Beppo, Seattle, Oetzi discussed on Coffee With Chrachel
Our know exactly how many, but like I have the year I would say. Yeah. And so even in that short amount of time, which is short for being in therapy. I've learned a lot of things, and it's shed a lot of light on myself as person and my upbringing and a centrally kind of just wanted to talk about a lot of what I've learned because it seems to be that I am struggling heavily with something that a lot of other men in our society, not even just American society like society, like as a whole just ways we raise men, which is, you know, the lack of emotion and the lack of like emotional intelligence. That's, I would say, in the lack, it's not a focus. Yeah. And the lack of like communication skills and like talking about emotions and you know, deeper things and being raised, kind of just be fixers of phrase, my therapists, us all the time. You know. And so no wonder you're with me. Wow, I I took on a real big six or upper. Moving to Seattle was demo day. Was it not. Oh my God, where's the ship lab? Like every panic attack I have. Oh, my all right. Shit. Yeah. So basically things that I have learned and I'm kind of at that phase right now where I'm still doing a lot of like learning, and I'm at a point where I'm still not fully accepting everything that I am learning about myself. So it's it's a, it is a fucking I'll say this about it'd be like, is a blessing. Honestly, I am so thankful that I could fucking be there because I can tell that, honestly, I need it and that it's going to help me, but it's going to take a long time a very, very long time and it absolutely gets worse before it gets better. Yes, it and like you're saying like, oh, I've only been in for like a few months. So I personally think that like the first few months are like the hardest. The first few months are when your like putting pieces together and like looking at things from a different angle and really analyzing life and realizing, wow. How this shits fucked up Thurs stuff going on here, and you start feeling really bad about yourself in really bad about things feels at least this is what I experienced. I don't know if you can relate, but it was like felt really hopeless like, oh, wow, I'm overwhelmed, hunting, Pratt. I'm in face overwhelmed, like all of the shit that you're learning about what is wrong. They are like, oh, we'll I could never possibly get through all this. You know, almost like completely exhausted of everything before it starts to feel like Beppo like me. I started feeling really empowered and like we were just talking therapy like the other week or whatever. I was like bitching. I was like, I don't know why I do this to myself, but I plan like Oetzi launches, launched myself on society and I always played that stuff on like Fridays. And she's like, well, do think it's because like on Fridays, you're in a better mood because I make you feel supported and then you go and do stuff. And I'm like..