"My family. I'm the only one that doesn't have a super thick thicke Mexican accent. My oldest brother. He was born in Mexico and he's got like a stereotypical accent. This guy sounds like like Taco. You know what I mean. He's just like a SISTER YOU WANNA go get something to eat. I'm like well we could do that or would you like to see what's behind door number number three come on you know when you were watching. TV listening to music. And then when you go off to high school was there or a time when you started realizing that what you could share as performer made people laugh. I actually found out that I could entertain people with my mom. My mom was an undocumented Woman from Mexico who spent I would say about twenty years of her life trying to get her resident alien card and I always say the name of it. Because I want people to know what it's called the resident alien cart coming from a background like that. If you're not familiar with it you really don't understand wooded entails to be undocumented here my mom never got to see your family again and I would see my mom very sad at times and as as a kid. I never wanted her to be sad so I started making her laugh whenever I saw her face and it was this connection that I had but started with my mom that actually allowed me to always try to find the person but look the saddest or that had the roughest this time and try to entertain them. Because that was all I could afford to give which was myself in I think that's kind of how a still treat comedy. I WanNa ask you about your Shoukri Stella and how that came about and you share some of the stories stories about it in the book when you look back in writing a book about that experience do you remember it differently now that you have perspective now that I you look back on it I look at I look back on it in a different experience. Because it's been so many years that you also gather new information and time evolves and then you realize that what was has really never was the way that it was presented to you. I don't regret anything any feelings and thoughts any decisions. Nothing that I made but I do look back and realize that People that love the show. I think really loved the the story of the show having known what happened in having time passed I realized that When people ask me if I will ever ever bring the show back I always say It would be absolutely impossible because that would mean working with people that tried to ruin my dream from the get-go do you think the world has changed in any way. Do you think that there is a openness to understanding and representing different cultures different stories. It hasn't changed. Representations still sucks will always suck if we still have the same gatekeepers same same taste makers in powers position. All we get to do is find new ways of exploiting a culture. I'll tell the story cory. I did a panel at the Ford Foundation in Twenty fifteen where The show the show just been canceled and I was doing a panel about diversity of course and I was doing it with my friend Jeff Yang. WHO's a kid? Hudson is on fresh off the boat. And we're talking about our experiences you you know with the network Blah Blah Blah. And he goes I because his show is still on the air and he talks about how lovely everybody is and Blah Blah Blah. And then after he he was done I had the opposite experience to you and then I realized when he spoke that year ahead of casting for ABC and the head of comedy comedy development. We're both Asian women so they understood what the show was trying to do. It was personal. And that's what we need. We need the personal ties. There was no Latino in charge of anything when I had my show and when people talk about like you know oh but we have these opportunities and more diversity more representation again. It's what I call agenda Porn. It's these issues that we come up with that or now hot topic which we gather from the media so it's like what is the media showing Deportations immigration so. Those are the stories. We tend to see one of the reasons that I think I was. You know that people always saw me as difficult was because I asked why a lot you know and I always ask people. What do you mean first of all? What do you mean when you say racial? I learned that by aspirin. ASPIRATIONAL demint successful. They wanted to show stories of successful people. Well my whole thing is aspiration. Is You have to see the ascension of journey you have to see that that regular person thriving and trying to succeed because then you know you have hope. That's the aspiration. The aspiration is to see someone like you on ATV and know that if they made it the. There's a chance that you made it. So until we can get rid of the words multigenerational aspirational will never make any movement for talking talking with Chris. L. Alonzo about her book music. My years a mix tape memoir of growing up standing up. Yeah I'm forty years old. I just got health insurance like two years years ago. Man It is a game changer. Like people in my neighborhood worship now. We're like empty prescription bottles like bitch. Antibiotics EXP boom. Try that I feel rich. Go to Beverly Hills. I look for rich people. And we've asked right homey. We both ball in now. How veal rich people like to tell you? They're rich they're like we just got back from Peres. Like I just got back from lenscrafters I know I know we saw that Eiffel Tower. That stop sign right there. I know how to give it up. After the election. I stopped doing standup. I kind of quit because I felt really guilty trying to make money off of my community because I knew that the people that came and saw me they were gonNA need the money I felt guilty. I felt guilty trying to to make a living because the people that went to see me. That's support me. They're like my family. Like how I grew up and I just felt so selfish and I stopped doing stand up and I started going around and helping people and for the next couple of years I started going around and just visiting communities and really trying to help grassroots from anything that I could do and and I realized that stand up wasn't important. I love standup. I love stand up. I love it so much but when the two thousand sixteen election happened for me there was something bigger and now with my standup. I use it to talk about my experiences. I don't talk about the person person directly because you might not agree with my truth but you can't deny that it's my truth in your new show my affordable care. Act Act test. Thank you in your new show. My affordable care. Act in your book. You share stories about yourself and there's a way that audiences can understand on something about you that they didn't understand before. How do you hope people might understand themselves in a different way? I come from like a blue collar working class family. We we all have jobs. You know like the idea of stand up isn't a luxurious job. The idea that you can get paid to think and write is very excessive. You know I come from a family where everybody works hard and by forty your back hurts your knees are are done you know and In that kind of community for me We were never taught that we mattered because the family so busy trying to get by but we never tell each other that we matter. So it's this thing where I have no idea what it was that made me not quit and honestly I always say that I think it's the poverty where it made me feel like. I have nothing to lose. That kept me going Wean and as I kept going I started learning that A lot of stuff that we don't talk about that so on the surface and so basic but people people just want to know that someone out there that maybe they see on. TV occasionally is just like them. Regardless of skin in culture. I used to do college college. Gigs people used to always be surprised. That has a Latina comic. I would I would fill up. These shows like Wisconsin Iowa you know like because everybody assumed that I would only play Latino markets but I was also raised in like a Catholic family working class family. And it's weird. When you have that experience you find a connection with people? I always say. If you're honest people will find you and You can't make them hurry. And this has been a lifelong dream for me so it takes a lifetime and I'm in no hurry because I've got nothing else to do. christel Alonzo is a writer and a comedian. Her New Book is music to my years. Mix tape memoir of growing up in standing up. It's out now still. Thanks so much for coming onto coming out and."