Listen: Depression, Dr Paul Pori, John Smith discussed on Mental Illness Happy Hour
"Welcome to episode for twenty with my guest, Dr Paul Pori. He's a psychiatrist. Get into some great stuff in this interview today, I'm really happy to share it with you guys. And I didn't realize that I had so much anxiety about my health and specially my long term, health and regards to my meds and blood pressure and stuff like that. Until I started talking damn. So there's a couple of places in it where it becomes like a free therapy session for me with a with the psychiatrist. But yeah, we've had some interesting and the surveys post interview, we've got some interesting babysitter surveys. And yeah, I'm excited to share. This this episode with you guys. Yesterday. I had a. Depression that I hadn't felt and longtime, and I think it was sugar related, but I was so exhausted. And I got into that thing where then I was starting to. I don't know. Shame myself would be too strong of a word, but just feel hopeless about my productivity, and I decided to not have any sugar last night. And I'm feeling markedly better today, something I've been really getting the I heard somebody say one time about depression, one of the ways that they know it's depression is if they lose interest in things that normally bring them pleasure, like, their hobbies, etc. And that was kind of the case for me yesterday. But today, I'm kind of back lately, I've been obsessed with music theory in particular, the circle of fifths I've been playing a lot of guitar and recording stuff, and I'm always fascinated by why one chord south. Sounds good with another cord, and maybe I'll listen to a song that I really like there will be a particular moment in a song where the emotion is just so great Nick just could be like one note that the base is is playing and I want to try to unlock what those things are. And I know little bit about it. But the the circle of fifths is it's it's almost. It it. It feels like what pies is mathematics, and it's just kinda hard to wrap my head around. How it all inter relates with major keys in minor keys and how they relate to each other and just super excited. So I guess that means that I'm I'm coming out of that that brief brief depression. I just wanted to read a couple of open. We're also back doing some struggling sentenced surveys that took a little break from those for a while. And we've got some some good ones, including this one. This one is filled out by a guy who's calling himself John Smith, and he is gay and his biggest struggle is anxiety. And he writes, it feels like the world is war and leaving your house is like entering a war zone. Which is not surprising because as you I read this. I who write down a police officer. I worked midnight shift, and it's made my anxiety so much worse. I feel like I can't get help. And that my fellow officers wouldn't understand. I'm also gay and in the law enforcement profession, it's a very conservative masculine environment. Sometimes it just feel like I'm going through the motions of life, but not actually in the driver's seat. I still struggle to make it out of the house. Sometimes I have to come up with a plan. But even then I procrastinate things like going to the supermarket. I wish I wouldn't carry the fear of everything constantly, and I feel so guilty that I'm afraid when I'm supposed to be courageous and brave that I'm that I'm afraid when I'm supposed to be courageous and brave. Always I saved a man's life. Once so I do feel good about my job and myself most of the time, it's just a pretty big struggle that hardly anyone I know see. Geez. It's like I have this mask on one of my friends from work killed themselves. Apparently it wasn't directly job related. But I know it was at least, partly I wish more people. Understood how hard the job can be working long hard hours. Not knowing what time you'll be home. Not knowing if you'll even make it home at all everyone thinks the police should have all the answers and solve all the problems little do. They know we have problems just the same.."