L._A, Asia, ISA discussed on Asian, Not Asian
A three bedroom apartment and i had family my in my better oh chinatown chinatown chinatown and then like the next building was like a nice building probably don't talk to the fish market at school. No it was like it was great. It was good. It was wonderful well because it was like exactly where i was at in my life so much better. There's no i fully fuck across the well with no fucking money to pursue xuemei dream and this is what i get the mice were also acting class south law and order while i was living there and i was so happy with my first was t._v. Credit and i really wanted to tell somebody but i couldn't tell anyone because no game and nobody wants to get that apartment. I called my mom who speaks chinese. <hes> eh asian singapore chinese network didn't believe asian. That's a whole communities. I've had so many people tell me to my face and i'm not asian yeah 'cause they are full asia. Yeah yeah yes. I didn't believe it until my mom spoke to them and explain the situation mommy's boy i love that i'm sorry mom him did so much for me. Gentlemen <unk> just to give me a chance just to give me a chance in life like it's almost like i like everything to do. You know what i mean realized. This is like the people who've done the most for me and my life have all been women of kayla like even personally professionally. Yeah sure you know what i mean like. It's it's it's it's wild wild and so it was like i like it's completely kind of like going to say informs <hes> my view of things especially politically and socially and so and so forth but fucking motza what about way so you did law then you said you were in modern family. Uh things that were fairly small then you got insecure. I just want to ask you this because like mike always talk about this in comedy that moment you gotta be ready ready for the moment. Did you feel like this is a big step right from having one line amman and family so did you did you feel ready what some of the things that are going through their mind. When you looked at man oh man impostor syndrome which i've carried with me for the past eighteen months ago yeah man. I had a nervous breakdown outta panic attack while i would you know while i was shooting really how i'm gonna tell you which episode my longest running friendship since birth he he died while <hes> we were shooting <hes> and that kind of just a little bit because you know i'm on l._a. New york is different. I've been here about five six years. I have a community here. <hes> you know my girlfriend seat. I feel you know i feel comfortable. You know feel at home here l._a. I don't <hes> and so like i was in l._a. I was my first big gig. <hes> i'm going up against you. You know these like yeah kind of like superstars on is like totally gone. Isa is yeah the total icon package. You know what i mean. Is that like i'm in the middle lavar like newness and then you know one of my life kind of like pillars of identity felt like it was taken from me and i and i wasn't there <hes> and so like i had had all these going around and i already have like i'm bipolar <hes> with anxiousness and so like all of it coming together was just like a lot yeah and then i kinda just had to like pretend i wasn't there <hes> so you know i smoked a little weed. Go got it out of my system and then we'd really doesn't help because it's a psychotic really anyway that was that was later down the track <hes> but yeah it just takes <hes>. It's it's taken a lot. Actually you know and that's why that's why i said what i said the other day <hes> during the panel about like you know my self perception of you know being being found attractive man. You guys ever get like your heart for an asian like. I've i've had that work..