Dr George Pratt, Army, Costa Rica discussed on Coast to Coast AM with George Noory
You getting help with anybody right now. I can't give me help. Learned medicine or something. And I think. Getting. Focusing. Bad bad shape. Sister passed away. Data forty back almost thirty years ago. Now, I will do you Geoffrey. I'm forty two forty two years old. Are you working? I'm disabled, but I don't I don't desire to be. But. Eighteen months in this as hard to get by on as I know, it's tough. Are you living with your mother or grammar? Look right now. If you could change something right now, what would that be my Leo? I'm here by his doctor and get my friends. Do you have anybody a near you could help with transportation because it sounds like you need some help right now. And and then also you want to get your medications straightened out because if you're taking a anti anxiety medication that those can also cause you to. This bad mixture, isn't it? Yeah. It's the he wants the right medications. But you want not only the medication you need some help and some therapy. Do you have anything available through social security where you are? So that you could talk to somebody face to face to help you to get through these things. I bet. Second at your doctor's office, or whatever. Uh-huh. Cut me off out them. Tell them cold Turkey. And I think is really messed me up to and I think the twenty day it's catching up to me to and just everything is crashing down. All at once. And. Do you have do you have friends or other relatives? So you can connect with any support base there. Jeff not much not really. Happen. You know? With some free books. Help you or anything like that. This high rate, but I I'd like to. Well, I'm gonna put you on hold, and we're gonna get your address, and they'll get it to me and worship you some books and stuff. Okay. And do you have access to a computer? Jeff. Oh, I got. Internet on the phone. Doc in they Email you too. Yes, they they can through your website. Alright, Jeff if you go to coast to coast, AM dot com. Just look for the section that has tonight's guests and click the name, Dr George Pratt. You'll get his website and send them an Email or two, but give Damian your e your your your shipping address. And I'll get you some books. I'll personally send them out to you. And I will and I will send you something to remember. You can get that free. Download which is a deep relax Asian and that actually helps but I want you do you have do you have a church or friends? With in some way. My favorite. I don't know about congressman. Visit my best buy repeats bridge in the world. And they can't them it too. John was going to charge there. And he laughed very was serving God Brighton. God and stuff. He jumped off his they river bridge. Gosh, I'm just. I gotta move that cloud away from your Jeffrey in there. To know. Are you receiving are you re saving any resources? And. In terms of money, you're or anything like that. Or any kind of medical care? Disability the them on. Okay. Cover can you go into a medical with that? Or is that is that the whole thing I got medical with that? But. All right. Well, let's get his address. I'll get us address dock. And let's hope he sends you an Email, and you can respond a little bit more respond, and I'll send you something to. Okay, great. Let's go next to. Someone named anonymous. They're calling themselves anonymous in Arizona. Hello there. Anonymous. Hello. Can you hear me? Yes. I sure can. Okay. First of all, I want to say that I feel like I'm treading on sacred ground on my behalf and on behalf of everybody who. Has committed or had the intent to commit suicide. My suicide attempt was last year. Oh, geez. Okay. I was a medical student attending medical school. I was on an army scholarship. My intent was to become a psychiatrist in the army or family practice, doc in the army. I had an autoimmune disease diagnosed in two thousand eleven my first year medical school. And of course, the medical school was more than willing to take the army's money and just keep me going when it comes to third year, and they got into my clinicals, and I was on immune suppressing drugs ended up getting a lot of people villain mrS, without my pain, ramped up and the pain ended up getting worse. It was. Like no since auto immune inflammatory arthritis. They weren't chauffeur. Sure is closing spondylitis or something else. Anyhow. As time went by. You know, I was married. I am married. I have a daughter. My wife says let's actually I sent her. She had to have open heart surgery. We didn't have enough money to get it done here in the state. So I sent her back to Costa Rica where she was from because she had a transparent she took my daughter with and because of my difficulties with my illness. She stayed in Costa Rica family, talked her into basically abducting my daughter and not coming back. Does she keep in touch with you at all? Yes. But it was it got to be so bad. And and when my daughter who's only two and a half years old wooden talk. My wife would just point the phone at the floor at the ceiling and not say anything, and it got to be so unbearable that it was making me more suicidal. So I couldn't call anymore. So the way I keep in touch with my daughters. I just write letters, and she'll know the truth when when I'm older if I make it that far, and but I wanna say a couple of things number one. The first important thing is that George Knapp did a show on Sunday. Not this past Sunday. But the Sunday before that on the opioid crisis in that a lot of the numbers that are used to say that, you know, people who are prescribed opiates are the ones who are committing suicide. That's not true. Most of those numbers are padded by people who are using street drugs. I will let you guys both know I've ever used a street drug. Okay. I've never drunk alcohol. I've never smoked marijuana or taking any marijuana. I've never smoked a cigarette. I'm an active member of the church of Jesus Christ latter-day saints yet with the support. That's there. I have one hundred thousand dollars of debt that I can't wrap my head around how I'm going to get to paying that back. I don't work right now because I'm not dependable. I I wake up one morning and I'm assigned the next morning. I'm sick to my stomach, and I have these cold sweats in this student loan debt, you're talking about absolutely which discharge in bankruptcy. Not right. George. When I decided to commit suicide. It was after I tried to go. Turned down for another job to teach seminary students students like me, but I was turned down for the job. I when I was up when I found out I didn't get that job. I was hiking out of the Grand Canyon. I couldn't even hike because my body hurt so bad, and I said, well, if I can't hike and do something I love, I can't work. If I can't provide for my wife and my daughter, and they don't stand by. I don't have anything to live for. And I wasn't doing it. For me because I was him. Sorry for myself. I was a burden to everybody around me. My father was going nuts. You couldn't he he didn't want me at his house. He he couldn't understand how a guy who was a seventeen time marathoner ended up getting sick. He he thought maybe I was confabulation. And I just felt that just so alone, and such a burden to others that I said, I cannot live my life as a burden to others. When I whole purpose was to to help others to be that psychiatrists or people in the army to get family practice, doctor for people to help others, and I couldn't wrap my head around being a burden and I didn't want to be that. I couldn't I couldn't do that burden on my wife. And so I sent down every penny that I had to Costa Rica. I tried to commit suicide. I was unsuccessful. I won't tell you how I did it. Because again, I feel like it's sacred. And it's my experience, it's not anybody else's. But. But it was not out of selfishness. It was I did everything I could to try to give every penny. I had my wife my daughter and say, you know, what I just can't Burt and other people can't do this. Aren't you? Glad though that you did not succeed in doing that. I don't know. Am I I'm not depressing? I want and I'll tell you another thing. I am not depressed. Because when I feel good physically I go out and jog and try to do the things that I love to do what what kind of a very very very logical decision. And I don't want to be putting a box. I love this guys. Depressing. Doesn't wait. I know what depression is. They know what it is. I know again from being a third year medical student. I know clinical medicine rather. Well. Am I glad George? No. I wouldn't make me glad not be a burden to be who. I was. And to be able to go out and help you on serve somebody. You'll get there again. Yeah. We don't give up. Well, you are a very era very bright guy. He were trying to do the right thing. And you're trying to help your wife, and you have integrity, and you made her a priority, and they didn't and she didn't respond with that same degree of integrity that you have you want to help people. There's a path for you. You're a smart guy. And and you have a spiritual perspective. There are people that will help you. How's your health? Now your physical health. You know, a couple of months ago, I had a gun to my chest because I was in so much, physical pain and the pain management. Doctor says we don't have cancer. No couldn't say that. I didn't have large so cue me because I had some Conal T cells. But they couldn't prove it from the pet scan. They said you don't have to be Kimia..