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Christmas and I'll be published by. Next Tuesday and I just like how these goals and then when they didn't happen and I would write this book and it still doesn't work and this is junk and I throw it away and I'd start a new one and it's still terrible and I still can't do this in like I would just be so hard on myself and get so frustrated. And at the time I felt like I was wasting time and like all of these pages you just wrote in their junk and it's such a waste in why can't get this right and now I look back and I realized it wasn't wasted time. They weren't wasted pages. That's how I was learning. That's what I needed to be doing. And so I wish that I could have just like relaxed a little bit and taken some of the focus off of getting published, getting published as awesome, and it's a great dream to have. But I wish that I had maybe not been so stressed out getting published and taken more time to actually enjoy the process and enjoy the journey that I was on because I can look back now and realized how magical it was. Yeah. No, that's like. I used to do the deadline thing to like I started I started quarrying at like fifteen or sixteen. I just ridiculously y'all had no business trying to sell it but like. I think the era Gorn trilogy had come out and so he was like fifteen when he did. So I was like I mean it's arrest of us. We're like we're failures. I was like he did it. So like obviously it's a thing that can be done. Right I'm going to be a published author by the time on fifteen, fifteen and sixteen, and then it was like, okay by the time I finished high school, I'm going to have a novel on a shelf in Barnes and noble. Spoiler alert that did not have. But. There's always college that's like a whole four years right? Like I should be good enough at the end of these four years that like time I graduated college I'll be a published author. And met in quite so you can't go but like. An I to was very impatient. So like normal people would write a book. Polish. It like do the whole query process or whatever pick up a bunch of rejections and then be like, okay. Something's not working. How can I improve this book? Right? How can I make this better? I'm GONNA write a better book. Pretty. Much My. I just did that like fifteen times. The books got better at it was cool because I did feel as though I was learning things. So I would I would finish a book and realize that I did a really cool like character thing with this book or with the next one. I was really interested in plotting structure and so like the architecture of that now so I figured out how to do that, and then in the next one I created the setting that I was really proud of, and it was just a matter of trying to get all those things to happen at the same time. So I did feel as though I was making progress but like a Lotta time was passing and I still wasn't being published. So. If I had advice that I would give to any aspiring writers, it would be to love writing. That I think has been the single greatest thing that is like push me through because I tell people oh, like I wrote fifteen books before you know Bee's came out and they're like. And like you think about it, any other line of work any other line of work where for fifteen years? They're like no, like you can't do this or like you're doing it wrong or you're not like what we're looking for. For fifteen years straight you've got. Oh, maybe I just need to find a different line of work right? What I just loved storytelling so much I love just even like nerdy things like putting the ways that you could put sentences together like I loved that stuff. So there was no way that I wasn't going to write it just a matter of whether or not I was going to be on Barnes and noble Shelford out. And I think that's also really important to the like have the love of writing feel where the passion comes from because even like a lot of people when you're aspiring you see publication is the goal. This is the end goal. It's not the end goal you get your first book published and then you write another one and then write another one. And the game changes like there's there's different pressures and different stressors and deadlines, and you know suddenly like editors and people who care what you're doing with your time all day. But There's a lot of writers once they get to that point. They kind of let the pressure get to them and it can be really easy to do. But if you have that internal love of writing, you can always come back to that like that never goes away that can't be taken away. And so I think that's so much more important than than publication or anything else that comes along with it. Great Advice I'm kind of a little inspired to write myself but the reality is I don't even like writing email also. Probably should not, be writing books. I'd love to open it up to audience questions. You right there. So the question was have you ever written something wrong and if so do you just continue forward without or or how do you fix that? For, me I like to write really really fast drafts. So what I'm powering through a draft if I write something and then after I've written, it actually just happened to me today as a matter of fact when I was writing on the airplane coming here. And I realized that this plot twists had happened and wait no actually it should have gone this way and this would make the story way way better. And so I'll just go back in every chapter that that plays a role. I'll leave a note at the top of the chapter changed this to this change this to this, and then I just pretend that I've made the change and just keep on writing as if it's already been made. oftentimes, when I'm writing, there'll be what I call happy accidents. I plot in general broad brush strokes, and then I start doing chapter outlines but I do like maybe a couple chapter outlines like three before I actually start drafting so that I know where I'm going but at the same time I leave myself enough room to be surprised because characters often do things that I had initially planned. There's this sort of really magical that happens where they decide to surprise you or decide that. Oh, you have an outside Oh wouldn't it be a shame if something happened to it So there's an sometimes I just let myself be guided by that, and then like change the outline accordingly. Yeah. There's a famous quote writing is rewriting and it's true you have to rewrite. You have to revise all the time. So this is the end of this panel. I know you all had more questions what you will have a chance to meet them for a second and get your book signed. That was a conversation between Marissa Mayer and Toe Tsiana Bucci from the Portland Book Festival in two thousand eighteen. The Portland Book Festival Twenty Twenty Lineup has just been announced the festival take place online and on the Radio November fifth through the twenty-first for more information about the author lineup and schedule visit Liberate Dash, Arts Dot Org. This has been literary arts the Archive Project, it's a retrospective of some of the most engaging talks from the world's best writers for more than thirty five years of Literary Arts and Portland. Join. US next time for the archive project a literary arts production in collaboration with Oregon Public Broadcasting. 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