40 Burst results for "Amandas"
AP News Radio
Amanda Gorman's poem for Biden's inauguration banned by Florida school
"A complaint from a parent is landed a poem written for President Biden's inauguration on a restricted list at a Florida elementary school. It's not clear what in the poem the hill we climb by Amanda Gorman is objectionable to a Miami Lake's parent, but daily Salinas says she doesn't favor eliminating or censoring any books, but she does want materials to be appropriate for students. Florida's governor Ron DeSantis has made headlines with his policies that promote books censorship. The nation's first national youth poet laureate then 17 year old Amanda Gorman, said her poem, which was read January 20th, 2021, was intended to be a message of hope, without ignoring the evidence of Discord and division in the country. In response to the restrictions at the school. She says she's gutted and concerned that authorities are robbing children of the chance to find their voices in literature. I'm Jackie Quinn
Bankless
Fresh update on "amandas" discussed on Bankless
"I just wanna check the understanding. It's just like the odds of we can point towards Gary Gensler and he and say that this man is using the SEC to promote himself as a political figure as an increase to run up the ladder of political offices into a bigger and bigger position of power. And he has just not been the, he misused has the chair of the leadership of the SEC in that end. That is not something that Jake, you are particularly optimistic about, correct? Okay, because you asked so nicely, let me give you the more optimistic version of this or at least some ideas. I'll give you a few, okay? First of all, I think the best way for us if we want to make a point about Chair Gensler's conduct is not in the courts, it's in Congress, right? He answers to Congress and I don't know if you watched, but he got dragged in front of the house financial services committee for like a six hour hearing during which a lot of people berated him for how horrible he was doing. And that is at least a little bit soothing for the soul, right? I think we can expect more of that. But I also think we can push further in Congress. Representative Torres who we were talking about earlier sent a letter to the SEC basically accusing Chair Gensler of I can't remember exactly what the nature of the letter was but explaining his doubts about how Chair Gensler was doing. I think to the extent that we can put not legal pressure but political pressure on him, that is where we are most likely to be successful. If he feels like, you know what? This approach to crypto is actually not winning me friends among Democrats in Congress. That's where we can make a change. And that's why I mentioned Senator Brown, right? The Senate banking committee is the Senate committee that has jurisdiction over the SEC. If Senator Brown was to start changing his tone about crypto and about how Chair Gensler is acting, that is a way to really make a change.
America First with Sebastian Gorka Podcast
Lee Smith Considers the Next Target for Serious Investigation
"So Lee, honestly, you're one of the best investigative journalists and authors in modern history. Your dear friend. And where Lee Smith goes from an investigative standpoint is really where people should follow. So one of the questions I have for you is I know you and I always kind of joke about all roads lead back to Russia gate, but they kind of do. But where do you think the focal point of the next serious investigation should be for Americans to pay attention to going into this next presidential election? Well, you know me, I think January 6th is pretty important. And we kid around say all roads lead to Russia gate. But in fact, one of the things, one of the things that you did in that Devin Nunes did and then also Amanda milius did in her awesome documentary the plot against the president was to show that this is the basic template, right? This is the left's formula right now for their weaponized narratives targeting not just Donald Trump, but Donald Trump supporters. And if you look, you see the you see the same pattern of personnel, right? You see past and present intelligence officials. You see political operatives. It's amazing how many times Adam Schiff is in the middle of this. And you see the media, right? So we even see this if you look closely enough, you'll even see this and what's going on right now with the Tucker Carlson story in the same players are always going to be involved. So that's why I think that you and I keep encouraging people to understand what happened with Russia gate. And you know, cash because of you and Devin and people and journalists like Seb gorka, there's others. John Solomon, who might think you're having on today, have you already didn't have them on? But Molly Hemingway, a whole bunch of people who put up this new and they explained to American audiences, what was going on with Russia
Bankless
Fresh update on "amandas" discussed on Bankless
"And what Ripple has done will help in the Coinbase case because they're in the same district, right? While it's not precedent that this Coinbase judge would have to follow, it is supposed to inform what the judge is considering. So Coinbase will be able to use any win that Ripple has experienced to say you should do something similar here. Is there any world where this actually turns into the crypto industry being able to bite back at the SEC? Like right now, like Coinbase is on the defensive, Binance is on the defensive, but many people in the crypto world have said like, hey, what the SEC is doing is unconstitutional. It's against its stated purpose. I don't know if the word illegal is relevant here, but just like, is there any world where Gary Gensler gets in trouble and we can take him down? Is that possible? Is that within the realm of possibility at all? Jake, I think you should jump in here, but I will just say upfront that I'm glad you asked that because we, I think that, and I know Jake shares this view, the industry should be looking to do something proactively instead of reactively. And that is something that like BINDEF is currently thinking very hard about and something we were planning to work on. There is the option to bring a pre -enforcement challenge against the SEC to accuse them of like an Administrative Procedures Act violation. That's available. And that is something that we are going to be working on. In terms of taking Chair Gensler down personally, I'll let Jake comment more on that. But I think that as an industry, especially if we could work together to do it, I think that there are proactive measures we can and should be taking. Well, Amanda gives it to me to give the bad news, which is I don't think there's anything we can do to Chair Gensler himself, right?
AP News Radio
South Floridians mop up, recall fear after historic deluge
"More rain is in the forecast for South Florida as crews continue trying to mop up and dry out from fierce rain and flooding that close the major airport in Fort Lauderdale. It was terrifying. Motorist Amanda Valentine says her car was lifted by floodwaters on a major Fort Lauderdale thoroughfare. At the height of the rainstorm Wednesday. I thought it was going on because I couldn't get my door open. At first. And the windows wouldn't go down. Nothing was working. Police say they had to help hundreds of people trapped in vehicles as cars floated away. Oh my God. More than two feet of rain was recorded around Fort Lauderdale's international airport. Mark winter was bringing his rent a car back, hoping to fly home to Seattle. Water was kept up over the wall. Into the tunnel that you pass through to go to the rental car return. And it looked like a waterfall. He says he waited for hours and then an airport worker told him no flights were going in or out. So he slept on the floor in the terminal, Broward county schools are closed through the weekend, some of them took on water as well. I'm Jackie Quinn
Bankless
Fresh update on "amandas" discussed on Bankless
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AP News Radio
Drake Bell is "considered missing and endangered," say Florida police
"Actor Drake bell has been found safe after authorities in Daytona Beach, Florida said he was missing an endangered. And marches are a letter with the latest. Daytona Beach police say Drake bell was in touch with officers and is not in danger. Hours earlier, police had said he was missing and had asked the public for help in finding him. Belle had last been seen near a high school Wednesday night. Police did not give details on why they were investigating Belle. His representatives did not return requests for comment. Bell became famous as a teenager for the Nickelodeon series, the Amanda show and Drake and Josh.
Bankless
Fresh update on "amandas" discussed on Bankless
"Full -stack Web3 gaming platform. Its built -in UX features, like the Immutable Passport, are designed for games to scale to the next billion players coming to Web3. With Immutable, players can sign up with an email, pay with a credit card, and experience a frictionless purchase flow inside of games. So, discover your next favorite game, and explore a network of 150 games building on Immutable, including such titles as Gauze Unchained, Guilds of Guardians, Illuvium, Embersword, and Metalcore. So, join Web3's largest ecosystem of games and players. Build, play, and connect at immutable .com. Bankless Nation, I would love to introduce you to Jake Shrovinsky. He's been on the podcast before. He is the Chief Policy Officer at the Blockchain Association, and on the board of the DeFi Education Fund, where he works closely with our second guest, new to the show, Amanda Tuminelli. Amanda is the Chief Legal Officer at the DeFi Education Fund. The DeFi Education Fund, of course, does a very hard job of explaining DeFi to policymakers around the world and advocates for policies, welcoming of decentralized financial infrastructure. Jake and Amanda, welcome to Bankless. Awesome to be here. Amanda, so you're new to the show. Jake, we've had on a handful of times. So, as the welcome to Bankless for the first time, can you just give us your background and what you're up to and just where your perspective comes from? Sure, absolutely. So, I joined DEF a couple of months ago from private practice. So, while I was in private practice at Cobray & Kim, I was focused on white collar criminal defense and securities and more and more in the past few years, I was focused on representing clients in the blockchain space and the DeFi space. So, I was able to come from a place of seeing what happens internally with a client once a regulator does send a subpoena or start an action against somebody in this space, which has really helped me as I've transitioned to DEF. And one thing that we want to do, and I'm sure we'll talk more about this, is use the court system in addition to the legislative branch to advocate for the rights of DeFi users and developers. So, I hope that my background will lend itself to doing that work in the future. Well, I definitely appreciate having a second legal mind on here because my limited layman questions can only go so far. So, having two of you here I think is going to be really, really great. Jake, I want to start this first question with you.
AP News Radio
'Drake & Josh' actor Drake Bell declared missing in Florida
"Actor Drake bell has been declared missing in Florida. With the latest. Police in Daytona Beach say Drake bell was last seen Wednesday night near a high school. Bell, whose real name is Jared Drake bell has been declared missing an endangered, a police spokeswoman says no other information can be released because of an active investigation, bell's representatives did not return requests for comment. Bell became famous as a teen for Nickelodeon's the Amanda show and Drake and Josh. He pleaded guilty in 2021 to child endangerment, relating to a 15 year old girl at his 2017 concert in Cleveland
Bankless
Fresh update on "amandas" discussed on Bankless
"Welcome to Bankless, where we explore the frontier of internet money, and we protect that frontier from rogue, unelected regulators whose sole focus appears to be stopping anyone from exploring and settling on that crypto frontier. Bankless Nation, on Monday, the SEC announced their lawsuit against CZ and Binance. On Tuesday, yesterday, while Coinbase's chief legal officer was busy testifying in front of the House Agricultural Committee about a new and progressive market structure bill for digital assets, the SEC announced their lawsuit against Coinbase. What are they accusing Coinbase of exactly? Allowing securities to trade on its platform, an activity that is integral and fundamental to both Coinbase and the entire crypto industry, and is also an activity that the SEC themselves approved of when they allowed Coinbase to become a public company back in 2021. So what gives? What gives is the question. And today on the show, we're bringing on two legal minds to help answer that question. Legal minds from outside of Coinbase. We had Paul Graywall on yesterday to give us the Coinbase perspective. But today on the show, we have Jake Stravinsky and Amanda Tuminelli from the Blockchain Association and the DeFi Education Fund to give their independent objective perspectives on the matters at hand. But before we get into that, into the conversation with Jake and Amanda, first got to talk about asymmetric protocol. If you are familiar with pool together, asymmetrics is like pool together except for eth staking. Is regular old 4 .5, 5 % eth yield just not boring enough? How about anywhere between zero and a thousand percent? With asymmetrics, you can put all of your ether into the asymmetrics protocol, it will stake it on your behalf, and you have a chance of winning everyone's yield or nothing at all. The yield goes to one lucky winner. Right now, 315 users are competing over 6 .6 ether worth of reward that is accumulated over the last five or six days. Rewards get sent out every seven days. So if you want to add a little bit more excitement to the eth staking in your life, asymmetrics protocol can get you anywhere between zero and one thousand percent yields.
Epicenter
Ryan Zurrer Talks BTC Mining and Keepers
"For me personally, one of the first things I think I read from you was around keepers in blockchain networks. I see you sort of evolved that topic over time. Can you maybe explain to us a little bit, you know what you were thinking about there and maybe also how your view has changed since I think initially you were thinking about just like in 2017 and obviously we're like 6 years later now. So yeah, curious what your current thoughts are. To originally we were thinking about that in terms of MakerDAO because I co rewrote the white paper with rune and Amanda and Nikolai and shout out to Nikolai who we tragically lost last year. He was so important for our space and I miss him tremendously. And because we were generalizing beyond just Bitcoin and mining, I started to think about it in terms of, okay, there's a resource provider layer that provides some important resource and then there's a user layer that uses this resource. One of the better examples or cleaner examples to describe is filecoin, where instead of mining or transaction confirmation, it's storage that is the resource layer. And that's like the keepers. And in DeFi, it wasn't called DeFi at that time. But in liquidity networks in financial networks, the key resource is liquidity provision. So people who provide the market making and liquidity are kind of like the miners of a liquidity network. But we didn't really want to call them miners. So keepers became the term that came up in a long late night conversation between Nikolai and I and that and really it was just about describing these networks as the resource provider layer and the user layer and the user layer is subsidized by the inflation that the resource provider gets over the bootstrapping era, which we're kind of coming to the end of and in Bitcoin, but we can see we're still in the bootstrapping era of many other resource networks. And this can be applied to many, many things beyond just financial transaction verification like in Ethereum and Bitcoin.
America First with Sebastian Gorka Podcast
Sebastian Talks to Investigative Journalist and Author Lee Smith
"Portions of the following program may contain pre recorded material. The deep state is not a theory, it's fact and you know it as of this morning. Why? President Trump has been talking about it for nigh on 6 years and now they're trying to take him down yet again. Who better to discuss it? The man who literally wrote the book, the plot against the president, turned into an amazing documentary and the permanent coup. My friend and investigative reporter and author par excellence, Lee Smith. Welcome back to America first. Sab great to be with you, as always. Lee, we usually jump straight into the meat of the matter. We have the luxury of a little bit of extra time today because this is one of our deep dives one on one. I got to know you, I don't know. Centuries ago, when I was doing national security, you were doing national security. Your original book that I knew you from was the strong horse power politics and the clash of cultures or Arab power dynamics in the Middle East. For those who aren't familiar with your prior work before you got into this analysis of domestic politics and the deep state, tell us a little bit about Lee Smith and your trajectory, how you moved from international affairs to what you're covering today. Well, this is, I mean, actually it was covering the Middle East. Covering Iran and Syria. In particular, in particular, that showed me what was going on in 2016. First of all, I was covering the Syrian conflict, very, very closely. And the reality was, is that Barack Obama officials were coordinating with Russia, with Vladimir Putin in Syria. I'm in Russia's Russia came in there and partnership with the Islamic Republic of Iran. And Hezbollah and the Obama administration was supportive of this. So when starting in the summer of 2016, we started to see stories about how Trump was close to Russia. And many of these leaks, many of these many of these statements were sourced to unnamed officials, who was it turned out were precise the same officials who were boasting about the Obama administration's coordination with Russia and Syria. It seemed absolutely ridiculous to me. And I knew there was something going on at that point. I knew it was what David Samuels described in a famous New York Times Magazine, article as Ben Rhodes and Barack Obama's echo chamber. So I saw something going on with that. But there's something else too that's even more significant. And that is, I started to see around that time how our press are free, our ostensibly free and independent press had started to take on the characteristics of the Arab, the Arab media. In particular that none of this was independent reporting, it was all done in coordination with intelligence services. And that's precisely what we saw in particular with The Washington Post and The New York Times, starting in 2016. It's coverage of Donald Trump. The press became the outward face of the intelligence services, and to see that happen, and our country said, in the United States, the Beacon of the Beacon of freedom, the world's greatest country, and oldest democracy, to see this happen here. It should get everyone not just alarm and alert people, but to get everyone out of their doldrums and get everyone to defend our country to see what to see what's happening and to see what people have in store for it. Unless we protect our country. Unless we defend our liberties. So just to remind those who may have forgotten those years, not too long ago, under Obama, this is the same president who on that notorious that infamous hot Mike moment with Putin's puppet Medvedev lent over didn't know the mics were hot and said to Medvedev, this is incredible. Tell Vladimir, I will have much more flexibility after the election. And met with dev in his central casting thick Russian accent says, yes, yes, I will tell Vladimir. Likewise, it's the same Ben Rhodes in The White House, the only official ever at that level in an administration to be refused even an interim security clearance by the FBI because of his shady background. This is the same Ben Rhodes, who in an article actually said it's so easy to quote unquote exploit the idiots in the press corps in Washington, D.C.. These are the same people Lee. Yep, absolutely. And this is something, of course, that as you and I say this, I've been, of course, we have our friends and allies who understand this, who've heard us say at who've heard others say it. But look, it's telling that there's no way that this will ever penetrate the media, right? And this is the issue that the media is the sword and shield. Not just of the Democratic Party, but most crucially, Barack Obama and not just Barack Obama's legacy, but Barack Obama's initiative, which is to utterly transform the United States of America and to come to the present. What we've seen the last 6 plus years, it's culminating to date in the indictment of Donald Trump. And I think it's really important for us to look at the role that Barack Obama has played in this over the last 6 and a half years. It seems to me this is a crucial piece that's been missing and we talked about at the beginning, the way that I see the prosecution of Trump beginning. It starts July 5th, 2016 when Christopher Steele first turns over some of his phony Trump Russia reports to the FBI. And we know that this was funded by the Hillary Clinton campaign for president. So Hillary's taken rightly, she's rightly held accountable for how this country has been poisoned the last 6 plus years. But that unfortunately by focusing too much on Clinton, we forget that all of these spy chiefs who were coordinating with the Clinton campaign who were leaking to the press, these people all worked for Barack Obama. It's inconceivable. As a matter of fact, we know that Obama knew what was going on. We knew we know from a handwritten notes from John Brennan in the summer of 2016. And we know him these White House meetings in early January 2017. Barack Obama knew what was going on. We know that we also know from the text messages between the FBI lovebirds. That's right. That they said at one point, the president wants to be briefed about everything with regards to operation crossfire hurricane in the targeting of Mike Flynn, correct? You're absolutely you're absolutely right. And I'm glad I'm glad you reminded me of that. I was moving so quickly through all of it. But you're absolutely right. And so I think that this is how we need to understand the indictment. And the strain, you know, everyone talks all the time about, oh, but especially Donald Trump's foes. Talk about, oh, he's an exceptionally bad president. He's an exceptionally evil man. And this is why he deserves this is why he deserves everything that's happening to him. This nonsense. Donald Trump is very firmly within the tradition of mainstream American politics, going back to the beginning, whether we're talking about economic nationalism, whether we're talking about a strain of rough and ready populism. This is part of the American mainstream. What is not a part of the American mainstream. And that's arresting other presidents indicting prosecuting other presidents of the United States. That's what's extraordinary here. Donald Trump is a great president. You and I and your great audience agrees on that. But what's extraordinary is not Donald Trump. What's extraordinary is prosecuting a president, a former president, and the FrontRunner for the 2024 nomination. That's what's different to you. Yeah, that's the key element that to use the British term here's the current leader of the opposition, not just the former president, but the individual who is right now, 20 to 30 points in front of the next next possible candidate to be the Republican nominee. We talked to Lee Smith, author extraordinaire, follow him on Twitter at Lee Smith D.C.. He's the author of the fabulous works, the plot against the president, which became a movie made by our friend Amanda milius and the permanent coup how enemies foreign and domestic targeted the American president.
America First with Sebastian Gorka Podcast
Chris Kohls and Seb Discuss John Milius' Epic Cold War Film 'Red Dawn'
"Had you seen this movie? I had seen red dawn, yes. We're doing red dawn ladies and gentlemen. Bye. The great John milius. Let's show the picture of me and Chris this morning in my home of the age headquarters. This is the original original theater poster, like thick card of red dawn, signed by the director and writer John milius because we know and you met her Amanda milius. Amanda milius, John milius is very impressive daughter who's also a director. It was also a director she's done some amazing films if you don't see it on film so I highly recommend them. A friend of Sebastian gorka. Yeah, Trump appointees in the State Department. Yeah, yeah. And just a cool person. We have that post. So this is a personal one for me. I'm a huge fan of the general. He was, they had to have to address him on set as general milius. I got another behind the scene documentary that you forced me to watch. I did hear that. Yeah, that's cool though. I think that's cool. So give us initial thoughts on this movie. You know, I did grow up with this film. It's a bit of a violent film. Yeah, it's a tough film. It's a very, I will say, philosophical film. It was accused of being like this pro war. It is not a pro war movie. No, no, no, no. It's a thinking man's film. And if you're not thinking, then I suppose you could perceive it that way. But no, it's a philosophical film. And so I didn't see when I was a child. I didn't grow up with it. It wasn't a big part of my childhood, but I saw it as an adult. I had a buddy of mine, he presented me, my buddy Kurt, who I mentioned sometimes on my show. He's a big movie buff. We're talking one day about films. And he said, he starts talking about the plot of red dawn. I'm saying, wait, wait, the Russians invade America, like rural America in the 1980s? Yeah. How have I never heard of this movie? I just loved the premise. So we watched the film and I thought, wow, what an underrated film that how could I have never heard of this? 1984, it looks even a little bit older than that in my mind because it was set in rural America. Yes. And so there's nothing about it that screams like trendy 1980s. No. World 1980s was more sort of like late 70s. And that was true in my household as well, because I didn't grow up rich or anything. And if you grew up sort of like lower middle class middle class in America in the 1980s, everything you owned, every piece of furniture owned was actually from the 70s.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Amanda Grace Began Her Life of Prophecy Through Medical Adversity
"To my friend Amanda grace, who has a prophetic ministry. I don't know how you put this. We're going to try to help you understand this if you don't get this. Also has an animal sanctuary with zillions of beasts at her home with her husband Chris, who will be here later. And you're at that point now. So you're telling me you're in your 20s. And you're really struggling. I mean, this is bad, bad, bad health stuff. But you are a Christian and you're trying to get your way work your way out of this. Yes, so I think in your 20s is where you begin to struggle a lot with the lord. And your place and have a lot of questions for God, the wise. Were you really start seeking and what I call it wrestling with God about many things that have gone on in your families, my parents divorced when I was about 21 years old. They divorced. And that was part of the toxicity that led to me getting sick also. It kind of opened the door for the enemy to sort of say, I'm going to take my shot now because the enemy Satan can see anointing in the spirit. He can see that you're annoying. He doesn't know what God necessarily going to do with it, but he can see you are. And so that's why he goes after them when they're young. You hear this. You hear this over and over and over again. That if God's going to use you in some ways, he will allow you to be humbled and it's almost like to build your spiritual muscles. And similarly, as you just said, if God is going to use you, the enemy wants to strangle you in the cradle if possible, to try to take you out before. And I've seen this over and over and over. I can tell my own story. Other people's stories, but so you experience this. So here you are in your 20s and you're beginning to wonder, hey, what's up? Yes. What's going on? There was a lot of dysfunctional cycles in my family that were very generational. And when you deal in the prophetic and whether that's the road the lord is putting you on, you're very sensitive to what's going on around you. I mean, so sensitive, you could feel the weight of things in the spirit, like how oppression feels or how other things feel in the spirit. You can feel the heaviness of that.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Amanda Grace Describes the Prophetic Dreams of Her Youth
"You said that when you were like a little kid, you're getting visions of heaven. Did that go away for a while? It kind of shifted. So then I started having very prophetic dreams. And there's a very profound what the age of 26, which we'll talk about. But that's what happened. It started shifting into prophetic dreams and things of that nature. Prophecy at times when I was a kid which come out of my mouth. Because you don't want to harness it when you're a kid. You don't understand what's going on. So it would kind of just blurt out. Strange moments. And so my friend Ken fish. Who's been on this program many times. He said that when he was a kid, that would happen to him and would totally freak out the adults, like he would say what they're thinking or he would reveal some secret sin. He's a kid. And because the gift is there, but you just don't know how to handle it. Yes.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Amanda Grace Describes Her Religious Upbringing
"Grew up, okay? Italian American family in The Bronx. Were you raised as a Christian? Did you go to church? I did, I actually was raised in a divided household. So my father was not a believer at all. Thank God, before right before he died in 2019, he accepted Jesus Christ as his lord and savior before he went home. But he was not a believer at all, wanted nothing to do with it. And my mother was sort of a new believer. So the church that I grew up part of my life in is actually van Ness. I think it's assembly of God now on Holland avenue in The Bronx. Very assembly of God believes in all this crazy stuff, which I also do. But it's interesting because when you think of an Italian from The Bronx, you think in Catholic. Yes. And both my parents were raised that. Right. So they were both raised Catholic, my father just sort of rejected it all completely. And my mother sort of turned the corner in her early 20s. Mid 20s. So she had a Jesus experience. And so she so when you were growing up, do you go to church with her? Yes. So I did go to van Ness. Very spirit filled Pentecostal. Church. And so that's where I basically got the foundation of my faith. It's from there. Now, it was a little hard because my father wasn't a believer. So at home, you can't really talk about it. So what happens is everything goes internal. That's where the issues started. You never know now because of the way, you know, I'm very open when I pray in things, but everything started to internalize in me where killed prey out loud. Don't pray out loud at dinner, don't talk about God in front of your father. So everything just became very like, almost like a clamp got put on me. Yeah. Early on.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Eric Welcomes Amanda Grace of Ark of Grace Ministries
"Amanda grace, you're a friend of mine. Hello. Hello, friend. I like to just talk to people that I like. Their friends, they've become friends. You've become a friend. And I get to introduce my audience to people that I love and you're tough to sum up though. You're tough to sum up. Your husband Chris is sitting over there. We're going to talk about him later, but. I want to get your story first of all, but for people that are just tuning in to like, what is this? Did this woman write a book on the history of the Nazis? Did she, how do you sum yourself up? Well, I joke around and I say and I'll explain why. I'm sort of like a prophesying female version of Noah. A prophesying female version of Noah. I don't think anybody's tracking with that. So we're going to start over. First of all, as soon as you open your mouth, I know this is a woman who grew up in the New York area. Yes. So what part of New York? I was born at Einstein hospital in The Bronx. In The Bronx. In The Bronx, New York grew up near pelham Parkway area, my father's from gunhill road actually in The Bronx. And then we would like that's going to ring bells across the country. Like, oh yeah, dunghill wrote. Why did you say that? What is that area known for? What do you mean? Well, near williamsbridge road right off of pelham Parkway happened to be one of the nicer areas of The Bronx. Okay. So that's where my nana and papa lived. My mom's parents. So when you say nana and papa, that's another clue Italian. Yes. Or Italian. My wife is Italian. And so that's another thing when I first, it was my friend Joel turon, dear, dear friend, Brooklyn, tie in. He said, you got to check out Amanda grace. And when Suzanne and I went to your YouTube channel to watch you, I just thought this is incredible. This is a woman that is obviously really outspoken about her Christian faith to put it mildly. You move in the prophetic. That's not one of those terms that a lot of people are like, what does it mean you move in the prophetic, whatever. We'll get to that. But you're obviously a real New Yorker. Yes.
What Bitcoin Did
Scaling Bitcoin Culture With Amanda Cavalieri
"You talk about the digital yuan, and you talk about freedom versus control. But that's just to me you're thinking about the digital you want versus Bitcoin rather than against the dollar. Almost is that almost a mission of defeat that the dollar is dying essentially is the global reserve currency. It's losing the race against the digital realm. You don't know that it's losing its stronghold. I believe, yeah. I think, you know, if I were a decision maker in the U.S., I would probably want to figure out how to how to embrace Bitcoin to make the U.S. dollar stronger, I think that's a pretty smart move. We'll see if that happens. Why do you think Bitcoin makes the U.S. dollar stronger? Because it gives people a couple of things, right? I mean, we're seeing companies being built like strike where you can go in and out of U.S. dollar to Bitcoin. And I think that's extremely important for cross border payments and globalization of business. I don't think we're getting out of that. I think we'll have more and more currencies just like languages have been going extinct. I think while more currencies go extinct at a pretty rapid pace over the next ten, 15 years. I mean, it could happen faster than that or not at all. But that's my I'm with you. I'm with you. I mean, I think it's kind of happening. Yeah. I mean, we've seen the Lebanese pound, another 90% devaluation. Again. They need to stop get away from their own currency. That country can not manage a sovereign currency. No. And it's destroyed the economy of the country. It's destroyed people's lives. It has.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Amanda Barratt Describes the Ghetto in Kraków
"When did the Nazis establish what we call the ghetto in Kraków. And what was their thinking behind it? This was before they were shipping all of the Jews to the death camps. Obviously, the final solution didn't come till the middle of the war. So when did they begin with this idea of the ghetto? So the ghetto was established in March 1941 and continued for two years until March 1943 when it was very brutally liquidated when many people in the ghetto, those deemed unable to work, the elderly, the children, were simply murdered in the ghetto while the remainder were marched to the nearby plasma labor camp. So and how did any survive they were basically allowed to work, they removed to the flash out camp where there were a lot of factories set up where there was industry where they were basically exploiting this labor, this Jewish labor by allowing them to live so they could work.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Eric Talks With Author Amanda Barratt
"Talking to Amanda Barrett. She's a writer. She's an author. She's written a number of books the new one is called within these walls of sorrow, a novel of World War II, Poland, Amanda, you were just saying that the effectively the protagonist of this true story, you have turned it into a novel, nonetheless, it's a true story. It is that he was someone who after the war wrote about these experiences. And so you had this firsthand documentation on which to build your story. When did he decide to write this? And what was his life after the war? He started writing it very quickly. He knew the urgency of preserving this. After the war, Poland suffered terribly in communism and he actually lost his pharmacy and had to go elsewhere. But throughout his life, people would write to him and thank him for what he did, he would receive letters from those who he helped. One of the letters that was the most memorable that I read was written by a man who was only about 12 when he was in the ghetto and he wrote to deduce and he said, dear mister pankov, thank you for the help that you gave me when I was in the ghetto, and here's some payment. Here's a check for the three pills, which you gave me that in for which I could not pay you so now I'm paying you now. I have never forgotten your kindness, all of these years. And so we think about that. We think about all he did was give pills. But it was a small moment. It was the glimmer of light in the midst of the synth animal darkness, and it left a very indelible legacy.
The Eric Metaxas Show
The True Story of Pharmacists in Poland With Amanda Barratt
"Interesting to me also Amanda, how, you know, a lot of us I've written about a lot of heroic figures and I always get the same kind of question, whether it's in from my book 7 men or 7 women or they make it sound like all of these figures are, you know, they're born saints. And you realize, no, many of them evolve into this. And it sounds like that's the case with the figure about whom you've written in this book within these walls of sorrow that first he's thinking about himself. I've got a business, wait a minute. What do I do to preserve my business? And in the course of that, begins to see, of course, what he could not have seen if he had left what became the ghetto. And it moved his heart. And so I think it's always important to say that because sometimes people actually put figures whether it's Bond hoffer, wilberforce, they put them in some special category and you realize no folks, it's the same category in which you live. It's a human being who has the choice to move in this direction or that direction and every little choice you make will be the story of your life. So it is amazing to me that this story didn't start that way. This is not like the story of Corey ten boom, for example. That is absolutely true. And it wasn't us to do's with him work three women, and they were all in their 20s, so they were non Jews so they were leaving the ghetto at the end of their work day, going back to their homes outside the district living in two worlds while in the ghetto, they were helping the Jews. They were smuggling food into the ghetto, so the Jewish people, because food was very scarce, and they were risking their lives to provide aid.
The Eric Metaxas Show
Amanda Barratt on Her New Novel 'Within These Walls of Sorry'
"Folks, as promised, we have back on the program the author, Amanda Barrett, Amanda, welcome back. Thank you so much, Eric it's a joy to be here again. Listen, you are very young and yet you've written a number of beautiful important books. We talked about them on this program, one of them, my dearest Dietrich about Dietrich bonhoeffer, with whom I have some familiarity and then the white rose resists again about the resistance to the Nazis by Christians in Germany at the time. You have now written another book, the title of it is within these walls of sorrow, a novel of World War II Poland. You've gotten a lot of praise for this brand new book. So tell my audience and me, what is it the heart of this story? What is this about? So within these balls of star explores the true story of a group of Polish pharmacists in the Kraków ghetto. Risk their life. Pharmacists yes, they were pharmacies. I think I read that. I want to be clear my audience gets this. So this is in the crack. I'll get a group of pharmacists. You don't normally hear people. Referring to a group of pharmacists, but these were heroes. Please continue. So they were non Jewish pharmacists. He ran a pharmacy in the Kraków ghetto before it was the crack of get out. Then when the ghetto was established to do's was able to bribe the Nazi authorities to stay in the get out so he could continue to run his pharmacy and in that doing so he was able to provide aid to the Jewish inhabitants, the 12 to 15,000 Jews who had done the Kraków ghetto and his pharmacy was called under the ego.
Dennis Prager Podcasts
Patient Died After Hospital Guards Tackled Her
"Here's a story out of Toronto that is a sign of our times. I think that that is the most accurate way to put it. So a 42 year old woman came to a Toronto hospital. And she apparently did not have a mask on and she was strangled to death by two guards. I know that sounds hospital guards. These were not these were not Toronto police. And the judge dropped all the charges, did not even allow it to go to trial. This story I'm reading to you is from the national post to Ontario hospital guards, who had been charged in the death of a patient in a Toronto hospital, will no longer face trial after a judge made a rare ruling that quashed the case CBC news, reported. Danielle Stephanie Warren, 43, died at the Toronto general hospital. In May 2020, the two guards, one of the story come out now. This is today. Story is today because it went before the judge. The actual event happened in May 2020. The two guards Amanda Rojas Silva 42 and Shane hudley 35 had been charged with manslaughter. It's on video. It's so obvious that they are guilty of manslaughter. And criminal negligence, but on November 22 a judge said there wasn't enough evidence presented at the preliminary hearing to proceed to trial despite video footage and witness testimony.
The Psychology Podcast
"amandas" Discussed on The Psychology Podcast
"With more of an inner presence that doesn't need to be validated by others. Where you don't lead with uncertainty about yourself, but you lead with your authenticity that you always go high on, the more you can just lead with your authenticity. The less you'll feel these vulnerable narcissistic characteristics. Does that make sense? Yeah, no, that's actually really great. And I think that that does ring very true to me. I mean, I'm almost like getting sad. There's hope here, but I'm saying there's hope. Yeah. A thing she's been grappling with ever since this Italy trauma has been. It's just something I think we talked about with LeVar Burton, actually. And that season one episode of labyrinth that Amanda worries that the most notable thing about her forever will be a thing that didn't that she didn't do and that happened to her. And it's a most people don't have the opportunity to deal with that strange circumstance where the whole world associates your name and your identity and who you are and why you matter with this thing that has nothing to do with you. And she often wonders, will I ever contribute to the world in any way that will matter more? And that will have an impact more than this other thing that is not of me. And but I have a radical I have a radical suggestion and this may sound like I've just slipped into Oprah mode, but I have a radical radical suggestion. Had it ever occurred to you that in this precise moment you're enough. No. Like, that's it. Yeah. I do feel like your truth secret entertained that hypothesis for a second. You know, like, maybe this precise moment. It's like, oh wait. Everything else is just gravy from here. Yeah, I'll try that. I'll do a meditation on that today. Thanks. Awesome. Awesome. So Chris, thanks so much for joining us for this. Yeah. Do you have a mandate you have? I appreciate that man. Do you have a do you have another ten, 15 minutes to talk about cognitive bias? I want to be really respectful of yours. Yeah, yeah. I'm gonna hop out and attend to baby. Oh, is she awake? Well, I'm just cool. Oh, okay. Nice to talk to you. Thank you, Chris. Most talking to. Didn't expect to go off in that direction, but I'm actually glad I'm glad it did. No, I appreciate it too. Because I feel like are you okay? Yeah, yeah. I'm okay. This is like an ongoing conversation between me and Chris, because I've often been somewhat astounded by how confident he is in himself in the sense that this sort of things that would get me down. He's just like, well, I know that I'm a good writer. And I know that I'm like this that or the other. So I don't have to worry about whether or not the world is acknowledging that I am or not. And I struggle with that more where I feel like I have to prove myself constantly and I'm not giving myself as much space to just prove myself to myself. Yeah. Yeah, no, I hear you, but a lot of feeling will come from feeling whole inner inner wise. Great. Well, so you've been really interested in cognitive bias. And you learned a whole lesson. Now, you really wrote a nerdy blog post that you could probably submit to a scientific journal. With this bias, I mean, you give, did you hear Mike chat with kahneman on this podcast and by any chance? Have you ever listened to that one yet? Obviously, one of the cofounders leading researchers of the cognitive bias literature. But you had new ones that I had never seen before. Well, I've gone down the rabbit hole. Well, I appreciate you're in a safe nerdy space here. You're welcome. So you look, I thought this was really interesting. You literally coined a new bias that I think is really a good one and it's called the single victim fallacy. Can you talk a little bit about what that is? Because I think people's minds because it's almost dawn on people that can be multiple victims. Yeah, yeah. Well, and I think that just arises from these black and white narratives. But what I observed in my own experience was this false notion that if Meredith, the young woman who was raped and murdered is a victim, then anyone else who is within the vicinity of the story can not be a victim. And similarly, like if people say, well, Amanda's a victim, people have treated this case as if I'm not a real victim that there's a real victim, and then there is me. And I wanted to point out, just because Meredith was the original victim in this case, doesn't mean that there couldn't be other people who are victimized from this story. And I wanted to point out this black and white thinking process where it's like there seems to be this sort of zero sum bias that if there is if there's victimization on my part that that somehow takes away from the victimization on Meredith's part. And I want to point out, that's absolutely not true. But I continually have that thrown at me constantly by people online who say like any time that I am asserting my how I have been victimized, I am somehow diminishing the victimization of Meredith. And I push back against that constantly and I, to the point that I felt like I had to define a whole new bias about it. And I think that that happens a lot in wrongful conviction cases, where there is this tendency for people to say, well, because the family of the original victim needs closure, we can not explore the victimization of someone who has been accused. Yeah. There's such a horrible paradox here that Saul calls cast and has pointed out. And that's that being innocent, literally just being actually can put you in increased risk of not being seen as innocent. You know, you even making this point some British tabloids will be like, oh, defensive defensive Amanda. You almost can't win. It's like, what am I not supposed to defend my innocence? I should just shut up. What's the alternative here? You know, that I just shut up. So yeah, that's tough. Yeah. Are you familiar? Do you know sarcasm? Because I know him personally. And he reached out to you when you were in jail. Yeah, yeah. He's a really great guy. And has done a tremendous amount to help me with to process my experience because what goes on in interrogation rooms was completely foreign to me. And he very much after sort of hearing me out what I what I experience shared his research with me and I was just blown away. So anyway. Well, thanks for telling me about his work because I read some of his papers, found really interesting this paper he wrote on the psychology of confessions does innocence put innocents at risk. He said, recent recent research suggests that actual innocence does not protect people across a sequence of pivotal decisions. In pre interrogation interviews, investigators commit false positive errors, presuming innocent suspects guilty. Naively believing in the transparency of their innocence, innocent suspects, wave their rights. This is hard to say because there's a lot of innocent innocence. Despite her because of their denials, innocent suspects, illicit highly confrontational interrogations. This looks like textbook command and knocks, right? All Eva. Yeah. So grateful for his work. So tell me about your keynote that you did the American psychology and law conference. Oh, I mean, I am interested in how the question of why these things happen. And so when I'm invited to give a talk about this experience, I often will ask people like, well, what about what about this experience actually interests you? And looking at this, I was really happy to go to the psychology and law conference because I this is the part about wrongful convictions that I am most keen on. Why do first of all, innocent people end up in this process and how are these institutions sort of built not to not like Sal Cass's research shows that there are lots of ways that innocent people are simply not accounted for in the interrogation room where like if you make if someone accuses you of something and you say, no, no, that's not, that's not what I saw what I did, like the assumption is, oh, you're a guilty person who's lying. And not that you're an actually innocent person. And so the ways that those course of interrogation techniques, which are very, very effective at getting guilty people to confess to crimes, they're also very effective at getting innocent people to confess to crimes. But beyond that, I'm also interested in not just the psychology of the innocent person, but the psychology of the prosecutor and the detective and why it is that they end up honing in on the wrong person, not out of a sense of outright evil or corruption, but out of a sense of human fallacy. Because, again, when I think back to my prosecutor, I was never satisfied with the idea that, oh, this is happening to me just because bad people are doing.
The Psychology Podcast
"amandas" Discussed on The Psychology Podcast
"Be released now. Exactly. Yeah, that's the reasonable assumption that's the reasonable assumption. Yeah, I watched an interview that was done with him where he said he first was attracted to you and then Meredith was kind of like the backup thing. So I know, I know. And he obviously he had talked to me before. Do you reckon he was there that day because of Meredith, or he just thought it might have been an empty house? I think that he probably thought it was an empty house. That's what I'm thinking too. It was the holiday weekend. It was understood that I didn't know this, but apparently the day of the dead the day after Halloween is a very common time for Italian people to go and visit their families and spend time with their families. I didn't know that. But that was the reason why so many of my Italian roommates were gone. And I had just happened to be spending the night over at my new, very new boyfriend's house who I knew of several days. And so I think that he went in there to because he knew the house. He had seen it before. He was looking to break and enter and get some money, that kind of thing. Okay. So let's get a little bit of a picture of Amanda Knox before this tragedy happened. So you wrote, you were a nerdy poetry and language student. You, correct me if all these things I'm saying are wrong, you were a non drinker and non smoker, your favorite pursuits include yoga and quote backpacking long distances with people I know. Your favorite films were Shrek and the full Monty and you like The Beatles and reading Harry Potter books. This is all correct. Yeah, the only thing that I would say is I was an occasional drinker and an occasional smoker at the time. But I was not heavy in either of those situations. But I don't think I was ever a non drinker or you know I went to parties. I went and had drinks with people, but I was not strict about. It wasn't out of control nor was I strict about never having it. Well, that's what you roll your MySpace page probably when you're like 14. Well, yes. MySpace who was a while ago, yeah, yeah. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, exactly. Exactly. Okay, so I get this picture of a young child, young girl who was just really curious about the world really innocent in a way. I sense a sort of innocence to you know sort of like Naya to have a D, how do you say it? Yeah, yeah. Naivete. Yeah. I think that would be accurate. I was the kind of person who really did well in school, never really got into trouble was I worked a number of jobs to save up money. I was a soccer coach for a young girls team and I was also very romantically and sexually inexperienced, so I was definitely like a late bloomer kind of dorky musical theater ren fair kind of individual. We're a musical theater. Oh, I love you. I was an opponent. You were. Me too. That is so I was a voicemail that Carnegie Mellon, my dream was to be javert and Les mis. That is amazing. I love opera and I don't have the voice for it, but man, so much respect. You could. You could have. You could be trained. I think anyone can be trained honestly. Do you ever sing anymore? I do. I do. Awesome. And I try to take lessons every now and then sometimes I even record something just with this microphone and karaoke music from stars from lamest in the background. I posted on my Twitter before. Cool. Yeah, I was inquire, so it's definitely not opera, but I was inquire and I love doing musical theater. Right on right on. You know, my heart really breaks in so many ways for the story, but one way is that I really can resonate with studying abroad. When I was about 24 25 I went over to England to Cambridge and I remember I just remember that what it was like. I remember everyone awkwardly having sex with each other. Everyone drinking, we're all away from home for the first time. They're really isn't innocence there. The last thing you would ever imagine, people say things like, well, why wasn't she more affected outside why is she kissing? Look, it's not like the first thing you assume. You know, in your worldview, you know, your worldview was literally a psychologist called a seismic earthquake. That's what they call it in the post traumatic growth literature, which is working on my next book on post traumatic growth. So this topic is really fun and center in my mind right now. And there's a whole summit of world theory that I think might really interest you if you want to. Tell me more about the seismic eruption. Earthquakes. Yes. Yeah, it's tied to this idea of a summit world theory where we have these traumas and I like to define trauma very broadly as anything any event because who am I to say, oh that counts the trauma or that doesn't count as a trauma, right? Like who am I to say that? In a lot of ways traumas in the eye of the beholder. And any event that causes this complete cognitive restructuring of, oh, I thought the world was safe. Yeah. We're basically you're a basic assumptions of the world are violated. And this happened to you in a span of an hour. Yes. You know? And the people are like, oh, why didn't she act more normal? Like there's any normal way to act when your entire assumptive world has been violated. I really appreciate you actually saying that because it's something that I've had a really hard time explaining to people. I did not go home that morning to take a shower, knowing that I was going to come across a crime scene. And even when it was made apparent to me that there was a crime scene, I had this like it was so surreal to me that I felt a little bit like disembodied. Like what is happening and also am I certain what's happening? Because everyone's yelling in Italian. It was so, so bizarre that I had trouble processing the experience. And a lot has been made of my behavior in those days. There's that footage of Raphael and I outside of that the house waiting for the police to tell us to go into the police station and he kisses me. And the amount of times that that moment of him just sort of trying to do what he could, which was just kind of hold me and kiss me and tell me I'm going to be okay. How that was twisted and distorted in the media into like, oh my God, she's such a sex fiend that she can't even keep her hands off them outside of a murder House. It's like, what is happening? Anyway, so that makes a lot of sense..
The Psychology Podcast
"amandas" Discussed on The Psychology Podcast
"I put it in front of me. And I sort of disassociated from it a little bit and helped me at the very least get through the day. Let's see, that's textbook. So for instance, George, but you didn't know it, that's textbook psychology. You just devised it. But George banana, who was recently my podcast, actually, highly recommend listening to our chat. He just wrote a book called the end of trauma. It's all about his one of the leading researchers on resiliency. And he's really shown that self talk is a major major strategy. He has a whole chapter on self talk in his book. So that's really cool for you to hear that he was just he's just two episodes ago. Can you describe to me what he means by self talk because I'd be curious to know if it has to do with the narrative of one's life that one either feels they have control over or they don't have control over. I'd be interested to know that. I think he's more referring to an extent to which you tell yourself that you have deep reservoirs of resiliency that are untapped that you can handle this. You know, seeing just even saying words to yourself, you know, researchers have looked at the difference between just saying yourself, I can do this. You know what? I faced hard things before. You know, there will be a future versus thinking to yourself. This is it. There's no hope. You know? There's a very, very strong statistically significant difference between those two conditions. Interesting. Yeah, I think that that's squares with my own experience because I even would think to myself at certain times I went through a soccer training a lot when I was a kid and one of the things that I told myself to get through very difficult soccer practices occasionally was I would just do the little engine that could mantra over and over my head. I think I can. I think I can. I think I can. And the thing I really loved about that was the uncertainty. I was like, I think I can. I'm not sure, but I'm gonna try. I'm gonna try to get through this day. We'll see. Well, by the way, that's where you got the nickname Fox and Knox. You probably never want to hear that nickname ever again. But just for the record for this is helpful for you. For the record, you got that nickname because what you kind of like, you played soccer like a fox, like you were like, yeah, so good. I mean, I was so I was one of the smaller players and I was very quick and I was I played this position called top of the diamond, which is the first line of defense. And it's a position where you're constantly squirreling around or to try to steal the ball away from people. So in that way, I end my name rhymes with Fox. So that's how that came about. I want to call nickname. Right? I want a better one. I want a better one than what they called me around your age. When I was that age, they called me Scotty potty. Oh no. Is there just because it rhymes? Okay, no, no, I'll tell you. So I'm a little bit older than you, Amanda, but not by that much. Not by that much, but there was something called the sour patch kids cards back in the day. Have you ever heard of the sour patch kids? Eaten many a sour patch kid, but I did not know that they came with cards. I believe they had cards and one of them was one of the names of one of them was Scotty potty. So that was one of the sour patch kids. I'm pretty sure maybe I'm messing up my 80s references. It was called something else, but there were these cards and then they were a whole collection of these funny things. And are you thinking, are you thinking of the garbage pail kids? Yes. I think garbage can. Okay, okay, so that's just came in. That's a candy. That's a candy. You're right. You're right. Garbage. Well, see you. Okay, thank you. So you know what I'm talking about? Okay. Now I've been trying to change that narrative as an adult. I had a girlfriend of her own volition called me a Scottie two hottie. And I was like, okay, okay, I like that one better. I love that one too 'cause it's not even Scotty hottie. She took it to the next level, like MC hammered it. It was good. That's great. It was a great girlfriend. I just want to say for the rest of it. Appreciate it very much. So here's a quote I found when I was listening to your very interesting interview with Joe Rogan. I thought could set a stage for what we can really get into today. You said, I feel like I'm constantly trapped in a conversation with the fake version of me in people's minds that keeps getting recycled over and over again. That is, first of all, that is good writing. Oh, well. You're obviously going to second of all. That's very powerful. That is very, very powerful and I think a lot of us can relate. I can relate to your story just being very young, I was in special Ed and for an auditory disability I had and I write about this a lot and I wrote about this in various of my books. But the point here is that I felt as though I was reduced to how other people decide to put a label on me. And I feel like there's a connection here to probably how you felt and probably still feel to a large degree where you want to be able to create your own identity. You allow to create your own identity, and that's how I felt certainly as a child fighting my way. I had to actually fought my way out of special Ed and then I fought my way into gifted Ed, and then people still saw me as the special at kid..
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"amandas" Discussed on Terrible, Thanks For Asking
"When do you realize that not only is your story not your own, but that even being exonerated doesn't give you back your story. That is an ongoing problem that my parents knew was going to be an issue for me coming out. I could not have imagined and anticipated how real that problem was going to be. I was aware that in the courtroom, I was a character because I was given nicknames. I was called luciferin and I was called foxy knoxy. And these were all character names that are being talked about in the courtroom and a person that is not me who is being described to a jury and having words put literally into her mouth, like my prosecutor was like, Amanda probably said, oh, this is what you get for being such a pure and innocent girl. Now we're going to force sex on you. Like literal words being put into my mouth as this character. So I understood that there was a character that I was going to be combating in the courtroom. I did not realize how pervasive that character was going to be and how much of a feedback loop there was between the courtroom and the media and the outside world that really gobbled up this character. It really resonated with people for some reason because it was such an easy character to hate. It was such like a cardboard villain. Disney could not have come up with a better evil person than foxy knoxy. And they have tried. They have tried. And you know what? Maleficent could never. She couldn't. And I find that so interesting because you said I didn't really get a chance to have my 20s and I did and they were a shit show Amanda. I hear that. Disastrous. Yeah, you know, it's interesting. One of the running jokes in my family and also between me and my husband is of all the people in our family and in our friend group to have gone to prison Amanda went to prison. She's, you know, so to be represented as this mythological stereotypical girl gone wild, trying to do everything to get male attention was this incredibly misogynistic fantasy that was projected onto me based on nothing whatsoever. So that was unfortunate. And I'm in conversation with that to this day. It is misogynistic because even a true girl gone wild. This one. It contains multitudes, right? Even a girl who will dance on a bar to pour some sugar on me, who will do a keg stand in a dress. And you know what? Like in your 20s, you're being playful, you're experimenting, you're figuring yourself out as a person. I went to parties too. I don't think I've ever done a keg stand in a dress. But like there's nothing wrong with that and one of the things that I also wanted to point out to the world is like, I could have been a professional dominatrix and it shouldn't have mattered. I could have been a girl gone wild and it shouldn't have mattered because the evidence wasn't there. I didn't have anything to do with this. And so the idea that just by virtue of being associated with deviant sex or being associated with alcohol or partying automatically means that you're the kind of person who would rape and murder your friend is a huge leap and is totally unfair and not realistic and it's just amazing to meet the leaps that we can make about someone's guilt based upon something as divorced from murder as cake stands. Having survived this kind of judgment and prosecution in the public sphere, Amanda is very attuned to the way that it shows up in society. How our knee jerk reaction is to divide each other into neat piles of good and bad wind, mostly we're both. And what built up that reserve of nuance or empathy or whatever you want to call it was prison. Yeah, I mean, there's nothing like playing cards with the drug dealer and cooking together with someone who has murdered their own child to put some things into perspective like mental illness and drug addiction and neglect how many women that I encountered in the prison environment who were products of their prior environment, which was very much an environment of abuse and neglect and poverty and that was all they knew. And so I was in this environment where I was one of the few people who had all of my teeth. I was one of the few people who could read and write. I was one of the few people who actually had family who cared about me. I was one of the few people who knew that the earth was round. Who could tell time on a clock? Like this was how much neglect of large number of the women that I encountered in prison were exposed to. And they were survivalists who had made bad decisions in a bad environment and wound up in prison. And how much of that was their fault versus everyone's fault? Doesn't excuse their crimes but does put them into context. And it does speak to how we should treat them because dealing with these issues head on means not just locking people up and blaming them for their mistakes. But addressing the causes that led to them making bad decisions in the first place. I mean, even when we want to keep ourselves separate, and not just from the suffering of other people, but from the badness of other people or the mistakes of other people, we are so connected. There is nothing that happens in a vacuum. Yeah, I agree. And there's a lot of problems in society that we just have decided collectively that we don't want to deal with. So we're just going to let the police and the prosecutors deal with it. And we've only equipped those police and prosecutors with so many methods for dealing with those issues. And those methods are mostly punitive. So are we in a sense reinforcing our own problems by just being punitive because we're choosing not to understand where they're coming from. And are we then making our own society more unsafe because we're putting a band aid on a festering wound? Is it a question I'm constantly asking myself? Yeah. And probably not a question that you would have been asking, had you not been forced into this immersion of this, right? Yeah. I never would have thought of this. First of all, even just true crime as an idea was not something that was on my radar. Again, Voldemort was the closest I got to true crime. I was not at all involved or interested in that subject matter because I grew up in an environment where I just didn't really have to think about that, like that was what bad people had to think about. And I never had to think about that as I just followed the rules and did my thing and again, the police and the prosecutors would deal with that aspect of society that had nothing to do with me. And I very much became awakened to the reality that we are like you said all interconnected and we're all influencing each other. And to this day, I feel like I'm kind of a bridge between those two worlds. The world that I came from where I was totally oblivious, and I felt like I was totally disconnected..
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"Were my hope and pace comes from tonight. If you don't know christ. Apres you talk to god about that but if you do know christ you have to know that our struggles here are not a question of your salvation. But a journey to the promised land of peace and rest here on her. We don't get saved just to hold our breath and get into heaven but to live under promises made to us throughout the bible. The bobble is a love story to us. I have heard a hundred times. How do you deal with so much death in hurt. You are so strong. The bible tells me that when people ask you. Where does your hope come from. That's what i'm supposed to tell them. About god and what he has done for me and about my journey let me tell you it has been a journey to realize how much god loves me. His loved reme- never changes no matter mom mistakes or decisions. My perception of that love is what has changed. You only know love and can give love to the measure of how you are loved here. Starting with your earthly father and mother no parent is perfect. But how you love your own children stars that journey. I forgiven my father because i know he loved us the best he knew how the love he showed my son cole and all his other grandchildren still amazes me. And the fact that i realized that every one of my cnn's past present and future where forgiven at jesus's death on that cross has given me so much relief from guilt and shame that i wasn't good enough or strong enough to be loved when you realize that that's when you can love others unconditionally. Despite who are where they are on their earning. The church in general has to become a hospital to the broken. We have to give love and find mercy to give those such as amanda safe place to grow. We have to extend grace and love not rules and regulations to help them personally. Don't know what.
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"Even though today is tragic and such a sad event. I pray that everyone can have hope that. She is no longer suffering from the battle here on earth but experiencing a love. She never knew. Amanda would've wanted us to celebrate her life and share fond memories with a smile on our face. Let's not dwell on our significant loss but instead focus on paying tribute to amandas life. One thing we can all agree on is that she loved her children. She loved my children. She loved brian's children and she loved. Vivians children when going through thousands of pictures this week honestly i think she was mom's favorite because after she was born she was in most of them i saw him. She enjoyed each one of hers and our babies she was so drawn to children and they connected with her so easily always smiling and laughing with them. She always had a smile on her face even on her darkest days one thing she would say is. It's all good.
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"Being seen by the neighbor on sunday afternoon while his girlfriend was on life support and he was carrying an envelope under his arm got into his vehicle and he was never to be singing or heard from again. Well if any of us are going to be active on social media. It's not hard to find where any of us are. Especially if we are using the name that we all know each other by so according to his social media.
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"So she sitting on her knees a five feet long iron cord loosely tied to the clothing ride and somehow magically around her neck without being tied off like a new sore even wrapped around more than once. How would it cause that much damage. Considering her height. I can literally go into my closet right now. Under the same thing. Except at actually looping around my neck unlike how amanda was found an. I'm only five to. I would tie it to my clothing. Rod very loosely. Sit on my knees and nothing is going to happen if the core was even tied enough or i was very drunk. Might pass out at the most and this is just my unprofessional viewpoint and opinion but amandus injuries were below her high oid bone and nothing around her jal on which is important to note and can be seen in the photos. Higher lower next strap muscles were hemorrhage and abrasions. Along the ligature line in the report the detective who is no longer credible in my eyes at all for reasons. In past episodes said quote i applaud fingerprint powder to the iron and could see some palm impressions along the handle of the iron and a tip of a finger along the side of the iron. I was able to lift these however it did not have enough detail for comparison and was smudged. There were no usable krantz located on the box cutter in quote. For good reason. The family does not trust the detectives analysis at all. He personally did this himself and was already sticking to his narrative of suicide. The family states that they feel a lot of pressure must be applied to cut an electrical cord. Especially if the person cutting it has a blood alcohol level of point three eight four pictures and video of the recreation of the scene. Where sent to kimberly and they were not done with her present. Authorities claim that the cord they use for the recreation was the exact same link as that of the one found at the scene looking at the photos. This cord they use for the recreation looks much longer than five feet. You can also be the judge of that when you see these photos. Kimberly questioned the cord links used during the recreation and she requested to save the original core taken into evidence from the scene to measure them both and take more detailed pictures and they said no. Why sherman police department admitted they were so-called crappy photos. Kimberly is five feet tall. And i have a picture of her standing. Next to the actual clothing rod that amanda was claimed to be hanging. This clothing. rod in the recreation seems much taller. They denied kimberly of seeing any of these props for herself. An even debated on releasing the video and photos in the beginning. In fact i almost one hundred percent guarantee you. This clothing rod is a few feet higher. If the dummy they used for the recreation is almost six feet tall. If you stood the dummy up that clothing rod recreation would be a little over six feet tall by my guestimation. We'll be posting these pictures everywhere for you all to see and judge for yourselves the way the cord is tied around the dummies neck and a crisscross pattern does not explain the circular ligature mark under amandas layer next at all. The iron cord is criss cross. And they place did around the back of her neck but it would not make a circle like the one on amandas neck because there is no circle in front where the ligature mark was and it went all the way around as a strangled from behind as far as the recreation goes. All we have photos and videos to go by witch. Don't look accurate to the items at the scene and the height of the clothing. Rod is definitely incorrect. If that domain they used is actually almost six feet tall. The core also seems much longer than five feet. You can lean a stiff dummy into a cord all day long but that doesn't compare to a very drunk young woman sitting on her knees as far as brian espana which is his alias that he goes by and i'm not sure if anyone knows his actual birth name outside of his family but in past episodes at talked about him.
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"The recreation in my opinion was so terribly. Done and kimberly is not convinced by the videos and pictures that she was sent. And i'm definitely not either from the initial reports about the scene when officers. I got to the apartment. Compared to the recreation is completely different in the report. It said the iron core had been pulled so tightly that it stretched the copper from the insulation crumbs scene photos of the code word. Do not show that. Brian claimed to have broken the core of the iron with his bare hands. If he can do that. Easily wouldn't amandas body way cause it to break what really caused her lower neck. Strap muscles to hemorrhage and abrasions. Along the ligature line the core was in my opinion clearly cuts and not broken will post all of these pictures on instagram along with the recreation photos which i have not posted yet so these will be brand new to all you and our love to hear your opinions so if you saw the initial pictures of the cord tied to the clothing rod. That cord was so loosely tied to that clothing rod on the left and the right and there were absolutely no knots around her neck nor was it a loop around her neck like a news. So how did she get that. Circular ligature mark around her lower net slightly above the collarbone. That didn't set off any red flags to any authorities in these photos. You'll finally see the way. The core was claimed to be an a curse cross position on her neck. Not around her neck at all. Another issue that is brought up is about the length of the cord which was reported in jeb jones's report to be five long in comparison to how brian claims he found amanda on her knees along with her height which was five seven and the height from the floor to the clothing rod. None of the measurements at up to the injuries sustained. She would have had only two and a half feet of iron core to us once. The five fetish was tied at two points on the rod. So david the co worker friend and neighbor of. Brian claims that brian lifted amanda of umbro. The co word so that means. Brian actually had the ability to hold amanda of embrace the iron chord with his bare hands at the same time. The number of injuries and marks on amandas neck insinuates. To kimberly and myself. To be honest that the board would have been twisted. Two or three times for those marks to be created the biggest part of this whole case. That has me. Utter disbelief is that the authorities and doctors are taking the word of an abusive boyfriend over everyone else's statements. This man's unusual form of physical abuse was choking amanda. He definitely physically hurt her and other ways but he constantly choked her very day. She told her friend amber quote. He said he was going to choke me if he does it again. Afraid i won't wake up two to three witnesses also told jones that. How is this even allowed to happen. That police and others take the word of someone like this. Brian was in known abuser. And the police knew it officer. Boil new amandas dangerous situation and about brian's warrants. Brian lied in his statements and the detective wide and reports making statements that were not even said that is absolutely horrifying. So get this part. Detective wrote quote. There were also marks around her neck consistent with electrical cord being wrapped in a loop around her lower net than going vertical behind her ears. This is consistent with the cord found at the scene and being tied to the closet rod with her kneeling down..
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"But there was nothing that came out of these efforts. The only reply that she received was from texas representative reggie smith secretary who said she received the mail. She offered condolences for kimberley's loss and stated that representative smith could not get involved in local. Police matters in early twenty eighteen. Kimberly and her husband followed up on other families in similar situations. Many were hiring outside agencies to reinvestigate and hopes to have cases reopened so in february of twenty eighteen. Kimberly decided to hire a private group from north carolina. This group claimed to have technology to recreate crime scenes and a roundtable of season experts. Who come together to decide. If a crime scene had been staged the private detective in the group actually had ties with gracing county within a couple of months. Kimberly was notified that the group was ninety. Nine percent sure. Amanda had been murdered. This private investigator personally. Came to sherman texas to tell kimberly the news after thousands of dollars and countless hours there was a hopeful chance to have amandus case reopened finally in july of tourney eighteen. The agency reached out to the sherman police department for a meeting to present their findings. Assistant chief jeffcoat assigned lieutenant. Nick emmons to be the non-bias contact from the police department. This is unbelievable. Detective jones's supervisor jason jeffcoat. Who is now the assistant. Chief of police assigned one of the first to responding officers on the singing to be the liaison between a private investigation agency. Hired by amandus family to be an unbiased contact. Nick amines already had his mind made up long ago. There's no way he was unbiased. Kimberly did not want this meeting to happen so she completely shut it down. It was apparent that the agency representative was not prepared so she fired the agency. She also contacted nick emmons and he agreed to recreate the crime scene to ease kimberley's concerns and answer their questions in august of twenty eighteen. This part is what led to the phone. Call with nick emmons that.
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"Same time they were aware going into the meeting that they would not change their stance regarding amandas death. The moland respectfully disagreed with their opinion.
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"Yes i just need answers wa her injuries. Go down and not a mean in a horizontal. They're not mean there to the sportive magazine. We know that we know that he will seem young. Choker out from sit orleans. Thanks like that we know that. And this is the perfect thing were goes back. And nothing's going up. You look at nothing or luger is going up at all as hanging. Well so and one leisure's going down. I mean hangings can be grotesque in nature. You have looked at lots of pictures and so a person's body starts to do that. Moment can be gruesome and exaggerated right. And so don't be. You'll not being an expert on twitter saying making you conclusion from just looking at this just because warm. Her heart was still having electrical activity so she hadn't been down very long. I mean she was still warm to the touch and and different things. Pursued your wife. I think detective visas. I mean this guy even. He tried to resuscitate her. So people look at different. And i'm not saying that that is causing overtake right. Well even did it. I mean that's his word and he got to walk away not not and never seen again. I mean he just want to say those as people taking information in and what. What do they see that s. I'm not saying look look at. That is one way or the other utilities at talking even tried to do this. Also say that was from cpr that actually from week as the mazda. Gifty ask c. u. nurses that he said that was from cpr. That's an old bruce. Miss the guy that was a state. It was five days before he punched her with his fist and the chest. It's vistaprint so i mean he also settled. He's very evil. Man killer she lackey threatening tillerson and come back and kill her family is she was terrified for a laugh isn't closure it isn't it doesn't it. Doesn't doesn't sell you one way or the other and i'm not to sell you all okay. I understand your sisters life and that you're you're fighting to find some answers here and so what does your police protocol for domestic violence calls if you've got me if somebody as boiled detective jones there's a domestic violence situation is it not automatically to relax. Homicide mean if there is domestic violence involved again. Any death is death okay. Short of ever even have note. Somebody else could wrote that. You have to have a suspicious mind on any death. That is the protocol suspicion. It should be entered into suspicious. Now the state law tells us howard hand most domestic violence situations. Can that if you have probable cause to believe that it happened which means you have evidence that can lead you that way that you make an arrest even if it's if it ends up in verse k. Officer would respond to that and she'd had renoir center chest the job at night but he just he just said he found her hanging mean with a history male. Just be like. Hey we need to take you in for questioning or something you know. He just was treated like a victim..
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"To bite off Somebody else's investigation of. I believe that. Okay as what they said. Oh well they don't wanna make us mad probably talking. I mean we don't have any tears. Ground here okay. it's we're not. we're not gonna not send him a case be conflict and two guys talking. Yeah i did. And i mean we like britain. I think he knows us in that rapper. Everybody truly believe we do. We do provide a service okay. We ran along worth of servicemen citizen. players money ride. You want that done. We should be the law enforcement professional experts. And we'll be writing to get there. We fell short before as well be an example of that and we we we feel that. She fell short of her due process. She deserved because she was you know very often. She does not all and he's to me. She did have a history of human even even as wrongly you know jordan people just the way they look and don't get the service they deserve and that's what we're finding wars if she didn't get his service that she deserves whether she was suicide or not to fix that as we're at the rubber trying to fix whether i don't know i don't know exactly that there is a things that just to be. I mean cuddly off that i. I don't know that we can ever convince you. That maybe enough. I mean for me to really trust here and just be honest with you and say reviewed it in talk with a couple of people in there. Were some people that i intentionally do. Not up and that. I try to bring him down a certain scope. Okay and i try to bring that in now in the fine that i mean i get that fans of holly or suicide would information. We do guy without me personally. Mackin redoing an entire investigations. And okay. one would reasonably say ceus End of the day. That's where i'd come that. I i can't sit here and say with all. This is a homicide to go about this okay. His intentions from the beginning was to be a suicide because on sunday. We thought we're gonna lose her because her brain had swollen so much that her breathing has shut down and so we worked hard to get to j. p. on the phone to talk to him because that's the only person that could approve an autopsy. We get him on the phone like at nine o'clock at night and he's talking to depending doctor and he's like oh we're not doing an autopsy because of her past history doctors like. Hey no i mean that's not fair because there's some things that don't make sense to this family in cheese. You know i get on the phone. I talk to him. he's like no. I'm sorry we're not doing an autopsy because we're history. Where did he get that information. From thursday to sunday his none of this domestic violence had come up until tuesday. So i feel like jeff. Jones had his his mindset. That not that that this was a suicide. What so. I had to pull the laws and say she's entitled to an autopsy because you know she was an death. I mean i don't care for suicide. Homicide it she. She's entitled to by the states where to go to the da's office singing approval and just the deal. There were so there are so many conversations that go on any anything like this near any investigation. If i hadn't been her advocate short. And i've got an autopsy. She went and got more yet. And that's not in the rally of it. That's not police pharma. Call so we. I know he and i both have been in situations where we have had to fight j. p. to give not also have jp know about her past medical history. He just got a phone call. Miller not saying you know she's gonna die when we need to know where to send her body. I mean yeah search. Jones may very well have told him about that but as part of the perfection of the system in this excuse nor does it make it even better. But i have said they're uncomfortable with the death and talk to the gp missing now. We're gonna do that. No i need it. I don't see this the way you see it. Well ma call now enough for me. And i have gone to the day p dodgy people at the office in for that i get an. Y'all did that work that quite honestly take donald trump dumps out and again They can't may right or feel like like our servers to you was what is the she. She receives the investigation received whether it ended up in a homicide or suicide. Either way that it was something that like you said really fit what needed to be done so again. I'm not trying to convince you that is a suicide. I'm just just letting you know that. His review everything There's nothing they can overwhelming. And i don't want to let us for reference on the like football you get a call retarded getting overwhelming evidence to say that somebody's laugh. It's seriously football not the but you understand how we have to rely on the him. He's office. I i mean where. Where do you even with the beginning. His office were even their portion of it. You won't find in grayson county. You will not find us going into any homicide. Were murder without the emmys office being critical portion of that destiny it it does not happen. The da the da's office. We realized we don't have our own local. And we don't have a corner so we we do suffering grayson county from not having that avenue. I don't know that i'd want a corner. There voted there even a medical professional ride. So we sit down we and take the extra stepasin out of dallas. Because of the number of ami professionals at the half there's a reason that dallas and not collin county. I don't know calling counties these office. I'll have anything on only to two in dallas has in pm fifteen. I guess i have to research the standard protocol to rule out homicide versus. Because i just think that information should've went with her in. That would have been a huge difference in the outcome will. There's not the emmys offers standard protocol. I mean as part of the task investigations. That you don't have an abc you're looking at. You're trying to look at the whole picture and not do kind of what you said earlier. But not bloggers look at whole thing as a whole sir finish. How far back ago star iraqi goes or our board ryan what could be what would have been so again. I'm not again. i'm not darna convince you. That is one way or the other. But.
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"That is always a great option as well. You can start a greek journal. Writing is such a great outlet for many people also. It is vital that you remember to take care of yourself. Make sure you're getting rest. You're eating making town for self care. You can also start a hobby or try to focus on something that you love to do. It'll help keep your mind busy. Do not ever forget that you can handle the sadness and the unfortunate loss. You are resilient and can conquer those sad feelings it does take time and work but you can do it and i believe in all of you when you go through your struggles and hardships come out on the other side stronger than ever before. Now that you will enjoy again. Amanda would want that for all of you. The hardest part possibly dealing with survivor's guilt is accepting that the truth and the answers that you so badly warrants may never come you almost try your hardest not to get stuck in a hall of depression as you try to dig for understanding. Try your best not to get wrapped up in the wise in. What ifs and do what. Amanda would want you to do which is live your life to the fullest. She wanted that for herself and she wants that for you all to. You can honor her in that way to see our family. Happy is what i feel. She would want amandas. Body was transferred to the southwest. Do perincic science. The evening of may twentieth on may twenty first. The autopsy was performed at ten that morning and the death certificate was completed. Meanwhile kimberly and her husband justin as the landlord if they could collect amandas belongings from the apartment. The landlord said they could and told them to take everything including bryant's personal items that he left behind when he fled such as his computer. Close family letters from guatemala. Toiletries fake immigration papers and more. This is kimberly took pictures of everything in the apartment including the closet on may twenty second. Kimberly received a call from the funeral. Home in sherman. Texas saying that. Amanda had arrived that morning funeral director toll. Kimberly that the medical examiner joe urban ruled suicide by hanging on a man's death certificate naturally with so many suspicious details surrounding amandas debt. Justin cobb larry atherton the justice of the peace and asked permission to speak with the medical examiner when they got in touch with docker gio urban. Kimberly asked what determined amandas. Death suicide by hanging versus homicide strangulation. Her answer was that. Amanda did not have any defensive wounds and her high. Oy bound was intact. She went on to explain to kimberly. That wound amandas body was brought to her. She was told that it was possible suicide by hanging. She given no other information details reports motors from seen the core of the iron or even told about the injuries. She sustained from brian prior to getting remarks on her neck. Dr jill urban had no idea. How long amanda had any of her injuries from kimberley's glob. She says quote our questions then became how can a complete an accurate autopsy be performed when the only information provided with suicide by hanging. Wouldn't that limit your focus to one cause of death. What is the possibility that she would call the detective. And say hey. This is suspicious of homicide. Is that how forensic pathology works. I don't know. But i'm open to input in a book by dr tinashe. Ryo apperances pathologies. He explains that death due to strangulation. Has some general features. Evidence of violent compression or constriction of the neck during lie is obtained by the presence of bruising or economic crisis about neck hemorrhages in the strap muscles under the skin. Kimberly goes on to say. All of that was present. In my opinion. It seems possible for her to have all the trauma present by her sitting on her knees leaning forward into accord not time her less than ten to fifteen minutes are brian. He told me he saw her sitting in the window when he drove up to the house. So with the blood alcohol of point three eight four. She managed to do everything.
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"Clothing. Iron plus what. He not have injuries on his hands from breaking in electrical cord. It's not impossible to break one. But it would be extremely difficult and take quite a while longer than he claims. It took just to easily get it off of her. Just for the sake of argument unplugging electrical cord and try your best to break it with your bare hands men that i have talked to say damn near impossible to do either way. Evidence clearly shows that it was cut and the box cutter close by is crew. Just another one of bryan's lives as far as the outstanding warrants. The detective claimed that he was not informed of any warrants. However the first officer. On the scene officer sam boyle was well aware of the warrants an history of domestic violence. He is the one who called the detective end to look over the case. In addition he offered to call amandus family about the incident because he knew the family and the violent history so essentially the detective said boyle did not disclose this information on the scene. He even said the warrants. Don't show up in county records. And that he could not just go around arresting innocent people he even said if he were called out to a house during thanksgiving and people had warrants or one person had punched other that he would try not to make an arrest. Also kimberly can access. Brian criminal records as a citizen but the crime investigation department cannot another reason that the detective said that this was most likely suicide was that there were no witnesses. But that's not true. Three people came forward and told him that she was terrified for her right and had to be out of that apartment by seven o'clock or bryant said specifically he would choke and kill her one witness. Mrs thompson reported the threat. That very night in the coming days prior to amanda being cornell's dead in the mullins meeting at sherman police department many told the detective all about the dangerous abuse. Amanda in new word including strangulation incidents. There were also statements in the meetings such as this is not tv. Csi and families just can't accept suicide. Unfortunately kimberly justin started to realize this was already being treated as a suicide and everything they said was dismissed and explained away. Jim said that the detectives demeanor was completely closed off and he was not truly listening. When kimberly asked runs could not be considered suspicious or homicide. Detective jones responded. There was nothing indicating that she was leaving and there were no defensive mars so at the end of the meeting. The detective said that he would not make any final decisions until the all tops was done. Kimberly and justin agreed hoping and praying. The autopsy will give them the answers that they knew in their hearts and with some basic common sense would agree that her death was suspicious and not suicide. I am absolutely going to elaborate a lot. More on this subject in part by there are some deep rooted issues that i need to discuss and you will have to wait to find out exactly what that is. All i can say right now is that it involves possible corruption in the grayson county police departments as well as people who work with an around law enforcement. There is a lot that i have found and it is wild. The next day may twentieth twenty three the organ harvest teams spoke to someone at the medical examiner's office to ensure organ harvest would not interfere with the autopsy. They reassured kimberly. The organ harvest would not interfere which was good news with the oregon harvest scheduled kimberly and the asi universe. Too detailed pictures of is now six day old injuries before the heart rendering task of taking her sister off of life support. Amanda was now free of this cruel world the pain the violence and she could finally have the piece that she always wanted while she was living. It is so sad and unfair that she did not get to leave that apartment to be with her children and experience the pace in happiness that she deserved while she was still alive. Brian espana is to blame from his grooming and control to allegedly getting away with murder. At least for amanda was afraid to stay afraid to leave and afraid to tell law enforcement. She felt anything she did would be the wrong thing to do and brian would not only make her pay the consequences for it but he made sure that she knew that her kids and her family would to. That is no way for any person to leo. Amanda was terrified. That ryan would do something to her family. The insanity of domestic violence is the victim day in order to stay alive many times. They are brainwashed to believe that staying protects their loved ones are dead as well amandus family now realizes that much of the reason she stayed with this evil man was to protect them grayson. County law enforcement seems to have the general attitude of. I don't know why she didn't record it or i don't know why people don't report these things. Education about coercive control and family. Violence would dispel this ignorance. Also want to address survivors outs. I believe survivor's guilt is something that is so difficult for the people going through it. You wish you could have done more to prevent the event from happening but you must know it's not your fault and there's nothing more than anyone could have done for. Amanda as much as you all wish you could. She was his possession even though she did not want to be. He had the control and she tried her hardest to escape the many murders. That have happened when someone has attempted to leave. Their abuser is not talked about as much as it should be it so important for your family to express your feelings and process your emotions. It is crucial to talk to those you trust or in online group for example facebook groups that are for people going through the same things to connect and talk. Not everyone feels comfortable going to a counselor but of course.
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"amandas" Discussed on Reverie True Crime
"Sister amanda had established a plan with her friend. Amber command on the morning of may fifteenth. Amanda had packed her things and was ready to leave the violent relationship that she was with brian. Espana she told amber on the fourteen that she was sure that it would be okay to stay one more night. Even though brian said that he would choke and kill her if she was not out of the apartment by seven pm that night sadly amanda was numb to his death threats and his physical abuse unfortunately the night of the fourteenth was the night she suffered irreversible brain damage. Believed to be bob ryan using a ligature to intentionally stop her breathing and blood circulation. He had done this to her so many times except this time she didn't wake up. She succumbed to her injuries. Six days later her abusive boyfriend claimed that amanda hanged herself. His stories are ever changing. He is the most unreliable witness to save a lease but law enforcement took the side of a violent a liar and manipulator amandas loved ones and people who don't even know her personally are raising their eyebrows at this story of suicide because it makes no sense ryan's accounts of what happened seem entirely false and how law enforcement sided with him instead of also taking the countless witnesses statements into consideration along with brian's tenure violent criminal record in grayson county. There are several prior family end domestic violence related charges. That had been filed against brian. Do to assault on ex girlfriend emily. As well as amanda the night of the incident he had two outstanding warrants related to the twenty fourteen assault mentioned in an earlier episode. There are so many details to this case and.