"Today story takes us to the streets of Buffalo New York where Jeff learned to work hard to support his drinking and partying. He didn't consider though the high price is family would pay for his addictions. My name is Jeff. Every upper cougar from the six nations Indian. As a little boy I was taken to church. Don't remember a whole lot about going and learning the word of God. I did learn how to take the offering money and use that to go to the store. Buy Candy once. I realized that my family or my dad that dropped her off wasn't wasn't gonNA come back until after the service was over so once we realized that it was just a matter waiting for him to pull away from the church. I'm you run out the door. And run to the star with their quarter and back done ever saw a quarter went a long way. So you can get a good amount of candy for that but You know growing up in. I now live in Buffalo. New York was shot. It was Kinda diverse. You know you had a neighborhood. She had the Italian neighborhood to head. Puerto Rican neighborhood. Step Black neighborhood saw being a native in the city is is a little rough because of the prejudice that goes on. And you know you're kind of torn of WHO YOU'RE GONNA follow like in high school me being a big guy. They would always ask me about. Who Said are you on and our strike. While I'm mad at anybody said you know and if you didn't take this I decided we'd get mad at you 'cause it was always a black and white thing as far. Orissa the racial tensions that go on and I didn't really like being put in that situation. I have kicked out of high school in the eleventh grade and basically wandered around for a year. Because you couldn't take td class unless you are out of school for for a year. So the year there was just a lot of Running around and partying intimidate that. Go on to get my ged. I did go onto truck driving school but I never got a job as driving a truck because he wanted to years over the road experience before they would allow you to To drive so that didn't work out. I became a certified welder. Want to welding school and get my certificate in welding and didn't even really get a jab welding either. Harissa was hired as a machinist. It wasn't until after that I did get a chance to to go to a company and to get to get more wealth than experience and got into the Union but I you know I realize you. The job said I had had many and But they were to support my my drinking habit which now I realize is Is An addiction. Because it's not a habit. It's it's an addiction that has control over. Not only you but your whole life and It type. A bandaged said that the world public sizes and makes everything look Lake it's it's a good thing to do and and look back now. I realized that it wasn't it was the wrong way to go but I was doing the things that that my father dead. My father worked at General Motors for thirty five years and he was an alcoholic and he wasn't always always there and I learned to To drink into parody into high tincture my parents at an early age. Because I I left. Home Managua's fifteen sixteen years old and I mean a lot of a lot of time and a lot of empty spaces in between the things that I did until I got older. I started out working structural steel when I was sixteen years old because they lied on my application and the reason I did that why so I would get into the IR work in industry and make good money because what the good money you have. More money to to drink and party was so it wasn't hard to do today. Found out that I had lied that my application and they let me go did sports. I played basketball under swim team. I played football street hockey in a neighborhood. And these these things here which glorified and and Sports. Today's that they are basically and worked Drinking and partying and after the game everybody costs to the buyer and drinks and if other a winter our loss and it was a win. Because we're a pretty good team and Lacrosse. And so we had a lot to celebrate but after at the Party was over the celebration was over. rushing really over for me. I just continued on and continue drinking parody and then during the ten said that the party never end what debt a lot of a problems came up because not only ruined relationships but it also ruins families and You know these are. These are some of the things that go along with that that you're not really told us because it's so glorified into world pet. You know real men drank and work hard and party hard and in how many. How many women did you can score? West is all glorify too. You know that that's what makes you a man but I did get into working into bars because six three. I was three hundred and fifteen pounds so I made a good good doorman and being a doorman. You're you're open up to not only thing set our into Bardem sows as far as Drugs and alcohol and women and these types of things. You're put into a position where your feelings are tying to master over by alcohol and the things that are going on around here For going to life and going through these things and I know road debt that I now realize as they wrote of destruction and that's exactly what it does. It's a destructive way of life that we as as natural people don't don't WanNa realize until most of the time it's too late I Did meet up with the woman eventually. married and starting not to have children so when. I was thirty four years old. I had done a lot of a lot of things in my life ahead a lot of different experiences in my life that I did But we're going into bars and and being a guy who you get drawn into a a little more I Got Into Basically collecting money for people who are owed money. I rather gestation. Her robbed a couple of gas station derived about when in their tissues in my size and my strength to basically strong-armed people to give meter money. It was getting to a point in my life where I was. I was feeling unstoppable and and it was either Me Killing somebody or or me being killed myself but really what had impact it was when my wife now which we were we weren't married. She should last me because of my lifestyle for drinking and he anger work. That took the kids and laugh. Can She just told me? Flat out that this isn't achieve and she didn't want our children to be around and You know I looked at it and I said well meeting can tap and before she's left and come back soon as things calm down. I went right back to the same things that I used to"