay. We'll get one noticing the snap but if we've known that's why we not. I guess I can't think of a valid reason why we couldn't change it. I'm sure they have one nine. See what's coming to mind is right without talking about global warming. This is actually the opposite because global warming is man doing all this stuff to create storms and share whereas Lyndon B for example. Create this sulfuric stuff because he was aware that the emissions so he's done that to protect the planet or what happened is is that has been so much pollution and stuff. That man's doing that you have to increase of acids which keeps the temperature in which makes storms because it's supposed to go out then disperse and just travel. That's why there's always a stolen American dome England but now the so much say cloud capable the heat and there's no release so you just have these massive massive massive storm where there's a massive floods with like too much rain at one time which then. Fox Up everything else. As opposed to this rain DRI- rain DRI- which is causing the issues. So you could say is man made with us not climate change in the one they will think it is. It's not Minds creating the storms. It's Lynn's for example. The Celtic acid is about counteracting that the planet heating up so interesting. I was like it's not man in global woman it was manned trying to fix it years and years ago which is kind of because it's having the reverse effect yet not exactly. It's so do you not think that so many times now. There's so much that they I guess. This is kind of the opposite whether they did try to do the right thing. Realizing it wasn't so good but there's so many things that people do way back when and I'm looking like one hundred years ago. That only now is people are starting to talk about again And I guess for that Hundred Years. Those methods want preached oil encouraged or anything like that. Especially you know. The topic of our last podcast. You're in the lower traction. And all that people write books and falling. He'll read that book in Nineteen Thirty Seven. Like he's known all those principles and laws of achievement. Thank you know. They've been accessible for the past Hundred Years. But we're still talking about things that are just like irrelevant. And he will just go about their day for the next hundred years and now we're talking about it again. It's like this whole southern new information and everyone's coming to an awakening and it's like no we need to you. Know why for that hundred years was all of that information missing? You know why. Why so accessible and encouraged and then everyone just kind of lost their way and a million different ways things come up and now which is coming back to the original one source. More find amazing is as you speak about. Obesity knowledge becoming aware of of stuff. That has always been there. People are government conspiracies. Hardiness will miss alumina. Auty there's nothing to do with that. It's just people becoming aware coming out of their heads and seeing everything. It's not government trying to control live in article. The rich people trying to control everyone. It's just people are becoming aware and that's pretty much it and always that same person. I hate the government. The Queen Heydrich people because I thought that they were controlled him in. It wasn't night it was just is becoming aware. I wouldn't contorted myself and I wanted money. So that was basically it and if you look at patterns of animals there's a pack of cows or pack of safe and Buffalo River and they're drinking water needing a fish right one buffalo walks off to another sees that there's fucking loads of fish and loads of water. He doesn't go back and say. Hey May MMA guys is a new river over there because they will come of that and they take the fish in water so that buffalo now as increases survival rate by knowing he's got the whole himself and so much fish as well. The other buffalo bats fish is going to run out about what was going to run out. 'cause everyone's drinking soon. Life knowledge is always kept to increase. One's own survival if you look a caucus there's always one bird finds needs as much as it can cause any so most of the. Buzzer late to the party. This stuff about you know back in the Day Tribes Kings Emperors Monks Buddhis- knowledge of this stuff is is being kept. Everything's come from a different tribe before there was online for there was playing. It was caused Chinese tribe Indian tribe African Job English tribe that just working out their own chip basically energy move forward you mingle with other tribes and you learn knowledge. It's not all. Why didn't you tell me that it's just different? Rates of knowledge happens the pending on your ancestors and how far vote they are and if you look at the patterns of knowledge now when how China's making all these technological stuff and America risen is like well. How can we don't making that? It's like well. There's no rules Chinese. It just ahead of the game making this TV and forty and stuff and English. People aware that governments are doing this and doing that is just the way it is. It's just knowledge is not kept. It's just you're living your life. Government isn't controlling life. So why would you expect them to tell you every damn thing? I need to realize you're on your yourself. I like what you're saying. I agree to a degree where I think the only ones in control of what we do like no matter what. Our thoughts feelings actions are up to US which calls out results and no matter where that Buddha's or monks or Christians on spiritual people at the end of the day. It's a Basic Law that you folks become things and that's it and if not aware of it you doing it subconsciously and aimlessly and if you're aware of it than you can do fucking Shit App Lots. You can get whatever you want. 'cause you're away like no matter what? I've been like a really getting into all different kinds of religions and beliefs and all that no matter what I come to the same conclusion no matter what story gets me there at the end. It's the same fucking thing you sorts become things that's it and no matter if you wanna like fairy tale it up a little bit hit everywhere to make it fancy and entice people to believe it regardless of whether they believe it or not. It's happening every single day all the time and the minute you realized that to be free. Just go to be yourself. Then you'll laughing like honestly since I lost pocos. I've just focused on me. I haven't lived from the outside in. I've never done that. I've always let my environmental conditioning affect what I do. And what especially what I feel like even not saying that the information was kept. But it certainly hasn't been encouraged and I really disagree with I. Guess that Like the people out on our. It's a confusing I JUST. It's just fascinates me that something so easily done by men with them. Mind was really talked about a hundred years ago and for some reason I can't seem to. It wasn't shoved in my face when I was born. You think one hundred years later that would have been developed into my education system may be or at least you know you'd think that my ancestors would know and it would've been passed down and it really fascinating that still a hundred years later so. Many people are unaware of this power within. It thinks that for example. You could say that this should be passed down like how to how to make rice. La- Chinese family will pass that down not Indians to make it very onny and some things are just not passed down. Some things are so common amongst everyone. Everyone kind of only knows that you think everyone knows it. See that well the preaching anymore for example. If I had a kid I would not teach him all of this because then I would put my kid into school. He the smartest kid in the playground. It'd be smarter than the teachers he would with anyone he would go through hell at school. So wall supported me. Teach him all this stuff because he will make him a black sheep and it was hard enough me as a black sheep working out this shit if he knew this ship smarter than the head teacher. Jonathan School Systems and telling to the waste of time and all these little traction ship he fucking the police take him away right so I wouldn't teach my child this type of Shit. Cause I'm aware that it's so limited that you does she doing harm. And then as opposed to doing good and should he wants to know more when he's older than we can have that conversation so in terms of that are would choose not to have that knowledge down and if I didn't teach him and then he just normally where all of his friends have this mindset and for dental in this stuff say twenty-five he wouldn't in his life would have to change is best not to kind of poke the bear for example so he might no stop but doesn't really care because it's easier just doing that so that's a generation that could affect it down which was lost so now he s kids and these kids never knew what grandfather new so when you look at it like that why does not get passed down again edmonds very on your recipe because everyone is eating barry on any and all it takes is one not to be taught at the same way the person above it because everyone makes money but you lose that secret ingredients how it's make berry on the opposite side of that. Is that if everyone knew how to make it very onny data. We know Indian restaurants making money because everyone would make an Indian food that we know business. 'cause it won't be able to compete if everyone knew how to make their own business how to think and create there'll be no companies because they've been people working for these companies because the Ram business which means that we know corporations and businesses no record labels assign yards uniform which make kilos of money because money. Create that yourself healthy you if you could you can create yourself. Imagine if every single child born was born into that knowledge raised with then they could create anything. They wanted with the power of them on and subconscious. They knew they wouldn't struggled through all those things because they knew how to with it instead of knowing and then hopefully going through you know some kind of awakening and being able to sort it out and then reliable the posthumous and try to figure out what went wrong. And they want attached to them and it wasn't that story this whole time. Imagine if they'll raise from day dot that that is not the way you know. There's a possibility we wouldn't need corporations and businesses because everyone could create whatever they wanted with that vibrational frequency that they send out you know and the whole thing. You can't receive without giving so not giving a child that knowledge you'll limiting what you can receive back as well because you have to. I guess my whole the whole thing I've learned from this whole experience with me is that I thought I always wore was not getting. I always thought I was trying really hard in my research and everything and like giving and stuff and that wasn't receiving enough back but actually realize that I wasn't giving enough out all in order to receive because what I wanted to receive back was so big that I had to really give and so I'm going to share this with everyone in anyone and whoever wants to listen can and if they don't want to do that they're not a part of my journey and that that is so okay because I've realized that my purpose here is to share the shit out of this because if I had it when I was young my God I wouldn't have had to relive cermony things. And so yeah. Let's check now but I definitely all about like shish see I always look at things? Subjects rain objectively. So God let believe in God and I believe in God for and against I would see the reasons why why and against because I understand that everything is just a different perspective. Like you know the go dress. The Blue Dress for example or laurel any some people hereby but thinking about how? I would change my life. Yes I agree. I would want to know their shit right. Because it's like the hell I went through if only I'd known this and somebody taught me that are would have got through right. That's me looking at it for long. I think subjectively. I've worked at least two words always preach about the defense right anyway. I look at it so objectively meaning me how it would affect me looking at it objectively. If I took my total this shit knowing he's GonNa go through school. What would happen if I was that person and I knew this? How would my life be during the five to seven education system? How would my life be our perception? What you're telling me is your perception of what it would be like based on the outside of the world and the bullying but we don't actually know what the kid would be like. We can only guess based on our past traumas and how felt for. Us is true. I'm doing it based on me and how I would feel if I knew that was still trapped in a school for seven years. So you're right if I taught my non existent I'm not gonNA have this stuff. I'm thinking he's GonNa be like I was even worse because now he's trapped but then I die because we have access to one line now was back in the day. I didn't so you can go online. Research the shit knowing he has to go for the school system still keeping shits himself and then when he leaves to preach okay. So you're correct. Actually I think I would have done my non existent kid. This justice teach game shed. I'm again I'm thinking. Teach him every single fucking thing. I know it's like that a lot of it. He voted that he's GonNa Learn on his own. Not that having this kid but Through experience you know. There's a saying if the teach them everything. I'M NOT GONNA. There is definitely a difference and I'm very observant in it when they need to learn the lesson on their own and whether it's my job as a parent and someone that knows this that I can jump in and teach them how to get it up. Get Out of it You see it with still. You'll parents you know you purposely. Think of things and get them to do something and then question it because you see. There's a lesson learnt in that conversation. You might see the kid. Doing something and think could jump in indefinitely. Explain what's going on. But that's something that can learn on their own and they that is that so self worth and achievement. You know so the big gaps along the whole upbringing where you can see that. That's for them. Not your and then Okinawa. Learn through whatever you say because that's Narran personal thing. She I love it when someone questions my Knowledge and Anna become aware of something. That wasn't aware o-of because I've always had this black and white thing we're going to teach or not because I'm gonNA teach him. He's basically a God when everyone else is like a garden like you know but rather than teaching him all of this saying either need school and education so we have an issue towards you teach in that you have to cycle but then afterwards you can take the login create your life it's almost like scored is only like twenty years and he's got nothing left to the planet so won't teach this shit when he's got eight years left so I suppose you are right. Fight these kids which I'm not going to. I would think differently and you are. I'm looking at it from how I knew it. How more trapped I would feel. And that's that's the same because that was then now is different because there's just is different and I call it safe my point of view android. You tell them certain things and they go down the path. Tell him everything because that brand new naturally enfold bat so you're absolutely correct and yeah there would be no companies hiring people because we all know the same shit. We will ever own business. We'll be trading we would need supermarkets stocked pick veg and sell because everyone in the local village will be trading the Veg- so that's also why you don't learn stuff in school. Because if everyone knew ed be no companies there would be no companies paying for politics politicians to go up because it would be as it won't be enough money out spreading trump information across all of America. So that's why that that is also wise not talk and how you just have to do it yourself. There's no stopping yeah. We need government for a things like landmark information mortgages. Maybe but really anyone just has become that veges. Yeah go on. One hundred percent Firstly thank you for listening to me about my perspective but yeah is there's I kind of like what you said about saying to them. You know that the schooling system would just be this potted your journey. But in the meantime you can be co creating this in your mind and this and this and that but I love the idea of a world where we trade all that just the thought of that is so nice because lament time that have money compared to a skill that is like skills are up here. Like money's Dan he it's like I can I can. What do you need me to do? I can do? Xyz Like my brain knows this like. Let me teach this like so. I can just imagine I have this idea of having a sanctuary where it is based on a trade situation And yet just reminded me of that and it's really nice thoughts. I guess because it's very potential what I'm seeing in my local area. I've never seen so many neighbors going on walks. I'm saying hello to every fucking person right now when you go back to work if they should decide to go into walk again you call. It ignored the. You've already said hello. Are you going to say hello again? That's a singer. He sang outside on the grass and all the neighbors House and they will listening to my dad and dancing right all the neighbors they were coming. They're comic mode and they're coming from over there come from St. So it was a drome idea was left people's spirits and they will come out and they started to dance that will allow my God. That's amazing this has been just what I've needed not been home all week. And I've been broadened. The press has just what we needed so now. My Dad said well. They said he should do Easter Sunday. For example just an hour running what we're trying to guess. Yes Oh this thing about local trade right I know for example the I would rather just be a monkey forest trading living in harmony with everyone but in this world you need money so I'm going to be the richest. So how could you ever the Falko control by anyone or don't any money? Unfortunately for us we want to have this life and we need money to get that money is fucking hard to get up that the only way you get up best Fund Amani or some rich person pulls you up through an industry right or consistent consistency in a business. Whatever and it is hard on twenty seven. I've started this journey since I was sixteen to make and I I know I wanna be millionaire and I will be but I never understood how much it takes to make ten thousand pounds hundred thousand pounds. Five hundred thousand pounds. There was like million quid. You realize what has to happen to get two million quid and then to sustain that money. Three money needs to be diverse. So we don't really spend anything because you need to have diverse and then when you do diverse he can only spend lock a hundred grand the bus and then I fucking house costs five hundred grand and I'm like well almost caravan. Ten grand delivering some land. I'll be just as happy but yeah I hope local stuff so the happen. I hope that we start trading honey. And I'm a LASAGNA. Oko Your hey you pick my fence. I'll walk your dog and you babysit my kids. Local communities just trading. You don't need money like all this to fucking the babysitters twenty quid tour. She caught Tampa all clinical. He cut my air. We don't need money so now the money that we're making through work just sits in the bank. And now we can spend on amazing suffolk or holiday thing is going to completely reverse back to what used to be. I think he's going to be the choice. You can go to the supermarket to get lettuce or you can go and fucking garden or would you go and spend one pound as when you can grow ten you know. Give it to your neighbor. She gives you some carrots. It's it's going back to the Old Testament and completely reverse. It'll be like fifty fifty. Las will go back and have the choice to go to the Walmart and then everyone else. It is continuously depend. I believe you even dimensional dependent. Brain is custom to to get on not you call be both hence why the poor stay poor the rich get richer because you if you're in the middle still not one or the other you eva you've keep going that way or you don't you have independent. Oh you know what your thoughts on that? So I'm just GonNa Speak Truth and you can be whatever you want. No matter what and with getting rich you can get rich when of you want. I literally read a story the other day in thinking we're rich about a man who Needed a million dollars or something. And he just didn't stewing over this business idea for two years and then finally it was just like I'm just going to do. It is Monday. And he goes on a million dollars by Friday night he just put himself at took action took action and did a little speech on the Tuesday and then on the Wednesday. He did it like a presentation. This man stood up in the middle of the audience. And said I love your idea? Comes this first thing tomorrow morning? And I'll give you two hundred the million dollars and then I guess just not even just that story just the amount of research I've done manifesting money. I just you can literally just you have to be open to receiving it and graciously give them willingly receive and if you do sudden things. I know this is obviously my a belief that I'm preaching that I would say you do certain structural things to be able to manifest the amount of money that you want an exact time. Line that you want. You just have to believe so do. Do you come from money. Do Your parents have money so I look at everything from both perspectives right. Yes for me personally. I can create anything. I won't make as much as I want. But then I look at for example. A homeless guy who's we can energy has no knowledge. He suddenly manifest a million pounds. So the circumstances have to be aligned. You've gotta be around wealthy people who can give the opportunity. You've got a already have this awareness to be around the tops of people with opportunity. You can't just go and see say a slum or homeless town where they don't have gone into anything he com create that million pounds quickly as the other guy could but anyone who's kind of or the MS dimension is only connected and they can. But I wouldn't have anything of value of worth a million quits so it's harder for them to get if I was the mental them. You would cement about huma sky for years to bring him to this level he could make it in the same timeframe but for the people who are so far away from his stuff. And don't have a clue it's harder than them just a manifest it so in that case anyone commander fest with the right knowledge but only guy caught manifest in the same timeframe that someone you will meet Cam not close not say that Creating whether it's negative or positive if you expect in the same shit to go round and this guzzle making any money he's GonNa think no one's GonNa Give Me Money Today. Knowing GIVES HIM MONEY. If you may think we're gonNA find this person this money person until we will send. Tom's at the manifestation is always offering tons of getting to the money. You need to be around people with money. Because no one's just going to give you a million quid. Let's go money to spend or they see you running. I know you probably agree Aunts and see what I'm saying I said I feel that you probably agree agree. No I do. I agree one hundred percent definitely. We couldn't just walk up to him and he would be able to do the same thing you're right. They have to be fully aware and it is proper but insane saying that the time line. I think the timelines irrelevant. I think people can awaken or if we were to go and share that with him on the Monday depending on his environmental conditioning in his consensus need deception. He might be able to quickly just grasp it whereas this paradigm from years of Abuse Stress Trauma. And I've got to go dig their way out of all that before they can even loves themselves to receive shit so I also I also find that ample I believe that you know an entrepreneur. Even naturally it entrepreneur. You're not see even. Naturally it was one to a hand. There was when I skip things to less always WANNA make money always see the traits. Likely anything right and then goes to a combine something why some mindset mindset is energy. You even have the energy in your cell was even by vibration who they don't if they vibrate hibernation that you're going to treat yourself like a seat on the UN as Practices right towards that same vibration. So you'll attract yourself to most people more like you ambitious and whatever was that week person for whatever reason let's say he didn't have much from his family he's going to be has has no energy no drive. Say we can teach them all this shit unless his energy increases sought to vibrate differently. When we say goodbye he'll just revert back like a will vibrate back to that seed if it's not true vibration whereas if for example he was let me at school his parents said you could be anything you wanted. But the school system pulled him back he would have lost Dr go into drugs and lost everything because he happy energy the mindset of paying somebody good and somebody different but he didn't know how to get there so you get the press anxiety kicks in and you feel trapped and we can light that flame. And he's a typical story of homeless and Bat story can become real just like nineteen that flame we boosting immune system to fight back. Has More about homeless person has more chance of creating life but we'll different energies and studied the people who didn't really want or you study their pass and the history and the energy and their immune in the mindset some people you cannot for example nature nurture you cannot to somebody but nature kick in that plot will go towards the sun and some people if they've had a little bit nurture from their parents or their grandfather said you could save by hearing back versus someone. He never has that. That's what I call the the sea within that can be nurtured in the nature in some of the energy would attract to these people kick him but some people. You can't change. You can't just give anyone over traction book and they will get it because the energy of the MS so there's just no light. There's no positive vibration that even if you go to that energy you can't kick stop that 'cause it's almost like trying to reap fertilizer dead body that's been deficit. Two weeks reality is that also a few hours. Maybe muggy lucky maybe even a day but three weeks three four five days is just not possible. And Yeah I I agree in a way that I think everyone is born creative and with a purpose and it gets lost in the environmental conditioning and You'll with people that have those seeds that emerged in south shore that you could teach them the Lord retraction and they pick up on it quickly and the ones that aren't old they're lacking purpose and desire and you're right the ones that you cannot you they can you can kind of figure out they little purpose and desire and its box and that's how they obtain information and then apply it so you can tell anyone anything and they'll know it but they're not necessarily going to do it and that's not that flying but with the people that you say combination. I think they literally disliked purpose and direction and desire. And I've questioned this alert. You making me think about a couple of people in my family. Actually that it's almost like then never going to come out of that and no matter what I ever say no matter how much lead by example I might live my whole life with them in my vicinity lacking purpose designed forever. And I've got to watch that forever because no amount of times that I've reached out and tried to tell them anything which I've learned since I lost poke causes. People have to come to me. I can't just throw my information out and think people want it. It's very rude of me to do that. They have to ask me for help. Because you know just because I say that. But that's quite egotistical for me to come out and be like. Oh well you should do this. You should do this if it's not an nut trying way. I'm just Kinda of sharing knowledge randomly but Yeah it's it's very interesting what you say about that. I wonder why I guess why. Those people are even here and is that to teach us the value in purpose in desire to they. Do you believe in reincarnation by the thing in the thing about when you die. You pass onto an afterlife. Your spirit is around your ghost right into say a pass. Grandmother's ghost right. So is she here like physically miss room doing stuff and putting signs there no but you feel at Presence Aka before she pasta way. She says I love my grandchildren. Or whatever and you pick up on our last thoughts. So that passed of she was here is not connected to. She's a ghost and she still hair right from trying to save his reincarnation. Doesn't have to be mean you come back something in the future It's you take the energy of that loss person and you will line up with them so the stories about how. The grandmother husband passed away and his four year old kid. She thinks he's the reincarnation of her husband because the time when he died was the same in at that time. That kid was born so now that the same frequency that both channel five and that shooting in and as that Chow Become Channel Six Channel Seven Channel Aka gets older. He's not the same tunnel anymore. Oman he was on that frequency. Which is the energy when he died. So he had that person's energy and thoughts and as you get older is a different vibration. He doesn't cheat into that shape anymore. So the past is not necessarily the same as the future so I applied for example. I continuously tried to teach my parents any knowledge that I have on constantly teaching them right. Lucky for me. I forced the change on them. So wicked Martin Story IMPOSS- podcast but I was was my parents mindset and I wanted to make a million quits. Make them happy. Because Mama's unhappy she one of the country house a dream when she was young. Go She'd never let it guy and then she says we want. Don't do me for you. I'm not sweating all changed. I'll making this money for her to get back to my family like most people do when they wanna make him. Dawson is the drive. Then it was like she doesn't even want the money was the point and I lost myself and basically emptied my bedroom and I ordered every thing and forgave everyone and gave the money back and on us. Oh my parents. They're unhappiness in the sadness and that's why I was like I was because I was then and three years of my life to teach my parents to order their house. Ben Their shit to enlighten them constantly all day every day until they know the knowledge the I and I find myself that even if they know the majority of the shit the I know I'm always learning and I we teach them new knowledge. I can by choice so we can have an argument. Lock stock going on. You've already told me this. And that does that at their knowledge a May come on this journey with me but then knowing naturally inclined to waste question why am I wearing glasses crime? I doing this unless I tell them like. You know you go the bank creed things. It's held the new bank Rita thing they didn't know about it but they did up to the point where I told them and I tried to teach my friends when I became I aware and when I stopped teach them they reverted back to their ways doesn't mean that they're not going to become in lights in when the Rhoda because they might do but I couldn't get them out about Patten so I realized I am wasting my time nor in general because they might take my knowledge run in life lands. It wasn't a waste of time but I've learned to teach people you asked to be taught. Don't teach people who haven't asked to be taught because their mindset is not focused that way so this thing about you know people around you yes you wanna nuts your parents your family your best friend because you WANNA BE. They want them to come in your journey with them. The satchy is that as you evolve as a person you become this from family members at Christmases. They just become foreigners that like. Are they know that person? Because you see that justice side on happy live drinking alcohol. Suppressing in need of say a past experience and they have a child. Which is your grandfather for example right and it's hard to be in that situation to see everything to see. The dynamics of why is a monk who speaks among grandfather wise. My auntie speaking to my dad's brought thought that Grandad you don't that's comfortable so you have to understand that we are from the past you cannot change the boss. It's almost like if I went back in time to the old days and I taught the Cave Mentor Fish. With a certain way then they could have evolved quick to make fish and then life wouldn't be like is now. I've learned that you can only learn from the past to bring that forward and as I said our. Teach my kids my knowledge you go back in time. My parents from their parents and their generation and I'm learning from them. You call it always go back in time. Picks on right. The government put up a fence. A K pop fence around say woodland's have you noticed that they never take down the old fence. They all just pop new fence fast because he will take so much time and energy and money and government resources to take down the fence if they put up. Have you noticed for example when a company does something they always move forward for example one make money to buy new computers? They don't sell the OAKHAM pieces. They just give them away. Why takes too much time and money to sell? We'll be oh. Computers is about moving forward on. I can't teach my pet. Every fucking Nubia acknowledge I have because I spent so much time going back over the going forward I can leave an example and they may pick up those changes like my diet. Dr Take Vitamin C. He takes it when I tell him and I'm telling him you don't take it for weeks. My Mum from Allen who she understands the importance of vitamin C and Collagen. So she doesn't have to be towed right so my dad's mind says he's a strong person he'll do if it was the needs to account constantly. Tell him so the cigarette. Your parents teach people if they ask you. If don't you're leading example and they may see that that waste your time speaking to people who haven't asked example law of attraction the secret. How the mind how to manifest seminars right. Three people are GonNa make it and ninety seven percent does so say you know. We're cutting people knowing full. Well that these people are making me money by buying my package and you know they're going to go back to their sheets he lives. You've helped those three people by finding the one hundred people. Life is about making money. Not because it makes you happy because we needed so I shouldn't feel guilty doing a seminar nine that majority. These people aren't going to make money but they've made me money because you found three people and it should be a stepping stone that everybody goes along. This journey of my seminar for example has a choice to now go to the next step. They shouldn't just focus on me and bowl the show. I'm selling them. They may focus on my package and then do tie has package and social media or a package in whatever it's it's a journey of like triggers and some people might take that and grow. Some people might not in years to come. They might be like fuck fifty years ago. I saw this Bob proctor seminar and then they may create their life but it takes a long time seems homeless guy. He might have a grandfather that said you can be anything you want. And Fiftieth time I come up to him and he's like fuck. No my grandfather said this and then he creates thing about teaching the as you want to be taught. I've learned to reserve my energy. I mean these days you ask to talk because those are the people who grew up not knowledge on people who might you might help them in. Not My say wasted time thing because he has to have the need to himself. Sorry you cut out there for a second. I was just trying to keep up Rural fossilised know. I know is saying that just quickly. That wasn't about my mom and Dad. 'cause mumble what tissue. It's funny because everything that I say. Now you told me no religion so I could tell you what I think happens off death but that's a religious thing. That's the religious cocoa so I definitely think this sue out but to me in my my belief and self journey. I've come to the realization and this is completely my opinion That's before we come here we we are. We are always an G. Nothing is created or destroyed. So before we come here where a spiritual being and then we descended to us have a human experience and his skull die. Backup there into an you know whatever dimension and I've I guess the easiest way to put it as I come up with a story. Where does these two people in the spiritual world and one of them wants to learn how to forgive answer? This spirit goes well okay. Let's go down to us. I'll be like mad bitch to you and you're going to have to learn how to forgive but you have to love me when we crossover again and like nor that. That wasn't me and I'll just doing that and this guy was like. Yeah okay. Why would you do that and she goes because I love you like no matter what like Oh everything is about love at the end of the day and yes for me is just so funny like all of this stuff and I've only come to this? I guess knowledge and acceptance for myself in the lost six weeks if that like. Oh just kinda come real quick as I just had synchronicity like Bang Bang Bang. I reading different books. And then all of a sudden. It's like a homage connected for me and yet so so when I was questioning your people. That lack puppets and stuff. I think that the thing was to come here and you know because I've question. Why do people come? Why would this happen? Why would this happen again? Anything I can ever come back to Ms Bullock told me this and it told me that and you know so at the end of the day where always learning so so on earth no matter what you will you learning from experience or you're not and you grow and it said so ineffective of the idea of school which is old students when no one's perfect roll this we can all do the same thing with mine. Some of us are aware some of us. Not So it's interesting. I definitely believe that once you cross over you still bet you just a spiritual being and you can tap into that infinite intelligence because I've had those experiences first-hand myself I wouldn't ever preach something I haven't experienced myself because I don't think that that's right of me. Enlisted actually resonates with me so everything that I have to say. I've always experimented with myself fully. Truly the guy who say it first hand so I used to speak to my grandma spirit when I was lost right so imagine. I thought she was a which was. I think I thought she was consciously shutting my door clicking moving start putting the Fed that they're ripe meaning they lack of she still kind of Baz physical thing but her physical bodies in the ground so much uni into. I'm treating into the grandmother. I knew before she died that energy that vibration not spirit. That spirit was to me. That spirit is the thing you can always tap into so you'll comes down to is consciousness in the brain or is it not because if it's in the brain then I'm tuning into the energy of what she loss was. If it's not in the brain then ghosts and spirits. The still their communication consciously again. It's not about WHO's wrong right. It's not about religion spirituality energy all comes down to what makes you feel good. What gives you what makes food connected? Yes if something I say makes you question her own. Believe then you'll naturally adapt and thank you know what I so true. How is that true? And it's not. My job was to teach that. It's just you've actually math. That math occasion was wrong. And it's not that your life is going to be any better knowing. The crazy was wrong or right just I realized it wasn't right and that's the end of it gone through the stages of religion. Spirits are believed that spiritual skype. My grandma was speaking to your grandma saying okay. My my grandson is a podcast. Do you know anyone who's Rucci lined like? Can they communicate? And then I say why I'll give you a sign oh Make him think about Rianne and TV not governed line and then the community Kenny Blah. We'll thank you grandma. Poplin the spirit world type analogy the energy analogy. Is that old? The vibrations attract the same. The cows go to the same salt. 'cause they do say Irish came into the wellness of Asheville Astrology Astro physics or something the planet so I say off signs and stuff. I didn't believe because I could see they all just generic but when you a bull on the planet stat out there that's different. That's more specific. Act I realized that the plan is that were around. When all of that haven't come back around thirty years and swamp so my position and how my mother was meant to give birth to me three years before while I was three years late. So the thing I'm twenty seven but the fact the planet is coming round with thirty years time. I'm twenty seven means that if my mom had given birth to me would be perfectly aligned. Hensel this shit. I wouldn't see because I was always a car on a catch up. Delay in bass another story. But what I'm saying is that life isn't sets out by in my opinion by God in the stock other spirits community because I used to think like Elizabeth I and then I kept analyzing analyzing and I found floors and then I found a way to understand which is energy which is that you are a Mac that whether you like it or not. You're a Macintosh yourself to other people on the same operation so if you I'm vicious want to be an actor you're gonNA track towards actors when we are born we got already vibration and it may also vibration when they were born. Vibration was similar so when we were born. It means vibration scale. They always going to be vibrate. Its wards that because we ought vibration when we're born we're gonNA vibrate towards that. It's almost like the seeds with vibrates wars and earth in harmony. Far Away it find the way so you know that's when you were born seats over here and then when you're twenty five you're an axa not soil as old wine. California right it will find its way to wiggle underground find. Its way out so is that life is planned is GonNa throw if you understand the energy planet ship. I am an energy based on my planet about time. The people who are native big and have already they oughta big energies and age. That people will say there's Little Aquarius. Why Aquarius Beautiful as Almond Aquarius? It just it just happens to sisters happens that'd be energies around January Aquarius. Time is much more forceful powerful knee atmosphere in the energy as opposed to somebody born April. Quote me on that specific. But it just something to do with that hence why Aquarius isn't y if your vibration the womb you're not gonNA vibrate towards that lifestyle and people who are not that vibration the whim arms. So whether I trust my gold. No I'm going to be pulled towards that energy if I trust my moving towards the energy but didn't trust my woke everything happens the reason. I'm somehow going to go towards that. I have no choice so I'm just following my. That's what the flow state is. Well you just flow and trust that if your vibration and that person is a vibration you're gonNA get there if example if your shitty actor whether you like it or not the how much you believe in. You're going to be an actor. The charges that you make it because you need to have more than just acting ability skills. Communication confidence is a bigger package whereas if you are an act speaking abilities you've got all this stuff. You're naturally going to go that whether you knock your nose you just have to flow. It had swollen you. Focus on that you tense up because you want and you're not getting it in the time the expect it so naive operation is like both down. It's negative your traps flow through you like the seed and the soil. You naturally get there so Lock is written. I in terms of energy. Just going to try to the same whether you like it or not matches my opinion. Have you watched the Duke? Flab on net flicks the Goutte Lab. The what is it. You will love it so you binge it pretty much whenever you can next But basically Gwyneth paltrow has a company called BOOP and basically she go all of staff to go through different experiences of treatment. Serve you know episode. One group of stuff. Try Mush Rings. And then do the hailing stuff from that. Then they go and live with Wim Hof and do the ice treatment and on some in the cold water then they go and do They meet this guy said that the main U mad is this guy. It's the energy episode. And what he does is he sees multidimensional and he sees it. The physical body body isn't just. It doesn't just stop he. It's not just the physical vessel. We have layers of energetic fields coming from a little bit higher on us as well and it's rating around that time. So what he does is he gets you to lay on the table on your face. And he can tune in and see the patterns flowing and basically. If someone's lying flat like this he can write. He'll touch you. And then raised his hand up to this level and then as he moves his hands their bodies of flowing so he's touching their frequency and their bodies are rolling with it. Some of them are all twitching and their body's going crazy but he's tapping into the imbalanced frequencies and touching them in the and their bodies contorted almost an exorcism way. But after it's such a release because he said one of the main points he said when we're traumatized or fit or victimized outsail burn talks and he can see the vibration flow at at and all my God. It's incredible. I recommend anyone watches that. Because you can't yes it's it's it you you must don't believe it at the time and there's no way you can see that it's not real. It's not a magic trick you know. It's definitely real. And when they're interviewed so each side they're interviewed by Gwyneth about their expertise and their method and he just explained it in the best way and you mentioned the double slit experiment as well and goes into that and gets fascinating absolutely fascinating dogs when when it's good for the burden for example. Imagine the spinal united saying energy and shot Chris Spine up right. We're just so much that when you're the dog or whatever puts his towel bone in the skeleton. It's changed now because this is going in with so now. The posture has changed the muscles. Cramping imbalance of energy the energy call through so we speak about how as he said. It absolutely makes sense. Because if you if you tend to your inferior you'll Timid and of over shy and the energy thing about balancing out. I can't not seems incredible but it brings me back to your thing about questioning. You'll grandma tuning into Spirit that existed. We just shows that we're not just a physical vessel. We are energy and using a human body to move around is. If that makes sense you know if there's multidimensional coming out of us from around us that doesn't that conscious die because it never it never existed in a physical part in the first place it was a waste of energy just not in a physical counterpart in it. Just use this to do things. And then we pasta Energetic spiritual being Shuli is still bad because it was always there in the first place. I'm touching it now. If that makes sense so what comes to mind when you said it's just just just just just to finish. That conversation was never bad by. Let me explain. I was speaking to the voice in my head which I thought was grandma but it was actually me so she was never bad right in terms of the lights flickering the doors moving the feathers the pairing that was me becoming aware but the door flickering the matt turning on the T. AB turning off things moving telekinesis. That was me. My energy was so strong in a meditative mindset. Because that's really quiet in order to Heya right so when I'm really quiet on a deep meditative mindset like telekinesis yet been beat mindset meditation to move that rock to move that so when my Mac used to come on I believe that she was going to assign in the Mac our focus on it but it was meet focusing on the Mac charging the Mike. Yeah he was never ever that it was my energy static energy focusing increasing on something that had a static charge what. Tv The lamp there was clicks and Shit that was making those physical ghosts movements so she was never that physically door opened. Maybe it was the wind fucking no rob with the point was that I made it. I wanted to believe that she was at speaking to her. It was just speaking voice in my head. God My Dad Grandma. The Voice of a monkey. You can imagine what Jesus would say. That was it so she was never ever bet so. Yeah that's that's the end of that story that it was may making things move and speak into the voice of wisdom secondly when he came into my head right when you die your energy is still bad right this thing about a she moving and doing stuff now not bought energy will always attracts to other energies. So her spirit. It's the spirit world is now much. Vibration is an energy static charged if there is another energy out bad the same frequency. You essentially see her spirit. Go into that energy. So no physically energy spirit will physically go into that energy right. Does it mean not now? Does it mean that energy has left? Say a house and going into someone's energy and Australia because the energy is being taken so if I've got an ems camera. Could I see my grandma's energy in that house do because the energy was they can from someone on the same frequency in Australia? I'm working this is of speaking by the No. No I know I'm yeah. I'm doing the same thing. Technically right because if she just died spur is there. You fill that presence energy not the physical body because that's in the ground and she hasn't. She's constantly doing anything anymore so she's not in my house she's just there her last thought. Let's say she always comes to mind every Tuesday then. She's here on a Tuesday because that's what she was panicked today especially she died an accident. Her thoughts are still going there. If she was actually dying she would surrender. Let go and not let go myself and I went into the presents. Stop if us is left. I feel the presence but if an energy takes stock issue because you know it's it quantum physics where your particle wave it's backward and Gripe pod Kouwenhoven both. She's there also the energy that takes in Australia. She's also that where I wanted to be exciting Chilean to that by abrasion so the multidimensional thing where it's not just a catchy physically get aboard or on a plane to Australia issue that vanity. She can still be there but the energy because you know there's quantum entanglement as well. Which is he changed. Energy changes that so. She's like at the vice cells. Divide so the president is also. That's the thing is everywhere anyway but the charge builds up there. But it's not taken from there. It's just like drawn from there but it still bath hence why you can so on. The reincarnation thing is that you tune in the energies will always go up to the next mass frequency. Lock and it's in the atmosphere they've all increasing in mass so her energy will be attracted to someone frequency cut. She was when she passed away. But ENERGY STATIC. Energy should still be there. Maybe was your thoughts on that. We'd be is. It's interesting because as you as you're talking. I'm trying to think of experiences that I've had a question whether you know. Try to argue. You're thinking I couldn't a plan that you know. I DIDN'T THOSE INFINITE INTELLIGENCE COMMUNICATIONS. I didn't I didn't Quick Quick Question with your grandmother. Did you always think about a lot before it happened? Did you just say Oh? She's going to give me a sign that that put out that was targeted at something or was it. Random sometimes serve example. I'll be like should I deliver leaflets today? An ought be silent because I need to be silently hair. Not or flicker whatever by being silent. I was in a meditative mindset. My body was I disconnected my body. I couldn't feel my body had been relaxed Alexei so long. I couldn't feel my body because I moved the toll so lucile sensitivity in the body and then my mindset was meditation. That was no voice. 'cause I had to listen and energy vibration. It was doing was not more than a deep. Meditation was the energy would increase and I was looking for a sign. Click a flicker anything with the electric electric static charge to unite whatever the light would flick her the bowl ting the TV would click the McCain on something would happen and Abi my acknowledging on the Yes okay. So that's yeah so that's making me think would. Hey so there's so many times I've had that but I haven't actually been looking for it and then it's come up so then I questioned that because it's time for a signing got one and then times with and I've known that it's one just by knowing but I really question you questioning my belief in whether it is training into turning into their energy because at times I've thought I've tuned into someone and like you said you just tuning into what you think they would say like almost putting yourself in their shoes and then giving you that message but it's actually the knowledge of what you know what they would say. You know you just not asking but at the same time the child in me will not accept and will never accept that we just die like like I just I. I couldn't live my life thinking that that was it. If we do no lack of I for me. Living living my best life is by knowing and believing that I decided that. There's just so many synchronicity. These why I'm here at this specific time in this exact time line where things are happening to me. And I'm like surely the more I research about picking a puppet. I'm not necessarily planning your whole life prior to descending on us but picking puppies I definitely believe I am that thing that they call you know a lot work. O- or you know all that 'cause I've always been drawn to that that free spirited stuff just always like magnetized to it like you said. It's almost like you don't get a choice when I was a kid and I will pasta trade. I was GonNA talk to it. I knew it was with a new people looking at me but I actually was almost like an OCD impulsive. I didn't touch that train to it. Something bad was going to happen because it felt so right to do it and I was going against something just because of what everyone else is. GonNa think of me. So I'm at that stage now where I you know. I got bullied in school and I was always like the guy had a really good lots. I don't I'm not saying I didn't but there's so much stuff that happened to me as a kid. I'm just so sick of hiding and come into this new knowledge and and and you know looking at it as a bad thing looking at the more aware and the less people are in my life that that's a bad thing and it's certainly not. I have more power have more time I have more you know The more I research the more knowledge comes to me. Because I'm putting it out. Let's just coming back so yeah I think for me. It's so interesting to question your thing about tapping into their energy. Because times when I hear something I will question my is that then or is that me because I think I know what they would say so. It's a really interesting thing to think about. So you said about sometimes when you ask crew sign you get assigned sometimes you just get signs with the Oscar. No so explain that subconsciously. You're in that flow state consciously you are but you want further information so I know this for example. I find that example. I'm in my bedroom watching Netflix or youtube. And I'm thinking to myself. Shall I message to do? Another book cost now next week. Tv will click so I did ask for a sign. Should I go back and do a podcast with people have done with? Because then I'd have to wait go into that frequency to build up to make a click. I find that unconsciously. I know she'd be doing but almost finding a reason. Nazis I'm already in that frequency. I'd only have to go to to get the answer so grandma make a sign. If I should be doing that. I'm almost like asking before I go to the frequency increase whereas ammonia at that frequency. Now Grandma's within me I am level. Are they need to ask anymore? I just have to do so now. I don't do something like I remember once. I sat on the TV. I wanted to punish myself. Go to sleep on the TV clicked. Massively and I'm going to bet grandma's bed it never clicked so fucking loud in my life right so it was almost like. I know I should be doing something but I'm not the TV will click when I'm thinking about something. That's confirmation laying in thinking about this. Oh furic Asi stuff in the sky the TV will just click. Like I can't get it to click and sometimes I want it click. It does most of the time sometimes it will just suddenly clinic based on Fort. It's like a frequency. I think about something it will befall us off with the click. Now I click to the confirmation server example if I know I should be messaging you and I think I'll just another time the TV static charge. Because when I think about something it's an energy the TV picks up on that and statically does something to the TV. And it's and I use these clicks confirmations to get your fucking all out of bed and message right so this thing about when you ask the stuff you get the signs but when you don't ask stuff subconsciously the energy is already going out there. So you automatically get the click so I would say when you look for the signs when you don't ask listen to the sounds listened to clicks for example. I had draws. I had windows. I had things in my room. That shouldn't be clicking. Plastic draws like just fire drills Bustillo energy. They're not true. Should not be clicking my window. Those SOMAC- at my window what it was. It always fucking click to grandma of course but it was always the window fucking that again. It could be the glass panels just condensing. The point is that energy is is interacting and interfering the things around us often electronic devices like Wifi goes down. When I'm stressed but things. Like whatever listened for Clicks Things. Just Click Click when example. I'm GonNa Conservatory. When the sun goes down things click we energy so things around us will be changing because of our energy look out for the cliques and stuff again. I don't want to teach people say when almost crash light because I wanted to die and Graham Going to be okay. And then she disappeared right and I was in the shower. Once I said to myself she was never there. I want to believe she was here and I try to speak to her again. The voice in my head which was mean knew that that boys has never her so I never got the answer back. Grandma a you hear like there was just nothing because that was me acknowledging the fact that she was never here and I don't want to believe something that I know isn't real. I want to believe that goes exist. Grandma's hair and everything. That's a nice feeling as I said it's not about what the leaving God he's wrong and he's got superior knowledge. It's what gives you comfort. I don't want to believe that we need Bassett so even if you might be I don't WanNa hear that. Shit because I want to know that there's more to life at the same time when you learn. Knowledge is a choice. Listen or not. And it's not that this knowledge effects bad or good way. I believe that we can choose to play some good when I was real or not. We can take it and actually by hearing true for example. Not that I'm right. You're wrong by are questioning. Our the grammar washy here or not if she wasn't that everything like beliefs about that shit is wrong so it's not that well now. I know that we die. That's it my life and that belief is the same anymore because now it's like I can really be present embiid's life wealth than just think. Oh if I get it now all just rincon into again. These really grounded me that if I die I'm going to make the most of every single moment say me in a dimension of living and how this often life is there it's great to see my family and spirit again thus is understood On the trees. It's not well my life different now. I didn't believe spirituality exists because he's grounded me even more so if you might question. Your knowledge is not all bloody house spirits than exists anymore. Because you believed what I'm saying because you're finding flaws in your knowledge it's not gonNA necessarily negative way. It could affect your life in a beneficial way because now you question everything like I did things make sense and you surrender and let go like fuck swollen. Speak into the tree because it was it never tree. It was me trying to find myself as opposed to listening to the teachers. And my friends saying this and my parents saying this so everything has a de la forgetting. I don't WanNa make you question your share as if I'm saying I am right and that doesn't exist because I don't all I'm doing is conned of teaching knowledge and then people are questioning their own. Beliefs is known. Run out of fuck. Do I know wherever she was here? All based on my knowledge base and we'll I know she appropriately wasn't hair and that's the end of it. Sir Funny Because I love like this hearing you go like this might make you question and change your beliefs. It might not but it actually just drives me to connect even more and know that they all beings and the specific people and now I'm like okay. Who can I play around with? Who's out there in the spiritual world and get specific things. Because only so-and-so we'll give me this only saw and so we'll give me that economy a light. It's gotta be my Harry Potter Dole. It's going to be this book. This person gave me so. I'm like charged up in a way where I can't wait to play around with that because I've you know I've been playing around with my life. Go pay that. I've been playing around with and trying to you. Know we have eleven million kilowatt hours per pound of energy in Laudi. And so did you lot it up. So Darren Brown. There's a there's a magician. Darren Brown going you. Cheap type and Darren Brown light bulb and he holds table puts them at the table. There's a mine the Oth- audience lightbulbs and they put them in the bag right. Dan Darren Brown does this mindset. And he they both focus on it. Both their charge creates enough energy. The boat smashes in the bag. I wanted to do that and I realized I couldn't because I need somebody else. You need another energy to interfere. It's almost like we know speaking to somebody and they are observing you so much that you think anymore if you know it's not you can't wait for to say something so. I realized that Barron Brown did that when there was somebody else. Their unique negative impulsive charge. He can't just do. I couldn't do it myself. The answers I never ended up doing it Secondly you is speaking about connecting spirits. I remember when I went through the spiritual stuff and there was ghost and Richard Branson Steve Jobs I remember and he just triggered this off. Always Speaking Steve. Jobs speaking to Jesus Speaking Hitler wherever speaking people that have died to find out what they did. Something Kennedy speak it's Marilyn Monroe. I heard their voice based I'd heard on. Tv reading that book. I was shooting into what they would say. Again it's not that they were that if they're there or not you have the ability to tune in to what they would say. And you can believe that Richard Branson is here in your bedroom guiding you through your business thing 'cause it will be like Richard. What should I do? And you'd imagine what he would say. You need to focus on the audience about customer service provided good quality service. They will come back. Money will flow. Never be afraid to put it out there and not going to make your idea. You could do this any fucking person alive. I believe bucket here. My father's voice. All my grandma voice. He was dead. Hitler's Voice Jesus Voice Steve Jobs Voice. Anyone who's died MARILYN MONROE BLOODY MOTHER THERESA. Everyone's energy they were. They were made up of energy of that Pasta and mental bunk. But whatever we will just tuning into the same line of ship a district it off that what you said about. You couldn't believe that there's different ghosts and if you go into mindset you can actually say Richard Branson or whatever great great grandmother. If you're here. GimMe a sign to go to meditate state. Things WILL CLICK. Things will click. Lights will flicker I remember when I say look a lights is to wait for Dustin flypasts and dust was the spirit as my grandma and I was like how the fuck is my grandma that talk of dust and makes sense but when I was questioning stuff I was like How is it and I take a picture of air? And keep zooming in on the camera and zooming in zooming in print screening and I could see a face ram on that. But then Darren Brown. Who's also very similar to me. Said always seeing faces. Because that's what we used to saying. If your grandmother was a cow would expect to see a home so we are seeing what we WANNA see right. Secondly that clearly Yeah so my energy was moving. That dusty past the light. It wasn't she was displaying past the light. It was more energy. Statically taking dust poss- now ice. Get My iphone right. And I spent five six hours at nighttime with my iphone on the cold and the flash and I hope my life and actually you can do this. Get the fuck out yourself. Right is a whole my camera. I start grandma. Fuel hair flypasts and all but flypast so I believed in orbs again to me. An old is just dust particles flying past the camera where you are wanting that dust about sign about op flying. I was obsessed with obscene pitches always reaching out to people but never met before saying you know that your your grandma's with you Mike Club. They fucking blocks me every fucking crazy. What the fuck you want about you know. You've got a guardian angel because that was an all above someone's head and to me only goes guardian. Angel Momma go go spirit. Oh my God reality. Is that bus? Just have dust flying past the camera about Time Right K. Bought and all went to a gravestone and I took a picture on my uncle to pitch me by the grace died. That was all snow. Do things dust is made up of that cells that sells energy or and they g is our spirit is the energy around not greystone above my pitcher in ORB. Yes is it also dust? Yes it was. If you take that skin and put it into like a micro micro lab thing and you fucking score. You put it under a microscope. Those cells will look exactly the same as an orb which is an energy so again. It's quantum physics. It's this that I'm both trying to say so. Yeah I put the FLASH ON GRANDMA IT HERE FLYPASTS fucking overfly. Pa that will be a yes. Should I go to the casino tonight? If I felt like I should be overfly parks. I'm expecting the yes deep down. I shouldn't 'cause I lost money. Lost Time. Energy would be like forcing away so no war flies past but assumed into the open. I saw face what I'm saying. Is that fucking thing you're looking for assign? Yeah Yeah right you WANNA sign. You'll get sign because like yeah the flypast and then I'll get my congress casino. Oh yeah there's a light bulb thing down Brown and the light bulb It's interesting because my dad told me when I got my license. That's when he drives under certain streetlights they'll turn off on and he thought it was his mom so when I got my license it started happening to me and it just makes me think you know at that time. I'm straight away like Oh that's my grandma. That's the people that are out there for me. That have cost that I know and sometimes when I'm driving around if it hasn't happened for a while I will say where are you and one will turn out for on and it just makes me question. Was that because I was expecting something by saying where I you or was that the thing you know so for example when I asked resign I got the sign. If you're driving cross at lamppost grandma if you hey tony off. She will At the same time as I said if I know deep down I should be messaging you but TV will click with our astronaut. If Your Dad drives past the sign and just has almost go to in his head by the folks that Grandma's in that Lamp Post. Every time you drive pass. It's going to flicker he doesn't have to ask anymore. Because every time he goes past unconsciously he will admit that energy at that time and it will charge the light bulb go off as opposed to the spirits. Know you'll there and they are making a sign. It's how you look. You look at Ak. Grandma knows on there. She's making a sign of the spirit world in tons of the energy audience homes if it was me the whole time. Argh postle opposing happened to me the same thing. Grandma make a sign. It's almost like it's by default. That grandma was makes a sign up. Consciously if for example. You've moved on cab out possible ice and shit like that you'll notice. Oh it didn't turn on you go back into that mindset. Grandma if you're here make that sign of an offering a sign as opposed to just doing it like. Should I do something? Procrastination what is that you say to yourself? Why shouldn't what if he'd do it. Ruin flow with your energy. When I dislike waiting for the first time he picks up every single Ford. I knew I should be doing and identify it to do it. And then the psychic couldn't pick up things anymore. Because I was in June I was up today. I shifted the paradigm. I was rather than in procrastination and almost on a backlog of thought backlog of emails I was up today. My inbox was empty. I was in cheering so that lamp posts grandma was automatically doing it because I was in flow was if I would say grandma fuel hair flash and when I got there she would do it or if for example impasse lampposts meaning. I wasn't thinking about goes in spurts anymore. She wouldn't do it but when I asked you would. So essentially it's me asking for that. Sign is about projecting energy out there if project. The energy is going to happen but on yet justly. If I'm still believing that she's a lamppost. It will happen but when I believe me that grandma was never hair things want clicking anymore because I didn't I knew she was Su. My energy wasn't expecting signs which means there wasn't signs and again it gives us comfort. Believe it 'cause end of the day the belief is just a thing that makes us feel good. But it's so interesting. How you said. Your Dad was getting flickers. When I when I go on walks I saw post post and it would go on and off and then I just pay games and test it when I didn't WanNa go off. It wouldn't go off when I didn't want it to so it was. It was never be in the first place. 'cause is coming off without me. Anyone realize okay it may or may not have gone off without me but I can influence what goes off on as well as opposed to the only goes off grandma's hair and if she and if it doesn't go off then it would just let it bollocks it's this vow. I'm both things can click. You want me to annul with if you want them to click. And when you're thinking about it they will click because you're unconscious thoughts multidimensional fair. It's as you said quantum physics. It's PODS COOL. Wave and both. It's grandma spirits here. It has an energy of Operation Australia at the same frequency. Her energy will attract into one. But she'll also still be there because you're not always said if she goes to Australia issue being taken well. Quantum physics means that if it's hair it's also bear and there's no distance says it's not that the energy will go to Australia. Essentially the Australian energy of that person will become my grandma's energy here. My Grandma's energy will come to save energy's you'll surely in person there. It's not the energy changes because it's all goes into one in the first place so her energy will just increase in frequency there as opposed to going there and then increase in the frequency. So she's there still but on a high frequency by energies there which increased because of her frequency. I can into the oath frequency of when she died. Begnaud said the knowledge of that new person's energy in her spirit so it's almost like there's no such thing as time if I think uncle uncle in Australia. And he's listening by the research because you're tranship. He messages. Meet as soon as I think about him. He's in Australia. I think if I think about my friend five minutes down the road in real time it happens in the same time so it's not not what my grandma? Stralia energy she's there. It's already bad if someone is on Channel Five walkie-talkie and five you already connection if you go to six you know four. You know we've got six you already connected so the office that is my grandma's energy is still there but it's also taking the charge of another frequency and energy is also over there. It does. I hope we just need a test. That would test whether when someone passes away training into Pasta G. O. Current Energy and that would that's why. I'm like so excited to play around with some stuff because everything that you've been saying makes me question everything I've ever done in salt was assign even though I believe it was questioning it from objective perspective There's GonNa be ways. We tap into that for my belief infinite intelligence and they communicate with things in regards to the feature because You know when it comes in the form of a voice in your head you can say it's you even say it's them and you know so it's like the same with the line you can say thinking about doing the lights so that needs to be some sort of test that tests whether you have been into pasta full they actually they guiding through things so for example. I did these tests. Technically the spirit world exists. I can shoot into grammar any point. Right she's going to be like almost going to guide readable. Because you don't believe in me. Well that's when the ghosts to make a sign when you are expecting it to. It doesn't have you noticed that when you focus on it knocks. Why is it that when you focus on? It doesn't anything but when you want focusing on it does essentially what I'm saying he. There's no way to test this because if I am waiting for grandma and focusing on how to fly past. She's going to be there because I'm focusing on her whereas if I am not focusing on her she's going to do it's almost Tila Charles de something he wants to do it on. Its own terms. It doesn't tell it to do it right among you say don't take my water. And then he grabs there. Is this thing about when you were waiting for something to happen. If your mom says random make your bed you don't want to ask you to make you bet you WanNa make you bad. And then she is this thing about when you observe something you can upset you change reality. I get my phone now. Grandma PASTA fewer. She didn't flypast anymore. So is that because I know she wasn't here and enemies different or is it. You fucking believe me washed Ibaka washed. I teach leaving me. I'm wasting my time. Or is it will if the energies in the spirit world their than they all hair ribbons with web changed my belief. If the old me needed spiritual guides while in the new meaning spiritual guides if I get depression I become lost again. And ask the guys. Will THEY COME BACK? So they only coming back. When I was in a low state of depression fast not fair. That's Lexi Wind is God allows suffering. He's a prick on shooting grandma on my phone. I tried it. I have tried it. Nothing happens is it because native rejecting a subconscious thought at the same time though that you should not gonna go pass so I say for example should I should I do this deep down on subconsciously? You are you questioning your beliefs like you elect questioning your questions. So you like you like saying is true mea sign and then the becky head you're going. You're not gonNA show me a song because I've asked you to and I believe that when I ask you something you're not going to show it to me and so you projected that belief and regardless. She's not going to show it because you've projected beliefs. Do you know what I mean. So yes so. It's a mixture of everything it is. It is also the fact that I know that it's the fact that I know. She was never here. Based on my they experiment you believe up onto the put where nobody can counteract or find floors so Einstein relativity. He believed that. No one else had an alternative. But someone else does it you now. You now acting combat belief grandma public. She was never hair than a more expensive to fly posit same time. It's like well if she actually was here and I'm a nervous don't have to go back home. Go Back Foot was real and realized it was bollocks so then you look fuck rather not know if my if. I was adopted because I love my dad and I don't believe I don't want to believe that he's not Maruf are the we want the answers. Say you know what I mean. Does that as well? Then there's also the fact that what you said which was if you would you say. I bet quick questioning question. Yeah so it's everything because my observation is changing the outcome if I suddenly was hypnotized into believing that she was real. I would have that belief of that is coming to me. She's GonNa fly past the my lost belief of hypnosis for example is I don't have any fear so I- skydive whereas if I didn't have the hypnosis I wouldn't skydive my last belief is she was never here. She don't WanNA fly pause. I I called convince myself any other way that she would say unless I have some profound knowledge that makes me believe that again about I'm observing the fact that she's not gonna fly policies and this example somebody hypnotized me of try. Dot Com. Make a call and get the mets turnaround anymore account. Make Things Click. It's rip because when I used to ask for signs I was wasting presently for that. Click it woods but now when I say make click the TV. I just I move on. And then it clicks. It's on delay. It's delay icon is like the if. I look to the job if to the camera and went off and did my share flypast properly but then that probably was dust but that I know for example the energy can pull dusts right but then if I'm waiting for it to happen doesn't happen an is. I'm talking like five thousand nighttime. I suggest sit with my phone talking to grandma asking what why my bullied. One one will announce I'M GONNA make I'm GonNa find love while I don't have a girlfriend. Fly Fly fly. Fly Leagues Confide in my thoughts. I needed a personal before. It's like my dad or jets game with the answers. I leave my phone on Flash all day as I was doing stuff and flying past me. Now give me come for that. She was here. A new Ba- flypast grandma's. Hey Look enough to be sent shutting. They friends growing up so she came from. Because I'd won but the same time I stopped listening to my father because my knowledge became c periods of heads and I was telling himself that he was saying was wrong as the parent. He would teach me but he was wrong. We saw the same thing. I'll got elegance and fucking thing and then all was lost because he gave it to everything so now I knew one apart from the voice my head which is me coming. My father stepping into my father's shoes taking his wisdom becoming the man of the House for example so that was the voice in my head and the grandma that was because I know one so interesting. It just makes me like the whole time. You were talking. It just made me think how content you are with your belief and how content I am with mine and it just comes back to that point of like at the end of the day as long as you believe in something and makes you happy. That's really all that counts because me studying all this stuff that doesn't I guess not studying. Sorry believing in all this stuff that you might not believe him trying to push that onto. You doesn't mean it's going to make you feel the way it makes me feel and it doesn't mean that you're going to live a full life because it's done that for me it means you've got your own journey and at the end of the day are coming to the same conversation and there's just different experiences and things we've done that obscure out the way we believe in it so it's funny it. Just it's it's nice to see that we're not disagreeing with just accepted as different ways that I'm not gonna change believing what you believe in. You're not going to change what you won't believe in what you like what I believe. Because it's not gonNa make each other happy so imagine not you know five years ago when I was around people they the seat so that energy is the secret energy. Let's just say frequency three right. A frequency three expand their knowledge and as I expand my imagine on a very dominant energy like ten. And there's not many tens out there on the ten you'll say a eight or nine and most people are just one. It means that someone who's a nine is closer to my knowledge. Meaning what I've just said and they will question it. A mailman will get to attend. They understand what I'm saying. They may take on that belief whereas if I said that to say someone who's just letting the secret it's just. It's just not relevant on that journey. Let's just say that you are more spiritually in Sheen. Compared to other people along my journey you may take what I've said. You may realize shit this letter nonsense because you are. You've already got to that spiritual journey questions ship. So now you're one step to the energy ship whereas before you've got people religion and then spirituality and then energy so they might not really take anything said away and learn. It's just that I'm assignments interesting. That's it but because you are high energy more in June's for example in Chino closer to the energy level. I'm on so you might take that knowledge and do something with it as opposed to anyone else. The great thing about just speak in his up. You'll speak in your own belief. Somebody's listening and they will take that if the summit to be learned they'll learn and if there isn't anyone. I'm not reaching telling people to believe this because end of the day. It doesn't matter whether more wrong I don't dislike. No one else knows it comes down to if I'm saying something. We should make any question of belief you only going to evolve as a human being for the better so I don't have to tell me that God God exist energy goes exist our make it clear that I believe the same things that people believe that reincarnation and goes I kept questioning stuff. I'm found flaws. And here's where I'm at now. You take what I've said and do what you want with that. Because it's not about trying to change your belief doesn't said it was comforting for me nine grandma's as it's comforting for people that their spirit guides but the same time does empower somebody knowing that what you believing is letter bollocks and by this new superior knowledge how does it affect your life in a more powerful way. That is something that will happen. Naturally based on the things that you read that you see you take that and you'll learn something to be learning. There's no which is a good conversation. And that is just life. It just a plant growing in the dying and then another one grows. And that's the best thing about speaking if something to learn and if it's not the only one and it's not about preaching and he's right or because it's other no fucking object to google subjective objective. What's the difference because it's subjective to they want to see and what level they're on and I might save his thing about the ghosts never there you can stand your ground because down you know shit on question asset or you might like point of view i WanNa believe go so you might believe that bigly but in forty years time for example Riyan fifty or whatever might be like Geno walk. He was right so it's dislike different levels trip. You might you might analyze your mom might realize he's fucking right and you realize I'm wrong the anymore realize actually mom. You're right he is right or you might learn this no fucking rules. It's just that the frequency aura. When you're searching for some things. My Dad said I was searching. I was looking for onces. Admit signs wanted things about my new. The Johnny I was on. He never told me was doing was wrong. He knew almost lost and I was on a journey. He couldn't help me. He knew what was in my head. He's assay who's gone ORLA. Ed May you can see by my eyes on I. E. Successively think my eyes are red. Come fucking twitching all the time. Because of the threats I had brain activity will sky. May He couldn't help me. I was walking the shit out and and he knew the I was lost searching and at the end of our said. Do you know that she was never air? And he said he basically said that it's not about whether she was not you're searching. He's always in the gray. He never gives me a black and white answer because they end the day. He doesn't know what that exist on. Oh He's also smart enough to note both sides like me he would never give me a fucking rockaway. Also 'cause he black and white. It's gray if you believe grandma. Was that fantastic. That's your own feeling is not about wrong or right said she. Did you read? And he goes whenever now. You may be researching a fucking idiot. You always knew. And what can you help me? You could note me. Goes back to what we were saying. The beginnings the Things he would have looked at you and so that is something that it was not for him to interfere with our voice the specializing three hours on the couch. Seven to eleven sawn at in my head thinking my head would just be facing the couch because my dad focusing on me it took away. The energy is going to be facing that way. Thinking analysing assessing when I go to bed three hours before sleep. Just why cannot chicken or the Egg Fox like how can that be a God because of this like why everything? Why are we single? Damn thing three hours. I couldn't sleep every single night. Ice Be school thinking thinking thinking. I never want us to the teacher thinking thinking thinking. Uh spend my whole life in my head because I was seeing and hearing didn't wasn't in harmony with Wi- own energy because my energy was off the frequency of Jesus Monk Buddha enlightened being like q i Poetry Will Smith all these great being so people that school negative toxic bullshit vibration the teach their bullshit vibration university Bush vibration. My vibration was never the same so most as they fought it because they just happily would do bad doing that folks are made up of just playing football Shangen off to school. My energy was that planet for years ago. Which is coming back around now. Coincidentally and the same energies of all these great people. Jesus Mark But all these people always shootings to that knowledge when I was five years old. That's what the twitching was about. But threats is the brain activity. Twitching is helping the brain. Press's information the swearing the frustration of fuck. Fuck Walk. Shell energies tuning into Buddha. Will this amazing knowledge? The I don't know why it's coming into my because my energy frequency and all these other fuckers at school just listening history and fucking Pie. Pythagoras and one or two and my brain is focusing on bloody monk. Buddha's energy dog no control over. I'm being drawn over there from stuck in school for six hours so called. Stella that's why it was a fucking nightmare be like me now like I feel like I hit the six months of isolated quite a lot to to sell flood self study and go through that shift and now I'm finding interacting in the real world is like less inviting and I just wanted to be. An energy is pure and like everyone gets me and you know I I understand them and they know I'm analyzing them because I can't help it now. I question what they do where to go to someone like. Did you think about that if we said it? Because I'm pretty sure wouldn't. It said it like actually listeners. Revisit what you said. And we'll you you know like it's so. It's so rude and like egotistical to think like that but it's almost like I on the other side of that shift yet where I've completely gotten rid of that ego where I know I'm not fitting in. But now everyone else looks like they don't know what they're doing and either had a ECON- the Hondas of the people who you talk to a normal conversation. You can't have those basic compensations anymore. That's what I'm trying to say a conscious spit this stuff out. East Asia and everyone's GonNa be like yeah. Yeah just see that flow on the on the group lab like amazing at this point. No one's going to told me. So what will say is that that you said you'll get through that journey yourself and things is said we'll get you to the next stepping stone or call four. She outwear on A. You'RE GONNA be. I can only get you to the stepping stone. Everyone's a stepping-stone right. No one takes the way I was that person I I didn't see anyone for three years. My friends kept. Yeah right when I was a left or left college fucking Haiti College. No one likes me. It's bad breath. Spotty braces over disaster. Yeah and I'd left college and I just put my life on my computer meeting websites online trying to make a million quid. Whatever I didn't see any one for three years and people stop bothering with me because I was in my head. I couldn't be at the pump when I was working out the Shit I was trying to do. Just couldn't be there by people knew I was analyzing them and I was judged because I was. I was better than you are going to be. Big Deal fucking. Shit like you're GONNA get nowhere. I thought my negative energy from them saying no unlike likes you right so that will be. I know friends growing up and they know that I'm judging made no the. I'm not the same as them and I'm different. They know my dreams. They know that they're gonNA shitty job forever. They don't WanNa be around you. They want to be around. People were just content. Ghana fact drink him. Olga Depression anxiety. Oilman depression tablets. Let's Confi bollocks over in the final solution I had nobody anyway say when I was young. I didn't see anyone for three years and I didn't shower. I didn't eat a skinny of greasy hair by breath. My posture was shit. And you become isolated and you look at people. You caught Middle Eastern contacts Easter lights outside in the supermarket. You Know Easter people cannot you? You aren't used to speaking. I mumbled be spent so much time in my eds unit. Possession where you spend so much time in you read that somebody tries to say do something. X zooms the vacancy in the fall. Do this on the early spirit. Because she's been in the head of the whole life. I found still muttering because I haven't spoken to anyone in such a long time. So fucking possessed. 'cause I've seen it's their mouth movement hasn't been what's used to anyway so then you thought mumble people look at you crazy you go back into your read. That was the worst thing for me because I would have. I would have read myself to possession because the more you spend time in reds in Chiro Invoice Jira inside of the more out sink. You becoming the family friends. You lose your friends speech random people. Because you're not the same and I realized that when I listen to radio stations real life stuff. That was going on people calling in. I felt connected to people. There was a time when only listening to say spotify music music. Only I liked. I became a sink. The world looking back lizzy friends that we play the same music over and over and over and over again songs. They play when they're at school and I'm talking like some ten years ago. Ten years ago that playing those same songs why because it makes them feel back to the days of friends at school. 'cause they've been school anymore. They've just got a job in the same not put some back into that mindset and auditions will be songs come in sync with the rest of the world or speaking twenty-one no social media. I was seeing anybody I became out sink and I realize it's much higher social media on it just because we only know things from social media so when you go to the pub you say hey a sold out that that painting you do that and you don't go and that's conversation whereas friends doing it just nothing to speak bow so yes to that. Isolation is good when he cannot ship it comes a point where you have got side because it's so comforting and freak in your own energy going on a walk late night with the was. The Fox is the deer the hours the moon I'm looking at. I'm not saying on the ground with the folks cap or dareus connected with nature and I don't want to go because coming home is reality. You want to go to work in the office. Because bollocks realities have to work you've gotta welcome people that are going to be different energies really the same as you if you want to be a monk and amounts in yeah rounding could be among in mountain cabin or by yourself forest off the nuts. I thought I need to be healing the world. What's what good is it? Good is my knowledge in the fucking mountain which means we're GONNA have to be in a room full of toxic counters pricks be in a room full of negative people. Judging that's just the way is so of them as you said being isolated in your own balance and harmony of nature teach people. Don't want to be taught don't teach people haven't asked if you talk reserve their energy and then you charge yourself with them and then when you go out you act as a sponge you result the negative energy but rather ban at school when people be negative to a and you go into hiding under the playground by yourself. You can now coat without negative charge. Would you raise your self so high the your knowledge and energy in your rim on Youtube on your laptop that when they say negative stuff and you know the talking about you and you know that just whatever it doesn't affect you because absorbs any your positive energy counter raxit whereas the old round the old me? It would take me down as long as clubbing with my friends. I'd be way they judge me and said we don't send like that and not stop going to go and sit down. Then I realize I'm letting energy effects me so that trump how the minden the seat I went out I saw the dots. How THE FUCK? I won't it and see them. Judging me saying you. So we're doing when I don't see how I wanted to look at them as if to say. I don't give a shit. We are saying they went off to the bar. They went for a cigarette. They didn't bother anymore and they were there. And then these people will like yeah. That's will dance together. The other positive vibrations I would attract them to me and never danced and we shared the same months. Lv a happy people dot saying how he wants to and who the negative Fox were just shy. They weren't taught long story short. I went cobb and four times a week by myself. Danzig how I wanted. I pushed the negative people. Saying well the fuck you doing and in the polls will come and I stopped going clubbing. Just like that. 'cause I'd raise my energy enough could handle people looking at me. I could handle negative energy. So you say you isolated you. Don't go out. You're charging yourself but you need to go out and entertain and now the newly Annan. We're both uperior knowledge as opposed to the NSA two months ago preach that not telling them to share information in the way that it's reverse psychology like me by me talking my knowledge. I'm telling people what to do. I know from experience that people will listen and that superior knowledge that out of all these teaches republicanism to me because I have to experience that experience so when I talk about something I knew the unhealing person was telling them but I know the listening done they ask questions so when you go out people you just speak about your day. Johnny people will be in life that inspired by and the lassie questions and the more the OSCE QUESTIONS. The more you talk the better you feel you have that connection of reanimation thank you. Ma'am his my mind day. You feel confident. Then go out again. You meet somebody else you do that. You Talk Nuts too then that's three and then everywhere you go all these people they're asking for your knowledge and now you're not shy anymore. You don't want to be indoors. You want to be outdoors because you're helping these people and you feel so good that you want to be out and now you've reversed from being indoors because you're trying to protect your energy to go outdoors knowing that it's a certain level where the angel of the spirits wherever protect chief and negative any doesn't affect you in the way that it did before you start to go endorsed to come surroundings because I was that person I isolate myself three years and I started to go out to the pub always a foreigner. I was a Mexican in a in a Scottish bar. I was just. I'd nothing in common with anyone and it was dangerous. I realized fuck. I've never fit in again and just live by myself. Why mode and I started to be myself. People were going crazy so much energy you and drugs. I'm not no just you know whatever and even though I wasn't the same and they would it be crazy. I could handle it. This time was before it would set. Go indoors now they would say. I'd understand how you don't see what I see. I could take that and sort of just calm down. Rather than preaching on purpose at comet down and I'll talk confidently with people as to just being out there loud because nobody likes person who's got money numbers and are you an actor confident. People don't like the fact that you've got some don't so all of them out. Nobody wants to listen rather than preaching. Go out there speak to people you know. Eleven interest on a facing so. I was a different kind of socks here because I was different. Right but the point. Yeah I used to go to normal places. People could see different socks on with my normal and therefore wouldn't even be next to me so I was like shoot myself from the for. I do wear a suit always rag. Ralph ran it will say. Yeah Yourself. I'm yes that's great but in reality is that you have to fit your surroundings. You go for job interview to wear a suit things you have to do to go into a papa that talking about politics. This isn't a time. We need to preach love attraction. Bullshit have fun with them. Speak ABOUT FOOTBALL. Speak About speaking about like just normal shit that they can connect with even though you knew you not the same Lasso. Just connect on football and then you realize how the communication that conversation was amazing and other needs a teach them and Hilda. I don't need to preach my bollocks just have a conversation about did you see whatever down the road and then many feel good and I like me. You learned to teach lessons and talk to. Who Doesn't and spatial? I'm trying to go out the house. Limit the knowledge knowing that these people don't know and you'll attract people that WANNA listen. Sunnyvale realize I can absorb people's negative energy and he's Okay Nazi you go to the next stage. Speaking from my experience knowing that people will say journey. I'm just saying way what we probably going to go. Because it's the same journey of Connor need isolation isolationism important because you need to have people around you telling you ship because it's interfering with your ship. Best say go certain exists. Take Your Mad. Snow goes to exist and meds just temporarily solutions to isolate yourself but yeah Threes is played myself yet. No I think I think my my isolation is definitely just been pot of of head to be at home this time to learn everything of wives if I'm out and about it it's not continuous enough and I couldn't have embedded such strong routine through repetition without the time to do that and I you know I definitely realized in you saying that that it is my issue. It's not that I'm worried about everyone else. It's my own issue that I'm projecting saying that I'm going to worry about the conversations but it's more about going to be able to handle me now so it's not it's my issue. It's not it's not. I'm not stressing. About what whatever they're going to say it's stress about what they're gonNA say about what I have to say if I if I have a different opinion that I didn't use through something like that. That maybe everyone strongly agreed on the next minute on of the opposite now or whatever but it's it's without any of that. I'm never going to learn if I'm in my house forever them without any challenges or experiences like that. I'm just GONNA sit there and keep gaining knowledge in isolation I'M NOT GONNA actually like without all the negative experiences that's how I learn and grow so I thought I'd have to point out there and spread my message in and like you said you can have genuine nice conversations that on about that topic for shore and it's just finding that. I guess what it is since I've recently had this. All you want to do is help. And so the instinct to help is to quickly. Just tell it on. You love what they should do. Because in your head. You're like if you do this step by step you'll sway like just listen to me place. Just stop what you're doing. Alright list all like move in for the next month and we're just going to remodel you know like that's that's all great to to to want to do that but they don't necessarily want it. It's just it's finding that balance just quick on each go for the toilet have joined Mischa. So how long have you have you go ahead an hour and it's been true so can you? Can you continue to cook? Labor probably differ five more minutes buddy. I've got a tonight time. He is so I've got to get to bed early and is now an Emoji. Another one at a carry on right. Quick deploy quickly Instagram is at railway dot bell but it's H. Hi and all my youtube links on there. And facebook can love the probe to Gallagher Institute and thanks for having me back and enjoy the full moon tonight now the all around your planetary stuff while what we'll say is right. It went on for another hour. This extra hour will have. It's not wasted. Let you go to bed thinking about stuff so I've realized that Y- almost like when you get into GM when you push for the that's been you get results you planned on. Our extra hour has been said the most valuable for people who So how could we'd like you know when you can like take it where it's like stocks to really take off? I was like thinking about it when I saw that had been overrun arrows. I really got into it off now by the looks of like what? I can remember what we've just been talking. Yeah definitely will do another one official right under. Stop this and I'm going to take a bar and then I'm going to have to be that way.
#76 | Understanding why you are different & don't fit in is a blessing not a curse | Hayley Ondonovan
"Right something in life. Which is I long. Growing up as to be confident. When I was younger I feel so nervous. Even just who put my hand up in class question. My heart used to pound right and back then anxiety and depression wasn't very common. It wasn't spoken about so it was just a heart was pounding. Espn and not realize that probably everyone else also had that same issue the heart pounding but you hit a heartbeat. So you don't. They're feeling it but I had to face rejection from people and goes and clubs and stuff to overcome my fear to confidence and I'll have to like rocket fuel through all the things that gave me anxiety. Depression depression anxiety made my heart pound until I became so confident where I could just do anything anything and not get nervous to the port mileage. She can walk instead stage for the millions and speak whereas before I can go up to one go and club and speaks them because my heart would pow then. I taught myself out of that and I spend more time my ads thinking all every four and against something other than just doing it so confident that something. I believe you can learn but you need a guide. You need a mental. You can't just become confident because you want to be confident you need to have somebody following or somebody putting you through and it's not as easy to just be confident today. The I completely agree and when I was in school I had similar story to you. I always find myself off the last one in the class to do anything. Always terrified of rejection terrified. Nobody had liked me terrified that what I was going to the next thing. I was going to say he was going to be wrong. I don't know if you know while I'm sure you know. Not Call Tony Robbins. Tony Robbins as as and listening to him for. Maybe the past four years now actually has a particular video on stock confident. And since I gets into that video just makes you show ICAN. Change your mind in a split second. Can you see me? I'm sorry can't do this onto nervous kick. Don't get see. This is what happens. You're always afraid that when you see that wasn't that thing you're GonNa say is wrong or that. It doesn't make any sense. Don't think about your thoughts to speak them off my speaking about Tony Robbins. And you're listening to him and how he made you realize that. Confidence is unstoppable. Yes confidences on stuff that I've always gone to phase in my life where you know. I could have a state for six months. Where my uncle? My confidence is on stop. I feel like I can take over the world and then I go through phases where I feel like Oh my God. I'm afraid to even speak and a group of like personally. I'm a one than I am. And a group of canoed. It landed person one on one but in a group. I am afraid to say anything but I do think a lot of it is going to do with the generation that Iran these days because it's so mental. Is there especially I? I know instagram. Social Media. A lot of that has a lot to do that. But you're just so afraid of your own opinion because you're just constantly getting George on. I think it's just the world we live in the moment. Yes I've never been a group growing up. I've never had great friends being invited to parties up into one party. My life asks invite myself so even a joke right so I've not been invited. Part is I've never been up groups. I've always been an individual person doing what I want and had individual friends of was like I had seven individual friends who had so one on one. I've never been somebody. He's had two friends that do things with is always one friend won't say friends whereas most people are now that groups you know alleged friends as just a load of groups and make a festival. Was It get club in? They go out house policies barbecues. I never had any of that and if I did I myself and won't be there anyway so so just imagine that you have seven people that will different energy the the stronger. The energy leads the pack and the rest follow baseball too strong. You're too strong for even the leader of the pack. So even he does intimidated by you so I was somebody who saw groups of friends who had leader who they followed. I was friends with leader but then he felt intimidated by me one on one and when he was with his peers he was used to tighten pass out made like everyone else did because he wanted didn't want to show to the to the people following him that he was. He likes me right. Answer really that comes down to you know. I'm a threat to the pack. Anarchy flea take over your people and you don't WanNa be seeing dealing with me because you need them to be against me so you can have the power in the pack comes down to like tribes and Governments Empower Power. At school is no different. It's just the leader of a pack and then a leader of another pack. It's like a big elephant comes across another pack of elephants the big elephant of the other pack who was threatened by the other elephant. And it's just fair of somebody taking over so when I was at school would never part of a group of people one on one. I was always like hey with them. When they were friends they would always come friends and that was free college as you school. It was just the same story every time where I was friends who've believed but when he was with his people he was against me. 'cause you don't WanNA show that weakness and too strong fit into any pack because you basically everyone if you're in between you're the leader of the pack and as always different groups. May I was never of any pack? You for example might not fit it in because you never thought of any pat because you're too strong for even the leaders of the pats you go down the pub was groups of friends if you in it means you're not the head of PAC means you're too strong for all of them because you shouldn't be there you should be creating another pack and often that pack doesn't exist because if he did exist you ought to be attracting it which reject the create based your vibe with your tribe and type of thing that is very true and I think it's very important that you choose the people around you wisely. I know like you said you don't want to be friends with people for the sake of being friends with people if they're not your energy and I do completely agree with that but I also do paints that the universe has a funny way of bringing people together and I know when I was in school I had. I was like you one or two individual friends and that was radio. I never really had anybody else on. It was only until I came to Australia that I find a group of friends. But you don't go looking for them it never happens. The universe is phony and sometimes it brings people together. Nothing the moment. I have a big group of girlfriends that I never had before in my life sometime. I've always wanted with just something. I never thought fish fishing into before and honestly like their Tan big energies. I'M NOT GONNA lie out big big big personalities. I'm big energy. Some of them bigger to mind. Some of them not doesn't mean for the first time I always felt the same as you. I always have to have somebody in the group trying to be that eater. That's necessary not necessarily always the way because I know in my situation on my group of friends I know we all have We are on the same level. We all have great energies. We all vibe wage other we all want to be best reach other and push each other to do the best so in life not not. Everybody is always against you. You know because we are young we are. We are talking about our life up until where we are now right which is in our twenties so you look back at like the last fifteen years. That's always been school and school is when you cook loads of random people in one place because they were they live conveniently in the same village right but the energies of just throwing in in a fruit salad with some some chocolate. Some some lentils. Kfc's need odorant sounds of you on this planet for eight years. At least right you realize that that's twenty years. That's another one one one fifth of my whole life. I've got four fifths left which means this many people out that the GonNa come across a meet. He like me so for one twenty. Three life you've got to be people want like he but that makes you love for the four fifths of your life that you want to be around people who are like you and you wouldn't have known that unless you spent your time around people you weren't like you really. That's just like a group of elephants and agree put Buffalo Lion or realizing one field that he's got trunk and I've got a patch and go over there with the lions and he's realizing yeah are a trunk and you have come over here with me. It's just you'll you'll realize that I needed to be there with them because they know me. Now there's lines with the lions. Let's elephants with the elephants growing up. Organic Migrate Together Because They Migrate. Then that the sun will kill them all or there'll be a storm or they'll be no food so we they just back to the same river and then they find that pack. 'cause right now they just focus on the food or the die having a pack. If food slips we go Margaret together and then use of the Pelicans Penguins Eddie ostriches. They're the dogs and then the dolphins and then you find your pack and I had no friends growing up at all. No me no one. Not One person I honestly I honestly was the exact same and I think it makes you do find somebody that you have a good connection whether French or is on the same level twin saying that he say and I think it was just makes that so much more passionate and makes you appreciate that friends so much more in your life rather than just being friends with people for the sake of being friends at somebody like I am so protective of my energy like I can just fee. I just feel good. Five people are bad wives out people and usually my first and my first initial opinion is usually always right. Am I stick with it and I go with goal? And if something's not right it's because it's not right if it doesn't feel like so I know like I would have probably if somebody wants to be my friend a couple of years ago I would just latched onto them because nobody else wants to be my friend. So I would've tried to find anything into where to relate to them just so they would stay in my friends but then after time he realized that there's seven billion people in the world and you will find people that you have not to on such a stronger level but you can't necessarily leaves them old friends behind his loud because they were there for you in a time. I need so you can't before more superior than the populated by trip also. I've realized that even though they may have been there for you say ten fifteen years ago you go understand if you stay behind. Are they going to pull you back as people always have problems and they always talk about and you can be there? But that's their life. They don't address their issues. They just have appropriate off the pope the month. The problem. Yeah. How many times can you be there for somebody until they give you that problem? And that's when you have to make an executive decision. Which is I've been there for that person. I am not going to feel guilty if I say goodbye to them because I did my best and I'm realizing sometimes if you can't heal the whole just shoot and put it down sadly if he's running race and he's broken its leg. You shoot out pain. You can't just keep giving steroids because it's going to end up killing itself inside anyway because we have to do but yet to try your best him walk and look after and give you medicine before you decided to put it down so letting go of old friends. After you've been there for the maybe nephew. Life is a massive journey. I'm not GonNa do something because like twenty years ago. Ecologist do something in future basis. I mean he said in the past is just as nonsense just like how many best friends at school and Primary School children will be friends forever savings at that moment based on how it fills it doesn't afflict reflect the future so yeah I say goodbye to all my friends. He only ever saw growing up in the mall for seven years. Am I found with that? Yes because they were you have in our life plant stem cell life river. Nothing in life stays river swatted friends. You have friends at that time. Simpson saying to people if you want to grow because you caught me forty if it'd been pulled back and that's just the sad truth that most people are problems unless they deal with them. They're not going to do with them. And see you make. I'm going to be around cancerous. People on up bad thing is just a smart decision. Yes it is a smart decision on your definitely right. And what you're saying. I think to an extent Would IDEALS PAINT DASH? You can have the best job whereas you don't need to be on top of that person's life twenty four seven and you know. See them every single week for the rest of your life that you consider keep in touch and see but I do. I think to compete. He call courts ties. Somebody just because you have a new life now in a different mindset. Don't know if I really agree with that. Oh no no. It's not about every time you see somebody they need to make you feel good. They need to make you feel valued in that. You have a purpose or taking efforts to go and see them if every time you see them. You're not getting anything out of it. Feel good you don't WanNa see them again. Then you've got a K. Why do I don't want to see this person? So it's not you cut ties because you become an enlightened being. It's when I see these people do they make me feel good at. Do I feel as good as I felt for. I sold them and do I feel better if you feel the same as you said you can go back in the past and CEO friends even though you completely different people if your energy and how you feel stays the same you could speak about just Zorn's hy TV or how your dog shot himself and stuff like that. You're a neutral level. But if they start speaking about their issues in the problems and it goes down to the energy then. That's not good for you but yet they didn't talk. It's just because you become an awoke. Delete being but if when you see these people they don't make you feel as good as you felt before you met them but as a choice do I choose to fill shitty or not. Then you choose to not see them again but if it's neutral and you to speak about you know dogs in nature and what you saw net flex that is okay. That's just a nice conversation but the minute it doesn't make you feel good. Then you need to cut ties because then it starts affect you and how you feel. Yes yeah clarified. You've definitely clarified. That me a lot more sense no I yes even like right now I would be same. I would feel I would probably be close ties with anybody. That is a brand new. That doesn't make me feel good and I don't care if I know your sister's MOMS onto zone goes. I think that it's very important. Because life is all about being Hockley on being made feel good. And if something or someone doesn't make you feel good. Then I think you need to get rid of it straightaway. Even if you no reason why and something is talent you. You need to leave at. Don't waste your time with that person. Don't have the bat conversations if they WANNA have have a negative conversation what you note. I'm just promise yourself that you're not gonNa do it again. And just was saying like gut feeling and feeling should be the priority over your brain and your thoughts. Thoughts a made up of Manny. Manny Manny Manny factors right and it can easily influence the GOP because you've got feeling versus your force and you're trying to make sense of it before you trust it and as many factors that interfere with a outcome gut feeling is your energy vibration like a massive a massive frequency like walkie talkie that submitting. I enter the universe. Latching onto that thing but you'll thinking about and if it feels right it's already gone out and giving you the answers whereas your brand will try and make sense of it and often. It can't so if you're feeling gives you a feeling you feeling for example. Trust it over your thoughts because every single time I've tried this and I've gone with grain voice rather than gut feeling it comes down to widen new. Should have done what he's got so we'll that says is that feeling got feeling is right every single time. If you just trust and go with that I know that my thoughts into my God who? I think that it's got feeling really. It's my thoughts interfering with that. It's a feel like you need to differentiate it's just going with the it's like do. I just leave the house and drive or do I in my mind have a direct sure ongoing and then I will. Now your gut feeling is influenced by your thought. So now it's not a pure flow is like it's guided in. Some form is always riot. Always go is always. Why never ever tell you something more to? I don't know what my goal has ever been wrong. I don't know when anyone has ever been around. Do you think the whereas that some people have stronger feelings and other people or do you think that some people are just afraid. I have the fear of Goldman feed and get the results that they want took. Everyone has a feeling everyone has a feeling that feels good or that doesn't feel good. Do you know when you know the nervous feeling verse is amazing like you know the feeling of love versus Anxiety right but the more in tune. Somebody's to themselves. Some more confidence they have the more they meditate the more they have on that questions more happy. They are the high vibration and the high vibration. The guard that gut feeling is because now you have an amplified antenna. Everyone's got the antenna but the more happy you are the high the vibration. You are the more positive energy can go out into the universe. Things can project things on a higher frequency than a lower frequency. It's just the way as the higher energy you are the more happy you are. The stronger feeling is because you project hit more and you can also have a track to easier has for. You may fill things before others. Do you walk into a room and you can feed some speaking about you use. Feel it because you pick up thoughts because you have a high amplified energy antenna and find. Even you've got go feed before kings. Even happened could be days. Weeks is just something you're feed into. Something is not right. It's great like it is crazy. Feeling crazy so. Let's say that you're planning to go to the pub on Assad in three weeks time and loads of your friends and people in school where the oath thinking about going at the same time universe is saying right. There's energy vibrations being focused here and your energies are focused here. Your energy is not the same as their energy. So it's like there's an energy interference. It's not matching squares on going into circles whereas you need to be going into square of your square so the university saying we're trying to like put these two squished together. But they no which means that's a circle when you're square. Don't match in the universe saying where your mind is. The energy isn't the same. So that's you'll that's what you trust. You'll go and like like it's just icing. Travel Hof and outs casino. Walk head and then. Lee Away because it didn't feel right and then men have just gone in that of London. A pound on zero three spins one hundred pounds of Let. I've always trusted my God. He doesn't feel right because from experience. If I I said to myself why didn't I trust my God and so if I knowed trust my God I'm going to end up saying what did not trust a trust your gut and then there's no mistakes being made twice in make a mistake twice in my life. I know you don't make mistakes once in your life. Yeah even like a lot other people like myself they'd Carpet and drink in which there is unlike left. You end up to an extent as loud but it's more for social reasons but anyways and I have had many nights over here where I everybody's going on I don't WanNa be a Michael as many. Don't go at center pajamas. Do you need to do on a go on. I end up to our later and I'm like why did you go? Why did you as your time? Why didn't you just trust your ago? Do you know feels right because I didn't want I didn't WanNa feel left. I think that's you know that's the joys of being twenty two and I'm still learning growing and you know find myself in this world picked grenade I really want and who I really am. And it's all just a learning process but I do think that I have. I made a decision about three or four months ago and I said to myself if you don't WanNa do somethin' never ever do it to plead anybody else or kinked you're gonNa make yourself feel good if you feel like not doing it and you're telling you not to do just don't do it and it never wrong never ever ever around. Yeah people know me for just doing what I want like a nice to work a restaurant could non dies right plan. Coppola restaurant in the country right. You have everyone else. They're sixteen seventeen. Eighteen years old is just their first part. Time job and I got my first part time work myself. Twenty-three because when I was enlighten shut my business stop chasing money and start and again so I was shoved aim. We've read a fucking sixteen and seventeen year old people. We have fucking idea like waving. A fucking condom is right and so I got. I just did what I wanted even manages couldn't manage made they just let me do it because I just did what I wanted to do. And it wasn't that was causing any problems. I was actually doing things. The managers shifts do run better because I just took the lead and did help the managers because I could manage better than all of them. I just wasn't going to be a natural manager because of all this shit you have to do with with the Shitty cost the money that you get so yeah. I've always been somebody. Just Doug goes off and does it like if. I realized that people say I'll just go off and do my thing all of the nicest gone off somewhere. I just do a one and state. You'll go says don't do that again. I jeez a not an alignment with the energies. Where you are. You're focused on. But at the same time you know for example consciously that goals you met last time on your type of goes you know that. They're just not the same as their bitchy. They're going to have things in common. And so that's also your mind saying what you don't go out because you know you're going to have any income with them like you just you're not and you go out and you realize what the fuck it. I bought it because I knew I wasn't gonNA HAVE ANYTHING IN COMMON WITH THEM. So it's the instinct of when you haven't even met these people you'll got saying don't because you're not the same but if you've met them for example you've already made assumptions and a large than judge them on my like these people or not. It's just natural thing to try and find similarities. And he would have done that if you've only known the momentum and that's also your your brain is well as your got saying no. You're not the same as them. Like when you're at school and you had a funny feeling about some goes you knew that you have the same. And then he went out and then you realize wanted a now five years later. The aim is not to make the same mistake twice. You can't make the same mistake twice if if anybody how to evolve overnight actually within a few weeks whenever don't make a mistake twice ever again if you put your Te- on your on your bio bedside and you wake up during the night and knock over. Never put your T. By your bedside if you feel up on the floor and you tread on. Eh. And he broke the screen never laptop on the floor. If you for example go out and you wish you had a new got said. Why did you do it? Never ever go against took out again. People Kinda vote pretty quick. I vote very quickly by. Don't make the same mistake twice if I never let people money ever again based on one experience of when someone didn't give me back and I'll do the same mistake twice. I put my coat on my door and shut the door and it broke the ZIP. I chained doors and simple because I don't make the same mistake twice and it's easy set the dumbest fucking simple. Don't do the same mistake twice if you put too much so enough spaghetti bolognaise and it doesn't taste very good dog but the Monica next time would you says fucking simple but it's a brain thing where you get used to going against yourself then punishing yourself will going with your feeling and warding yourself. Sorry you just broke up over there. I'm just catching up with you. And Yeah no I think. Definitely not making the same mistake twice as easier said than done but I think you also need to be very in tune with your mind your toss before you can do that because some people might make mistakes themselves. Oh not making the steak not do that again. And then forget at that. They told themselves that. Joe Go make the same mistake again. So I think to do that. You have to be very where I'm very very interior for toss switched on and to be able to stick to your word. A fine example is where nice to go clubbing with people and they get drunk and they say oh. I'm not drinking again or I'M GONNA stop drinking for a month and then the next week the next day they're doing it again so I realized that the reason why it's easier said than done to the same mistake twice for me because I've always been somebody. He just does what the Fuck I want. Not at CAC about you anything else. Who's easy for me to be like a mock gun club and again drink and again because they rely anyway so lost anything but for somebody who is in between and has groups of friends and and they go out and they get drunk and you feel shitty. You feel shitty and alcoholics. You feel shitty. You've got a choice to see a friend. Who makes you feel Shitty or not? That's your choice. What happens is the social pressures ended up taking control of you where they come out. And then they're they're drinking and smoking and then you drink and you smoke because if you feel the one out and they see that you're not drinking screens they know you're not the same which means that ought to be around people who are the same as the so. It's this battle between do want go alone and go right. Go left with the pack. You can't go right left right left. You can't evolves human being or been sucked back to the pattern. You're trying to escape from if you feel shitty off to you know you drink and you say to yourself. I don't drink again. Don't drink again and the reason why you probably will drink is because you dragged into a social situation the pressure whereas people will respect you if you save for example. I'm not drinking but I'm coming out to not try and influence even say that last time but the minute you put your foot down and say no. They won't give they won't give in like copy outside of the smoking area. Pb Say don't have the puff namic go gone on non McKay go and have one. No people know that if you say something you say again you probably GonNa Change your mind. It's just the ticks like go and do all gone. Then you feel the pressure but if if after three times you still stay no they start to fool up there annoying and they are nagging you if they ask you again and when you growing up you don't WanNa be clauses annoying. I was the most annoying. Fuck anyone evernote so annoying you say fucking annoying. That's odors the knowing because I used to go on and on and on so people aren't going to ask you to drink or smoke more than three times. Because if he do you say to them. Stop being a fucking annoying people don't be classed as annoying when they want to be cool so you have to say what no three times. And they realize you're strong and he wouldn't bother no one's GonNa try and acts down. A tree is not going to fool. You axed down. A tree has weakness so it falls so taught long story short. It's easier said than done since not make a mistake twice but if you hold your ground because you remember why you said. I'm going to make that mistake drink again. Hold DOT ground. They will respect you. They don't respect. You invite you next time because you're not drinking. They wouldn't have your friend in the first place you don't be around people who want to be Ranji because you're drinking. It's just fucking nonsense. Yeah I think so too but I also do think that if you can find a healthy balance in the middle of them more not like I know not only. It's not necessarily going on but the people that I'm around. I think it's just more on a person who likes to get your I like getting a for sunrises nature and just being to what my day and when with my job at the moment. I'm working six days a week for the last two years of somebody's my own day off so I some day. I like to go so mine and I'd like to have my cup of coffee and do whatever it is. I need to do in the morning and meditate on. I think when I go. It's not necessarily that. I'm not having a good time or don't having one or two social drinks. They think it's just not WANNA limit. I'm going after three or four hours and always being the first one home at eleven or twelve and still being able to get up the next day at a nine in the morning which I always do that and you my friends listening to actually. Actually but yeah. I think it's just if you can find a healthy balance in the middle would find for a long time. It was hard to find that balance for the first couple of months I felt like oh my gosh you know. Why am I different than everybody else? Why do I wanna go home on the youngest? And then you think to yourself which would. Actually this is just me. And if you don't love me for who I was the person will maybe amend the next morning I'll open a flying my other friend. We've also got an open area on Sunday mornings so when it is that it is more than just you know. Maybe it's not necessarily people around me that don't make me feel good. I can get just having a javelin on children the angel on the other. Yes it drinking wishes. Snakes NOT SPECIFICALLY DRINKING. It's just an example of if you say. I don't want to do something as a reason for that because he didn't make you feel good. Say Why would you again? I'm saying that the reason why people do things again is because of the pressure through somebody else job saying a manager saying can you do. Can you late tonight? And he said I'm not GonNa if you asked me again I'm GonNa say no because all I'm doing is working working. And so the the pressure of the marriage in your managers gave apostasy me a few weeks off twice assaulted because it was always know and they they couldn't there was no influence so they gave up. So yeah if you stand your ground you strength foundation and it's easy for other things in life to to to not make the same mistake twice because it's easier said than done because people who was given to the manager given the friends if you say oh come on stay out to twelve four hundred and eleven and you know last time when you were when you went to bed let you were tied the next day work for Shitty everything fucked up because you did stay an extra hour you can stand your ground and And the day flu feels good again. It doesn't it done. Yeah exactly I think he just. How a Standard Islamiya? No everybody standard life is different and I think if your standard is going at heart for three days in dot com beer on. What if your standard is you? Don't do all the things right life and got whatever that may be or whether like you said in work and say no. I'm not gonNA work. Today's and I think once you have that sounded you sound by your standard than people. Respect you more and people will listen to you and you say no and I think being able to say no is very important in this world always distinct Dave chappelle committing net flex and this person called him up and said Hey I'm going to UC wounded warriors in Afghanistan Just randomly Do you WanNa come with what you do. In and he said Nano interested most people will be like a wounded warriors. The pressure. Obviously if I don't do it you know. And he just went nine not doing it and they said fucking respect that because if you ask any other celebrity they jump here because they want to be seen as he's the pricky didn't go see the wounded warriors but dave powders went. I'm good and they said he respect the fuck out of him so saying no is people respect that people respect that about me. How be and they said the was. He's never known somebody so compassionate but so selfish like because if he wanted to go to it won't every you'd love them. It helped me to speak to each individual person and get to know each person if he wanted to and say you know it's all about having it's all about having discipline and control as long as was a black sheep black sheep at school if you were a black sheep. Put middle filled. You'd naturally gravitate was black sheep but what's happened is is that because of school which is a manmade system. You're you're black sheep. Nfl foot of white sheep and blue sheep and pink sheep. It's manmade. You should never been that the now you look at trying to with the same was my black and you'll I white and nine year to find understand why all my life was about me. Understanding why was was the different. While wasn't the same. I spent my life in my head. What can out why am I why am I so nice? And lovely girlfriend like looking at a gopher and why is he able to and he tried to understand everything right and then you realize mind has put me in this field for the white sheep in terms of universe which is energy. I would always attracted towards black sheep. You'd have always gravitated toward Australia. For example to be around your tribe and he would never have been put in Dublin with all these fucking ideas go and he's just understand why things they are you and then you don't feel lonely. You left out yet through different. You understand. It's knowledge is like why is it? When I put bleach my hair it goes blunt and then you realize because it's got rook side in now we're going to do and he's just knowing why it keeps going blonde sit just an pushed off electric powerful yet. I feel like there's so I don't understand why there's so many people out there and they just don't want to Non Ping there. They don't mind in just taken every day the combs and learn and whatever comes to them. Nobody like not nobody but a lot of people out there. They don't want to go look for information. They don't want to spend time watching videos and podcasts. To whatever it is there is a lot of people out there who who just don't want to learn so I know that you share many other people out. There were eager were our brains are constantly will expose. That's what makes the roof over. And that is that we're looking at it from our point of view I think that's good subjectively over objectively. We are thinking well. I'm eager for knowledge. Why isn't anyone else? The benefits of knowledge is amazing. Surely Tonight Bass objectively look at it from our point of view from that point of view. They don't know any different they just they get up. Go to work. Everyone's argue in this problems. Kids getting divorced. It's just that's all that they used to. It's not therefore it's just your black sheep used to black sheep is a Wolf East Wolfson. That's a plot needs to planet. Just we're not all the same rule. Human beings from different tribes like cows in Australia. Different the cows in America different cows in England. Like they're not gonNA look at them like you're like a with different because you can see that we are the same you black spoken on but when you get to know them you realize that they've been from gross like Spanish crosses different doing grass so we will human but we made up of different tribes and those people on haven't been exposed to knowledge and freedom and awareness. We have so it's easy to be like. Why don't you do that yourself your human book? We were human. But we made up of from biology's different energies when not the same. It's like the transition between an apron to a caveman to a human people in England would have done that process quicker than say China or Africa or Pakistan or India which just different evolutions of Man Like we're human because we want to legs and not four legs anymore that the when you assess it at the jungle could it be millions of years ago versus there's hundreds of thousands of years ago but we still look the same but we're not the same so we made up of different knowledge and energy wisdom gets passed down the longer the generation the the more wisdom that can be passed down whereas if if you've just got the jungle one worked to how to Catch Fish? Spigham then you're not going to really have much knowledge about to put it on a grill because you've very just fucking shit that that. That is very true and possible for a actually to turn into a one seek. You think that maybe something happens in. Somebody's life is situation or an event on it makes them change black she can inevitably to what black sheep can never turn to a white sheet because if you understand that in the universe the planet creating 'em they get bigger in mass right on the Gulf in in Space Right Earth is spinning is picking up more dust. Energy is only getting big grin mass. The Big Bang is where. There's too much energy. Attracting is just T- watching it. Blows up the black person with a lot of energy. The white sheep oldest energies black sheep never become white sheep once that and the G. is built up. Its MASTER CERTAIN FREQUENCIES NOT GONNA go down what's out Has picked up. All that does is just GONNA get bigger and bigger and bigger white sheep. Come become black shape. What she presented Molten Rock that spewed out into the earth like stars and he can pick up lows of dust and get bigger and bigger and bigger and raise its magnetic vibration and become a black sheep which is the person with Higher Energy Haya wisdom but a black she wants his at that level of consciousness highest vibration can never go down to white. Sheep is like an oak tree can not descend me get smaller but a small tiny oak pin get as big as that. Bigotry Oak Tree. You know mean yet no I. I understand what you're saying completely and could always. I've always questioned myself if you know if somebody was just born way as possible for a white sheet to turn into Zaki and because I don't know it's all about it's all about what happens to your at Your Life for you too pretty to change to take for you to change your mind. Want to change. Some people are happy and comfortable. And that's okay because at the end of the day life is always the back in hockey so they don't want to read books or they don't learn about what's going on in the world if they're doing what they're doing that like he underneath and be watching. That's the thing right. Learning to forgive is the secret to healing trauma of why you are different because forgiving giving is understanding. Why you hate them in the first place which is why you be means any wine. Invite me to the party. Why are you picking me last in Sport Group? You see as a as as a bad thing but it's not a bad thing they don't do the same as you. That's bad or good things. Just as I said cows will hang around cows goats hanging around goats an Algebra hanging around our. It's just the way is you you you need to be symmetrical with things like when you find a husband or whatever. He's probably going to be asking looking as you. Because you don't want to be with Maggie person but ugliest subjective to what you'll use to if you look ugly people to us. There was married person but to then be open looking. Not just you'll good look in but for example to me. Look you're looking because I'm GONNA kin. But that's just because we say that we have the same like symmetrical genes. So it's not that you're looking or ugly and ugly persons Gulick inaugural. That'd be person. It's just we go through what we used to you your brother and assist the cousins. Your Mom Your Dad your grandfather or look a certain way the good looking gene so you go for the same jeans no people ugly people fake teeth coming out their mouth from greasy hair and like one what they used to with a family like that. That's not good or bad. It's just you go through the same and so when you forgive. We reasons why people didn't treat you the way you wanted to be treated. You understand. It's because you will never that black sheep you you never the white sheep. That's not good or bad. It's just you're unfortunately put in a school with white sheet but you could have easily be pushing for the black sheep and it's just the way like you know if your parents lived in a different town then you have gone to another school and could stay. Well they what was meant to live in that town so it goes back to a cable. Everything happens to reason and then it starts. I don't think I I don't think it's unfortunate. I thought maybe it was put in school while she for vice versa. I think on from the situation than you figure out that maybe you are different and you don't paint like everybody else or you don't want the same things everybody else. I think if you're pointing to a school that she all the exact same Than you think. You're any different than you would never understand yourself or you're never questioned why you're thinking you're thinking so. I don't think it's an unfortunate thing. I definitely think that it's a great thing. I don't think I would be who I am today if I didn't go to. I went turn skill. I know for you. You've big part of your journey was skewed. You had a tough time. Your turned out the exact same if you had a completely different experience maybe maybe yeah I think my the Dan and I went to parties and I was like everybody else and had friendship. Groups would just get a girlfriend a mortgage job and go to jail afterwards and meet friends the weekend like probably because that's all that's all. I would know my sister. She is the opposite to me. She is that she is that group like she she just just fit it in but she was a leader of the pack so she was the one that everyone followed and admired because of our confidence so he was the opposite to me. I basically I did a video in this white sheet versus black sheep versus Shep. I didn't fit in the white sheep with followers but the shepherd is the one leading the sheep. My sister was the shepherd she led. The group she was the one people looked up to and and there were confident and made decisions for the holidays and parties and stuff but she was part of a group who has may. I just didn't fit in so I was the black sheep but she was the shepherd and so to do with. Do you lead the tribe or are you just too strong for the tribe is like you? People are traveling to get to bodyguard. Who Stralia to find their tribe because they realized that they didn't really have that tried. But then if you were automatically put into a tribe at school where you are the same then you wouldn't know any different. So it's all circumstantial based on what you what you know what you are exposed. What doesn't make sense like if you know not the world and it's not matching this world you have to go towards and find whereas if you haven't got any other thoughts different than just going to accept that so deeply if that like drive comes from your thoughts not matching up with your environment and then you just going to johnny to match up like different why you know and then you match up and then you find peace. That's why it's important to give the past because you hate them a moment because they weren't picking you for the team but then you understand why and the reason is because you are a gift. You are a blessing and you never in 'cause you maybe you too good for the team. That's not a bad thing is a bad thing because they didn't pick you but it's a good thing because you're good and they feel threatened by you. That's a good thing in terms of the whole fucking eight years left on the planet. That's five bomb. Life you seventy five years left. That's a great thing I think. That's I think that's really nice way of explaining underrating. Nice way of thinking about on just clarify a lot of things. Do you think in your life. Do you think that it would ever bother you? Would you like to find it or do you think you're happy to stay on your own forever? You just hoppy to always communicate with people from all around the world or my pack is finding woke people and people awakening because everyone who's awakening eventually hopefully becomes woke see caught roller. Anyone who's is awakening because they're going to be white and I'm work and always use so. It's not auto a part of the pack. Let's just says because it's the journey of awakening to awoke or no journey at all. If you've turned right you're not going left if you're right with the same pack for the same tribe and he guy left then we're not so. I know that my tribe is spread all around the world. There's no tribe where I live like to London. Yeah people know certain stuff but they didn't know the level of stuff I know and the level of stuff that people around the world know versus what people know in London. It doesn't compare it doesn't so that is my pack. I'm not going to have physical pack where I go for Barbecue in England. I'm not places in in life. Where for example you go to like a barley fool moon party for example or a Iowa event in Australia where I can barbeque with them for three weeks so that will be lot. My quivalent said having a party on the weekend with some friends it. Just it'll be off the plane and travel for most to around him question and I would ever think about going to burn amount to connect with people who are running from all around the world. Have you been before so when I was younger it was worked myself and OS was making hang on? It's fucking awesome votes Hayes. When I was younger everyone went traveling and I decided to set up a business because I thought of all more is now. It's going to be a millionaire when a millionaire. I could travel one woman whereas if I go traveling now for five years I'll never gonNA want to return a we're GONNA have a chance to make a business and I'm just GonNa have to get a job and I call go traveling anyway so I decided to you know when everyone else is traveling are making business and then when of money that I can traveling that you answer. I want to spend my life traveling. The world doing speaking events getting paid for them as I travel. That's the dream travelling to all these amazing countries meeting amazing people healing awakening people spending. Tommy people on the same vibe. There's nothing that's like as nothing yet. Money Yeah I know. I'm actually just bring up the money situation I remember it was just sincere. Podcast days ago on. I know you're talking about. I know it's a bit of a change of subject your Having a conversation Beige. Has You know. Say for example. The lady wants to get pregnant. She tried really hired her and She ended up to go for. Ibs and it just doesn't happen soon as she stops thinking about it as you say folks like a fourteen suddenly a happen on. I'm just curious what your mind that you're saying that for years and years and years you knew you were going to give me in that. I believe you're going to be a millionaire other also and do you think because you've thought of it so much that you tried so hard that if you just let it happened to does that make sense and I'm trying to say absolutely it's the same. It's trying to get pregnant. I wanted to be millionaire so fucking much so I could go back to school and say fuck you my Ferrari that I wanted it so bad for the wrong reasons. That's why I said you have to give off when I go up to say a school reunion. Just go up in a white van like is my mind says completely changed like it's about Fuck Yama millionaire. Look my rory you wish you my friend. It's not about that because it's just about that it's just isn't about that. Expect a different. It's the same thing that so bad that I was trying to force it to happen rather than happen naturally but then you could say who the journey. She said everything happens. You're men's beat school with the white sheep to realize you're different to then find your black sheep. It's like if we all energy and energy is about the balance of the Yang. So it's you attract to the opposite to balance yourself up like six people in pack and you'll the seventh one and you'll see the same energy as the other six. That is the balance. It's the is the seven like six and one equals seven and also seventies. It's the balance which means it was always meant to happen. So then was I was meant to force the million pounds. We could say people who learned that you let happen naturally end up getting air thirty four set down and until you learn not to force it. Does it happen? But then those you don't force it at all. Don't try so you need different. So yes is trying so hard to force you just give up and then it happened like a sorts to the energy balance. Yes you need to turn the universe but you need to try to make good decisions along the way and not be laid Keno. It's like not pushing it too hard. But not nothing Veda and it's just hoping that would be nice on. No one is going half in both just not having any Rauscher anytime then on. I know you are saying something that before that you know you're much born three years before down what you wear. So maybe that was. All in line is going. Maybe you have a major. When he thought we're GONNA make an absolute tree. I remember and I was analyzed the pasta right not anymore but I analyze things to learn and I realized when I force things that happen. I just end up digging myself. A big hole to get myself out of like a just four things happen. That should have happened. Like four somebody to book some things. I wanted them. They suggest to shut me up. And they council the minute before I forced it right and then I learned okay if I don't force things and allow them to happen naturally. It's almost like a lot some thing I think. Applauds and thing that comes back but doesn't that comes back that dozen. I'm still in the same position is like I didn't know when I when I got my part time job at nine days when I'd like myself like my parents. It was like a part time job. I didn't know what can do and I was three years. I didn't know what to do and I realized I can't just create a business because I want to be a millionaire. I don't work for company because I know I'm like Oh starts a thing and then realize he doesn't feel good and I'll stop it and it's a waste of time so I just did nothing as I said. Doing nothing is bad to nothing. Nothing in the right to nothing Fox sake is in the right direction than these than do something in the wrong direction if you have to do anyway and so. I just sat tight for three years. Didn't know what to do and then are just did nothing for so long. Why didn't force anything if US is? You know you know agenda. The block game. I looked to me is like Jenga if push that bricky didn't go easily. I didn't and I went to the other break post. It not a little bit of movement kept pushing it they go through and then one brick he pushed goes all the way through honor up half and that was me just pushing lots of different bricks the poured and then eventually I thought okay I wanna make by being me on. Do Not WanNa make unless I can be made off. Okay Ricky Jay Stevie It's like his. You know the officer example. It's just him being him but it's not him being him he's acting like he's being him and I was like who might be on. It's a creek documentary because a personality but most it's the same thing and then it work and then suddenly put costing came to my. That would be pushing the jungle block and they one threw I and yeah a party will become a millionaire through eventually down this path but the point is I didn't know how to get. There are just pushed them forcing it like I was dead until won't blocked just went through and then we all. Yes that's really really good way of trying. Actually I'm you know darned Brian and he is unbelievable. I'm actually having lost in their longtime when off his name. Something clicked with me. I remember when a couple years ago almost only been staten something. That's always stuck with me. I was watching. Tv My mom's at home and he didn't episodes compulsory audience know and he picked out a couple of people in the audience. And the so. I'm do you think you would you? Would you think you are lucky? Like do you center person and a conflict and said yes and a handful of them said no and a couple of days prior to that he south videos on opportunities along the way on the people who said that they're not looking never went from the opportunity to never drew ticket. They never took any of these. But the people who in south is lucky took off the opportunity and it's something for years and years at always stuck with me. People always ask me. You know you're just not the everything just always you know worry always looking. I always knew in my head that it was so much more than just look. It was always almost more than just locked item the opportunities and took the roads in the past. The People's and WanNa do or people were afraid to take so you have something he is. He is great any to start Washington against being a cable for medication. For twenty one dollars learning attraction powder mind. I was obsessed with Adam Brown. It was the if I was watching down Brown stuff before I came off the mets and And watch the universal attraction stuff but it was me getting into his mind self my control and been able to control people and I remember going out into town and doing magician stuff like he was doing. It was almost like he hypnotized. I was watching so much stuff. That election became him The point was that when I used to get club in is to hear him. Say My head what you'RE GONNA GO. You'RE GONNA ask for a number and you don't to Thursday if he hypnotize me to do it and I realize well if I'm listening to the hip nice of elements to speak to that go. I'm still doing anyway. So what does that say? It means. It's me best open myself from talking to the AGO. If I can just imagine you in my voice as an impractical jokers episodes telling you what to do. It's the same damn thing and then I heard Brown's voice for like months months. Mumps saying hey you going to do this. You're going to do that. You're GONNA walk in. I can now. I followed him and everything just worked so off. The knocking people go with their gut. 'cause it's the same thing But Yeah I remember the episode. You want about obsessive with as episodes all made sense rather than you know when he speaks in intro. He's like in life. We seem to think we are unlucky into. We realize it's all in our heads. I saw him teaching those people and understood what he was saying. Rather than the audience listening to him saying it subliminally being controlled by him. Now I was seeing it from his point of view rather than the audience point of view and lock is created by the person's belief that they are going to get. The uncle may want my dad's and holiday. He was going to Spain. The Milwaukee. Whatever and they'd be like pool competitions with competitions. He'd win all of them. He would always fluke flute could get in the market they say. How the fuck did you do that? You're so lucky and literally he just hits the Q. And just knows it's going to go in and it goes in and everyone else is trying to live a line up which was the best and just fucking it. Sir and four. Go in and not. How do you do that well? If is not lucky. Because it's bollocks and it's in our ads is just the belief that the outcome's going to happen lot when eight against the casino. I just knew I was GONNA win and I'll just per pound on zero and to see if we're just wait. Just wait just wait comes in. It's just there's no such thing as luck and then the guy next not quit. And he's losing and he's just is created not as she said. Donald said we choose based on what we believe. We are worthy of the things we. Oh yeah absolutely and something. That's funny because that's what thirteen. Fourteen years ago I was not and I had concluded clue the University of the world option. But he had something that struck me and people. Don't even remember what they were thinking are do when they ray your nine put on yet just something. That's always took me in ever since I've always stood on a really made sense to me in ever since so far it's worked so many opportunities and windows and doors open back. I put a neighbor managed to happen in life. What you have to let them happen after the going after. And just not take the boxy like you would have probably had parents who expose you to something along the lines of as well grandparent or friend or cousin. Auntie that basically said there's more to life than just that and so once you hear that as a child your brain is set differently. So you listen to Darren Brown you see things differently you know just watching this show is resonating with you and it sticks cigarette for years and years and years and you're like what did you mean by that. Lucky. Why is it that I'm always lucky? And my friends are not like an and you never understand that. He's just read your whole damn life like me and that the threats was just too many fucking thoughts of unanswered things and the medication suppressed my brain to stop the twitching but it was twitching. It was twitching because of the brain activity and so I needed to press on my thoughts. When I came off the meds I pray was free but yeah it always resonates if something and I believe that if you allow the child in a certain parents you allow the child just walk. And then they go with a child takes them and they oft often happy mother's they've got their child locker dungarees thing and the shelves go off and and and and it's exploring it's taken the lead is learning to lead and explore and like a dog sniffing and it's going was a boost is parents. You always tell the kids know is the same as having GONNA lead. It doesn't listen to you. Just is so used to being controlled and not thinking being inquisitive that he doesn't go off and then it doesn't listen to you whereas if you allow the doctor go another sniff and mealy comeback which is my dog it comes back to you the stomach about when you allow trotter to think and do even if is one years old. That's the mother say. Note that down. Come stop that down for that new mouth brain of a child who's always been told no and not being able to think can do versus the brain of a child where the mother's Justin and go off the other parents NYC I can walk all by so cute and then he foes over this law mothers not only baby is just fucking is going to get back up and keep doing stuff the brain of that kid he's used to thinking like a dog sniffing and Bain inquisitive doing versus the kids every time. I think I can't do it. Mum Says No. I'm on a lead as a dog. I CAN'T DO ANYTHING. I'm not going to bother that. Brain that mindset is default to thinking and and and thinking about more doing or not thinking at all so it's like working for a boss you think because you force a wasted because you have to do what he says. Entrepreneur is always thinking in creating and so yes me it was. My parents always said. No everything avid no. Now all of surprising come on a beach in do that other down over now. All of a tower it was one of my whole life was no can't do that. I was ever that moms that. Come here battle to get control over me. Which is what the money was about the always morons millionaires. Because I realized I had money I that control because I depend on anyone so that the money was about. I could have control of myself. Wouldn't need anybody because everyone's dependent on people and banks and everything for everyone but looking back. Now it's not the money that I want Ted. It was to control over me with doesn't require which is probably again looking looking. That was another reason that you wanted to be rich. Further reasons I will maybe another reason. Why the universe hasn't David before night? Yeah so true. Because it wasn't money that was supposed to have. It was just being me being free when when you are free. People naturally gravitate towards. They see confidence. There's people who think you're an arrogant prick. You feel confident and it is. People who are like admire. Confidence is the opposite and the people who admire at WanNa be confident and the ones you can prick are weak people. So and that's okay. That's fine right and so was nothing problematic with being too confident. Because you attracting many people who want to be confident as you are attracting as many people who think brick is just you choose to react to the negative or positive Yes I agree but you also think that there. There are many confident. People at their confidence is an amazing paying for anybody to however learn but I think there are coffee people there there has to be somewhere along the line if may cookie is where area for me. Confidences is just like knowing and and and you know that person knows and occasionally that will say because you know that. They're not cocky reinforcing as a way to this is how it should be. You should be confident is a good thing. It's almost like leading an example showing you the life you could have like if you want this car work hard school. Do you want to be confident? Then be like means confident but then caucuses like with an actually confident and you know. They're not they're saying because they WANNA be at bats cocky but also somebody who also talk about themselves all the time and there's there's a middle ground somebody was speaks. How good they are is arrogant. They don't necessarily cocky because that they could be confident. And and cooking where? You're not really confident. You're preaching it whereas confidence as you know your what you say you are. You don't need to preach at so. There's Ashley is cocky arrogant and confidence that make sense three parts yet. No that definitely does make sense. I think it's just trying to trying to find. Everybody is good too and have confidence on. Its own if it's something you don't have. It's definitely something that you can learn to have. And I think people need to understand that I think a lot of people think that they are wired to not have confidence. They're just not that type of person they've never been the type of person who stands presentations or they've never been the person to lead the popular you need to realize that you can teach yourself one hundred percent confidence. I think surround yourself with the right people or maybe nobody at all and I think Keith. I'm with the right knowledge and books and videos and practice. I think he can definitely gain confidence on. It will get anybody far in life to thing. Confidence is a knowing it. You don't have to say anything so if somebody if you dress up really well and go into a a casino or walk into a town centre or rush on and you feel good. You look good. You're you're walking through your own. The place people will be like. She's so arrogant. Bastard Oregon. That's you just feeling powerful. Like how arrogance is like or cockiness. Somebody loves themselves by what they're saying with saying anything and they just walking. How the fuck is arrogant or cocky. It's confidence so again. Words are misinterpreted they are. They are seen as something when it's really know. And it's just how you feel like if you purposely walk in that restaurant thinking I'm better than either matinee. She that's an ego issue. But if you're just walking with confidence and and just feeling goods and your intention is you know the reaction gang. That's okay to walk through lock. You're in the place that's confidence and that's what I want people to be like like. I'm very confident. And people know I am through what I say but I don't see how am I know I'm great? And if you say autograph and say I know rather than when you look at see guts looking. Gal you'll say fit now. I'm no you really are now. I'm no. They won't that that we that we was me. I didn't need that reinforcement because I know so if I say is short GonNa go. Nobody really really are. I know yes but you really are not the same effect as she said a looking go. You really felt now. I'm not. She needs that so again. It's a different mindset of of confidence. It's like when I say like I'm good. It's you looking at me going. Wow He's so confident. How do I be like that Robin? He such confident arrogant prick. It's a want people to be as confident by empowering people say if me getting a bit stick about into our confident. Whatever means the. I've empowered you to fill as good as I do that Shit. That's my done because I can tell you. I literally can handle we ever Anna catastrophe and goad as well. Isn't it when you feel confident? Feel good but it's not just. It's not what you buy what you're saying it's about higher say body language tone of voice. It all comes down to things like that. You can be talking to channel the clear we talking today but if you it's all about yeah just like. I said Zonneveld Year just have I. Have you speak your body language? All of that it will find back your phone on on of the fixture. Sorry it's actually General K thirty percent. Oh that's cool so yeah Confidence is a high vibration. Just imagine the ourselves are supposed to be vibrating. Certain frequency about plans vibrates at the fight. Bright side just everything vibrates that right and confidence is when you body is in harmony with what it should be an and when you're not feeling confident you're feeling nervous which means your body's diseases disharmonies different vibration. So being confident is just feeling good. Which is how we should be feeding anyway like animals. They just feel the same every day. They don't know the difference between what's good or bad. It's just that just feeling that and we should be feeling VATU like if you didn't know what it was like feel sick then you just know that that's just feeling pringles. The day I felt so shit that I made myself sick. So now there's a difference between feeling and confidence is just being in harmony confidence. You just staying with gross their conference just being in harmony with how it makes you feel and tricky nor Eighty yeah it is. It's it's an state of mind though as well. You know it can be changed in a second. I don't know how much of Tony Robbins to. And he always as if you are going into something whether it's an interview or you just feel like Shit just coach your eyes or two seconds. Put your shoulder stock. Change your tone of voice. Pretend you're wearing imaginary case. Just change it in of seconds but it's very powerful. Having confidence is very very powerful on gets you. It gets you especially lots of cases in life. It's interesting says something about an hour going back like for example so I don't I don't admire many people right. Don't have many mentors and it's not that I feel I'm superior to people. It's not about that. It's about my own self belief right. It's mostly period than Tony Robbins proxy. You may Jesus fucking monk. Whatever it's not about that it's I'm such an individual and I always have been bats. I don't need people. I want people when all be with people but the need for something like for example like it's almost like I'm aware of something. I watched that umbrella. Watch BOB proctor. Watch Tony Robbins. Watch these people but they get to the next stage. Where some people that get fixated on certain characters and they never really evolved to the next step. I was fixated on these people in this order. Growing up it was Richard Branson not an Branson. It was the Evans. It was day. Barron Brown it was Russell brand and then it was trump. And now it's May and all these people tool a level of something that the other right so it's not I'm superior because I'm under any human being an anyone can essentially create my mindset because I'm just teaching the knowledge the Myself so we've I learned myself not G. and you can get to that stage Jewish. It's more the fact that I'm such an individual and I always have been in with anyone or anything that I don't I don't admire people are growing up. All my friends have like a picture of chauvel. Cohen will or somebody a hot chick. A Babe Babe station or some you know Angelina. Jolie Oh Nicole Ri- fast 'cause and my dad once you've never really fancied anyone any popstars and the answer is no because I always loved me and myself and always wanted to do. I wanted to do nothing else. Like fascinated me nothing. Nothing really. I didn't really give a shit about anything apart. From just me being me and being happy because it was such a twenty one year. Twenty one year about what to do it. I didn't have time to think about show. Cohen fucking fast calls parties. Because we're trying to work out. You know things that were important so I think it's just such I'm to individual Conradi here. Sorry I also gun actions just go and Reebok connection is just going bad. A Year Victoria out stopping the night fully. Thought coming through again. He's coming through now. I can hear you their love affair. Yes it's just the I'm too much of an individual thinker that I just don't fit in with anyone or anything. It's nothing to do with being superior don't have to do the EGO. It's just I as I said a Kuma myself arrest recipe a frog that no scientist is ever come across an icon out now. I just don't just don't fit with people I want to. That's ever wanted to do was be normal but I just I just Cobb but you don't have to fit any just to find somebody or people is actually for you. They don't necessarily need to fit in with them but if they just accept here fired differently than on listened to you. I think I know you were saying about you. Know you're not like you're in a you know you know you're not than anybody else but all of those people that you've visited at use they have tons to see somewhere along in your brain for all those people maybe voice. Maybe the plants would have never groom as much as they have absolutely. Yes so as I said is each person. Got Me to the next stepping stone Every single person is fixated on I was. I saw somebody. I wanted to be every single person I admired wanted to be them and until I was them or focused on them so I was there manabe. When's the next on? It was the dive and Brown. And then it was the Richard Branson. It was Russell brand and it was the only Evan and you can change your personality based on what your thoughts are and if you focus on somebody you can become them but you can also become yourself by imagining that voice in your head. Is Somebody else but really? It's you so if you want to be the best version of you were you go out and just say hi lovey closed or they from all look so good. Look at this class is like a love. Your arm bag have a good day that because if those like well that's not me because I'm not back positive but then when you do it you get reaction. The reaction goes admired that. And then you WANNA become more of that and you can create that just. Heidi down mindset of making people do things where it was me but it was down. But it's just the new inferring up. Which is the voice in my head. So it's not Darren it's just a frequency and you can pretty much be any person you want is iffy. It's character but it's not character issue a really fascinating. How like we look for these things and other people but it's actually us. Let me think about that. Actually just a few you unpacked like so many of the pieces scarred past couple of months and I feel like you just like help me bring the together on make sense in carry of all. That's exactly my i. That's good because I know sometimes I feel like there's so much going on in my head but my impression is sometimes. I find to hide the expressway going on up there. Because there's so much going on there and a half okay. I got to confidence stage that I am so sure that what I'm saying because of so open to all these ideas and I still open to everything but I've not like I don't have beliefs you know I feel like I'm trying to listen and understand all the different types of beliefs in the world and all of these different teary on trying to come together with my own until I do that. Then I'm not gonNA be able to speak with confidence and reassurance returns. Authorities will say is that force. Do Come to an end Dr. If you're thinking about the past than those thoughts weren't coming to an end thinking about future basis and come to an end but they're certain thoughts that once like put them to bed then you never need to think about them again and those are the folks you need to to focus on like to think about what happened within tomorrow night. I and well do you going to have a boyfriend. Tommy Twenty Six. Because you want kids by this age this age and you won't fucking cousin to say images fucking. Johnson's the same time thinking about we should set friend in your boss and if I'd done this also nonsense. She's brain exhibits. There's thoughts that once you think about them. You never need to think about them again. Like me I'm speaking about thought about seven years ago I think about the Shit Anymore. Right so thoughts do come to an end and what I can recommend. Is You get whiteboard? You get paper you write down all the questions that you still haven't got answers to and then one by one while then having all this energy and all these thoughts just only one go like a massive not in a brain you just go through the knots. One BY ONE. So you don't go. Food will be nuts and trying to do that and do that any easier. You go there and if it's hard to do this one is it's not how it works. Okay I love this. I had to go back to when I was child. Understand when each occurred and undo it because in that linked to that that brilliant experience led to that and that led to bat and the anger tobacco and then hit my sister and that leads to that and he went from Mitch not to not so they swipe people they never. They can't hill because they're GONNA go trying to heal going back from now. You can't you can't do that. You can't heal econ under the knots going back. You have to understand where that came from. Then go back to understand where that came from an understand where that you understanding where. The knots came from your undoing. As you go back and to you get to the first and then you undo that not because then that came from but not so you know how to undo that one because you came from by one whereas if you go back you don't know where that came from because I think just come from the last knock. It came from fucking not when you say six so right down your thoughts on piece of paper or the things that once you have to you have to put in order of when you first thought about them in order. So you're right when you six seven eight nine. Ten Eleven twelve up to twenty to categorize them all the thoughts that you for about twenty two order force new attorney one thousand nine hundred and seventy six and six for example when you a five k. Did she didn't smoke but she smelled smoke. That's because she spoke in smokes. So you have to put these answers. The beds and the need to go be honest with me. Did Ninety smoke did now. That makes sense because now grandad went back and he had a drinking problem and he make sense. You have to go back and then you put all like before. When he was six seventy six years old find answers to all those thoughts finances to all those sorts near seven eight nine ten eleven twelve thirteen because they'll linked when you were nine down. Brown thing is lot created or is it manmade. Which led you to thinking this and then that and all links essentially. You've gone down the Modem for but you should have gone down the m five so you have to go all the way back up go to the right and go dynamic. Four right Yeah that venue foods and then they don't have any force left that's high was forced you and trust me. They do were the they outage appear mentally because as the suny types of force as parcells. That's future thoughts. Bez The commentator Fort. Which is what we need to do now. Right to do this honey. Three last night. Okay and questions. There's as four types of force of five but let's say for for now push aside the pass to push the future countryside. The past pushes the future shot the commentator up focused on the questions what you put into a badge there with them. Put them in order. Go through them. Seven nine Ta twenty two naive. Those things aren't satirical Viagra gold. Why am I different? Whatever once you have the audiences you don't think about them and the ruling all these brain activity forever is linked now. You have your commentator board and then yet the pass in the future and then something the but could you can't control but through the force of wisdom you. You'd know that that you can't control the pass towards you passed on lots of thoughts teacher once you have the office to the thoughts which is why you control the past. Then you shut the past. Now you present a future and then you realize a the future sustained present and you're left with the commentator to ask every time something like grandma like Darren Brown my grandma spirit wherever just may just do it and now you start to do it. So there's new voice commentating there's no past has no future. And there's no announcer thoughts scenario in meditation. Peace of mind set. We just go and do it and you get that. But it's a certain you know. For example the father son and the Holy Spirit look at the look at the look at the look. How look at the the direction they're doing it it this present past into the future. Think about it for the son. Holy Spirit present past future. So what does that say? The father is the energy of the universe. The Sun is life. Which is our parents giving birth to US Father Son Holy Spirit and she should energy from being alive so you have to like go to the actual source I like questions and answers of energy correlation in getting your thoughts so on so you'll questions of why you are black sheep which is you know the fall of the universe on father son spirit. I fucked up. Let's go for a long time. Hang on father son and spirit. Yes so obviously. God is God. His father saw the same thing so he got within us. We have the power of God's father is the one above the sun is the one below in the Holy Spirit anyway so And then you go into the past you go to the father you got to the university energies walkout thoughts father son. You got to the past and then you sort of let go of the past because you learn from your own stuff from the fall of that coming down and your president and then you have to focus on the Holy Spirit meaning getting bigger and energy moving forwards and going into the feature but obviously should know is unknown. So don't you think about it so now you just president like the prayer hands is just like the present thing and To make sense no no. It doesn't make sense. I do think so. I think it's really what you're trying to say is. I think he's like you need to go on a journey before you got to this stage of being present riches and being enlightened. I'm just curious question John. Take you high long was your journey or GP like you're still on your journey or what's your idea. I've been on my journey for Twenty One. Years and about journey is feeling contented with nothing like questions on So the twenty one years ozone a journey I was in my head the twenty one years. They watch films. I've never read a book. I never read a book. I've type possible the ring star. Wars attention span was an off the five seconds I was thinking and then I've lost track of where they're talking about the rest of the film's ruined never in my life So zoos on this journey teaches at teaching and I was working out what she was saying rather than listening to her so twenty one years. Have I finished my journey? My Enlightenment Journey. I finished debt because I believe as I said once you have folks answered they really. It's just nothing. We're just like a plan which is tier and then we live in them. We die I have someone else by choice but as I said once. You've learned certain things. There's really not much else to learn. Jesus in the Bible once you take the fat teach the foundation of of life for example. There's not really much else to learn the computer not to make a car built a house. Yes but the foundations of like while are we here. Want you know you know you become the monkey become goody become whatever While she did you say I know I definitely Olafur bath for a hundred percent has made a lot of sense to me. I'm by do think that like you think everybody during different anyways because some people could be on jury for their whole life because life trying to figure something trying to themselves as trying to figure this out side maybe never understand and I think in the last year probably maybe six months to year. I just tried to answer questions but anytime I even start thinking about them. I need to stop church tank by in the moment and the air and the now and nothing else and not in an hour the not yesterday and but I do think you're after you realize that maybe you know maybe to constantly be without being that mindset would consciously have to do it then maybe you need to go back another some questions and got more reassurance so not China not dipping in two different mindsets. So what you on now is based on what you were right. So just imagine that you'll subconscious Umeda pupils of your subconscious mind new subconscious. Mind is just things that you heard growing up and listens to what you watch your parents et Anwar. Everyone said but you don't necessarily know what the said because you're twenty two and you're not thinking about that but you are made up of that it's like you. There's so many she can go down. And depending on what you were exposed to not means what party run hence why some people they they try and move forward. They just never can. You can't move may for example. I was always about moving forward and working out and get in the million quid. I didn't grieve by the ending. Greenberg true modding let go of just I never. I never agreed to anything. I just kept moving forward and four and four dollars. Twenty-one check check your battery by the way what does it say one so I just focused moving forward right because I wanted to get out this pattern and I never grieved and the one I was twenty one to go back to La six and grieve of people that died and my dog Amora dying and grandparents bullying and lots of basically become child of an. I should agree to what should agree. Then so people want to move forwards and they want to be president. You cannot move forward and be presents. He gave back in time as I said if you most people are not at right. They've got right full of notes. Most people they just have those knots and they get knotted. Nottage the mini. You become aware. You don't WanNa be knotted anymore. You WanNa have a different lifestyle. You're GONNA be happy. You WanNa whatever so you keep moving forward but that rope is full of not still go forward and things keep going wrong and even if you said most people never get them they keep forever on this journey trying to get there but the secret is to go back and you look foot on. Its go back to our six. If I want to move forward be going to stand your energy. Your subconscious mind is clotted of everything past ex-husband. Things that they said fucking twenty five years ago that shaped you in that moment and you stayed that shape since right you need to go back in time and cry and remove the energy and emotion understands things and you have to go back in time. You cannot move forward until you go back. 'cause you wrote sort of nuts you have to do every single gripe and. I did this. I had to go back and undo so many knots and it was like one day they going to end so many issues and all those nuts right was essentially me not making the same mistake twice and I felt like when these mistakes GonNa stop a wasn't hanging my cup from the door because the ZIP thing. I wasn't going out clubbing again. If wish I had an wasn't eating unhealthily gunsmith at the same time it was. When is it going to end? And he just ended. I got Donna thousand knots and on the nine thousand nine hundred north what fuck sake it going went and identify the spouse of not expect to Nettie more it ended. It was just like top of the mountain ended. Nimmo not about swing. Your thoughts have aunt. Must've fat the free in the world. When all the snow finally came to the end yet it was issue. Like I've been blind my whole life and I could hear again been occupan blind Mahal often. I could see or deaf person. Hearing my sense was in heightened I cannot explain colors sounds are things like I just. I could see things I see. People's pain I just so everything became good predict on parents. Going to call me was on the radio. A black capsule him playing. This song was on the ticket machine like I just became the party that I just became seven June squeezy. Amazing it's a crazy world. The minded crazy crazy crazy from the most powerful things in the whole whereas I can give you can spend your life trying to understand yourself understand your mind when you live with a very happy life. Yeah Say IN ORDER TO AFFORD. You have to go back. That's pretty much doubt. Come Father Son Holiday Spirit present past future you go into the feet guarantee one of your present and then you go back and then you move forward. You can't otherwise it would have been far the Holy Spirit Father Holy Spirit father. No It's far. This unholy spirit is present back Ford. And don't forget. Jesus Jesus is just preaching what I'm preaching now. I'm preaching what Jesus preaching all became into the same thing. Which is you have to be present and then go in the past and then move forward on the different Jesus snobbery. You is the same knowledge. I thought I was. Jesus one twenty-one this awareness and I didn't know why what maybe reincarnation Jesus and then I realized as I move forward I became a high frequency to him. No it wasn't on that reincarnation didn't exist and I was tuning in to his sports as a vibration and they became my energy toes. The Jesus sadly what was. Yeah maybe Jesus who knows? I think though I think for a loft pizza I think the thing is not reveal wanted to dig into the past. They don't WanNa go back there. They don't want I have. They don't want to think about it. It positively some people who've accused deposits negative. It's just repeat. Repeat repeat are never gotten anywhere. It's founder head against the wall where they didn't need to go in the past with an open. Mind and understand unquestioned and things and then once you figure out I think Costa Book it's don't onto the next whereas I think some people can go past but it's it's just they're just went over and over and over and over again. I don't think doing good for anybody either. So I think it's just finding the violence and understanding understand. Why while you're going back there knowing that it's for a good reason Emma Hedera. I always had the greatest knowledge growing up at school. For example I do have the answers and I play through the answer and it will be so great but never say it because I started to say and I felt everyone. Judging me in the negative energy focused on me Maha starts a pounds. I'd Mumbo always trying to four would make sense and then the block shut up you retard and then I'll go into my head said it but my knowledge was always there so when you speak you speak falls spins you have brain activity you think law which means you have to trust so the next stage is to speak out loud and own your words and eventually as you can eat speak thinking. I'm not confident. They don't want to hear it and they will see weakness and they will attack and they'll focus on you know black widow and you'll crumble or I did when I felt the energy being focused on me like it was just another day. For example right my friends be negative of my mouth but the minute I was aware of this that if you confident within and show conference they will try to hammer that tree down with the Akzo. Say have a factor of fact number fact. No they'll give up. When I was aware of this letter the Darren Brown guiding me. Keep going keep saying what you're saying believing what you saying you know you right. Keep saying you'll have a few saying what the fuck you want about. And then the other people around you and those few more who'd be like is so interesting and then those three will fuck off because they haven't a two shot up the don't get in the reaction and you're left with those three people who are like you know I think in the same the other day and now you've found your tribe and you speak about it more and then they said you know what that's amazing thank you tell me this you feel confident and then you want to speak again. May that many that day happened. I never shut up. Every person I met was talking and talking and talking and the more I talked the more confidence I gained the more the more I talk. That high energy became I became a superpower and they will let you crazy and drugs. And I'M NOT GONNA know which makes and so you now own every I'm GonNa say this fucking wit on no right fucking way. What am I a wet suit? Now what did they do if you're owning? Everything's accent of fat person. You Fat. He's going. I know I'm a fucking rail when it comes to the ocean you take somebody who says that you can't own in the fact she's fat relevant to why she's owning it. You can't be taken down if you're strong you own it and so when you speak net because when you speak right I see a teacher starts year and I see a twenty two year old shy. Go you go from not young. Go to go. You're going to be and like me. I was that is the battle between Satan. Golden showed her. You just have to keep speaking and note that the the more confident he began the more confident you by and it's just a fucking snowball getting bigger and bigger and bigger but you've gotta push enough but gains momentum and is the secret talk talk talk about the shit you know. The fact he reached out to me means that we are thinking the same so just preach it and they will listen. I have taken so much over the last three minutes of what you decide that will video that makes so much sense in my act like that there are people. That tiered retrieving that. I'm close the WHO where they now. I don't shut the fuck up. I don't stop talking to. My mind is a hundred miles an hour. Twenty four seven and How'd you watch this? Be Healthy for you but I know that what I think is making sense. I know I'm not driving myself crazy. I know it's not on diety. I know it's just that my mindset overdrive and I've so there's not enough time to whereas to know everything that I wanna know but I think that's why it's important to to understand and figure out that whether it's alone you're doing that are the people who bring dot sign you that make you feel confident when you speak. You know very are people when you can speak something and you don't give a fuck about what they're gonNA save. You don't care if they're even listening to you you just no yes. Yes see that when you know that you have really made a connection with somebody. I'm because yes sometimes. Sometimes I go in and out with MOS- sometimes I'd like talk at fifty miles an hour in the maze of You. WanNa take on the warriors and I want to be the president and like they're like you twenty two. You're an oath so I've always heard that term sold. I've never understood it. I've never understood the term also but then other people some people to to to people. I'm saying chair. Maybe not so much but maybe fares applicable years ago. If you find that two people could perceive you to completely different people you know when I describe me and they could tell you a completely different person to person but that's only because one person was able to bring outside the real inside of you to accept conscious. Is You say yes so at nine. Does you had the week? Bitchy people negative people. Just problems and bitch about people they were you know they would say like he's such a weird is such a free so weird like you said strange and everything and then the other people who just like. I'm so smart and crazy funding. I'm loving we go out for dinner. We go to the park and then the other people like you said fucking weird like what the hell and it's like. How could you be this? How could you be fucking plot and also bar chocolate? And it's like the area Robin the plant sites. Say I used to go down the time and then I went my lights in and I was gone down the pumps but I was a new person in the minds and I started to speak like this and they were like Jesus Christ crazy on drugs. I'm like no drugs so we'll says that you choose who you focus your energy on when you become aware and you start talk like this. But Georgie of people you grew up with and and no they're not going to get and you have to not speak to them and release your energy exit. You eat energy is going gonNA come back. You can't give out it. Doesn't that's why I've learned so I'm speaking to you like this drained as somebody down the pub who doesn't get shit up through drains right because when I'm speaking to you even Austrailia I'm getting the energy back charging me and I. It's a vicious circle of energy right so speak to people. Don't waste energy on people who don't get it so now you're left with the people that you know for example three people that you know those who can handle it do it. Let's just say one con wasted on that person? So naive choice. Only focus that amount of energy on those two people or find other people on a higher frequency. Who are just as crazy as you. Who think just like you who speak just a fast as you see not saying about to these people because they're not like POSCO FRIENDS WAY. You're never locked him in the first place. You are very similar to these people but you wanna find more people on a high frequency seed fast-talking friends and you got your friends now. Who get you and you got the friends of the past. You would just back from school so you have a choice you can. I can speak to you. Speak to the homeless guy but I matched their energies about report. When I signed he became right best. I was this all the time and I learned the word report which is match the energy. If you're crazy all be speaking like this if somebody is slow energy go down to their level. You're not doing yourself. This justice like speaking to an old friend just talking about problems. No you not going down. You're matching the level. You still gaining something. Because being a meditation you still in the energy free conceive not lost anything whereas focusing on their problems but negative energy is pulling all your energy from his socking you out radiator you energy. Will you drank at drained? So she's when you turn your heating and then when people need then Zebra because then you'll get it back and I think I think that's why I think you lose confidence in yourself as wise when you are constantly twenty four seven given all of your energy all of Bob's feed him as and then trying to get it back off for the people and it comes to a certain time that when you don't get a buck off people you start to leave confident in yourself. lose momentum and I think it's a journey of understanding of the people just pick and choose wisely and who you give it to just the 'cause everybody doesn't understand you just because everyone doesn't get it that doesn't mean that doesn't make you any less of who you are. What you to sound and even so in work. We have radios. 'cause we control and so we all have like a walkie talkie. I some days. We could be freaking down. The road closed or it could be standing on a lollipop. Stick John we I would just be thinking. Oh my God the most random shit. I'm like right the next idea. Like some just say into walkie talkie and sometimes they're legit girls. Talk About Nate. Hating focus offer to just talking to myself but then other days you got who is to go your energy and I think people just don't let don't let anybody that they don't get you. Astro cartography your this interesting so it's basically your energy vibration K. based on the planets that were around. When you born say your rising Sun tunstall or whatever but ashtray cartography is report on earth. Your energy is a certain the So your energies are right now in Australia. So you born in Dublin right but you energies are in Australia. Essentially geographically migrates to find your energy. So you can't just stay in. W what shits out because you are able to go to Australia and then you might have to go to Bali and then you go back to Dublin but ashtray cartography is where you energy vibration is somewhere on the planet and you have to find up traveling and there was good to barley because always just so happened to be in those places and it's could astro carts griffey and it's nothing. It's it's astronaut visa similar to laugh astrology. Sounds like star signs implants book Star Signs and planets. They believe in any of that bullshit. That's all nonsense. Right but ashtray. Cartography is where some places on the earth where there's vibrations are more in tune to you. That is fucking in fact. I think that it's amazing. I think I heard you speak with a lady. A couple Casa Goldfish Alina trauma. There and yeah. That was her actually followed her. I thought it was so amazing. Was something I never understood. We far enough to actually say did you say did you say you followed her amazing. Yeah no she was so good I was and I really liked listening to our. She really knew what she was talkative. Actually the of knowledge and made so much sense she was saying that when you linked up your energy and then all these things just made sense yet definitely warrants that I just wrote gender says amazing So do you have do Keep speaking on the questions that you said. You couldn't be five minutes. You don't fucking almost two hours. I told you that here and I told you that flypast and I told you that you'd be a k. Again that's ought to do with like lack of self belief and you didn't meet a half that lack of self belief because we need to do is align your your Ford inside on the outside and that goes from like insecurity to Confidence and it's it's there it has to go out like energy has to be released. Go Rhino your. I know this dreadful as he just went round and round and round egging goanywhere anywhere. I had to speak out loud. Like what the grandma thing came into play because I speaking out loud to grandma. If your hair do I need to do this or not? An odd wait for the click and was just me and my own energy interfering with the TV making it click. But I had to say out loud to be released in terms of sound because it's two summits do the sound. Vibrations is releasing it whereas energy new brain discharges up. Your brain needs to release it round to release at the right time and the right places. I think you can send yourself. You can drain your if you're constantly. Releasing Energy Never Advocate Naboth. I think what if that's the case? Then you're better off just by being alone. Anyways loss dance scene interest in. I don't WanNa hear this thought guests. I know that's what it's all about is learning to love yourself. Wrought example is The Hague. My voice is the hates recordings of me. I let myself as an autistic twice right. I saw myself as autistic because autistic. It means he's been more time in your head than the outside. I know when I'm better for example that I'm not listening to you and I'm thinking right but when I look back at the camera and see everybody else of being normal and doing that and there's me thinking about what I was thinking about and just fluffing ups and cushioned than stuff was this. Does he spend his life in their self and wash myself on videos. I listened to recordings of myself until I learnt to love my own voice until I learned to love watching me so anyone can do this. Get Your iphone video self laying your beds with you on the beach with your phone almost like a blog of look you see it right record yourself talk just about your day is if it's a blog speak for ten fifteen minutes ront play it back. The hard part is playing it back. Bat is where you hear yourself because you learn to love yourself and I learned to Love Myself. So fucking quick honestly. I've always loved myself with him. But I hate myself on the outside so when I saw myself speak and I assume self twit twit Gina so myself thinking I didn't make sense Mahmoud or so spots in my face I fucking all looking at myself but anyway you learn your weaknesses is to note. They are and and look at your weaknesses on a camera. You've got a choice about it like that about myself. I've got choice diesel about it or allow it to continue so now you realize k. When I speak I always say like Botlikh okay okay like talk fucking like that about myself and I will call myself. Not saying like If you know and then I would see how. I kept blinking. And then not start to speak without blinking. And it's just being aware of what you are what you don't like and then enhancing this stuff you like and then removing the stuff you like. And then he become an elite human. Let myself what you love yourself. It's not about ego. It's about looks even though we have about who the phone. I will let my whole life has show you exactly the same right. You've had people who see you. So what off on the boyfriend? Why WHY STILL UNHAPPY. For example you can look and he's a handsomer. We'll go from twenty seven years so it looks at me for it gives my books. It was fucking curse so it looks shit right and it comes back. Nothing who you are on. You just happen to be Not good looking as I said you're looking is based on symmetry to other good looking people so there's no such thing as good looking it's just you'll find symmetry and people who had the same issue and it's not good looking directly just what your symmetry is like a blackout or blunk. Hausner yesterday. Yeah known that is true and I think what you're saying there even by done about you know being confident unlocked yourself within. I'd never had than issue. I am so confident with who I am as a person and one of my morals and values but it's just more it's always. The eyesight has always stood me back my whole entire life of always so happy who? I am and eyesight because I know I know who I am. The site is just always. Just call me back in like a go go on a night. When I'm like China Way Tennessee Arabic myself on a book. That's layer go and it's not because you want to go up in the morning but yes so it's just it's just a so abort in to learn to yourself and. I know I'm very very lucky. That THE PEOPLE. I'm surrounded with have always bring the up and I know nobody else can do that. You can only do that. You're south at the ink. Obviously people around you. Who are like you know as soon as you say. I'm the negative about yourself. You look it is. It's like no shook up. Change that around my holiday thing well and my friends I wanNA salary like any anything negative. I say I take a note I view and I am telling you worked for the last couple of months. I've been getting. They're definitely not where I want to be. Joseph what it will get there by just comes in time. It's shown this fucking generation is fucked. You know on its way with it. I wanted to everything my social media. Pretend the other. Needless no what would you do that? You don't you come to look at anybody else in you. Just appreciate their good looks and executive who you are. You don't have to delete all of your social media just to make yourself feel You know quick. He will show about tree I we have talkin boy my on from presents a couple of losses so dog using my thoughts. Eleven percent take funds out phone in charge. Remember that remember not to touch the screen because they don't stop recording. Yeah I don't of landscape. What's the reason behind balancing? 'cause you're full you know your because otherwise you either like you eve. How screen or you dislike a little thing in the middle like that wife of you recorded for. So long she move. According to so long as the podcast is what day I know I wanted to go off? Can I hear it? I can do for now so what I will say that they should OPA of learning to love yourself and facing who you are putting yourself out that is about being exposed to you and I know I feel like it's almost like you wouldn't want a old pitch. You wouldn't WanNa pitch going out because at you don't see and as soon as like if I can't see judging the defend myself so by putting something out there and not being happy you haven't got an answer to defend that whereas putting out then having no control is about letting go control and from experience I always want to see everything and spent so much time convincing myself to not do something. I would never do it so no is going out there. And you're going to get a great response and going through fantastic your friends listening like Jesus. Christ I never knew this. You're gonNA feel fantastic with face. The fears being exposed and vulnerable because that is the same as saying I can handle everything thrown at me and then you grow up grow up. The Saudi grabbed. The gun grabbed the knife. You you duck the orange on the stage and they start throwing at me keep going then people realize you to your joy and then they give up but that step back comes from being exposed and you know you have to have a eerie. You have to not wear a jacket and freeze order for your body to build up Brown fat. That makes sense so now. Next time you'll even warmer because you've got brown fat or people do is he just wear jacket? They never face their fears wearing a jacket. Expose yourself don't wear top. Expose yourself out into the universe. Remember right when I was so nervous about people hearing while I was like that it was haunting and then the the down Brown days I put on facebook all of this stuff to look thousand people and I had all this negative Bush's so willie what the fuck you WanNa bet. You're crazy and one by one. Every time I saw a negative comment I deleted that person and I went from a thousand friends. Basically down to seven right and taught long story short. I just put photos of me and said things and did videos of me saying anything and everything and I didn't care what I said. What people said. I just essentially recorded me on the toilet waffling on a bunch of nonsense. I'll put it on facebook and say shows you the negative is GonNa come when Dick Come. I delete each person and and I kept doing it and doing and doing until those less negative people and eventually people realized you don't give a shit we'll think about. I may didn't documenting so you go from attract human I gave energy facing it. Removing these people and then people realize the more you post you don't give a shit and then you put it out nobody responds and then you again. No one responds. And he do it again. No one responds. No one gives a shit about you. Know One gives a shit about you know responding and you can put anything in anything taking shit go for walk. No one gives a shit and then you're left with some people. He suddenly comment. You really funny. Actually do you know that was quite funny? Now you attract in the positive you've got to track the negative remove the negative and the positive will come. It's just how it works. So this is GonNa shock to the universe as a form of healing. You're gonNA realize it was all okay just like when you you aren't GonNa last five minutes and we've done two hours poke postcards onto our our. So what does that say about you? It says that you've got a lot to offer or that's that's it. You will begin to g now. I think that I think that I definitely it's funny that you've actually even to of this because I never thought this conversation was at brand million years. Come up because it's not. It's not something everybody talks by again. It's sometimes it's not. The most powerful conversation to try to do is a barrier. That definitely needs to be broken. I need to break it down my life because I think the code is probably the only thing that a negatively stopping me from doing things that I want to do with the fear of the people of the opinions and I think I continue to go at this for the rest of my life. I'm not going to be able to give. The word. Has One hundred percent of why have to offer you know on left right left right? It takes somebody heavier on the other side like me. Support you through to four. She threw not just people in General K. Otherwise you WANNA get back but unfortunately sometimes we need a little push. We need to be pushed in the in the in the poll. Otherwise you're going to jump. We convince ourselves out of jumping. And I know for me that I needed to be pushed. And then if you understand how you felt when you were out to push and when you approached and you realize it was in my head. This was even cold so now you remember every time you're about to be pushed is okay. Push me or push myself. And then you just you have the momentum yourself so this is me pulling you three forcing if whatever and you realize is when you think about this again in new situations you remember how you felt with the podcast. Hey folk putting online how you know and you realize I was always like hey afterwards and I just needed to keep going and is what you go to the other side. You've gone through how and reached heaven. You've gone through the jungle. And he's seen the Ocean. Thank pain exactly. That's why you have to go with somebody because you never get a job yourself and easy just fucking jumps you know. And he's like let's go and then anyway and then you always love. Everyone is scarred. I've always says I love at the end. I did a podcast. Skydiving about People always love love afterwards but leading up to the hate it. What does that say? It says that the things we are literally seconds away from get everything we want. What's stopping us? Yeah I will say is that I can mentor. People on one fairly for months and years and taking through the journey but for me and for people in life. You can't be told how to get to where you're trying to go because even though it's ultimately the same which is happiness you've come from a different seat for example and the circumstances for different so you learned through different people at different times in your life so I learn from like Russell Brown was says certain thing Richard Branson were says something. Trump was thing people a grew up with neighbors and friends. They do say a certain thing. One thing one percent about report. The other person is to get things in writing. The other person said it's health four wealth and all these people they be these things that they said along. My journey stuck with me. Some Mackinnon said like you can be promised you. If you won't be things have stuck with you and you can't be taught everything by one person you learn through these different people you learn some for me. It has something from the next person tiny Robbins one and you link or the patent yourself you pull somebody to go somewhere where you don't know where they're going you could meant told them one on one and take a long time and they get there because essentially doing the work off the teach them but generally you on a journey and you're gonNa make you know and you learn something from each person know. Everyone's everyone's idea you're saying I know everybody is the ultimate and goes up to be happy for many people's idea of how different so you can teach someone will. This is how you should live your life. This is what you should do. And you're going to be happy when you reminded me of happiness and my idea of happiness two completely different things you know so like you said. I think it's just you know pointing to work. Put in the knowledge feeding your brains on good food on Dan eventually again where you want to be in your ideal happiness and being a piece in the moment on whatever that maybe if it's a spiritual life it's spiritual. I don't think really that just happened. Your ideal being happiness being content okay. So let's let's start. We've done the peak of the mountain. It's a good time to stop due out when I plug anything or anything like social media's websites anything you want to promote only fan. I really I don't really mind. Do people usually at night just as you said you follow. Delina and soap night based on where say just one yet. There's no her I am who I am and thank you so so so so much across so much from this honestly more than I thought I was GONNA get Hanky so mostly I know your knowledge. I love your mind. I don't understand that nobody would ever understand that. Maybe you don't even understand that sometimes what I am. I definitely be listened to on your podcast out. Come back to you in six months of year. Fifty Times more off of that and more knowledge of the phrase and do our job absolutely people who hyperactivity often have hyperactivity forever and those you speak slow or we speak slow so the level of your brain activity is is to vote for life is just you. We cheese speak about so. If you've got the energy you'll have to thoughts what you know. Now you will be three hundred more miles an hour. Because you don't have the brain activity with the actual knowledge and confidence. Tonight will just be like four hundred times more. I'm just going to press way back.