<Speech_Female> So <Speech_Female> <SpeakerChange> you know <Speech_Female> that there's people <Speech_Female> that have <Speech_Female> helped me along a <Speech_Female> lot of people <Speech_Female> but let <Silence> me say first of all <Silence> <Speech_Female> <SpeakerChange> <Silence> jeff and marian <Speech_Female> thank <Speech_Female> you <Speech_Female> for <Silence> encouraging me to surrender <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> both of you speaking <Speech_Female> truth <SpeakerChange> in my life that <Silence> i did not want to hear <Silence> sorry. <Speech_Female> <SpeakerChange> <Silence> Thank you for <Silence> that. <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> And then i have <Speech_Female> my friends <Speech_Female> lianne and kim <Speech_Female> who sat down <Speech_Female> with me right before i <Speech_Female> started restarted. <Speech_Female> The the journey ruth <Speech_Female> and i him some of <Speech_Female> my ideas <SpeakerChange> <Speech_Female> and instead of saying <Speech_Female> oh. That's a really good idea. <Silence> that's great <SpeakerChange> <Speech_Female> instead. <Speech_Female> They asked really <Speech_Female> hard hard <Speech_Female> hard questions. <Speech_Female> And i <Speech_Female> like i asked <Speech_Female> myself. <SpeakerChange> Why <Speech_Music_Female> did i invite you to dinner. <Speech_Female> Get <Speech_Female> why <Speech_Female> these people <Speech_Female> in my life that like. <Speech_Female> Call me out and <Speech_Female> see these really hard questions. <Speech_Female> <SpeakerChange> Oh <Speech_Female> that's right because it's really <Silence> good for me. <Speech_Female> It's good <Speech_Female> for you to <Speech_Female> find those people that <Silence> are gonna ask the hard questions <Silence> <SpeakerChange> <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> and some of <Speech_Female> what drives the journey. <Silence> Ruth is is <Speech_Female> because <Speech_Female> they helped me figure <Speech_Female> out what it was <Speech_Female> that was supposed to be <Silence> driving the <SpeakerChange> journey ruth <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> and finally <Silence> listeners. <Speech_Female> You guys not <Speech_Female> even knowing <SpeakerChange> the whole story <Speech_Female> have been so <Speech_Female> a <Speech_Female> firm affirming <Speech_Female> in <Speech_Female> what god has taught me <Speech_Female> in the last ten months <Speech_Female> You guys have seen <Speech_Female> online. Sometimes <Speech_Female> i've i've been <Speech_Female> late to post <Speech_Female> or <Speech_Female> You know not been <Speech_Female> on on social media <Speech_Female> for like a week at <Speech_Female> a time. <SpeakerChange> Whatever <Silence> it might be <Speech_Female> and i <Speech_Female> i will come on and say. Hey <Speech_Female> guys so sorry. I you <Speech_Female> know posted <Speech_Female> at late. I had <Speech_Female> this going on with my kids <Silence> and my marriage <Speech_Female> and you guys <Speech_Female> do not miss <Silence> a b. to say <Speech_Female> you made <Speech_Female> the right choice <SpeakerChange> <Speech_Female> and you guys don't even <Speech_Female> like <Speech_Female> you didn't even know <Speech_Female> that this was what was going <Speech_Female> on in my mind that that <Speech_Female> to say to <Silence> say yes <Speech_Female> to the <Speech_Female> whatever it was <Speech_Female> and to say <Speech_Female> no to the podcast <Speech_Female> and to know was <Speech_Female> going to come out. Late was <Silence> really hard for me. <Speech_Female> <SpeakerChange> Because i love <Speech_Female> you guys as the listeners. <Silence> And i want to <Speech_Female> outer <Speech_Female> you guys by keeping <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> up with the schedules <Speech_Female> and getting you guys <Speech_Female> information. <Speech_Female> But you guys have been so <Speech_Female> affirming <Speech_Female> in saint <SpeakerChange> courtney you made <Silence> the right choice <Silence> while <Speech_Female> done <SpeakerChange> <Speech_Female> a good job. So can i say thank <Speech_Female> you guys <SpeakerChange> as listeners <Speech_Female> and the fact that <Speech_Female> some of you <Speech_Female> guys <SpeakerChange> <Speech_Female> have just stuck <Speech_Female> around and you continue <Speech_Female> to listen to the replays <Speech_Female> and you were <Speech_Female> right there week. <Speech_Female> One in august when <Speech_Female> we when we <Speech_Female> launched again <Speech_Female> and <SpeakerChange> Saying <Speech_Female> hey great job <Speech_Female> so thank <Silence> you listeners. I <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> your sweet messages <Speech_Female> your encouragements. <Speech_Female> They really mean <Speech_Female> a lot. They <Speech_Female> really do. <Speech_Female> I pray <Speech_Female> today <SpeakerChange> that <Silence> that you <Silence> <Speech_Female> <Speech_Female> will come to a point <Speech_Female> where <Speech_Female> you can see <Speech_Music_Female> <SpeakerChange>