Listen: Bisciste, Napa Pathak discussed on Forever35
"Like I just, you know, I'm not. I'm not. In recovery or anything like that? It was just like once I was once I was kind of on the other side of it and became much more of a habit for me. It was like, wow, I can make up in the morning and really get stuff done, and I'm not gonna waste time on lake just hanging out at the bar because I mean this like the eighth time I've said this went, I was really in Bisciste. I really wanted certain things in my life. And some of that was you know directly because my feminism or because I was raised a Montessori nujis-, learn how to do by doing thing. And because of things I wanted to make different ways. I wanted to express myself and and not drinking or drugging was like a way to just it was basically a weight. I saw those. I came to see those things. It's like, oh, those impediments, and just to not do that to be really present for the good or the bad or the boring or whatever. Just to be here, be in my body to be present in my mind to be able to observe these things. And I think that people like this is very sharply observed, echoes like wasn't wasted. I remembered everything I would come home and take notes, and that's just that was just like my inclination. And so being even being in those spaces, so burn and just taking care of myself. And in that way, and granted I smoked on up since like forever. But you know, as a result, I just stay very well hydrated at chess, and so that's part of myself care. Love. High-grade fan of talking about how big is it? That's like this isn't a eighteen outs water bottle. It's my third one today. Jesus do plant in the bathroom. I do actually started the day with a glass of lemon water, so I'm probably like sixty. I for some reason. It become really obsessive with filling my body with water. You know what? It feels so good when remember to do it good, it does. I am. I'm like, super, you know this because I know this is safe space of forever. Thirty five. So I'm like deeply paramount apostle. And so I'm very, like I'm really into ice water right now staying very cool because I'm doing a lot of sweating sometimes. Can we talk about you have an ice roller Jessica? Just what we have to get. We'll get you one. Okay. Eleven ninety nine it. I was skeptical. I will admit. Did you get your? Yes, I got my get when I did. You get a fetal size too. Episode. Specific? I been. I've been rolling love that for convenience in my car. Right. You should specify ice rolling? Yes. Yes. But I think I'm going to self and I think probably a lot of our listeners are not exactly with what it means to be paramount apostle. Can you go into a little more detail? So maybe when the time, so permanent puzzle, if you're impairment oposite I've found in my limited reading on this and consultation with icy like a Napa Pathak doctor also MD finally, so basically runs from thirty eight. I was like, why am I gaining weight in my at like tummy area? Why am I feeling more like like the con- like a kind of. But like PMS. But I'm not having my parrot lake bleak like. PMS also was getting way worse like like, like, like, homicide, obey, JR. And also just why am I suddenly sweating through my clothes period? Yeah, just, oh, an in all of those things were like out of order. And I was, you know. Being a Virgo. I am very assessed with my own diagnosis of all my thanks and it kind of took me when I was like, oh, maybe something's going on. I finally get him with my. With my gynecologist on they, they did a hormone payments. She's like, well, I would say you're closer to menopausal then paramount apostle. You know, she told me, you know, you're, you're a that.."